#i didn’t even know the extent of it

[hamable]

It’s really interesting to me how elusive Kipperlily Copperkettle has been throughout what is now the first half of the season.

She’s the closest thing we have to an identifiable Big Bad. She gets established in episode 3 to be constantly vigilant, capable of eavesdropping on anything and everything.

And then she’s physically MIA (iirc) for seven episodes, barring her scene with the food trucks at the start of episode 7. I think she’s said to be present at the assembly this most recent episode (ep 10) but she doesn’t appear to be an active participant in anything. That inaction is eating away at me… bc I know she’s doing something.

Talk about haunting a narrative… I’m constantly aware of her nonexistence. I’m paranoid. With every episode that we don’t hear from or interact with KLCK, she grows more terrifying to me. Brennan made sure to establish right away that she could be listening at literally any point. Riz tried to keep that at the forefront of his mind initially, but even he let that idea fall to the wayside as stress built up and time passed.

I think we’ve settled into a false sense of security in this respect. I think that at any point Brennan can and will drop a KLCK bomb on us and oh boy it’s gonna be deliciously messy.

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #kipperlilly copperkettle #brennan lee mulligan #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high spoilers #I didn’t even mention that Aylwen is somehow working for her??? #KLCK is clearly pulling threads behind the scenes and I can’t tell how or to what extent and it’s fascinating #yknow that idea that like if someone went back in time to change the past no one would notice bc to them that’s just how it is? #it’s like that to me. she could just a That Bitch at school or she could be the Mastermind behind the curtain and I Don’t Know Which!!!!! #she fascinates me #I want to put specifically her character’s influence under a microscope

[ludaroace]

idk thinking about the birthday party today and just . when ramon first brought up fits birthday ages ago i don’t remember exactly what stream it was but he told ramon that he would be happy with it being just the two of them . it took him a while to agree with ramon about inviting pac .

thinking about how today and how so many people showed up - like bad and phil weren’t even streaming, luzu was going to come but had to leave early, and pac left him a fucking trident of all things when he couldn’t make it . literally everyone online and their eggs showed up . dapper logged in after the party had started to show up !

i genuinely don’t think fit understood until today how much the others on the island actually cared about him . he STILL probably doesn’t fully understand . like he was even telling ramon that they don’t need to take up anyone’s time because they were planning on doing a dungeon (which was actually his party butttt he didn’t know that) DURING it .

idk and i KNOW there were some extremely emotional letters but empanada’s hit hard . thank you for protecting me but let us protect you sometimes too . i hope you feel as loved as you are .

#qsmp #q!fitmc #idk i sorta went crazy when i saw the trident and ik pac proabnly didn’t get it from the dungeon #that both phil and fit deemed too dangerous for now #and pac was there for that convo so his ass KNOWS #but like . the trident was deemed to big of a risk to get at the moment #and it’s fit’s thing to have one . like to the extent where #phil legit even apologized for not being able to get him one for his bday . like that’s how big of a deal it was #IDK AND THIS DOESNT EVEN TOUCH UPON SUNNY OR RAMON’S LETTERS #ik he said to sunny that they ARE family and i hope she understands #they never stopped being it was just a REALLY unfortunate choice of wording #and as the self appointed ramon person i will be going THROUGH that later #anyways shout out empanadas admin for being so good at saying the little of things that drive me wild how do you do this #time and time again she will say one thing that changes my brain chemistry #fitmc tag #sunny tag #ramon tag #empanada tag

[teddy-bear-d]

The awkward but also absolutely hilarious thing about having a roommate that’s well versed in anime but knows nothing of gaming youtube let alone minecraft youtube is that I am a cosplayer and when I go to cosplay my little minecraft guy I have to say, ‘oh yeah, it’s time for kakashi slightly to the left,” or, “off brand bleach dudes twin.”

