#i did try but it wasnt working the way i wanted it to

[where-does-the-heart-lie]

Revolutionary Army Punk AU

Ft: Luffy (not punk)

Steampunk is cool but i think just straight up punk would be cooler. I just think what they stand for lines up a lot better

Design notes:

I did some research and talked to a punk friend of mine for these as i am not a punk, myself, and I dont want to look like a poser. I think i did a really good job translating them and i want to explain my thoughts!

Sabo was first, of course.

I not only wanted to make the characters punk, but i also wanted to crank their designs up about 20 notches, so i gave Sabo’s scar one hell of an upgrade. In this version I tried to make it very clear that that cannon ball hit him head-on. I think it works really well with his punk vibes because under-cuts and shaved parts of the head in general are very popular in punk culture.

I largely tried to keep the silhouettes the same with this au, and It was really easy to keep it with Sabo because of the fact that he already has a lot of design elements that translate well to punk. His big pants into tall boots were perfect to translate, crust pants and steel toed boots fits him well. Trench coats arent a staple in Punk, but i couldnt take the coats away from him… him or Belo. They deserve it…

I threw away his cravat for a choker, i replaced his vest with a red tank top and his undershirt for fishnets, Patches up the wazoo, he looks very cool.

Belo Betty was next, she was super easy to translate. She’s already in the punk spirit with her tits out, we love to see it. Her hat was really difficult to translate, along with all the other hats, but a red knitted hat that has those two points cuz it’s essentially a scarf sewed together looks nice on her.

My punk friend suggested i give her a bunch of nets and harnesses and i really agreed that was her style, so i gave her red tie to Morley, slapped some harnesses on her and just overall just turned her sexy up like 50 notches. I think i was clever how i adapted her striped stockings here with how they have runs in them.

Karasu is almost the exact same. I just threw out his dinky little cravat and gave him a bandana and harness. I also gave him piercings. That’s the only difference. In the words of my Punk friend “hes naked and wearing a spiked mask, He can hang���

Speaking of what my punk friend said, he said that Lindbergh would get “demolished” in the pit, and that he looks like he’s scared of bees. The consensus was that he couldn’t hang. But also i still had to make him punk, so then he suggested CBGB punks:

Redneck, bluegrass, southern american punks. I was really in a rut with his design, I didn’t know what to do to keep the silhouette of his backpack. But everything changed when I chance got the idea of a guitar. And then everything flowed from there

Morley was really really fun. Punk friend suggested i make him Pop Punk, inspired by this pic

Mainly Lindsey way with this plaid skirt and tie

He was so so fun to draw, i love his fucked up eyes.

For dragon, i didnt change much at all, even though it’s only his bust that’s shown. Imagine everything is the same, except now he has piercings. Dragon isnt concerned with the punk fashion, but the punk cause.

For Luffy, I wasnt trying to make him punk, but he felt a bit plain looking like base Luffy next to punk Sabo, so i just did the “turn design up 20 notches”, and just gave him a more visibly tattered hat, bangles and waist beads.

That’s about it! Ive been getting a lot of comments and asks lately saying that you guys like when i go on my design explanations, and i realized that i didnt do that for the last few AU’s, so i thought id type this up :)

Thank you for reading!

#my art #one piece #sabo #monkey d. luffy #asl brothers #sabo the revolutionary #revolutionary army #belo betty #op ​Morley #lindbergh op #monkey d dragon #op dragon #punk au #asl au #op karasu

[qoppybirdie]

it the mgs2 day

#sorry i reuploaded #accidentally posted the video version instead of gif #mgs #mgs2 #metal gear solid 2 #metal gear solid #mgs fanart #metal gear solid fanart #solid snake #mgs raiden #mgs rosemary #revolver ocelot #colonel campbell #olga gurlukovich #solidus snake #i feel bad i didnt draw rairose.. #i did try but it wasnt working the way i wanted it to #anyways happy april 30th #happy beeg shell #wonderful holidays #qopphy art

[nibbelraz]

