#gonna experience organically

[neonsbian]

gonna not be on here after 8:30 probably

#lest i get spoiled for bad buddy preview lmao #gonna experience organically #aka watch the 2 abaab os2 eps even tho i havent seen a single ep of that show and dont rlly approve of the power dynamic #and then become mentally ill :) #vinnie talks

[viridescenttemple]

I SHOULD MAKE A NEW PINNED TELLING WHAT ACCOUNTS I ACTUALLY USE lol [This is a reminder for myself for tomorrow]

#vi.txt #NEED TO MAKE MY BLOG A BIT MORE ORGANIZED #ALSO YALL ARE GONNA SEE ME EXPERIMENT WITH MY ART FROM HERE ON #MOSTLY BC SOME OF THE ART IM POSTING IS LIKE 2 MONTHS OLD lol #SO U WILL SEE LIKE MY ARTSTYLE JUMP A BIT ALL OVER THE PLACE SINCE IM NOT POSTING THEM IN ORDER FROM QHEN I MADE THEM 2K3NRRBR #AND BC IVE BEEN TRYING TO EXPERIMENT MORE WITH MY ART LATELY SO YEAH :3

[goldkirk]

it’s so scary and so freeing to just be a person.

#the discovery and fulfillment of my curiosity as I go #trying to scientific observational field researcher my way through discovering #What Existence Includes #while I’m in this state to experience it #it’s like being back to my very youngest days before I started learning the major rules #when I was just sensation and experience and curiosity #making sense / making an ongoing story of the world and time itself as it flies past #personal #cult escapee #katie.txt #past me: thank you thank you thank you for holding on through the nightmare. thank you for riding out the huge world-ending pain. thank you #it was worth it it was worth it #of course it isn’t perfect but I SAID it’d be better within a few years didn’t I? #you signed up for this you made the commitment when you knew. #you tried allowing yourself to trust yourself again for the first time since age 7 or so. #you knew you couldn’t hold it all up front for that long if you were gonna survive transplanting yourself like an organ. #you knew you’d be giving up a lot. and you did it anyway because you were brave and you cared that much about how very very little you #deserved better for her world #and here you are. and here we are. #you told the therapist ‘of course not!!!’ so instantaneously and so full of belief. so dead sure on deep reflex that you could NEVER #trust yourself in a million years because even if the supernatural surveillance state wasn’t real and you didn’t have innate evilness #just from the Doctrine Is Saying So #where was I going with this. I’m typing tags on mobile and it’s religious for me but it’s also impossible as a ui #anyway my POINT WAS: it is so hard and so scary but it’s like walking into the world of Sesame Street for real. #you were right. it IS good to be alive. the whole thing all the way through is a bewildering baffling marvel. you’re ok to be delighted #about it and marvel at how wild it is that there’s so much about it all and so many things to see and think and meet and feel and do during #our spans of time #no matter what came before or what might come next #what a goddam marvel of it all. ain’t it just the strangest thing of all that we’re alive. what a marvel. what an absolutely magnificent hit #existence is an absolute absurdity

[ectonurites]

guess what tiiiime it iiiiis [comics cataloguing time baby]

#sadly i can only actually do like a fraction of what i have in a pile rn #because i need more boards and bags. so i am only gonna do the ones tht i got pre-bagged and boarded. #aka predominantly backissues rather than current stuff #i have been so behind on actually organizing things dsgfhgfh the stack is Intimidating #tht 'owns over 300 individual comics' in my hyper specific experiences poll was lowballing it bc it was based on where my spreadsheet is #from when it was last updated. months ago #grandpa max is god? i go to church now

[whatudottu]

Honestly I feel like Autobot Experiment!Blitzwing’s anger and betrayal once he finds out about Blackarachnia experimenting on Wasp would probably hit harder than if his canon self found out about it.

I personally headcanon that Blitzwing has severe trust issues and difficulty establishing interpersonal relationships thanks to his trauma so I imagine that finding out that someone he considered a kindred spirit and felt like he could allow himself to be vulnerable around severely disfigured and traumatized a literal child in a similar manner to what he himself experienced and didn’t even feel guilty about doing so is probably something that he wouldn’t take very lightly.

