#healthcare is a stressful job field!!

[bookwyrminspiration]

I don’t think I’ll ever get over Sophie’s first experience as a Telepath (who can feel emotions as well) being her time in a HOSPITAL.

Like, the death? The grief? The anger, hurt, the heavy emotions of loss? Of relief and seeing your loved one saved? Nah I’d be traumatized for life if I had to feel all that.

You make an excellent point, Nonsie. Hospitals are such overwhelming places with so much going on and especially so many negative things. People go to hospitals when things are wrong!! When they're hurting and anxious and in pain and suffering. And nurses are constantly working and keeping track of things and trying to save their lives and dealing with these people and it's!! exhausting!!

Waking up from a head injury at five years old and just suddenly being overcome with all this pain and fury and grief and exhaustion all at once when she has no clue what's going on or what's happening to her except that it's not supposed to be there? terrifying. she talked about her experience and how scary it was, but I think scary doesn't even begin to cover it! she went from a normal person--she may have been of a higher than average intelligence but she was still normal--to having all that ripped away from her in a moment.

and then Mr. Forkle planting the knowledge in her brain of what was happening and that she couldn't tell anyone? that's devastating. I think she said she'd "never felt more alone" when she talked about it, which is entirely understandable!! this is a huge secret that permanently changed how she interacted with her family and peers, and she was only five!!

I think you're right and that Sophie would be traumatized!! I think she is! Remember how she thought of her telepathy in the first book? She thought of it as a burden, something negative. It made her life miserable and all it told her was information she didn't want to know. Information she could never act on because she wasn't supposed to know. She says later on that she never thought she'd miss hearing thoughts, which can be interpreted to mean that she wanted them gone.

her first experience in the hospital combined with all the awful things she had to hear her whole life were traumatizing! and she responded to it by isolating herself and hating her ability and thinking less of herself. it made her hesitant in relationships. and I think it's entirely possible that her hatred of doctors and human medicine in general can be partially attributed to that first experience. yes, she didn't like the needles and being strapped to machines, but I think the thoughts and pain and fear and sorrows of the hospitals would've made her dread them and anything related to them on top of all that.

in summary you are 100% right Nonsie I think we brush over Sophie's first experience with her telepathy being in a hospital, because that would absolutely suck! it would suck so bad! it's treated like a backstory and as such we don't focus on it a lot but as soon as you look closer it's like??? excuse me??? ms. foster how are you functioning. is it the denial? I bet it's the denial

#kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #quil's queries #nonsie #sophie foster #healthcare is a stressful job field!! #so both patients. loved ones. and all the staff's thoughts blaring into her brain all at once? #when she's not old enough to process it properly? #she hasn't been exposed to hospitals before! she's a kid! #awful. horrifying. I want to give five year old Sophie a hug and tell her it's going to be okay #tw caps #long post

[skyloftian-nutcase]

Have some Healthcare AU quotes

Hyrule: We should go hiking!

Legend: It’s raining.

Hyrule:….and?

Wars: He’s too salty for the rain, Rulie, he dissociates in water.

XXX

Wind: Well, when you’re sick and tired of just sitting around at home, let me know and we can hang out!

Four, slowly burning out: I’m just sick and tired, period.

XXX

Wild: I’ve gotten pretty good at reading the vibe of a unit when I go in there for anything.

Twi: Oh?

Wild: Yeah. For example. Your unit? 7 central? Immaculate. Friendly nurses, cheerful people, pretty happy with their jobs. Next door in the PICU, stressed but hanging in there, and very dedicated to what they do.

Twi: What about the ED?

Wild: Insane, on fire, held together by a thread.

XXX

Nurse, cheerily: Hello! Ready for another shift?

Legend, staring at her as she walks by: Why the hell is she so cheerful?

Warriors: She’s from the PACU.

Legend: Oh heavens. Is she staying?

Warriors, cringing: Yeah.

Legend: May her soul rest in peace.

XXX

Altered older lady, slyly smiling: So, you married, young man?

Hyrule, without missing a beat: Yes.

Lady: Got any kids?

Hyrule: Three.

Mo, after the call: Congrats on the marriage. I thought you only had two kids though? That’s what you said last time.

Hyrule, shrugging: Three made it seem more established I guess.

Mo, laughing: So what are their names? Oh, is Aurora or Dawn the wife?

Hyrule, beet red: L-Let’s change the subject.

XXX

Malon to a medical student: Do not touch the sterile field.