#ethoslab #hermitcraft #martyn inthelittlewood #mcytblr #mcyt #I love it #but also I found out her extent of knowledge on mc was solely creeper face #that’s it #just the logo #and I was shocked #like I’d been ranting about my minecrafters for 3/4 of a year #and she didn’t even know what SMP or skin meant #it was bad #she just nods along #I think I found this out when trying to gauge how much she knew about mods #which was none #she knew nothing

[makotonaegiunderstander]

something I’ve been thinking abt is how many people think Makoto is immune to despair. I don’t think he is. I think becoming the ultimate Hope was BECAUSE he felt despair. He wouldn’t have fully reached that point without Junko. Makoto becoming such a beacon was his last attempt to avoid completely falling and it wasn’t because he didn’t feel despair, it was because he was too damn stubborn to allow everything to go to waste and he refused to sacrifice his beliefs for someone else’s. His inner monologue tells me he DID experience the same new low the other suvivors did in the final trial, but at the point where he had the choice to give up and die, he looked at the others and he looked at Junko and he couldn’t allow it to happen, not out of self preservation, but because the idea that Junko would have control over their lives made him FURIOUS. and that utter refusal to die kicked in, wether luck or otherwise, and he made the concious effort for one last push while something in him was breaking. He had to be broken in order for the Ultimate Hope to come through so aggressively, bc it could only exist in the face of the Ultimate Despair. He snapped the same way she did, but in the other direction. In what could have been his final moments he chose to embody everything Junko wasn’t, and every single optimistic and luck fueled ideal in him suddenly charged forward and pushed him. It was a combination of the final straw and a choice. Makoto isn’t immune to feeling despair, he’s just too stubborn to fall into it of his own volition. I think that’s why I like that scene in DR3 so much. People were SO SHOCKED Makoto actually fell for the tape, that he actually became despair for a moment. I saw people getting mad or disappointed, saying it was pathetic and Makoto seemed to fall from some sort of pedestal for them. Honestly part of me wonders if that sort of mentality, which clearly people had in universe, affected Makoto a bit. Like he started to see himself as less of a person, subconsciously. Prompting him to take more risks, less self preservation, act way more bold. It seems he has to be reminded a lot not to put himself in danger by his friends, to not do something too reckless. All over the place I would see in regards to that scene either this frivolous ‘oh this was just angst drama with no meaning behind it’ or ‘he can do better than that. he’s so weak’ or ‘come on, there’s no way he’d fall into despair, he’s the Ultimate Hope!’ This kind of mentality, which was kind of ironic considering Ryota was there the entire time saying the same thing and treating Makoto the same way. Like Makoto was superhuman. Like Makoto didn’t feel despair the same way ‘normal people’ did. In a way that was also how Munakata saw Makoto. Makoto stopped being a PERSON to the world when he became Ultimate Hope, he became a concept, a belief system, much the same way Junko ascended beyond herself. But the difference is that treating Makoto that way is the opposite of the reason Makoto became such a representative for hope. He wasn’t doing something no one else could. He was doing something everyone had the chance to, he just… was a little more optimistic, a little more stubborn, a little more ‘gung-ho’ about things. He just took the lead where no one else did, where no one else knew they even COULD in the face of Junko’s unstoppable force. She had overcome the biggest threats and obstacles in the world, what could one person do? And the answer Makoto found was, anything. Everything. It doesn’t all rest on Makoto, he’s just the one that was inspired to try to do what seemed like the impossible. But as evidenced by the change in his friends after that trial, it’s clearly not something only Makoto is capable of. The others pulled out of despair thanks to Makoto, but it was their choice to do so.

“But… this world is so huge, and we’re so small. What can we do…? No, we can probably do anything. Yeah! We can do anything!”

#makoto naegi #Danganronpa character analysis #Danganronpa #danganronpa thh #danganronpa future arc #I fucking love Makoto Naegi man. #I think there’s a fine line of nuance to Makoto that’s easy to miss bc he doesn’t really make it known #he’s not a pushover and he’s not overpowered. he’s a people pleaser but he will say what needs to be said #he’s an immovable object and the exact opposite of Junko but he’s also just a normal guy who’s optimistic and (un)lucky #he isn’t invincible but he has immense power to his words the same way Junko did #if anything his superpower is being kind above all else. he’s compassionate to some of the worst people in the world. #he was even conpassionatr to an extent to Junko. he didnt want her to kill herself despite everything she’s done #and he still acknowledges that for years she was a classmate and friend. #I do think the more he learned abt what she did the more he’s come to actually hate her though #post the first game he always refers to her without a suffix to her name which is one of the most subtle rude things you can do #it means you have zero respect for the person you’re referring to #and he speaks about her with some venom he doesn’t use for anyone else in the future arc #he’s not incapable of feeling negative emotions #I really liked the future arc scene bc it showed that Makoto DID experience enough despair to have overcome him if he didn’t refuse #and that it still affects him deeply. people treat him like he’s either this perfect ideal Chad or this baby chick who’s so delicate #and no one really focuses on how makoto shoulders so much and yet is still vulnerable. #honestly that guy was DUE for a mental breakdown even without the tape. it would have happened eventually #I actually wrote one based on him finally hitting a breaking point after giving so much of himself away and keeping nothing for himself #that his issues that he shoves down constantly finally can’t be held down anymore. Hajime helps him bc he knows how that feels #it was a LONG time ago that I wrote that but honestly if I can remember where i was going w it I might finish it #it was initially an rp but I could make it a fic #anyway. the point is Makoto is SO much more complex than people give him credit for #the most fundamental thing about him is that he’s normal and that’s ok! that’s what helps him rise!

