#fucking bad vibes

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck #good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen #im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3 #writeblr #the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this'' #and like also #''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist #i was <3 punctured <3 during mine #and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion'' #so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3 #she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh #ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance #i'd crash on the table #like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it #and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop! #and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just #woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes #she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room #from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing #and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying #and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap #with this terrible memory #i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like #that was too many liters #and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home #i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after #that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty #you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it #while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED #and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.

[suntails]

toot toot!

#breaking my streak of dramatic af captions bc look at this. look at it. wtf was i supposed to call it. he's tootin whaddya want from me #he go TOOT TOOT on his lil trumpet i fuckgjn LOVE HIM im maxing this card im serious #lvl 60 10/10 no expense is too much for my precious boy #i found a new brush that has this rly soft charcoal vibe and i used it on this whole thing and it was SEXY it was HEAVEN #it was fun for coloring too!!! and the outfit colors are fun to color OUGHH everything made just for me <3 feeling SILLY #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #his bunny outfit sweeps like im sorry but its the best card of the event and its not even fucking close #suntails #i did one 10-pull bc i wanted the paint bonus from epel's card even tho i HATE that card #and i instead got SUPER lucky and got deuce and NO epel!!! i couldnt be fucking happier #then my job interview today never called and i was miserable again but it was an internal issue and im now rescheduled for next week #so please dear god pls guys pray i get this job. i want it sooooo bad

[sevenlersiniz]

You turn on the light.

#the owl house #toh #toh promo #watching and dreaming #luz noceda #amity blight #lumity #the collector #EIGHT HOURS. A SOLID THREE SPENT SOLELY ON TWEAKING COMPOSITION AND COLOR BALANCE UGH. #I really wanted a Catholic stained glass window vibe for this one #but I didn't like the look of black outlines on everything for a real stained glass aesthetic. #Also first time coloring in CMYK (i thought I might want to print it) and man it is a headache. #Before I'd just color in RGB and go fuck it whatever happens happens but it's time to grow up... it's time to learn how to do it right #so yeah my signature colors aren't there! because cmyk is the devil! but it looks nice anyway I think. #So excited to see how this all ends I want weirdos to stick together soso bad

[p4nishers]

i think it's time i admit i have the biggest fatest crush on 1941 crowley. like dude.

#its bad man everytime i watch that see i start giggling uncontrollably and now u're telling me its gonna get EXPANDED?????? #DO YALL WANT ME TO GO CRAZY CAUSE UTS ABOUT TO HAPPEN ANYWAY #he's just soooooo UUGHHHHH SOO #no wonder aziraphale fell ass over heels in love immediately i can understand #the fucking HAT the FUCKING SLICKED BACK HAIR THE CONFIDENCE THE KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR VIBES I AM DECEASED #i need to be sedated #good omens #good omens s2 #crowley good omens #crowley #good omens season 2

[bakuliwrites]

Archduke of Baldur's Gate? Oh, you mean my big tiddy goth girlfriend? My Final Fantasy villain reject? My 40 year old gamer who subsists off of mountain dew and doritos? My skrunkly little tyrant? My struggling actor in an early 2000's hair product commercial? My ride-or-die Durge simp? The man that proposed to me with a Taco Bell hot sauce packet? My precious Gorty? My wife? My-

#i could go on #the number of things I have called enver gortash is endless #enver gortash #lord gortash #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #i am deeply unhinged about this man #all of this is affectionate of course #I saw someone call him a cheesy Gordita crunch in a tag once and I haven’t stopped thinking about it since #I think one of the first things I said to my brother about Gortash is that he gives me Taco Bell vibes #which is not a bad thing #I fucking love Taco Bell #do it Gort #propose to me in a Taco Bell with a hot sauce packet #durgetash #durge x gortash #gortash

[friendlyengie]

I think one of th things with soldier is that a lot of the times ppl just put him at his Maximum Everything. Maximum idiot maximum LOUD. But the thing is hes not really at 100 all of the time. Hes a very 0 to 100 type character. In the comics at least. Like i remember rereading the first comic and just sort of being fascinated by how he Is. Chill isnt really the right word but I dont know how else to explain it.

“The heart makes its own rules” what are you saying.

Anyways i think part of soldiers whole thing is that he operates in his own world on his own rules. He will say shit so casually or matter of factly but hes not always screaming it. Sometimes hes just. Saying things. With a tone that could convince you he knows what hes saying until you register the words and realize he is saying nothing sentences to you.

