#i Am bitter but it's for other reasons

[maddy-ferguson]

i was so ahead of the curve the curve became a sphere is literally me i skipped a grade and now my friends from high school are done with school and are getting their first jobs and stuff and i'm in school with people who were born two years after me. like i lost three full years lmaooo

#but i'm not that mad or sad about it because i don't mind not working like AT A JOB i'm even considering going into academia which would #mean even more years but like we'll see because i will have spent EIGHT YEARS in university when i'm done since it's five years to like. do #anything actually do something. only three more years to go yay #year 1: depressed year 2: not as depressed but i failed the classes i needed to pass to do the thing i wanted to be doing so i was kinda #stuck but i didn't know what else i wanted to study so i was like. i'll just do this get through my three years and then i'll do something #i like better. because i could have theoretically. except. i did not love it and i wasn't particularly good at it. also was still depressed #for like the entire first semester and my first year i passed for like my first semester so during my second year i had classes for year 2 #during one semester classes for year 1 during another semester. it's actually easy but i don't know if that'll make sense the way i wrote #it. year 3 was 2020-2021 so covid and like i was saying the other day i was NOT working like i was kind of for the first semester but. oh #my god. my favorite class i learned like 60 pages like what we had to learn was 60 pages long and then you had to do like an essay or #whatever idk. no it wasn't even an essay but i czn't explain. i got like. a 3.5. OUT OF 20 #so i was like yeah i'm not doing this anymore this is obviously not working for me so for the rest of the year (oh yeah we had class online #fully from november to well april when it ends) i was like. rewatching grey's anatomy and whatnot. that's when i rewatched grey's. also ahs #my not working semester in 2021 is also when i watched dawson's creek! because that's when they put it on netflix. #fun fact #good times honestly? but yeah #also i think about some of the things i learned a lot like it's very good to know i'm glad that i know it #i Am bitter but it's for other reasons #and like i say: brf slt #rory dropping out of yale is kinda so me if i had ever dropped out😁 which is why her graduating on time is very annoying and boring. her #ass should not have graduated on time...

[sakebytheriver]

This was done specifically for me, because since day one(1) I have been headcanoning Gus as gay and now I have canon confirmation, can't wait for the Gustholomule kiss to solidify it 😁

#ignore me #toh #the owl house #gus porter #gustholomule #maybe im a little bitter that every bitch and their mom was climbing over each other to hc hunter as gay #and then got mad about him having acrush on willow and started being like 'god forbid a main male character is gay' #and i was like mf gus has been here since day fucking 1 and you have not given two fucking shits about him #none of you were out here hc gus as gay or pushing dana to make him gay or anything of the sort #gee i sure do wonder what the biggest difference between gus and hunter is 🤔🤔🤔 #and gee i sure do wonder whats the difference between gustholumule and huntric 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔 #could it be that both parties in gustholomule is two brown boys and huntric is two pretty twinky white boys??? #whos to say #i am #i am to say #that is the reason #that is 100% the reason

[july-19th-club]

seven or eight times now ive watched the episodes in which they take the andromache and this is the first time ive realized that during the initial battle, after they board, every time the camera is from dufresne's perspective it's blurrier than otherwise because. he took his glasses off for the fight

#real velma hours #i have a soft spot for s1 dufresne that i dont have for s2 & 3 #part of it is that jannes bore a passing resemblance to a longtime mutual of mine so i feel like im watching someone i know #the other part is . well its like andy whitfield versus liam whatsisface when they were on spartacus #i dont know for sure bc they passed and that's the reason their characters were recast. but the actors have a different energy #from seasons one to seasons two and three. and i really wonder what jannes would have brought to dufresne's betrayal #roland reed's take is extremely bitter and self-preservationist #but from what we did get of jannes' performance i imagine his version would've been more confused and fear-based. jaded/feral #and i always think it really wouldve been something #black sails #q #everything about this battle sequence is a masterpiece. from the shot of joshua getting his false fangs ready to put in #to mr beauclerc's pile of like a dozen muskets up in the crow's nest. because it's 1715 snipers can't reload . he has to shoot #a different gun every time #to the way most pirate media glosses over the minutia of battle or even priacy in general because it's about the vibe the aesthetic #but sails' piracy is a means to an end and so its pirates are just like. guys with jobs #the minutia of their battle sequences even in their comparatively less insightful first season are INCREDIBLe. like o'brien levels of detai #and the camera work in this sequence! even on my thirteen-inch laptop screen where my show is on a nine-inch window #i am right there in it i feel like im watching it in 3d

[itspileofgoodthings]

every year I look forward to my birthday so much and every year I suffer a tremendous amount on that day for at least an hour straight.

