#i am now talking about mikey way and i didnt even realize it

[leotello]

Oh my GOD OKAY SO;

I have a different ship for every iteration, so working backward of the ones I know is:

2018 leotello bc I just love them. Two smart people come together to make a whole idiot. Also just. Twins. It gets to me. My OTP. Rise leotello owns my soul.

Bayverse ot4 because. Because. I don't know man, they're all just. So adhd. They're all just a mood and I just cannot see it happening any other way.

2012 ot4 because of that one post you made about Leo falling in love with his brothers. Also because it just feels like he could never love any of his brothers more than the others. Idk, I just think it works. But leo/Casey Jones is cute in this iteration too.

2007 tbh? I'm torn. I love Leotello. I love leoraph. I love leomikey. I love ot4. Anything works here. Honestly, I just like him coming back and having to deal with them kinda moving on without him and struggling to get back into their good graces.

2003 leomikey. Ngl this is kinda bc I hardcore ship raphtello in this iteration but I also just like leomikey in this iteration. Leo needs to fucking relax, honestly, but also I love when he has that moment of "oh, hes not just the baby sibling, is he?"

So yeah.

leotello! my url. i am a sucker for twincest, apparently even if they arent even canon twins. there's just that "other half" thing that i find so romantic. and twin telepathy! the way they understand each other so well. mmm such romantic tropes

i dont ship anything in bayverse, but that is cute. i feel like if they got into a relationship it would be all of them.

and YES, god ot4 with leo falling in love with them is SO close to my heart. leo is the incest king and i just cant imagine him not falling deeply in love with his family.

07 leoraph is the SHIT ok, like im sorry but the rooftop fight scene sold me on it. theyr so homoerotic. theyre so obsessed with each other. they love each other so much it causes problems. they NEED to fuck it would do them so much good. but like, i can also see the ot4 there, like you said, with leo trying to find his place in the family again. and oooh, can you imagine if his time apart allowed certain... feelings... to fester, and now, being around them again, those feelings have to be dealt with? impossible to ignore, now

03 leomikey is SO good, dude i was just talking to PF on twitter about this. leo has a soft spot for mikey, canonically. watch grudge match--leo lets mikey get away with things that raph and donnie cant do. mikey also defends him to raph and donnie and points out everything he does for them, where raph and donnie didnt even seem to notice or realize. mikey appreciates leo in a way raph & donnie don't. which is not to diss them or anything, i know they love leo with their entire souls. all three of them do. but they're obviously less aware of how hard leo works for them. mikey is consciously aware of the fact that he can goof around all day like a normal teen because of leo. i also hc leo as the subbiest sub in the house and mikey as the dommiest dom... so yknow. its a good match.

and mm 03 raphdon is good shit. theyre such stupid sappy idiots in love, but also fucking horny.

#alv posts #ask #raphdon #leomike #ot4 #leotello #leoraph #LR #LD #LM #leonardo #anon: i love raphdon #me: [squints] shellarious? #/j i know im probably wrong

[merscylilith]

NEW | I WANT YOU

SANZU HARUCHIYO

Sanzu Haruchiyo!Bonten x f!reader ( ft. Kakucho Hitto )

Angst, cursing

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Never thought it always have been you the one that i loved.

Inspired by : New ( Daya ) - song

Summary : If there a perfect word to describe Sanzu, it have to be A perfectionist boyfriend that you ever had, unfortunately, you came to his life just to experience the love you should be longing were no lnger yours. You left him nothing but the mess.

Walking at the alley all alone just accompany by a cold breeze after you decided to cut your relationship of 2 years with Sanzu.

What's wrong with him ? Nothing wrong with him.

He is an angel towards you, never laid a hand or rising his voice even he got a lot pressure from his works. So, what's the problem ?

I am the problem.

Those 2 years was nothing but a pretentious hell for you. Surely, Sanzu feel all the kinds of love that he received from his only precious gilfriend. Cant really says he changes drasticlly just for you but all the betterment from him became more clear and it all just for his love.

All the toxicness in his relationship were coming from you.

Patient, anger, love, calmness, or even hatred were came at once.

And it was all about you.

Now you were sitting down across your new boyfriend, seating like your usual day, crossing leg, with a glass of wine in your hand. Kakucho, one in million man that treated you right, the way you wanted to be treated, the man that really fucking desrved me, you thought as you enjoying his attractive face focus reading the newspaper.

Realized you staring at him, make his check flush in a candy pink.

" Hey, honey, you want anything, you stare like you wanna chocking on somethin' ? " he fold the newspaper, reflecting a same situation you are in, and not to forget the dangerous smirk , oh how you looked at him right now.

You smile and rose from your seat, hugging his side, " cant wait to dress up as a matching couple on your co-worker's birthday tonight, babe ", Kakucho giggling on your words and hugging you back. Everything was lasted for 5 minutes, until the door bell ringing on Kakucho's house disturbed you both from the session.

" wait, im coming ", Kakucho ran towards the door and opened the door for someone appeared on the frame, that you knew all too well.

" Hey, Mikey. What brings you up today ", the silver haired man, just look at you in confusion. Why you were here ? Well, Mikey not interested in anything, he observed every movements of people around him but never take a talks about it.

" Sanzu. Did you saw Sanzu today ? Kakucho? Y/N ? ", Kakucho tilted his head towards you, have you seen him , you just shrugged and now, Mikey's sighed left his mouth. He threw himself on the couch without got a permission from the owner. Tch, he is the boss after all.

" i want Sanzu to get me something today but that damn crazy, didnt pick his phone ", no movement from the three of you, only the breathe filled the room. Kakucho cant really answer where is Sanzu nor you. You felt all the guitly.

The real "excuse" of you hate Sanzu. He spent all his fucking day to served and did a bad thing for his boss. They are criminal of course there are multiple crimes they have done but took someone days' just for your fucking useless order ? That's irritate you, but you never look at the other side of how Sanzu and Mikey make it up to you, no , you chose to be blind asf.

Apparently, the three of you knew what actually happened to him but where is he ?

" Mikey.. if you want Sanzu to get a.. g-gift for Kokonoi's birthday, you should..just buy it all by yourself. Asking Sanzu for..stealing ..would never be a good option, i guess ? " Kakucho carefully choose his words to response to his boss. Not that they never done thing like stealing but it was never a good option if you want to give a gift for someone.

" Babe, im leaving. Love you ", you dont want to trapped in this air. Your boyfriend just blew a flying kiss towards you, which makes you response in only smiled and nodded.

"So, you and y/n now ? " mikey still in his position layin' on the couch with his bored eyes looking at Kakucho.

"Yes. This is bad but we cant control something that called love ", Mikey let all alone Kakucho's words, he was right after all, he once being possisive towards the girl that already have a happy family , cant help but falling in love with her.

Mikey got up, and tapped Kaku's shoulder, nevermind things will be ok. He chose to stepped away from his executives's love life, he didnt want take any side. It was never easy for Kaku too. He's betraying his friend, dating his ex-girlfriend.

-

Your house not too far away from Kaku, so, it was easy for you to just take a walk whenever you want, from your house to his house. Well, it has been 6 minutes since you left Kaku's house.

But what caught you suprised was, the car, the black mercedes car that always took you anywhere you want. Sanzu.

You just stood there and waiting for the car moves, have a conversation with him now is really a bad idea. You just waiting and hiding , wait , and wait, 2 minutes feel like forever.

Then, the car move in high speed. Showing there are no longer Sanzu waiting for you. You never knew why he was in your house street.

You arrived at the gate of your house. Expecting Sanzu left something for you but to your disappoiment, there are nothing.

Ah, right. Im the one who broke up with him.

Continue your steps, and going straight to your bedroom. Close your eyes. But all you can see is Sanzu.

His smile, his laugh, his gibberish whenever he come to you in drunk condition, he woke you up to tie his tie, asking you to help him in cooking, make you feel all better when you felt all stressed with your assigment, make you a cup of coffee for you, waiting for you to finish the assigment, choose a good outfit for you , helps you massage your body when you felt tired during your period days'.

Oh God, how i miss him so much.

You opened your eyes. Your bedroom. Every memories in your bedroom , hit you so much.

Crying wont give your Sanzu back, honey.

One mistake lead to another mistake. You thought, you dont feel any love towards him anymore because you were tired of his shi- your shit actually. You never tried to fix anything or being helpful just like how he did for you.

It was you, y/n.

A hypocrite girlfriend. You leave him with the pain that no cure in a mean time, let himself collecting all the pieces he thought that was complete whenever with you. But what did you do ? Hook up with his friend.

You knew Kakucho since the first day of Sanzu brought you as a partner to the event that they have to attend. Not that you have an eyes on him, but his gentleness make you flattered.

What the ingredient add to mix all the worst, you treated Sanzu like he is your slave. You love him but you just convinced yourself that you no lomger love him because he always spent the time to do a bad thing for his boss. He worshiped you but he served under all his boss's order.

Tired of his loyalty to his boss, you were nagging everything about him to Kakucho, the only his co-worker that often contacting you. At first, there were no feeling involved but in the certain point, the feeling were grew.

The karma hit so hard. The feeling that you have for Kaku, just the feeling of you felt bored and the boiling anger of the arguement with Sanzu, in reality, Sanzu never get bored to grew a flower for you that he never knew that would never be blooming as he cherished.

-

You took a deep breath. Finally, you were in the birthday party of your new boyfriend's friend. After all the ranting going through your mind in the evening, you eventually make it stop by saying, that you will never looking back to him. Or so you thought. Never cared about how painful he felt. He felt like a foolish. He loved you in those 2 years in hope can grew a beautiful love with you.

Sanzu not being there, " Where is Sanzu ? ", Rindou's voice make you and Koko look at his direction, the others who invited to the party just enjoying themselves and couldnt careless about any conversation that going around them, " he said he cant come, something personal happened but he did left he a gift. Never thought that maddog actually a sweetheart ", Koko half laugh when he saw the gift that Sanzu's gave him.

You dont know how to feel. Relief or disappoint. You felt relief because you are certainly not ready to look into his eyes, knew how you would reacted in his presence or disappoint, fuck , you really miss his face. What kind of girl are you, all teared up for someone that you never appreciate.

Drowning on your thought, you didnt even care what your boyfriend's friends words. Or the rough loving hand of your boyfriend caressing your thigh. All you could think is Sanzu, Sanzu , Sanzu and Sanzu.

All the memories with were flashed, bad or good, they are really meant a lot to you, finally you realized it.

-

" All the shit you have done, y/n, i never took it personally. You hurts me, i thought that how love supposed to be. You being all moody during our dates, i thought that was normal for you. And for the fucking only time that i ditched you, waa because my boss really fucking need me- ",

Sanzu just stared at you when you cuts him,

" need you ? Sanzu, have you even realized all the mess you have done because of your king ? Did you ever considered my feeling when you left me all alone, just because your fucking boss cant breath a single air without ordering you around ?? This is the fucking reason make me want to leaving you and go to Kakucho !! ", no, you never meant the last sentenced you said, it slipped out .

" leaving me ? Kakucho ?", he said the words in disbelief then, he laughed like uncontrolly manic , " so, now we have another name in our relationship ? Y/n, sweetheart. Mikey really need me. He even let me have a week rest to spend all day with you because he felt bad that he took me from you whenever you need me. But have a "nice" affairs with my friend behind my back ? You are unbelieveable, y/n. Go, if you really wanna go. After all, im always be the one took all the blames that people made. I let you go ", all you can saw was Sanzu' avoiding your eyes, he didnt even want to let you go. You were the one who changed him and now, you want to leave him just because you cant deal with his jobs.

The job not to blame but you. You are to the blames for making a quick conclusion to all this mess.

That's how you in the alley all alone. With both your hands full with your suitcase and left all of your shit to Sanzu , now that he have deal with your shit.

Sanzu offered you to drive you back to your old house. Dammit, your house were the one full with your both memories, you didnt even rejecting him or what, but just walked away from him.

You muttering " everything gonna be fine, y/n, this is what i really wanted ", as you thought that there are no onw heard what you saying,

"Y/n ? ", Kakucho looks at you with star in his eyes.

-

2 weeks after Kokonoi's birthday party.

You didnt hear anything about Sanzu from your boyfriend, his co-workers or someone that knew him. It's not like he disappeared but everyone seems like want to shut their mouth from saying his name in frint of you, no exception for your boyfriend. But it ok, your boyfriend and Sanzu still im good terms.