My girl Blackarachnia not only does one hypocritical thing but two, she's not getting away scot-free 😞 it doesn't have to be this way

Blitzwing may be the only 'one of a kind (beloathed)' now that Wasp has Blackarachnia to share being a techno-organic, but god damn it there's a kid in need of counseling and they have a varying quality of actual competence in that regard. Hothead is going to be very present for a while, heh-

#ask #anonymous #blitzwing #tfa blitzwing #wasp #tfa wasp #blackarachnia #tfa blackarachnia #transformers #tfa #maccadam #girl why do you do the things that you do 😞 your circle of (1) friend is growing smaller the more shit ya do #honestly even if the tc experiment wasn't her doing- story wise as shit as it is for wasp the techno-organic experiment makes kinda sense #something something she may still have lingering autobot propaganda of 'science knows no bounds' as well as 'try and try again' #yada yada in order to try out a procedure (say perhaps an 'untechno-organic juice') you need to set a proper controlled condition #wasp getting all his bad situations from autobots even ex-autobots #still not excusable but like there's a little more uh logic to it even if it's at a height of character desperation #but desperation isn't really gonna save you from blitzwing's fire 😞

[palms-upturned]

Lord idk why I’m bothering to respond to ppl on that post. I may as well just stop bc I just keep repeating what I already said anyway. It’s amazing how you can say “rather than deflecting criticism of your political choices by making assumptions, you should just be prepared to sit with the full ramifications of that choice” and like five people will say “well I’m going to make that choice anyway.” ? Okay? 😭 are you under the impression that you need my permission to cast a vote for genocide Joe or what

#meg talks #also like. dude. you can accuse ppl all you want of having no organizing experience #they’re not gonna dox themselves to prove something to a random tumblr user who talks like a fed

[irregularbillcipher]

watched the musical demon show (don't wanna name it so this post isn't in the tags) at the behest of an IRL friend and i can already tell this is going to be a piece of media where i absolutely cannot stop thinking about it, not because i really love the show as-is, but because it has so many individual components i really like and find incredibly fun or compelling, and i'm so frustrated that it doesn't come together for me

i think the main thing i can say about it as a show, setting aside some of the insensitive choices that were made that i really don't feel qualified to tackle or talk about, is that the entire thing sort of gives off this vibe of someone really excited to show you every single oc they made in high school and college and i very genuinely mean that in both the best and worst ways possible

there are some good hooks for season two though so i will absolutely give them that

#the vibe is just like... they are just soooo excited to get all their ideas out that it becomes... messy and badly paced #like there are so many moments that are cool or fun or emotional in a vaccuum but they don't connect fully y'know #because this arc or character was JUST introduced so there isn't proper build up. everything moves too quick #and it's frustrating because you can TELL that the people making this show love their ideas and characters #and i more than get thta! i am also someone with a lotta ocs i love to blab about #but i think they have been working with them so long that they #a. assume we are already just as attached to them as they are without always doing that work #b. assume we've seen all the supplemental material which. i have not #and i don't think that a professional show is the type of thing where there should be a barrier of entry that involves like #podcasts and comics and twitter threads and IC instagram posts about characters to do that emotional/lore legwork y'know #i love lore and supplemental stuff obviously but this should still be like #a satisfying experience for me a person who saw the pilot however many years ago and then has not interacted with the show or fandom since #idk man stuff felt rushed and messy and i wish i liked it more #it needed more slow moments i think. the two scenes where the group all drinks together (minus one awful joke in the bar scene) are like #the best in the show to me becase i actually believe these guys are FRIENDS. i wanna see them hang out more! #i wanna see them actually really grow to like each other organically!!! i wanna see them build connections and grow better slowly!!! #songs absolutely slap though. soundtrack is probably gonna be in my spotify unwrapped 2024 #i love me a musical and that inspiration is on its sleeve which i love #also imo the humor isn't great usually. it's very juvenile imo and sometime that works but it often doesn't #(for me at least humor is obviously SUPER subjective) #also tonally they have this 'have your cake and eat it too' issue which bugs me. it's exemplified by the v's (one in particular) #actually i could go on a whole rant about the v's if anyone is interested because god i have some Thoughts #and i think my issues with the v's (namely one v) encapsulates many issues i have with the show #despite all this rambling i actually did enjoy a lot of my time with it. i just don't think it was well-written if that makes sense