#the crushing disappointment of unmet unrealistic expectations almost chokes me #it just brings so much to the surface. all the wounds of my self-obsession. all the reality of my loneliness #the cold reality that nothing is going to fill the void inside of me if I look for it from other people #I always cry. and then I calm down and eat cake #but it’s amazing what a rollercoaster it is #like. I just have to wrestle …. sort of ALL DAY #and because it’s only once a year I learn the lessons about it slowly #I am not good at having a birthday (something normal to want and possible to achieve) #it’s just that eternal paradox that I LOVE it just …. because #I love that it IS and EXISTS #and then also like the disappointment (never to be laid at anyone’s door???? because literally people are always so nice to me????) #settles in in SOME WAY OR ANOTHER #And it’s so stupid and I HATE IT but I have to like take the disappointment. try to love it. make it a prayer #and then I can be reasonable but not a SECOND BEFORE I’ve HAD THE CRASH #it is so insane and ridiculous I am turning TWENTY-EIGHT YEARS OLD #I should NOT BE THIS WAY #but like. The secret sadness and restlessness and bitterness and tiredness and jealousy just all comes out #and I have to write a letter to Jesus before I can be okay #literally i have now done that on at least 4 separate birthdays #because I just get so distressed. and then distressed that I am distressed #But tbh maybe that is a good custom and I should think of it as a chance to talk to God more #Just—-about it all. and just say thank you and I’m sorry and I know I’m a baby #There’s a viggo mortensen quote where he talks about how he never tells anyone it’s his birthday and he just reflects on the previous year #with gratitude. and I’m just like INSANELY cool of him I wish that were me #but unfortunately I talk about it all the time to every single person that I know #and at least twice on tumblr #and then it all just gets so overwhelming that it spirals #anyway I’m kind of spiraling now but that’s just because I’m sad and lonely! #it is NOT my birthday I am just reflecting #I guess what I’m trying to say is I wish there was a way to head off the disappointment. and there isn’t

[thebirdandhersong]

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#lol!! not to be bitter and grumpy but i think there is a part of me that wants to be missed when i leave a place #am i slightly hurt that there has been no response from anyone after i informed people (albeit online) #that i would be leaving this church due to distance and unprecedented circumstances and other logistics (well there are #other reasons too but i'm not about to announce them in a group chat)? ......yes #i KNOW i am very young and am looked upon somewhat indulgently by the other congregants #for what is probably excessive enthusiasm and childish naivete and an inability to shut up when i'm nervous #but i thought that i'd been at this church long enough to be missed! or wanted there. perhaps that's a me problem though #anyway :))))))) this is fine. i didn't spend about an hour drafting that text and worrying that i'd hurt people by leaving anyhow #(i did and it was very painful) (i DO know that i have a desire to be Specially Liked or at least Strongly Liked in a circle of friends #and that IS a me problem and i KNOW that i want to be loved so very badly) (BUT STILL I THOUGHT AT THE VERY LEAST #I'D CONTRIBUTED ENOUGH TO MATTER even though that's not how mattering works and NOT the best way to look at the situation) #anyway i know i'm overthinking #but darn it i wanted to matter in this community! and i loved being a part of this church! #songbird's year of feeling 22

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

sometimes you read something for a fandom you were crazy over years ago and you encounter one of the ships you loved back then and you just think “yeahhhh…. this is still great :) way to go younger me you were so based about this actually :)”

