#i couldnt live life not knowing the reasoning

[alphaketoglutaricacid]

the way he came real close to one of laios desperate plans while sleep deprived and hangry several chapters in advance.. he really does know laios huh.

my tags got too long so here they are under the cut

Even tho he wanted to sleep he probs was still listening to everything laios has to say. Bc he is Always Listening and Observing

Interesting in the context of how laios wants someone to understand him - to see him as he is but also the ways in which hes afraid of rejection and being seen as less than human but lacking the monstrousness to retaliate and lash out without regret bc then it would be The natural order of things but hell never be a monster he can only be a human being

but i think part of the reason shuro got so mad is bc he was putting all this effort into being considerate and feeling he got none in return. i think he wanted to be seen too! But i think he overlooked how he feels safe enough to express his rawest feelings w laios

But also i think laios was the first relationship shuro did not just let fizzle out at the first sign of interpersonal difficulty. bc lbr in this manner hes a coward. Disgusted by maizuru being his fathers mistress ? Dont talk it out n continue letting her treat him like a child while ignoring her. concerned hien and him will turn out like maizuru and his father—just let the friendship drift apart w time. concerned abt how inutade views her retainership when he knows his father just sees her as an oddity—dont say shit n just stew in it 5eva

passive aggression warrior!!!

Also interesting laios is like if we can make her monstrousness more manageable maybe she can live among ppl…the projection

The part at the end where toshiros like I know his gait from the sound of the bell by heart so i 100% know its him. he was listening the whole time! like a second heartbeat. Very metaphorical for their relationship. its a challenging relationship for the both of them but they dont give it up bc they care about each other.

thats love honestly i was genuinely moved by the interplay of toshiro laios n kabrus relationship. that laios promises hell eat w kabru on his terms even tho kabru wasnt upfront abt the monster thing initially giving him a motive to return. and how shuro gave him the bell as a promise hed bring him back to the surface no matter what. And he fulfills it even when laios leaves the bell behind bc he knows him so well To the surface and live among other ppl.

bc laios whole life he felt like he couldnt understand other ppl and they couldnt understand him even tho he wanted that connection that seemed so easy to everyone else

but thru kabru and shuro we see that no one in the world understands anyone else completely- thats why they enter the story w awful first impressions. As well as like well. Thats probs how laios comes off to other ppl

shuro calls him back bc the two as his peers are like u already have connections who value you (shuro) and deep connections youve yet to make w ppl who will be important to u going forward (kabru) and theyll both challenge and change deep seated issues about themselves to keep their connection w u alive

#dungeon meshi spoilers #What a fascinating and loaded dynamic #toshiro nakamoto #laios touden #shuro

[s0fter-sin]

sometimes i think about how much of a waste it was to just have cas ignoring sam’s prayers in s6 instead of him actually not being able to hear him bc he was soulless and his prayers didn’t work

#there should have been more side effects of literally not having a soul other than sam just being a sociopath #the whole point of the season was how souls themselves are power right #so its not a leap to asume any supernatural anything a human is able to do or conjure would be powered by the soul #so why not make it that the soul is what powers prayers #or powers exorcisms and summonings and rites #imagine if sam couldnt make holy water anymore #or exorcise demons which he doesnt care about bc hed just use the knife anyway #but it would make things difficult for him #just this added hassle of having to buy holy water and needing the cambels to do rites for him that he just cant #i know cas ignores him for guilt reasons but imagine if that first prayer from dean is how he realises he brought sam back soulless #maybe he just thought sam was ignoring him and had gone on to live the normal life he always wanted #then that guilt of thinking he saved him just to realise how badly he fucked up along with the guilt of working with crowley?? #huge missed opportunity #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #carry on my wayward son #sam winchester #castiel #dean winchester #destiel #supernatural #spn

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its so weird. i feel like march 5th went on for more than a day somehow. i guess that's just bc we were awake for just abt all of it #my dad wanted to start doing things immediately so he was calling and scheduling all day. we went to the funeral home we went to the store #and it was weird bc as we were moving around it was like wow we r a 4 person family now. this is it. and theres so much to do after a person #dies. or at least there is when they were loved so much and jesus christ my mom was one of the best ppl a LOT of ppl knew. she did so much #for so so many ppl. and with her childhood she had every reason to b a fuck up but no she was kind and selfless and amazing. her mother is #trying to bask in the attention of her death when its like: truely go fuck urself. her being such a good person has nothing to do with u. u #treated her appallingly. fuck off. and fucking everyone knows it. god. she is a product of her grandparents kindness. and it sounds like her #dad was amazing like her. but he tragically died in a car wreck when she was 3. she was in the car. no one in my mums family believes in a #god now. too many bad things happened to the shining gems in a collection of wild alcoholics. but its not all bad. my family's staying close #my dad is taking it hard bc this means hes alone now and my mum took care of so many things bc she was so smart and he feels so dumb. he #feels he didnt deserve her. hes working on giving more hugs now. and hes using us to anxiously talk things out the way he did with mom #which is good. i cant imagine if this happened when we werent 3 adults and he was windowed with 3 kids to raise himself. and its funny. were #saying things we never would have told her. we looked thru pictures of her and she was so so beautiful. a total smoke show. my parents were #a cute couple who produced cute kids. and my mom had trouble communicating and being affectionate tho we knew she loved us there was #distance. theres a pic of my dad pulling her close and shes being tippef towarf her while standing away and thats indicitive of their #relationship. they were 2 partners who lived together independently and that worked but its sad bc my mum couldnt b vulnerable in her #expression. ppl r being so kind tho. ill be in ohio now for like 2.5 more weeks as the funeral stuff shakes out. we have to have 2 bc she #grew up away from her and so many ppl loved her in both locations. she was a popular lady. its so weird to b here on pause. but i feel clear #in my head. i think this will change a lot of my outlook on life. its nice to focus on the person she was and not the horrible 12hrs where i #saw her half dead. i cant imagine how awful it was for my sisters and dad to see her downslide into death. she didnt expect this to b The #Fever that killed her but it did and now she'll never finish a million things. and the house is full of pill bottles and all her junk and #unopened amazon packages and a truck with the fuel left on empty. bc she was an absent minded goofball. ay. well miss her so much #unrelated