Time: She will kill you, and I’m afraid my OR is already booked so I can’t do much to fix it.

*later*

Student: *sees Time cutting open a human being* *proceeds to pass out*

Time:…..Well, at least he didn’t touch anything sterile on the way down.

#lu in healthcare #linkeduniverse #linked universe #I’ve given up saying I’m not married when grandpas ask #so yeah I’m married got kids leave me alone pls #it’s a safer answer anyway

[lichenstone]

This is honestly just me yapping about irl stuff (I had to watch some TedTalks for a class/lab) but I need to see more of this kind of discussion.

I love science. I love biology. I love hearing about the new discoveries that people are making every day so that we can understand more about ourselves and the world around us and maybe even make life better for everyone. But for the love of all that is good and sacred people in the scientific and academic community HAVE GOT to think more critically and deeply about the wider implications of what they are trying to accomplish. I'm not just talking about considering alternative applications for things; I am talking about social impacts. Political impacts. I think sometimes we get too caught up in the excitement of finding something new and thinking of all the good it could do or the money it could make that we fail to consider the fact that discovery does not exist in a vacuum.

I just watched some TedTalks about the "Genomic Revolution" or whatever they're calling it and judging by the comments on the videos and how the speeches are written I'm worried that not enough people are looking at this from a wider perspective. Most of the discussion about genome sequencing and improvements in genetic technology revolve around the hope that it can bring personalized healthcare to a level heretofore unseen. Talk about detecting things like cancer before they even become problems, finding the exact perfect medication to use for a patient, and having a comprehensive health record that follows you from cradle to grave.

These things sound incredible, like they'd streamline various forms of healthcare to the finest possible point, but something that one of the presenters said stuck with me like some sort of slime. He asked the audience to consider - rather offhandedly - the possibility of using genome sequencing to see if one would be naturally good at math or music. He also brought forth the possibility of using genome sequencing to judge the merit of political candidates. He said these things with wonder and excitement and it honestly shocked me how quickly those possibilities were brushed past.

I don't know if y'all caught it, and this might just be me reading too much into things, but what that man was talking about is eugenics. For those unaware, eugenics can be boiled down to the idea that only people with certain traits should be allowed to reproduce. This is also softened to the idea that people could be selected for jobs based on their genetic traits making them more "suitable" for whatever job. Eugenics is - and I cannot stress this enough - dangerous pseudoscientific bullshit. It is Social Darwinism at its vilest and most absolute. It is a belief that has led to the incarceration, torture, and deaths of a truly unknowable number of people; and while "hard" eugenics is a bit harder to find these days than it has been historically, "soft" eugenics very much persists.

I have all the faith in the world that the majority of scientists studying genetics and developing these technologies really do want to help people and make healthcare easier and more precise. However, more people in scientific fields in general need to be taking into account the world we live in.

We, unfortunately, do not live in a world where the latest in scientific advancements will be able to do the most good for the most people as soon as possible. We live under capitalism. We live in a world where the very wealthy will have access to near unfettered access to the fruits of the scientific community's labor and where everyone else exists to be exploited. We live in a world where the powers that be would rather assist in the eradication of the disabled and the mentally ill and prevent the possibility of them existing in a future (which any disabled person knows is a pipe dream) than make the world a better place for the ones currently living now simply because they believe it is not profitable for them to do so.

Anyway

#I'm sick of the whole 'designer baby' discussion when it comes to CRISPR and its ethical problems #bc it just barely scratches the surface of what the actual problem with that kind of thing is #which is actually our society's willingness to participate in and ignore the history of eugenics #rambles #disability #cripplepunk #tw ableism #tw eugenics #science #biology #genetics

[doumadono]

I've read in one of the replies to precious asks that you're a doctor. How would you describe the experience of being a doctor, what type of doctor are you, and what aspects of the profession do you find particularly engaging or compelling?!

Hey, Nonnie :) Well, you've hit on a topic that I could talk about for hours on end, because I'm so passionate about my work. So if you're ready for a bit of a rant, I'm more than happy to oblige!

Being a doctor can be a rewarding and challenging experience. We play a crucial role in the healthcare system, working to diagnose and treat illnesses and injuries, and improve the overall health and well-being of our patients.