#anyway I still care a lot about Obitine apparently #their respective commitment to their respective ideals and moral codes… the way they love each other more than life #(literally. they’re so willing to die for each other.) #and yet that never leads them to violate who they /are/ or who the other person is #Satine is willing to never see him again rather than ask him to leave the Order. he is willing to leave the Order all she has to do is ask #they are able to rest in their love for one another bc they know the other loves them in such a way that they would never ask #for their compromise #idk this makes very little sense it’s 2 a.m. I’m delirious I have church in the morning but I wanna rewatch some Clone Wars now #hfhfhfhhdhdhdhehdhdhdhfbbdsjsjfhfj #gurt says stuff #edit: wait actually this is so funny—bc I just realized that Din Djarin and Obi-Wan are quite similar in a lot of ways #so the parallels here are incredibly funny to me for some reason. the Kryze women just have a Thing for reserved men who are #completely devoted to their religious values and would do practically anything for their adopted family huh #(ftr I don’t know if I ship DinBo or not but I do understand the appeal and I am open to the possibility of the writers play it right #still bitter about losing Cara tho. bc I was SO curious to see how Misters Filoni and Favreau were going to develop that #n I had a vague suspicion based on my knowledge of how Filonis brain and stories work that ~something~ may have been meant to happen there)

[see-arcane]

i read your meta from a few weeks earlier about how the harkers are hypocrites in their vows because if they were in each other's shoes they'd have made the same choice as them, and that stoker considers their love as too intense and too much for the proper social mores and morals in the narrative, but i wonder, if that's the case, wouldn't the narrative be punishing them for it with death or worse?

There's a lot of rambling I could go into about Stoker's Christian+ motives for the way the Harkers' story plays out, but I think once the vampires and the holy varnish flakes off, it all comes down to the guy's own wishful thinking. Really, what any writer of ribald, intense, ultimately ecstatic romance comes down to.

The narrative doesn't punish them (all the way) for their beyond-God-and-Devil love for each other because 1) Kind of a shitty lesson to say that Loving Too Much = Evil and 2) It's emotional escapism. It's been implied that Stoker wasn't a straight man and that a lot of Mina's mannerisms are a result of his using her as his own insert.

A character able to love and be loved past the point of good pious Christian allowance by a man who is at turns a gentle sweetheart and then a righteous and livid avenger for his beloved's sake! No, he will not destroy her! Not for all the urging of the angels, for humanity or sanity! No matter what his love is, be she imperfect or even monstrous, he will protect and join her..!

You see the appeal. And so it would be implied in the reverse (though of course that might skew Too Ellgeebeetee to have Jonathan as the imperiled maiden figure set to be collected by the Count), as Mina shows her likewise unexpectedly unwavering love and championing of Jonathan when he is not only a less-than-classic Man's Man even pre-Transylvania, but also struck ill, weak, and heavily traumatized. For all that they are good people, and Mina is heavily repressed in her Not Like Those Silly New Women! insistences, the Harkers are unconventional as hell.

Both in their manner with each other and with the strength of their love surpassing any edict of society and/or the threat of losing Heaven itself; a possibility shown so callously by the scarring of the Wafer on Mina's brow. If Jonathan wasn't already decided in his path, I think that visual probably made the choice irreversible. Because for all the others' talk of 'Lucy looked so much more at peace after we staked her heart and chopped her head off! She's surely with the angels!' our good friend Jonathan Harker has had more experience with the profane than the divine than all of them put together.

God is powerful against vampires. That doesn't automatically make Him just. And there's no guarantee that the pearly gates really will accept an ex-vampire's soul beyond 'Well, we assume that'll happen.'

If there's even the slightest chance that Mina is barred from the Son's protection, doomed to be either a monster on Earth or hellbound after it, Jonathan will ensure whatever her status is, he Will Be Beside Her. He is willing to damn himself to protect and join her.

We as the audience can't help but feel for that heartfelt dedication.

Just as we would feel pretty fucking pissed if Bramothy decided to inflict an extra dose of misery on the Harkers in a 'No no, loving each other too passionately is a sin! Let's torment/kill them about it for a good saintly ending!' So the narrative is a little stacked in their favor.

God is supposed to be love. Just as He made Abraham stop before striking the killing blow to Isaac--a test all along!--He is implied to have a hand in the heroes' quest and their ultimate harrowing climax. Helping them toward a happily ever after that they more than earned.

Or, the short version:

The Harkers: 'If this vampiric mess doesn't get fixed, I'm breaking up with humanity and getting vampired with my beloved. RIP to Christianity and humanity, but if they aren't here for my loved one, I want no part of them.'

God: 'Shit, that's fair. Let's go fix that vampire mess then. Harkers OTP4Ever'

At least I think that was the message Stoker was going for.

