#i don't think so but i guess i'll ask

[gouinisme]

i'm literally so so so so scared

#i might dm for the first time next week #i'm so so scared #i don't even have the book yet #by next week i mean sunday so i have a little over a week #but given i have 3 exams next week that might not be enough idk #for SIX PEOPLE #it was almost 7 cuz my friend's little brother invited his COUSIN #WITHOUT CONSULTING ME #but my friend knew that was probably too much for me so he asked me and now the cousin is out of the euation #but like bro #don't invite someone into a game without consulting the dm??? especially when you've met the dm like 3 whole times??? #i'm not actually mad at him cuz like he's a middle schooler he doesn't know but still bro dont do that #wait will i have to adapt shit given it's supposed to be like. a horror campaign and there's gonna be a middle schooler at the table? #and by table i mean discord server #i don't think so but i guess i'll ask #i've watched horror movies with most of the people at this table so i know they're not squeamish but idk about him

[benjaminthecoathanger]

okay, because i saw a poll earlier and i thought the choices weren't clear enough and also the answers i saw to it annoyed me and also i'm curious:

NOTES:

I am including having watched gameplay of a game and not having played it as having watched the source material

In this context if you are writing fic/making art and you are not being commissioned to do so. This is purely for funsies

You getting into something because you saw a post/gifset/video about it and then watched the source material does not count. That's just how you get into new things.

Goncharov does not count because it's not real. I'll break kayfabe here I don't care.

#polls #look i got really annoyed by reading the tags of the since-deleted poll of people like 'did you forget goncharov hahaha' like. #that. that's not what was asked. #also like. i'll reblog posts of something ive not seen if i think theyre interesting/funny #but i don't count that as like. 'engaging in fandom" necessarily #bc to me at least fandom requires active engagement? and like im not gonna go hunting for like. leverage posts if ive not seen it #i also don't read fanfic like. at all. so i have no concept of how people read it? #like. i last read fanfic like 2 years ago bc i had just finished disco elysium #so people who read fic bc of the like. tropes or whatever like. i do not get it. im happy for you though #anyway. sorry i went insane i love u all #ben leaves the house #or doesnt. i guess in this case. a very Chronically Online Poll

[sundaytragedy]

I could totally do surgery on myself and even give myself anesthesia and then stitch myself up i could totally do that. I think I can figure out how to put it back

#is this just poetic or srs.....we'll never know #just know that i am high af rn #i dont have steady enough hands or good enough vision to ever be a surgeon i dont think. not in that sterile room. lol #sigh guess i'll pursue psychiatry #gonna fuck myself up irreversibly someday wdyt #trust meee #essentially surgeons ask that we trust them like thanks for not leaving any tools behind in my body i appreciate it man #that one nurse who did my 55+ stitches we had a moment #i was like no lidocaine pls i don't want my arms to be numb for the next day and a half i will kms more #so he didnt #that was so respectful of him

[thefirstknife]

rip gambit you will be missed 😔

Don't even know what to say tbh.

For those that don't know, the big State of the Game article came out detailing incoming changes and adjustments and all the big stuff. Gambit was mentioned! But at what cost. Basically, they are ceasing any kind of support for Gambit. What we have now is what it is. We will get the Dreaming City map back in TFS and they will add Shadow Legion and Lucent Hive as enemy factions in TFS. That's all.

Full text:

As many of you have noticed, we’ve been quiet on Gambit since last year’s overhaul that launched alongside The Witch Queen. In that revamp, the team made significant changes across five categories in Gambit: core activity fundamentals, Primeval tuning, invasions, ammo economy, and rewards. Unfortunately, these updates didn’t move the needle for player engagement. Although we know our Gambit fans mostly care about new or returning maps, this is an area of the game with lower engagement that would take resources away from more popular parts of the game to shore up.   While we don’t have plans to dedicate more resources to significantly transform Gambit, we do have a few updates planned for the year of The Final Shape. These include porting the Cathedral of Scars map and its beautiful Dreaming City setting into the latest version of Destiny 2, as well as adding the Shadow Legion and Lucent Hive enemy types. 

