#feeling emotionsssss

[go-to-the-mirror]

The room was unrecognisable when I returned. There was a shape on the bed, where Harriet had laid, but it wasn’t her anymore. I could barely make out anything even remotely human in the pile of pitted and warped flesh that now remained. The bed itself was slick and shiny with a dark fluid that dripped off the hanging sheets and onto the floor. But what truly repulsed me, what made me flee as I did, was what moved and squirmed on all of it. They covered every surface: the floor, the bed, what used to be Harriet, even the ceiling. A thick, moving carpet of pale, writhing worms.

(MAG 6 - Squirm)

Finally, I found myself standing over the mass of pitted and hollow skin that was once a man. He shuddered violently as the gas engulfed him, and then lay still.

(MAG 26 - A Distortion)

I have read many statements now by those who are changing, who are becoming – something else, and few if any of them seem... entirely rational. Entirely the people that they were before.[…] Then again, I suppose I’m hardly in the best position to judge. Perhaps to anyone listening to these tapes I sound remarkably similar to Hezekiah. Or to Manuela. Or to Jane.

(MAG 152 - A Gravedigger’s Envy)

JORDAN: You turned me into what? A torturer?

ARCHIVIST: Yes.

[…]

JORDAN: I don’t... I don’t know how to be this. I don’t want to scare people.

ARCHIVIST: No. But you’ll learn.

[Beat.]

JORDAN: Am I still me?

ARCHIVIST: I don’t know how to answer that.

(MAG 184 - Like Ants)

I’ve seen what Jon did in MAG 184 being compared to Jonah Magnus, obviously. I’ve compared it to Jonah Magnus, it makes sense. I’ve also seen it compared to what Jon did to Melanie, which makes sense, though I don’t tend to do that myself. I haven’t seen it compared to what Jane Prentiss did, which is interesting, because Jon compares himself to Jane, he does that, he’s been doing it since season 1, thank you deluxe transcripts for ruining my life.

Jane Prentiss turns people into avatars. Jane Prentiss was the first avatar Jon — knowingly — encountered. Really don’t think Jonah Magnus counts. I have a lot of feelings on how Jane and Jon turn people into avatars, on how it’s a reflection of what’s happened to them, especially Jon. How with Jordan there’s this choice that isn’t even a choice at all, that’s basically the same choice given to Jon and Jane alike.

I have lots of feelings on how Jon parallels Jane in the later seasons. And about that relating to the cycle of violence and becoming a fear entity avatar as an allegory for trauma.

#jane prentiss #jordan kennedy #jonathan sims #tma #tma meta #the magnus archives #the magnus archives meta #mag 6 #mag 26 #mag 152 #mag 184 #worms #feeling emotionsssss #landscaping your mind chapter one #to post or to queue? #… #post. #also no im never shutting up about becoming a fear entity avatar as an allegory for trauma. NEVER #lives in my mind rent free sings to me tells me that i am a home tells me that i can be fully consumed by what loves me— #it’s like? #SORRY I JUST GOT AN IDEA FOR A META TAG #landscaping your mind is garbage and here’s why #yes. YES! that’s gonna be my new writing fun little analysis tag #fuckin love that

[fellshish]

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#i’m actually feeling emotional about the butthole video going around so much right now #i know it’s just a silly video but 🥺🥺🥺🥺 help the emotionsssss

[wanderingaldecaldo]

by @sidver

Every colour and every taste Every breath that whispers your name It's like emeralds on the pavement (I got your honey, baby) At the heart of some kind of flower Stuck in glitter, strands of saliva Won't you get me right where the hurt is?

Robyn, "Honey"

I am at a loss for words—metaphorically at a loss of course, as I am nothing if not a writer. I cried once before when I received a commission (this incredible piece of Val by khymeira), which incidentally was a year ago yesterday; and now today when I was blessed by this gorgeous piece.

More blubbering (and WIP Wednesday) under the cut.

For background on my request, I gave Sidver a bit of my corpo!Val story, the part where things officially go off the rails in the plan, where these two friends who are faking being in love accidentally cross a line, then deliberately cross it once more.

This picture isn't worth 1000 words. It's value is infinite. It would (will) take thousands upon thousands of words to tell this story—the way Mitch cradles her head, and the tentative possession with his other hand; how Val holds his face, caressing his scar; the way they stand together, uncertain but longing; god, the emotionsssss. Sidver took a few paragraphs of words and turned it into real art.