#...but then I am also Bitter McBile and so have OTHER thoughts concerning holy powers that be singling Jonathan out as someone to hone #into a weapon that will ultimately be instrumental in killing Dracula #cleaning up a centuries-old inhuman mess that was allowed free reign for...reasons? #only to have his life and his wife be dangled in front of him as incentive #cattle-prodding him into the daring heroics necessary #but that's its own diatribe #jonathan harker #mina harker #holiest love #literally #dracula #dracula daily

[uncanny-tranny]

I can't stand masculine women. I am transmasc and I try a lot to be percieved as a man but I am only seen as a tomboy only because some girlies think being its fun to dress like a guy.

I understand where you're coming from, and I'll presume this isn't bait, but: your anger is misplaced, and the way you are expressing it is only hurting women, and it will not make transphobes have a change of heart.

It isn't appropriate to hate an entire group of people because other people are transphobic. As a trans man, transphobes don't hate me because there are butch women, they hate me because I'm a trans man (and, let's face it, butch and GNC women are in the same boat. Transphobes are often just as hateful toward GNC/butch women). Transphobes don't care what you are if they know you are deviant. They will never respect a butch or transmasc because transness and GNC inherently go against their worldview.

I'm sorry, anon, that people are transphobic, I really am. But misogyny isn't going to fix the issue. If GNC women didn't exist, you would still have the same issue because transphobia is the problem, not GNC women.

I really hope you can build connection with GNC people because it really shows you a whole lot. I've found a ton of GNC women who are on my side and recognize my maleness and celebrate it with me. Gender deviants tend to get where trans people are coming from, because society treats them just as shitty. Do not let misogyny go unchecked because society is transphobic.

#ask #anon #misogyny tw #butchphobia tw #this post is also not about 'lel every transmasc is misogynistic'. that is also inappropriate #don't let transphobia go unchecked because you want to 'prove' something #i'm really uncomfortable with the ask function being used this way. i am platforming this for the sole purpose of having... #...this discussion *once* and further inquiry will probably go deleted #i do not want this to become a bigger deal than need be #if anon is a genuine ask then they are in real pain because transphobia is inherently awful but that is not a reason for misogyny #i remember being in this headspace of feeling bitterness towads everything and it *is* painful #but that is not a reason to hate other people #anyway. y'all really need to remember that a real person is running this blog and it isn't like... the void or an AI #and it SUCKS when people treat this like i'm a chatbot who doesn't feel anything

[desperatecheesecubes]

So back in the day in 7th grade our English teacher had the Gifted Kids in his class make read The Outsiders and then he wanted us to make a short movie based on it and all four of us (there were only four in our grade in the program) has to contribute. I was big into making AMVs at the time so I knew basic video editing and in an effort to not make a fool of myself I front of the other three who were all in the popular crowd I volunteered to edit it. Anyway I never heard of any plans to make this fucker until I came into class one day to see it being played and my name in the credits. I got an A for work I didn’t do because the other kids didn’t like me enough to work with me. I wasn’t even upset i was excluded that’s the easiest A I’ve ever gotten

#mine #that was the year I got bored enough to write essays for other people for free too #and i took AR tests for anyone who was about to come up short #that English teacher fucking HATED me Lmfaoo #I remember one assignment was that we had to do a book report #but for some fucking reason the gifted kids had to memorize and recite the entire snowy road poem #and I was shit at it and didn’t want to so I did a book report for a girl I barely knew because she hadn’t read one and I helped her #present it and everything and the teacher went ‘yes hmm hmm I’m sure you both read that #but cheese you still have to receipt your poem.’ #so I ended up doing twice the work for no fucking reason #I do still have that poem memorized #and the older I get the more I feel the ‘miles to go before I sleep and miles to go before I sleep’ tattooed on me #I don’t remember if I put the words ‘want to get’ in that sentence whoops #but I am also still bitter

[honestlyvan]

As the pendulum is swinging back to “stop shaming people for leaving likes”, I am going to go on record to say I don’t like like because they’re a purely “number go up” metric that most people do not treat with the kind of thoughtful affection people who talk about leaving “little kisses for the people they follow” treat them as. I feel this exact same way about kudos in that mindless interaction from a potential audience is a real “good for you” kind of situation that simply does fuck all for me.

And before someone can call this grind culture brainrot, I also feel this way about reblogs without commentary. Good for you. I'm glad I was a good dancing monkey, enough for you to go “hey [people following me], lookadis guy”, even if you’re not gonna actually tell me that. We can talk about our choices for engaging with things and people on this site all we want, but intent isn’t magic, and I’m gonna reserve the right to complain about how that treatment feels regardless.

