#i also have struggled with an eating disorder

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for mocking my math teacher?

a few months ago my school got a new math teacher. this would be fine, if not for the fact that one of the first things she did was ask me (14M) if something was going on at home. along with this, i wad also severely depressed.

not only that, she had told multiple kids that ADHD is not real/that its a myth. my friend (14F, we'll call her c) and i both have adhd, along with many other kids in our class. she just very clearly does not know how to teach neurodivergent kids and it pisses me off every day.

i also had a conversation with her that was like

her: youve been slacking... somethings been off these last few weeks...

me: yeah i did stop taking my adhd meds recently

her: nonono it was a few weeks ago

me: yeah i stopped taking them. a few weeks ago.

her: why?:(

me: well they stopped me from eating so

and she just. walked away😭

so today c and i were sat next to eachother, and c goes to get help with a problem we were both struggling on. c comes back and sits down without a word. a few minutes later, i notice the teacher is basically yelling across the room at c and gaslighting her. telling her that she hadnt said anything about the problem being wrong, blah blah blah.

so a bit later into the class, this teacher comes over to our desk to help me, and says something along the lines of "you guys were talking earlier, you need to focus more ill move you so you can focus better if you dont stop talking" ect ect. c speaks up and says "well its hard for me to focus anywhere" and the teacher just. denies her?? so i say "well we have attention deficit hyperactive disorder so its not really something we can control" and she just kind of. disagrees?? it was weird idk anyways she starts walking away and im mocking her in a low voice which i understand wasnt a great choice but also. she was being a bitch. so she turns around and says "see me after class you two..." like damn okay.

c is also an overachiever so she often goes in for help and a few times shes just been denied help and like ??? you literally offered her help why are you now taking this back

this teacher has also given us a test on the ladt day of the quarter on something that we had been learning for maybe a week or so and it was worth 100 points (tests = 90% of our grade, hw = 10%)

i understand that mocking isnt a great thing to do but this woman has hated me from day one so aita

#aita #am i the asshole

[halfelven]

oh so they’re just not letting us report ads or block certain ones for being triggering cool i love it there’s no way this can go wrong especially with them having ads promoting disordered eating and losing weight

#the ad /i/ don’t want rn is for men’s shorts #like let me have another one?????? #this is so capitalistcore and not at all dangerous #txt #stupid app #i also have struggled with an eating disorder #so like that’s fun #bring back the stupid starbucks ads

[crimeboys]

something i noticed when watching pogtopia is that wilbur actually always had food on him and was always eating and keeping his hunger up even when he was hardly low enough to need it and it was such an interesting thing to see from someone so obviously suicidal and mentally all over the place and pointedly doing everything he could to make his and his loved ones lives as miserable as possible. but then i realized, that’s just it, it wasn’t about living it was about survival because wilbur was determined to survive for as long as it took to make his death fucking incredible, his end explosive and meaningful, and making sure a few potatoes were in his pocket and mouth at all times was more than a fair trade to get that ending.

#text post #mine #suicide #disordered eating #<- more in the tags than anything bt #i just think about this sometimes #bc i have often written wilbur struggling to remember eating and food and atuff but watching pogtopia i was like Oh. it’s kind of the #opposite he’s actually eating like all the time even when he really doesnmt need to #which is probably bc ccwilbur is like a cautious player due to being kind of. not great at pvp and falling a lot and also being a wanderer #but who knows really

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

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#the miss Americana post got me thinking #that I wonder if the reason it isn’t liked in some circles is because she’s so vulnerable #and it shows her own insecurities and struggles on full display even if it’s kind of between the lines #and they don’t want to admit that some of her struggles are innate and not just attributable to outside forces/people #like taylor does have anxiety and depression and disordered eating and who knows what other kinds of struggles #that will always exist in addition to whatever else happens in her life and who she’s with #sure outside sources may make things worse (hello TTPD ahem) #but the trauma and mental health struggles were kind of brave of her to talk about even if she skirted around them #and maybe people just don’t know what to do with that? #(also I just know— never mind.) #eta: ​I know the activism angle is problematic to some and I think maybe framing it that way in the general public was a misstep #because the movie is more about her finding her voice/herself in general #but the political stuff took centre stage in the press and on social media and obviously people are disappointed #that she didn’t use her platform more publicly or thoughtfully (eg civil rights reproductive rights environmental issues political issues) #but for people to hate it because of that… like yes maybe it’s disappointing on that one point #but as a doc it’s thoughtful and profiles its subject in a general sense well

[bijoumikhawal]

a lot of the talk about Bushnell is reminding me of my "the "mentally ill" have their right to violence revoked" thing again

like. When you're deemed mentally ill, suddenly you must stress how you are more likely to be a victim of violence than a perpetrator to be deemed as human. Because any violence you commit, as a crazy person, is bad. It cannot carry rationale, because you are crazy. If I, as an autistic person, hit someone who was hurting me and got in legal trouble, I can be referred to as just "crazy" instead of as a victim responding to an aggressor. It's an underdiscussed area of dehumanization.

