#feeling by proxy

[schattenhonig]

Does anyone else need specific pieces of art (paintings, songs, books, films, series, fanfics) to process certain feelings because they're a huge black box and you can only find out what you're feeling if you find the thing you vibe most with and hope that explains it?

#weird questions #feeling by proxy #kinda

[samscompliment]

unfortunately the thing about being 23 is you have to accept that you can’t keep putting on the identity of whatever tv character you’re obsessed with at that moment and instead you have to create someone Real. except the self is an illusion so really being 23 is about becoming comfortable with not having a concrete identity at all which is Lame

#i’m not 23 yet but i feel 23. help girl i spent my development years using tv characters as a proxy and now i get confused without them!

[lesbaurinkos]

like there's real magic within his mind to write spike/oz. crackship king i literally feel faint

#oz as his self insert proxy cause HE wanted spike.... guys i feel actually faint im like shaking laughing #HIS MIND. HIS POWERFUL AND BEAUTIFUL MIND

[cyberghouleo]

Any Tim content pls pls 🙏🙏

Maybe a sweet innocent reader 🫶🫶🫶

Would make jokes and innuendos that you don’t understand, he likes watching you stare back at him puzzled as you try to put it together.

SUPER protective over you. He knows others will see your kindness as a weakness and knows he has to be on guard when the two of you are around the others, proving that you are off limits. 

Will wrap an arm around your shoulder and bring you close to him while around others. Also will occasionally press a quick kiss into your hair when others aren’t looking, that’s as much pda as he’s willing to do. 

If you try to hold hands together around others, at first he moves his hand away. He thinks it’s too vulnerable and the other guys won’t take him as seriously as a leader. But if you are persistent with it, he will slowly start allowing it to happen and won’t inch away, wrapping his hand around yours. Then it turns into his hand slowly inching over to yours first, trying to subtly hold hands under a table. 

While your kindness is a big contrast from his brashness, he actually likes how kind you are. It reminds him of a part of his old self, the type of person he was before the Operator got involved with his life.

Deep down he wishes he could protect you from the life and job he has, but he knows he can’t. He’s too far under the Operator’s control to do so, and he finds himself resenting it when he watches you sleep peacefully next to him. You make him realize just how fragile normal life is, and he wishes he could have met you under different circumstances, before he lost his former life. 

NSFW

To him, it’s a turn on how innocent you are. He’s into corruption so it’s his goal to turn you from innocent into his personal whore. Also gives him an advantage in power over you, something he won’t complain about. At first you are shy, covering yourself up with your hands and hiding your face while he’s deep inside you. But slowly you start opening up to him, to the point you are laying down and spreading your legs wide open for him. He’s going to make you a complete slut for him sooner or later. 

He loves making you tell him what you want while he’s fucking you, stopping his thrusts until you tell him how badly you want him to fuck you. He’s obsessed with how sweet and innocent you are to everyone else and how pathetic you get as you beg him to fuck you senselessly. 

“Tell me exactly what you want” He will say as he bottoms out inside you, completely stopping his thrusting.

“I want you to fuck me,” you say sheepishly, hiding your face behind your hands.

He grabs your wrist, pinning them down to the bed before speaking. “Say it the way I taught you, baby”

If you're inexperienced it makes him fall ten times harder, he loves the idea of being the only one to have you and his dick being the only one you know. He will make you grind down onto his fingers, enjoying how embarrassed you are and how clumsy your movements are. He finds it hot to be able to teach you exactly how to touch yourself and watching you try to stuff all of him into your mouth. 

Uses your innocence and sweetness against you while degrading you, using fake pity against you whenever you act embarrassed. “Aw, can the poor baby not take it? Don’t tell me you’re fucked out already, hmm?”