[napping-sapphic]

God i’m thinking about how easily and unknowingly strangers can grant you salvation like i found it in how my old classmate told me once that i was a kind person and it was the first time i’d ever believed it

in how a coworker once said that i always seem so happy and have a nice smile and i cried about it when i got home since i’d always been told i seem too serious or mean

in how someone once told me i was good at comforting them when i’d always thought i was bad at it

Just god they’re out there somewhere and i barely remember what they looked like and we’ll never cross paths again but they changed me so deeply, they’re out there but they’ll never know how often i revisit those memories and think of myself even just a little more kindly they’re out there and i don’t know them but they’re the most important people in the world to me somehow

#me?? having a Night™️?? more likely than you’d think #im missing the people i never really knew #and im stuck echoing their words to myself #it’s honestly so important to hear things from people who don’t have an agenda to hurt you #who didn’t form a perspective of you at 14 and never let it go #i dont know #it’s just insane how badly ive always felt about myself #how inherently true i thought it was that i was mean or cold or unlikeable #only to have so many people tell me differently the past few years #and i still feel so mean and cold and unlikeable so often because of the people close to me!! #and i probably will forever to some extent!! #and it’s such an awful feeling #but just knowing even one person saw me as kind or happy is such a balm to that pain #that even if every person i meet from here on out found me flawed #there was at least one that saw kindness and joy in me?? that’s healing #idk #idk im emotional and tired and just want to believe i can be a good person sometimes #and sometimes i feel like that one ‘you’re so nice’ i received three years ago is the only thing holding me together sometimes #god just ignore me

[makkie-is-screaming]

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#Okay so tw cuz im gonna rant about suicide #so back in July I planned on killing myself today #I told myself I needed to try n get better n if I couldn’t that was it #and I’ve tried I really have #and I’m obviously still struggling but not to the extent I was #like I’m depressed n my ed is getting worse #but I’m finally hanging out with D n she’s just so much fun to be around #im calling my bestie more and she sounds genuinely happy to hear from me #im doing a bit better with my parents to n im seeing my cousin more who I’ve missed so much #I have plans for break for the first time in years #im finally getting piercings #it’s crazy cuz even just 2 weeks ago I didn’t think Id be ok today #but I am like today isn’t gonna be another attempt I’m gonna make it #and that’s wild to me bc I was so bad over the summer I was constantly debating it that’s why I set the date #And I don’t think I’m fixed and there’s a big chance I’ll attempt at some point in the future knowing me #but right now I feel like I have a reason to try and I haven’t felt like that in a long time #okay I’m done now just wanted to say that #screaming #tw suicide #tw suicide mention #kinda

[0reblogufufu0]

Happy Birthday to the loveliest of friends, @snoobins <3

Twin stars

A universe apart

Just close enough

To wistfully gaze at the other

Knowing yet not

How fate will lead them together

#happy birthday!! #I hope you have a great day #and spoil yourself to the fullest extent with whatever you like! #I wrote the poem first actually #then I wanted to translate that someway into art #and decided I would make something with two stars far apart #and two flowers close together #to symbolize how we once didn’t know one another at all #but now we're growing alongside one another #bathing in the light of how we admired one another #even before we became good friends #I really hope you like it!! #this isn't all I have for you though! #<3 <3 <3 #I hope you're feeling every bit as loved and appreciated as you are! #I'm so grateful we're here again at another milestone for our friendship #This year I know you'll do even greater things than the last! #just being you will always be something worth celebrating #<3 #i love you so so so much #ps you're the yellow flower (:

[frodolives]

LOUSTAT CAN STILL WIN!!!

