#i feel like i’m being rude

[stuckinapril]

when you accept that the unique things about you are the best things about you. when you fall in love w your uniqueness and become obsessed w it and reject conformity. when you think for yourself and draw your own conclusions and adore that you don’t perfectly fit into a mold. that’s when you’ll know true peace

#this sounds like an instagram infographic but hear me out #all the things i used to hide as a teen are things i am so grateful to embrace now #i’m realizing that any notable person has trailblazed their own path. that’s how they stand out. #not bc they already fit into a predetermined mold. but bc they were unique and confident about it #can’t say i’m at a 100% w my self acceptance yet but there will be FAR fewer things to talk about in therapy 🥲 and that’s a good thing #ppl rly need to take their quirks and appreciate them and LOVE them and adore them and be obsessed and feel so lucky they have them #the same old same old is boring #it just sucks that w uniqueness naturally comes backlash #and u have ppl who r nasty rude etc etc. who try to make u feel like ur the freak show for being different #but as long as u know ur truth that’s what matters. that’s all #text

[last-in-line-for-hell]

*rings bells* WEI WUXIAN IS A NERD!! He loves learning and applying his knowledge in new and creative ways! He’s INCREDIBLY insightful and perceptive! He keeps notes and creates unparalleled inventions! He knows people and even knows politics! He develops answers and theories on the fly! Please I beg for people to stop calling him an idiot all the time 😭🙏🙏

#mdzs textpost not art #No but fr #I’m sooooo tired of seeing people dismiss just how capable and smart wwx is #esp in fic like I feel like I can’t read one fic without every character being so condescending and rude to wwx and calling him stupid #like hello last I checked none of you completely changed the landscape of cultivation before the age of 22 🤨 #dkdkdkd don’t mind me I just always get tired of seeing this everywhereeee

[theswedishpajas]

The man truly can’t take a genuine compliment 🙄

#my art stuff #digital art #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #astarion #astarion ancunin #this is part of a series I like to call “I’m never settling on a singular detailed artstyle” #I have no consistency in drawing realistic people/characters other than my shapy cartoon style #but I truly don’t get enough opportunity to properly shade anything with art in that style-!!! it always looks weird to me-!!!!! #I think some rude lil worm in my brain is wriggling around telling me it’s a futile attempt at still doing realism #cus I’m one of those “gifted” artists that grew up promising his parents he’ll end up among the big names or whatever #constantly training to become better at art but with realism oil paintings as the goal #you know how it is 😔 #I wanna shade my lil funky designs but they never feel good enough to really put energy into or whatever so I compromise with stuff - #- like this where I try to draw characters more accurately while still stylizing them and shading them however I feel like it #which is great and all but I should really learn to give my more relaxed and less perfectionist art a chance #I deserve to enjoy the process and the result without working myself dead #it’s so much easier and rewarding to copy cartoon styles - stylizing realism makes me too anxious of doing it “wrong” #at least cartoon styles give me a goal to reach or a reference to strive towards #man I really should just cut myself some slack altogether #either way - this man is a flustered mess and he’s embarrassed about being called adorable in public or something #being teased in an affectionate way about his sweeter side and stuff #don’t ask why he’s shirtless - anatomy is just a lot more fun for me to draw sometimes #tasteful nudity and all that is extremely gorgeous to me #i need to practice anatomy more cus I just kinda did some shit and went with it this time with a BIT of consideration for muscle structure

[yutaleks]

alekssss i have ques that i need more opinions on but what do you think of sending one fic idea or request to more than one writer? saw someone saying that it's a shitty thing to do plz ignore if you think this is a stupid ask

I really do not encourage you to do this. For one it’s not very nice to have one fic writer discuss your idea/suggestion with you, maybe even write a Drabble or a fic etc, and then see that you didn’t actually care about it being from them specifically and that you went around asking other people.

Think of it this way: if you wanted something custom made, would you walk around asking every single person who does custom work to do the exact same thing for you? Doesn’t that mean that you don’t really care for the quality of the product you’re asking for? Doesn’t that also mean that you don’t actually care about WHO does it, you just want it done? Writers are not here just to pump out content for you.