I don't know how to tell you this Bungie, but the reason "engagement is low" in Gambit is because Gambit sucks. Ever since half of it was removed with DCV, it just sucked. It has no variety, the gameplay is largely busted, it's not sufficiently updated, ammo changes suck, invasion cycle sucks (why is the enemy even getting a portal when their Primeval is at 5% health and the other team is still in mote collecting phase is beyond me), there are no cool armour sets to chase (just look at Iron Banner and Trials stuff, imagine dedicated cosmetics) and finally there are simply no weapons that are worth anything. Both Vanguard and Crucible have more weapons and also adept versions. There is zero reason to go into Gambit without major changes to Gambit. And now with the further changes to how playlists and challenges will work, there will be even less reason to go into Gambit. Observe:

Before then, we’re making Gambit entirely optional to maximize your rewards unless you’re looking for a piece of gear that’s specific to the mode. Gambit will continue to serve as a source of Exotic engrams via weekly challenges, though as we mentioned above, you’ll be able to complete all your weekly challenges in any ritual you’d like starting in Season 22. If you want to stick to Vanguard or Crucible challenges without touching Gambit, now you can.  We’re also reducing the number of Gambit-specific Seasonal Challenges starting in Season 22, so players won’t need to bank motes to be able to earn that big purse of Bright Dust for completing nearly every challenge in the Season. Finally, we’re adding Fireteam Matchmaking to Gambit next Season, which will replace the Freelance node and should result in faster, better matchmaking by combining both Gambit playlists. We’ll keep an eye on reception and player engagement after these additions take place, and we hope you’ll visit ‘ol Drifter next Season to get your hands on his new Void Machine Gun. 

Ngl, but I don't think anyone besides like a total of 6 people will play Gambit next season. The incentive to go in there is completely removed. You won't even have to go in there for pinnacles or for challenges. The Void Machine Gun will not be enough of an incentive because the chance of that gun being better than two recently available craftable Void Machine Guns (Commemoration and Retrofit Escapade) is very low. And besides, once you get it at the end of your first match, you can leave Gambit forever.

This is the feedback loop that just reinforces the idea that people don't like Gambit. And I mean. Who would at this point. I'm pretty sure that if Crucible had stayed the same as it was at the start of Beyond Light, engagement would be low there too. But you know. Crucible has received major updates pretty much every season since with multiple new modes, several Trials overhauls, Iron Banner overhaul, competitive overhaul, new armours and weapons added and YES, even new maps. God forbid even 5% of these resources went into Gambit.

Anyway, this is the whole section about Gambit in 6500 words. It's basically a "you guys aren't playing this so we're doing the bare minimum of keeping it in the game as is, no new work will be done on it ever." Thanks I guess.

And for the record, something I also added while having a rant in my discord, I want to make it clear that I don't want anyone to spiral into a Bungie hate train. Even for this. I understand perfectly well what's the community attitude towards Gambit and what it's been for years now. People just don't like it and they're not incentivised to like it and they're actively encouraged to hate it. Spending resources into a game mode on the hope that maybe you can change people's minds would be insanity. Like, the amount of change Gambit would need to MAYBE start appealing to gamers would be beyond any reasonable time and resources Bungie can put in. And if you could guarantee that people would love and play Gambit then, fine. But you can't. Most likely, even if major changes happened, people would still just do their weekly stuff and bail. It's simply not worth it. In order for people to like it, it needs to be completely and thoroughly overhauled in a way that would need more time and effort than the entire Light subclass overhaul and it's just not a reasonable expectation, nor is it guaranteed to work. So I get it.

I'm still disappointed and annoyed about it because I believe it wasn't given a fair chance at all. I also know how good it can be and how Gambit Prime could've been improved upon over the years if they tried. Instead, it got removed and that was honestly the death sentence for Gambit. It's unfortunate. It's my favourite game mode that could've been so much better was it given even a fraction of attention of Crucible.