#van stuff #Anyway you as an individual are allowed to use this site however you want obviously #I'm just asserting that my memory is longer than six months #The reason people STARTED complaining about this was because people were saying shit like 'why are your likes hidden' #and treating 'liking' as the 'passive sharing' that reblogging without commentary used to be #Tumblr has historically had GARBAGE passive boosting options as the 'For You' tab is a fresh invention that barely fucking works #and new users were actively deluding themselves into thinking likes *were* engagement and demanding people show their likes to others #to make the user experience of this site more like the sites they came from #and most people who have been on this site for long enough know that any post with a huge note count #is gonna have a significant amount of threads calling it Fucking Stupid #and people adding likes to that post based on the commentary #Like... many of us actively have 'don't reblog shitty posts no matter how insightful the comments are' policies #BECAUSE boosting the notes of a shitty post is Bad For Discourse #me? a bitter former LJ user who never got over not having comments? Yes. #Am I AWARE that expecting the kind of interaction I enjoy is completely pointless? Also yes #but I'm still just not gonna say nothing as the pendulum swings back to hit me in ther face y'know? #EVENTUALLY it will have to come to a stop -- I just don't want it to come to a stop on 'less conversation happening continually' #also I need to remind myself to go tell wip that I want threaded comments on Tumblr #even Tiktok has them. They would be an incredible boon

[selkiecoded]

a sumi haircut variation ive been testing out. i wanna say its a bit post-canon, not too far off, maybe a year or so. hasnt quite figured out what to do with herself yet, but shes getting there. only a little ways away from graduation.

#the clock chimes at midnight #selk.art #okay because im going stir crazy in my beautiful mind here. i forgot where everyone in the royal ending went so ive just kinda been doing a #post canon au based entirely arnd sumire and the only person whos really gone is ren. the others are in school and stuff still lol #ANYWAYS she and ren start dating a few weeks before 2/3 and after they restore the world its a very tumultuous start considering ren #immediately gets sent to jail. even after he gets out theyre both grieving akechi + it feels like theyre just going through the motions. #everyones like omg we could tell this was gonna happen! and it makes them uncomfortable for reasons they cant articulate #ren is using sumire to get over akechi + sumire is modeling rens identity + both see akechi in the other and are sad abt it #on top of all that they get into a huge fight when sumire learns rens leaving in like. a month. and she didnt know. #(he genuinely didnt realize she didnt know but gets bitchy in return) #they try to make it work long distance for a month/two but eventually mutually breakup (both a little bitter but agree to remain friends) #overall its a cute relationship with um . very odd undertones. #anyways she still wears her hair straight up or straight down during all that point. HAHAHA remember this is abt hair! #after ren leaves she latches onto ann + ryuji who are still going to school w her. and after the breakup simply bc #ryuji is a Boy and sumire is a Girl and They Enjoy Being Around Each Other they both reflexively think abt getting together #sumire starts to imitate him (bc for some weird reason she keeps wanting to be like boys!) and ryuji is like am i breaking bro code rn.. #nothing ever happens bc neither actually wants to date the other and ann is always hanging around but its an odd time for everyone #she bleaches the tips of her hair for a little bit but its so small when she gets it chopped off its like nothing happened lol #this is probably around third year when ann/ryuji have graduated and the only thief around is futaba. #and. please nobody kill me for this. i think the two have interesting thematic similarities but the ship between them has always felt like #pairing the same-age spares to me. and i havent read anything thats convinced me of its full potential yet. #that to say i think theyre friendly but not super close. so sumire has to learn to just. exist by herself for the first time in years. #like i said this is probably when this actual haircut starts getting used. shes figuring it out! #after she graduates shes the first one to find akechi again and theyre both doing a lot better and become very close. #they move in together! platonically! unless...? but thats not the point! akechi helps her realize shes transmasc at which point she gets a #real short haircut. i cant decide. theres one thats like a curly haired bob almost and one thats shorter + looks kinda windswept #and thats all the haircut hcs i have for her postcanon timeline! spreads hands jazz hands. not all the timeline hcs but my thumbs r tired.