Wanna asked about him from your boyfriend ? Nah, that would be weird. You love Kakucho, just not how you loved Sanzu, but thing will worked out if you try to take a lesson from your past relationship.

Even when you in bed or have a sex with Kakucho, all could things about is Sanzu, Sanzu , Sanzu....

His name nonstop repeating itself.

You felt for Kaku, he deserved someone really good but, your ego wont let Kakucho became your victim of your next mistake.

-

" if you really love Kakucho more than me, hope you to know that i always been love you, but with all the shit you left, things never be the same if you begging me to take you again ", Sanzu's soaked with his tears, you let his words hanging around the air, and closed the front door.

Oh, you never knew how broken he was.

" Sanzu, im missing you. You were right, all the guilt were haunting me, i fucking deserved this. I thought you are not the one for me, i want you take me back but your words sacred me. Not to mention, you are man of the words", you whispering as you caressing the frames that you still keep after the broke up, it had been 6 months of your broke up with Sanzu, you still cant get over it,

"But now, im with someone new",

You dont wanna to leave Kakucho just like how you did to Sanzu, just because you miss Sanzu's affections or his love, you took a lesson and try to be more considered how you should appreciate someone, Kakucho.

Sanzu was nothing but someone that you will be always missed.

;))

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#bonten #bonten fic #bonten sanzu #sanzu angst #sanzu akashi #sanzu haruchiyo #sanzu x y/n #sanzu x reader #sanzu fic #sanzu haruchiyo fic #sanzu imagines #sanzu x you #kakucho hitto #kakucho fluff #kakucho scenarios #kakucho x y/n #kakucho x reader #kakucho x you

[mikeyfuckinway]

i want slouchy arm warmers i want to dress like an emo boy from 2005 but like. a cool one with a band

#skinny jeans and hair with stupid bangs #cool boots #i would just like to look like revenge mikey with slouchy arm warmers #i am now talking about mikey way and i didnt even realize it #aries.txt #emo boy #mikey way #im not street but i queue what i gotta queue

[teetlesandnimjas]

What if in the explosion the brothers got separated?

This is a villain turtle au- if you don’t want to read it you can scroll past! I know it’s a cliche concept but it was fun! And I like doing my own spin on things.

(Note in this au when they’re mutated they are a little older, young kids, as this idea wouldn’t work if they weren’t SEMI competent. They’re still 13, 14, and 15 in modern times, but when they’re first mutated Mikey is 3, Leo and Donnie are 4, and Raph is 5)

Donnie: got scooped up by Draxum in the end, and works as his assistant first, son second. He has a similar position to Foot Recruit; despite being fully capable of actually being useful, he is treated with little respect and does mundane tasks like running errands and fixing random, broken objects. He is trained constantly but is told over and over again that he is “not good enough” yet. Despite this he puts his heart into everything he does. Broken clock? Sure he’ll fix it and it’s got LAZERS now! This causes him to accidentally make problems, and Draxum thinks that Donnie is “a complete and udder fool” which is further from the truth. Villain Donnie is a lot like canon Donnie personality wise but a bit more serious. He does not approve of Draxum’s use of mystic powers, and resents using them himself. He refuses the axe Draxum tries to give him. Draxum has little regard for what Donnie thinks and does, and therefore has an awful relationship with him. And yknow Donnie’s abandonment and self-worth issues? Yeah crank that up to 11. Basically Donnie hates Draxum and the Mystic City, and the Shredder going rouge is the last straw. “WATCH ME! ILL WIPE OUT THE HUMAN THREAT WITHOUT YOUR STUPID MAGIC! YOU HEAR ME BARON DRAXUM- I DEFY YOU!”

Leo: made his way to New York via Senior Hueso. Originally I was going to have him raised by Hueso but then realized it wouldn’t make a lot of sense- so Senior Hueso picks baby Leo up off the streets but ever the wanderer Leo walks right through the GIANT PORTAL IN THE WALL. From there Foot Brute, attempting and failing to find members for the clan, picks up this tiny, promising turtle off the street. “What is that thing?” “I dunno but he’s cute- and we’re in need of members” “That is an actual child” “so?” And then Leo is raised by his two dad- I mean sensei. I put raised lightly. He was treated better than Donnie but he was never given a lot of attention, and therefore turned to causing trouble to get attention. And not just from his dads, from anyone he can. Causing mischief in the city actually helped him in his training, as he became very skilled at sneaking, fighting, and stealing. He butts heads with Foot Recruit a lot because of his constant need for approval and attention. She finds him genuinely annoying while he just views it as “playful teasing.” That comes back to bite him the butt upon meeting Donnie, who comes along to help make form the Shredder armor, but he does not want to be there. Forced to work together, Donnie gets sick of Leo’s crap real fast but they don’t really hate each other, but in the moment they needed to play it off like they did and therefore gave the impression to the other that they DID hate them. Confusing, I know. Draxum tries and fails on multiple occasions to nab Leo but if he does he realizes it’ll put a major dent in his plans. So he forbids Donnie to speak to Leo. But no one stops Leo from talking to him. But Donnie’s coldness and Leo’s cruel banter really doesn’t help them get along. The moment Shredder goes rogue and the Foot Clan collapses, Leo flees in fear. “What if” this and “what if” that but mostly because he tried to take out Shredder and ruined his clan name. But even on the street, Leo remains the same annoying, much more cruel and dark humored mutant.

Mikey: Got scooped up by the Mud Dogs and taken to Big Mama, dragging only Lou’s glasses with him since even as a toddler he picked up anything shiny he saw. I plan to draw the interaction between tiny Mikey and the Dogs (and how Mikey got his name in this au) but that’s a surprise. Anyways pretty quickly he got entered in the Battle Nexus. Think about the appeal that fight would have! Just a couple years of training and then bam! “Introducing Hakka-gu! Our youngest fighter ever- only 8 years old!” And having natural talent and capabilities he was an instant hit. And he wasn’t treated horribly, after all Big Mama couldn’t risk one of her most profitable champions running away. But he is still treated as nothing but that- a profit, a marketable product. No one calls him his real name anymore, no one cares about him, just his capabilities. When he gets injured it isnt “are you okay?” It’s “is your body okay?” And sometimes he’s treated like an idiot- especially by Big Mama. He was never taught language and has very botched speaking patterns because “intelligence isnt important for a champion.” Well eventually he has enough of that, and through a bloodbath, he is able to escape to New York. Now he’ll get respect- he’ll make them respect him. But he gets quickly spotted by the Foot Clan and Draxum, as he’s in the way. Upon finding out about the plans to wipe out humans, he knows he has to stop them. Who can respect him if THESE GUYS wanna take over the world? He’s not getting mistreated again. But when the Shredder goes rogue he panics- he cant stop it but... he knows who can. He goes crawling back to Big Mama and strikes a deal. A better champion. Better than him. And she takes it, although in the end she makes some... alterations to the deal. But this doesn’t stop his quest for respect, and he ultimately heads back to New York.

Raph: Savage! He’s alone, a young child who doesn’t know where to go. He panics, and rampages all the way to New York. After a good, long, temper-tantrum, he finds himself in an alleyway, climbing into a sewer. And there he eats rats, he sets up a not-so-homely-home for himself. He flashes in and out of his anger, but he is almost always emotional and looking for some sort of control in his life. He gets that through rampages, causing destruction in any way he can. Usually he doesn’t make TOO much of a mess but he’s brought down a few buildings in his time. Eventually, upon seeing a rampaging demon-armor in the streets and seeing 2 figures trying to stop it (at this point Mikey is getting Big Mama) he realizes there are others out there like him. And then begins a struggle for control not over the world, but over himself too. There are times he gains control and although lonely, he knows he must learn. He learns English in flickers, and it isn’t perfect, but he can communicate. He can talk to them. Now he just needs to stop hurting them.

Extra notes:

In this au the only one with their weapon is Donnie. Mikey and Leo are skilled with the weapons they have in canon (the Ōdachi and Kusari-fundo) but they do not have mystic powers. Raph is... well... Raph. He can’t fight with weapons well but he can pack a punch.

Mikey is still a chef and artist, taking a liking to the ability to create, but just like with everything else he “needs to focus on his fights” so he can’t have interests. A kid like Mikey HATES this and any time he can he sneaks away to bake and draw. Usually this is at 2 am.

Leo has anxiety. The minute something not in the plan happens, or a loud noise, or having to talk to someone without a script, he goes into fight-or-flight mode. He often finds that the answer is to fight.

Raph is not necessarily evil- he is an antagonist but he is not evil. He simply has no control and lashes out at everything. That’s why he stays in the sewers. Nothing down there’s moves other than rats, bugs, and the water. But he has to get violent urges out some how.

April is a reporter-in-training in the au, as she never met the turtles until after the Shredder incident. She’s immediately interested in it, as she is everything “supernatural” and she gets dangerously close to some of their fights. I don’t know how they meet yet or if she becomes friends with any of them.

After the Shredder incident, the only thing stopping each turtle from destroying New York is each other. Seriously. They keep getting in each other’s ways because “I want to take over the world, not THEM!”

They all have certain villain stereotypes. Donnie is sort of a mad scientist, Leo is a teasing, monologging villain, Mikey acts like a nut case but has a certain intelligence to him, and Raph appears as a total destroyer.

In the end they get redeemed and find out they’re family, but it takes a while. Mikey is the one to hunt down Draxum, while Leo stalks him. Upon finding this out, having 3 out of 4 looking for each other, they find each other pretty fast. And there’s a big dramatic apology scene with all 3 of them, and at first Donnie thinks they’re conspiring against him and ambushes them but is only met with three harmless turtles who refuse to fight him. They tell him what the deal is and Donnie is shocked. And then he’s pissed. “WHY DIDNT DRAXUM TELL ME!? YOURE LYING! LIARS! NO!” In the end he realizes the truth, but it takes a little “talk” with Draxum. And then Donnie nearly commits murder. Don’t worry they stop him. But there’s no Draxum redemption arc because Donnie would continuously try to commit a felony. April is also somewhere in there and like gives the brothers goodness lessons but idk where that fits in I’m still working this out shajajajajaj

#rottmnt #rottmnt au #villain turtle au #i love theeeeese #also sorry theres no cut i couldnt figure it out on mobile #YOURE GETTING ART SOON! IVE ALREADY GOT MIKEY! #TaNTalks #im sorry

[miserybegins]

i use my blog like a diary and today i realized i never talked about what happened in my life while i was blog-less from april to august so:

so my blog was suspended right before my 10 year tumblr anniversary with that blog which was april 5th i believe.

on april 6th i flew to san diego to do the 6 california dates of the frank/tbs tour. the tour was so much fun!!! we went to disney for two or three days that we had off from the tour which was a lot of fun. 

the highlight of the tour was the second night in LA because I MET RAY!!!! while tbs was on i saw ray hanging back in the crowd and i couldn’t help myself i had to go say hi so i introduced myself and told him how much the music meant to me, it was really brief cause the show was going on and it was super loud and he was with his wife but he was like the gentlest and nicest man ever....however i had to go chug a 20 dollar beer right afterwards to cope.

we figured gerard and mikey were there as well since they all always go to frank LA shows but im glad i didnt see gerard cause that would just cause a breakdown im a simple man and gerard way makes me cry!

but frank did come talk to us that night, it was the only opportunity i really got on that tour to talk to frank and i hadnt talked to him since last summer when i got really bombed at a tribute show and talked to him while black out drunk which i dont remember. so i had a really good talk with him and i was like i dont know WHY im telling you this but i reminded him how i told him about my alopecia a while back and how mcr had helped me cope with that well while i was in california i tested not wearing a hat to cover my alopecia for the first time and even though it was super scary everyone treated me the same and i did itt! i survived!! so i reminded him how i told him about that and then told him how i had been combatting that on the trip and he seemed so genuinely happy for me he was like that is so awesome and he hi fived me. and it was good i really love frank. oh also i told him we were going to get tattoos in san fransisco and he told us to go to idle hand so

in san fransisco we did go to idle hand to get tattooed! i got a heart on my middle finger and my broken armed boozey that frank drew up for me after i had broken my arm at his show and frank had warned us that they might not be the friendliest people but they were great tattoo artists so we were like scared?? but my guy was so fucking nice and literally hugged me when i tipped him and he thought it was so cool that we were following the tour so idk...good experience.

