#haha im sleep deprived

[demigod-of-the-agni]

A thing for @breakfastatmiles' dtyis challenge on instagram :)

Been a while since I drew the world's most favourite boy (like. almost a year ago???? uh woops) I wanted to draw something for Percy's birthday but alas I had no idea what to draw :'') consider this late Percy Jackson b'day art

Variants under the cut

#also stop i literally just realised one of the texture images i used has the fucking “stock photo” in it im literally gonna cry #praying to every god that yall never find it. and if you do.... exclusive pictures of dino agni :) #anyway i spent probably the whole day on this. my anatomy exam is tomorrow and i know jackshit #(convincing myself that it's okay i was using anatomy knowledge to draw percy lol haha hashtag in denial and sleep deprived) #i guess now i have to go back to finishing assignments.. #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson fanart #pjo fanart #pjo #myart #artoftheagni

[dxmnsvoid]

therapy: expensive

sleep token: free but im still gonna give them my money

#dont mind me im sleep deprived #haha get it . sleep #(literally didnt sleep tonight i am so sorry lmao) #void.mine #void.txt #void.💤🎶 #void.music #vessel #ii #iii #iv #sleep token vessel #sleep token ii #sleep token iii #sleep token #sleep token iv #worshitposting

[pacificgasandelectric]

Current Events in Silm fandom rlly reinforce my feeling that, despite claiming an ethos of acceptance/tolerance of anything that doesn't hurt ppl, a lot of ppl in the section of Silm fandom I frequent do follow a set of socially-agreed-upon mores about what concepts are "not acceptable" to discuss or propose (or the ways in which certain topics must be discussed to be acceptable), that you all seem to have agreed on despite the things those mores restrict not being harmful to anyone.

And when someone does say smth that violates those mores, the response is disproportionate to the amount of harm done (which is typically none, imo). I know it's tempting to say "but we just want people to be comfortable and safe", but treating ppl badly for the sin of sharing thoughts you dislike is NOT the same as preventing people from doing things that are harmful. The former is much more of a harmful behavior than the sharing of the thoughts that sets it off. Fannish etiquette, people: you shouldn’t act like someone’s meta makes them morally suspect just because you disagree with it; save the “this is morally bad” for things that are ACTUALLY harmful. We're all stuck on this website together & if you want to have any sort of community, you need to ACT like you're in a community, and that means letting other people say things you dislike. Block them if you need to! I block people all the time because i know it's better for me AND for them if we can both blog in peace.

I am not particularly comfortable with the young-queer-on-tumblr silm fandom rn due to this tendency to rebuke things that are uncomfortable rather than harmful. Maybe that's fine with you. But if your goal is to make all fans feel comfortable and accepted, you need to actually do that. If your goal is to make people who share your unwritten rules comfortable in your space, you need to admit that, and write those rules down, and curate your space so it follows them.

Edited 8:10am PST to clarify the specifics of the behavior I find concerning.

#mine #if there had been Actual Harm done i'd feel differently #but when ppl are this worked up over 'what if [female character] was Also a bad person in a way that's reprehensible to our current morals' #and start going ‘hm this person is morally suspect for their Taste In Fiction’ im like. yikes! and you do this in the War Crimes Fandom?! #and like listen i Get that esp in this fandom there's a high incidence of like. ppl who are genuinely bigoted and stuff #and it can be stressful to see stuff that reminds you of that bigotry and the way those ppl use the work to justify their own worldview #but that STILL doesn't give anyone the right to police stuff that Isn't Bigoted. that's just not how this works. #and then in terms of 'well it's not policing it's just disagreeing' i have to say. that's where Etiquette comes in and i'm frankly #unhappy & annoyed that so many ppl in my age group seem to care more about being Right than being comfortable to share a fannish space with #but again whatever maybe they don't want me in their space. that's fine! i don't want to be in your space if it doesn't want me. #but i wish they'd fucking ADMIT THAT instead of going 'ooooh we accept everyone' and then turning around #and censuring ppl whose ideas they find icky. you can't have it both ways is all i'm saying. pick one and actually do it. for all our sakes #haha i might regret this tomorrow but i'm sooooo sleep-deprived and so annoyed #sorry to my non-silm followers it's just that i'm right and i should say it

