#he never looks!! right!! what the hell!

[synvelesow]

just like the old times, chap

#fear and hunger #fear and hunger termina #fear & hunger #daan #fear and hunger daan #pocketcat #fear and hunger pocketcat #synvelesow art #something done fairly quickly. got a lot of ideas but very little time.. working on Bigger pieces though aaah #funfact i hate drawing pocketcat #he never looks!! right!! what the hell! #facing the shadow of your childhood uuuu

[haunted-xander]

What's there to be afraid of?

#i think her 3 years w thancred were a special kind of hell but i think thry had good moments too #i mean ryne very clearly admires and looks up to him even when hes fucking everything up #and shes never shown being scared of him #at most shes nervous or anxious #the closest to her being scared of him weve seen is right after we save her from capture #and shes nervous when she admits she ran off bc she didnt think thancred would let her go #but thats just being worried about ur parents scolding u which everything has felt at some point #that said i do think she recognises that thancred COULD be scary #and probably is to some people #but shes never seen him that way #tho tbf her point of reference is ran'jit who is far more intimidating than thancred could ever be #so really i think her scale of whats scary or not is kinda skewed #ryne waters #thancred waters #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art #xander being insane about ryne

[lgbtlunaverse]

As a character Meng Yao is largely defined by his lack of freedom and while I think it's very important to understand that when he insists over and over that he had no other choices (that wouldn't put him at serious risk of death or severe harm) he is usually right, I do fucking love that just once- just once- the narative presents him and us with a crystal clear heartbreaking example of a better choice, a way out that he didn't even know was there, right as that possibility is taken away from him forever.

When Nie Mingjue walks into a forest angry on Meng Yao's behalf, ready to help him in any way he can, and Meng Yao kills a Jin captain thinking no one's gonna come. And then their eyes meet.

Fucks me up.

#mdzs #meng yao #jin guangyao #nie mingjue #its not just that if nmj hadn't seen it he would have gotten away with the murder #it's that if he'd known nmj was coming and would have rasied absolute hell about his mistreatment HE WOULDN'T HAVE DONE IT #if he knew that was an option he WOULD have taken it but he didn't! #i'm so fucked up about this #if the story did this all the time it would make him look kind of stupid or like all of his poblems were of his own making #and if there was literally nothing he could have done then... what's even the point of trying? #but it only happens once. and its singularity just heightens the tragedy #and RIGHT at the start too #it's like he locked himself into the route in this moment. you had one choice and now you never will again #but you can never stop trying

[passionesolja]

Gortash from Baldur’s Gate 3

#gortash is more fine to me than Captain Hook like Ik they wanted me to thirst for hook but I never could #now a mf like me looks at Gortash and says I want him hell yeah that man right there #I dunno what it is about Gortash like he is just more handsome and got a better personality #bg3 gortash #bg3 #enver gortash #baldur’s gate 3 #baldur’s gate iii #once upon a time #ouat #ouat captain hook #captain hook #bg3 meta

[indecisive-v]

forgive me, i've really gone down the p5x rabbit hole now

#what i'm REALLY saying is i think it's interesting how different these two are at least to me #joker got into this because it was his chance to make things right #wonder got into this because Why The Hell Not #i think wonder and p5x's whole apparent theme of having desire and the ability to make choices has some serious potential #after looking at the translates of wonder's awakening i really think janosik's whole speech is basically telling him #'you've been sticking to the status quo and never putting up resistance. but doesn't this new world interest you?' #and i feel like p5x's awakenings are less about rebellion (esp with the personas that seiji/yuki/mont have) #and more about realizing what your desires are in a non-corrupt way #you come to terms with your desire -> you come to terms with your shadow -> you awaken your persona #do you get what i’m saying #persona 5 #persona 5 x #p5x #persona 5 the phantom x #p5x wonder #i just think wonder's awakening was him realizing he wants to have a lil more fun in life #aaand i just saw a typo in one of the earlier tags #god fucking dammit #i'm probably just saying the same thing repeatedly in different ways but i HOPE ANYONE WHO'S INTERESTED UNDERSTANDS #for all i know i'm actually just projecting really hard onto wonder #minus the fact that i think there is no way in hell he's neurotypical (i am neurotypical)

[pcktknife]

thinking xinyans spikes make her look unappealing........