Those who know me personally are aware that I'm a certified neurosurgeon, but I haven't limited myself to just one specialization - I'm currently working towards completing my second specialization, which is clinical neuropsychiatry ❤️ 👩‍⚕️

PROS:

Ability to help people: One of the most fulfilling aspects of being a doctor is the ability to make a difference in people's lives by helping them overcome illnesses and injuries

People and their stories: Another great aspect of being a doctor is the opportunity to work closely with people and to learn about their unique stories and experiences. As a doctor, you become intimately involved in the lives of your patients, and you have the privilege of helping them through some of the most challenging and difficult times of their lives. You get to witness firsthand the resilience and strength of the human spirit, and you have the opportunity to make a real difference in the lives of others. There is truly no greater feeling than helping a patient overcome a serious illness or injury, and seeing the joy and relief on their face as they recover ❤️

Dealing with critical situations: Another imprtant aspect of being a doctor is the training you receive to handle extreme situations. I have seen and dealt with a lot of drastic things in my career and life overall, and I can confidently say that nothing really scares me anymore. It's a unique skill set that you develop as a doctor, being able to remain calm and focused in high-stress situations (it helped me oh so many times!)

Job security: The demand for doctors will always exist, which means there will always be job opportunities for qualified professionals

Opportunities for lifelong learning: As a doctor, you never stop learning. New treatments, technologies, and procedures are constantly being developed, and we must stay up-to-date on the latest advances in our field. This can be intellectually stimulating and rewarding!

Varied career paths: There are numerous specializations within medicine, which allows doctors to pursue a career path that aligns with their interests and strengths

Respect and prestige: Doctors are often held in high regard by society, which can provide a sense of respect and prestige

Collaborative work environment: Neurosurgeons work closely with other healthcare professionals, such as neurologists, radiologists, and nurses, to provide the best possible care to their patients. This collaborative environment can be both challenging and fulfilling

Deathbed phenomena: As a neurosurgeon, I am frequently confronted with the reality of death. Many of my patients come to me in critical condition, and while I always do my best to save their lives, sometimes the outcome is not what we hoped for. Working with dying patients has given me the opportunity to explore the intricacies of the human body and mind during the dying process. It might sound morbid to some, but understanding the physiological and psychological changes that occur in a person's brain as they near death is a fascinating area of study. It's not just the physical processes that interest me, but also the psychological and spiritual aspects of death. I'm currently working with my team to gain a better understanding of what happens in the brain as a person approaches death, and how we can use this information to provide better care for our patients and their families

CONS

Long working hours: (OMG, how much I hate the night shifts!) We often work long and irregular hours, including nights, weekends, and holidays. This can make it difficult to maintain a healthy work-life balance and can lead to burnout, and it becomes even more challenging when you have young children at home

High stress: The job of a doctor can be incredibly stressful. We are responsible for the health and well-being of our patients and may have to make life-or-death decisions on a regular basis

Emotional toll: We are often exposed to the suffering of our patients and their families. This can be emotionally draining and can lead to compassion fatigue. As a doctor, it feels like a personal failure when I am unable to save someone's life. I often experience intense remorse and replay the entire situation in my head, on and on. I constantly question whether there was something more I could have done? Maybe I could have applied a different medication, or ordered another blood test? The what-ifs can be exhausting, but they drive me to constantly learn and improve so that I can provide the best possible care for those in need

High expectations: Doctors are held to a high standard of performance and are expected to be knowledgeable, skilled, and compassionate. This can be a lot of pressure to live up to 🤷‍♀️

High cost of education: Becoming a doctor requires a significant investment of time and money. Medical school and residency programs can be very expensive (I would like to express my gratitude to my beloved grandmother here, who sadly passed away last year. Her unwavering support (also the financial one), encouragement, and unwavering faith in me have played a significant role in getting me to where I am today. Despite doubts and skepticism from others, including my own parents, she never wavered in her belief in me. She often told me, "If you ever think about giving up on your dreams, just remember that I'll be watching you from the other side, so make sure to think twice before making any rash decisions - or I'll come back and haunt you until you change your mind." Thank you, Nanna ❤️❤️❤️)

So, that's the end of my long rant. For those who made it through to the end, I want to say thank you for reading!

#asked and answered #anonymous #author's rant #long rant #neurosurgeon #clinical neuropsychiatry #young doctor

[apassionateman]

Nurse Burnout...

A growing number of nurses are walking away from the profession, The New York Times writes. [GO READ THIS ARTICLE]  It's a result of burnout that spiked with the pandemic: some 57% of nurses now report feeling exhausted, while 43% are considering leaving the field. The departure of experienced nurses means there are fewer opportunities for students to get essential in-hospital training, in turn exacerbating hospitals' staffing problems. To address this crisis, the president of the American Nurses Association says hospitals must monitor and act on nurses’ stress levels, for one, and “change the glorification of working without breaks.”