I'll still be playing it. You will find me in the Gambit queue waiting for 2 hours to find 7 other lunatics to play with, don't worry about it. But I'm absolutely incredibly sad about them being basically forced to axe the potential of the whole game mode that is incredibly creative and fits with the type of game Destiny is perfectly.

There's other interesting stuff in the article and some upcoming really cool improvements and changes to the game. But if you're a fan of Gambit in any capacity, this is a death certificate for the mode. I suggest coming to terms with it quickly because Bungie changing their minds about this is highly unlikely.

#destiny 2 #gambit #ask #long post #says 'don't know what to say' at the start. writes an essay. FHKSJHFKJS #i won't go too much into it outside of this. we all know what this means no need to beat the dead horse #i'll still play it and the mode is still there but i expect a drop in quality and population significantly #the issues we have will never be addressed nothing will ever be fixed. we'll get a 5th map (returning) in 6 months and that's it #yay. I guess. #don't think there will be anyone in the playlist anymore by that point so I'm not sure why even bother with that alone #but still. if that does happen at least new people will be able to see that map now. it was very pretty #unfortunately not good gameplay wise. but at least it will help to not get deep six 17 times in a row #anyway. sad situation for gambit enjoyers. please don't turn into crucible bros to harass devs though

[muzzlemouths]

im tired of messing with this. just take it

#scheduling this shit so i cant overthink posting it #is this suggestive? i don't think so. he's just a little fruity #i'll tag it anyway just in case #suggestive cw #you may be asking. muzz‚ is this a new au? #afraid not #the design just exists now. i guess #may delete the morning after it posts we'll see LMAO #🏃 #[scheduled]

[emelinstriker]

mmmnnother idea too

#sneak peek #hyperfixation says esau cast in dnd style- but i don't think i'll do em the way i did nezha's doodle cuz that was a horrible way of shading #at least for me personally KEKW- #emelin rambles #to bed i go #i wanna try sleepin early for once #also i find it funny how as a dental tech i know why my jaw is hurting rn #muscle stress would be my guess cuz it's just the side of my jaw around the area of my left mandibular condyle #so i'm currently tryna force myself to physically relax more to try get rid of it quicker cuz it's annoying when tryna eat at times #also i was at an info meeting about a study some university students wanna do with autists regarding noise cancelling headphones #was hilarious considering i immediately began to critique the way the meeting went by telling my psychologist about #how they had the audacity to give a full group of diagnosed autists the OPTION to pick between showing up on a monday or tuesday #cuz we were all fuckin confused and one girl even had to ask like 2-3 times about how tf this would work and when we're supposed to come in #like how dare you tell us we can pick a day- that sparked so much lowkey panic and i could tell by the confusion of all- including myself #just give us a solid day DHFNDFHNDHFGNHDGH

[cervidaeic]

another calvin post (sorry) but here's him when he was a child! he lost his two front teeth playing outside in the woods... those scars on his cheeks are also from playing outside. he smudged a bit of blood on his cheek. :( if the french is wrong a) i kill myself? and b) blame google translate. this was pre transition cal! he's a natural blonde.

translation: mom! look at my teeth!

#also this is a lazy ass drawing i didn't bother to render anything really. #also i didn't know what to put on his shirt so i slapped a nirvana logo on. i'm not even a die hard nirvana fan i just like kurt cobain. #anyways cal used to listen to them i guess not that much though (projecting). #oc: calvin #don't ask for his deadname i'll beat you to death. #thinks everything is a joke like brother wait until you start doing crystal.