[tired-of-being-nice]

taking a quick pause from febuwhump and starting on @whumpsday's conflict whump challenge!!!! i was VERY excited about the man vs. society prompt in particular, as it gives me an excuse to do some proper expositing for the story i've been posting

content: dystopia, systemic whump (i think that's the right term?), brief reference to brainwashing and violence, really unhealthy workplace culture, sleep deprivation, forgetting to eat, general Man I Hate Capitalism vibes

Life is simple. You're born. You grow up. You choose which company to stake your life to. You pick the one you think will exploit you the least. You realize you were wrong. You keep your head down and try to be obedient and hope no one notices you. You look away and don't complain and try to find little bright spots here and there, just enough to keep you going until you die. 

Of course, some people aren't satisfied with this. Some people try to fight it. Some people have stupid hopes and idealistic dreams about taking down the system from the inside. Some people are very, very wrong, and look where it gets them.

Supposedly, Milo is doing very well for themself. Supposedly, they're the top employee at their company. In actuality, all that really means is an excuse to keep piling more work on them, a bunch of coworkers who hate them, getting dizzy from exhaustion every time they stand up, and...

(You can't take down the system by yourself, of course. Milo had a friend—a best friend, even. Now, all that remains of it is a brainwashed shell, who out of what Milo can only assume is some sick sense of dramatic irony is tasked with hunting down anyone who tries to fight or flee the Company, or really anyone it feels like. Now, the only times they interact are when it's trying to hunt Milo for sport or when it's sobbing in an alleyway somewhere because it's employers don't mind letting it bleed and bruise and break as long as it keeps anyone from running.

Even so, Milo envies it sometimes. At least it doesn't remember everything it's lost.)

Milo's stomach growls, snapping them out of their brief reverie. Hm. That's right, they didn't have time for dinner today, and they spent their whole lunch break trying to stop crying. They never eat breakfast anymore, either, so...oh, that's not good. Maybe they should—

There's a chime from their email inbox, and Milo sighs and pulls it up. It's a very politely worded request for them to do just one more thing before clocking out for the night.

Milo glances at the clock. It's 2:49 AM. Their vision is blurry and their wrists ache from typing. They barely remember what sleep in their own bed feels like.

They send a reply in the affirmative. No rest for the wicked, it seems. They'll work here until sleep overwhelms them and hope that when it does, they'll dream about the good old days, of having Coren by their side, ready to take on the world. Back when they thought happiness was possible.

#conflictwhumpchallenge #conflict whump challenge #sonder's whump #systemic whump #sleep deprivation #not sure what to tag re: food if anyone has suggestions lmk #im still getting adjusted to this community and tagging conventions haha #oc: milo #ok i think thats everything 👍 #yaaaaay i love making my little guy so so miserable

[beesinspades]

I wish I could say i'm taking the rejection of my application to that zine well, but alas </3

#i am. normal levels of upset not at all crying #and my brain is stupid so now the huge excitement i felt for it is ruined for me and it breaks my heart #but thats the risk with me when applying to zines and i knew that when i applied #still hurts 🥲 #if you know me you know how crazy excited i was over this zine so.....it blows #crying over it like a little baby #the worst is not knowing why they didn't pick me but i understand telling everyone the reason of their rejection is too time consuming #anyway. i applied as a pinch hitter too (which i usually never do so that tells you how serious I was haha) but i doubt they'll need one #and they might not pick me if they do #anyway anyway #i woke up every hour of the night because i was so nervous over this mail #so now im sad crying AND sleep-deprived #i got three hours left time to try to finally sleep properly #god im so embarrassing #beelio rants

[lima--beanz]

humpty dumpy went. humpty dumpy went. humpty dumpy went down. he said screw it ima gyatt right through it and i'll rizz when no one's around

(@zacharylwackary)

#im so sorry #im sleep deprived as shit #my thoughts aren't thoughting correctly #haha thot-ing #anyways #ajr #ajr adam #ajr jack #ajr ryan #ajr songs #ajr band #can of shit

[0ffbrand-h3tch]

Sneeg and Charlie are so The Woods - San Fermin coded to me.