Does CQM sect knows how long SQH has worked for MBJ? YQY let's SQH come back (presumably because he is that good at his job?) but do they ever interrogate him? Do they have any idea that SQH has been working for MBJ for years? I just find it funny that from their perspective SQH betrayed them but in a way you could argue that SQH was never loyal to the sect. Yes, he was already part of the sect, but he was an outer disciple and while they don't know, SQH already knew he would one day work for MBJ. While he feared for his life he probably had already in his head that he would be loyal to Mobei, so he entered the sect knowing he would spy for him. From the beginning he joined the sect with dishonest notions. But other than SQQ does any other Peak Lord has any idea about this? Because honestly, how fucking scary and impressive that SQH did this 😂

I don't think it's ever stated how long they knew about Shang Qinghua being a traitor (My memory is absolutely horrible, so I could be wrong) However im sure they can pinpoint the time a demon killed a lot of disciples with Shang Qinghua being the only survivor and was missing for some days then they mightve connected the dots to how long he's been a spy for Mobei Jun. I also don't think they interrogate him either, they just kinda let him back in after all the shit that went down

Looking back into the novel, Yue Qingyuan does let him back but there really was no interrogation from what I can find

So YEAH HE REALLY JUST MANAGED TO GET AWAY WITH IT

#anyone that remembers more about the book and would like to add on please do #Ah i forgot a lot of things even if Qinghua is my favorite #when i have more time i want to re read svsss #svsss #shang qinghua #honestly though from what i remember i know qi qingqi wanted to beat his ass but i dont know if there wss any interrogation #also Shang Qinghua knew his chances he was better off being 100 percent loyal to mobei then siding with hos sect especially knowing the #og's ending so he had to try extra hard to be on Mobeis side all the way #Also even if he wasnt absolutely loyal to his sect he still did a shitton of work for them #ah but a spy would do that too i guess #i love Sqh so much #nib text #ask

[blaithnne]

my timephoon hot take is that the episode was literally fine, it's the episodes that came AFTER it that fucked things up

#the final confrontation where louie and della say that shit to eachother? peak televesion #the next episodes shouldve. yk. resolved that #but by having the premise be “the entire family is goign to disneyland and leaving louie behind” uh...? #i get what they were going for but they fumbled so hard #timephoon introduces a lot of conflicts that the next episodes SHOULD have resolved #but they didn't. at least not well #like della and louie should've had a proper conversation #and also i dont think della was wrong for steppin in at the end of timephoon like that was warranted #her wording and execution? far from perfect #but she's trying #also. timphoon was fine yes but it could have been way better still #i would have preffered it if they went more in depth about the struggles of motherhood and how beakley and della both felt about it #give me beakley being vulnerable and opening up about how hard its been raising webby alone and how she GETS it #she gets not knowing what to do #she was a spy #she has no idea how to be soft and motherly but she's learned and she's trying and she did it alone #and she doesn't want della to be as alone as she was so she tries to help #but she's a certified grizzled ex spy so fuck if she knows how to be gentle about it #so it just makes della MORE insecur because beakley seems to have it all together #and i wish there was a scene where they could talk to eachother and beakley could admit that she doesn't #she's made mistakes she's fucked up but she's trying and aren't they all? #but yeah. for what timephoon was #it wasn't bad #but the following episodes fumbled #i forget if it was in timephoon or next erpisode were we got della telling louie to shape up or he couldn't be part of the family #like again that was BAD! BUT #it wuld have worked if the show adressed and had her learn from it #and showed that it wasnt out of malice its because she was doing her best! #but they didn't #they were...weird with it

[arsenicflame]

something something everything izzy has always done has been for ed, its just that now we get to see him act in ways that are actually in eds best interests, rather than izzy trying to keep him safe whatever the costs

#i just!!!! #im not saying what he did in s1 was right but i am saying it was all for ed it was always for ed #to his own detriment sometimes!!!! do you think a notorious pirate would be making deals with the navy if he wasnt desperate???? #i want to see izzy learn who he loves!!!! to see him realise that ed is hurt and hurting + not in a good place and he isnt better like this! #that in trying to keep ed safe he has doomed him to recklessness and a lack of care for his life! #that a better way is to find stede; to bring him back to help ed #and to /train/ stede! to make him better at being a pirate!!!!!!! #so ed can be happy with stede but stede can protect himself! protect them! not be a risk to eds life because hes playing pirates without #understanding the consequences!!!!! #i want izzy to work with stede BECAUSE he loves ed!!!! #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #nyxtalks #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #izzy hands #israel hands #still taking damage btw