#tim wright x reader #masky x reader #marble hornets #creepypasta x reader #masky marble hornets #tim marble hornets #tim masky #creepypasta #x reader #innocent reader #request #all i do is write abt corruption it feels like LOL sry not sry #smut #currently got some cod brainrot so im trying to focus on writing the proxies lol #also didnt proof read this loll fuck it we ball

[s-grunge]

#my fanart #td cody #td sierra #total drama #happy birthday cody #you probably didn't expect to see total drama art from this blog #tis my current hyperfixation #I've seen a lot of cody hate recently #people can say how they feel about any character #but having my fave constantly hounded on no matter where I look isn't very fun for me #and I know Sierra definitely wouldn't be happy about that either :P #so in this case she's almost my proxy... hope I don't have to say that ever again

[biennatodd]

i cant stop thinking about what if pregnancy was really hard for YZY.

what if her labor was so difficult that her doctors encouraged her to not even try again (the impossible be damned) despite having a daughter for a firstborn.

what if she pushed (and JFM was amenable, as he often was then) for her daughter to be made heir, only for JYL to struggle with foundation building so much that they worried she'd never reach core formation.

unsuitable.

it goes from improbable to nigh impossible for yanli to be sect leader.

so YZY decides to try again, its been years since the first time. surely she's recovered more than enough. if she can not make her body do even this then. then.

she will do this.

imagine her suffering another dangerous child birth, only to have another daughter.

and never once does her love for her children waver but she could cry, honestly cry because why could nothing ever be easy for her.

and then she has a thought.

it would be so easy. she could force the midwives to take an oath of secrecy. she would have to be more hands on in the raising of her child than most others in her position, but it wouldn't hurt to be seen as doting...

no one would ever know.

That year, the jianghu celebrated the birth of Jiang Fengmian's son and heir, Jiang Cheng.

#mdzs #yu ziyuan #jiang family #i was just thinking what if YZY's insistence JFM recognize JC as son and heir was caused by something.. else #what if YZY (and jc by proxy) had a secret #and yes that secret is #trans jiang cheng #its a bit different bc jc would not have any choice re: gender presentation or identity but i feel like that provides good character drama #jiang cheng in for the shock of his life when he finally learns other boys are built different

[a-memory-a-distant-echo]

hey not to be deeply weird about it but just to check, has everyone else already seen this interview with xiao shunyao in which he (correctly) argues that actually di feisheng is a deeply loyal and affectionate character, and also that li xiangyi gives di feisheng a reason to live?

i'm so fucking normal about it

#he also touches on a thing that i'm obsessed with #which is media as a proxy for emotional catharsis that we can't experience in real life #ANYHOW feeling so incredibly normal thanks for asking #mysterious lotus casebook #di feisheng #xiao shunyao #Youtube

[raveartts]

babygirl

#raveartts #a date with death #i love his outfit but it is also so stupid like what is going on with it #ajshdgfhjskaskjdhgfhjdkss he is so cringe oh my god #edgelord puppyboy #...i am so glad he has an actual name #because i fucking KNOW someone named Grim and it was starting to feel weird #(has never even met that person but hsgdjkdshdhj i know him by proxy okay)

[iknaenmal]

guys i drew gojo satoru are you proud of me

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #gojo satoru #my art #ikna draws #the colors might look a bit off sorry :( drew this while on . whatever the thing that makes your screen more orange is called #also put wayy more effort on this than i should have SKDJDKD #dedicated to my two friends who love jjk :) i will watch it too eventually i promise im just slow #i lovr him really . hes my blorbo by proxy or whatever you call that #bought a nendoroid of him for my friend and i kept it in my room until i could give it to her and well. lesr just say i couldnt sleep bc i #could feel him watching me. scary. anyway hes so cutesies . what a guy

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

shoutout to Frank, he's gonna fall for / has fallen for the most suspicious puppet in the neighborhood