Nurses are the backbone of healthcare and society cannot afford to continue break our nurses. Three actions to alleviate the shortage are: 1) Implement state and federal policies for safe staffing and nurse to patient ratios or have private hospitals boards and upper management to DIRECTLY get involved and stop expecting mid and low level management to resolve these massive areas of burnout. 2) Include an equal representative percentage of nurses at the table when a) developing a plan of action, b) addressing health systems boards, c) public health and policy development, and 3) Encourage professional development -  through further education or hospital / work professional development The mental, physical, and emotional job description are critical to develop solutions for our nurses to both thrive and feel safe in their roles.

Burnout is real!

Emotions are raw and fully exposed!

Don’t blame the nurses if they snap in front of you...

People don’t know or realize how long they’ve been on duty or how many shifts they’ve worked.

Keeping it real...

Just this Passionate Man’s opinion.

#JC

[kochivamarketing]

With the rise of big data and analytics, the role of a data analyst has become increasingly important in India. Data analysts help organizations make sense of large amounts of data, identify patterns and trends, and derive insights to aid decision-making. This has made data analyst one of the hottest careers in the country today.

But is it really a good career option in India? Let's examine some of the key pros and cons of being a data analyst in India:

Pros:

Strong demand: With data influencing every aspect of business, there is great demand for qualified data analysts across sectors like IT, banking, retail, healthcare etc. This demand is likely to grow as data collection and analytics become even more critical.

High pay: Data analysts are well compensated in India, with average salaries ranging from ₹5-10 lakhs for entry level going up to ₹30 lakhs for experienced professionals. Salaries in metros can be even higher.

Cons:

Rapidly evolving field: New data tools and technologies are emerging rapidly. Data analysts need to constantly update their skills to stay relevant. Learning can be demanding.

Stressful deadlines: Data insights often need quick turnarounds. This can lead to stressful situations, overtime and tight deadlines.

For those looking to start a career in data analytics, platforms like Kochiva offer comprehensive online courses to help you learn in-demand data skills. Their industry-relevant curriculum, expert faculty, and virtual labs ensure you are job-ready from day one. I highly recommend checking out their data analyst certification course.

Overall, a career as a data analyst promises strong growth in India. With the right skills and continued upskilling, it can be an exciting and financially rewarding career for those with an analytical bent of mind.

#onlineclasses #kochivacourses #online courses #data analyst jobs #data analysis #kochivalearning

[toddlertimess]

I’m at work, so let’s do a work update.

My previous job (healthcare) forced us back in the office 5 days a week, so I put in my 2 weeks lol, with no other job lined up. That job had run its course. There was no room for advancement, no financial growth, etc. and I had been thinking about getting away from healthcare for awhile. I had worked in it for over 10 years and the reasons above are the reasons I didn’t want to continue with healthcare. I like to move up within a company. I like raises.

About a month after I quit, I got a job in the law field, which is where I want to be. I did not, however, anticipate that my first job in the law field would be with an extremely high volume firm but here I am. I actually tried to quit. The job is very overwhelming and very stressful. And my commute was 45-60 minutes through rush hour traffic. But they countered my quitting offer with some other offers for me to stay, which I accepted. They moved me to a location that is closer to home and that has taken away a good majority of the stress. But don’t get it twisted, this job is still stressful and still overwhelming at times but I’m catching on and my bosses have nothing but great things to say about me. I feel appreciated and valued here, which you don’t get in healthcare - you’re just another seat in a desk.

So while sometimes (probably more often than not) I complain about my job, I’m actually pretty content with where I’ve landed.

#the first update #I didn’t know I had it in me #but I do miss this community #especially bc I’m not on any other socials #this has been a work update #work

[fxirysforesight]

Paid Readings Reviews

One - "For some feedback: For the career reading, I found it to match well with my career-driven mind and I thought it was funny how being a lawyer was mentioned since my family has been saying I should be one for years. I know I'd be good at it, but the stress of the job sounds intense. I know tarot readings are generally based on current energy in a sense, but I'm not gonna lie, this reading made me nervous for my future even though I know I have my own free will to choose my path."