[fiendishartist2]

guys what if i want to make my own apollo justice game.

#i need to write a prequel to aa4 pls pls pls pls pls #okay get this: so phoenix isnt disbarred yet and he doesnt have trucy. hes still taking and winning cases #one day he gets a call from edgeworth and hes all like ''wright i need your assistance'' and hes like what for and edgeworth goes #''ive been given the most ridiculous case and i think youre the only man in law who can take care of it'' #so phoenix bikes his ass to the detention center and boom. child behind bars #and phoenix is like ??? hey kid what are doing here. and this kid is the most surly mfer on the planet like you couldnt get- #-a word out of him if you tried. hes kinda giving phoenix the stink eye too but hes just the littlest guy on earth #and phoenix feels bad for him so he tries to get a rundown of the case (maybe edgeworth gave him an autopsy report or smth beforehand) #but get this. the kid still wont speak. he hasnt even moved a muscle. and after some prodding you find out this little dude- #-doesnt speak english (i dont love aa6 but i think apollos tragic backstory can be interesting so we're going w that but taking it seriousl #anyways so maya is like omg this kid is speaking khurainese but hers is kinda broken bc shes not from the mainland and only knows it- #-from like prayers #so you only get bits and pieces of the kids testimony. plus he still doesnt wanna talk bc ''dhurk told me not to talk to you'' #so you start following the new lead but you ask too many questions and apollos like oh shit i said too much and wont talk to you anymore #but now you have two leads: khur'ain and a man named ''dhurk'' plus the fact that this is kid might be new to america since- #-he cant speak english but is smack dab in the middle of california. its all v curious and phoenix wants to get to the bottom of it #for the rest of the case i feel like it would go in the direction of ''we dont know exactly whats up w this dhurk guy or where this kid- #-came from but we do get him acquitted and phoenix is able to save him from the dark path he was heading towards'' thus steering apollo- #-in the direction of law and giving him a wayyyy better reason than aa6 gave him <3 #i kind of like the interlinked nature of ace attorney's storytelling. like everything leads into smth else and everyone is impacted- #-by another person before they even become properly entangled w each other's lives #like how mia faced dahlia years before she met phoenix but dahlia was the one to connect them #or how trucy gave phoenix the diary paper but she's also the one who ropes apollo into the waa. even before they know they're siblings #or how lamoire left apollo and trucy as children and when they reunite as adults they cant recognise each other but they all find each- #-other anyways #i could go on but i think this could be cool yknow esp bc i think the most interesting thing about apollo's aa6 backstory is his life- #-post dhurk. like where did he stay? was he a foster kid? was he put into the system? how did that affect him? what kind of ppl took him in #i just wanna know how that whole thing would have effected him bc like when yiu think about it how did he even get to america?? his dad's #-considered a terrorist. idk man i think its interesting and apollo and dhurks interactions are one of the only good parts of aa6

[toxooz]

also GOOD NEWS turns out the One Week Until Eviction scare was just a false alarm and surprise surprise ✨lack of communication ✨ where as i texted her back for clarification but she said everything is fine and i aint being evicted bc she lied to the higher ups??so fuck it we ball ig its good to know she rlly does have my back to some strange extent so im still girlbossin here for another year and will have more time to build credit and look into the science of buying a house sksks

ALLL THAT BEING SAID i will start the next comic section later this week 4 SURE

#not complaining in the slightest but she very much couldve texted me again within those 4 days to say just kidding BECAUSE UHHH #''ur good honey i just lied to them☺'' me 5 suicidal meltdowns and 10 applications to any available housing later:😬oh ok great!!!! #like woman i was fully ready to accept that theres not a bitch on earth who will show me mercy to any extent and that the world is a cold #unrelenting hell to survive in for the past 4 DAYSSSS which i mean is right but ig its not completely that??? #like a ''oh nevermind sorry false alarm'' text literally anytime after wouldve work just dandy sksksks plz #like i was rlly out here thinknig she deliberately basically sentenced me to inevitable homelessness for all she knows out of nowhere LIKE #i think im above the genetic Crazy Bitch Disease #but then i catch myself calculating the most inconvenient place in my apartment for my body to decompose in '''''for revenge'''''' #if i couldnt move out in time like what in gods name is this radioactive elephants foot of a brain #plus idk how solid her excuse of not having good internet reason is to keep me here for another year so either way #after this im finding somewhere more solid to live bc i cant deal with this type of thing AGAIN lmfao #like bro u cant just make me think the happiness and peace that ive felt for the first time in my life is going to be reversed bc i have to #move back into that godforsaken house with that pos bc i Literally had no time to find another place and the amount of time that takes #BUT oh well its all good and she's still cool for a land lord so im good im good #the past almost week been crazy as hell

[deviantartidentitydisorder]

Isnt Oma a nazi?