[skyartworkzzz]

Have you ever wanted to draw something but you fought due to your skill level at the time you decide not to do it

I dont think Ive ever given up on drawing smtng cuz I didnt have the skill level tbh............ 🤔

There are many wips I still need to get done with, but not cuz I dont think Im good enough, and yes cuz its a lot of work to do IUASDNJAMKSD I TEND TO GET A LIL TOO AMBITIOUS WITH WHAT I DRAW-

Honestly ever since I learned to accept the mindset of "this may look like trash now but its fine, Ill just redraw it in the future, at least get this out of my system" my art has gotten much better and enjoyable to my eyes!

Perfectionism be damned, as long as I get to illustrate my ideas through Im fine 😌

#I say as if Im still not a perfectionist IUSJMASKDLAD #ITS A PROCESS WE ARE WORKING ON IT but at least now I dont beat myself up over lil details #For u to see I stopped giving a shit bout clean lineart and just render what would be considered the sketches now! #BUT YEAH I never stopped drawing cuz I wasnt good enough #I simply want to express myself however I can #and usually when I have an idea in mind I try to get as close to it as possible cuz any other way wouldnt feel right to me x'D #It may look like shit now but at least I did it </3

[orcelito]

As for my post this morning. If anyone was worried. Me personally I'm okay (I guess) but my dad's in the hospital and things r still very up in the air. So.

#speculation nation #bracing myself for the possibility of Major Grief.....2!!!! #well actualy more like 3 or 4 or 5 (lol lol lol) #but likely the worst one bc it's. my dad. that's my dad. #i left work early to visit him at the hospital. hes stable rn at least (he wasnt this morning) #he wasnt conscious though. and i really really hope he ends up okay #but. i still saw my dad unconscious in a hospital bed hooked up to like a million tubes and #thats my dad. Thats my Dad. #im really trying to not do my processing until after i know for sure how things are gonna go #dont wanna start grieving until after he's officially gone #so im trying not to think about it. but it's still... yeah. unpleasant. #and theres a part of me thats so so resentful. if i have to have a dead parent why would it be the Good one? #take my fucking mom instead. hell my life would even be BETTER without her. horrible as that is to say. #but it's my dad. he's not perfect. he has his flaws. but he's still tried in a way she never ever did. #seeing him like that makes me feel so... small. makes me remember being picked up by him. #makes me remember riding on the back of his harley as a tiny little 10 year old with a helmet that was giant on me #we'll hope for the best. we'll hope for a recovery. even if not a full recovery. i just want to have my dad. #sorry. this is probably too real for my tumblr dot com. it's just been... a lot today. #negative/ #death/ #hospitals ment/ #idfk. sorry

[spinspoon]

gregory and cassie are friends they are BESTIES gregory did NOT betray cassie the entire thing was a TRAP end post

#fnaf #fnaf spoilers #okay im gonna. just step away from the fandom for a while bc the amount of people bashing tf out of gregory is insane and quite frankly #ridiculous #like i completely understand because the ending was really really sad and awful and im just as upset about it as the next person #and its probably bc they want someone to blame but people are COMPLETELY skimming over the lots of evidence that it wasnt him AT ALL #people in this fandom will literally romanticize the literal child murderer but the second a child does something remotely morally grey or #something (or people ASSUME they did something) its attack on sight #like dude #im just ughhhh #and the people saying “but he destroyed the animatronics!” MY GUY THEY WERE TRYING LITERALLY KILL HIM 😭 #sorry i know im getting way more worked over this than i should but its just frustrating that people only ever look at things through #a black and white lens #i hate when people wildly mischaracterize characters #spinspoon speaks

[toastsnaffler]

ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.