If you sent me an idea or a request etc in my mind you sent it to me because you like interacting with me, or you wanted to know my specific thoughts on it, or you thought I was a person to come to with your thoughts. That kind of feeling goes away completely if I see that you didn’t actually care for my opinion specifically, you just sent the same ask to a bunch of other people. It just makes you feel like you are one of many people that they are hoping will just write for you, without concern for your individual sense of creativity or writing style etc.

While we’re on this topic, I also want to say that it is incredibly rude to take one person’s ideas and then suggest them to other writers and play it off as a suggestion in their ask box. I’ve seen this happening a lot lately and it’s very uncool. like the right thing to do here is if you see a writer make a post about an idea that you like, maybe ask them to elaborate, or nicely suggest that you would love to read a full length fic with that idea. The very rude thing to do is instead to ask someone else to write that idea. Do you think the author is not capable that you go to someone else? This is a community, people’s blogs are not places that you just stop and shop and take what you want and then leave.

#I hope this doesn’t sound rude I’m sorry if it does #but you need to see that each writer has their own strengths their own tastes their own styles #each writer is a person with feelings too. #you cannot just shop around and see who will write for you with no care for making any kind of connection or community #being in fandom is like. reciprocal. #if someone has ideas or tastes that you like just send them encouraging asks or ask them to write more if what you like #taking their ideas or using them as simple content machines is all terrible community etiquette. #ϟ asking aleksandria

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

the reason i’m not afraid of aging is because i want to be a hot middle-aged man who has a toxic yaoi relationship with another middle-aged man

#u know i used to be so afraid of aging until i realized that i want to be a dilf. now it’s kinda exciting #i realized recently that i could never picture myself living past my twenties until i pictured myself as a man #but like. i want to be a man and a woman and nothing and everything #but like. i’m cool with how i look now for the most part idk if i would want to transition physically at least not rn #and rn i still dress fem enough that everyone goes straight to she/her #and i like she/her but it hurts rn #bc some of my family has switched to they/them or it/its and it’s just so soothing #but family that knows i don’t like it still use she/her and phrases like ‘daughter’ or whatever even more often on purpose #and it hurts bc i don’t really feel the need to change the way i dress/look but i know everyone assumes she/her #when they see me in a dress or skirt. even w how very not-cis my fashion sense is #but also i fucking hate pants which is a separate thing (prob autism tbh) and even if i wore pants they’d still use she/her #thinking of changing my name to something very masc so i can confuse people enough that they’ll stop defaulting to she/her #and i haven’t told ppl outside my immediate family so idc if they use she/her but i’m fucking pissed when ppl in the family do it #anyways side note when i was 12 my ideal gender (b4 i knew about being non-cis) was a floating consciousness w no body #or a plastic-doll-like creation that’s smooth all over #… i still want to be a floating consciousness actually lmao. it would be great #back then i hated being a girl but i didn’t know there were more options and also i was socially isolated (didn’t leave home for like 2yrs) #and my mother was openly transphobic whenever the topic was brought up so that was my only real experience #but i didn’t really internalize it other than the fact that my mother would be rude if i ever happened to be not-cis and guess what? she is #anyways it’s like 2am and also i’m only awake bc i was captivated by a sugar daddy middle aged gay fic for a show i watched like 5 episodes #for 2 years ago #sorry for rambling in the middle of the night lol #gn y’all

[yavin42]

some people love to pit black sails and ofmd against each other for a weird and unfounded battle over pirate show supremacy. but apart from the tonal differences and totally different perspectives of their main themes, and the fact that it doesn’t diminish either shows to recognise the other, it seems to me that in ofmd there are numerous quotes and appreciative nods to black sails in both dramaturgy and minor details (despite their differing genres) that make clear that it’s not the intention to be the “better queer pirate show” that some fans seem to read from it as an act of insolence but a recognition of the great work that at least in some way paved the road for their show. ofmd is in itself a transformative work both in it being in a way like fan fiction and its consistent commitment to giving tropes of incredibly popular genres of fiction (both the adventure/pirate story and the rom com - genres that come with a whole force of normative power) a different spin and a new reading.