#godspeed you funky homosexual your love interest is utterly fucked #and by proxy so are you! probably #frank: im in love with eddie! surely this wont affect me in any negative way! #meanwhile eddie is in the corner with a clock-themed leitmotif playing in the background #man im RABID im going RABID #i feel like the 'honey. youve got a big storm coming *snap*' meme #i mean its directed at Everyone but oh man oh man. franklydear is gonna be so much more insane than i suspected huh #like yeah obviously it was gonna go hard #but mmmmm man man man. eddie eddie eddie. its getting real and i suspect none of us will survive #no we will! we'll come out of it haunted and bloodsplattered and so so happy about it #good luck with your romance frank you're gonna need it #absolutely unprompted #welcome home #franklydear #i love how two days ago i was on the fence about eddie being That Sus #i mean obviously he had something going on #but now? choo choo the Something Extremely Fucked Is Going On With The Mailman train has left the station! #and is barreling towards a wall at mach 12 #if i were the main detective in a crime movie #id be restringing my entire corkboard and putting eddie and sally at the center. mainly eddie tbh #move over wally there's a new Something Is Seriously Wrong With You guy in town #rn by comparison wally is so so Unsuspicious #thumbs up and grinning! and shaking slightly in fear! #frank bby i wish you luck in these trying - hopefully very fruity - times

[isogenderskitty]

i think it's interesting how steph is like... the nerds see her as part of the popular group, and sure we see her talking to the cheerleaders a little, but other than that she doesn't really seem to be one of them in the truest sense? i could fully believe that she feels like the tiniest bit of an outcast there, like she's just cool enough for max to give her a pass but she doesn't really click with them that well. she feels to me like the bridge between the popular ones and the nerds, which is appropriate i suppose for her place in the story.

#idk i just keep turning this feeling around in my brain #that she doesn't Quite feel like she's actually proper friends with that lot #in my mind steph is pretty lonely before she starts talking to pete and by proxy the other nerds #like... i feel like the cheerleaders are friendly with her but they don't really Get each other #or enjoy each other's company That much #maybe even on their side there's some slight intimidation factor of her being the mayor's daughter and it's still a bit isolating #poor girl :( #but it's ok now she has real friends :] #... well. at least one. i honestly can't tell if pete and steph would even hang out with grace after everything #even ignoring The Ending And What That Implies #even if that didn't happen #i still don't think??? they would be besties with her #which is interesting for like. yknow. the main protag group who's been through everything together #npmd #nerdy prudes must die #hatchetfield #stephanie lauter

[thefiresofpompeii]

i have a maybe lukewarm maybe hot take about this godforsaken show that some people could find mean, but i stand behind it, no elaboration (okay, some elaboration in the tags below… a lot of elaboration)

opinion: if you claim to like clara’s dynamic with the doctor and her character development in series 8 and 9, but simultaneously say you hate the impossible girl arc/elevenclara, you don’t actually understand anything about their relationship and what makes it the way that it is

#elaboration: it’s about the parallels. it’s about clara being the object of a mystery; the subject of a story VS writing her own story from #the name of the doctor onwards: refusing to become a puzzle box but taking it a step further and seeking to become the author of the #puzzles. it’s about her being chosen by missy all that time ago; because she was; among everything else; an avatar/projection of her #complicated feelings for the doctor in a way. a proxy that doesn’t know they’re a proxy #it’s about the mirroring of the impossible girl arc and heaven sent/hell bent! clara choosing of her own free will to splinter her identity #into millions upon millions of shards; dying over and over in every reality to save the doctor. compare to: the doctor choosing to spend #millions upon millions of years killing himself; dying over and over for the chance to save his clara. #the intertwined devotion! the complexity of their codependency! none of that would have developed the way it had if not for #clara being eleven’s impossible girl. she had to be a ghost story before she became a love story; and aren’t those two one in the same; as #stated in hide? #clara oswald #the impossible girl #twelveclara #whouffle #whouffaldi #doctor who #dw #peter capaldi #matt smith #jenna coleman #twelfth doctor #twelve #eleventh doctor #eleven #jamie catches up #jamie.txt #elevenclara

[cheese-hater]

doodles from work. anyway legit appreciation to the randal kins bc u guys r always out here reblogging my ranfren art n leaving lil comments, u rock

#randal ivory #randals friends #ranfren #ranfrens #randal and friends #but also r u guys okay? bc i feel like randal is not ok #and by proxy u probably arent either #but who even IS okay because im not because my govern- *is stuffed into a cabinet*