This.

Them to me <3

#esp in thr case only Charlie and Ranboo escape. #“Yet im still buried in the mud” “Skin and bones and brains and blood.” #<-SNEEG #yes it's two am why you ask? #no im not sleep deprived haha #genloss

[apollogivesmevisions]

hey my 4 followers. here's a little something (i fucked up the middle part dont look at that, it was more of an attempt than a full project anyway)

watercolors, felt pens and charcoal, 15×20cm

#so i did a thing #im pretty happy w it #theres a bunch of other stuff id like to put online but. scared #(do it scared) #uhhhh #oh yeah its called A Kiss #i had the idea to make this... for no particular reason #none at all #im not living my best lesbian dream or anything #haha #god am i cringe #what is cringe #ohhh im sleep deprived and thirsty again #okay #uhm #how much tags are too much tags #veesprophecies

[notreallyuseless]

I had the biggest brain fart in the existence of humanity.

Phil is going to Brazil. Do you know who else is in Brazil? Brunim.

...That *would* be funny. Unlikely, but so funny haha

#im so sleep deprived #ive been giggling at stupid video for the past 2hours #dont mind me #philza #brunim #they irl look nothing alike tho haha

[kimaratomoya]

*Casually Materialises*

No one asked for this but I don't care.

Characters that I fucking love from Fazbear Frights that I see barely anyone talking about because they didn't read past books 1-5 usually. Or they forget about them. Because that happens.

Spoilers if you haven't read the books ig??

1. Toby Billings

My beloved boy

He's so depressed lmao

Definitely got some shit going wrong

But we love him

And he deserves better that being tormented by a fucking shadow rabbit

Literally has no mother

She fucking left ✌️

But he has a brother (who is a dick)

And a dad (who supports the brother)

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Bestie I hope ur ok

2. Jeremiah (I don't he has a last name, if he does, I forgot it and I refuse to check the wiki out of spite)

Also depressed probably

Needs therapy

Parker was so mean to him what the heck.

He was just vibin

And trying to finish his fucking job

And this bitch put spicy shit in his chips

>:(

Also Glitchtrap kinda makes him have to find Hope and Parker's disembodied pieces

So that's rude

3. Hudson

Why are all of these people depressed

But yeah he has actual PTSD

Poor guy

Literally was trying to just leave his past behind him BC he couldn't deal with it

And just wanted to exist in peace

uNTIL SPRINGBITCH DECIDED HAHAHAHHA NO

I have a lot of hatred towards William.

4. Colton

Surprisingly, not depressed

Just a moron

I love his stupid little brain

He legit broke into a place to fix a game to get tickets for a game when he literally could've just stolen the game

You little dumb dumb

*headpat*

5. Sam

Bestie

Broski does film????

I do film!!!!!

Also I find him goofy

And Nole definitely spent way too long on the first 3 pages describing how he sits and stuff

I have no idea what his skin tone is because everyone keeps changing it and I am just gonna stick with like the original one I know for him lmao

He's so swag

(probably fruity ✨💅)

Does anyone want 5 (or more) characters I despise for dumb little reasons?

#fazbear frights #fnaf #haha #im sleep deprived #i fucking love these morons #you cannot stop me #Toby Fazbear Frights #Toby Billings #Jeremiah Fazbear Frights #Jeremiah support group (he needs help) #Hudson Fazbear Frights #I DO NOT CARE IF HE DIED IN AN OVEN HE IS STILL ALIVE AND WELL IN MY HEART BC OMG HE DIDNT DESERVE THAT (i know hes dead dw) #Colton Fazbear Frights #i casually dont remember anyones last names #Sam Fazbear Frights #Nole Fazbear Frights #my little gay dumbasses #i fucking love them #Nole 100% checking out Sams ass when no one is paying attention #screw Amber i hope she dies #Amber from Faz Frights. i dont know any otber Ambers #oh well #spoilers????