[r0semultiverse]

Cursing & profanity in Kingdom Hearts Chain of Memories

#the larxene panel goes so hard though omg #so does sora charging marluxia #I know these are probably fan translations; but let me have my fun #kh2 is gonna take a lot longer to throw together a cursing compilation #it's like twice the length of the kingdom hearts 1 manga #but it WILL happen just let me read at my pace lol #also love how much more screen time the organization 13 members get #the characters are a bit more expressive in the manga at times so this is a great medium to experience the canon in so far #this medium definitely allows for more dramatic expressiveness & lighting at times #kingdom hearts #mine #op

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

i am once again writing fanfic on new years eve

#is this the third year in a row it feels very familiar #oh no end of 2020 i finished a long one just in december #well long for my standards back then it was like 20k i think #last year i posted THREE in the first week of january super normal super great hfkjghjgh missing thasmin like crazy #wait does that check out potd was in2022? #wild #hang on im gonna post experiments in the revival of organisms again #no reason its just hot #really want to make a video like that again it was the msot fun one ive made #still got a similar one in the works but my laptop doesnt work super well rn and i also dont have time #but i'd love to finish it #one day #oh man this video is really good actually i'd forgotten but it is.good #me catering exactly to me: wow i love this #what was wrong with me for this #oh my god

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

🍓 strawberry mint🌿

bonus alternate version:

#my art lol #vocaloid #vocaloid art #vocaloid fanart #fukase vocaloid #vocaloid fukase #utatane piko #piko utatane #piko vocaloid #vocaloid piko #pink #green #pastel #ice cream #pikase #maybe?? up to interpretation as romantic or platonic idrc honestly #gonna be real i dont know wtf those expressions are. you walked in and interrupted their conversation??? who knows lmao #the alternate version was just cause some places have weird cropping and love destroying the image quality of my art 😔✌️ #i never know how to tag my shit UGH i need to organize this blog someday... which'll be who-knows-when #this was an experiment though mostly. wanted to do smthn w/ lighter colors? since usually i use darker palettes cuz edgy lmfao #or brighter 'pop' colors? wanted to do smthn softer #a lot of people liked this on the other places lmao... i forgot to post this sooner so here it is

[blaqueswanzaghouliishiilikeda]

I'm not sure where fandom got this idea that you're mentally stuck at the age you were turned, I do not think that's supported by canon.. in the book, Claudia is not mentally 5 by the end. She speaks and acts like a grown ass woman and thats why its incredibly sad that her mind and her body are so far apart. She even says this that if Louis had waited just a few more years she would have a real body.

#bailey bass also points this out #she gains 33 years of experience and maturity that comes with that #but is locked in to all the ways her 14 year old brain which is a physical organ does not change #she does not grow past her trauma and how to deal with them #just like everybody else #y’all just expect more from her #iwtv #claudia #louis de pointe du lac #this the last one im gonna answer. #but to the one who pointed out book armand #you’re comparing white male character who had 3 years of cognative maturation on claudia a black girl in jim crow era #its an adaptation for a reason #i’m interacting and speaking abt the show #i don’t make assumptions about the books #all those sections you guys fight show meta with will also be adapted

[illdothehotvoice]

Anyways I've said it before and I'll say it again.