#imma explode i cant stand genshin fans bro yall dont know anything #thinking shes out of place in her country bc of her eng accent and rock and roll....shes pioneering a new genre she punk shes literally #is not meant to fit in #ive never seen a worse read of her character #also moving her to mondstadt would better her character at all 'make her barbs best friend' YUNJIN IS RIGHT THERE #theres literally a dynamic of a traditional opera singer being friends with a musician of a new genre how the fuck do you think putting her #in mondstadt would better her character #and saying her being brown doesnt affect her popularity bc kaeya is so stupid as if kaeya isnt a character you 1) interact with multiple #times 2) has lore directly tied to a huge plot point of the game 3) is brothers with diluc and also has that lore happening #she and kaeya have different number of fans cause kaeya has more lore and has more importance to the story her being brown could still #effect xinyans popularity regardless of what kaeya looked like he was probably always gonna be popular #im gonna explode no one's allowed to have opinions on xinyan but me now cause what the hell did i just read #kae.txt #ive never had the interpretaton of a character piss me off so bad oh my god #mhy

[eebie]

man the way six's head WHIPS 2 glare at mono after he breaks the music box

#i forgot she did that and it caught me off guard LMAO . silly but also Fuckkkk my heart #these poor kiddos never had a chance #and her posture is noticeably changed :( she's hunched over starin at the ground #immediate sign that Something Isnt Right #thats part of what i adore sm about little nightmares It's never ever stated what's going on b/c no dialogue #you need to Pay attention to their body language and their actions and shit #it's why i side eye people who r like ... ooh six.... shes Evil omg..... ucan see from the start of the game... #or she saw mono's face n recognized him as the thin man #the first 1. u dont know what tha hell u r talking abotu Im sorry but did u even PLAY tha game. or you're like 8 years old LMAO #and the second one HOW!!! mono's baby ass face looks Nothin like the thin man #and did u forget he spent the last 10 minutes basically beating the shit out of her . like we know why he did it but six #she was in another state of mind bruh #put urself in her shoes . Or her jacket since she doesnt wear shoes heehee #my rambles #little nightmares

[handsomegentlebutch]

My 3 little cousins were baptized today. "Triggered" is kind of a strong word but being in a catholic church again... I'm a little fragile rn ngl.

#butch speaks #it was hard not to shake as i held J over the basin to have the water poured on his head #when he was cleansed of sin. as if a little kid could ever knowly or intentionally offend a so-called loving god #the words came naturally to me #but they meant nothing #i remember when they used to mean something. when i begged gods forgiveness for my sin (being a lesbian) and tried to pray the gay away #i remember how much i wanted to die bc i could never truly embrace the sacred #i STILL deal with the complex of catholic guilt. its a very real thing. its hard to shake #i cant help but wonder if the catholicism ingrained in my brain is why i have a hard time with casual dating n sex #fun fact: there was a point when i was a teen that i got REALLY catholic #i prayed everyday. i talked to my patrin saint (st agnes) every day. i wantsd to become a nun #the thought of marrying a man mad me more sad than feeling like an alien did. so id marry the church as a nun. #not the way to hide being a dyke when ur fam is catholic btw LMAO #the first priest i knew was father joe. i loved that guy. he was so kind. friendly. briming with love. #he was one of my biggest references for what a good person was like #he talked about gods love a lot. how its for everyone. no one is exluded. ever. #he used to look right at me when he said stuff like that. a few other kids too. all of whom grew up to be queer #then father joe passed away. our church merged with another church. father jeff was the priest there. #he was kind but not as kind. he talked about hell and sin more. he looked at the same kids father joe did. #but the kindness in his eyes wasnt there. #that wasnt for us. #my family wasnt even THAT catholic #i went to church every sunday i did vacation bible school and catechism classes and youth group #i was an altar servant and in the choir #i even used to speak/understand a little latin #imagine how much worse id have been if my mom could have afforded catholic school lmao #grateful to have grown up poor in that regard #hm. actually... reading my own tags. mayne we were pretty catholic actually. #fucking hell. #i need to have lesbian sex in a church before god and everyone. mayeb that would fix me.

[hauntingblue]