Two - "For the fs readings, I was surprised because I didn't feel as though this person would match me well in terms of balance. I feel like I'd argue with this person a lot lol. Of course I'm not sure anyone's fs is necessarily supposed to balance them out. Regardless, I found it interesting to read, and it's nice to see new perspectives."

Three - "I loved the reading but it’s scary like you described myself omfg, down to my job"

Four - "The reading was very interesting especially the army/military part bc she had experience training in the navy and her dad is also a police officer"

Five - "Just finished the readings and I love it~ can I just say you are spot on about the career reading! I am in healthcare field specifically a therapist and already there’s a lot of competition but I’m trying to make it work haha"

Six - "thoughts as i read them: at first glance i was like ??? why does this somehow sound very fanfiction-like because i never thought that my soulmate would be like this. anyways i am not gonna lie, at first i thought this person isn't my type, until i realised this person might exactly be someone im looking for? - i like taking care of someone and i like the idea that im sort of a caregiver, but at the same time, i want to be cared of by someone older? - someone with power or someone who has everything they need in front of them. - oof that tsundere part... - that shufflemancy. i looked up the lyrics and the short description of the song and it says "The song’s lyrics express the strong feelings the narrator feels for a loved one from simply standing side-by-side with each other." and i really need that omg... it's also funny how im a taurus. im not sure how this may relate to the reading fjddjdjdk anyways im not sure whether it resonates or not bc i haven't met the person yet but thank you so much for the reading! i might do it again in the future~"

#🍓 fairytalks #kpop tarot #paid readings #tarot

[foxgirlmoth]

The constant Feels Like I'm Going Nowhere that has persisted for years really fucks up your brain huh. I haven't:

Continued electrolysis in pursuit of bottom surgery (No healthcare for a while, and now currently I have no income)

Gotten my associates. Granted, this is something I'm (hopefully) finishing this semester. I should have been done so last semester but health issues and disabilities severely limit how much I can do a semester. I had to basically drop 2 classes last semester. I've been in college for 6 years.

Related to the above statement, watching the industry I started my degree for constantly burning more and more each year has worn me down. 2 years of experience in my field doesn't qualify for a starter position apparently, nor does it seem like applications even get viewed most of the time.

Moved away from family. It is actively harmful in this 'home'. Family constantly belittles and insults me. No money + paying off a car for several years has limited what I've been able to do money wise. One of the few times I could have saved up I was paying rent to my family (except they had me mark it as not rent, so they wouldn't get taxed for it) for pretty much all my extra income. This should be resolved this year when I move in with the loml who has been the best and I can't go into detail without bawling about my love for her and how she helps just being around.

Past jobs have also fucked me over. Becoming the only manager of a medical/retail mix at the age of 19 stressed me out to the point I had breakdowns weekly. 2 years working at a sbux wore my physical body down to the point I'm still having issues 2 years later. I did all this with misdiagnosed fibromyalgia since I was 12 (Idk how a past fucking dr thought I had a certain other 6 WEEKS MAX condition when it had already been years). I'm just so tired. I don't even know if I can get on disability, I feel like I'd be rejected. I hardly know what I could even do for work at this point. I left my last job because of harassment from all the way up to the VP. That job was just sitting around half the time and my pain was so bad I missed weeks of work regularly for a couple months. I just feel so lost half the time. Being in the workforce for 10 years has just made me a broken husk devoid of passions.

#Generally I'm honestly pretty happy right now #Stress from classes makes me want to fucking maim one of my professors because FUCK business classes. #But just. I need change. Change is scary but its needed #I've needed change for ages (move out) #The one time I did I was fucking abused in more than one way. I know that won't happen again but just. It makes my stomach turn a bit. #I need more friends I can hang out with too #but my social battery runs dry so so so fast. #I miss Maxine rn too. #But I know I can't just spew all my problems at her all the time #That would be unfair #Thats half the reason just typing this all out here. #I know I'm not unique in a lot of these problems but just. Fuck. I'm exhausted and I have been for years. #I forget what I've tagged my rants and stuff as before.

[heartwithsilver]

Pluto in Aquarius in the 10th house

What happens when the Planet of passion, intensity, power, darkness, and possessiveness is working with the zodiac sign that loves reason, freedom, and transformation?

The sign of Aquarius and its rational side is just to leave behind, for the individual and especially for society. It's aggressive, because nobody wants to lose something. It's the sign of technology, because the other signs are so obsessive about their desires, being and doing the same thing every day. Aquarius learned to be free, to be more creative.

