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Hair

They say that hair holds stories, that the style is what makes a man.

They say long locks make you a pansy and a real man should have it short lest they be mistaken for a girl.

Where I grew up, every man buzzed their hair down.

It was a shame for it to be long and shaggy, and mothers would fuss over you, insisting upon a haircut.

For girls, it was fine.

They could have hair as long as they wanted or as short as they needed, so long as it wasnt buzzed as short as a man’s.

Being anything else just wasn’t a thing round these parts where churches chimed every sunday, pastors clammoring around resturants and filling their quotas in a single lunch.

So I buzzed mine.

I tried as hard as I could to seem as manly as possible

To appear as bull of a brute as any cowboy should.

I wore all the boy things and had all the short boy hair.

My scalp was sensitive anyways, so I thought it didn’t bother me.

It was better shorter.

Wasnt it?

I still gazed and clammored about the anime boys I saw on screen or in Otome games though.

I gushed about how pretty they were with hair down their backs like a silken curtain, or whipping wild through the air like the mane of a lion.

Legolas was never deemed as not manly enough

Beither was Zen or inuyasha or the undertaker.

A crush, I supposed.

Because of course thats all it was.

I was a gay little boy with gay little crushes and my type was men with long, Beautiful hair.

Right?

My hair was a dull, discolored brown from the shimmering blonde it used to be, the blonde I remember from kindergarten.

I tried to return to that blonde with bleach.

My school didnt allow unnatural colors, so anything was better than that matted, oily brown.

Shaved short and as platinum as a ken doll, I should have been as man as ever.

4 years, I stayed like that, and while the short hair was easy to take care of, I felt as hideous as a pile of sludge.

It didnt matter if I was loved for my looks, I supposed.

Wouldn’t that be too vain of me?

Boys weren’t supposed to care about what they looked like, they werent supposed to coo and admire Beautiful hair or seethe in jealousy that their sister looked so much better and has such long, goregous hair.

It wasn’t until after high school that I began to explore.

Covid let me grow my hair out more, though I still trimmed the sides.

I let my bangs grow long and shaggy over my face, like a veil to hide me from the world.

Eventually I dyed it again, this time going with that green I had always wanted to try, the one I had seen on my favorite youtuber growing up, fluffy and emerald.

Still, for years more, I kept it short. Only allowing that fringe to hover over me as some sort of style.

Recently though, I’ve realized I want that hair that those anime men had.

I want that soft curtain rolling down my back like waves of an ebony river, flecks of mossy green dotting it like a miasma of toxin flowing through the oily black stream.

I want the hair like the ring girl

The people around me are foolish and prudent to think the length of ones hair makes you more or less of a man.

I know that now, and I’m glad I do.

I want to stop pretending not to like things

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Do y'all want to see the 65 quotes I compiled for, like, six hours after I posted the WN Quotes Submissions?

[ ] Yes

[ ] Of course

[ ] Absolutely

[ ] PLEASE

A lot of these will have to be culled and/or reorganized, but here's the pickings so far:

Romance

"When he thought of Cheng Qian, he suddenly felt like there was nothing else that he desired in this life."

Ch.56 about Yan Zhengming from Liu Yao

Listen, I absolutely love this quote because Yan Zhengming is the BIGGEST materialist.

“You are just like my reverse scale. You live, I live. You are my life. Therefore, no matter how difficult things are in the future, or how arduous life becomes, I want you to live.”

Jing Lin to Cang Ji, Nan Chan, Ch.93

“I have never known fear… But I don’t want you to die.”

Jing Lin to Cang Ji, Nan Chan, Ch.93

“To me, the one basking in infinite glory is you; the one fallen from grace is also you. What matters is you, and not the state of you.”

Hua Cheng to Xie Lian, TGCF

"It's alright, even if you aren't a son of nobility anymore, you are still you, and in your heart there's a spark, sooner or later it will shine brilliantly. I can see it, and in the future, someone else will also see it."

Gu Mang to Mo Xi, Yuwu/Remnants of Filth, Ch.5

"What was he going to do in the future? He also did not know that he felt like he was a moth and NanGong Si the flame. He always wanted to follow the light, even if it would only cause him to break apart."