making a collection

making another collection with a threatening aura

#davy back fightbpart 3 letsgo #HOW do the three big guns get wasted on the eating contest... horrible plan.... luffy is fine bc well... but not sanji and zoro like damn. #luffy DOESNT WANNA EAT??? CALL THE NAVY!!!! #what was i saying.... bad idea putting the three beasts there #FRANKY FRANKY FRANKY!!!! they captured the two princesses :( #one sided beef squashed between luffy and foxy. friendship ended with random ex marine guy. now luffy is my best friend #usopp and franky bonding time hell yeah. throw usopp by the head once more pelase #nami with zoros swords just like holding them looks so cool like she should get a few swords too... nami three sword style oda drawing pls #i think this man underestimates nami and luffys power together he doesnt know about shiki #luffy saying he knows its a trap and sorry for being late.... lets go on an adventure all nine of us.... usopp yes anding his lie..... omg #cant believe nami isnt there yet. she could take this guy. oh there she is!!!!! she does look cool with the swords and jumping to get luffy #zoro screaming in agony from luffy getting shot omg THIS FUCKING GUY OF COURSE!!! this looks like its so over #zoro and sanji must feel so useless rn. they didnt even get the chance to fight like damn #komei-kakka??? more like come caca. boom #luffy face down dead on the floor akdjkaa chopper have you tried looking at the wound to see if it harmed him idk #it hit the face akdjskn usopp that was coom also #was robin flirting with the other guy and zoro caught her and she told hum to shut up??? #'your friends got the best of me but you are still in my arms an-' 'HEAT EGG!! ALSO YOU'RE ON FIRE!' #flare maneauver that was so slay also luffy and nami in the same frame so twins of them. my children. birthed them one right after the othe #zoro and sanji fighting back to back. back to back to back to you i dont wanna fall right back to us maybe you should run right back to her #that is such a bop song. also post wano zosan. and post wci. see the recurrent theme #fighting in water.... being on top of the sword that was a slay... red hawk ace i will never forget you it seems #foxy liking his jolly roger omg nami fooled him ahdhsjs i think they should have pirate game event every year they yearn for contests #now since this experience foxy should make monthly multitudinary pirate games olympics hoping the strawhats join them a la gatsby #the faces at the mushroom akdhaksjs #talking tag #watching one piece #watching one piece movies #kinda loved how robin betted on franky against usopp.... i will take the crumbs

[corfisers]

love when he just Lies

#that whole internal monologue is lies lies lies #but it's so early on that you might be somewhat inclined to fall for it. and there is some level of truth to him saying #that he's accepted himself but it feels more like resignation rather than acceptance if it makes sense? #and “i've never been envious of other people” is the cherry on top. there's kuga and then there's aoi #and there's the quiet moment of him looking at that woman with her little kid while going through fucking hell internally #and so many smaller moments here and there. doumeki saying how it's his right to decide what to do with his life and his body #and yashiro just responding with “isn't that nice?” #even that brief conversation about amou with tsunakawa. cause you know. misumi dragged yashiro into the yakuza and isn't letting go #meanwhile amou had all the opportunities (given by misumi! the fucking irony) to do literally anything else with his life #but daddy issues are too strong i guess. amou and doumeki are two different flavours of the same thing it's so fascinating #anyway where was i? right this monologue. good set up for something that's gonna be getting dismantled throughout the rest of the story #saezuru tag

[dot823]

Thinking about the throne art from KH. The parallels between Xehanort and Sora. Kairi being put in Sora's place. What does it MEAN?

I wish it meant that Sora might become an antagonist. The cycle repeats. Children of destiny are destined to fall. What makes Sora special? He is a special little guy I love him, but...they are all special.

Maybe I should write a fic.

#the answer is nomura loves sora #so sora is good boy #but LOOK #look at baldr. hyper empathy but made to feel like he would never be enough. locked away. gone. lost to darkness. #look at Xehanort. hyper empathy. child of destiny but he saw how the world worked and hated it. took destiny into his own hands...or maybe #he fell right into the destiny that was set for him #hell look at terra. pushed and pushed and told darkness was evil and much like baldr thought he'd never be enough until he lost himself #look at saix. he had friendship he had love but look at what he did when it was threatened #whats going to happen to sora what is he doing in response to dying fr fr this time #and is it really fr fr this time? probably not #god nomura please im losing my mind

[theimpossiblescheme]

Say what you will about the Cyrano movie (and one day I'll be able to in a halfway articulate manner), but I am still mildly obsessed with "Every Letter", and I think about this ending couplet all the time...

Your letters are drawings on me from above I know who you are and I know you are loved

Just... the idea of Cyrano and Christian receiving a letter in return from Roxanne and feeling their breath catch both with ecstasy and with bitter regret.

I know who you are...

But she can't. But she mustn't. But it would break her heart--she would never trust them again. But it wouldn't be fair to Christian. But Cyrano could never show his face again. But they already feel themselves burn under her gaze, and to meet it honestly without the armor of a soldier, of these letters, would scorch them until nothing remains. But the only true honor is to hide, even if they know it's really the coward's way out. But the only safety (if they were being brutally honest with themselves) is to hide.

... and I know you are loved.

But God, they wish they didn't have to.