#Tf2 #idk. Idk. #I can’t do things with soldier for the life of me. Istruggle with him so bad. #He is second hand embarrassment: the character. You know. #I don’t even mean that in a derogatory way its just how he operates. #hes a joke character but not like a punchline just like a fucking. Aidk i dont know. #Idont think anyone knows what soldiers deal is. Not even ppl making official content about him. #as evident from the different vibe he gives in game vs older comics vs the official series. #boy why you so problems. #the clown speaks

[kazanskyy]

serving ✨cunt✨ and country

#idek know what this is exactly just know the working title was 'kazansky's cunty vibes ft. icemav' #consider it a fancam of 'you wanna fuck me so bad it makes you look stupid' i guess #icemav #tom kazansky #top gun edit #my amvs #linds original

[vaguely-concerned]

there are a lot of daddy issues to go around on DS9 in general, but odo, bashir and garak are really in their own special little fucked up 'what am I but wrought in my father's image' club

#star trek #star trek ds9 #ds9 #odo #julian bashir #elim garak #(I personally think we should put their dads in a cage match and let them kill each other. tain would probably win #but we could just shoot him after he claimed that victory. I Would Like To See It) #the triumvirate of bad dads to karmically oppose the sheer power of good dad vibes benjamin sisko has #specifically dads who Cannot and Will Not allow the healthy individuation of their sons into whole separate people #apart from what their father's hands have shaped them into #where that is one of the first things sisko accepts and realizes he must allow jake to do right at the early seasons #the bad dad club boys seem more specifically forcibly held in place to serve as mirrors for their fathers #and have to find ways to break away from that in more or less graceful ways; breaking off more or less important parts of themselves #to do so #dr mora seems to have a 'oh fuck.' moment where he sort of realizes what he's done #but the sympathy that gains him from me is hm. neglible lmao at least tain is basically fully just a monster #what's your excuse mora #I haven't met bashir's dad properly yet but I've seen enough to suspect I'm not going to be very charitably inclined towards him either

[mushtoons]

people at work are testing me

#okay im autistic cool dont treat me like im fuckin stupid #i get i explain and understand differently but dont fuckin act like i babbling like a toddler and disregard me #making it through the day by the skin of my fucking teeth and it just started #wood wide web #bad vibe hours

[soshinee]

the fuck is your problem

#i might delete or hide the app idk why but i can’t fucking stand this thing looking at me #the vibes are so bad

[toytulini]

Everyone stop youre drinking the battery acid spaghetti all wrong. the correct receptacle is a

Chalice

#undescribed #toy pic post #gifs #battery acid spaghetti #sue me for not using a real energy drink but they all taste bad anyway so fuck off lol #anyway this is mostly a joke but also i do think the wider cup did improve the vibe #im on my potion shit now #but this is all im having for tonight. i need to go to bed and i would like to avoid Scary Drug Interactions with my nighttime eepy meds #the chalice is from #one eleven pottery #baja blast #anyway. Do Do This👍 #go wild. drink it from a chalice this is the way #this is my vision #clown beverage

[brother-emperors]

And the experience of each man was peculiar. For Pompey's name and power were greater in the city when he was away from it, owing to his campaigns; but when he was at home, he was often less power­ful than Crassus, because the pomp and circumstance of his life led him to shun crowds, retire from the forum, and render aid to a few only of those who asked it of him, and then with no great zest, that he might keep his influence the more unimpaired for use in his own behalf. But Crassus was continually ready with his services, was ever at hand and easy of access, and always took an active part in the enterprises of the hour.

Plutarch, Crassus

from the vault of half finished one shots and rejected scenes! what a pair of guys! some real complementary personality stuff going on with these two!

bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost

#where’s that paper that’s all ‘Fulvia was a manager and Antony was manageable’ there’s a similar dynamic going on here #but it’s both of them @ each other. Crassus does have a very political manager type of. vibe. though. so it could apply to multiple people #roman republic tag #komiks tag #also this is why Pompey and Caesar were a bad match. like of course they were going to get divorced civil war style #anyway. the new tvxq song. any older kpop fans here. ‘So say you want me cause I’m down’ is rattling around in my head abt these two #when they decided to fuck politics together. like oooooh you two chose each other for real #if I was staging a movie or smth the scene where they shake hands on it would be when changmin does THAT with his vocals #tris homines #marcus licinius crassus #gnaeus pompeius magnus

[cometrose]

pick your favorite grown man who beefs with 15 year old boys and then loses

#i specifically went for the sexy ones #tell me more if you have any #so many men beef with teenagers #miguel o'hara #across the spiderverse #atsv #xigbar #kingdom hearts #kh #toji fushiguro #jjk #i too would fight a 15 year old boy he probably had bad vibes #i could put ansem seeing how he fucks with riku for like multiple games #but they work it out! #this is an odd trio but if you’re like me and crazy you’ll know all of them

[shima-draws]

God gives his toughest battles (being at work DESPERATELY wanting nothing more than to be at home playing the new Genshin Fontaine update) to his bravest soldiers (me)