[softpine]

do you have any theories or things you'd like to see in s2 of yellowjackets?

crazy cannibalistic lesbian orgy death match when they all reunite

#lmaoo but no i guess i don't really have any theories yet #i'll probably rewatch the first season or find a recap somewhere because my memory is literally ass #i'm just guessing shauna is the first one to go full cannibal #and taissa will follow shauna anywhere (not van as you might expect) #see they're expecting us to believe lottie's cult is the first to eat human bodies but i don't think so #it'll be shauna / taissa / misty #and lottie / van on the other side #the others just float i think #i mostly just want to know what happened to shauna's first baby #are we going tragic and unfortunate or really really fucked up?? #asks #anonymous #nonsims #brandi answers #yellowjacket spoilers #but only for the first season

[coquelicoq]

been paying more attention to my r sounds in french lately and while i do default to the voiced uvular fricative /ʁ/ most of the time, in intervocalic contexts i'm doing what i'm pretty sure is a voiced uvular approximant /ʁ̞/ maybe half the time? i wasn't sure if it was a tap/flap or an approximant, but it does sound a lot like the audio clip for the approximant, and apparently the approximant is often an allophone for the fricative, while the tap/flap is an allophone for the trill (which makes sense since a tap/flap is basically an abbreviated trill), and i don't really do uvular trills in speech.

the fricative has always been difficult for me and at this point i doubt it will get much easier than it is now. it makes sense that as i learned to speak faster i would end up producing the approximant in at least some contexts, and i suppose that it makes sense that the main context in which that happens is intervocalic, since approximants are kind of like if you took a fricative halfway to being a vowel.

the reason i've been thinking about this lately is i've been listening to a lot of stromae and his r sounds keep jumping out at me. i mentioned in some tags the other day his r sounds in bonne journée (skip to 1:24):

Si l'bonheur [tap/flap?] des autres [elided] te rend [trill] malheureux [trill] C'est qu't'es un rageux [tap/flap?] Si l'malheur [trill?] des autres [elided] te rend [trill] heureux [approximant??] C'est qu't'es un rageux [tap/flap?]

that sound in heureux in the third line is really interesting because he pronounces that exact word (within the word malheureux) two lines before, but there he's clearly trilling the r, and here he is not, and it doesn't sound like a tap or flap to me either! it sounds like an approximant!

he does do the uvular fricative as well...specifically in consonant clusters (also in variation with trills) (skip to 1:37):

Tu profites [fricative] jamais vraiment [trill?] de ce moment présent [fricative] En fait t'es juste dépressif [fricative]

elsewhere in the song he seems to trill a lot of consonant cluster rs, so i think it may also be a function of syllables/second - in these two lines he's going really fast, and possibly fricatives are faster to pronounce than trills? they certainly are for me, but i'm not sure if that's because i'm not a native speaker or because of some fundamental property of trilling.

between a vowel and a consonant he's sometimes doing a trill and sometimes something else, i think an approximant but it might be a fricative. hell, maybe it's a tap/flap. (rs in this context are fairly difficult for me to distinguish with any accuracy if they're not trills or really emphasized fricatives, so fuck if i know.)

ultimately i think he (at least in song) trills every r possible and resorts to (not consciously, obviously) one of the other options when necessary. i am nowhere near that proficient at uvular trills and can pretty much only do them on extended notes (because they take extra time for me to pronounce) and on higher pitches for some reason. i'd love to learn the uvular tap/flap, and it's probably the fastest of all the options (citation needed but it feels right lol), so maybe a year from now, when my speaking speed has increased another incremental amount, i'll notice that i've started spontaneously producing those as well. i live in hope.

#rs are hard! my kingdom for an r sound i can actually pronounce at the beginning of a word #also i would LOVE to be able to identify r sounds in the V_C context. idk why that's so hard #like say the word merci. what kind of r is that?? you CAN do a fricative there but i think most people don't actually #but what are they doing instead?? i don't know what to call that #if i ever meet a real phonologist or phonetician in the wild i am going to become the bane of their existence #hounding them night and day with my speech sound questions #i once asked my phonetics prof what sound i was making in the word-initial thr context #i thought maybe it was a trill. she gave me a very annoyed look and told me it was a tap or flap. ok sorry i guess????? #then i never asked her a question ever again haha #but i'm past caring about annoying phonetics professors now. throw one at me universe and i'll show just how annoying i can be #french #my posts #fun with pronunciation #phonetics #phonology #my most common use for the uvular trill is quite honestly not in french at all. it is when imitating chewbacca <3 #something i do more often than one would think it would be relevant #also in gargling? but i don't gargle very often #anyway this post doesn't have a point i'm just recording my thoughts on french r sounds #so i can look at it in a year and see how my thoughts have changed #littleragondin this one goes out to you also if you're listening :*