[scattered-winter]

I love my shows but if I see one more piece of queer media say "sex is what makes us human" then I just might turn into the joker

#y'all know i love 911 and i'm also loving sense8 so so much #but idk. for two shows that are about being seen and being queer and being human they're leaving aro/ace people out in the rain #and like. i know i can't expect them to be perfect shows that include every single minority because that's unrealistic and puts queer media #at a much higher standard than other media. which is ofc ridiculous. #but idk there's something to be said for watching a show about being unapologetically queer and hearing that my identity is invalid #at the same exact time #and the fact that it happens with literally every single piece of queer media i have ever consumed takes it from a mild annoyance #to an Actual Thing (tm) #because there isn't a single show (that I'VE watched anyway) where i feel validated in my identity #even in queer media. #and like. i can count on ONE HAND the number of canon aro/ace characters #and most of them are usually erased for the sake of ships in the fandom #it's just. tiring. #and obviously i'm so so grateful for queer media like 911 and sense8!! they're so profound and diverse and i love them so much!!! #but it's possible to be grateful for representation and also be disappointed about the lack of it at the same time #and that's what i am. #i just get so tired of being constantly blasted by aphobia/arophobia even from shows that are supposed to be about queerness and connection #sigh. ignore me i'm being bitter for no reason again :/ #winter speaks

[jostystyles]

did you see that josty deleted his instagram :/

yeah i did. and i’m sorry, but fuck everyone who’s ever said a single bad thing about him. leaving comments of his unrelated posts about something he clearly had no part in is absolutely ridiculous, and fuck you if a single negative thought about him has ever crossed your mind. you get traded the day after your birthday, from a team who was at the time projected to win the stanley cup, to a team who made a first round exit. after being ripped prematurely from your development bc the team you got drafted to needed every ounce of good hockey they could get. being a core part of the rebuild of said team. being called a draft bust and a million other things. being called “bad at hockey” by people who are supposed to be your fans. “bad at hockey” and being a first round draft pick? make it make sense. it doesn’t. tyson jost deserves better than everything he has ever gotten and he has never been appreciated for the kind of person he is, one that never has anything bad to say about anyone other than himself, which is unfair. the avalanche dragged him through the mud and used him until he was deemed not good enough, and not to mention the fact that who he was traded for contributed next to nothing to the teams run to the cup. he put his whole heart and soul into that team and tried his hardest on a team that for some reason just happened to contain a few elite players which somehow meant he wasn’t one just because they were. tyson deserved to be there the entire playoffs and especially last night when they won. so yeah, i’d deactivate my instagram too if i got to watch guys who used to be my “best friends” and “brothers” get the one thing i dreamed of and talked about winning with them.

#asks #anon #tyson jost #i literally do not give a single fuck if anyone disagrees with anything i’ve said #i am sick and tired of y’all using him for your uwu narratives and fic storylines but then absolutely shitting on him when it comes 2 it #call me bitter all you want but i stand by everything i said #there was absolutely no reason to have traded him other than to honor his trade request which we never know if he took back or not #i’m fucking done here happy off season

[churchydraws]

Blaze would trust redeemed Eclipses but only with like. pouring him a glass of water.

#CSS Blaze (Eclipse) #Madcat and Phil I am looking at your redeemed Eclipses specifically \ #and also at the Bitter Karma Eclipse #the Sun and Moon Show multiverse would just be a bunch of Eclipses fighting each other for different reasons. change my mind #sun and moon show eclipse #the sun and moon show eclipse #celestial siblings show au #sun and moon show #the sun and moon show

[guinea-pig-enthusiast]

I can tolerate a lot of things but disrespect for Edward Chris von Muir is not one of them

#ffiv #final fantasy iv #edward chris von muir #he is weak but he tries so hard #and the other characters are so mean to him for no reason??? #like i know storytelling was kind of new to the series but he gets NO credit for the massive amount of character development he gets #i'm not bitter except i AM actually

[dwter]

ppl talk abt how they feel silly and stupid for liking the dsmp but while its not perfect, cohesive and can be quite silly at times, it is also so SO full of love and loving something like that is absolutely and completely warranted

#even if u arent getting everything u want #bc there is a reason u loved it so much in the first place #lore droughts may make ppl bitter but there is a reason we all wait for it in the first place #it is messy and unrefined and also full of the raw passion of wanting to tell a story and entertain others #and that feels so important to rmr #inspired by some posts i saw much earlier before the tribute dropped and this just felt right to say #sorry for the ramble i am done now ^___^