when i got home from the tour though it was a few weeks until my 25th birthday and i didnt want to live so i went inpatient for almost 2 weeks :( but then i got out and had my birthday and lived i guess lmao

when i went back to work i had like nO MONEY because i spent all of it in california but frank had east coast shows coming up and the release of barriers and i was just like if i dont go i am gonna lose my fucking mind! and my friend convinced me to go to harrisburg and she bought my ticket so i was like yay! amen! this friend is always so good to me i cant explain.

anyway this is my favorite thing. im standing outside the venue talking to my friends before doors and the band walks out the front cause theres only one entrance and theyre going to the bus but frank seens me and walks the other way to come over and shake my hand and tell me it was good to see me ;____; literally rerouted himself to say hi to ME specifically i was like...wah. im baby. i LOVE HIM.

i ended up getting stupid drunk at the show and woke up in the back seat of my car the next morning still parked across from the venue..dont recommend. but im saying this because it is a plot point!

i got in a lot of trouble for going to pennsylvania without telling anyone and not answering any texts or calls when everynoe was still really worried about me but then a couple weekends later there were more shows....the show frank played on a boat and a signing the next day.

so my friends again paid for me to go because they thought it was important for me. which it was. the boat show was fun but i felt so sick because it was on a literal moving boat and i hadnt eaten or slept but i was extremely overcaffeinated....so when we got to the hotel that night i fell asleep for 15 hours straight i was asleep before my friend even got out of the shower and i did NOT wake up.

the signing the next day was really weird for me. they played a few songs which was fine but then to ‘meet’ frank at a signing was super weird cause he and evan were at this table and i just didnt knwo what to say and i felt really awkward and it was a weird shift in dynamic from how i usually talk to them so i feel like i came off as super nervous and then i was liek frank htates me now cause he thinks i am nervous to talk to him...but then my friend was talking to me about it and we realized that it had been a really long time since id talked to frank sober. and it was sad to realize that but also cool that i could make that realization and move forward from it.

so the NEXT weekend i went to the last show which was asbury lanes. saw a lot of pals there. i could have drank but i didnt drink at all and i had the best time....i was amazed by the lighting idk if it was just really good that night or if i hadnt paid any attention cause id always been drunk but it felt really good and i told frank about it after the show!!

but the whole time that all was happening i was like really fucking depressed and i didnt think i was going to even make it home that time. i did make it home but a few days later i tried to kill myself and ended up in inpatient for the whole month of july. :/

when i got out though i made some changes like leavig chipotle and getting a job at hot topic before anyone expected me to go back to work and i also started taking a bio class which is hopefully now going to turn into me doing a surgical tech program starting in the fall!

im still very depressed but im doing better, even i can admit.

if you read this whole thing you are a champ...

#trigger warning for suicide attempt #its not all bad!!!! #i met ray! #mack.txt

[your-localghost]

so um who wants to read a 50 page essay of me and my mom's journey through the IT movies?

too bad you're reading it

so like i saw this goddamm clown, and i, also being a clown, said to my mom, also a clown, "lets watch this clown movie lol" and she said yes. and in the like first five minutes we are already awwing and stuff because??? omg georgie and bill are so cu- oh. oh my god. oh this us not what we thought at all-

so enter Losers. instant RELATE i am also a LOSER hellO?? hAh look at these 2 idiots theyre bickering like an old couple an- oh my fucking GOD of course there are bullies. one of them looks like draco malfoy??? guYs did draco malfoy play in this movie we see him like 2 times-

oh my god oh no poor bill he is trying to find his brother :( but alsO BEV IS SO PRETTY??? IM SO GAY???? and yeah i really feel the New Kid On The Block like same man i didnt even get to meet a pretty girl and a buncho losers who will go jump into lakes with me

OH and the lake scene? it bites me in the ass later. i fucking passed it off as a "theyre bonding" moment and then it transforms into a feelings plane and crashes into my house

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me: they just keep leaving their bikes

mom: well It takes kids, not bikes

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fastforward and??? the fight secene?? the fuckijgn fi Ght SCE ne??? o H M Y GO D

bill was so desperate to find georgie?? richie was so scared he would die??? beN BEING SCARED HIS FRIENDS ARE GONE?

i AM ALL OF THESE FUCKERS

and oh?? bev's dad??? hate the vibe this dude gives to me. like this dude def did more than mentally abuse her and im so glad she beat him up

uhHHH??? WHY DOES NO ONE TALK ABOUT EDDIE STANDING UP TO HIS FREAKSHOW OF A MOM??? HOW HE WAS SO MAD????? HE THREW HIS PILLS ON THE GROUND HELLO, HE STRAIGHT UP YEETED HIS FANNY PACK??? MAN the things a gay goes through for his friends

bill's speech on georgie, like, dude just fucking stab me it will hurt way less

fastforward more, the oath??? how scared stan was??? like i ddint really feel any connection with stan other than his actor played my fav character, stan, in ianowt, but uHm? i still love him??? so mUCH???

oOOOH i just realied i didnt talk about mikey

ahem

THE ROCK FIGHT THE FUKING ROCK FIGHT THE ROCK FIGHT OH MY GOD

THESE LOSERS ARE SCARED SHITLESS OF THOSE SHITBAGS BUT THEY SEE ANOTHER LOSER AND THE FIRST THING THEY DO IS THROW R O C K LIKE FUCK YEAH YOU FUCNKY LITTLE MIDDLE SCHOOLERS STAND UP FOR YOUR FELLOW BULLIED I LOVE MIKEY SO M7CH OH MY GOD

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so between the 2 movies we realized it wasnt on netflix and went on various websites to watch the 2nd movie, got progressively angrier until i got my laptop and just watched it blindly because we are both blind

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okay heres the tea yall

they completely erased bev's character in the 2nd movie. in the first it was emphesized SO MUCH just how brave she was compared to the others. she took the first step, she wasnt afraid to go into the house she fought her abusive dad and in the 2nd movie it was all gone. i really liked the fact that bev wqsnt a damsel in distress until in the 2nd movie she was. while in the 1st movue you forgot that gender roles existed in the 2nd it really seemed like they wrote bev as a "woman" rather than "bev" you dig me??? okay rant over. basically fuck the 2nd movie bev and im not just saying this because her 1st movie actor made me realize i was a lesbian. on to the movie

oh mY GOD HOMOSEXUALS??? WILL THEY HAVE A PART IN THIS STORY OH MY IM SO EX- oh. right. oh hey theres mikey :D

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me: who's this??

mom: its bill look, its his surname

me:

me: you remember bill's surname but not richie or ben's names?

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oh theyre all grown up!! oh bevs fighting an abusive man again and uh

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mom: i have a feeling stans gonna kill himself

me: hah can you imagi

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STANLEY??? BABEY BOY OH NO???? and also are we gonna let the spider with the baby head thing pass?

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY DONT REMEMBER ANYTHI-

"this is like a virus its been eating us for 27 years!" YEA MIKEY ITS CALLED PTSD YOU FOUGHT A FUCKING DEMON AND DIDNT SEE A THERAPIST????

also the whole tribe thing seemed really out of story and like it didnt belong there at all? idk maybe its just me but i dont wanna believe that bill's 3rd eye opened after he got drugged by his friend idk

so like hightlights because ive got many rants about the 2nd movie

what the fuck do you mean bev got out of jer specilized hell after ben recited 1 fucking poem are you kidding me are yOU FUCKING KIDDING ARE WE REALLY DOING THE SAVED BY LOVE BULLSHIT AGAIN OH OKAY

OH OKAY FUCK YOU

SO BEV GETS SAVED IN THE FIRST MOVIE AFTER BEN KISSES HER WHEN AT THE TIME HE PRIBABLY THOUGHT LOVE WAS AT ITS PEAK WHEN YOU GAVE YOUR 2ND GRADE CRUSH A BADLY WRITTEN POEM

AND UFKCING HELL IT HAPPENS IN THE 2ND MOVIE TOO??? DOES PENNYWISE JUST THINK "oh these bitches hetero bettet keep them alive" BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT? THIS WOULD ALL BE OKAY IF

IF

IF EDDIE LIVED TOO

FUCK I RELATE TO RICHIE SO MUCH??? HIS FIGHT WITH HIS PEERS AND HIS FIGHT WITH HIMSELF OVER HIS YEARS LASTING CRUSH ON EDDIE?? OH MY GOD IT WAS SO OBVIOUS THIS MOTHERFUCKER WAS GAY AND I DIDNT REALIZE UNTIL THE 2ND MOVIE WHEN HE HAS A BREAKDOWN BECAHSE HIS SOULMATE GETS STABBED BY HOMOPHOBIC FORTNITE DANCING CLOWN WHILR HE TRIES TO SAVE HIMA DN THEN FUCKIN G DIES EVEN THOUGHT THESE 2 IDIOTS HAD MORE CHEMISTRY THAN BILL+BEV AND BEN+BEV COMBINED OH MY GOD IM SO MAD THE HETEROS GET TO LIVE BY TRUE LOVE BUT THE GAYS DONT AND UG G H H G G HH "hes dead" NO HE FUCKING IS NOT THIS ISNT FAIR I LOVED EDDIE SO MUCH

well uh now that we got my love for richie on papet um

the lake scene

i cried and i had to watch heteros kiss underwater while wiping my tears. its only cool when percabeth does it guys

the lake scene aside i full on BAWLED LIKE A BABY at the ending because i felt so bad that stan died already and i felt bad that not only was richie facing years if bullying and homophobia anf the loss of his friends it finally is confirmed that richie had a crush on eddie and i

i just cried man? it hurt me so much as it weighed on me how many jokes richie made, how scared he was when he saw the missing paper of himself, his flashbacks to people calling him names, his speech to eddie and that he had to get dragged out because this fucker obviously couldnt let go of his feelings. and between all of that and stan's letter my brain blocks out everything and focuses on one

R + E

oh my god

OH MY GOD NO

NOW i dont really like watching movies. as a writer myself im really critical of everything involving the world building, the characters, the plot and all that jazz and usually the acting is so bad that i dont feel for the characters but THIS ONE. T H I S O N E

my mom turned to me and was SO SHOCKED to see my flat out CRYING because i just dont do that man, and she just asked my what made me cry and i just made a noise like "hhhnnnn" and she nodded and went "richie's love story" and i, still crying, went "hhhnnnn" but in a higher pitch

and im just so mad? that eddie didnt get to live?? we didnt get an "i love you" or even a "im gay" from richie??? we didnt get to see them holding hands and letting go of their trauma together and being gay and happy yet

yet the fucking bad-writer-white-boy and boo-hoo-i-had-no-friends and not-bev get happy endings??? mike can get a happy ending because he is a well thought out character

thESE 3 ON THE OTHER HAND OH MY GOD

bill had to change his endings which really makes me angry because ima writer yada yada

bill has been bullied his uh what whole life? he got told his opinion didnt matter and from what i remember even his parents shut down his ideas and i feel like he should have made the endings how he wanted instead of changing to what the public wanted. thats what he defended as a kid, thats why he was in the losers club unwilling to change, because they were losers. yet he changed.

ben should have stayed fat or at least have abnornal weight because that also defeats his story with bev. it makes it seem that suddenly and magically when ben is hot bev can BEGIN to consider that she loves him.

i already ranted about bev.

mike is decent i guess? i like that he didnt stay with whoever the fuck that was in the first movie because he seemed very aggreasive to me. im glad the chose to research into pennywise because others were too stupid not to (RICH AND EDDIE GET A PASS AGAIN BECAUSE THEY SHARE HALF A BRAINCELL AND I LOVE THEM)

well stan is just tragic

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me: who the fuck is afraid of spiders why do they keep showing up

mom: its stan?

mom: he brought the hair things and all

me, about to cry: oh m y god

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so TL;DR: we really liked the first film! the acting, the plot, the creepiness is overall better and you get to relate to a bunch of Losers who get abused by their parents

the 2nd film doesnt exist. i refuse to acknowledge it exist EXCEPT for the ending where stan writes a letter about how he would like to meet hks friends again while BREATHING and richie and eddie carve their initials on a piece of wood and get to be gay.

if your name starts with B your opinion is invalid in the 2nd movie

also can anybody give me fanfics where the fortnite dancing clown doesnt exist and richie goes to therapy to heal from the bullying and once he gets over his homophobia he gays with eddie??? specific i know but im willing to write it if it doesnt exist

#ghost reviews movies #i guess? #it (movie) #it (2017) #it (2019) #spoilers #tw abuse mention #tw homophobia mention #tw suicide mention #this is a #rant #AND A #vent #BECAUSE OF RICHIE AND RICHIE ONLY #long post

[rosegoldcas]

hey so i heard at one point that some songs from mania were probably written about mikey and, as much as i love that idea, i wanted to ask what do you know about it and all? coz honestly i didnt pay that much attention to the lyrics and all and yeah, thought you maybe know sth more about it

I’ve said this before, I’ll say it again— when it comes to a ship like Petekey, every single theory about stuff like this is an “if” situation. It’s fine to talk about AU’s as much as you want but it gets trickier when talking about real life.