#just got home and went to put my shit away but my flatmate was in the kitchen and i got suddenly so mad i had to walk back out #not going to do or say anything while im this upset. i need to be a lot calmer before i can even be in the same room as her #like okay. so originally it was just the two of them getting drinks and theyd rather it was just them bc i dont drink. thats cool #it wouldve been difficult for me to join them after work bc travel. and ik theyd done this before just the 2 of them and had fun #i can fully respect that its why i said no and stuck by that decision when she asked again #but to not mention she was taking the day off work and btw i just found out that BOTH of our other old flatmates joined in too #to not mention that they were travelling that entire distance and that it wasnt just drinks it was a whole day out together #thats just mean. why wouldnt you tell me that why did none of them say anything. #and the fact they did the exact same fucking thing last weekend too i didnt know about that at all #like i need to stop trying to justify it. im allowed to feel unwanted and excluded bc thats exactly what theyre doing. #im tired of feeling like other people dont want me around. i know i can be difficult and annoying sometimes. but im really not that bad #and we're meant to be friends!!!!!! like youre supposed to like your friends. and want to spend time with them. or at least i do #and yeah everyones annoying sometimes thats just part of being alive ur supposed to tolerate it if ur friends #im allowed to want to feel like im wanted. im allowed to want ppl to care abt me. that shouldnt be too much to ask for #but the overwhelming message im getting at the moment is they dont want me around. and when i am around them i feel like they dont listen #to me and that they dont really care how i feel unless it directly involves them or theyre responsible for it #i feel like they dont see me as a real person that exists. only a version they have in their heads and they base all their assumptions and #decisions off that version instead of directly communicating with me. and constantly avoid me under the guise of 'giving me space' #when im upset or having a difficult time and most need support from other people. i just feel really unseen #and ik that part of how i feel IS exacerbated by insecurity and depression. like they do care to some degree #but also a lot of it is evidenced in the way they act towards me. mainly my roommate bc shes the person i interact with most #and personally i find the most direct ways of showing u care abt someone are showing up for them. and making them feel seen #and maybe not everyone feels the same way. but thats how it works for me anyway #so to repeatedly exclude me and avoid acknowledging that ive been having a difficult time is the opposite of that to me #which is the point im trying to arrive at... sorry ik ive probably said similar things repeatedly the last few weeks but i feel like its #crystallising a bit like this is the core reason why im so sensitive and reactive atm and why i got so upset by it #idk. not tonight bc im still very emotionally raw but maybe tomorrow if im calmer i should explain that i was upset + why to her #i avoid doing that so often when im upset bc i dont think theres much point in having a conversation abt it unless u expect some kind of #resolution from it. or if you want an apology but idrc abt being apologised to the crucial thing is what theyre going to do different #and i love her but shes very resistant to changing her behaviour bc of other ppl being upset by it. and like i said before she has

[oatbugs]

the way my heart sank . lol

#tried to get on a call to study w my gf bc weve both been avoiding stuff we Have to do and its been making us anxious #but esp her bc shes been in this cycle for a while and shes struggling w it a lot . and i love her and i want the best for her #and all my friends r like u should push each other to do better even if its uncomfortable somewhat and i agree #so we were like. yh lets do stuff / get on our work tmrw even tho its anxiety-inducing etc...and then we got on a call #and this is the most like. bored/displeased ive ever heard her sound like she seemed extremely disinterested and even mildly irritated #and it honestly shocked me ??? so i ended the call bc i need to do work and it was making me sad #and im trying to listen to words more than tone but it was so extreme and such a sudden change that it literally wasnt good for me . im so #confused rn . like ik facing tasks youve been avoiding for months causes anxiety ik theres like a mental block around it that makes u not #want to deal w it or become irritated at ppl who suggest that you should #but omg?? it was so weird and like. when i said she was making me sad so i wanted to end the call she was like. ok 😐 #which is a fair response ig but shes never responded to me that way b4...like what is this what is happening... #i want smn who encourages me to move forward and who appreciated that i want them to do the same #instead of staying stagnant and anxious for months. i talked abt this before on here and everyone collectively was like Be More Patient and #work through it w her etc etc (my friends said the exact opposite tho) and i have been Trying To but its making me feel actively . bad. #like. im Afraid. #to bring it up . and then when i finally did say yh lets do smth lets get thru this tgth she just shut down on me somehow #idk what else i can do #i will talk to her abt it later i just need to work rn. i had to get this out of my system first. #shes so sweet and wonderful and supportive usually. but when it comes to thsi topic. im rly shocked idk #i knew she felt bad abt it but i thought she agreed to move through it w me and i didnt expect her to direct it at me #like whatever i said shed give me the coldest ok 😐. like. again nothing inherently wrong w that but when contrasted w #the way she talks to me usually there IS smth wrong it . its jarring and uncomfortable and made me rly upset bc it felt like she was mad at #me for trying to help . idk #UGH whatever ill talk 2 her later i have to do this lecture itll help distract me