All the characters are nazis because its a nazi propoganda series and if you think Ouma is the only problem despite thr nazi shit being used specifically to promote the game as overtly edgy despite it having no weight on his actual character then i think you might need to replay the games with the knowledge that literally all of them are pumped to the brim with facist ideology, in the same way any nazi-fetishizing "dark media" from japan does. danganronpa doesn't get a pass because all the characters are colorful and not drawn in some black and white manga style its a nazi glorification game.

#im jewish by the way if you couldnt read my bio for whatever reason. so maybe do the math snd figure out why id relate to that chara instead #of just assuming the worse. #id also suggest to you that this really isnt the blog for you im a jew raised in a highly violent catholic household #by a man who strongly identified as capitalo-catholic and a right wing humanitarian #so. you know. this is going to be a frequent topic. because it was my life #i lived with 2 nazi men my entire childhood

[impostorsshow]

Cries I'm binging Scars episodes of secret life, on episode 8 right now and the way he's so distrustful of everyone and keeps saying "no-dont- no more hurting,every time someone says [I'll help you] that they hurt me" I always see those posts about how the traffic light series is giving trauma to the characters but I NEVER WATCH THE LATER EPISODES I GET IT NOW I NEED TO GO BACK AND READ ALL OF THE TRAFFIC LIGHT FICS can someone tell me what tag its under for ao3 because ts gone through like 4 name changes

#genuinely ouch im getting like actual stabs of emotional pain because like. thats LITERALLY THE MOST TROPE QUOTE YOU CAN GET BUT HES SAYING #“NO MORE HURTING” SO GENUINELY IT HURTS EVEN IF I KNOW ITS PRETEND #along with the fact like. okay maybe this was projection but i could feel how pissed he was in ep 7 #after getting chased around he /wanted/ to keep being the villain and chase down everyone but he couldnt #talk talks #secret life #traffic smp #thank god tumblr knows the correct tags automatic tag filler my best friend #i really want to make art but also i feel a bit odd making art for scar just in secret life cause its such a stupid reason #the wither chase wasnt very wheelchair acceptable thats it i need to do research into different mobility aids but i think scar uses a #wheelchair because he has like the breathing tubes right and its like connected to an air canister i dont know i havent researched #but i would want to give him the correct representation cause that time in scarland or whatever he saw cleos posing of a wheelchair kid #that moment lives rent free i need more art of wheelchair and mobility aid scar just so that moment never stops living rent free #ill figure it out later

[mayclair]

the whole max and mike’s lives being foils of each other’s is so insane to me bc its like. for mike max is a representation of everything that could have happened to him if his mom left his dad earlier on (and what can still happen when you look at the way things are between them) and for max mike is a representation of everything that she could have had growing up if her mom hadn’t decided to leave her dad as fast as she did

#there is no way they don’t resent each other for it just a little bit. no fucking way sorry #mike knows max grew up with a shittier home life but still wishes his mom had the guts to do the same her mom did and left his dad bc #at the end of the day there is a little bit of bitterness towards both his parents for not making their relationship work out specifically #towards his dad bc his mom is actually involved in his life and did try to pretend that everything was normal when it wasnt which directly #ties into his desperate attempts to make his relationship with el seem normal to both of them when its not bc theyve both never been normal #they dont even know what normal really IS which also ties in to his very deep fear that the two of them will end up like his parents and so #meday he’ll become his dad and he doesn’t know which one is more terrifying so instead he blocks it all out in True Mike Wheeler FashionTM #and just keeps wishing that his mom left his dad because maybe if there was a distance between them when he was growing up maybe things wou #ldve been different maybe he wouldnt be this much like his dad #max on the other hand LOVES her dad they had one of those relationships where he wasn’t neglectful but wasn’t a great parent either but she #still loves him for trying and while her mom did try she gave up after a while while her dad didn’t. that was the real dealbreaker for max #and while after all this time she keeps saying im going to run away to cali and im going to live with my dad. but its not just the need to #see someone who cared for her the most during her early years its also the childish hope that her mom will notice that shes missing anf #come looking for her and that maybe when her parents finally meet again they can reconcile and get back together bc that is really all shes #ever wanted in her life since she was a kid and she feels bad for it bc she knows that her mom and dad’s relationship was never supposed to #last but she still wishes and wishes which is why that little bit of bitterness against mike will never fall away no matter how irrational #it is bc its like. his parents dont love each other but are still together for their kids. why couldnt my parents do the same? was i not en #ough reason for them? and this ties into her breaking up with lucas over and over again bc shes seen her parents and how they never fought #for each other and shes afraid that somewhere along the line her relationship with lucas will turn out the exact same and hell leave her so #its better to just leave now before it gets serious then later when it will hurt too much but lucas keeps coming back for her which makes #her realize that maybe it doesnt have to be like that maybe they wont be like her parents #anyway this is incoherent as fuck but shane mandej voice IVE CONNECTED THE DOTS #mike wheeler #max mayfield #stranger things

[devotedlystrangewizard]

as im getting closer & closer to the day that i will officially leave my hometown & go live with my dad i am starting to understand my ocs more