And that's before we talk about intersectionality, and before we talk about how this factors into the idea of ODD, and the "violent" responses patients have to doctors (including those who simply aren't white, and those forced on meds that hurt them, and those resisting sexual assault, and-).

But this is not just interpersonally political, it is political at scale. Black men were targeted by schizophrenia diagnoses during the Civil Rights era (and this is also around when schizophrenia became a "scary" illness). The crazy cannot have valid political criticisms, as a movement (remember that being "crazy" is a vector of oppression abd marginalization) or as individuals in other movements.

Ive seen both the sentiment of "oh Aaron is gonna be slandered as crazy" and exactly what the sentiment warns of- "we can't valorize suicide from the mentally ill". And the first isn't wrong, because society at large does view the "crazy" as lacking political agency, but it's lacking.

Bushnell had been trying very hard to get out of his military contract without being imprisoned at best, while witnessing genocide and knowing he was complicit. He may not have had clinical depression normally, but that would inspire a mental rational response of situational depression (and yes, mental health issues can be a rational response to horrible circumstances). Further, I know of instances of self immolation that WERE done by people who did have long standing mental health issues and were done to protest the treatment they'd experienced that caused them and that resulted from their existence. Mental illness and divergence from the norm is more complicated than just "these people are incapable of rationality, they are incapable of political thought, and they are incapable of agency".

#cipher talk #Aaron Bushnell #Ask to tag #Self immolation #Suicide tw #I'm thinking about how like. Chloe Sagal did what she did to protest how she was treated as a mentally ill trans woman and highlighted #Her mental illness and struggle with homelessness primarily. And it WAS a political protest #The only really. Sensible thing I've seen on this about how it was a suicide was 1) someone pointing out some people may relapse in #Response to this WITHOUT delegitimizing his actions and sharing helpline sources #And 2) another person pointing out it'd be absurd to accuse hunger strikers of promoting eating disorders #Like. You know what I think soldiers who are complicit in genocide probably DO develop mental health problems #And I see the idea that they do used in some pretty batshit ways recently! #But so- so fucking what #Resistance fighters and genocide victims have mental health issues too #Why is it for soldiers ignored or used to dehumanize victims until of the soldiers turns is gun away from them? #What's next am I gonna watch people delegitimize the actions of Palestinian resistance and the Bielskis and fucking #Unistʼotʼen as the actions of people who 'just have mental health issues' and therefore can't be political? #We also have the similar protests of Black people (two in the last 6 months) being swept aside

[goldkirk]

question: have any of you personally seen a dietician (not looking for experiences with nutritionists, only dieticians), and did you find it helpful or useful, and if you did see a dietician and you ALSO have seen a GI doctor, how did the experience compare for you in terms of helpfulness + how much you felt listened to and helped?

#i'm trying to figure out which doctor appointments I want to bother making and spending money about for potentially no return on investment #and right now i'm trying to figure out if I'd get way more practical help from a dietician or if I need to suck it up and find a #not-elderly not-male not-dismissive GI doctor first and THEN see a dietician #although I cannot afford a bunch of tests #so like??? #trying to figure out if a dietician would be more helpful overall with me not HAVING any GI diagnoses or eating disorders #and just really struggling with food in both sensory ways and unpredictable digestion ways that don't correlate with food allergies #god i sometimes wish i had food allergies so i could have some predictability #but yeah. i'm leaning towards dietician but figured i should crowdsource experiences #since I know a lot of you have health issues you've also been trying to manage for years and probably have good advice #if it helps i'm also in a major city now and have a decent-but-not-great health insurance plan so I'm good on those two fronts #to do #health #I know a dietician can't diagnose anything but I'd love help figuring out how to get maximum nutrition even when i can barely eat anything #or when my body decides to start getting sick from or (tw emetophobia) puking up fiber or fatty foods #which thankfully isn't often #now that I do cannabis daily in microdosing I have so much less pain and bloating and nausea #but when it hits it HITS #and the last time I tried going without cannabis for a couple days and then eating a fiber muffin I was sick six times in one morning #and didn't get my normal eating ability back until dinnertime #luckily that's not normal for me #but my issues bounce up and down so much #and I lose weight so fast whenever my appetite goes from 'barely ever there' to 'negatively nonexistent' #and I had like. two months last year where I think i reached my body's natural healthy set weight #and i needed so much food but it felt so good energy wise and temperature wise #and i'd like to STAY THERE FFS #and I feel like a dietician would be helpful for making meal options for good #*good and hard and nuclear alert level eating difficulty times #anyway. crowdsourcing. yay!