[cepheusgalaxy]

Ok Google. How. The. F.UCK Do. You. Get. Gender. E-U-P-H-O-R-I-A.

#swearing #vent #at this point im just straight up upset #people correct themselves around me #i just feel uncomfortable for some reason #i don't feel quite myself #i dont like going out for this reason #either people misgender me and i feel bad #coz everybody sees me as a bloody girl #or they try to gender me right and i feel so bad for some reason #my mom dragged me to a dancing class #a very light and short one #so i wore my binder for the first time #and i was a little 'awn' cuz it wasnt' working like #at all #and then it was a couple's dance #and i dont like being that close to strangers #so i danced with my brother (that part was fun tho) #and on our way home she kept trying to convince me to do the classes again and sign me up even though i had clearly said i didn't want to. #now im home and today i just wasnt feeling it my hair wasnt nice i didnt have nice clothes on nor did prepare myself to go to the damn clas #now i just feel bad

[dapperrokyuu]

Saw a bad Mochijun take, lol.

#dee p thoughts #genuinely dislike vague posts and/but I dont want to put a person on blast but like #''alice became irrelevant'' quite frankly the plot revolved and wouldnt exist in the first place without alice nadfbjkldan #I can get behind the idea that the plot is less EXPLICITLY about her lategame and mochijun frankly wasnt perfect about writing girl #characters (sincerely Id say the PERFECT done ones are only lacie and echo; the rest struggling with either disappearing quickly a la #vanessa and marie relegating to supporting/supplemental to male characters roles a la sharon ada shelly and/or funky in execution a la #lottie lily and alice) but literally. the plot goes from ''who murdered her?'' to ''why did she die that way?'' and that means EVERYTHING #EVERYTHINGGGGGGGGG!!! OZ IS RIGHT HERE!!!!!!!!! frankly should more have happened with her lategame YES!!! but she frankly CANNOT BE #IRRELEVANT EVERRR- lots to think about in terms of the girls' character writing in PH lottie really gets me a ton in terms of what was trie #that I could see and what didnt happen and the mild disappointment and the potential LOTTIE IS SO COOLLLLL but her intro. ack and more- #GENUINELY GOOD I COULD SEE THE ATTEMPT AND WHERE IT WAS TRYING TO GO A TO B MAKES SENSE AND IS ULTIMATELY HEARTFELT BUT THE EXECUTION WAS S #OOOOOO not the best lol. like her a ton cute design could/wished it could be better- lily is perfectly serviceable but relegated to being #cute and reactive after her moment which works but more would be better/coolerrrrr #hated levi. this point is irrelevant but I just remembered him and I loathe his ass. choke.

[yuukei-yikes]

haruka watches takane eat like a dog begging because he knows she will leave at least half its food. sorry i wrote a longer post in the tags.