#avani most notably rn. bc shes actually my age and leaves behind everyone and everything she knows #having to grow up the rest of the way in an entirely different situation #because even if the situation youve been in for all your teen years has sucked ass the entire time its still. #its familiar? like. yk. familiar suffering is better than the unknown #personal #ive lived in that house my entire life. ive been with my dad for long stretches of time (all of summer break for instance) and it was fine #i KNOW i cant stay there. my mom's partner has actually physically hurt me and theyre both awful to me #and i also know that the only reason why its been somewhat good there lately is because i rarely speak to them anymore #that is not a house to live in! and i fucking love my dad. my stepsiblings. my stepmom!! #and its not even just the fact that im moving. right. i could probably handle that were it not for me also finishing high school. #i got financial support as a student whos 18+ while i was in high school. now its. #i need to get an income. in a region i barely know. being both physically & mentally disabled. #but not so disabled that im *incapable* of work!! which the law here asks for!! #(or i am and i just dont realize it because ive been working past my limits for so long ive forgotten what they are el em ay oh) #also ill miss my cat so fucking much #i love my dad's cats but shes special man #i miss her rn actually but im going back for the last time in a few days so #i was like. tearing up bc of the anxiety but then i remembered my cat and now im actively trying not to cry loudly #bc its. yk. almost 6 am and its almost waking up time for everyone here except me because. my school ended last month #its bedtime for me actually but i couldnt sleep because i was too busy crying over the fact that i am never going to get that room back #i miss being a child #at least back then it wasnt that complicated! i didnt know i was being mistreated when i was 11! #all of this doesnt even matter that much im just really bad with transitions. which is ironic. im transgender #though granted ive put off getting on that list for that exact reason. im scared of transitioning #like the moment im comfortably settled here and have a job and/or disability benefits. all of this will just be embarrassing #something to look back on and laugh. and then cry because i still miss my cat.

[snekdood]

I think some of yall are just gonna have to accept that vegans have a different philosophy than you.

#YOU might think its respectful to eat animals or whatever the fuck #but like i dont and cant bring myself to. sorry #IM not about to let that get in the way of being friends w non vegans though . #like im never gonna be like 'killing animals is cool' bc to me it isnt and i dont think theres many reasons to unless you specifically have #to eat it for some reason. im not even a pure vegan. i still eat meat. i just dont see the pleasure in it. #ig i cant help but think about factory farming and the horrible ways animals die. i also dont really know if theres a Good way to kill an #animal just for sustenance. #i think itll be bad no matter what but ig theres *better* ways to do it if you have to #i think yall havw to understand that im literally just some person whos come to this conclusion #i dont have systemic power to change how things are so dont bitch that im taking your meat away when clearly its not going anywhere #yall essentially anti vegans are exhausting. #what i hate is how i say i care about animals lives and then in a defensive immediate retort people try to claim that i dont care about #oppressed humans. as if all vegans are actually just eco fascists who couldnt be assed to give a fuck about minorities lmao #im sorry youve interacted with shitty vegans but i promise theres vegans who just like dont want anyone to be killed if it can be helped #maybe i do actually just care about both of these things at once. ik its shocking #and i promise that me generally supporting ntv and other ppls ability to hunt for whatever environmental justification #isnt mutually exclusive from me thinking its generally not good to eat meat #like it IS possible to believe two things at once #also great news for you! i dont have control over you and your life. so whatever i say could fundementally not effect you #and no. thinking an action is bad doesnt mean i think anyone who hunts is a Bad Person. i also cant make them stop either #i just have personal feelings on the matter #sorta like how your friend has a preference for a tv show you find problematic and you've vented your frutrations w it #but they still love the show anyways and you wouldnt take that away from them bc a. you cant and b. it doesnt effect our friendship enough #for me to feel the need to try to encourage them to not watch it...? #the totally wacky and wild and unique unheard of thing abt me is that i dont need to control people who want to live a different life #even if i dont think its entirely cool whatever it is they do #obviously if theyre a racist or something i wont tolerate that but yeah #this is MY path in life. these are MY beliefs. i dont need you to follow in my footsteps. #im not ur guru lol #im not pushing for any policies. i dont have a plan to *make* everyone vegan. im just sharing my thoughts.

[cinnabeat]

ive been thinking about this for days but when i was a kid i read mrs frisby and the rats of nimh and that book fascinated me so much like the idea of rat society and just how sophisticated everything was and to this day ill just randomly remember the rat society and just be absolutely floored

#feel like reading it again actually #i had this fourth grade ela textbook u know that had short stories and experts and i used to read it all the time #and it had one excerpt from mrs frisby when shes coming back in the evening from getting her kids medicine #and it always really fascinated me. like i read this before i was in fourth grade and i always specifically remember the little paper packet #packets she was given by the doctor mouse #ive always been into like. cottage/farming life like that like its so. like its such a different world from how i live and theyre mice? idk #its fascinating #anyways so then j discovered that we actually had the full length novel for some reason so i read the whole thing and just. the lore?? the w #way these rats built a society? i keep saying it but literally so fascinating #they had electricity and everything they had a carpeted library!! like tiny little rat books bro what!! #and then when i got to fourth grade and i skimmed the ela tectbook bc i was aware mrs frisby should be in the curriculum #and i got so excited when i saw it in the textbook but not too excited bc i know teachers skip certain things #so i got even more excited when we actually read and studied it #i dont remember what we discussed back then and frankly i couldnt tell you about any of like. themes and meanings or anything about the nov #the novel bc i literally do not care about that it was always about how these rats and mice lived that i was interested in #idk what got me started on mrs fridby but i honestly havent stopped thinking about it for a uple days now lmao #michi tag