And now I'm going to make this long post even longer by shamelessly adding on my writing since beloved @starsandskies tagged me for WIP Wednesday; only gonna tag @ravenstrange for reasons*. Please forgive the indulgence and have ~500 of the thousands of words that I need to write to live up to this incredible picture Sidver painted.

“Long day,” Mitch says.

Rather than answer, Val leans her head against his shoulder. This casual intimacy catches in his throat. He knows he should stop it, that it’s only going to make things worse when it’s time to stop pretending and return to the family; but he can’t, doesn’t want to. Instead he wraps his cybernetic arm around her, his hand on her shoulder, and she leans into him and sighs again. He skims his hand up and down her bicep, tracing his fingers along the lean muscle before returning them to her shoulder and squeezing gently. She shivers beside him.

“Cold? Want my jacket?”

With a shake of her head, Val smiles up at him and his heart skips a beat. “Thanks.”

Silence falls between them once more. Mitch finishes his cigarette then stubs it out and flicks it into the darkness below. He wishes he could bottle this feeling and carry it back to camp with him, this comforting shared quiet. Without conscious thought Mitch turns his head and presses his lips to her forehead. He breathes deep, inhaling the unassuming scent of her shampoo. As soon as Val shifts he knows he made a mistake, and then she brings her emerald eyes up to his face.

He’s been captivated before by the white ring surrounding the green pupil, but he’s never before noticed the brown spikes that ring the iris, just like his own—central heterochromia, he remembers, though how he can think at all while she’s looking up at him like this is beyond him. As she studies his face her eyebrows draw together, a tiny line appearing between them. He can’t read her expression but it’s her, not the corpo, and his chest squeezes even tighter, the breaths harder to draw. 

Her eyes drop to his lips and her own lips part before she raises her gaze back to his, the tip of her tongue peeking out as she tilts her face to him. Blood roaring in his ears, Mitch knows it’s a lapse in judgment from the drink, from the look in her eyes when he tips his chin down and brings them closer together. Val closes the distance, pressing her soft lips against his in a hesitant kiss. After a moment she pulls back, searches his eyes while her fingers linger on his skin. She still is letting him in, even if he doesn’t know what he’s seeing. 

“Val,” Mitch murmurs, part warning, part affirmation. 

Her name on his lips makes her breath come faster and her hand moves to the back of his neck, pulling him down to her once more. His cybernetic fingers slide up her shoulder to twine in the hair at the back of her neck, searching for anything to ground him. His head spins as she deepens the kiss. He’s lost now, falling backward into the abyss and sinking into darkness, and he doesn’t care.

*️⃣ Raven, you've been an awesome friend, and I can't overstate how much better you made my life when you put the seed for this ridiculous thing in my head.

#cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk 2077 fanart #cyberpunk fanart #fanart #mitch anderson #valerie vermilion #wip wednesday #cyberpunk fanfiction #cyberpunk fanfic #wash's writing #mitch x v #mitch x fem v #au: all that glitters #corpo!val au #unnamed corpo au story that is consuming my brain #i unlocked the key to writing a slow burn: work the fun bits whenever i want #and this was a scene i wrote early on #in fact i'm sure you can find it in the tags lol #such a pleasure to see it #sidver #thank you so much #it's incredibly amazingly perfect #my commissions #okay i have to pin this at least for a few days #previously pinned post #mitch x val

[magentagalaxies]

tempted to rewatch the nance as a "comfort movie" even tho it absolutely destroyed me the first time lmao it's just so good. give me that emotional catharsis of seeing the story of a queer comedian loving a medium that doesn't love him back that allows me to realize people like me have existed all throughout history even if we don't tidily fit into marketable activist narratives i wanna feel the emotionsssss

#iirc i didn't cry when i watched it but i do think it emotionally impacted me on a level no other piece of media has touched #also tbh when i get the chance to talk to scott thompson more working on my buddy cole documentary i wanna ask if he's heard of the nance #bc i wanna know if he would have the same emotional reaction i did #or maybe even bigger bc like he's an Actual Gay Comedian In The Industry With Complicated Relationship To Being Representation #in any case. yeah the nance is so good i will put it on my list of pieces of media that speak to my soul beyond words

[moonchildstyles]

just finished reading the new blurb while listening to nfr by lana and i feel so many emotionsssss!!! you’re the best writer on this platform im convinced bae 🤞🏻 -👹

bestie omg!!!!!! thank you so much im so happy you liked it thank you thank you thank you:((((((((