#this is my complicated way of expressing irritation over some black sails fans being rude about the ofmd cancellation #is it so hard to let two things with a similar setting stand as independent peices of art? #is it so hard to just let people express their feelings over something you don’t like without being a dick about it? #ofmd #black sails #i’m new to black sails and i really love it its a great show with incredible depth and a dedication to slow and deliberate storytelling #it’s an intimate and unflinching portrait of power loss and how circumstances and effort can make a monster out of good intentions #it’s about the emptyness but necessity of revenge and about what opposing power rightfully can force you to become #it’s about the destructive force of love about ruthless adherence to principles when you’ve nothingelse left #and about the shifting values of morality #and i also love ofmd and its message about however unredeemable you think you are there might be someone who sees you for who you are #that deeply flawed people can be deserving of family and love and kindness #that community may be found outside the boundaries of the norm and how that community can be stronger than any blood ties #it’s about the restorative power of love and a hopeful view on redemption and growth

[heartsofminds]

being 21 is one of the most humbling ages ever like it’s always SOMETHING! literally always fucking SOMETHING!!! 🤩🤭

#this tag is legit just me complaining so ignore it lol #but my shitty brother having a shitty gf and always disrespecting my boundaries about her always being over at our apartment #her not liking me or his friends that are also my friends is the biggest red flag if I’ve ever seen one #and her causing drama with my parents and them putting me in the middle between them and my sibling #not to mention they’ve all been so mean to me lately! #also my dad’s side of the fam has been showing their true colors with me suddenly being an 'adult' but yet still too naive to know anything #and my friends using me for ranting and nothing else! 🤩 #and the guy I liked not even having the decency to tell me he’s not into me and just leaving me on seen #like what is up with people just being mean and rude??? #my heart is literally breaking and being tap danced on and no one seems to care #I’m being a huge baby about it but i have feelings too #literally need to curl up into a ball with a heated blanket and cozy pjs and a bradley there to snuggle me and put all his weight on me #but alas! i’ll have to settle for a shitty throw blanket and my pjs ripping apart at the seams #god I just love it here!!! (obvious sarcasm if you can’t tell from the nature of this post)

[pollenallergie]

do people with adhd have special interests? do we do that? cause i’ve been in my free willy shark week marine biology era for a solid decade now and like shit has not changed.

#ik i say i have audhd. and my therapist and i definitely think i do. #but my psychiatrist won’t diagnose me bc i am a woman and apparently this is still the 90s ig #so idk lately i’ve been having an identity crisis and being like… do i even have it??? if i can’t get a diagnosis?? #like yeah this specific psychiatrist won’t diagnose me but i’ve been to other psychiatrists in the past?? #so like if i had it wouldn’t they have caught it?? #and like yeah my cousin has it but who knows he could’ve gotten that from his dad’s side of the family not his mom’s (my aunts) #idk big crisis over here #it’s also been like months since i last saw my therapist which is just not good… #but yeah idk if i have autism? and now i feel like shit for essentially diagnosing myself as being audhd based on like nothing #so now i’m just trying to see if all this shit that i thought was maybe autism is actually just my adhd or ocd #or just like a fun non-disordered quirk #also i am very embarrassed about the way i talked about autism on here when i thought i had it now that i’m not sure #like it feels very rude and offensive in retrospect #so i’m very very genuinely sorry for that #that just was not okay for me to do #i promise to be better going forward and i’m very sorry #pol’s diary <3

[missamyshay]

Read “on my way” and I had so many emotions and thoughts but not ones I think you were hoping for. I was angry at Peter. The whole point of his huge sacrifice at the end of NWH was to be alone to protect MJ and Ned but then this story has him replacing them w Harry and Gwen within the year??? Like what?! What happened to selfless Peter? And then FOS find him, he slams the door on their faces and he’s in love w Gwen?! The woman with the same name as Peter 3 who he had tragically lost but this peter chose to still sleep w and eventually fall in love with her and then lose her like peter 3 had? Knowing full well that was her fate?! Such selfishness and betrayal on Peters part, which is so unlike Peter Parker that I could not get past this to really get the full effect of the story that you intended.

Wow.

Way to reduce a 21k word story into one cut and dry paragraph that contains none of the nuance that I worked so hard to build.

Sigh.