Hi! I'm an artist who has an interest in character design and working in video games. If anyone wants to reach out to me to work on their indie projects feel free to dm me ^^ I'm also willing to do illustration work fjxbxbxbdndndf

#this is kind of half joking because i'm bitter right now but the sentiment is there #my friend told me there's a company on linketin that hires people to do art on indoe projects remotely with no pay for like #an experience thing xjchxhchxjd so worst case I might look into that and like. work at walmart for a bit lol #to build my portfolio a bit and get my name on a project y'know??? #anyways i am. always looking for projects to be on cjfncnndf #i need to make a website for portfolio purposes fhfjfjf just so i have a better place to put all my art and organize it better #ANYWAYS with that said even if it's a project you don't plan on making money off of feel free to reach out i'm less looking for a job #and more looking for the experience fndncbxhdbxf #i'm about to start taking my professor's advice and just. reach out to people directly djdbcncndf #worst that's gonna happen is they're gonna say no

[albatris]

fuck aidan jasper all my homies hate aidan jasper

#a rental car takes a left down rake street and disappears #I'm glaring at him in my outline #i think a lot of the stupidity i projected onto reuben march belongs on Jasper instead #march gives the go ahead but jasper has FUN with it all #aidan jasper is the one who does most of the poking prodding torturing cough cough I mean medical experiments on nat #fun fact! nat is conscious for all of it :-) #being operated on..... and other things :-) #the first phase of jasper's research is just ''lets fuck this vampire up and record how he heals'' #they take a couple organs out #they inject some cancer cells #they remove some skin #they cut some fingles off #then nat gets tossed back into his sad little steel room to heal and maybe do a murder but hes trying real hard #not to do a murder bc they just threw some random hypnotised human in there with him #anyway. #fuck aidan jasper all my homies hate aidan jasper!!!! #its fine nat gets to tear jasper's heart out of his chest later #angery..... #so yes i will b shifting a lot of Reuben March's views and biases on vampirism onto jasper #dw march is definitely still gonna die tho #quinn will hunt him down dont u worry :-) #oh also fun fact this is the bit in the story where nat digests his own appendix LMAO #his body is just like. uhhhhh. we have better uses for this. lets melt it down and turn it into something else #like..... bro???

[machinavocis]

well that rental application took four entire hours to complete but i'm like, upwards of 60% confident that we've got our temporary tucson housing locked down with a six-month-lease start date of may 14th.

#hello friends i started the day with a FIVE HOUR MAD PROGRAMMING BLITZ TO GET A THING LAUNCHED AND RUNNING WHICH I DID #and then i was hella productive in the Non Work Moving Tasks Department #we now have a probably apartment & also a giant multicolored Moving Tasks Whiteboard with task dependency flowcharts #look ok i have 32 years of experience being me & i know that unless i overkill-organize THIS hard THIS early Future Me will be SO FUCKED #and lol when you're moving states you cannot solve your timeframe problems by staying up all night driving shit back and forth in your car #if we lock down this apartment that'll be a huge first step & weight off my mind though #(the main research quest is gonna be INSURANCE & DOCTORS & HEALTHCARE oh my)

[spaciebabie]

PLEASE tell me about your oc lore that comic was SO INTERESTING I'm on my hands and knees begging for more pls

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK I LOVE TALKING ABT MY OCS SM

I HADTA GET MY NOTES OUT FOR THIS ONE!

RANT UNDER READ MORE CUZ IT CONTAINS SPOILERS (EVEN THO IM PURPOSFULLY VAGUE) AND ITS ALSO A LOT

my GOD katherine quin- MY TRAGIC PROTAGONIST BABY WHO FEELS LIKE SHE ALWAYS HAS TA DO SOMTHIN ABT THE SITUATION EVEN THO SHE'S JUST A KID

i LOVE slow burns so everything in the story takes a moment ta kick off. you have katherine, "curiosity killed the kat" quin n her perfect parents, perfect friends n perfect life. everything is good. she's a kookie middleschooler abt ta go ta highschool, she's president of the history club, she's designated as the LEADER of the rexica manor field trip b/c of how dedicated she is ta learning abt their history.

she goes on the trip! it goes great, stupendous even! she comes home!! her parents are unreasonably upset for no reason b/c of a specifc thing that happens that i dont wanna spoil EERURUERUGUEGUEUGR

and she ends up learning a horrible truth. she's like, "i feel like we should do something now, with this thing i aquired maybe i can do something." n ppl keep telling her ta, "leave it ta the adults" "what are you even going ta do?", "everything is already in motion you just hafta wait till it all falls inta place" but-