#anon #ask #👹 anon #love love love when you reappear bestie

[dollfaceksj]

eeee clover, this update was amazing as always 🤭 it was a good change of pace reading jk’s pov and honestly poor baby doesn’t understand the weight of his emotionsssss 😭 oh the irony!! but honestly i understand jk, u just like me fr 🤝 commitment and admitting your feelings?? 🤢 unheard of

i did not expect jk to be a math tutor, but it makes sense that i didn’t expect it bc we really haven’t gotten a glimpse into who he is yet (besides his trauma)! however, it makes me wonder if he does favors for any of his other hookups 🤔

but gosh reading his pov, it makes me tingle with angst for all the drama & toxicity ahead, i can feel it in my jellies 🤭🤭

as always, i loved this update, and i always look forward to reading what you put out! thank u for being so amazing, i would kiss the ground u walk on if i could 🧎🏻‍♀️

yess finally getting to peek inside of jk’s head !! was long overdue imo

jk isn’r necessarily a math tutor! as stated before jk is a very good student with great grades. sometimes one of his girls will ask for help but it’s not like he does this as a side thing or hobby

yepyep jk is confused and not happy about the change in his life <3

ily. thank u for this message. see u soon <3

#toapp | jjk: discuss

[hellfirexhoe]

T as in the emotionsssss I am feeling right now 😭

Cackling rn

[beachblu3s]

Smol Chameleon challenge:

Which chameleon are you today?

#feel free to tag yourself #im tagging myself as the pink one #chameleon challenge #emotionsssss #chameleon #lizard art #lizard #original bb3s art #original art #beachblu3s art

[indy311y]

Rewatching t h e s c e n e from Queen for a Day Part 2

IT ALWAYS MAKES ME CRY-

#DAD! DADDY! NO! #tangledtheseries #varian #quirin #queen for a day #aaaaaaa fuck #emotionsssss #im gonna cry now #goodbye feelings

[slothspaghettiwrites]

sloth help i’m so h word and i can’t stop thinking about stucky but i also can’t stop thinking about chris’ lil house wife 😩😩🥴 please omg it’s so many emotionsssss

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Okay, but think about precious baby Bucky being Steve’s housewife! He would be so cute. I bet he would wear a cute frilly apron and be an absolute king in the kitchen. So much so that when Steve gets home some nights he can’t stop himself from just eating up his little housewife, puts him right on the counter, and kisses every part of Bucky he can get at. Doesn’t mind if dinner gets a bit overcooked cause he is in a dessert first kinda mood tonight. Bucky can only just focus long enough to turn the stove off before Steve is hauling him off to somewhere a bit more comfortable. They aren’t going to make the mistake of kitchen sex again on a weeknight. 

Steve strips Bucky down to just the apron because his housewife kink is strong tonight. Tells Bucky he is all kinds of pretty in this get-up, thinks he might buy Bucky one for each day of the week. Maybe he bends Bucky over the sofa cause he knows the rough cotton of the apron will be just shy of too much on his dick. Steve’s big hands squeeze and spread his boy’s pretty peach while he slides cock between those cheeks. He presses his chest into Bucky’s back, kisses his shoulder and neck, and just whispers all the naughty thoughts he had at work about Bucky.  

Bucky could probably cum from that just alone. Steve’s husky voice just washing over him, adding to the already overwhelming feelings going through him. 

#sloth asks #babyyhoneyydarling #steve rogers #bucky barnes #stucky #sorry i melted my own brain #i need to take a cold shower and think about what I've done

[manforsale]

What’s happening with y yo a ti?

AAAAAA okay so idk who? The cw?? They put the unedited Spanish dub version of 15x18 on Netflix!!! They put “Te amo.” “Y yo a ti, Cas” on Netflix !!! They either fucked up again or allowed it to happen but still !!! I am feeling shrimp emotionsssss

#I’m sorry anon I’m just going bonkers #anon #asks

[lilredgummie]

The leaks are true and I don’t know how to feel I have so many emotionsssss 🥵

#holy fucking shit #they’re true #I have mixed feelings I don’t know what to do with #snk #snk spoilers #snk 138 #LRG rambles

[missharleenfquinzel]

I jusssst have a lot of emotionsssss and there’s not anyone I feel comfortable talking to about themmmm

[earnmysong]

@treaddelicately asked: 🎨?!

i had this all typed out, but my finger slipped so: instead of posting i deleted! anywho. let’s try round two!