The sign of freedom, changes, and transformations in the 10th house, the house of recognition and success. This makes the 10th house the career plans, the roles played within the business or government ranks. Freedom and change in the work and career sign can bring many bosses the desire to make changes to the workplace, structure, or change the address and remove some co-workers.The fear of losing work can bring some gossip and conflicts with co-workers. For those who are always in innovation, especially trying to learn about communication, knowing how to work in a team, and technologies, it is very difficult to lose your job. It is very important to look at technology. If you are in the healthcare sector, look at healthcare technologies. If you are in the security field, look at new technologies for the security field. If you are in the food and restaurant industry, look at new technologies for the food and restaurant industry. It's working from home for more freedom or having a job where you can move a lot with Aquarius' freedom. Perhaps, many become writers, writing books, home design, creating clothes, arts, Youtubers, and producing music for example, and no longer need to work where they needed to work. With this astrological aspect, many people are interested in being their own boss. The collectivity and freedom of Aquarius can offer more help for young people to take an interest in sport. It's having your own business. That's what many will want. It is not interesting for Aquarius to love a neurosurgeon, because it is a difficult career, and ignore someone who works with Yoga and meditation. With Pluto in Capricorn, the intense dedication to one's career brought a lot of stress, fatigue, couples to separate, divorce, and illnesses. If Aquarius sees that Yoga and meditation are helping people a lot, it is a profession that will not be left behind. It may seem like this aspect will make people a little lazy about their career, low in ambition and lazy. It's about seeing what's not working in the work, the flaws in the work, and just changing that. It is not an energy of obsession with work, but it is an energy of consuming a lot. With so many people losing their jobs, anything must be done to have money. It is necessary to look closely at what society is consuming. The easiest place to have money is on the internet and social media, but 90% of what is consumed on the internet is not necessary. Just saying. But, Youtube and social media is a career tool. In this type of work, there will be changes too. If Aquarius sees something they need and don't need in this type of work, they will make changes and transform them. Some will believe that there is something wrong, a technical problem on social media and other platforms with many people stopping following and leaving comments, but it is just Aquarius getting very tired. Or there may be more modifications to social media to attract more people's attention. With new things on the market comes more money to buy. Unfortunately, if you don't have these new Aquarius with Pluto toys... Unfortunately, children and parents will have some problems, because they want more and more. It's important to know that children don't think about status, but adults teach children to like status. There are many parents who took their children to toy stores to see their children's joy, but especially to demonstrate to other parents how much they can offer their children, and even to show themselves to other children. (I remember my mother almost killed me when I lost the gold earrings she gave me as a child. But, I had no idea what gold was like any other child). This house builds the structure of society, the stereotypes and the rules, especially the stereotype of what represents success, what represents a successful career, the profession of the poor person, the profession of the rich person, the profession of dedication and strength, and the career for the female and male public.

There are many movements that many workers will make, to have more security and money, to produce more. New jobs and professions will be created. These jobs can be created with good intentions or disillusionment with the difficulties of creating a stable career, so career creates that deceive and lie to have success and money. Go for the easy way out. It is good to always choose careers that were created with good intentions.

#Capricorn #Aquarius #Pluto in Aquarius #10th house #2024

[propaganda-inc]

Tw: Depression Propaganda

I don't want, nor expect this to go anywhere. Actually, I kinda don't even know if this is a good idea to post this on here. But I have nothing to do, and it's better to put my thoughts on here rather than keep them in, or so people say.

I'm homeless. I'm not going to go into detail as to how this happened, because it's the Internet.

But it's hell. I feel like I've been dumped out on the world without a clue how things really work, and expected to fit in like the last puzzle piece everyone's looking for. I didn't realize, even during college, that my main goal was to survive, not live. Everyday since I've graduated high school, since I've graduated college, was to try and follow a road and path that was not for me. And every step I've taken since then has been on the wrong way. I thought doing an entry level job in my field would help me figure out where I needed to go. It just made me a drunk, a cynic, and more depressed than I ever thought I could be. I thought moving might help, and put me in a place where I could help others in a better way. That just made me even more stressed out, and even drunker. After all this, I know I'm damn lucky. I'm homeless, but I'm safe. I can get the basic stuff I need. I'm even in a training program. I have some friends in real life I can talk to. But I'm empty. Totally hollow. When I'm not at work, all i do when I get home is the exact damn thing- watch TV, go on my phone. Nothing gives me joy anymore. I can't even play video games anymore, because I just don't have the urge. The past week has been me taking melatonin just so I can sleep during the day so I don't have to go through the whole day awake. I can't get myself to get a hobby, because I don't have the energy or urge to do anything anymore. Interests aren't acted on. The only time I feel like I have emotion is when I have to fake it for others. Hell, I have an idea for a video that I'd love to make. But like everything, I think that "yeah, I have no experience nor any idea what I'm doing." Then the urge vanishes. Everytime. Just like everything else.