Now, IF Pete does write songs about Mikey, here’s the songs on M A N I A that I think might be about him (these are all just my opinions and I’m probably reading too deeply into the songs but here you go):

The Last Of The Real Ones—

During a lot of shows, pete has described this song as being about “that feeling when everything is crumbling around you but you’re still so in love.” (Or something along those lines) To me, that could be about the state of the world today, but since Pete is actually living his best life right now, it seems to me he’s leaning more towards his worst days of depression and suicidal thoughts—this could tie in to the days where Pete and Mikey supposedly got together.

•“You’re the last of a dying breed, write our names in the wet concrete.”

This could be about how maybe Pete didn’t think real people still existed— Fans loved him, but since they didn’t know him at all, it was all superficial to him. Friends and family were probably sucking up to him for his newfound fame and fortune but none of it was real. Suddenly, he found love kind of out of nowhere with a type of person who he thought didn’t exist anymore: a real person. Mikey was a lot like Pete: bass player of a successful band with a lot of underlying emotional and mental health issues. I wonder if maybe they fell for each other because they understood each other in a way nobody else could. They were both real. The wet concrete line could be about that urge to make the relationship permanent, even if it means breaking some rules/going against what people tell them.

•“I wonder if your therapist knows everything about me. I’m here in search of your glory, there’s been a million before me, that ultra kind of love you never walk away from.”

At this point, Pete was probably pretty unstable and so was Mikey. A rocky pairing like that could probably warrant some future therapy visits. Pete, however, was able to see a kind of energy in Mikey that he could relate to and that he thought might follow him for the rest of his life (which, to be fair, it might have). He’s obviously a romantic who believes in the concept of The One, so if he and Mikey had a relationship they had to end for whatever reason, a piece of his heart will always belong to Mikey no matter what happens.

HOLD ME TIGHT OR DON’T—

In Bang The Doldrums (which is theorized to be a Petekey song), the lyrics read “Best friends, ex friends til the end, better off as lovers and not the other way around.” In HMTOD, the lyrics read “I got too high again, realized I can’t not be with you or be just your friend. I love you to death but I just can’t pretend we were lovers first. Confidants, but never friends. We’re we ever friends?” Now, Pete loves to put callbacks to older songs into his newer songs, so there’s no denying this is a callback to Doldrums, which might be a callback to Petekey? 👀

Other than that, to me, this song just sounds like one that’s about a relationship between someone who’s head-over-heels and someone who’s indecisive. Even the title says so. There’s also a lot of lyrics about reminiscing about the past or dreaming of past events (“I just pinch myself, no longer comatose, I woke up no luck.” “I took too many hits off this memory, I need to come down.”)

Maybe Mikey was indecisive because he thought something was wrong with himself and he wanted to leave because he didn’t want to hurt Pete or be a burden, but the line “when your stitch comes loose, I wanna sleep on every piece of fuzz and stuffing that comes out of you” is Pete responding that, no matter what happens to him, he’s gonna love Mikey for who he is, flaws and all.

Church—

“If you were church, I’d get on my knees. Confess my love, I know where to be. My sanctuary, you’re holy to me. If you were church, I’d get on my knees.”

Now, whether or not that song is about Mikey, I think it’s a safe bet that this song is about a man.

There’s a lot of religious allegories in this song, and I think all of them are metaphors for how the world would look at a gay couple like Pete and Mikey if they were ever public about it. (“I love the world, but I just don’t love the way it makes me feel.”) In the music video, there’s a forbidden love between an interracial couple, but think about it: what kind of relationships do religious groups/churches forbid the most? Gay ones. This kind of sounds like Pete is fighting back against religious organizations that hate gays by making a sexually-charged gay song full of church imagery. It’s a really beautiful and poetic song about intimate love in the face of adversity that I just,,, love so much.

Heaven’s Gate—

“If there were any more left of me I’d give it to you, and I’d tell you that I am fine but I’m a missile that’s guided to you.” It sounds like Pete is saying he feels like he’s unlovable/incomplete and incapable of true love with someone like Mikey, who he sees as perfect—someone who can get him high from just a look (“one look from you and I’m on that faded love”).“Go out in the world, start over again and again as many times as you can.” Mikey has been married twice (and he’s supposedly been with other girls too) which might be him starting over again and again after Pete.

Lastly, people say that Bishop’s Knife Trick is Petekey, but I don’t think it is. People argue that it’s a song Pete wrote about finally working to get over Mikey but if I’m being honest I see this song as more of a musing of the band and how it’s coming to an end after such a long run. Either way, it’s a really sad concept.

#mania #fall Out boy #fob

[michaelreaderreblog]

Then there was me PT2

Word Count: 1,051

Eons later

Like anything has changed since, all the other angels are trying oh so hard to get Michael to cast you out but he still hasnt dont anything.

“Y/n, my dear” Balthazar said as he approaches you

You didnt want to be bothered by him since all he ever did was complain about you

“Yes Balthazar” you reply as you stop from looking through the enochian spell that you were organizing.

All you were good at was organizing, nothing more. You’re just another book keeper.

“Would you be a dear and fetch me something from the vault? I am working on a few things to advance myself” he says while looking to you and in hopes you will go through the vault

“Balthazar, what are you doing?” you ask while trying to read him but he doesnt make anything visible.

Every time he asked for something it always ends up really bad, last time he unsunk a boat and many dominoes were knocked over. Michael didnt like that. Balthazar felt his wrath and took him a while to heal.

“No, I am saving you from brother dearests wrath. Remember what happened last time?” you ask while looking around to make sure no one is around.

He looks to you and thinks about it more.

“Fine, I thought I would get away with it this time” as soon as he said that is when Michael appeared and looked between the both of us.

You stopped talking all together and looked passed Balthazar, he stopped himself from saying more.

“Y/n, Balthazar. How is everything with the old testaments and storing them in their rightful places? Along with the vaults?” he asks looking at you and looking to Balthazar.

He knew that Balthazar was up to no good and made sure that he knows that he has his watchful eye on him.

“Mikey, my favourite brother. Everything is great. I was just checking on Y/n myself and see how she is doing with her new duties” Balthazar fibs his way through his grace

“Thats really thoughtful of you. You shouldnt be here, you should be in the field training the fledglings how to use their grace and training them to fight” Michael says to him

“Its your new duty and from now on” he adds while hinting that he should be leaving the keepers area.

“Right and thank you for the duties” Balthazar says as he scampers off to the training fields

You return to doing the things you were doing without even realizing that Michael is still left standing there until you felt someone looking to you.

“Sorry, I didnt know you needed something. What is it you need?” you ask getting a little closer to Michael.

“Oh nothing in particular, I just wanted to come here and see how you were doing with the organizing and storing” he says while remaining in his spot.

“Everything is just fine” is all you tell him

“I know about your grace, how its not at its full power and how you cant defend yourself. I need to have all angels fulfilling duties because Heaven is a big place and needs order. So I placed you here and you are doing amazing work at keeping everything where they should be and where they have to be store carefully” he says while never taking his eyes away from you.

It was as if he was looking deep into whatever grace you had left and telling you the duties you are fulfilling are greatly appreciated. Well its basically the only thing you know how to do without anyone telling you its the wrong way or telling you its not how it should be. You are the only book keeper but its nice to be left alone.

The other angels pass by and whisper to themselves

‘Michael should cast her out, since Father could never do it, It should be him to cast her out, she is no angel’

He listens to every word they said and felt sad about what was being said about you.

You stopped listening to a word they said, even though it was true but still stopped listening to them. You just wish Michael would cast you out already, you didnt have anyone in Heaven like the others do. There was nothing for you.

“Michael there you are. We need you in the weapons chambers” Raphael says while coming to the both of you.

“I will be there, I am checking on y/n to see how she is doing with her duties” Michael says while looking to his brother.

“I better get back to storing these, they arent going to store themselves” you retort while walking away from Michael and Raphael

“Michael she is doing fine, you dont need to check on her every few moments” Raphael says while trying to steer away his brother to the weapons chambers.

“You remember how everyone always says she should be cast out?” Michael asks as they make their way to the chambers

“Yes, why do you ask?” he asks looking to his brother.

“Why would they say such things?”Michael asks out of curiosity before entering the chambers

“Because she has no grace like the rest of us, she didnt have any means what so ever and she couldnt defend for herself” he replies while looking to Michael, waiting for him to enter the chambers with him

“But Father never allowed that, why is that?” he asks once more not going any further

“All I remember Father saying she was special and is needed here in Heaven. Where she belongs” he replies in hopes he will stop asking questions

“Do you think she will leave on her own?” he asks in a quiet tone

“No, if she wanted to leave she would have been gone a long time ago” Raphael says while he looks to his brother.

Raphael is beginning to think you might leave after all. Without even realizing you’re Michael’s mate. Your grace would restore once the bond is completed and you will finally be a full angel.

Finally when they leave is when you begin to search for a particular spell that you would be needing for later. You werent expecting Michael to show up but you expected Balthazar to make an appearance.

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[bloody-hands-pure-hearts1329]

They hate me Part 3

Thats part 3 of my selfinsert fic who started as a dream enjoy^^

Chapter 3

Two weeks later the Shredder kept searching for me almost every night the brothers had to go out on patrol now to stop the foot ninjas. I on the other hand tried to remember my old life I decided to train and realized quick as Splinter did some tests with that I am master on the Kusari Gama. It made me feel much better to know that I was not weak and could fight against the foot if needed too. All I needed was to get stronger as quick as possible, only Splinter watched over me as I went to the gym so I would not go to far, my body was still in it’s healing process from the long coma and from what this bastard did to me.

Inside my head I had now a door with countless locks to keep this memory far away blocked out form me. All that was important now was to safe my family. Even thought they wouldnt want to be saved. I believe they are not as evil if I can change they can do the same.

"WE ARE BACK!" Mikey screams over the whole lair making me stop my training and walk out of the gym over to them.

Mikey is the only turtle I allow to touch me...I dont know why I can’t stand if Raph or Donnie touch me. Leo never tried so I do dont know how I will react to his touch. Mikey hugged me tight and hugged him back before he tells me all about the patrol and how kicked some bad guys butt’s.

Raph walks over and I immedatly back away. He looks down at me his eyes showing that he felt hurt because of me treating him this way. But I cant help it if he touches me I feel like I am back to this horrible place. I know its unfair and I hate myself for it but I could nothing about it...maybe with time it would stop.

"What is your problem!" he growls at me and grabs me by my wrist. I scream and start panicking and my body shakes madly.

"LET ME GO!" I scream him begging.

"NO FUCK I HAVE ENOUGH OF THIS SHIT LOOK AT ME!" he shouts at me. His brothers look in shock at us not knowing what to do. I look in to his eyes.

"I BEAT THIS BASTARD UP FOR YOU AND IF THE OTHERS DIDNT COME I HAD KILLED HIM! SO STOP FUCKING TREAT ME LIKE HIM!" he shouted in my face I could see the anger and hurt in his golden orbs. He lets me go and walks angry past me, I stay there staring before him.

I look down feeling tears in my eyes the hand of my wrist he held on to slowly clenching to fist.

"Elle?" asked Donnie coming closer.

"It’s fine I deserved this Donnie he is right I treat you like you did this to me but you didn’t! I am sorry" I tell him before turn my back on all and walk away to lock myself in my room.