Ch.154, pg.71, Ye Wangxi

“I know you can’t fully believe in what I said. It doesn’t matter. I will be by your side for a long time, anyways, I’m yours.”

Xiao Yu’an, How to Survive as a Villain, Ch.28

"Yin Hanjiang, if this Venerable can save you once, he can save you twice. If this Venerable doesn't allow you to die, then you can't die."

Wenren È, Devil Venerable Also Wants to Know, Ch.15

"They referred to each other as father and son, but their fate was like that of a broken lamp, burned away immediately in the blink of an eye, only he was still remaining immersed in this delusional dream."

Sha Po Lang, Ch.25

"Thank you, Reinhardt…I wanted to hear that you'd cause trouble for me."

Charlotte, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, ch.266

"I need you, not just for duties like a servant, but for you to be present where my eyes can see. I wish you were always there."

Reinhardt POV about Charlotte, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, ch.528

"How many times have I saved your life by now? If I have to kill you later, I'll bite my tongue and die first."

Reinhardt to Charlotte, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, ch.630

"I thought I could be with you forever, but I never expected it to come to this. I do not regret it. It is all my own will. If I want someone to blame, I can only blame fate. If there is a chance to do it all again, I would trample this destiny fiercely under my feet!"

Everyday I Get Up to See the Villain Stealing the Show, Ch.75

"I hope that you will hate me all your life."

Yan Xiaohan, Golden Terrace, ch.23

"I wish that, after my death, I’ll also have a picture left in Qilin Hall. When that time comes, you’ll carry it up to the Golden Stage yourself......The most high and most bright are the sun and moon, and the most close yet most distant are a husband and wife. If you promise me this, you will be my only next of kin from now on."

Fu Shen to Yan Xiaohan, Golden Terrace, Ch.26

Non-Romance

"He could have dug into his living, burning chest, let him look at his heart which was nearly dying from the agony it felt, and they would have only jeered at his passion, suspected his kindness, scorned his overconfidence, and made fun of his trembling sincerity."

Yuwu/Remnants of Filth, Ch.17 in regards to Gu Mang

"People always liked to find someone who seemed pretty good, place them in the depths of their hearts, then project their own beautiful fantasies onto that person, turning them into the source of light in their life."

Yuwu/Remnants of Filth, Ch.5

"Man is no more than lust given flesh and blood. Some people are held back from progressing by the vices, and others pursue a grand and pristine reputation. However, if carnal desire is lust, isn’t the desire for a pristine reputation also considered lust?"

Yuwu/Remnants of Filth, Ch.28

"If you don't know how to save others, how will you save yourself?"

Chu Wanning, The Husky and His White Cat Shizun, Ch.103

"Because like people, an ox has gotta eat. For the sake of eating, a lot of work has to be done. If one day you can't work anymore, then no one cares if you're alive or dead."

Ox Eats Grass, The Husky and His White Cat Shizun, Ch.65

"Doubt is the privilege of those who have a way out."

Rong Jiu, The Husky and His White Cat Shizun, Ch.112

“If I can’t change the sun, then I’ll at least decide what kind of shadow I’ll be.”

Elizabeth, Villain Hides His True Colors, Ch.16

"If one's heart is small, all their sufferings even as large as a house, can only be crammed into that small corner. But if one's heart were as vast as heaven and earth, then even if their troubles were as large as a mountain, they would become nothing more than a droplet of water in the endless sea."

Liao Ran, Sha Po Lang, Ch.26

"He believed that when he was alone, he could do anything all by himself. For a lone person, when he reaches the peak of his achievement, he's still alone; when he falls to the depths of the abyss, too, he's still alone. Even if his head were to fall from his shoulders, wouldn't that just be a scar on his body? What was there to fear?"

Liu Yao: the Revitalization of Fuyao Sect, Ch. 36

"To be famous in this world is to fool everyone under the heavens."

Island Lord Gu Yanxue, Liu Yao: The Revitalization of Fuyao Sect, Ch.44

“An Zhe skipped over the laws section. He knew that he was a law-abiding mushroom, and a law-abiding mushroom would not violate the laws of any species.”

