#honestly it hits me right in the feels

[stuckinapril]

Just feels right to dedicate v day to me idk

#not to studying not to a platonic date not to hitting up a boy last minute but just 2 me. strictly 2 me. #I think I deserve a day of taking myself on a date and having fun by myself and not having to force it w somebody else #I’ll probably also buy my family flowers/chocolate but otherwise I want it to be a me day #just feels like the right call after everything that went down over the last year honestly #p

[youremyonlyhope]

Living with Body Focused Repetitive Behaviors

Me: *Is super stressed over life.*

Trichotillomania: Time to pull some hair! C'mon. You won't even notice you're doing it. It'll make you feel better.

Me: NO. *Spends 4 days putting hair in a mini twist protective style* There.

Dermatillomania: Hey. Your hands are free. And restless. And dry... Pick your skin. Bleed. Bleed.

Me: Stop! *Starts up a new crochet project to keep hands busy.* Ok cool.

Onychophagia: Hi hi. Your nails are.... perfect biting length... you should do that.

Me: Noooooooooooo *Paints nails.*

Dermatillomania: Oh look, you got some nail polish on your skin. Pick it off... now pick some more...

Me: SDJAKFDSJFKLDKAFDJKLAFJDKSAKLFDASL

#is this tmi? oh well. this is the tmi website #trichotillomania #dermatillomania #onychophagia #bfrb #body focused repetitive behavior #ocd #guys guess what? my therapist all but prescribed that i get a manicure to prevent picking at my skin #apparently after a year with this therapist i never mentioned my finger picking until this week #and she was like 'ok since you find it tough to paint them yourself get a manicure. self care and preventative' #because my cuticles are horrific due to me constantly picking at them and the sides of my fingers #so i've always been too embarrassed to go to a nail salon and my therapist was like 'exposure therapy!' #currently my nails are sloppily painted because i can't hold a brush still and they're already chipping after like 5 days #actually they probably started chipping on the second day honestly. #i need to redo my twists a bit which actually satisfies the trich urges since i'll be running my fingers through my hair to do it #but i won't actually be pulling. but also. i will be getting the shed hairs out. so. kind of fulfills that. #but right now my nails are long enough for me to feel them sometimes hit my keyboard. which. isn't normal for me. #and despite the nail polish i feel the urge to bite them shorter ahhhhh #anyway if you're Black with natural hair and have trich i HIGHLY suggest mini twists since it helps deter me from pulling #sure i have to redo it every few weeks but seriously. game changer. harder to find individual hairs to pull.

[b4kuch1n]

weather's turnin' cold

transcript

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #assisant sonia #gym leader raihan #three parts of a whole idiot #hi hello! hi. wow I have NO energy recently #got sick 1.5 times. made two cakes of various levels of deflated. walked a lot. slept SO much #and the weather is indeed cooling here! in fact a storm is hitting central vietnam right now #and I uh. I dont think its gonna affect the north a lot. but thats a good thing. I do not envy the folks down there at all... #gonna keep an ear on the ground for them. hope it's all gonna turn out rather uneventful #meanwhile. I draw little comic #this is how I (chronically tropical person) feel whenever I see snow and bare skin in the same frame #it's honestly a bit funny to me always that postwick is southmost and wyndon is like. the center of the north #forest imps leon and sonia vs city slicker raihan. and now temperate beautiful weather children leon and sonia vs #hail/snow/windstorm/humidity rotate raihan #raihan's childhood dream of seeing torrential rain outside and saying 'hm no. I think not' and weather manip hammerlocke into dryness #these are not textual impressions I do not fucking remember how the weather is in in-game hammerlocke. I just think itd be funny #also my brain was doing donuts around like. leon being exasperated at raihan's bare legs every winter #until he went on T and by age 16 he's like oh. oh I get it #(that doesnt last long he's still a frostbait southerner. u see the leggings. u know how it is) #okay. I'll doodle some stuff and transcribe this tomorrow. now I sleep #have a good night lads! bundle up

[willowser]

Willow🥺 are we taken because of connection to dynamite or just wrong place wrong time??

I hope it's the former, because if it's explicitly because of him, I don't know if his heart can handle it 🥺🥺

i do think.........that we were targeted 🥺🥺🥺 i was trying to allude to it a lil, when talking about his frustrating patrol 🥺 they chased a guy all the way across the city and still never found his partner—bc his partner was busy snatching us up from the station !!!!!

i think he definitely feels guilty in a way, bc they're taking you to get to him, but also—he lives in a world and works in an occupation where people are hurt and killed every day from villains and criminals, sometimes just bc they were in the wrong place at the wrong time. so while i think it does eat him up that this hurt is meant for him and they're taking it out on you—honestly i think it just really pisses him off LOL

he's kinda like. oh you think so huh you stupid fuck ??? 💀💀💀💀 you think you're gonna get away with this do you ??? you want to go there with me ??? 💀💀💀 like he's sooooooo. would probably beat this guy's face in LOL like he's PISSED. you want a reaction from him YOU'RE GONNA GET ONE GOD DAMN IT.