it’s no secret i adore just about everythingggg you write! your narratives are consistently full of care and so many feelings and your stylistic choices always seem to flow beautifully!

when push comes to shove, though, *i will send a fully-armed battalion...* NOPE there’s really no other choice for me than Drawing Out the Line!  sure, winterwitch is my current fandom record-skip and wanda will be my most favorite bb foreverrrrr, but. even apart from that. GOOD GOD. i experienced so many emotionsssss. the way that you start with disaster striking and then flash back before going forward again is just masterful! you also highlighted their shared traumas and parallels super well without being heavy-handed at alllll! and those sections of wanda introspection - where she gets ready to lose bucky and then that paragraph or so about her being two different people? P E R F E C T! there was moisture on my face, okay?

i’ve definitely re-read more than a few times already and will be continuing to do so at regular intervals! 

#treaddelicately #ladies being friends #favorite works from friends #fic rec #fic recs #recs #wanda x bucky #otp: my waves meet your shore #winterwitch

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

just finished rewatching 4.12 of the mindy project, and aughhhhhhh, i cannot possibly convey my love for this episode and this whole mindy/danny breakup arc! (insert all the sobbing emojis here)

it’s so heartbreaking but so empowering, and one of my favorite feminist storylines in all of tv. it’s so real in exploring the sacrifices that women are often expected by default to make for their male partners. mindy and danny’s fight and the way that mindy lays out the way that danny belittles her is just SO good and so moving, and getting to see her choose her career in that moment and flourish at it even in the midst of her relationship falling apart is SO DAMN GOOD. once upon a time i never thought i would’ve wanted to sob through a “bad girls do it well” montage, but here i am. that callback to the pilot re: mindy’s badass competence as a doctor and the way it just punches you in the soul with its poignancy this time around! (and then mindy sitting on the couch at the end being sad after danny calls off their wedding, but then it ending on that note of happiness as her patient texts her the picture of the new baby that mindy helped bring into being! the smile of genuine happiness on mindy’s face, despite everything, when she sees it! MY EMOTIONSSSSS!)

when this happened the first time around, i really appreciated the show being willing to go there not with some random love interest, but with THE love interest who was always meant to be mindy’s ~happy ending~. obviously danny behaves in a super horrible way here, but i think -- especially having just rewatched the whole series -- it’s in a way that’s so consistent with his flaws and insecurities throughout the entire series, and it feels like a really natural direction for their relationship to go in. and by having it be THE love interest that we the viewers have all loved for years at this point, i think the show really taps into the very real pain of having someone you love so much be so obliviously selfish in his relationship with you and his perception of you, which is what i think sets this storyline apart from almost anything else i’ve ever seen on tv.

watching it with the knowledge that she and danny eventually get back together -- especially in a pretty quick, shallow “this is a happy ending! this is the happy ending you wanted! here you go!” way -- diminishes it for me a bit, because i think it would have been so powerful to really commit to them parting ways for good (which i think is what the show was doing at this point before they changed directions for the fans who weren’t named dollsome), but i still love this arc soooooooo much! (and i can imagine they break up again after the series is over, so HA! ha, i say! ... i am the most blasphemous of all the mindy project fans in all the land.)

anyway: i just love this s4 story of a woman who always thought marriage would fix all her problems and put a pretty bow on her life realizing that she actually gets that happiness and sense of meaning from her career. chef’s kiss! chef’s kiss times infinity!

#dollsome's deep thoughts #the mindy project #i wonder if in a way it would have been great to have the series end right around this time #with mindy choosing her career and realizing she's really happy in it #(and -- yes -- okay -- possibly jody standing in the general proximity so we can all imagine that maybe one dayyyy she might date him!) #('we can all' i say -- as if the mindy/jody shipping community does not consist of me and like 4.5 other people) #p.s. this is the first time i am making this connection but it reminds me a lot of when jane leaves rochester #the energy in that scene and the scene toward the end of this episode is so similar #where it's genuinely heartbreaking but you're like 'YES GIRL!!!!!!!!!!' #'take all that away and what's left?' 'me.' #/ random buffy reference

[worstversionofme]

I’m really fucking depressed today and if I talk to the person I wanna talk to about it it’ll start a fight which will make me feel worse and I don’t know how to deal with my emotionsssss so I think I’m just gonna watch jatp on my phone covered in blankets

#jatp #julie and the phantoms #If someone wants to send me dumb jatp memes I’d be eternally grateful