I could pick apart every piece of this and tell you why I disagree with it (and maybe I’d be more inclined to do it if you weren’t on anon and it felt like an actual conversation rather than you grading my school work) but for now, just a few points:

I need to raise the alarm on Gwen Stacy right quick. Do you know that Peter Parker, the character, is unaware that he is living in his own story??? How does he know Gwen’s fated to die in every universe? How is he supposed to know the entire lore that surrounds Gwen Stacy just from hearing “I lost Gwen. My MJ.” from Peter 3 (mere moments after his aunt died, might I add). Also—Peter does have these thoughts and feelings in the fic (which has me convinced you didn’t read it properly). Please accept that Gwen is not a plot device—especially not to the people living within the plot.

I also think it’s funny that everything you mentioned here actually takes place in like the last 15% of the story. Where’s your analysis on Ned & Betty? How do you feel about Flash? Isn’t it lovely that MJ was there when Harry needed someone? If your (mis)interpretation of one of the plot lines was enough for you to shit on the whole story then I’m convinced it just wasn’t written for you and I’m 100% fine with that.

Beside the point—I think there are many fundamental misunderstandings of Peter Parker as a character (I’m sure I even have my own), but one that really grates me is the perception that he is the self-sacrificial Good Guy all the time. Peter Parker is a kid who has experienced way too much in his 18 years of living. He’s selfless, definitely. But he’s also selfish in many ways. He’s nuanced, and flawed, and despite that, he’s still able to be a hero and beloved character.

#if you feel like I’m being rude… #I am. #I’ll go to bat for my art #especially something that I know is being misinterpreted because of lack of attention and nuance

[shalegas34]

just got a prescription for drugs i had to sign for at the pharmacy. lets fucking go

#i had my specialist appointment today and i was DREADING it. everything was going wrong #the bus didn’t come. i didn’t have food. the doc was running an hour behind #by the time i got there i was half starved having a mild anxiety attack #but then she pulled out my ultrasound results and it showed fucking adenomyosis which means i likely have endometriosis too #let me tell you boys i almost started crying in there #after years of doctors telling me to suck it up & stop being a pussy i have actual proof that i’m not just being a pussy. CRYING #also the specialist told me my gp put me on estrogen for no reason (what i needed was progesterone) and i was so mad bc #that shit gave me feminising features i did not want and which are now irreversible #aside from not actually solving the problem… #anyway i’ve now got paperwork for surgery and different kind of progesterone pill plus the insane ass painkillers i had to sign for #i’m very happy with how that went. we are winning today boys #i feel bad for her bc i was so overwhelmed when she was flinging info at my starved brain at the speed of light #i kinda just shut down & was acting like a corpse in there. i must’ve looked really rude lol #it took me the hour’s walk back into town (was not taking the bus again 😂) to process everything #life

[varibean]

Venting on tumblr always feels weird bc I like the catharsis of talking about my feelings without the shame and guilt of going to someone to talk about them bc I don’t wanna be someone who just bitches all the time. But at the same time venting on a public online space makes me feel self conscious of like, ppl thinking I’m ranting for attention idk bad brain hours

#zk.txt #vent #augh augh I feel like I’m failing as a person and letting down everyone I care about but I also! #don’t want to say anything stupid while I’m super emotional! #and I’m terrified of wearing ppl out with my bitchery! or being too much! #i just wanna be a good friend and person to have around and I feel like I’m inherently annoying augh! #which also makes me feel selfish bc I have ppl who care about me so it feels rude to still feel bad about myself augh!

[iamterribleatusernames]

my attraction boxes are like a square and there is male and female but there is also masculine and feminine and the catch is all the boxes are moving like tetris so i can be attracted to anyone at any given time

#excluding certain things of course #for being bisexual it’s usually not men #sometimes it’s a man though and when it is i feel like a rat with cheese #sexuality #lgbtqia #lgbtq community #lgbtq #queer #bisexual #law of attraction #attraction #WOMEN #people #people exist and they’re hot #if you’re attractive i’ll physically be unable to be in your presence #and not because i don’t like you #or i’m rude #but because i will be FLUSTERED #seeing really hot people makes me not know what to do with myself #trignometry #because i wanted to add a random tag #this won’t get taken down because of it right?