#like do not get me wrong this is going to haunt him for the rest of his life #the feeling of knowing he might lose you/might have already bc of your relationship with him #but i do think that he's level-headed enough to know like. this is the work of an evil person #he's just so fucking mad like you're gonna take it out of my fucking partner dude ??? 🤨🤨🤨 grow some balls and face me yourself #LOL #i mean he does go through a whole staring at the wall disassociation moment bc they took you bc of him #but honestly i dont think that would hit until he got you back #he's too worked up right now lol #✿ ask willow #✿ thoughts: bakugou #✿ theme: y/n napped

[kindfrog]

savvy

close up

#captain jack sparrow #pirates of the caribbean #fanart #I honestly could not tell you what inspired me but I was hit with a wave of if I do not draw this character rn I am going to explode #I’ve never drawn him before and I cold not get his face right for the life of me #I imagined this as though he had recently just pillaged some treasure and is taking a moment to feel bonita

[sluttyten]

My afraid-of-romance ass has just been asked by another regular customer for my number and the stupid thing is that again I do think this guy is kinda cute and I really probably should say yes

#the fear tho lmao #what am I afraid of? I have no fucking clue #this is why I’m still questioning my sexuality lol like what am I? do I even actually like guys? do I like anyone? #in an existential spiral at the moment #but honestly why do they always ask for my number #like dude just give me yours and let me make the decision when you’re not right here in front of me #but I felt bad telling him no today just because the last time a customer asked and I said yes I almost immediately regretted it #and then that didn’t work out because I thought he was too young #young* and now he still sometimes comes by and I just feel awkward about it #maybe I should turn to Facebook and see if I can find him because I have set an age limit for myself and I really don’t want to entertain #anyone younger than that #but I’m……… I know I’m like never active in here anymore #but I just needed to talk about this somewhere #because any of my coworkers would probably tell me I’m being ridiculous or they’d just seriously keep questioning why I keep saying no to #customers that hit on me and my best friend would probably also not get it #idk y’all I just needed to rant about it/talk about it #anyway I’m definitely gonna stress over this until tomorrow #and I’m gonna feel really bad if he stops coming by

[idyllic-affections]

the like to reblog ratio on what i believe is my most popular post is crazy. not in a particularly great way 💔

#aphelion replies: moots 🌸 #100 notes before it hits 1k; there are only 38 reblogs and probably less than 8 or 10 with tags #and before ANYONE thinks they have the right to tell me “don't complain”-- #disrespectfully shut the hell up 🫶 #if you don't create content you do not get to tell content creators how to feel 👍 #it is somewhat upsetting but honestly i'm okay with that #it'll upset me but i will continue writing anyways because i make content that caters specifically to ME!!!

[digitalresorts]

recent gijinkas (magic fire types) (this wasn’t planned) (fire is fun to draw lol)

#adrian #aiza #typha #honestly its weird how this happened bc ive been trying to finally design all of the ocs i have that still dont have a design right #and tbh the way i went about it is just going on my th page and hitting the unsorted button in my pokemon gijinka folder #and these guys just happened to be the first two #typha was more planned tbh she isn’t actually my oc (she belongs to my brother) and the reason i drew her in the first place is bc she’s #related to aiza (tall guy standing next to her if u couldn’t tell by the same color palette) #and my brother took that as an opportunity to make me feel bad abt not having a design for typha yet LMAOO #snyway yeah they’re alright. fav design out of these is adrian hehe #ashe art #oc #pokemon gijinka #delphox gijinka #typhlosion gijinka #2023

[the-silly-urge]

did the house of grief with dark justiciar shadowheart (parenticide edition) and it fucking SUCKED 👍

LIKE IT WAS GOOD WRITING WISE I JUST. Wow it is gutting. Very good voice acting. I want to sit alone at the bottom of a pool for sixty-five years though.