#Shima speaks #Genshin Impact #I PUSHED IT LAST NIGHT EVEN. I went to bed later than I should have bc I was having TOO MUCH FUN... #I have a lot of thoughts but here are some #A. STEAMPUNK STEAMPUNK STEAMPUNK STEAM PU #B. Fontaine gives me MASSIVE Unova vibes. Mountainy region with lots of pine trees.....also reminds me of home irl #C. THE UNDERWATER SECTIONS ARE SOOOOOO COOL AND SO FUN AND SO PRETTY AND SO #D. I got Lyney on literally my LAST pull call that lucky ducky #E. The update was TOO chonky....I had to delete HSR off my iPad bc Genshin's so FUCKING thicc. WHY is it so thicc #I was able to redownload HSR onto my phone bc my phone ACTUALLY has decent storage space. #I mean my iPad has 64 gigs but Genshin takes up like. 40 of that #And HSR is around 13 gigs rn #My iPad was like nope can't do it fam ;) #Me: NAURR!!!!! #Anyway I'm the bearer of the curse (being at work wanting to play in Fontaine so so so SO bad)

[ashersanity]

I know you're a whitney enthusiast but please drop some messed up jealous corrupted sydney.

🤲

- 🤡 Jester

pft, don’t you know that I’m also a sydney enthusiast too, jester? or more like johan is.

if you haven’t already seen this post, involves corrupted yan!syd, if so then, I’m still willing to write for you a few snippets of my stupid ideas.

cw! mentions of violence, blood, non-con, burning, possessive and abusive behaviour, shitty rambles

I think.. I may have unintentionally made sydney terrifying, shit.

jealous c!sydney that can’t help but look in your direction, across from the library counter as you chat away and giggle to kylar’s sketches. their now ex-childhood friend smiling to themselves, proud to be the one responsible for that precious laughter. amber eyes narrowing at the sight, grip tightening, not even realizing they crushed the pen in their hand before a droplet of ink drips down to the carpeted floor.

jealous c!sydney’s fist that doesn’t hesitate to meet whitney’s face the second they openly refer to you as their ‘slut’, the two school mates now thrashing and squirming around on the ground, attracting quite the crowd. the bully sauntering off with a pissed look on the face, utterly humiliated that they lost to sydney of all people. seriously, the bastard is gonna get it once they’re alone again, mark their word. obviously the fallen doesn’t care, for they have you to now tend to their wounds that whitney left behind.

jealous c!sydney who purposefully sends blowed kisses your way whenever you sit at robin’s table during lunch time. of course, they’re petty like that, wants the stupid orphan to know that you’re their partner first and foremost, the one who took sydney’s virginity. enjoys the change in the other’s features, a slight frown forming on their face as they watch the initiate walk away.

jealous c!sydney who insists on marking you, leaving ‘subtle’ traces of their existence across your body. starts randomly nipping at the blade of your shoulder at times, softly claiming they’re only being playful, right? that’s what lovers do to each other sometimes, right? for it is too late once they’ve written their name down on that exact spot again, in bright red letters, unable to be missed by any filthy fucker who tries to get their hands on you.

jealous c!sydney who’s now tugging at your wrist, sneaking you inside the prayer room, insistant kisses sloppily left all over your mouth and face. god, they need you, they really do. wandering hands not stopping despite your protests, tears pricking at the corner of your eyes and flushed cheeks, begging them to stop. lost through maddened lust, no driven wild by their all time high jealousy, does not listen, only ignores your frantic pleas.

jealous c!sydney who now has a torch in hand, shrill screams echoing through the isolated room as the burning fire meets your flesh, forever ingraining themselves into you. warm arms finding their way around your trembling frame, cooing you sweet nothings, reassuring you with kisses as if they didn’t just burn you. burnt your skin, irreparably leaving their mark behind. you won’t leave them after this, not ever.

“oh, my beloved,” sydney murmurs against your ear, tracing the length of their finger across your cheek, smearing fresh blood along the skin. the same one they’d cup at while you two kissed, familiar warmth now replaced with something else, something more.. sinister. darker. “don’t you understand? we belong to each other now. as one.”

#i kinda went off the rails there #my bad #burning your beloved to forever ingrain yourself into them though #fuck yeah #corrupted sydney #jealous #johan would be into that #two sadistic bastards vibing #the perfect couple really #dol #degrees of lewdity #sydney the fallen #jealous sydney #jester anon? #asher gets asks #asher writes #badly

[spearxwind]

-🏮🏮🏮-

#actually yeah fuck it ill post it now bc i dont have any reason not to and i want to show it so bad. fuck it we ball babeY!!!! #windyart #adriel #adri wings real #the hollowridge disaster #drew this in like an hour at midnight yesterday so legally a rly quick doodle #its actually so much fun to draw him with wings im glad to be doing it again idc if it conflicts with the vibe #because the vibe is whatever i want it to be babey!!! reality can be whatever i want it to be!!