#i can appreciate the effort lol

[redfield5x5]

i’m a day late, but happy 1 year of supercat endgame!

supercat fandom, i hope you thought about this 2018 article in the past couple of days and smiled:

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#supercat #supercatedit #cat grant #dctvladies #dctvedit #supergirl #supergirledit #dctv #catgrantedit #karadanversedit #kara danvers #they were so bananas adding this song too #fitting both kara and supergirl and kara and cat #bless this series finale #they really tried to foreshadow cat the entire final season #i can appreciate the effort lol

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

#spilled ink #writeblr #personal #please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it #i really try not to write so specifically about it #bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child #i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years #i might delete this. feels big. #the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum #and if u say ur autistic #inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms #please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do #and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort. #but it still feels like... #when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing. #they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly? #and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find #the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go) #and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW." #''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.'' #and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic #someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.

[transgender-chiroptera]

Can you share some of your favorite bat facts? I wanna add more to my lil arsenal of cool random facts. :]

Of course! Apologies for the late response, I saw this at like 1am four days ago, forgot everything I knew about bats, and then fell asleep and only remembered I even got this ask today. Anyways! Some bat facts :)

Common Vampire bats are some of my absolute favourites, mostly because of their ability to run on the ground! They can gallop with their forelimbs and take off from the ground by leaping into the air and catapulting themselves with their wings, which is speculated to be how Pterodactyls took off as well! Most bats cannot take off from the ground, and must be elevated to take flight, so this is pretty cool. Makes sense too, since they mostly feed from the ankles of large mammals and so need ground maneuverability!

Here's a video of a vamp taking off, and here's a video of one walking around! I think their skittery movements and lil' faces are just the CUTEST, but I know I'm probably in the minority there. Also there's a large dish of blood in the second video, so fair warning there!

All three true Vampire bats have evolved special grooves in their mouths in order to act as a gutter of sorts to funnel the blood into their mouths, but the exact arrangement differs between them. The Hairy-Legged Vampire bat has a groove along the roof of the mouth, whereas the White-Winged and Common Vampire bats have lingual grooves under the tounge! Speaking of White-Winged Vampire bats, they're the only bats in the world with 22 teeth, for some reason (likely no reason since the molars are vestigial), AND they have scent glands in their mouths that might be used to deter predators. Pretty cool stuff!

Finally, all three species of true Vampire Bats are cute as hell. Look at these lil' guys!!

(left to right- White-winged, Hairy-legged, and Common Vampire bats!)

#idk why the vampire theme these guys are just always on the brain. I love them so much #they aren't scary at all! being a hematophage doesn't automatically make a creature scary or bad in any way #No worse than being a carnivore. the blood to blood contact makes them vectors for disease but that's not their fault #besides so would being carnivorous if they didn't have to kill their prey most of the time lol #I love and appreciate these beasts. They have an important place in the ecosystem and should be respected. the best that can be done #to mitigate the diseases they are vectors for are vaccination efforts and improved accessibility to healthcare #but that's a wholee other discussion lol. hate that i feel the need to go on the defensive when saying i like an animal I'm passionate abou #ANYWAYS tag ramble over. thank you for the ask!!! always love an excuse to talk about bats haha #ask #raybytheway #bat #common vampire bat #white-winged vampire bat #hairy-legged vampire bat

[bleue-flora]

So… I have been obsessively rewatching streams to get as canon accurate as possible (as a perfectly sane person does… of course) and it kinda sparked a question. Clearly, Quackity’s lore is on the more scripted and edited side, so Punz’s talk with Purpled wasn’t a live impromptu and one of the things he specially highlights is “6 months” as the time frame for Dream being tortured in prison (not to mention the unspeakable and past people’s limits parts which there is no way Dream signed off on, but that’s a whole other can of worms…) We know that according to real life, Quackity tortured Dream daily for about 67 days if his last visit is the stream of making Dream write the letter (May 22nd, 2021), 75 days (from March 17th, 2021 - Quackity’s first visit stream to June 6th, 2021 - Techno’s stream where he visits Dream) if he holds up the deal to not torture Dream for a week or 82 days if he doesn’t, (we know he doesn’t get tortured while Techno is there because Dream mentions it in the podcast stream), which brings us to almost 3 months. Given this, why would Punz say 6 months? This isn’t a live stream slip up, this is scripted. They have time to verify the actual facts. So why would they say that and emphasize that point. 3 months is still a long time to be tortured daily, there’s no reason why that time frame wouldn’t be sufficient to convince Purpled of its ferocity.