(i accidentally really really rambled hard in the tags uhm. it is what it is)

#shadowheart #act 3 spoilers #she is so upset she shakes like a leaf she's #she's so prepared to be shar's right hand #it's all she thinks she's ever wanted #and suddenly it all crumbles #you really have to be a bad influence on her constantly to bring her here and it's so clear #all the blood she's spilled to get here. it would all be for nothing if she didn't do this. #and the way she forgets after and you ask her about it #is honestly as haunting as her being made to forget her memories when given up to viconia #like at least in the interaction that follows it #since the scene where she's taken away does feel immensely fucked up apart from that #bg3 spoilers #rambles #omw to DIE btw baldur's gate keeps destroying me #also doing this as durge with shar calling herself shadowheart's Mother(tm) #hits different yk...

[bahoreal]

posted this photo on insta and my mum went "i loveeee your hair like this" so i am seriously considering cutting it all off again

#its genuinely horrifying. hitting me right in the uncanny valley. i look like a straight girl #but my hair has been getting curlier and curlier so i feel like short looks with me trying to nurture those curls #would look much better than my hair used to when it was short n mostly straight #honestly im just insecure cause i gained weight since the last time i had short hair and im convinced itll look bad. :/

[taeyungie]

😺

#i haven't addressed yoongi's situation yet because i'm honestly still not hit by it i guess. like it didnt gwt to me yet #i dont think ill ever love anyone the same as i love him you know what i mean #he has been the first reason of my self development. like he literally raised me??? i learned from him how to be the person i am today #and its like im saying goodbye to a family member. the thing is i have never griefed anyone's absence like this #its like a part of my soul will be missing until he comes back #but at the same time i know what he would want for me. to move on and to become my own reason #he would want me to be kind to myself. to focus on myself and not miss him that much. #he would want that for all of us right #but i have a very hard time processing things. do you guys remeber the festa last year? when we found out theyll be going on hiatus #the reality of it snd the fact that it will be happening hit me onky after around 3 months. #thats when i first cried because i realized what it meant. ofc i knew but it didnt occur to the emotional part of my brain at that time #and i feel like im truly gonna fall apart when THIS hits me in 3 months lol #my life has never been worse and thats honestly the time when i need the reassurance the most #when i need the people i love and find comfort in the most. #but its just me and thats technically just my problem. but since i am talking about my view on this then thats okay i guess hahah anyway #i just hope he knows there are milions of ppl who love him as much as i do. and thats like extra love like forever & beyond type of shit #i honestly dont think other people ever truly fully understand how we feel towards them. especially when you really love somebody #because they have their own opinions about themselves. they debate whether they deserve some kind of treatment or not. we all do that right #and i just know he does that too. i just reslly want him to feel completely loved and cherished and appreciated. #i want him to see himself through our eyes. to surround himself with people who see him exactly the way we do. #to fall in love with somebody who will see him like we see him #nobody deserves better life than this man. and i hope that after our reunion he will live that life to the fullest 💓 i can't wait to see it #anyway. if somebody needs to talk about it or wants to get sadness out of your system - im here 💓 #please keep your heads up and lets wait for him 💓 #we have esch other and we will be okay 💓 #sorry for typos i can barely see its 1am 🤓

[jemmaredgravewhore]

on a slightly different note i do understand aziraphales decision. like i hate it but i do.

it’s the religious trauma.

the not wanting anything to change despite knowing that it’s bad and doesn’t serve you anymore.

the deep-rooted belief that you don’t deserve the good things you really want,

…which leads to self sabotaging in order to not give yourself even the faintest glimmer of hope,, bc if you actually let yourself hope for it then you have to deal w the consequences later when you don’t get it, or it doesn’t go as planned (bc obviously in this imagined scenario you’re never going to actually gEt the good thing anyway,, so why would you prolong the agony?)

#idk this probably isn’t worded amazingly bc i rushed to try and get all my feelings out #but yeah #honestly i think it hit harder for me #bc it’s literally my worst fear that i’ll wake up someday and decide to go back to the church #like after everything i’ve been thru #part of me still thinks #‘but what if they were right’ #the brainwashing runs deep im afraid #it doesn’t just magically disappear when you stop believing #good omens spoilers #good omens #aziraphale

[rosykims]

i actually cannot believe triss didnt get that fucking kiss. i hope ava's whole engine falls out of her stupid car <3

#oc: triss #I MEAN I KNOW THE OPTION WAS THERE BUT LIKE #triss has been NEGLECTED her whole life !!!! the only intimacy she's every had has been exploitative or situational !!!!!! #she wants someone to STAY with her for once in her damn life !!!! #and be loved in a permanent non transactional way !!! ava hitting her with the 'i COULD kiss u but then its over jsyk' <3 is so fucked #honestly its such a rebecca move 🙄 and once again triss left feeling like she has to beg on her hands and knees for scraps of love #which she just cant do anymore ! and shouldnt have to do ! #so yeah. ive had some time to think after sleeping on the end of book 3 and it just made me madder <3 #im especially annoyed that the kiss was followed up by the (admittedly cute) party scene. like no girl my detective is HEARTBROKEN #and MAD #she doesnt want to hang out with that fucking blonde freak right now !!!!!!! #kiss-rejecting detectives better have the option to stay mad at du mortain at the start of book 4 bc ive had it up to here w the bullshit !