[e77y]

Guy from my student newspaper just emailed me to ask what hot-button legislative issues young people are concerned with so he can ask a local politician about it??? At a political internship interview???? In this deep red county????????? I am the WRONG guy to ask buddy

#why did he ask me in the first place #I have spoken to this guy once ever #I guess just because I have local news experience so like. I know what stuff people are worried about? #but I DON'T bc the only investigative journalism I've done is about my college and DEI etc. #which is state level not local #the paper I interned at specifically didn't want to 'be too political' #(everyone but me who worked there was super far right or 'centrist' at best) #which is one of the main reasons I left... but I digress lmao #I just. have no idea how to respond to this #ig I'll just be like 'oh sorry! I don't have much experience with political issues' #I'd also be less annoyed if he were actually writing an article. but no #I think he's literally just going to an internship interview and wants to sound impressive? and he wants to work in local government so.... #ellyposting

[johnslittlespoon]

also my inbox is fr a warzone rn i'm SO behind on like ~50 asks </3 itching to get back, just been trying to focus on actual fic writing when i get in a rare productive swing instead of hrs of drabbling and brainrot lmfaooo but i'll clear up a whole evening eventually to sit down and go thru a ton of them!

#or maybe i'll secretly do that one evening and queue up a shit ton of drabble responses to go up every 30 min teehee #who knows it's always a guessing game w my focus levels #speaking of not to irl–post but i am 2 weeks into new adhd meds and feeling FRIED and it's affecting my writing productivity #so that's my disclaimer/excuse for my lack of posts tbh bc i feel like everything i am writing lately is so lackluster/uninspired #so i don't wanna put out half–assed drabbles when i have so many Thoughts and Feelings about each ask that i wanna put into proper words!! #i'm saving them for when little bursts of inspo break thru the new med brain fog u feel me #and aside from that. slowly slowly working my way thru the (now confirmed: chaptered yikes) dog coded fic <3 slowly but surely anyway ^-^ #point is: i am so eager to respond/brainrot to all the ideas in my inbox i don't want u askers to think i am overwhelmed or ignoring asks #just fighting thru tha brain fog such is life we move #johnslittlespoon yaps

[origami-trust]

Dracula, Sept 18th:

On a somber note: Quincey gets a telegram that Art is terribly anxious, that he hasn't heard from Seward in days.

He goes to the Westenra's, and is told that no one is being seen. The house is darkened, for a state of mourning.

He may very well have thought that it was Lucy who had died.

#dracula #dracula daily #if he had asked a maid about Lucy I think the answer would probably either have been crying or 'I don't know' #alternatively the cowboy doesn't know about the dark rooms and is like well Van Helsing probably says no sunlight so I guess I'll sit here #shadowed #waiting

[norstrum-art]

[Image description: A colored digital drawing of Mafuyu Asahina from Project Sekai: Colorful Stage. She is in three-fourths view facing the left, sitting down with her hands in her lap and her legs dangling. She glances to the side with an expressionless face, a shadow cast over her eyes. She is wearing the Rose Cage costume in dark blue, which consists of a knee-length white blouse dress adorned with frills, lace details, and many buckle accessories. On the side of the dress is a long, dark blue frilly fabric with small gold stars on it that nearly touches the ground; at the end of it hangs a gold crescent moon. The background is a dull gradient of lavender to grey. End image description.]

Go girl give us nothing!!!!!!