One could make the argument that when Dream told Punz about it, he said 6 months because he didn’t know how long it was (which is actually what I thought at first), but Dream actually has a decent understanding of time at different points in prison so that’s not super likely. When Techno comes to visit Dream, Dream even says, he’s been there for 5 or 6 months (and that’s after Tommy’s stay and revival and stuff). We also know based on the jailbreak streams that Sam kept up the lie to Quackity that Dream escaped so even when Techno leaves it’s not like Quackity came back.

So, c!Dream knew, cc!Dream knew, cc!Quackity knew and given their attention to detail, I feel like they wouldn’t let cc!Punz get it wrong on accident. There’s no particular reason for c!Punz to lie and it’s not like an - I forgot how long let me just mention type of thing. No, this was one of the times in that talk with Purpled that he repeated himself for emphasis. So, why did he say 6 months?

#Punz giving me brain rot again…. y’all send help… #do not under estimate the amount of effort I go through to be canon complaint #like dialgue and stuff and even like how many potions someone has or something…. I am crazy it’s official #shoutout to @midnight-fangirl01 for putting up with me arguing over whether techno can have cabinets because of canon…. :) <3 <3 #oh go read Crow’s Nest and my other stuff to - appreciate my effort lol XD… #dsmp #c!dream #dream smp #pandora's vault #dreblr #c!punz #c!stagedduo #no one does it like c!dream #this is fine #c!dream and c!techno #did someone order an essay? #dishing up lore #rivals duo #dsmp analysis #prison arc #pandora’s vault has a singular purpose #dsmp lore #dsmp dream #dsmp punz #dsmp purpled #c!purpled #c!dream and c!quackity #pandoras vault #lore thoughts #ALL THE TAGES! SOMEONE HELP!!! I have such serious brains rot…. please I need to know! <3 :)

[saucerfulofsins]

Ngl watching House for the first time after almost losing my foot and then using a crutch for 5+ years before I did specialised physio for chronic pain is like... Actually I keep feeling like his experience is... Familiar? Believable really. The ups and downs, the link to mental wellbeing, the belief it's gone and the struggle with the pain and with disability becoming a part of your being and how those can and do bite eachother, and the scars always being there to remind you?

I'm not saying the other medical things depicted are realistic, I'm not. I'm no medical expert. But the whole experience he has (minus the vicodin addiction/enabler polycule) resonates with me now, which is... Interesting and unexpected tbh.

#And if I ever need help walking again #Which I presume I will bec I'm young now but I (hopefully) won't always be #I may just get a flame cane for the meme #house md #I know this isn't everyone's experience either #But I do wonder if house would benefit from the therapy I had #(and I know he wouldn't have it bec it requires psychological effort lol) #And yeah I hadn't seen the series in 10 yrs bec I spent a lot of time in hospitals and there was trauma etc #I'm fine now I'm glad I can watch it again #I love this show and I did before and it's just... #Such good storytelling #Yes they're all assholes #That's the point #I love to hate them but they're also not so irredeemable not to appreciate them somehow #Anyway the only thing I appreciate more now is the House/Wilson lol #Just the ship of all time and the show fucking knew it lmao

[hexplaything]

please please PLEASEEEEEEEEE post thong pics 🥺

ndjdbdjebdjs noted noted ill keep this in mind

#hopefully im not too busy and can find time to do it this weekend idk #it's also just a high effort/energy thing for me which SUCKS #good girl answers #but i appreciate the vocalization of demand LOL

[elliesbelle]

y did i almost drop to my knees and start begging for chapter 10🤣🤣🤣 so crazy..