#but im also attached to the idea after getting her body back takane indulges in food a lot more #i think generally she's just so glad to have it back she stops taking it for granted and is like oh my god EATING #but it goes both ways same with sensory issues #takane is extremely touch/eating/sleeping averse #but suddenly gets this rush and is like i need to binge eat and hold hands NOOOOOOW #<- haruka's match made in heaven moments but he's smart enough to see takane's like overindulging and is like Ok. let's take a break💗 #takane gets so overwhelmed both negatively and positively like #omg im real!?!?!? AUGGHH to OMG IM REAL YIPPEEEEE!!!!!! #also working on not taking cover as ene bc at first she did and accidently drove itself craz #so shes like trying to work through it WITHOUT having to resort getting out of her body bc no problems are gonna get solved that way #haruka helping her through it all AUUUHCGGH #i have this very particular hc cuddling its basically therapy ok. because its all touchy and it helps her. #as much as it sometimes pains her so it can be both negative and positive #haruka is like :3 but if takane is squirming all uncomfortable he's like do we HAVE to do this youre NOT enjoying it at all and she's like #EUGH DONT TALK I CAN FEEL YOU BREATHING AGAINST ME ITS DISGUSTING #and haruka's like man when you scheduled to cuddle 1 hour a day i wasnt imagining this💔💔💔 #BUT WHATEVER HE WANTS TO HELP SO HE HELPS💗 he just doesnt want her to be all uncomfortable but takane understands she needs it #BECAUSE SHE CAN ALSO LOVE IT IT ALL DEPENDS ON HOW SHE'S DOING THAT PARTICULAR DAY #and as time goes on its more and more that she enjoys it and tells haruka he can now touch her without having to ask first:3 #i think at first its exclusively takane who begins any sort of physical contact not bc haruka is shy #but bc he doesnt wanna put her in a weird situation if she doesn't wanna be touched he probably only dares to like hold her hand. ñ #which is her sleeve. bc she covers their hands. lol #BUT TAKANE RLY COMES THRU i think they rly talk abt all this and she rly comes to him like hi. u can touch me without asking if u want. #and haruka's like ?? U MEAN I CAN KISS U WITHOUT ASKING??? AND TAKANES LIKE YEAH!!!and haruka's like OH MY GOD!!!!!!! #hey. sorry for being insane. i have very particular headcanons that i need to share i NEED YOU TO UNDERSTAND ME #did anyone read all these damn tags #god idk why i dont write this as the post itself but then i cant go and copy the tags. what a nightmare #kagevinnie #headcanons

[freebooter4ever]

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#Looking at my childhood art like i was a TERRIBLE artist even by child standards #No wonder my dad was so angry when i decided to try to make art work rather than get a comfy software engineering job #Like child me was DETERMINED to do this i thought it was a given there was no way i wasnt going to be an artist #Pretty much from the age of 4 when i saw beauty and the beast for the first time #But looking back at it as an adult like...i get it #I can see why my dad watched me draw these shitty weird cartoons as a kid and worried that i was going to fail miserably lol #He was partially right :/ #My art is still shit but i keep at it like...like one of those whack a moles #Or the punching bag thing that gets hit and flips right back up #Did i mention i saw my dad briefly on my way up here #He's so disappointed in me i can just see it in how he talks to me or looks at me #But for fucks sake even when i was doing EVERYTHING right and getting my computer science degree and graduating with straight A's #He STill didnt want anything to do with me so its not much of a fucking change #I did notice he asked if i had heard from jordan #And no i dont keep tabs with my brother much #But i was shocked that dad hadn't heard from him in years because last time i saw my dad 2018 ish jordan was the golden child #He was the one who was finally steering his life in the right direction and studying programming #(not at my level but he's a boy so its fine) #And getting a programming job and shit #I guess that golden child status didnt last long kind of like my own lmao #Journal shit #Anyway tldr im feeling real shitty about my art right now \o/

[messenger-cloudcat]

Tubbo always prepares for the worst.

He builds walls, carves bunkers from the ground, digs tunnels, forges weapons, makes and fills a vault with potions and armour and weapons, just in case.

'Trauma response' They say. That he's grown to be that way due to the events that happened to him. Paranoid and over-prepared.

They say that because They only started looking after. After everything that went wrong. Thats when They looked and saw and processed and assumed.

But he's been like this all along.

He was the one who farmed for hours in preparation for L'manburg's revolution. Potions, armour, weapons and emeralds all stored, just in case.