#me 🤝 mafuyu -> feeling near 0 emotions and having to mask around strangers and acquaintances #and I just drew her in this bc I like the outfit #also. don't ask me what she's sitting on..... I didn't think that far ahead....... leaf me alone............... #my art account is separate from my main not a side blog so I log in here like oh notifs!!! thank you besties <3 #mafuyu asahina #project sekai #proseka #pjsekai #25 ji nightcord de #nightcord at 25:00 #I mean. I guess I'll tag the group *shrug emoji* #norstrume art #norstrum art

[chipped-chimera]

WIP H A I R update: On the home stretch but currently having a massive fit because -

While I have figured out how to get animations out for bodies (means I could test weight painting IN blender without jumping in and out of the game - muh workflow) - I cannot fathom for the life me how to get the hair dangle meshes exported. I have tried exporting the hair, then exporting 'with rig'. No dice. I have tried exporting it as a multimesh with a whole HEAD + rigs. No dice. I have tried exporting a whole goddamn NPC WITH HEAD + RIGS. NO. DICE. I always get some bone refusal error -

I have done this on both Wolvenkit builds (stable + nightly). This goes not only for npcs but other hair. Sometimes it's a different bone. I haven't exactly tested EVERY hair for exporting but ... christ is this a bug or am I doing something dumb? why is everyone so secretive about hair modding can someone just tell me how to get the dangles out. Yeah I've read the dangle bones tutorial. It only talks about getting shirt dangles out for a hair, not like ... actual. Hair. I don't even want to use them I just want them for a reference. Also possibly so I can look at UUH4V.

Texture weirdness. But I know the problem is something to do with how what I've made is being processed, because the overly bright stuff here is a basegame mesh I used to fill out a section (or maybe it's supposed to be that bright). Or could possibly be me botching something in custom back-faces (switching back to _doubled to see about that one). That one is still very puzzling to me given all the UV's are mapped to the same stuff, using the same material - looks completely fine in blender (as usual). The UV mapping method may be a bit structurally different though but I don't see how this would cause such a major difference? Could be I did dumb stuff with Hair Tools though, I'll get back to you on that one.

throwing this out into the void cause I'm exhausted someone just tell me how to extract dangles 😭

#kerytalk #my modding #cyberpunk 2077 modding #never did I think 'dangles' would be something that would keep me up at night but well here we are #tormented by dangles #more like 'keryscreaming' tbh haha #yeah I could just fucking ask instead of ctrl+f'ing modding discords but timezones mean I don't get replies at all #or by the time someone answers me I've figured out how to fix it myself #I just use them as a search resource at this point #why is everyone so secretive about the hair modding #in case anyone wonders why I have so much time to do this hahahaha disability #can't work atm so I guess I'll mod?

[hchano]

So how's things been? Hope the wrist is better. Damn this feels like getting an old friend back

been good! had a few health scares (currently dealing with skin cancer, but knew that was coming with my family history 😂), and had to cut a few toxic ppl out of my life, but the overall vibes have been p damn good and are still trending upwards ✊😌

also my kid is almost 11 now, because what is time 😳

#shut up h #asks #i don't think i have a tag for life stuff so i guess I'll do that lol #life stuff #ftr the skin cancer is not deadly #my fam is just really prone to basal cell carcinomas lol #I'm not worried about it #my mom has been getting treated for it since i was a baby and she's the strongest person i know 😌

[pens-personal]

So summer's coming up and cuz I'm a nanny I'm gonna end up having to take the kids to the pool a lot, does anyone have any good swim binder or alternative recommendations? Really don't wanna be wearing a sports bra in public all summer.

#trans #transgender #trans man #genderqueer #trans guy #butch #ftm #transsexual #chest binding #swimwear #I've got a good pair of trunks already so I'm not worried about that #I'm thinking like a trans tape + swim shirt combo maybe? #anything to take attention off of my chest #plus I don't need the kids asking me a million “if you're a boy why do you have boobs” questions 😭 #still not sure how I'm gonna navigate the changeroom situation either #I think there's only a girl's changeroom and a boy's changeroom at the local pool #I guess I'll go with the girl's one cuz the kids are girls and I definitely don't pass well enough to use the boy's but y'know #I just wanna minimize my dysphoria #agender