#asvhhjdjdj jk #i mean y’all know i’ll still keep releasing and shit #but idk it’s so discouraging when like #all the time and effort i put into fics isn’t as appreciated as i wish it was yk? #i literally spend my free time doing this #i legit started bringing my laptop to work so i can write this when i can sit down at work lol #that’s how much i love writing for this series #but idk y’all #anon #belle answers

[rosykims]

varric's seeing red quest is ridiculous and i hate doing it. obviously destroying lyrium is a good thing but its just. so poorly executed. like wow congrats girl you punched one big red lyrium crystal into approx 60 smaller red lyrium crystals ! thats going to help us for sure <3 and dont worry abt the 70 surrounding crystals eating into the rocks/earth/etc :) what's important is that you punched THIS crystal specifically <3

#tay plays dai #i wouldnt even mind the stupid 'destroying red lyrium by punching it' thing if it werent for the fact that we are forced to ignore so much #of it. #i wish the quest dealt with Areas instead of individual crystals #sure its more time consuming but can u imagine how satisfying it wouldve been #to have cleared the ENTIRE sahrnia quarry of red lyrium. or crestwood or whatever #sigh. #i guess it adds to the ominous/unstoppable vibe of the lyrium which i can appreciate #but its just silly lol. why even make an effort into destroying it at the point #its like finding a needle in a pile of needles yknow.

[vampirologist]

genuinely this!!! @shewhosleepsalotincemetaries I made this post already but BUFFYVERSE PRACTICAL EFFECTS I LOVE YOUUU

#like you can say it looks bad or whatever but I appreciate actual demons that had effort put into them to look like demons!! #like. scenes like when buffy and angel kissed the first time and he camped out would not have hit like they did #If they just made the vampires have different colored eyes or something #Your tags immediately made me think of that post on here of a guy from the supernatural wiki where it says he’s a dragon but he’s literally #Just some guy #buffyverse would have made that bitch scaly! like a demon! #*VAMPED OUT. Lol

[unproduciblesmackdown]

fanart of this written tayston scene with the prompt “why me?” 💜💖💙

#sometimes it takes me a minute of pondering what i want to draw before remembering like listen an answer is always Tayston #winston billions #corned beef #tayston #been wrangling w/the usual unnecessary trepidation in taking even a step further w/efforts to write anything ever so great time to sketch #not like this is a sketch b/c not how often is anything ever lol this has taken abt 5 hours. just not ultra honed / polished #which isn't to say there wasn't honing and nonzero polishing.... #''why me'' is so fucking like. scream it's just So thoroughly relevant re: winston aughh #in turn relevantly & appropriately i go [aaughhhh] when i merely Remember the ''i'm here'' themed gifset re winston like yep argh help aughh #and my god read the scene....the Inherent Intimacy of winston getting to die in a nightmare of taylor's #that ode to taylor's line about (supposedly. maybe not so much in the immediate disoriented aftermath; such as would be the case here) being #appreciative of having nightmares b/c then it's like oh nice reality is much better lol...Thusly #winston getting to give some disorientatedly unfiltered comfort here and that it can be effective #then the inherent intimacy of a Familiar Comfortable Domestic/Morning Routine #both of them being more conscious / coordinated and winston navigating that with solid familiarity / comfort / effectiveness as well..... #here you are....... #(okay two edits and two resaved versions of this png later since i opened this new post lol) #the bi flag coloration was not planned lol it just happens

[orcelito]

I've largely sorted out my thoughts for the wolfwood & eye of Michael analysis post, tho I can't write it yet bc I have to go to fucking Work >:/

Homophobic

#speculation nation #i wanna double check one part of the manga. just in case. #i plan to reference three different parts tho at Least. from very different sections #mostly theres a few pages we see and get no explanation for. id honestly forgotten them until i reread thru the section #so i wanna do my best to puzzle out what it could be. float some theories. #cant rly come to many definite conclusions bc it's that brief. but i sure can come up with some theories. #oh. correction. i will be referencing FOUR parts. bc my 2nd theory depends on the background reference lol #three of the parts are in the same general area of the story. but the pages im focusing on r much earlier on #later today. i will write this. #gonna put in the effort to write ids for this too bc i have a feeling ppl r gonna appreciate this one. i hope!