[jakeperalta]

the lack of healthy boundaries some swifties have is legitimately concerning... it goes beyond parasocial relationships discourse and becomes a matter of basic decency

#just saw someone say that clearly her ed was clearly resurfacing when ylm was written and that it was wrong of fans to ignore that #or idk maybe some of us prefer to treat her with some RESPECT and let her mind her own PERSONAL PRIVATE BUSINESS #how on earth would going 'hey she looks too thin i think she's struggling with her ed and also her relationship' have helped anyone at all #i can't believe how many times 'don't fucking speculate on someone else's eating disorder' has to be said in this fandom it's shameful #talking #taylor swift #eating disorder cw #ed cw

[z-grist]

Another storyboard I got to work on recently, this one focusing more on drama.

This one is a Persona 3 storyboard! Featuring Aigis and Akihiko. Big content warning for mention/discussion of an Eating Disorder. This is based on a story by @halfpennyjones, "Inversion" on ao3.

Done on Storyboard Pro, and (most) backgrounds were done on Blender 3D. Thanks for watching!

#persona 3 #cw: ed mention #cw: eating disorder #akihiko sanada #aigis persona 3 #p3 aigis #i got this storyboard out right on time for the reload remake lol which was totally not intenional #really #actually i havent even bought the game #played p3p #i have no interest in it rn.....im playing re4 LOL #zgrist #2024 #also my absolute favortie part of this is when aigis mentions that koromaru (the fucking dog) gossiped to her about akihiko.... #and him just being like. are you fucking kidding me. the dog snitched on me. what world do i live in #Youtube #also me n my friend did the voices lmaooooo we struggled

[varpusvaras]

That one post about parents who weren't abusive and are good people but still fumbled things significantly and now you're fucked up? Feeling that a lot actually today.

#had a talk with my wife about it and. the more I talked the more I realised that ohhhh that's fucked uuuupp #when you're in your late 20s and realise that your parent has had an eating disorder their whole life #and that sucks for them so bad #but they also made it heavily their kid's problem while said kid (me) was growing up #and so I also had an eating disorder and still struggle with warped view of food #it's not fair I didn't deserve to have it too but neither did the parent #personal

[merrysithmas]

tw eating disorder

jtk headcanon that after tarsus jim struggles with an eating disorder resulting from his guilt over food/where it comes from/its sustainability/survivor's guilt.

#james t. kirk #jim kirk #strange new worlds #i always kind of felt this but with the new snw kirk it just kind of solidified in my head #there's a bunch of comments bones gives to jim about food in tos which made me go hmmm after the tarsus thing #also the fact that he is a symbol of male feminism makes this particular condition esp relevant to him as he wouldnt be weirdly masculine #about hiding it #tw eating disorder #tw anorexia #tw bulimia #i think its very appropriate given the nature of his presumed ptsd from tarsus #i dont have any specific handcanons just this generalized notion #has anyone ever talked about this before? if so send those links! #it's smth that he eventually comes to terms with and can manage #seeing issues reflected in our heroes is meaningful such as spock being dyslexic etc #also i overcame a period of eating issues years ago so dont try to come @ me #if youre ever struggling know this is a type of maladaptive coping and there is absolutely hope to have it be a thing of the past 🤍

[arionawrites]

decided to make a list of all my diagnosed issues and like fucking. god damn. how am i just living day to day.