[umblrspectrum]

the day of reckoning has come. Matrick Patrick has covered Murder Drones, and oh my god it sucks so bad I don't care about spoiling people he literally

I'm actually about to lose it half his argument boils down to "Murder Drones is a Show that follows a plot", he makes no attempt to acknowledge the fact that all of the disassembly drones have solver, makes up a character on the spot to pin all the lore onto, incorporates TWO gags that are almost 100% jokes as part of his evidence, doesn't mention that he is not the first person to theorize that n was the reason nori died, never acknowledges doll other than to give blatantly wrong information, and gave us the brilliant line of "we can't talk about Murder Drones without bringing up World War II"

#i liked the episode cause i got to make fun of matpat #but also hate it because people are going to take his word as gospel #im actually so pissed #murder drones #film theory #not art #just ranting i guess #i feel very passionately about this show and by proxy this episode #im actually convinced he hasnt watched episodes 2 3 or 4 #i hope murder drones mossbag (murdbag) comes along and rips him to shreds #his worst crime of all is only mentioning v like twice in the entire episode

[breawycker]

It's 4:36 AM and I can't sleep so I'm just gonna post this dumb wenclair thing I just came up with when I was trying to fall asleep.

Okay so like when Enid comes back after they have that falling out Wednesday says “Thing missed you” and Enid replies “I missed him too.” Cause like they can't express their feelings for each other because they're scared so they use Thing as a proxy and in the end they're like “Thing loves you” or “Thing says he loves you” and then Enid is like “I love him too” and they kiss because they know exactly what they mean and Thing is just completely confused. Like Wednesday will say “Thing says you look nice today” and Enid will be like “tell him thank you” or Enid will be like “Thing says your cello playing is beautiful” and as it keeps up they realize that the other feels the same as they do. Like they slowly escalate it until we reach that kiss.

Here's an example I came up with:

Wednesday: Thing says you look nice today

Enid: what else does Thing think about me?

Wednesday: he thinks you're too good for that brainless stoner, Ajax.

Enid: Really. Does he have any other boyfriends in mind?

Wednesday: he wonders if it has to be a “boy"friend 

Enid: tell him I'm open to other suggestions 

Wednesday: he wonders perhaps another girl?

Enid: does he have a girl in mind?

Wednesday: he does but he wonders if she'd be good enough for you. He thinks you're special for some reason. 

Enid: perhaps he should tell this girl to meet me in the cemetery tonight at 8

Wednesday: he says that's perfect grave digging time

Enid: well I was hoping for a picnic too

Wednesday: he thinks that can be arranged as well

Enid: tell him it's a date

Wednesday: I'm sure he'll be thrilled to hear.

Thing, signing: what are you two fucking talking about?

#i couldnt sleep and thoughts swirling so to calm down i was thinking of them and then i thought of this scene #and i was like Wednesday doesn't want to admit her feelings #like she doesnt want to admit how much she cares about enid but she doesn't want to hurt her by saying nothing so she uses thing as a proxy #and then this happened #im gonna try to sleep again #i hope this makes sense #wenclair #Wednesday #netflix #yuri #thing #enid sinclair #wednsday addams #enid x wednesday #wednesday x enid #please enjoy #like i know it was probably just Wednesday being her stoic self but let me cook #like she cares so much #she loves enid so much #aaaaaah #i love them

[home-halone]

a short rest

#bg3 #look I have so many feelings about Caesia and Astarion... #On the surface they're quite similar #biting wit and self-indulgence #they're both rather self-centered but Caesia still skews Good despite her impulses #they get along instantly and have a good time in each others' company #but Caesia initially distanced herself because they were so ideologically incompatible and figured the whole thing was just casual for him #anyway I drew this because even if he didn't verbally reciprocate her feelings #I bet he did shit like this that showed how safe he felt around her #crying in the club at 4am #proxi draws #not ff #im not even fucking done with this game #i just want to drown in my feelings