Its was all for naught when Dream destroyed it all and Eret betrayed them.

He was the one who built secret bunkers even before the election. He was the one who showed it to Wilbur and Tommy before the results were announced. He was the one who gave them potions of invisibility and swiftness, just in case.

It was all for naught when Wilbur was shot and killed during his getaway.

During Schlatt's presidency, he kept making things, preparing. Bunkers, tunnels, places to hide, excuses to tell. Just in case.

It was all for naught when he was executed.

Tubbo has always prepared and expected the worst, even when everyone else didn't. Its part of his nature. Yet, despite everything he's done to prepare, all the effort and time and thought he's put into it, its all for naught. He's never prepared enough.

He stopped at one point. Well, not exactly. Its hard to break habits and he's still builds, tunnels, stocks up, just in case, but he came to rely on someone else.

Soon his husband was along side him in his preparedness. Always had a spare set of armour, or tools, or money, or food for Tubbo. Always the small stuff, the stuff to take care of him, of them.

Tubbo was the one who prepared for the worst, the walls, the tunnels, bunkers, the vaults, the nukes. Always the big stuff, the worst case scenario, the just in case.

They relied on each other and maybe it wasn't completely healthy. There was plenty of stuff they didn't tell each other, secrets kept and never mentioned. But they understood the other cared, with each tool passed along and every wall built and every thing gifted 'just in case'.

They loved and cared and prepared. Tubbo felt truly understood. It was nice. Lovely, even.

Tubbo doesn't have a husband anymore.

He wasn't prepared for that.

(It was all for naught)

#writing #tubbo #c!tubbo #ranboo #c!ranboo #l'manburg #manburg #snowchester #honestly i wanted to add a but in the middle about how he learns from the stuff he missed last time #oh? didnt expect someone to betray and try to kill you? swiftness and invisibility and secret bunkers #oh? was hit by a lucky shot since you were in the open? secret tunnels and caverns and sewers and twisting mazes of lies and deciet #oh? was outed as a spy and excecuted? conceal dont feel dont let and show and take back some control #oh? was decimated by the most powerful people on the server; withers tnt and destructive force galore? make something stronger. make nukes #i could go on #but its the way tubbo has always prepared for the worst. hes prepared and learned and prepared again its still never worked out #then he prepared with somebody else. looked towards the future not alone but with someone who would catch him when he fell. #would prepare for the things he did not. and then he died. #and tubbo wasnt prepared for that. but ranboo was. ranboo was banking on tubbo revieving him. bringing him back #but they never communicated on what exactly they were preparing for. they understood the need and want to do so. the itch. the just in case #but they never knew the what. the situation they were looking for. they filled and became each others blindspots #and the agony of finally not being alone and then they die. and once again it was out of yoyr control despite all the things you did to- #-prepare. to prevent. and still he is dead: your son is gona dn you are alone once again #tubbo has resigned himself to never having prepared enough. to always having at least one blindspot which will make it all for naught #yet he still prepares. still mines and tunnels and builds and towers and hoards. still does everything deapite the resignment #y'know. just in case #dream smp #dreamsmp #wilbur soot #tommyinnit #dsmp

[readymades2002]

the way people go to bat for siken on this site is unreal

#i think responding to a teenager emailing you asking about your work with 'your email made me wish i'd died' is kind of evil #the things you say to teenagers stay with them and saying something like that is unbelievably cruel #especially for someone who is apparently a Great Writer though ive yet to see evidence of this #i understand wanting privacy but she emailed him just like. completely standard wikipedia article early life questions #she wasnt trying to be his friend or anything she certainly didnt bring up trauma like the mature tastemakers on tumbler dot net are saying #'people were harsh with me when i was a shitty teenager and it made me learn how to be better' telling a teenager #that them emailing you about an interview for a school paper made you wish a stroke had killed you is beyond harsh i think. a little #did she need to post it? no but when youre a teenager who is presumably interested in the world and in sharing what you know #with other people then this is a way to tell other people 'hey jsyk this author was a dickhead' #so they don't go through the same thing. like. im just #every day i see people on this site being so fucking weird about teenagers...