There I took deep breaths before I walked to my bed to lay down and shut my eyes trying to once again make myself remember my old life. I dont know how but suddenly

Flashback

I found myself in a flashback. I was ordered to the Shredder as I walked in the door behind me closed and I found myself smirking at him. "You already missed me my master?" my voice was tempting and low as I looked at this monster like he was the best man on earth. I screamed inside for it to stop as he grabbed my flashback self hard walking me over to his desk to throw his all of it before laying me down on top starting to rip open my blouse and skirt. "Enough talking my deadly flower" he whispered to my lips before I feel his handy wandering down my body.

"NIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEET! BASCHALUSTA NIET!" I scream and open my eyes my heart pounting in up to my ears this way I didn’t heard my door getting kicked in by someone all I knew I found myself second later in strong arms rocking me while I try all to calm down my breathing and my wild beating heart.

After what felt like hours I finally calmed down and opened my eyes to see to my surprise Raphael being the one holden me. His eyes where still closed as he rocked sitting on his side ways on his lap with my knees up pressed with the rest of my body against the cold and hard surface of his plastron.

"Raphael?" I say my voice really low but it still reaches him and he opens his eyes looking down at me. "I..."

"Wanna scream again?" he asks and wants to let me go.

"NO! Please stay!" I hear myself saying, he stops immedatly and put his arms tighter around me as I start shaking again.

"I am...sorry" I whisper again he only lets out a chirpping sound I look at him in confusion. This makes him blush and look away I use this opportunity and kiss his cheek it was only few seconds but I felt myself blushing like a teen after it while my heart was beating up to my neck. He lets me go and I quick turn my back on him. "Thank you" I whisper with slightly shaking voice.

Raph growls mumbles something before I feel his hand on mine.

"If something I am in the gym" he told me while caressing before he left me, sitting there staring at pics of the guys Mikey made for me. It showed Leo in meditation, Raphael lifting, Donnie working on something while his tongue showed out and him posing sexy for me while leaning on a surfboard.

It made me smile and slightly chuckle while caressing their faces on every picture no matter what I had this guys on my side and only with them I will find a way to save my family.

At the foot clan lair

Shredder was cooking, how could this freaks take away his Elvira?! He was disgusted by the thought of this turtle freaks being around her. He stood up from his throne and walked over to the big window looking out.

“Don’t think you can hide from me! You belong to me!" he said and clenched his fist. He smashed his fist against the thick glass as remembered the way I looked at him in fear and disgust.

"Watashi wa anata o mitsukete, anata no kaibutsu ga watashi no te de shinu no o miru yō ni shimasu!!" (I will find you and will make you watch your freaks die by my hands! ) he swore while looking down at the city his rage growing with every day his men came down beat up by the turtles.It knocked on the door and growled a short

"Come in!" before the door opened to show Erik the brother of the woman who made him send out his men every night to find her.

"Mister Little what a surprise" he says and walks back to his throne to take sit down gesturing the foot member to take a seat on one of the chairs before him. "What can I do for you?" the master asks the young man calm hiding his anger inside.

"I know a way to get my sister back master" Erik tells him with a evil smirk.

"Oh really interesting tell me" the Shredder fold his hands leaning on them while looking curious at the man before him.

"She needs to think I changed sides, we need to make it look like I am hunted down by you and the turtles to..."

"She is not stupid she will look behind this but if you got hurt not enough to die but enough to make them take you back to the lair, this way you will have two days to gain her trust and get her to leave the lair in the night with you to a place. Let’s say you and your mother managed to flee from me so you bring her to a manhole to her hiding place. If you get there she will be awaited by me!" he smirks over this seemingly perfect plan.

Erik stays silent it was never a good idea to say your opinions  to his sadistic master. He only nods and asks him if he is allowed to leave. "Yeah go to your room I will send Karai for you to make this tomorrow to make the first part of our plan work" the Shredder dismisses my brother.

My brother walks down the floor to the lift to get back to his room. "Its all your fault sis, how can you stay with those freaks? I dont regonize you at all!" he walks quick out and slams the door behind him. Angry he put all in his living room to wall so nothing could disturb his training, he let his rage out in form a hard training with his katana. Enjoying sounds it makes as it cuts through the air.

Same time with the turtles

I leave my room to walk over to Splinter and knock on the door of his room. He calls me in and slide his japanese door to the side bowing slightly as I say: "I am sorry for disturbing you and Leo but I need to talk with you master Splinter and I am afraid it can’t wait" Both look at me I try to be as respectful as possible.

"Leo please leave me and Miss Little for a while" the old rat told his son who nods Leo walks past me I give him a apologizing smile and he waves it off with a slight head shaking.

"Come in and sit down can I offer you some green tea my child?" Splinter asks me with  gentle smile.

I nod smiling walking over to him sitting down before him and watch him as he pours some of the tea in a cup for me. I blow on it before I take a sip and smile wide after it, it felt so good to feel the warmth spreading through my body.

"Thank you its really delicious." I compliment the tea he smiles nodding at me. "I am here because I well I wanted to ask if there is a technique to restore me memories. I still can’t remember much and what I do is confusing me only. So if there is a way to make me remember all at once please show me master Splinter" I beg him while holding on tight to the cup.

"There is a techinque but it could be hurtful, I think it would be better if you let your memories restore slowly by itself without forcing it" he explains to me what I thought he would tell me.

A sigh leaves my lips I am disappionted that he didnt want to help me remember my old life.

"Guess I tried" I whisper taking antoher sip of the tea while feeling his eyes on me.

"Your soul is broken my child you need to first learn to fight the demons your hiding behind this many looks inside you" he shocks me, how could he know how I this door I imagined to protect myself from what happens looks like?

"How?"

"This will stay my secret for now my child" he told me smirking, I finish my tea and get up.

"Okay well thank you four your advice master Splinter" I tell him smiling and walk out even more confused than before.

"Elvira?" I hear Leo ask and turn around to him.

"Yes?" I ask him walking over to him.

"You look like you could use and hour of meditation why dont you join me?" he asks me I look at him still confused because he all this time he kept his distance from me.

"Okay" I nod and follow him to his meditation room, there I sit down beside him on the gym mattrass covered floor.

We meditate in silence I really try to empty my head and get this many thoughts in order but I cant stop them.

"I give up!" I scream out making Leo look at me.

"I cant live like this! I feel like going insane I don’t know what was real and was is dreamed up about my life!" I tell him after he asks me feel his hand on my shoulder while he trys to calm me down.

I didn’t push him off I just look at him before i pull him in closer and my lips against his, I didn’t know why the fuck I did it. But it felt like I need this right now. He is tense at first then he surprises me by kissing me back,

“What the fuck is going on here!” A voice far away in my head screams at me, as I get on to his lap and let him take over the kiss moaning over his hands rubbing my back.

Then I open my eyes in shock and quick get off him.

"I am sorry I didn’t...mean to..." I tell him before pull open the door running away past Mikey to my room locking myself inside it.

"What is wrong with me!" I ask to myself while sitting down with my back to the door, wanting to slap me for taking advantage of Leo’s kidness like that!

#tmnt 2016 #they hate me #part 3 #turtles #splinter #shredder #selfinsert fic #brother erik #pic google #I thought it captures my selfinserts feelings perfecetly #amnesia #flashbacks

[cow3survivor]

Ep. 9: “Break Down Everything I’ve Built” - Jennet

JENNET

not to be rude but i hate this cast.... me winning immunity didnt even matter bc my bestie got booted tf...

(a little later)

feeling alone, im not even on a tribe anymore. im alone now not furcifer calumma or brookesia, just jennet

(after eating rice)

i know i sound dramatic asf but ffft i was so uneasy starting this game and i didnt feel comfortable or didnt feel excited to play until i started playing with ethan so i guess i relied too much on him but its like... now what?? where do i go from here? like sam, sammy, jones, and mikey voted to keep him so its like... here i am with low numbers again

(after taking a dip in the ocean)

immunity doesnt feel so good when ur number one ally gets sent home...

(after polishing the immunity necklace)

realizing that tonight ive been on the wrong side of both of votes so now im... reevaluating my position in this game. i have to break down everything ive built and start over and see who i can really trust right now

JONES

https://youtu.be/GY0DufoCyLE (after live night)

LOVELIS

So today's been way more eventful! I've had a great conversation with Jennet finally & got caught up on all the live night stuff, thought it was just a live competition that I wasn't able to attend but then I woke up to Ethan being gone LMAO but oh well! I've been targeted the past two rounds but I'm still here so I've just gotta work my options as best I can, and right now I do wanna with with Jessica the most. Apparently Shane put in a lot of work to keep me during live night & I'm thankful but earlier when I tried to talk to him he wouldn't divert from that point & it was a little awkward.. like idk what you want me to do about that... so today's mostly been catching up with the people who I haven't heard much from like Jake, Lindsay etc and seeing where their heads are at, I need to be more involved in something big if I'm gonna be seen as a potential winner should I make it to the end so I'm definitely not shy of jumping ship from Sharon and tryna make something better for myself with the people that voted for me hehe.. 😳😈

JENNET

looking at the memory wall and im feeling very: vulnerable

LINDSAY

12/19 - https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Q_KxHilwOebD8G3D8JAZsOMKdgsxFp-b/view?usp=sharing

JESSICA

I know in my last confessional I said I was close with Ethan. After I wrote that, I realized that he was a lot closer with other people than he was with me. Lindsay accidentally added him to an alliance chat and I expected him to freak out in my DMs (or at the very least ask me about it!) since we're supposed to be such good allies. But he didn't say anything! Shane said that he did get an Ethan freakout so I was like hmm... noted. Ethan likes Shane more than me so I am okay to vote him out a lot earlier than I was planning. Ethan also left out a LOT of information about the idols when we talked about them so I instantly knew at merge that he was hiding things from me. When we did that round robin conversation thing, I got Shane early on (I think he was the third person I talked to?) and he pitched voting Ethan which made a lot of sense to me. Plus I was a little worried Ethan could have had the Furcifer idol since he found that Brookesia one so fast. I figured if we were going to make a big move, that was the time to do it because if anyone was suspicious I could just pretend the whirlwind nature of the round was the reason they didn't know what happened. Speaking of idols!!! I'm 95% sure that Furcifer idol is in Sam's pocket. Shane had a vote extort power which he could play on anyone; it would force them to either reveal their entire voting history to this mysterious person OR they would have to give up their vote and sit out of immunity. I guess the vote part isn't public but the immunity part was and for some reason, Sam chose to not reveal his voting history. To Shane and Daisy, who don't know how the idols worked, this is a weird choice. But to me there's only one reason someone doesn't want their voting history revealed and it's because they didn't vote at a tribal which means they have an idol. Shane originally wanted to play the power on Mikey which I strongly did not want because 1) I already know how Mikey has voted and 2) I was pretty sure Mikey didn't have an idol so it's unlikely there was a tribal he didn't vote in and 3) If Mikey asked me about it, I didn't want to lie but I also didn't want to expose Shane. The question is.... does Sam's idol still work? If I had found the idol when I knew there was an easy boot on my team (he has to have found it before Pennino left), then I would have gambled as long as I could have to get the idol to work. My guess is Sam's idol goes until... f7? Maybe f6 or f5. Pennino probably left 3-1, not 4-1, but Sam's missing vote didn't matter because it was unanimous and wasn't read. For this round, right now everyone is probably voting Lovelis. It's the easy vote because he isn't here but personally I don't want to do that. Everyone says Lovelis is inactive but he isn't inactive to me and as far as I know, he is not going to flip on me and thinks I've been looking out for him. Which I have been! Also Lovelis cannot have an idol unless he somehow got the merge one. So to me it's like.... why not take out someone like Sam who (probably) has an idol? Or at least get him paranoid enough so he plays it. He seems like the kind of player who could easily stab me in the back so I'd like to get him before he gets me. Right now my tightest alliance is with Shane/Daisy, though I definitely talk about the game with Shane the most. However I also have good relationships with Lovelis, Sammy, and Mikey. I think Jennet and I are getting along well because as far as I know, I was the first one who told them Ethan's name was going around last time when everyone else seemed too afraid to tell them. They were not into that plan at all but I'm glad that I was honest with them because I don't want that to be a closed relationship at all! They also don’t seem to have a tonne of connections so they’re someone I'd like to keep close. And then Jones/Lindsay/Jake are people who I'm still getting to know but I do trust them.... a bit. I don't see that alliance of 6 lasting long term however I don't mind trying to stick with it to get Sam out before it disintegrates. I also think Shane is coming across as a threat which is great to me. I hope people don't think we're close because I really want to keep that relationship hidden. My entire game is about having everyone think they're my #1 (or at least my #2 or #3) so that they are less likely to leak things I tell them, less likely to vote for me, and more likely to look out for me. Information is power so I try to be in a position where I'll get as much of it as I can. So far it is working! I think. This is truly an essay

(a little later)

Oh also I never get episode titles in games so here are some: "Any way you slice it, it's Survivor madness!" "What a night, what a vote" "Please don't invite me to your messy party" "Social game is on 0!" "Survivor brings out the worst in you" "I'm a chameleon" Some of those are things other people said in other games but... oh well!