I've started to be called a Doomer. I see it, I get it. When you think that the world has 20-30 years of normalcy before all hell breaks loose because we can't agree on whether or not plastic in the ocean isn't a really good idea, some people don't particularly want to be told that.

But what the hell do you want me to think when I've spent time learning just how little of a fuck most people do/can give about a world that is quite literally burning before our eyes?

Look, I'm trying to do the things that people say are going to make things better. I've set therapy appointments. I'm trying to take care of my body. I'm trying to take care of my head. But having no money makes some of that hard. Getting appointments rescheduled the day before because your healthcare system is dogshit doesn't help that. Neither does living in a world where you question your existence as much as others like to deny it. Ah, oh well.

[barrenwomb]

being a healthcare worker requires incredible mental and physical strength, resilience, patience, and a overall strong personality. i would never recommend anyone to choose such a career path unless they’re totally sure about it and second guessed themselves at least ten times. which is hilarious because i never dreamed of being a nurse nor i thought i was suited for it. quite the contrary, actually. i always thought i was weak willed, too soft, not alert and smart enough, way too fragile and lacking in social skills to put myself in such a stressful environment. however i found out i’m surprisingly good at my job and not at all the idiot i thought i was. i’d lie if i said being a nurse has always been my passion or my dream — i actually used to find the idea alone completely abhorrent. as someone with no particular predispositions or ambitions, i chose the field of studies that would have allowed me to get into the work force as soon as possible, that’s all. i don’t regret it at all, though. i’m actually glad i made this choice and after six months of work i came to the conclusion there’s nothing else i could do if not working in a hospital. however there are days, like this one, when i feel like i could break down at any moment. i’m so, so incredibly tired. of course this job is inherently hard, but there are also so many issues in our healthcare system it’s frustrating and tiresome and unfair. i’m usually quite confident in my skills, but today i feel insecure, doubtful, and self conscious. sometimes i’m too exhausted to give my best and it’s ok. or at least i’m trying to convince myself it’s ok. i’m going to sleep now

[theambiguousteacup]

So I started another new job, this time I hope to permanently stay here. It’s through a big hospital network, but I’m working in an outpatient setting so less stressful in regards to no life and death situations with patients anymore. The amazing thing is this place has the best benefits and the pay is almost the same as the hospital I came from. Historically, nurses work in the hospital because they pay well, so to work outpatient but still get hospital grade pay is seriously life changing for me. I make like maybe 200 dollars less now that I’m not working grueling 12 hour night shifts in the hospital. I feel very blessed. This place I work at now is super busy, I wake up at 430am every morning, and I sometimes don’t eat lunch until 230pm in the afternoon… but the thing is, I don’t have to work in a hospital. It’s crazy that we, as nurses, think it’s a luxury to just be able to afford to live without working in a hospital. It’s that fucking bad now. I feel unsafe with the working conditions there, and I’m never going back. I hope to never be a patient anytime soon.

I also just generally feel blessed because most of the patients I see now are elderly and seriously the sweetest people you will ever meet! I feel a pride in my work I haven’t felt in a long time working with this population. They are so pleasant and appreciative, and I love talking to them about their lives and learning from them. Obviously not all of them, but most of them are so kind.

Additionally, I spend most of the day injecting local anesthesia, assisting the surgeon for the procedures, and placing pressure bandages so the patients don’t bleed everywhere. I’ve become an expert on numbing people with lidocaine. I never thought I’d be this confident with needles and bandaging, but here we are.

The field of nursing is so broad, y’all. Don’t give up on the field. Get out of these hospitals until they start giving a f*ck. I’m so so tired of our healthcare system. I came into this career to make a difference, and I refuse to let these hospital managers take that joy away from me. This new job is so refreshing for my burned out nursing career.