#It's four thirty in the morning and I have been slam-dunked back into Cyrano Hell... #Listen okay ever since the movie introduced the idea of *Roxanne actually writing back* I have been even less normal about these idiots. #The imagery is so fucking delicious either way because you get to imagine either the two of them sitting close enough together #that they can both read either together or over the other's shoulder and just... occupying that space together the two nearly becoming one #and I get to lose my mind over the proximity and the warmth between them forged in the fire of their love for Roxanne. #OR *or or*... the two of them taking turns reading and just *watching* the other's face as they read trying to glean from their expressions #what she might have said and the intensity of that study becoming its own terrible intimacy that right now they can only show through proxy #and I *also* get to lose my mind over Cyrano watching Christian and musing that even if his partner might look like a marble statue #he's never seen a marble statue make that face before but he's *definitely* seen it from Roxanne and it's just as coronary-inducing on both #and Christian watching Cyrano and musing that this might be the closest he'll ever come to seeing the pride of the cadets #and the mythic figure he's built around himself completely *shatter* if only for a moment... he's *human* and he's *exquisite.* #CANNOT be normal about it... it's 'So--here's my heart under your velvet now'-- #it's 'I've loved but one (man) in my life and now I must lose him twice'-- #it's the darkness of the balcony and the endless sunshine metaphors regarding Roxanne herself-- #it's the goddamn Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known and how much Roxanne *craves* it from two men terrified to submit to it... #God these three make me sick I love them so much. #cyrano de bergerac

[spider-man-2o99]

Just wanted to say that I have been thinking of you and pre-emptively empathizing with the nonsense you are no doubt being flooded with and the psychic damage it must be causing. Keep stanning the king ignore the weirdos <3

thankg u.,, i feel like ive been trapped in a fuckign . Torture Labyrinth these past coupl days . but. wwe will. We Will Yet Persist onwards w/ our hand on the left wall till we;re either out or at the center i swear 2 fucking GOD,

#talking tag #asks #th pain is forever the Horrors r unending the lack of media comprehension on all sides is Disappointin But Also My Goddamn Life I Guess lol #though i will say ppl in my inbox have actually been.. surprisingly polite overall? if not outright rather kind as a whole. um. post-atsv. #but. god. i have not Talked About so much of that movie because i kind of just. #..ok actually i realize this is gonna sound rude as hell lmao. but. hhaha i Kinda Just. was fool enough to Assume that everbody would yknow #like. Comprehend The Film yk yk yk. since it is a well-written movie that doesnt try to Hide any of what it;s abt? yk? #i come On Here onto tumblr dot bumblr and i make my stupid esoteric gddamn complaints abt 2099 Themes for Me Only so my head doesnt blow up #n silly ol me i really do like earnestly honestly in my Heart think. like. we all saw the same movie. right? mayb thingsll calm down. #but oh oh oh oh oh no no no No No. they do Not calm down they get So Much Worse. #and now hypothetical Internet Strangers might be Passing Judgement bcuz we look like an Apologist 4 assuming Everyone Knew Media Literacy #CHRIST. do people think i think mig was. like. In The Right. in atsv. no ive known he would be Wrong for years dudes. #why do yall think i was so low-key Disappointed he was placed in a role that couldve better suited. like. Superior Spider-Man. #public image. DING-DONGs. man he is Never Going To Be In Movies Again After This Hes An AU SPIDER-MAN FROM THE 90S. LORD! #i had SO MUCH FUN watching atsv!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i dont like the choices it made to put miguel in the situation that it did. Bizarre Thematic Changes to 2099 that Only I Care Abt. but like #that is SUCH a fuckin SMALL and insanely autistic nitpick like i earnestly loved the hell out of the film and its mig is-- #--Earnestly One Of His Better/Best Adaptations despite bein within the limited confines of th plot nd setting he is In & w/o his inner mono #..i just. Hate So Much That This Movies Version Of Miguel Will Be The Only One That Anybody Knows For The Next Seven Years At Least. yknow. #i lov watching that fuckers trainwreck of a slowmotion mental breakdown for two hours but the movie gave practically Zero Context 2 newbies #BTSV please save me BTSV please save me BTSV PLEASE save me PLEASE please please please PLEASE BTSV youre my last hope.... #(arthur clenching his fist meme) ppl r Already so shitty 2 ppl w/ Messy Symtptoms i could Handle losing MK but SM2099 means too much 2 me..