JENNET

apparently lovelis is rallying the troops to get them to vote for me bc i voted him out over madison... babe we NEVER spoke, and i spoke to madison ALOT why would i not vote u ? tf... its getting weird

JESSICA

LMAO IGNORE THAT LAST CONFESSIONAL That is not how the advantage works at ALL I now totally understand why Sam rejected it That’s so funny that we really read it that wrong.............. I love reading and comprehending the words that I read Still don’t know where that last idol is but this is so funny.

JENNET

so right now the only people i can trust are sammy, sam, jones, and mikey. i want to trust jake but hes in an alliance with jones, lindsay, daisy, shane, and jessica that he didnt tell me about. jones is playing double agent right now and the only reason i dont find that sketch is bc she told us info that she didnt need to. i will say me and jake had a convo about how we dont trust how shady lindsay has been and we wont target her until most of the og brookesia members are gone. im very scared right now but also very angry

(a little later)

had plans for this vote but sam got his vote taken away. im waiting to see what pops off at tribal/ the few hours before tribal before i can try to get the little band of misfits to settle on who to target first. so far its daisy and shane, i’ll try to sneak lindsay in but honestly i want daisy gone first bc shes hosted me and seen how i play and thats too much of an advantage. she’s dangerous to me and my game

JAKE

https://youtu.be/nZPMXTthz9Q yes I'm becoming paranoid and what?? say it to her face

JENNET

my dream boot order after this round (if lovelis is who goes): daisy shane jessica lindsay and then everything else can fold around itself but ideally jake is next to go

LINDSAY

videos r still uploading but here's my quick tea for this episode: feels way too easy to vote lovelis, keep expecting things to blwo up bc lovelis is throwing jennet's name out there. game way too quiet. shit aint right but i aint know whats wrong. i may be paranoid

JENNET

:ETHAN: ❤️ :JENNET: hours

SAMMY

so I feel like so much happened in this round? let's recap the live night and dive into our thoughts and feelings about where we are right now. So starting off after Madison is voted out, the plan throughout the day was to just vote out whoever stayed out of Madison/Lovelis, right? Okay so I go into this live event thinking that's the plan...not sweating...just chilling right? right okay so I get to talking to people and then I get in a chat with daisy who is my 3rd phone call? Then I hear of this plan to get rid of Ethan?? In my head I was like...blinks...okay so why are we doing this like what is the point y'all are being too complicated. So fast forward Ethan goes home. Then Jones lets me know there was a separate group made before tribal of Jake/Shane/Jones/Jess/Lindsay. Apparently all the people who voted Ethan? This actually pisses me off not gonna lie because I opened the door for a conversation hinting that I knew of a group to daisy/jess/Jake and none of them spilled to me. So I caught them in a lie and it lets me know that they are serious about that group of people and that alliance means something. I thought I was close to daisy and I thought she considered me her #1 ally but the info I have been getting really makes me trust her less. She was working on the idol/bridge with like so many other players which makes sense to how she was able to find so many powers. I feel used. She is close to Shane and it is obvious. I also 100% feel as if the Ethan plan was made before tribal or at least mentioned as an idea. I don't like the vibes I am getting from them and something has to change soon or I am gonna be finding myself in a rough patch. I told Jones about Daisy's powers to let Jones know that Daisy pretty much lied to Daisy about the street car ladies (sorry daisy I still love u but in the moment I felt used because I know ur bridge group is on like the late 30s and you didn't tell me). Daisy is playing the middle and I need to separate myself from her or at least break her and Shane up. She is using Shane as a shield. Also I was added to the justice league alliance and its so cute (Jones, Jennet, Mikey, Me, Sam) I love this group but I will say Sam is my weakest connection and I don't really have much trust in him? Hoping that will change in these upcoming rounds tho. Also, I told Jones about my vote block that lasts until final 5 which we could use to our advantage later in the game. I will be holding onto that as long as possible. The last major update other than me feeling somewhat left out of this "group" would be that Jess asked if I would be down to make a group after the vote of her/Jake/me/mikey which I would actually very much enjoy. Okay that is my longest confessional yet. I hope you enjoy. As of right now my top two allies are Jones/Mikey....Lowest on my trust rankings are Shane and Lindsay.

JENNET

lovelis dming me saying we should get out mikey pfftttt

DAISY

https://youtu.be/mz2Fg_Kvyqo

SAM

https://youtu.be/J81hUWIy6dg

SHANE

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1-dymdy5vjtHdwsY3JSTnovwaSRLvuzQt

JESSICA

me: lovelis will be a jury vote for me! me: nvm!!!! Not sure why being rude to people and attacking them is your strategy on the way out... but you do you!

LOVELIS

I think I mentioned chaos in my previous confessional and I think I just did that so you know what.. I'm content LMAO. I pulled out pretty much all the cards I had left to play this round and if it wasn't enough despite being carried the past two tribals.. then so be it. This has been such a fun past couple days and it's fun to just let loose and see what happens!

#cowsurvivor #confessionals

[tmntl0verthings]

Textual Contact

chapter 3 × feat. Michelangelo

Y: hey ^>^

R: sup shortstack

Y: nm tallstack

R: thats horrible..

Y: wut?

R: tall stack? Really? Whered u learn that. School for the uncreative

Y: hey!

R: hey 😄

Y: 😒

R: so whats up?

Y: nm honestly. Im in gym.

R: And?

Y: its boring. U run around inside a room with smelly boys and snotty girls

R: its good for you

Y: shaddup

R: lol

Y: wbu?

R: im chillin. My second work out starts in 10 minutes.

Workout schedule: 6am-10am-3:00pm-7:30pm

Y: and where does training come into play?

R: whenever dad schedules it

Y: oooooh tell me about ur dad. Plz.?

R: uugh ur soooo wantttyyyyy

Y: yes..yes i am

R: lol well hes old, we were all orphans and he took us under his wing. Hes really been there for all of us. Even if we arent blood related.

Y: wow. Didnt see that coming. At all.

R: XD

Y: thats really sweet of him. So like what? U guys lived on the streets. Or orphanage's?

R: well we were just babies at the time so I dont remember

Y: oh alright

R: wbu. I dont know anything about you and im just spilling my guts

Y: ewwww!!

R: what

Y: thats so graphic! Omg the imagining in my head right now. -barfs- 😷😦

R: Lol so?? Tell me.

Y: well i live in bronx and Ivd been here for the last 8 years. I moved when i was just a girl. Life has been alright. I could do without the cat calling from guys. Its pathetic. I dabble in art sometimes. Only when im in the mood. I go to school (duh). I; just like any girl love to cook and bake. I just got into yoga.

R: nice. So what can u bake me?

Y: bake u? Like.. for u?

R: yeah

Y: practically anything. But i wanna see this ✌family✌ first.

R: quotes? really? Make me sound like a liar. Whats wrong wit' chu.

Y: well mmeehhhhh to u too grumpy

R: pfft 😝😝

Y: hey i gotta go. Gym teacher is walking my way.

R: mk

~3 hours later~

M: hheey gurrrlll

Y: lol nm. Wbu raphie kins

M:..are u raphs secret girlfriend or something. Cause only i call raph stuff like that.

Y: 😐 who is dis? Isnt this raphs account.

M: yeah im that kind of brother. So what's ur name sweetcheeks??

Y: y/n

M: ooh Mikey Likey.

Y: mikey? That's ur name

M: well my name is much longer so ppl call me mikey.

Y: oooohh. OH u must have a renaissance name too!

M: bingo

Y: whats ur whole name

M: eehhhh idk if i wanna tell you. Ur kiinndaaa short.

Y:....wut

M: ur kinda short

Y: well ur kinda weird

M: why thank you (Casinova voice)

Y: 😳

M: so tell me. How did u meet leo and then raph?

Y: leo texted me first by Accident thinking i was someone named april. Then leo used raphs phone which led me to talking to raph.

M: makes sense. So u like to bake?? I love baking! Im trying to make my own dish but i cant seem to get any right.

Y: oooh~ whats ur dish?

M: well it tends to vary. I tried to make a carrot lasagna. Failed ✖ Marble pancakes. Something went wrong there. ✖ I tried making chocolate covered asparagus. Failed✖

Y: oo so ur going all out?

M: yea.

Y: maybe i could help. Maybe i could finally meet ur family.

M: oh~ um. I dont think dad would like that. He doesnt like new ppl.

Y: but everyone loves me 😃😃😗

M: lol that may be true (idk) but i shouldnt disobey.

Y: ur family is very different from others ive met. Its like ur hiding. U guys dont go to a public school. Ur home schooled. U cant share ur 'Training' with me.

M: ..well its complicated. But lets not talk about that.

Y: but i want tooooooo

M: nu

Y: yeash

M: nu nu

Y: fine.. what do u do for hobbiez??

M: well i love gaming. I read comics. I guess u could say knunchucks are my passion. I use them everyday. I love movie nights OH and pizza friday. Llovveeeee pizza. Im sometimes my older brother's assistant. He's a nerd. Hes all sciency and stoof. Oh and im a drummer

Y: knunchucks!  😵😵 Wow bro. ..just wow. Thats awesome! Thats a ninja weapon right?

M: yea. But i live by a non-assassin code.

Y: wait... Is ur guyses training.. is it ninjitsue????!😱😱

M: ...nu

Y: awe. I was all excited for nothing

M: lol

Y: so whatcha doin

M: texting u during training

Y: lol so u stole raphs phone?

M:😈😈

Y: lmao so whats going on during training?

M: raph and don are in one team while Im on the other team with lameanardo.

Y: lmao ppl dont like leo?

M: hes like Secondary dad

Y: really? I havent noticed. Like legit havent noticed. No sarcasm in this.

M: lol well if u really knew him. Youd understand.

M: i gotta go. Leo and splinter are on my butt about me on raphs phone.

Y: Lol figured raph would be more on u than the others.

M: lol tru. Ttyl

Y: kk

~since its after school and ur at home. U decided to go for a walk with earbuds.

You clicked ur earbuds into the headphone jack and grabbed a pop tart before u left ur parents apartment. You opened the door to fell a perfect autumn breeze in the cool air. You slipped on your light blue sweater with dark blue lining. Your (hair brushed out/hair in a pony tail.) You locked your door and started walking. You walked around for 40 minutes. Your elbow got caught on the wire of your headphones making them pop out of your ears. You Ughed as you tried putting them back in. You stopped when you heard a trashcan lid fall. You froze as you looked down the sunset shadowed alleyway. You narrowed your eyes adjusting your vision. You saw something trying to stand still but you saw it move just a little as it was breathing. Your eyes grew wider in fear. you continued walking but then turned around to look at the alley one more time to make sure u werent imagining it. You didnt see anything. You felt something touch your ankle. You screeched with a jump back as you looked down to see a taby cat. You exhaled as you then looked up to see it was getting dark. A "let me out im stuck in your pocket" notification tone went off. You looked down to see Leo texted you. you answered his text as you walked away from the alley. Up above on a fire escape crouched over in the alley was someone watching you answer the text with their green eyes. They narrowed as they watched you walk.

L: hey

Y: aye 😀

L: whatcha doin?

Y: just walking around ny wbu

L: same

Y: maybe ill bump into you 😎

L: doubt it XD we're looking down at our phones.

~you laughed out loud by an apartment Leo was ontop of. Leo looked over the edge to see a girl on her phone. As she texted

Y: lol so tru

L: so where are you anyways?   ~ leo heard a Let me out of your pocket notification from down below. He looked back down at the girl still standing there

Y: Im at est. N' broadway

L: ohh i see.

~ he heard the notification tone once again. He rose a brow at this point.