#nursing #healthcare #nursblr #personal

[sepulchretide]

my job history ratings

concession stand worker at baseball field - 2 years, 5/10 got free food but people would shit in the urinals i had to clean and would throw their orders at me if I got it wrong or gave them wrong change

UPS Store Cashier - 1 month, 1/10 got fired because I was still in training when I was left alone with customers who had weird special packages and charged them wrong

Graphic Designer - 1 month, 1/10 got fired because owner knew nothing about graphic design, head guy fucked up a big project and had to pin it on someone, coworker yelled at me a lot before that and tried to get me fired earlier by giving me drug brownies and only telling me that AFTER i had eaten some

Graveyard Groundskeeper - 1 year, 8/10 actually liked this job a lot cause I got so much alone time and just had to keep things looking neat. Boss was a trump supporter though and one coworker was a conspiracy theorist who refused to drink water so he passed out from dehydration regularly

Furniture Assembly/Delivery - Half a year, 6/10 another job I liked because I had a lot of alone time to just work and not be bothered, sucked because the hours were long and they didn't offer healthcare despite the many injuries and heavy things I was moving/lifting

Gamestop - 3 years, 1/10 fucking hated every minute of that job

Party City - 3 months, 1/10 I hate retail

Background Checker - 2 years, 6/10, work was stressful and confusing you needed to meet a daily quota of cases, which all had their own unique rules, apart from that it payed me the most compared to any of the prior jobs and offered healthcare so that's the best in that regard

[ava-tam626]

Blog: Doubts About Healthcare

Ever since I was young, I always knew that I wanted to be in the healthcare field. I wanted to perform the miracles they did, save lives on a daily basis, gain fulfillment-- all the same reasons why everyone wants to be a doctor. Now, I have a better understanding of why I want to be a doctor; it is to truly be in the boundary of life and death, where everyone is teetering, hoping not to fall. By being in this boundary, I think I can find a greater purpose for what we call life. I also am someone who works better in stressful environments, and time seems to pass faster. Being a doctor involves constant quick thinking and problem solving.

While the job is ultimately rewarding, sometimes it feels like it won't bring me happiness, even if it is fulfilling. Saving a patient must feel incredible, but losing a patient is something that I don't know I can handle. My guilty conscience would weight down heavily on me; knowing that someone died at my hands is an extremely hard pill to swallow, even if it happens on a daily basis in hospitals. Being around so much death would not do kind things to my mental health.

There is also the amount of time commitment and dedication to being a medical professional; the years of schooling will take up most of my youthful years, and part of my dream is to travel while I'm still young. Although I can take a gap year, I still want to get through medical school as early as possible. This is a constant debate I have. I won't start making actual money until I'm 30+ years old. Also, being a doctor means you must sacrifice time with your family and friends for your job; being on call is difficult, and at any given moment you might have to go into the hospital. If I want to be able to raise a family and be extremely present in their lives, the medical field may not be the best option; however, I know there are many professions such as anesthesiology and radiology that provide a better work-life balance.

[tachycardic--tendencies]

Any update about the job stress? I’m going through something similar in terms of deciding between jobs in my field of IM. It’s crazy how glamorized medicine is to be this profession where everyone drives sports cars and take lavish vacations and send their kids to private school. I feel like my friends in non medical jobs (tech, finance) make as much/more without nearly the same responsibility. Making decisions about tech or stocks will never equate to making decisions about a person’s health…not to mention the emotionally taxing aspect of human interaction that goes way under appreciated, especially when you have multiple complicated, chronically ill patients, some who take out their frustration on you, or those who are truly the nicest but also at their lowest who you try to raise up and make feel better. Just basic appreciation with steady salary that’s not comparable to those who, despite definitely going through their own challenges and educational requirements, put in a lot less years in training and have different responsibilities all together. I completely empathize and hope you can find a promising solution. Keep us posted!

Hello!

It’s been a trip, and I totally agree with your statements. I also have a ton of building resentment towards healthcare as a whole because you see this trend of doctors being vilified on social media for things that the general public just doesn’t understand. I get they have no context to, but still.

I see 25 patients a day, 100 a week, 400 a month. If I see less, admin comes down on me. Impossible with the complexity of rheum patients so there’s just this chronic background fear and nausea that I could miss something. We all do because we’re human, but it doesn’t feel great.

It’s getting easier or I’m getting better, maybe? At the very least I’m adjusting. If I could do it again, I may have gone the midlevel route because you still make six figures and you can’t get sued (right now, anyway). Or I would have kicked something that at least paid more for this amount of work (probably why anesthesia match was such a bloodbath this year).

It’s not terrible, I guess? It’s more like..:could be better, could be worse and so I guess I’ll just stick with it.