[tariah23]

Well, I’m still glad that Gojo was always a character who was growing and learning at least. He’s literally one of my favorite characters of all time now. Like, he’s never been as perfect as how the fans would make him out to be despite canonically being viewed as an absolute nuisance to everyone around him (I don’t think his peers necessarily hate him but a lot of them probably hate to see him coming and the ones who’ve dealt with him long enough to consider him a friend, tolerate him and groan whenever he opens his mouth, too 😭… out of love. He’s extremely childish so there is only sm the other adults around him can take and to an extent, his students. I think the only characters in canon who adore him and their eye’s sparkle whenever he’s around, and being a silly teacher was Yuuji and Miwa (she asked him for his autograph (he’s the most famous sorcerer in the jjk world) and when she was alone, she did a little dance in the empty hallway 🥺…) from what we’ve seen even though the others still care about him, too. They just find him rather annoying, which he most definitely is. And he does it on purpose. He plays too much.)

#I’m also not usually one to get annoyed whenever ppl shit on the things I like #like I’m an adult sorry idc 😵‍💫 #but it’s always annoying seeing ppl who know nothing about the story complaining about it #even just as recently with the Gojo being racist shit 😭.. #like he’s a really great character despite all of that and even though Gege’s #execution of that could’ve been better or didn’t need to happen at all #because idk what gege was doing even though I do strongly believe that he used a moment like this to showcase Gojo’s ignorance and #that how he’s also human and makes mistakes since if you’re familiar with the series Gojo isn’t really treated like person at all #more like a deity and he doesn’t like that #but he’s never been one to voice his personal feelings and talk about his trauma ever #he gets treated like a god and because of this he’s never felt like he could truly connect with other people #so that’s why he puts on that whole act of being overly friendly/ playing with others and even rude to shut others out because of his #aversion to opening his traumatized self To other ppl like he’s so cool #and when he’s friendly he gives the others just enough of his affection so that he wouldn’t be worried about and not have others pry #but he’s incredibly flawed as well #I feel like gege could’ve showed Gojo being ‘humbled’ some other kind of way over the racism tho 😭. But it’s fine lmfao #I’m still so grateful that he had Gojo actually apologize instead of waving Miguel off like he didn’t matter because like I’ve said before #he literally never apologizes (this is probably the first time that I’ve ever seen gojo apologize to anyone in canon I’m so serious 🗿) #that’s literally not part of him #like he feels regret but he never apologies or shows that he actually cares about what others are expressing to him when they’re upset with #him. like this is crazy. but it shows that he did care about the mistake that he made which I appreciate…. like idk how I would’ve felt #about his character if he showed that he could care less when hurting someone like this🗿….. #I adore him so much sorry sorry for taking about anime I’m just 😭…. ❤️❤️❤️ #rambling #I’m glad that everyone is fucking with Miguel now because he is a really interesting character even though we haven’t seen much of him #he’s one of the few ppl who Gojo trusted enough to look after someone who he cared about despite the horrors #because he knew that Miguel would protect yuuta and do right by him #it’s very 😭❤️…

[rosicheeks]

todays panties?

It’s always “todays panties?”

never “here’s $100 for being cute” 😤

#i know this has been done before #but idc #this is how I feel 😤 #also #no please? #like at least be polite my dude #rude lmao #also I’m not kidding I would appreciate $5 for being cute 👉👈 #pls & thankssss #cashapp $rosicheeks420 #venmo @ wickednyx #worth a shot lmao #ask #anon

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad. #whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’ #I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn? #it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence. #like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5. #overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names. #can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time

[aflawedfashion]

I hope Doug gets a win in the finale because this season really decided to destroy everything he loves and he needs a come back

#minx ​stop making me root for this man so much #it’s rude #he has flaws certainly #but he’s fun #he’s charasmatic #and he’s trying to do the right thing even when he messes up #he’s impulsive and gets in over his head a lot but that kind of makes the entire show work #he’s a good tv character #it keeps the show interesting #but this season became almost too aware of his flaws #(Joyce’s too) #like the writers read too many Reddit comments about how the characters are annoying and wrote to that #and I don’t think he needed to be pushed this far down to work on what he neeeded to work on #but I’m hopeful for the finale because I don’t think the show actually decided he needed to be destroyed as a human being #it looks like things might come to together and it should be a high energy episode #I always like to a give a show the chance to pull it all together #need to see where everything is going before i decide how I feel #and I do have hope #minx