Y: wbu??

L: im no where near u ~leo lied considering thats exactly where he was~

Y: im getting hungry. Ooh i see s hotdog stand! Yaassss!!

L: lol

~leo saw the girl go and get a hotdog from Oscars dogs

His eyes widened realizing he practically met you at this point. "Dude is it time to go home yet??" Mikey whined "yea no kidding. Im tired." Donnie joined in as he held his shoulder in his grasp as he moved his arm in three huge circles. "yea; you guys can go. Im gonna stay behind." Leo told them. Raph just arrived to the roof after his run. "sorry. Someone almost saw me." Raph explained. "leo said we're done for the day." Raph looked over at leo looking over the edge. He walked over to his brother and looked down. "ooh-ho-ho your stalking a girrrllll." Raph pointed out as he stood tall and confidentiality. Leo stood up from "i am not! Im just seeing if this girl is who i think she is." Raph rose a brow with his arms crossed. Leo rolled his eyes "fine im kinda stalking her." "Why??" Mikey asked. "I think its the girl ive been talking to. Also raphs been talking to." "Also me." Mikey included himself. "how come i havent met her??" Don asked feeling left out. "well i stole raphs phone to talk to her." Mikey explained.

Y: okay got my weener! 😂

Leo looked down at his phone. "oh shes texting u right now??" mikey asked enthused. "Maybe.." leo answered without looking at mikey and his brothers as he texted you. "Ooohh let me see!" Mikey tried swiping it from leos hands to only let leo dodge. Don slipped it out of his fingers as he blocked leo with his bo staff twirling in front of leo blocking him. "sorry my brothers are distracting me." Don read aloud. "give it back!" Leo demanded as he tried grabbing it from his tall brother. Looking completely short compared to his little brother. Leo stopped As he huffed annoyed at his brother as he scrolled through the convo. Leo then Drew his sword and whacked his brother on the wrist with the handle. The phone dropped out of his grasp and leo swooped down with his hand and saved it.

Y: ??

L: sorry my brother took my phone away as a joke cause hes a Jackass.

Leo typed as he spoke aloud everyone what he was typing. "a jackass huh?" Don rose a brow as he crossed his arms "yes. Now im leaving to somewhere else. Where u cant bother me." "Dude. We know where u live. We can take the phone any time we want." Mikey informed him. Leo flaunting his phone as he said " i can hide my phone." He smirked and then jumped to the next building. he lost you. His brother's distracted him for too long.

Y: so whatcha doin?

L: just walking around still. Wbu

Y: oh just walking home. My stomach doesnt feel to Good. That hot dog didnt agree with me at all.

L: sue em'

Y: lol no ty. Idk why but i really wanna go to an art museum or something. Weirdest craving ever.

L: lmao well imma head home. Ttyl y/n 🤓

Y: 😊😎

#TMNT #raph #leo #mikey #Don #2016 #Text

[dufieslocals16]

Mikey

Your POV "What is up guys currently I have Y/N here with me in the vlog. We are on our way to pick up Jake and Ademir," Mikey said as you drove his car over to Jake's house. "Do you want to tell them what we are going to do?" Mikey asked "We are going to be doing a 3 am challenge at Clinton road," You said pulling up into jakes house. You got the chills as you pulled up, these 3 am challenges were getting crazy. Although you also had a YouTube channel it was a little more mellow compared to what jake, Ademir and mikey do in a daily basis. "Are you going to vlog?" Mikey asked and you nodded, getting out your camera and doing your regular intro. "Low key I always fucking hate coming to jakes house like it gives me bad vibes I can't," You say to your viewers and to Mikey, he smiled playfully pushing you and you smiled back playing along. You've had a crush on mikey for a long time now, but you never told him or anyone for that matter. The locals were quickly picking up on the signals shipping you guys, making videos edits etc. You noticed a change in mikey since fans starting the whole trend between you two. "Jake open up," Mikey said and jake opened the door  with Ademir right behind him. "Yo what's up. Y/N hey how you doing?" Jake asked giving you a hug. When you had first met jake he was more of a brotherly figure towards you, he was very protective when it came to challenges like this. " honestly can we get something to eat I'm literally starving," You laughed earring smiles from the guys. "Guys literally Jake's house give me the freaking Heebie jeebies like I hate coming here," You said to your viewers and Jake just laughed. "I'm serious I straight up get bad vibes.. you guys know how I am with this stuff," You said "Ademir do something for the Vlog," You said pointing the camera to Ademir, He was eating some almonds and he straight up stuck his mouth in front of your camera. "That's fucking gross," You laughed pushing his face away from the camera. "I GIVE NO FUCKS!" He yelled making you laugh, you found it so funny the way he would sound saying it. "She's stright up dying right now," Jake said pointing his camera towards you as you turned red from laughing so much. "I just can't with him," you said resting your hands on your knees catching your breath. You all piled into Mikey's car you sat in the front while Jake and Ademir sat in the back. "How come she gets to sit in the front?" Ademir asked "Because she sucks his shit dumb nice," Jake said laughing, you spun around and started pinching his legs making him squel, you then grabbed your show beating Jake with it. you laughed sitting back in your seat, you looked over to see Mikey clentching his jaw. He stopped at Wawa's parking lot. "Yo mikey you good?" Ademir asked, Mikey didn't say anything getting out of the car and slamming the door making you jump. "What the fuck was that about?" Jake asked and you shrugged shaking your head. "I don't know," You said "You think he got mad?" Ademir asked "He has no reason to i knew you were joking," you said furrowing your eyebrows. "Ima go talk to him," You said leaving your camera in the front seat as you got out to meet mikey in the store. "Mikey are you okay you kind stormed off on us," You said, he was looking for a drink in the back isle. He wouldn't look at you, he seemded to focused on the drinks. "Yeah I'm fine why wouldn't i be," He replied as if nothing had happened. "Really? so you didnt just storm out of your car and slam the door. hard may i add," You said scoffing. He shrugged grabbing the drink he was looking for and walked away from you. "Mike," You said firmly stopping him in his tracks. "I Just don't like how they treat you like one of the guys! and I don't like jake telling you those things! I don't like how you have a close relationship with jake! or how you goof off with Ademir!" He said taking you by surprise, he scoffed walking away again. You stepped infront of him to avoid him going any further. "Mikey what are you talking about?! Where is all this coming from. Jake and Ademir are like brothers that I never had or wanted for that matter because they annoy the shit out of me sometimes. There is no reason for you to be mad Jake he was just joking okay! Plus you didn't see me beating him with my shoe," You explained taking your shoe off and waving it in front of his face. He couldn't contain his serious face any longer, and flashed you that million dollar smile that made your heart melt. "There's that smile," You said hugging him. "Okay pay for your drink so we can go to Applebee's and get some food," You said heading back to the car. "Is he good?" Jake asked and you nodded putting on your seatbelt as Mikey walked out of WaWa's. "Okay guys we are headed to Applebee's hopefully we don't get kicked out this time or banned but I will see you guys at Applebee's," You said smiling at your camera. "That was so wack," Ademir said "Boy you don't even know how to work YouTube Mr. I only have two covers," You mimicked in a low voice making jake and mikey laugh. "First off all its three!" He said holding up three fingers. You laughed at his childishness getting out f the car. After grabbing a bite to eat, you all made your way to seaside to seize the day. Looking for parking Mikey was talking In a high pitched voice to the innocent bystander making you all laugh. "Those poor bystanders," You said pointing the camera at him as he laughed. He finally found a parking space and parked, As you all piled out of the car fans had come up to you to take a picture. "Thank you," They said walking away. "No thank you guys I love you!" You smiled waving them goodbye. "Awwe how cute," Ademir said and you rolled your eyes at him. "Jake remember the time you got arrested," You stated laughing. "Oh I know that was so stupid," He said explaining to his fans how and why he got arrested. "Guy manfs is about to do something fat for the blog," Jake said pointing the camera to mikey that was up in the doc. He did a back flip off of the dock landing It as everyone cheered. "Damn manfs isn't even here for 10 minutes and he's already surrounded by a crowd," Ademir yelled getting on the dock as well. "ready ready," He said to Jake "Okay if I flip off of this deck and land it you have to kiss me," He said to a girl standing by and she nodded agreeing. "Yo he's flipping for kisses," Jake said, Ademir ran and jumped up landing a triple flip. "The more flips the more kisses," Mikey said getting Ademir three kisses. You shook your head at the situation laughing. "Okay if I land a triple flip off the dock your friend has to kiss me," Mikey said stopping you from laughing. You watched as she agreed and he did the flip. Watching him get the kisses from another girl hurt you, tears stained your eyes but you refused to let them fall or to let anyone see you were on the verge of crying. You slowly backed away crashing into to Gavin. "Oh sorry y/n Hey are you okay?" He asked seeing you had teary eyes. "Yeah I just need to go to the restroom," You said blinking back the tears, and making your way to the furthest restroom. You found a bench in a secluded area and let the tears fall silently, after crying you composed yourself wiping the tears away. Your phone chimed making you jump, you saw an incoming call from mikey. You rejected the call, setting your phone down and enjoying the view of seaside. Your phone chimed again signaling you had another incoming call, growing tired of it you silenced your phone. Taking photos your phone kept buzzing in your hoodie. Finally you checked it and you had missed calls from Jake, Ademir and Mikey as well as tyler and Gavin. 12:02 am Mikey: Y/N PICK UP THE PHONE! Mikey: THIS IS NOT FUNNY Y/N PICK UP THE PHONE WHERE ARE YOU?!! 12:30 am Mikey: IM TRACKING YOUR FUCKING PHONE THIS IS RIDICULOUS! Mikey: WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU Y/N IM NOT PLAYING ANYMORE THIS ISN'T FUCKING FUNNY ANYMORE. 1:00 AM Jake: Okay Y/N this isn't funny anymore we are bugging out where are you!? Jake: Y/N THIS ISNT FUCKING FUNNY ANYMORE QUIT FUCKING PLAYING WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU AND ANSWER THE FUCKING PHONE!!! Ademir: Y/N PLEASE DUDE THIS ISNT FUCKING FUNNY ANYMORE MANFS IS FUCKING PIST THAT WE CANT FIND YOU JAKE IS SCEEVING RIGHT NOW WE ARE GOING TO THE COPS WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU!? Gavin: Yo Y/N where are you?! Are you okay?! Please Y/N everyone is freaking out! Your eyes popped out of your head realizing it was 2:30 am, you had left at 11:45 pm. By this time no one was at seaside anymore, you walked back to where the dock was and saw no one there. There no shops open so you couldn't ask anyone if they had seen any of the guys. Walking further down the boardwalk it was creepy because it was a complete ghost town with no one in sight. You finally saw a police officer and approached him. "Excuse me officer by any chance have you seen a group of guys around here. I hade gotten separated from my group and I cant find them," Your said and he took out his notepad from his front pocket. "What's your name ma'am?" He asked "Its Y/F/L/N," You said and he nodded. "Honey they were looking for you," He said and your eyes widened. "104 we found we are located by the dock," He said into his walkie. "You friends seemed very Concerned about you," He said and you sighed. "Yeah I got separated and lost track of time," You explained. "Their your friends I'm sure they will understand," He explained His partner walked up with Jake, Ademir, Mikey, Gavin, Joe, Gavin. Your heart raised at the sight of them, When they looked up at you their faces flashed a mixture of emotion mostly anger. The officers got in their squad car and left. "WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU?! WE SPENT HOURS LOOKING FOR YOU! DO YOU KNOW HOW WORRIED SICK WE WERE! WE THOUGHT SOMETHING HAD HAPPENED TO YOU!" Mikey Yelled he was fuming. "Yo mikey chill," Jake said "Mikey you need to calm down," Ademir said trying to defuse the situation. "NO IM NOT GOING TO CALM DOWN HOW AM I GOING TO CALM DOWN! SHE FUCKING LEFT WITHOUT TELLING ANYONE WHERE SHE WAS GOING TO BE! SHE LEFT FOR HOURS AND WOULDNT ANSWER OUR FUCKING OR TEXT MESSAGES WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU!" He yelled getting in your face, it scared you because you have never seen mikey this mad before. "MIKE." Jake yelled firmly. "No Jake it's okay. I'm sorry I had you guys worried, I'm sorry I put that burden on all of you. I didn't mean to worry any of you. I simply had to use the restroom and I lost track of time because I was out taking photos of the view. I had my phone on silent which is why I couldn't hear any of your calls or texts. Now if you will excuse me I think I am done for the day. Good luck at Clinton road," You said walking away from the,. "Where the fuck are you going!" Mikey yelled "Home! Where else would I be going!" You yelled and kept walking. "Your not going to fucking walk home!" Mikey yelled, everyone had just stepped back and watched everything unfold. "Watch me bitch!" You yelled and continued walking. You heard footsteps behind you and you felt someone pull you back. "Get in the fucking car I'll take you home," Mikey gritted through his teeth. "No I'm not getting in the car with you. I'll just order an uber," You said taking out your phone. "Nobody Ubers in our fucking you dumbass," Mikey said taking away your phone. "Give me my fucking Phone mike!" You yelled but he wouldn't budge. "You know what whatever fucking keep it I'm out of here," You said walking away into the night. You hadn't been walking very long before a car pulled up beside you and rolled it's window down. "Fuck off shithead," You stated and continued walking. "Y/N Get in the car please," Jake said this time and you shook your head. "IF YOU DONT GET IN THE FUCKING CAR Y/N OR SO HE-" Mikey yelled but you cut him off. "OR WHAT MIKEY WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING TO DO HUH!" You yelled, You heard a car door slam and Mikey appeared in front of you. All of a sudden you were thrown over Mikey's shoulder. "MIKEY LET ME FUCKING GO RIGHT NOW!" You yelled pounding on his back. "HELP ME PLEASE HELP ME IM BEING KIDNAPPED HELP!" You yelled "Y/N SHUT THE FUCK!" Ademir said trying to get you to stay quiet. "Make sure she doesn't get out," Mikey said getting in the driver seat. He child locked which resulted in you failing your escape. "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU HUH!" Mikey yelled "Just take me home please," You whispered facing the window, Realizing how he was acting Mikey's voice softened. "Y/N I-" You cut him off before he could finish. "Mikey I don't want to hear it please just take me home," You said he sighed loudly and drove down the road leading to your house. Once they got to you house you quickly unbuckled you seatbelt and tried to get out but you forgot the car door was on child lock. Rolling down the window you quickly opened the car door before anyone could say anything and practically jumped out. "Y/N Y/N Stop please!" Mikey said following you up the drive way. "Mikey just please leave me alone. Go film your 3 AM challenge," You said you arm pointing in the direction of the car. You fished for your keys in your bag. "Look I didn't mean to blow up on you," He said and you scoffed puling out your keys. "Really because it didn't seem like it," You said unlocking your door. "Y/N I'm sorry okay I just-when we couldn't find you I thought the worst. What if you were hurt or what if someone did something to you. We aren't exactly on good terms with Jesse and I wouldn't be surprised if he did something to you to get to me," Mikey said and you furrowed your eyebrows. "Why would he do that and why would it affect you," You said "Because you drive me crazy! everything you do drives me crazy! your laugh your smile the way you get on me with your big y/e/c eyes. The way your vein pops out of your forehead when your ma- Fuck it!" He said grabbing your face and crashed his lips against yours. "I GIVE NO FUCKS!" Ademir yelled making you both laugh and break the kiss. "Ademir you idiot you ruined the moment!" Jake said recording the whole thing. "This is going on my channel," Jake said "Don't got to seaside at 3AM," Gavin added "So what do you have to tell the locals?" Jake said running up on the both of you stuffing the camera in your face. "Send cheeks," You said "Ayy snap code will be on the screen send to Ademir and I not to Mikey because he has a girl now," He said making you shake your head. "Well it wasn't a scary 3am challenge but it was still scary watching you guys argue," Gavin said, You saw the sun coming up and you checking your phone. "Okay it's 5:30am go home so I can get some rest," You said shooing everyone away. Before getting in your house Mikey pulled you towards him and gave one last kiss. You heard wolf whistles in the back making you shake your head. "Knock it off Shit heads," You yelled before going inside and falling asleep on the couch. _____________________________________________________________________ Here it is guys my first Mikey imagine I hope you guys enjoy remember requests are always open! thank you for taking time in reading them I love you guys! remember "I GIVE NO FUCKS" ~Crystal 💙