Little Mushroom, Ch.5

What the fuck does this mean An Zhe Sksjsj

“Perhaps… once I’m dead and you’ve completely eaten my body… you’ll obtain a lot more things…Then it seems that I will have done something meaningful as well, although I don’t know if it will be good or bad for you.”

An Ze, Little Mushroom, ch.1

"They are more interested in being nice to Moondae than in Moondae himself…" -

Debut or Die, Ch.138

“-I only believe in people with walls. In order to understand someone, I think I should face that wall first.”

Han Donghoon, ORV, Ch.60

“Remember: when humans ascend, they are still human; when they fall, they are still human.”

TGCF

“Eleris had traded the entire world and her own life for me. Because she loved me that much. I couldn't even begin to fathom how much Eleris cherished me.”

The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, Ch.634

"Isn't it blasphemy to believe that the gods always pursue goodness? No, to believe that the gods always make choices for the sake of humanity?" "Did the gods ever say that the good they pursue is the same as the good for humans?”

Rowan, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, Ch.577

“Adding the possibility of hope… can't be a bad thing…”

Detto, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, Ch.516

"The first time I calculated, I destroyed a child's life. The second time, I destroyed my only close friend. The third time, I destroyed the world."

the bald monk, It's Not Easy Being a Master, Ch.57

"If the heavens really loved him, they would’ve slapped Zich across the face and told him to change his ways."

The Regressed Demon Lord is Kind, Ch.1

"She didn’t have the courage to leave someone to die just to save herself."

The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, Ch.167 about Ellen

“Olivia Lanze didn't know how to live if it wasn't for others.”

The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, Ch.244

“I worked hard. Whatever it was, I put in effort. If I worked hard, I could someday stand shoulder to shoulder with my classmates who each have outstanding talents, even if I was behind for now. I believed that….I was living in defeatism without even realizing it.”

Ludwig to Gladen Amorelle, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, Ch.295

"An action borne from simple fear, beyond good and evil…As a mother….I want to protect my remaining child."

Luna Artorius, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, Ch.423

"Of course, I know that no matter what, the mountain of sins I have accumulated cannot be cleared away... But if it's possible, if I can contribute even a little to prevent that future tragedy. Maybe I can alleviate, even just a tiny bit, the weight of the slaughter and sins I've accumulated... I dared to think that way…"

Eleris, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, Ch.427

"If I can't find meaning in death, I will find it in life."

The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, Ch.450

"It is right not to engage in reckless acts…However, standing atop the mountain built upon my recklessness, I cannot help but think that refraining from something due to its recklessness is merely an excuse for complacency."

The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, Ch.466

"'A truth that divides everyone only leads to everyone's downfall...If that's the truth, it's better not to know.' If this problem could be overcome with just my own injustice, I'd accept the injustice."

Reinhardt to Kono Lint, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, ch.541

"I feel like the you from the temple days is the real you....This Reinhardt who became the Demon King... somehow feels fake...There are no secrets now, but you, who have lost all secrets, feel even more like a fake."

Olivia to Reinhardt, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, ch.558

"It's a sad time…But even in such times…Let's try our best to live."

Louise von Schwarz to Ludwig, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, ch.582

“Just as I can't buy my happiness with someone else's misfortune…I can't buy someone else’s happiness with my misfortune, can I?”

The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy, ch.667

"If it was impossible to be loved by everyone, then it must also be impossible to be hated by everyone."

Scarlett's realization about Reinhardt in ch.644, The Demon Prince Goes to the Academy

“Although it was only for a short time I had lived in the sky. I was one with the wind. I played together with the sunlight filtered through the trees…Even though only a fragment of the wide world, I was able to travel.”

Even a Cicada Becomes a Dragon If Reborn, Ch.1

"Master Chen always says that the body is like a canvas. It can't be helped that it shows wear and tear over the years. Rather than trying to keep on being an unpainted canvas, one should embrace the scars. Behind every scar is a memory, so accept every mark on your body as an untold story. Just like an image being painted with thousand strokes, become an artwork where every inch has its own meaning. Even if it feels like a stupid reason, or if it was an accident, or if it's painful, don't pain a part of your life white. One day, you will be able to look at the scars and smile, because they are proof of your very own story."