[oetter]

god bless my professor i love that woman so much

#im fucking. shaken up by what happened earlier. it scared me more than i realized at the time #hockey is a dangerous fucking sport. i didnt even see the kid get hurt but watching them get him on a gurney and wheel him out #with a neck brace and an iv just. god. he’s 19 years old. he’s a teenager. he’s still in critical condition right now. #going back through the footage i got isnt really helping and i know i can’t do proper voiceover work right now or i’ll sound like a child #emailed my prof abt the sitch and she is. the kindest woman in the world and offered an extension despite the policy being 24 hours advance #and it’s due in two hours. yet she gave me another full day. im gonna cry #i need to go to bed. i just. i feel sick to my stomach about the poor kid and about this assignment. #it just didn’t hit me that it can happen to people i know and love and seeing the ambulance pull up to the rink i just about ran inside #trying to make sure it wasnt one of mine. but that didnt even matter. #god. why do people still play hockey. i dont think i could ever manage. #i might honestly need to take a break from even watching hockey for a little bit. ill see how i feel in the morning #right now i feel like crying though. gonna go do that. #oetteryaps

[ahhale-werewolves]

my own personal little headcanon that just makes me giggle and kick my feet is that in S3b when Will asks if Hannibal is in love with him to Bedelia, he 100% always knew this man’s been in love with him. he just wanted to be a shit and make bedelia say it.

#hannigram #hannibal #hannibal lecter #will graham #headcanon #like will is a genius and you're telling me that when hannibal was crying over him in the kitchen after saying he let will SEE him... #WILL DIDN'T KNOW RIGHT THEN THAT HANNIBAL WAS IN LOVE WITH HIM?? #and honestly even earlier than that #maybe it wasnt like an oh he's in love with me but more of like a feeling #and we know Will is good at FEELING #i personally believe it was sometime during one of their late nights in hannibal's office when they're drinking wine or something #they're just sitting there in comfortable silence for a moment and will happened to finally catch hannibal looking at him and it hits him #will is like 'oh shit he loves me' #which is what prompts will's complicated feelings during the remainder of season 2 and why he ultimately wanted hannibal to escape #he was fighting with what he knows is 'right' and what FEELS right #which is why the ending of S2 is such a betrayal because will's not only betrayed by hannibal but he did betray him because he couldn't #not partially follow through with the plan to catch the man but he tried to warn him to get him out of there because he regrets it finally #idk this show is literally so beautifully written.

[hazel2468]

Gender is weird because sometimes I want to be a soft masc butch who wears polos and button downs and looks like I work in an office, and sometimes I want to be an ethereal fairy-lady who wears flowy cotton dresses and looks like she lives near flower fields and grows her own herbs and veggies and teas, and sometimes I want to be a badass punk genderless person who wears a jacket with patches and carries a bat and wears weird earrings and has strong arms and shoulders, and sometimes I want to be an ever-so-slightly terrifying witch who burns offerings in her backyard and lives in the woods and dances in the rain in long black dresses with vines in my hair and SOMETIMES I want to be a cute housewife to my wife who cooks and bakes and wear aprons and frills and had hands and stomach covered in flour from kneading dough and I have a little cat who keeps me company.

Gender is fucking AWESOME all the time because hey! I can be LITERALLY all of these things whenever I fucking feel like and no one can stop me from being a woman one day, a not-quite-woman another, my gender is just straight butch next week, sometimes I don’t have one and sometimes I have all of them.

And no one can stop me from being ridiculously happy about it.

#queer #genderqueer #nonbinary #trans #holy fuck #i am having some major queer joy right now #I'm in a polo shirt y'all #and i feel SO GOOD #I'm gonna wear a SUIT to a wedding #Im just all kinds of giddy about gender today #honestly feeling a lil transmasc today? #which is like #struggling a bit with that because I still have some stupid rules to break out of #like can I call myself trans if I don't want to medically transition? #and i know the answer is yes #can i call myself transmasc if I'm not a man? #and i know that again the answer is yes #am i allowed to feel like this at all? #and when that last one hits me I stop myself and i ask #do you see how fucking happy you are? #how confident and comfortable and AT HOME you feel in your own skin? #fuck allowed #even if I wasn't allowed I still would #Because this feels so damn GOOD and RIGHT