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How Ace gets her fire power and meets the Turtles. (Part 2)

Almost twenty minutes later...

Donnie looked nervously over the beauty laying clothed in nothing except a sweat shirt of Mikey.

He tried to take some blood from her but her arm turned to fire and made a hole on the place where he tried to touch her with the injection.

"Interesting her body is protecting her even thought she is unconcious!" he realized. So he scanned her body instead and looked in to his hollogram. "This is amazing she is like...made of fire now, her whole organs the same but at the same time they can turn in to fire whenever she gets in trouble. Its like she is made of fire. SHE is living fire!" he shouted and looked in shock at her as she started to burn he grabbed the extinguisher to put it quick out.

"I ask myself..." the purple masked turtle to himself and tried to take blood from her again this time he succeed and took her blood to test it.

"So water and cold stops her fire power interesting to...."

"Hey Donnie is my girlfriend finally awake I made some pizza for us!" Mikey broke in to the lab.

"MIKEY!" Donnie screamed in shock at his younger brother as he almost let one of his tools fall.

The orange masked turtle ignored him and walked over to the young woman. He leaned over her to carefully wipe her wet black lock out of her face.

"Why is she so wet?" he asked his brother blushing as his eyes fell on his sweater glued to the body of the new girl.

Donnie quick put white lab coat over her to stop Michelangelos eyes from falling out.

"Hey Donnie are finally finished with your tests?" the big brute of the family walked in to the lab this made the genuis turtle let out a deep sigh.

It was almost impossible to work on something with his curious brothers making him almost go crazy by walking in to his lab. That was the main reason why he kept his lab locked but because he was been so excited to find out more about this woman, he forgot to follow his important rule to lock his lab before starting his work.

"Mhm..." all three looked at the woman letting out a moan as she came to herself slowly sitting up on operation table she was laying on.

"What happend?" Ace asked them confused for a few seconds before she stare in shock at the talking humanoid turtles standing before her. "Who are you?" she asked staring at them in awe. Turtles! Talking Human like turtles! She always adored this animals.

"Miss please dont be scared we safed you from..."

"The bad guys I did the most of course I am Michelangelo but you can call me your future boyfriend" the youngest sibling interupted his older brother winking at Ace.

This made her giggle and looks over at the growling red masked turtle.

"Raphael and you call me Raph why dont ya screaming freaks or something?" he asked her.

"BECAUSE YOU ARE AMAZING!" she screamed making all three look at her in shock.

"I want to know all about you, are you born this way? Are you a new kind? Are you some kinda experiment? Are you...." suddenly the young woman fell back and shocked all even more but make them sweat drop as she snored loudly laying asleep before them.

"She is sleeping so beautiful!" Mikey cheered looking at her as she scratched her head.

"Yeah like fucking sleeping beauty on drugs" groaned his golden eyed brother shaking his head at her.

"She is really sleeping this is surprising maybe we...Wahhh!"

All three screamed like little girls as the young beauty sat suddenly up looking at them with half closed eyes dizzy from her short sleep.

"Where was I?" she asked the three mutants confused and yawed.

"Y-You wanted to know what exactly we are Miss...are you okay? I think you should take some more Rest" Donnie first found his voice after a while just staring at her.

"Oh this is nothing to worry about really I only have this narco-thing so this will happen from time to time" Ace waved it off like nothing.

"What is the Nacro-thing?" asked Mikey looking at Donnie who thought for a few seconds before he looked in surprise and shock at her.

"Its a long-term neurological disorder that involves a decreased ability to regulate sleep-wake cycles. Symptoms include periods of excessive daytime sleepiness that usually last from seconds to minutes and may occur at any time." the purple masked genius explained to his brothers.

"Okay....I still dont get it" Mikey said smiling making Donatello slap himself.

"One more try then she has a sleep disorder, she can not controll this moments when she falls asleep her body shuts down for a few seconds or longer time. It can happen any time" Donnie tried to explain it to him again.

"I fall asleep sometimes nothing to worry about really" said and stand slowly up looking curious around in the big lab. "You have a nice place here did you build this all by yourself smartass in purple?" she asked Donnie while winking at him.

This made him blush and only nod at her not trusting in his voice. This woman was something else for sure.

"Ya he did so who the fuck ya are and how ya get in to this mess?" asked Raph her annoyed over his brothers being all over her. Yeah she was hot and all but she was also some kinda weird and this confused him.

"I am Alisa, Calina, Ekaterina but all call me Ace. I tried to help a man from getting kidnapped and was knocked out in process. All I know is waking up from pain, becaus if this weird ooze they pumped in to my body" she explained him rubbing her head missing her hat.

"Ace mhm have family up there?" the big brute asked her while looking down at her arms crossed over his plastron.

"SHE IS BURNING!" Mikey screamed as Ace pulled her hand from her head to look at it on fire.

"I AM BURNING! WHY I AM BRUNING" she screamed and starts running around until Mikey throw two of his famous water ballons at her. She stopped and calmed down looking at Donnie for explantation.

He carefully took her hand and pulled her over to his chair to make her sit down while telling her all her found out about her mutation.

Ace listened to the turtle genius in silence. It all sounded amazing and scary at the same time to her. She was a mutant now a fire mutant to be exact and the scary part on it was she couldnt controll it.

"I understand but how can I controll this new power? I cant turn to a walking tortch before my family and friends" she told Donnie who nodded.

"I will try my best to help you in this" he promised her even thought he didnt know how he could help her but as the so called fixer of this family, he always found a way to fix any situation.

Ace gave him a wide smile. "Thank you"

"I wanna help her too!" Mikey yelled and get closer showing her his water filled ballons. "I will put the fire out when ever you start burning!" he promised her as well.

Only Raphael stayed silent shaking his head at both looking over at the leader as he walked in to the room.

Donnie quick filled the blue masked turtle in by what he find out about Ace.

"Miss Ace you can stay here until you in full controll over your power about your family you can let them now that you needed to leave the city for a while" he offered her. The dark haired beauty nodded silently before she took out her phone to write a message down for her boss and another one for her family the old house keeper and the kids of the orphanage she grown up at once.

"Thank you for the offer I could use something to eat now" she explained to the four brothers.

She laughed as Mikey suddenly pulled her up in his arms cheering. "Thats perfect I made some pizza for us babycakes" He run out of the lab before anyone could say something against it.

Raph looked at the other. "Ya really want her to stay here fearless? What if she burns down the lair?"

"Yes I want her here and we will keep an eye on Ace so nothing will happen to the lair" his oldest brother explained to him.

"I can try to make her back human" Donnie offered starting to talk to fast explaining that with help of her blood he could try to make the antidode to the ooze who changed her.

Leonardo trying to follow his middle brother rumblings managed to catch the most important and nodded. "I trust you Donnie to make this antidode but as long she has the this power she needs to learn to controll it to not become any danger to us" the leader told them his decision.

Mikey and Ace arrived in the kitchen and Mikey put the young woman carefully down on a chair before he quick putt the food on two plates sitting down beside her to eat with her.

"Its really delicious" she told him after she took a bite of one slice.

"Yeah it is the best food ever! So do you have a boyfriend?" the cheerful turtle asked her directly.

Making Ace blush slighty looking down to hide it. "No....not right now" she tried to stay calm but she didnt liked to talk about her non existend love life.

Mikey wanted to ask more but was interupted by April and Casey coming in to the room.

"You are awake? Good I have some questions..."

"Jones" April stopped her boyfriend from letting his officer self out on the young woman.

"I know you, you are the news reporter April O´Neil of chanel 6?" Ace said smiling to her.

"Yes I am looks like I am a bit famous" she chuckles and looks smiling at the younger woman. "But please just call me April and this is Casey we are friends of the turtles who saved your from the Shredder" April told her smiling and sat down across from her.

"I am Alina, Calina, Ekaterina or short Ace really a pleasure to meet" the brown eyed girl told them with a slight bow of her head.

"Okay Ace can you tell us how you end up in this mess?" wanted Casey to know while sitting down beside April across from her.

Ace told them what happend and gave all three almost a heart attack as her head fell down face first in the pizza.

The youngest turtle quick pulled her back up while April cleaned her face and Casey put pillow on the place of the food to lay her back down on it letting her sit there snoring.

To be continued...

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