FROM HER POV THE ADULTS HAVE BEEN STAGNANT, AWARE OF THE PROBLEM FOR 20+ YEARS N HAVENT BEEN DOING ANYTHING (spoilers? this is the incorrect mindset)

so she goes n does something STUPID. she directly puts herself in harms way, she puts herself in the forefront of the action b/c she thinks she can do somthing and the adults are forced ta acknowledge her b/c of this. they're forced ta include her even though they dont want to. again another child has decided that they want ta b involved in an ADULT MATTER and the only way they can make sure she n the other dumb kids stay alive is ta involve them so that they can watch over them.

time passes, a new character joins the fray. a deranged lunatic who will stop at nothing ta get what they want. they fucking flip the WHOLE WELL PLANNED OUT OPERATION THAT HAS BEEN IN THE WORKS FOR 20+ YEARS ON ITS HEAD AND KAT TURNS INTA A DIRECT TARGET.

people are hunting her. they want her dead. the police are aligned w/a new corrupt government that are after the thing she has designated herself ta protect (notice how i said, "herself" THE ADULTS DO NOT WANT HER TA PROTECT THIS THING) she's a fugative. she's an outlaw. she's protecting something the public percieves as dangerous, but she knows its not. her parents cant help her, n while she does have adults there ta aid her its obvi not the same. she misses her parents so much, she's stressed trying not ta get caught n die, having ta move from place ta place b/c of the threat of being recognized n the constant raids on the places she's at. i think that her birthday falls w/in this timeframe so like,,,,imagine trying ta celebrate your sweet 16 when your government is actively out hunting you.

AWFUL ANGSTY JUST THE WAY I LIKE IT

I HAVE HAD THIS WHOLE STORY PLANNED OUT SINCE I WAS 14 OH MY GOD I FUCKING LOVE THIS ARC!! ITS THE ANGSTIEST ARC OF THEM ALL AND AFTERWARDS THE CHARACTERS HAFTA SPEND THE NEXT ARC HEALING FROM THIS HORRIBLE THING WHILE DANGER STILL LOOMS IN THE DISTANCE.

THEY'RE IRREPERABLY SCARRED. PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, KAT IS NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO SUFFERS FROM THIS!

and the best part of it is that some of it is her fault

#FUCK #spacie splains #two #the war organization #rant #katherine quin #oc: katherine quin #IM SORRY IM VAGUE ON PURPOSE BUT I WANT PPL TA ✨EXPERIENCE ✨ IT LIVE #AIHFSIDFHISDFN #YOU WANNA KNOW THE BEST PART??? AS IM WRITING TWO IM WATCHING KAT EVOLVE N TURN INTA A RLLY FLESHED OUT CHARACTER B4 MY VERY EYES #SHE'S EVOLVING SHES TURNING DUDE HOLY- #IASHFUDFHDUJFH #FUCKING- #im still expanding on the 'some of it is her fault' bit #trying ta plan out specifically what she's done (on accident) ta put the ppl she loves in danger #ohh boy she's gonna hafta LIVE w/that one!!! #for the rest of her life!!!

[alsoyooraiyah]

big guy looming over the line 💪🏼❄️

#the line for the merch was already 2 hours long when we got there but thankfully we were lucky enough #to end up talking to an organizer that told us that the line for the booths #for freebies was like 30x shorter #and when I heard you can get a postcard and stickers for just playing some games #best believe thats all i went for and ngl its the only event exclusive stuff so #they gave me a voiceline and I had to guess who it was #got thoma’s voiceline abt going to the market ✨✨ thank you for looking out for me thoma #that was such an easy line to identify!! #it was so funny tho bc they were gonna throw me a bone and give me my main #and when i said my main’s kaeya they were like….. oh…… well we dont have his lines here….. #help 😭😭😭😭 #anyway was so nice tbh to just be able to talk to the organizer #told us logistics stuff and how insane people were bring abt getting in line #like ppl lying and i guesd the mall security told them #and talked abt why they didnt go for a bigger venue right away #v interesting experience tbh!! couldve talked to them all day and the event staff was v friendly