[sirenofthegreenbanks]

look at it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its so pretty!!!!!!!!!!! aaaa. also can be observed in the wilds here!

#since i was a little girl i dreamed of becoming just as openly unhinged as all the other weird kids #ok but unironically i have been dreaming of this pretty much since i started writing fic (its been. a few years. hah.) #its not perfect. i wouldve never believed this is gonna be how i post my first fic. not ever. i had it all planned. buuuuuuut #who cares!!! not me!!!! #haha. (sweats.) #my ao3 #(im sleep deprived rn which has the same effect on me as being drunk) #(i was too nauseous after posting) #fanfiction #word of honor #wenzhou #zhou zishu #wen kexing #tian ya ke

[vanibear]

wish me no more high school forever.Amen

#haha forgot my anxiety was .This Bad i think may b i should talk to someone abt it #but the thing I’m sick over is so silly and inconsequential and awkward and my fault thatd id feel stupid telling anyone #<- started giving out my chosen name nstead of given to my teachers except i lost my nerve and didnt give it to some and now just everythin #feels weird bc i only ever use my birth name for school stuff and chosen names w friends . And now I want to take it back but that’s #near impossible and if not still incredibly awkward and I just . #i like my classes !!! But I just made everything weird and stressful for myself and now idk what to do abt it and I just .never want to sho #my face there again .and well it doesnt help that im severely sleep deprived .maybe thats whats blowing everything out of proportion for me #vent #hrgh. #kat post

[caroliendsk]

I can't handle it anymore.

#having a major life crisis at 2am haha #i need to go to bed #im sleep deprived

[lorillee]

some other stuff i drew

#one piece #trafalgar d. water law #bepo #yamato #uta #lorillee.png #the genderbend heart pirates thing in the last chapter made me laugh incredibly hard when i first saw it #not because ''haha boy is now girl. wow so funney'' but simply because. it was. that was a category 5 oda moment #like. the amount of ''typical oda'' was so incredibly concentrated that it looped around to being hysterical #like yes lets make law a sexy girl . why not. if anything im shocked we didnt get this earlier #in other news if your genderbend law isnt as crusty and sleep deprived as ungenderbend law then youve failed

[theokusgallery]

Ehy i've seen in the tags of the previous posts that you have a Cold, are you doing aight? This Is a dumb ask maybe since that you have a frickin Cold but i wanted to ask anyways

Oohh buddy... I appreciate your concern. You're sweet. I think I have pharyngitis

#i have to go class today. but i start with a lecture so maybe ill be able to skip that #it took me extremely long to fall asleep because of the pain in my throat so im /also/ sleep deprived. that's fun #may i remind you it's finals week... haha... #im gonna cry. #ask #anon #rant #my head is also spinning. which is. not good at all #this is not a good timing i dont have TIME to be sick right now.

[dearwysteria]

!!Spoilers for Talentless Nana Manga!!

!! tw !! (just in case)

Due to some things I recently learned in US History class, I've seen some parallels between the managed camp for the talented, and camps formed in the US for Japanese people and the concentration camps.

During WWII, Japan had bombed Pearl Harbor, and as an aftermath of that managed camps were created to house Japanese people. Which my class interpreted was because of the public's fear and paranoia that any Japanese in America was a spy.

In Talentless Nana, a "terrorist attack" had happened and the Talented were blamed for it. The aftermath of that was that a managed camp was created to jail the Talented and keep an eye on them.

A second parallel I've noticed is of this:

The managed camp is advertised to the public as a place where Talented are living happily. (Chapter 79)

'Theresienstadt,' a Nazi propaganda film -created in 1944- that depicted the concentration camps as a paradise and where Jews were shown as happy and thriving.

-

Just wanted to point this out. I don't really want to dig too deeply into this since I'm kinda burnt out from school.

If anything in this was insensitive or anything, that was not my intention.

#talentless nana #munou na nana #manga #little details i noticed #haha im applying stuff i learned in school #are you proud of me #i need sleep #its like 2 am #im really sleep deprived #dont mind my rambling #rants and ramblings