[hearties-circus]

Yknow I think sometimes ocelot is. Like horribly lonely to the point where he sets out a pen and paper and almost begs the ghost thats been haunting him the last 40 years to just talk to him write anything please

#gamer txt. #mgs #even if its just to tell him hes an idiot like he suspects or that the ghost is dissapointed in him or that he deserves this #he justs wants to hear anything from them #but the boss cant interact with the physical world at all. she tries so hard but it doesnt work #the only thing she can do is influence ocelots emotions and thats not even intentional #he'd get all mopey and then tell himself to suck it up. it was stupid idea anyway but then he's hit with this soul crushing anguish that - #-completely knocks him on his ass and while he's tryna stop himself from crying about it he realises that maybe. the ghost really cant talk #they're clearly upset about it too so maybe whoever is stuck haunting him is also really lonely and just wants to communicate but cant #he couldnt possibly know his importance to her but i think he gets that its someone who cares about him for some reason #even if they had no reason to care abt while they were alive they clearly care abt him after living his life with him and realising things

[gopissbepis]

#my boo is an aries #aries x libra was always gonna be intense but i don't want the end to be dramatic #in all honesty i dont want to go through the end of it at all but it has to come at some point #i dont think either of us are fulfilled in this relationship #but for some reason neither of us ever fuck off for long #before we come back to eachother again #its been three fucking years and its exactly like it was six months in #he was having a go at me because i said i didnt think we are in a position to have a baby yet and ima wait til im married to pip another out #apparently hes wasting his time if thats the case #like ok bye if youre not in it for the long run why would u even knowingly bring a child in to that situation #i stilll feel so guilty that i couldnt give my daughter a 2 parent upbringing #im still not sure it wss the right thing to do #for my own sanity i know i couldnt keep living like i was but for my bb she would have had everything she could ever have wanted #ive made our lives harder by having to be true to myself and i love being able to live authentically and not having to pretwnd to be someone #that im not #idk im stonef and lost my train of thought wnd cant read that tag back now so idk lifes just complicated isnt it #i feel like no matter what choices you make theyre always gonna hurt a little #one way or the other #its gonna hurt #aaa

[yamikawas]

i will always love you, no matter what you go through. i love you so so much <3

- yoomtah !

AAAAAAAAAJDHDHHFJDJFKD YOOMIE MY BELOVED ;///;........................THANK U I'LL ALWAYS LOVE U TOO OK ILL BE WITH U FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER NO MATTER HOW MY BRAIN GETS U ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL BETTER I LOVE U SO MUCH MY YOOMIE<3<3<3<3<33<33333<<3<<33<3<3<33<3<33<3<3<3<3

#I CANT HELP BUT LOSE MY MIND IN RESPONSE TO A MESSAGE FROM MY BELOVED AWAWAWAWAWAWA #SHE IS SO<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<33I LOVE HER SO MUCH<3<3<3<3<3<<<3333<3<<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3 #SHE MEANS SO MUCH TO ME SHES LITERALLY EVERYTHING I RLLY DONT KNOW WHAT ID DO WITHOUT HER #I JUST WANT TO HOLD HER TIGHT AND NEVER LET HER GO I COULDNT BEAR TO LET HER GO EVER OK #LITERALLY.SHE HAS GOT ME THROUGH SO MUCH INCLUDING MY BRAIN BEING BAD RECENTLY I OWE HER SO MUCH #I HOPE SHE KNOWS HOW MUCH SHES DONE FOR ME AND HOW IMPORTANT SHE IS TO ME BC SHE LITERALLY IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING #I WANNA JUST HUG HER TIGHT AND BURY MY FACE INTO HER HAIR AND TELL HER HOW MUCH I LOVE HER AND HOW MUCH SHE MEANS TO ME #YOOMTAH MY BELOVED EVER I RLLY DONT KNOW WHAT ID DO WITHOUT HER I CANT PICTURE MY LIFE WITHOUT HER AT ALL #SORRY JUST HEARING HER SAY THAT SHE LOVES ME NO MATTER WHAT I GO THROUGH HAS ME A LITTLE MORE EMOTIONAL THAN I SHOULD BE #SHES SO.MY EVERYTHING💓💜💛🌈💕⚠️💗❣💕💞💋💚🌩🌻👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩💚💫💞💫💟💙💕🌈🌠💘🧡🌼💋🌻🍋💛⚡💖🌩💝⚠️💌💓❣✨❤💕💗💜❤💙💞💋🌈💫🌩💌 #YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH......................I JUST NEED TO BE WITH HER FOREVER IM GONNA GO INSANE #LITERALLY NO ONE ELSE COULD NEED HER THE WAY I DO SHES MY PURPOSE MY REASON TO LIVE EVERYTHING.NO ONE ELSE COULD LOVE HER THE WAY I DO #I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HER MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE EVER WILL BC IM THE ONLY ONE WHO LOVES HER SO MUCH THEY WOULD KILL AND DIE FOR HER #GOD.ITS CRAZY HOW SHE ALWAYS MAKES ME FEEL BETTER NO MATTER WHAT LIKE.SHE JUST HAS SUCH A POSITIVE EFFECT ON ME ITS CRAZY #LIKE NO MATTER HOW HORRIBLE I FEEL OR HOW MUCH I HATE MYSELF IF I JUST TALK ABT HER ENOUGH I'LL BE HAPPY AGAIN #SHE I S MY HAPPINESS NOTHING HAS EVER MADE ME FEEL HAPPY THE WAY SHE DOES ITS AMAZING I NEVER WANT TO LET GO OF HER FOR ANYTHING #I DONT KNOW WHAT ID DO WITHOUT HER ID DIE WITHOUT HER I SWEAR I COULD NEVER LIVE WITHOUT HER I NEED TO BE WITH HER FOREVER AND EVER #I AM NEVER LETTING HER GO FOR ANYTHING I CANT LET GO OF HER I NEED HER SO MUCH I CANT LET ANYTHING OR ANYONE TAKE HER FROM ME OK #GOD.I NEED HER SO MUCH.MORE THAN IVE EVER NEEDED ANYTHING ELSE #MORE THAN AIR OR FOOD OR WATER OR ANYTHING NOTHING ELSE MATTERS I NEED H E R ONLY HER SHE IS E V E R Y T H I N G #I LITERALLY CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER.IM GOING TO DIE WITHOUT HER #I WANT TO CLING TO HER AND BREATHE HER IN AND FEEL ALIVE AGAIN #SHE MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE #SHE IS MY LIFE #SHE IS EVERYTHING #YOOMTAH IS EVERYTHING.