The Grandmaster's Weird Disciple, Ch.15

[You are my disciple. I’ll believe you even if you look at the stones and say to me it’s sand.]

Russell to Lucion, Count's Youngest Son is a Warlock, Ch.4

"Kindness will always be straightforward. It is only malice that needs to be covered up with evasive pretense, just like the words that mountain bandit said today."

Li Xian, FGEP, Ch. 44

"I once told you that, between our identities, one is in the sky above and one on the ground below - the difference between clouds and mud....Within that pile of sludge is also grades and ranks. Though I am deeply entrenched, I also want to eke out an existence in it."

Yan Xiaohan to Fu Shen, Golden Terrace

“Kim Namwoon…You are right. I am the same type of human as you.”

Kim Dokja to Kim Namwoon, Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint, ch.6 pg.39

"If hyung was such a person, you wouldn't have saved me on the subway. I believe in you.”

Lee Gilyoung to Kim Dokja, Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint, ch.21 pg.141

"It is comfortable to live alone, eat alone and survive alone. But…I know one novel that developed in such a way and was ruined."

Kim Dokja to Lee Gilyoung, Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint, ch.31 pg.216

"Tell me, you fool. If I continue to regress, will I ever get to meet you again?”

Yoo Joonghyuk, Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint, Ch.525

"I, someone of no redeeming quality, could be loved by the others."

ORV, Ch.513

She wanted to tell him. Tell him that there was a world that didn't need his sacrifice to be saved. She thought that, if it was her, she should be able to do it. Because she was most proficient at lying than anyone alive, after all.

ORV, Ch.539

「There are three ways to survive in a ruined world. I have forgotten some of them now. However, one thing is certain: you who are currently reading these words will survive. –Three Ways to Survive in a Ruined World [Complete]」

ORV, Ch.1

Even if we can't reach each other, even if we can't meet each other, we should continue to pound away on each other's walls. Even if that wall would never open up, keep writing something on that wall, anyway.

ORV, Ch.538

“Cher is a very beautiful person, but she doesn’t hate me. She’s different from those people…She said that I have beautiful eyes, and she played the piano for me. She looked so good when she smiled…I think I can also like the world a little more for her.”

Xiao Ai, ch.25, NFM

"Survive and take responsibility! Atone for the rest of your life or live a garbage life. Just somehow survive!”

Kim Dokja to Lee Jihye, ORV, Ch.40

"I wish to see the novel's epilogue.”

Kim Dokja, ORV, Ch.42

"I would find him next to me sometimes, then gone, and then back at my side again. Maybe it was because of this, but it felt like Koo-Jun Hyuk was always next to me and far away from me at the same time."

The Cult Leader in the Clergy Academy, ch.9

"Sun-Woo. No matter what happens in the future, don’t even think about revenge."

Do Sun-woo's father a week before his death, The Cult Leader in the Clergy Academy, ch.17

Stats

DPA - 18 (3 romance, 15 non-romance)

ORV - 11 (all non-romance)

4 each (1 romance, 3 NR) - Yuwu & 2ha

3 quotes (2 R, 1 NR) - Golden Terrace

3 quotes (1 R, 2 NR) - Liu Yao

2 R - Nan Chan

2 each (1 R, 1 NR) - SPL, TGCF

2 NR - Little Mushroom, Cult Leader

1 Romance - How to Survive as a Villain, DVAWTK, Every Day I Get Up to See the Villain Stealing the Show

1 NR each - It's Not Easy Being a Master, The Regressed Demon Lord is Kind, Even a Cicade, Grandmaster's Weird Disciple, The Count's Youngest Son is a Warlock, FGEP, NFM, Villain Hides His True Colors, Debut or Die

#not a poll #webnovel quotes tournament #submitting propaganda for these quotes will make sure they don't get cut btw #or just submitting them again but if you want to offer some propaganda.... 👀#my posts #web speaks #but yeah. the wn quotes tourney's probably going to be the biggest one yet lol #except maybe the 5 Love Language of Danmei length-wise? but most Contestants lol #edit: also the romance/non romance thing was just for my brain. idk if they'll be their own brackets or anything

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