#that ending is so genius the more i think about it like!!! #it completely recontextualizes everything #lestat really isn’t as evil as we’ve been lead on. armand and to an extent claudia are just insane bitches. and deep down louis knows it!! #unreliable narrators etc #even antoinette makes sense if lestat wanted to keep tabs on claudia who he rightfully didn’t trust #louis saved lestat’s life and is doing this interview as a cry for help he wants lestat’s attention to save him!! #louis and lestat keep saving each other their love is so real it’s not even that toxic by vampire standards i’m so 😭😭😭 it’s so good #i was so worried with the direction the show was heading when they seemed to make lestat irredeemable BUT NOW??? i have full faith #i am officially rooting for loustat again season 2 WHEN #interview with the vampire

[thecapturedafrique]

Reminder: being upset or traumatized doesn’t give you license to take it out on the people around you.

The point of Ruby breaking down isn’t about her being right to lash out, it’s about her finally revealing just how fucked up she’s become so that everyone can take off the rose-colored glasses (ha!) to see that Ruby is Not Okay.

#rwby #rwby spoilers #rwby9 spoilers #ruby rose #rant in the tags #some of y’all really didn’t learn the right lesson from ​“hurt people hurt people” #and in this case ruby hurting people is meant to showcase how she herself is deeply DEEPLY wounded #like wby has recognized ruby isn’t doing too hot but they didn’t realize the extent of it until this moment #also it’s incredibly telling how rubes has a full blown panic attack but before it can be addressed the flood happens #and then all their focus is turned to jaune #so of course ruby is left standing there like “what about me huh?! when is it my turn to breakdown!” #ruby’s rant is bc she needs the space to grieve and mourn and be sad but her team didn’t know #now thankfully they (and jaune) do! #can’t wait to see next week’s episode even if i have the terrible feeling it may be too late #the tree is coming for our girl i can feel it 😭

[todderwodders]

My durge and Gortash’s relationship is like. Two horrible little best friends who put an amazing amount of trust in each other despite their positions and generally horrible personalities making it more or less impossible. They’ve known each other carnally and robbed a few supposedly unrobable places. It ain’t true but it is love.

#also my durge is a huge dnd pot head and a deeply capable monster of epic proportions #Aku is like cercei Lannister motivated by love to even more psychotic extents who also thinks hunting people is a delightful pastime #something something volo said all spawn are coins landing on their sides #he swings from being totally okay #even happy #with his occupation as anti christ #only to fall into short lived but deeply tumultuous periods of meloncholy or breaks INTO reality #where he may not regret his choices but he does regret bhaal and knowing he will never see an end to being father dears perpetual servant #no escape no life beyond this tiny little existence he didn’t get a choice in #he fully slides up to my quasi immortal tav multiple times #still brain damaged #and is like the things I could do to your body over and over and over again baby… #tomoko voice are you flirting with me or threatening me? #Aku voice oh baby it’s a prommy #anyhow durge is a funny tyrannical god complexer who says shit like ‘you approached the blunt with a heavy karmic debt’ after eating #an inn keepers face off and doing some very suggestive tongue stuff before he sucked out his eyeballs like other people suck out gogurt #has had like twenty kids tried to give Enver a kid (his? not? does it matter #take the honor you little worm) a kid only to be bitterly disappointed each time #would love to do some laundry and taxes #nic plays bg3 #they show up to the function (post bg3 events where gortash lives) lookin real good only to go hooooow could you cheat on me like this #(they are both fucking or wooing different people now)

[tbcanary]

i mean. the thing is that it isn’t that cass is bruce’s favorite kid or the best sibling. she’s the best bat, which is fundamentally a different thing.

#text.tb #I can’t remember if I reblogged the post that got me thinking about this or not #but shoutout to the op of that post for pointing out how unfair it is to reduce her to Favorite Child #bc she isn’t. she’s the best at being a new version of batman and the best at vigilante stuff and crime fighting that aligns with Bruce #which is why they work well together #the interpersonal stuff and her relationships with the other bats and people outside of her circle are complicated and nuanced #I am always thinking about cass not getting the kind of training that was given to all the little birdies she spends time with #because that training was important bonding with bruce for a lot of them #and she didn’t get it! even Steph did (altho not to the same extent) and Tim did despite not being fully brought into the manor and such #but cass. hm. nope! #and yeah she had babs as a mentor but babs is not always the kindest or warmest person #i think CONSTANTLY about babs yelling at cass for not knowing how to read yet #(obviously not as a sum of their entire relationship! but as an example of how cass being held to this standard… #…of perfection and obedience and strength actually HURTS her relationships with others when it turns out she’s a person. a young woman… #…who needs room to grow and learn and change. despite so many people expecting her to just Be Perfect already.) #anyway i’m just pondering. thinking aloud. cass ily