[hannieehaee]

18+ / mdi

content: idol!mingyu x idol!reader, 97 liner reader, best friends to lovers, jealousy, possessiveness, reader's got bitches, afab reader, smut, dry humping, oral (f receiving), penetrative sex, very ambiguous description of what position they're in so pls go crazy with ur imagination, etc.

part 2

wc: 2730

a/n: thank u to the person that requested this i live for idol ausshsks also this isnt connected to my other idol!mingyu fics just fyi <3

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mingyu couldnt stand the sight in front of him anymore. he knew jungkook was charming, but for him to blatantly flirt with you in front of him was just going too far for his liking.

admittedly, mingyu knew that most of the other 97 liners had a bit of a thing for you, but it was common knowledge that mingyu had been pining for you for the longest time. there was an unspoken agreement; you were his. you'd been best friends basically since debuting, it was only fair that he got to have you over all your other friends.

except you were blissfully unaware of his feelings. you'd known each other for so long that you now chalked up his flirting to just a silly inside joke between the two of you. no matter how many advancements he made, you'd act none the wiser and keep him on a tight hold in the friend zone. yes, mingyu knew the friend zone wasn't a real thing. he understood women! but there was no better way to describe his current predicament. now he had to watch one of his best friends flirt with the love of his life. the only silver lining in all this was that you never flirted back. whether it be jaehyun paying for your meal, or yugyeom bringing you a drink in the morning, you never took it as anything further than friendship.

except right now you seemed to be ... reciprocating? was that your hand on jungkook's chest? what was happening right now? you never showed interest in jungkook. why were you now dangling a flirtatious smile right in front of mingyu's face? and not directed at him?

he could only sit there and watch you for so long until he grew tired of it. he wasn't ready to drag you away and profess his feelings for you just yet, but his emotions got the best of him, marching towards you as he grabbed your arm and walked you to a more secluded area, leaving jungkook to lightheartedly chuckle at his friend's possessive nature over you.

yes, jungkook might've had a thing for you before, but truly all he had wanted was to just provoke mingyu. he knew you werent actually flirting back but just playing along with him - as a friend, of course. and it seemed to have worked, as mingyu was now dragging a very unsuspecting you away as you followed with no questions asked.

mingyu only let go of you when you were finally alone, with a closed door to separate you from any possible intruders. he didn't say anything at first, wanting to calm himself down from his exasperated state before speaking up. he also had to think of an excuse as to why he took you away from jungkook just now.

"mingyu? what the hell was that?", okay, seemed like you didn't have the patience to wait for him. understandable.

"i- just ... why-why were you flirting with him?"

"what? i wasnt flirting. thats just how we talk to each other, you know that. you're the same way!"

"oh yeah? with your hand on his chest?", he chuckled bitterly. okay, he was taking this a little too personal. but how couldnt he? he'd been waiting for you to look his way all this years and instead you turn to his friend? any time he flirted with you you scolded him or just brushed him off, but you reciprocated his friend? this was nothing short of unfair in mingyu's eyes.

"mingyu. don't be so dramatic. it doesnt mean anything."

"okay, but what if it means something to me?"

"what? what do you mean?"

you were confused. and with good reason. despite what everyone else believed, he had been quite good at hiding his feelings from you. yeah, sure, he flirted with you and acted overly affectionate, but that was his just his personality. as you had just said, he was the same way with everyone. but what you hadnt known was that he always meant it when it came to you. his flirtatious advances? his words of affection? the longing gazes? they were all purposeful and completely sincere. and now he was just too fed up. he had waited too long, had watched from the sidelines as you went through any and every relationship and situationship that headed your way. seeing you blatantly flirt with jungkook had been more than enough to make him finally snap into action.

"do you really not see it?"

"see what?"

he gave you a sad smile, "the way i look at you. the way i touch you. the way i can never stay away for too long ... how much i like you."

"gyu, what? i-" you stared dumbfounded at him, attempting to question him, but he interrupted you in order to continue the speech that his heart was demanding him to deliver.