[autistic-katara]

writing would fix me

#i just need to figure out how to do that #i have ideas but idk how to make them actually into fics #and one of them is one of those “how would they act in this situation” things except it did happen in canon just off screen #(nico coming out to hazel) #bcz idk normally i’d just look for fics of that happening but i’ve read fics and they feel so ooc #like u gotta find the right balance between “nice person who cares abt her brother and wouldn’t discriminate” #and “someone who went to catholic school in the 30s and 40s” #bcz i love hazel and she’d never call him a slur and say he’s going to hell or smthn #but like internal biases are a real thing and chances are he’s the first openly gay person she’s talked to #so like i gotta figure out how she’d react #and then i gotta consider what circumstance this is happening #like is this an “i wanna tell my sister i have a boyfriend” thing or just an “i wanna tell my sister im gay” or even the more angsty #“my sister said some shit and i accidentally blurted that im gay” or smthn like that #and yk how long am i gonna make it who else is gonna be in it god this is so complicated #writing #pjo #ryan shut the fuck up

[everysongineverykey]

i know logically that good omens season 3 will probably include aziraphale learning the error of his ways and apologizing to crowley, and crowley, in turn, at least forgiving him if not leaping into his arms, but it's kind of hard for me to personally believe that considering that if i were crowley, i would never, EVER forgive that louse. in fact i would want him dead

#good omens spoilers #i am. not happy with aziraphale if you couldn't tell lol i kind of hope he explodes #I KNOW THAT'S UNFAIR i know he has a lot of very complicated reasons for doing what he did #and he really just wanted crowley to be happy and finally with him #but i'm still mad. imagine you are a demon #and not even hell likes you. no one will take you. and eventually you finally find someone- ONE PERSON- #who you believe loves you just as you are. no question. someone who gets you and wouldn't change you for the world. #and you FINALLY after a BILLION YEARS work up the nerve to tell him you love him and you want to spend eternity with him #and he looks you in the eye and says 'i've got a better idea! why don't i make you one of me? then you'll finally #be happy! then you'll truly be good and we can be together!' #and all you hear is 'you will never be good enough for me'. #i would've killed him right there. lol

[torchwood-99]

Ok, been sitting on this for a while, been trying to talk myself out of it, but here goes.

The book doesn't sell me on the love Theoden had for Eowyn.

I tried to read it and find something in his actions towards her that tell me he has proper regard, proper respect for her, that gives any weight or meaning to his love for her, but I can't find anything. He dismisses her before the entire court, doesn't consider her an heir or a proper part of his house, and has to have her virtues called out to him by other people, when she has been serving him for years.

Return Of The King sees him spout platitudes and declare her "dearer than daughter", but none of this is backed up by his general actions to her.

He loves Eowyn, fine. But he doesn't love her the way he loves Eomer, or probably loved Theodred. He doesn't love her as a fully realised being. Nor as someone to take pride in and carry on his legacy. He loves her a crutch, a tool, and something between pet and person.

He has affection for Eowyn, but his love feels more like a trivial thing, than something with any real worth or regard to it.

#Lotr #Lord of the Rings #Eowyn #Theoden #I don't think this is Tolkien's intent #I think I'm meant to believe that Theoden was awesome to Eowyn and did love her more than a daughter #but Tolkien never gave me a reason to believe that #can someone find me a moment in the books where Theoden's love for Eowyn feels like something substantial #where he loves her for who she is and not for the services she has provided #where he shows any respect for her capabilities and pride in her person #and not just going along with it when other people point them out to him #I love them in the films and I want to believe in their love so much #but Theoden's love for Eowyn in the books just feels perfunctory and leaves me feeling empty #I don't think this is how their relationship is meant to make me feel #Eowyn put her life on hold and endured hell for Theoden's sake #and we never even get an implication he regretted what she endured for his sake #we never see a hint of Theoden regretting how he snubbed her before the court #almost every scene between the two of them in Two Towers lacks warmth or regard between them #the minute Theoden's recovered he sends Eowyn away as though she's not longer of use to him #he forgets her bloody existence before everyone in the hall #he has her wait on him while Eomer Aragorn Gimli and Legolas all get to sit with him #and in turn all Eowyn can do is look at him with cool pity #and at their parting she focusses more on Aragorn than Theoden #she clearly isn't feeling the love right now and why should she? #it makes Theoden calling her daughter and showing her some morsels of affection in Return of the King feel empty #like now yeah he can be bothered to acknowledge Eowyn a bit now that it suits him #but when other stuff is going on she falls to the back of his mind #there's enough unseen moments or gaps where perhaps if Tolkien had written them I might have believed in Theoden's love for Eowyn #such as their parting before Pelennor which was described as “painful” #but that pain could have meant a variety of things