[http-byler]

#personally. I think they all do to a certain extent #I think El is a twilight enthusiast and is completely unabashed in her enjoyment of the films though she agrees that they are kinda bad #I think Will and Max think they’re ridiculous and only watched to make fun of it but ended up getting sucked into the narrative #Lucas doesn’t mind them so he always tags along when willelmax have watch parties #Dustin doesn’t like them really but he enjoys the back and forth between him and El when he says they’re bad and she provides her rebuttal #but Mike. he likes them #similarly to max and Will. he didn’t think he would but ended up really invested #BUT!! he pretends he doesn’t like them even though everyone knows he does #he tags along to watch parties under the guise that he wants to spend time with his bf but they all know the truth #at least. that’s what I think. #LMK ur thoughts in the rb y’all #stranger things #polls!! #byler #< target audience

[tiny-cloud-of-flowers]

friendly reminder that my self-inserts are not OCs (I know that other people count theirs as such, and that is absolutely fine, but mine do not count as such)

#I’m very flattered that people want to know more about lorenza but the ask game is not for self-inserts .w. #the way I think of my self-inserts is that they are each fictional versions of me for the respective source material #none of them are identical to me but part of that stems from each one having a different backstory to me #and different self-inserts tend to have different aspects of my own personality to different extents #(mainly because I myself struggle to know how to #describe my own personality thanks to it being quite inconsistent) #I know some people call them self-insert OCs and everything but. to me my self-inserts are me. calling them OCs implies they aren’t. #that’s just how I perceive it #(I know I also don’t help myself by answering WoL/OC questions for lorenza even though she’s neither an OC nor a WoL) #(but I do it because she is who I play as and in-game you play as the WoL) #I feel like I’m being really nitpicky but I also don’t want the misconception to persist but I feel bad for correcting it >~< #I can still use the sparkles to give facts about her I just didn’t know if the people who sent them for her would rather actually hear about #one of my OCs instead of one of my self-inserts #sorry #heart of the void #self‑insert: wings of the void (lorenza) #sort of

[sweet-sixteen-kraang-birthday]

they couldn’t go through their marriage three years, with the tragedy that occurs but — it’s okay, because despite that, three years after, and without knowing it’s actually each other, they are able to go through it and get married in the end. !!!!!!!!

#he was telling the truth even though he didn’t know the extent of it: that she would be the only one djkfkfkfkfkfn #the question now is that when/will they recognise who she is #screaming #alchemy of souls: light and shadow #alchemy of souls #ignore me; im rambling #yuki goes insane abt aos (as per usual) #sob sob I love them SO much #x

[lavenderfeminist]

Did not realize some women bond over like, being straight (in a kind of roundabout way) until someone I know jokingly made fun of the way I eat bananas and then started nudging me about how cute some guy was and I came to the sudden realization that it had never come up in a conversation between us that men are not my thing

#the banana thing sounds weird but she was teasing #I just don’t think she would have said it if she knew I do not like dick #even my friends growing up didn’t talk about men to this extent and then most of my friends now know I’m a lesbian so it doesn’t happen

[seilon]

kpop is. a really really fucked up industry man. it really is

#I know it’s also just korean society in general and how hard you have to work and the standards you have to appease #but. yeah especially in this industry #that combined with the society’s general lack of emphasis on mental health and lack of resources in that area and the stigma about it #it’s. just. literally killing people left and right. and I guess I just hope that something might come of these high-publicity tragedies #jjong’s mom and sister are doing their part with their foundation but the companies themselves need to really step it the fuck up and make #mental healthcare a priority if not something mandatory for its artists #I don’t know about the details of moonbin’s situation and I didn’t know him as a person remotely to the extent of jjong but I’d hate for his #situation to have been similarly avoidable and pushed forwards by lack of proper attention/proper treatment/etc #either way. they just need to do better. the whole country needs to do better. that’s not an opinion that’s statistical fact. sk’s suicide #rates are absolutely insane. I want to see people protesting over this shit soon or holding awareness events or something. its gutwrenching #to see this keep happening and virtually nothing changing #anyway sorry this has . reminded me of things and made me feel a bit like I did in 2017 on a smaller scale even if I didn’t stan the group #kibumblabs #cw death #cw suicide