"its been so many years since- ive liked you since the moment we met. i thought it was obvious. i mean, all the guys know about it," he chuckled sadly before continuing, "i guess its hard to tell with all the other boys chasing after you. you have your options open. i'm sorry. i don't mean to push this on you. just seeing you with jungkook made me so- god. i just couldnt watch it. not with him. ive seen you through all your boyfriends, but i just cant stand the sight of you with someone else anymore, i-"

thats as far as he got when you tackled him. or, well, tried to. he was pretty big after all.

you jumped him, pulling his face to yours to plant a kiss on him, refusing to separate even when he yelped in surprise. it only took a few seconds for him to catch up, holding you in his arms as he returned the kiss enthusiastically, moaning against your mouth at the feeling.

the two of you kissed for a bit, up until you pulled away from him, chuckling against him when he whined and followed your lips with his, only for you to pat him away as you giggled at him.

"gyu ... i had no idea. you shouldve told me. ive liked you too. since we met, i mean," you flashed him a shy smile at your revelation.

"y-you have?!"

"yes, gyu. how can i not? you're so ... you," you neared him once more as you said this, your eyes never leaving his. he felt butterflies in his stomach at the way you were looking at him. there was so much adoration in your eyes. it was reminiscent of the way he looked at you whenever you werent watching.

he closed the gap between you again, this time simply holding you in his arms, caressing you softly as he laughed at the situation. he wasnt sure how to proceed now that he had this new information, but he felt himself being drawn closer to you as you both smiled fondly at each other. it was a very tender moment, really. not many words needed to be exchanged to convey how you two were feeling.

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the juxtaposition was funny, really. you had just been tenderly exchanging words of affirmation as you revealed your crushes to each other, and now you were, well, not being quite as tender anymore.

it was only to be expected, specially for mingyu. he insisted that even if you had liked him back, he had pined after you even more. even after a back and forth about it, he wouldnt let go, saying he lived day and night thinking about you, and he had to compete with all his friends who also liked you (but not as much as him, of course).

the only moment in which you conceded was when mingyu had trapped you under his arms, only letting go to get on his knees in front of you, lifting the skirt of your dress in order to caress your thighs and pepper kisses on them before getting to work.

"g-gyu ..." the desperate swipes of his tongue had you lightheaded, your body limp against the wall while he knelt in front of you.

"always wanted to taste you ... fuck. you have no idea how long i waited for this," he could tell his words were affecting you as he felt you shove his head even closer to your cunt.

"yes ... fuck. ride my face, baby. want you to gush on my tongue," he was feeding off your cries and whines above him. even if he couldnt see you due to his head being quite literally hidden under your skirt, he could feel and hear all the effects he had on your body. it made an animalistic side of his come out.

he was beginning to feel lightheaded, growing extremely aroused at the sound of your voice and the feel of your hands burying themselves in his hair as you pushed up the skirt to get it out of the way, wanting direct contact with him. when he finally looked up, he truly lost his mind. the beautiful girl he had pined over for years; the girl of his dreams, had her head thrown back against the wall, practically crying at the feeling of his tongue licking at your folds. his favorite, however, was the way you mewled his name once he decided to play with your swollen bud, lightly tugging it between his teeth while he sucked and sucked.

"oh ... gyu ... please. you feel so .. ah! you're gonna make me come ..."

"'n im gonna lick it all up, baby. gonna lick it up and then im gonna bend you over the table and fill you up. yeah? gotta be fair, ba-fuck, gotta give you something too," mingyu adored how his threats to pound into you had your walls pulse against his tongue, growing drunk on the thought that you wanted him just as bad as he did you.

nothing compared to the sound of your cries as you came, with your hands desperately shoving his face into your cunt as you ground against him, no shame in the depravity of your actions. he adored how badly you wanted him, having no control of your movements as you cried and cried at the feeling of his tongue continuing to probe at you even through your orgasm.

when he got up, he knew his face mustve been a complete mess; hair pulled at all angles and chin dripping with your juices. you didn't seem to care, though, as your doe eyes looked into his own before pulling him towards you for a deep kiss. he couldnt help but groan into your mouth at the thought of you tasting yourself in his tongue. your pretty mewls of pleasure at him did not help in the least. without knowing, he had begun to grind his hardened length against your clothed core, making you become even louder in the process.

"y-you're so big. fuck ..." god, the simple thought of impaling you with his cock had him thanking all the gods for whatever it was that got him to this point.

he had thought about you every lonely night. every time he found himself alone in his various hotel rooms, dick in hand as he touched himself to completion. he'd felt bad about it at first, when you had barely become friends, but over the years he'd found he just wasnt able to help himself. he'd conjure up a pretty image in his head. you in a pretty little number just for him, lace covering your skin as he caressed every curve of your body, making you sigh against him with that pretty voice of yours. other times, however, his mind would be plagued with darker thoughts; thoughts of throwing you on the bed as he hammered his length into your cunt, not stopping even as you cried over the stimulation. and now he was here, with your beautiful eyes staring up at him, waiting for him to finally be proactive and make you his.

"gunna fuck you now, baby. okay? shit. been wanting you so fucking bad, you have no idea," he knew he wasnt being too coherent, but he just needed to get the point across. he could worry about tender love-making later into the relationship (because yes, he was going to make you officially his after finally getting his load deeply settled in your cunt), but now all he wanted was your tight walls around him, allowing him no room to breathe as you strangled his cock.

and strangle him you did. there had been no greater pleasure in mingyu's life than the moment his cock finally made its way through the tightness of your pussy. he was pretty sure anyone in the near vicinity couldve heard his loud groan of pleasure at the feeling of his dick being asphyxiated by your cunt, not even allowing him to move. the sight before him was one to behold. your pretty face in the most pleasurable state imaginable. your soft lips open while your eyes remained closed, brows furrowed at the feeling of his dick breaking through your walls.