#nine bullet points #of diagnosed things i struggle #i struggle with #1. type one diabetes 2. adhd 3. bipolar 4. severe anxiety 5. depression 6. insomnia 7. migraines 8. dpdr 9. ptsd #and im just ?? existing like this??? literally how what the fuck #there’s more than that too thats just like the actual able to be diagnosed shit #probably also at least slightly autistic but my psychologist said that its not bad enough to impact me big time and a diagnosis would do mor #more harm than good so im just kind. Not lmao #but also: abandonment issues self worth issues guilty conscience issues feeling unworthy of literally everything issues #awful at establishing boundaries #sh issues #(not for like years but its a struggle to not relapse every year esp during winter) #suicidal ideation but at least ive never actually been suicidal #not bc i particularly love being alive but because the fact that i dont know what comes after death scares me too much lmao #even at my lowest of lows i have not wanted to kms SOLELY bc the unknown scares me enough to be like #yeah this sucks but at least i know it #at least it’s like familiar which is sad but still true lma #OH ALSO eating disorder lmao. diabulimia is a thing. #genuinely how have i not been fucking hospitalized #not in a bad way but like. idk how i havent gotten to that point yet #tho to be fair there are multiple points i probably should have been tbh #i just. dont want to worry people? or inconvenience anyone. and i know im not gonna kms so its easy to be like ‘i dont need that’ #i have overshared way too much in these tags sorry i’ll stop now #if anyone has actually read all of these: i’m sorry. i love you. i hope you feel better than i do. i hope you smiled today.

[nexus-nebulae]

the starving street cat headmate has discovered the smoked salmon we bought

#we now have half a package of smoked salmon #he likes. smelling it #it smells really strongly of hickory smoke it's actually really nice #he wants more but we do not want to become ill #we can't have too much meat our body struggles to digest it #bc we kind of stopped eating much meat for a few months because we kept getting sick and going in and out of the ER #and red meat is more likely to upset our stomach so we've been sticking mostly to white meat like chicken and turkey #but we're slowly trying to introduce more meat into our diet again because our protein and calcium levels are real bad #our liver isn't doing too well because of the constant throwing up or not being able to eat #so we really really have to pay attention to what we're eating #while also desperately trying to balance thinking about it as little as possible #because the more we track what food we're eating the more disordered our eating gets because we get neurotic about it #we 1000% cannot focus at all on calorie intake because it messes with our head bad #but focusing more on the nutrients gained is better so we're trying to cycle between safe foods and nutrient foods #getting more calcium and fruit vitamins and protein from things like yoghurt smoothies (with added lactase so i can eat it!) and sardines #we've been focusing on trying to find ready-to-eat meats like canned meat and refrigerated meat #to make it easier to eat When We Want/Need To instead of at set times #makes it easier to Actually Eat

[rulesforthedance]

This is the first 50-mile week of this training block (there will be lots more weeks with this many miles or more between now and July) and the high-volume* training hyperphagia has come for me. But it's a beautiful thing because I get so hungry and then I eat so much, and it's like: my body is doing a good job asking for what it needs :) and I am doing a good job giving it what it needs :) we are a good team

*for a recreational runner

#I have been gifted with a hearty appetite/strong food drive/love of food from birth #and besides the pleasure it's brought to my life it has also helped me weather many challenges #including IBS and a world that wants to give me an eating disorder #and running mileage that some people really struggle to fuel adequately #I used to rue my appetite and now I extend it the gratitude it deserves

[deicide-doll]

trigger warning. do not read if you dont want to read something triggering.

#my bf is a fucking rapist #i told him i didnt want to have sex again because it was getting late and i have work tomorrow #and he usually takes a long time to finish after round 1 so i didnt want to stay up an extra hour #and he started manipulating me and pleading and saying he loved me and i dont know why i capitulated but #the fact that i said ok after 10 no's? #and i was crying #i was crying while i sucked his dick and while he fucked me #and he told me to struggle more because he found it hot #he thinks rape is hot #and after he joked about being a good manipulator and being able to get me to disregard my boundaries #which is true #but like he knows im an abuse survivor and have trouble with boundaries #the fuckdd up thing is he was the one who taught me to have boundaries #he told me to tell my mom to eat a dick when shes egging on my eating disorder #he told me i didnt have to stick around when my mom was calling me slurs for breaking dishes or failing classes #and here he is being proud that he managed to get through an abuse victims boundaries #he also joked about waking up to the cops at his door #which like shows that deep down inside he knows what he did is wrong #and if i wasnt such a cool girl i could get him into trouble #not like cops here persecute rape anyways but #i pretended to like it after the fact because i still needed him to take me home and i didnt wanna start a fight #but holy shit #idk what to do... #i mean im going to leave him fuck the trip #im shaking i dont even know how ill be able to go to work tomorrow #when this whole thing was over me wanting to get a reasonable amount of sleep on a work night #misiabear rants