[goldensunset]

Envy is absolutely the most cringfail sin. it's about spending your energy NOT minding your own business and being obsessed with what other people have. and it's the only one that grants you no pleasure. it's just misery. completely pathetic

loving the fact that you have an opinion on this and needed to say it. mutuals please sit down it’s time for the philosophy and ethics socratic seminar on tumblr dot com

#listen they’re all pathetic as long as you understand what they actually truly mean #and not the oversimplified broadened media ideas of them #like you see i don’t think jealousy is necessarily bad if it’s 1. something objectively good to have and 2. something with no scarcity #i.e. like if you wished you could be as kind and patient as someone you know so you seek to emulate them #you’re jealous of them in a way that hurts neither you nor them but leads you to greater personal virtue and appreciation of them #of course if it’s not a situation like this then yeah you’re right it is pretty pathetic #but i consider envy to be something different #jealousy is wanting someone else’s happiness #envy is resenting someone else’s happiness #envy says if i can’t be happy you shouldn’t be happy either #envy is that toxic person who refuses to make any effort to improve themselves #who just whines all day in the hopes of annoying you so they can take a minor comfort in your misery #this is also related to sloth though too #sloth is not refusing to participate in grind culture or whatever it’s never taking a stand and doing the thing when it’s needed #sloth is the person who’s too afraid of facing difficulties so they always have to be neutral. aka they’re useless. #alternatively envy is the guy who’s in love with this lady who’s already taken #and he retaliates by killing her boyfriend/husband (possibly as well as her too) #so yeah envy is definitely pathetic at best and downright monstrous at worst #but like don’t get me started on pride. that is peak immaturity #y’know the people who are like ‘I WILL ATTACK AND DETHRONE GOD’ yeah i’ve never met a happy and peaceful person who says that lol #it’s just weird… #pride is just about making it all about yourself #the thing is that being full of yourself is a problem of course #but then there’s also the toxicity of hating yourself #constant self deprecation is just as damaging as a huge ego #like the way to counter pride is not to be like AAAAAH I HATE MYSELF I’M GARBAGE girl stop. pick yourself up #ppl like that are still making a scene and making it all about themselves. it’s not healthy and they should seek genuine help #like just. chill. literally. go talk to someone. go do something. being trapped in your own mind can go one of two bad ways #asks #thanks anon

[freebooter4ever]

"trocheck taking out the goaltender - inadvertently.... we think..." (said V E R Y uncertainly)

lmao yeah with trocheck you never really know

#nyr boots liveblog #i appreciate his efforts on behalf of the team but i can see how other teams would be... unhappy about it LOL

[goldieclaws]

Maybe this is bc I’m horrored out/don’t get scared by horror games or movies (my nightmares do that far better lol), but I find it so silly how this game called Shipwrecked 64 is in my recommended a lot and I’ve watched two playthrough of it and both times I thought it was incredibly mid. For once I don’t agree with the Steam reviews of Overwhelmingly Positive lmao

#goldie speaks #I can appreciate the effort that goes into making a game ofc #it just ain’t for me and is really boring lol #if there’s anything horror I want to rewatch it’s The Walter Files #sorry to be a hater but I don’t care about the game YT

[crowdsourcedloner]

They’re going through something incredibly difficult—perhaps they’re very sick, have lost a loved one, or have gone through a traumatic event. Do they ask for or accept support and care from their partner, or try to isolate themselves? (For couple OC ask!)

Nailah's first reaction to most things is to hide, and personal difficulties are no different - rather, she's much worse about them. She hates having her issues spill over onto others and isolates herself in any way she can, retreating within herself if she can't retreat to privacy. Pressing her on this only reinforces her stubborn distance, and she bluntly shuts out people who try and force her to open up.

This doesn't stop G'raha from trying and to his credit, she does soften for him. Slightly. She still prickles at the thought of bothering him and is an endless font of apologies through much of his fussing, but she knows better than to try to change his mind once it's set. Under her grumbles she does appreciate his kindness, and she tries to pay him back by offering her support in kind.

#answered asks #thank you for the ask! #oc: hrothwol #ship tag goes here #g'raha's figured out that if he phrases his help as a favor to him she'll accept it easier lol #nailah also opens up to thancred and estinien should they poke at her #and y'shtola can get nailah to be a begrudging patient with a bit of effort #but nailah really doesnt like leaning on others even when she really should #...as much as i roast nailah's poor communication skills she is a great listener #so she pays back g'raha's kindness with an open ear and a shoulder to cry on should he need it #(she lowkey offers to stab people for him but he doesnt appreciate that as much lmao)