"baby ... you're so fucking tight, my fucking god ..." he was completely out of breath, barely able to think as he pounded into you.

"did you know? all these years? how badly i wanted you? how i thought of you every single night?" he needed you to know. needed you to understand how much he'd longed for you, "my beautiful girl ... all mine now. none of them can have you .. never letting y-shit .. never letting you go."

"please ... want you so bad gyu ..." you didnt need to say much to get him spiraling, grabbing more tightly onto your hips as he pushed himself even deeper, wanting to increase the volume of your cries for me.

"yeah? made me wait so long for you, baby. couldve had you in bed every night. couldve kept you warm n taken care of you. couldve filled you up with cock every day," but the wasted time didnt matter now that he had you to his full disposition, knowing no one else would ever have you in the way he did now.

he fucked you with so much passion that you were unable to produce any words other than cries of his name. this filled him with pride, knowing your mind was empty of any thoughts that were not of him. none of your mutual friends could ever have you now. not jaehyun, not yugyeom, not dongmin. and not jungkook. you were now mingyu's, and he'd let everyone know.

once he finally filled you up with his load, marking you as his, he picked you up, taking you to the nearest bathroom in order to help clean up between your thighs. you both chuckled shyly at the situation, with the intensity having now died down a bit. he was a bit embarrassed by his possessive display now, but was also thankful of his jealous tendencies since they'd finally led him into your arms.

"gyu-"

"i love you," he interrupted you, eyes glued to yours with adoration behind them, "sorry, i just ... ive been in love with you since we met. just need you to know that. this wasnt some fluke or stupid jealousy. well, maybe some jealousy, but i truly do love you. be mine? please?," he hoped you'd take some pity on him. i mean, you did say that you liked him back, but he wanted love. he wanted you to feel emotions as strong as his. he needed you to be in love with him, to never look at another man, specially not jungk-

"i love you too," you responded, interrupting his internal rambling as you held onto his hands, "i wish you told me earlier. i thought i was going insane."

"you?! i had to watch all the guys flirt with you on the daily!"

"then you shouldve done something about it!"

"oh?", was that a challenge?, "want me to do something about it, baby? i'll show you," and with that, he picked you back up, taking you with him as he explained in detail how you'd have to go on a short hiatus while he made you his over and over again, refusing to let you leave his side for even one second. he had too much time to make up for.

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[scribbles-ink]

im just thinking what if mike schmidt is the son of the movie's equivalent of henry emily. i had this thought on the way home from the movie at like. 10 pm so at the time it was incoherrent, but im going to expand on it here.

point 1- garrett played a similar role to charlie emily, in that despite being watched over they were both killed by william afton.

p2- in the flashbacks, its very obvious that the entire family is in a place away from society. they're literally in a forest. it wouldn't make sense for william of all people to be there if he wasn't close to the family.

p3- the books and the game mirror eachother, so there is a chance that schmidt could be another fake name, one william recognized because, again, he was a family friend.

p4-what happens when your kid goes missing? idk probaly witness protection or an urge to seperate yourself from the incident, both reasons for the name change.

p5-(kinds joke reason) abby rhymes with charlie and looks similar to her (brown hair, brown eyes)

p6-i argue that abby also took on the role of the puppet/charlie at the end of the movie. she didn't necessarily give them life, not like what was done in the game, she shoeed them how they died. she reminded the children of the life they had before, and of who really took it. by doing that, in a way, she gave them that life back. she gave them their real personality back, one not influenced by william. she cut them from his influence, she gave them the gift (the picture) and it gave them life (their memories)

p7- in the movie, mike says his father 'couldnt deal with it' and left after his mother died. yk what that sounds similar to? book henry emily killing himself in despair. maybe mike's dad is alive maybe he's dead, we dont know. but it is similar enough, an act of completely removing himself from the equation.

p8-book henry has a sister named jen, yk what name that sounds like? jane. who was mike and abby's aunt, and we dont know which parent she was related to.

p9-'but wouldn't mike know about the pizzaria if william was a family friend?' honestly, probably. but theres also a high chance that he wouldnt. if the family lived in nebraska, (which im pretty sure they did) they wouldn't have a need to go to utah, not even for a friend's restaurant. sure, he might know that his dad's friend had a restaurant, but not that it had animatronics or anything. the family probaly moved to utah after garrett's disappearance and after freddy's closed down.

p10-'wouldn't mike know vanessa? theyre similar in age' if they didnt live in the same state, probaly not. william in the movie was a, suprise suprise, shitty father, even foregoing the stabbing of his kid. i doubt hed care enough to take her with him on like. a short out of state trip.

p11(edit)- in the books aunt jane was killed by evil charlie to get to charlie, yk what that sounds like? the animatronics killing aunt jen to get to charlie

p12(edit)-the words at the end of the movie say 'come find me' and the music playong at the end is the puppets song so i think garrett is the puppet which is. again. an emily thing

p13(edit)- mikes dad looks like a mechanic shown in the training videos [cough henry emily cough]

if i think of anything else ill add it but anywys this is why i think the schmidts in the movie are the emilys equivalent. also check out the notes on this post because theres a lot of replies n reblogs that support my theory

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