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astaroth1357 · 1 year

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Showing the OM Cast Trashy Reality TV Shows

We all have our weaknesses. Mine is called "Watching People Who Watch Reality Shows Talk About Reality Shows I'll Never Actually Watch."

Contents: Well I mean. Reality TV if that spooks you.

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Lucifer

You cannot convince me this isn't a guilty pleasure of his. I can absolutely see him pulling on some sweatpants and watching Love Island with MC on lazy day.

Sometimes, when your life is stressful, you just want to sit down and watch the DUMBEST thing possible. Pure junk food for the gray matter, you know? Can't get enough of the trashy romance shows in particular.

He gets pretty invested, even if he denies it. He'll usually pick out a favorite person or favorite couple and gets PISSED if anything happens to them. Everyone else, he couldn’t care less about.

If he misses a week, he'll get a text from MC asking if his favorite person/couple is still doing okay and nothing more. If something big happened though, he'll secretly clear his schedule so he has time to watch it with them as soon as possible.

Very "husband who says he doesn't care but the second you mention the name of a person he doesn't like, he'll go on a 20 minute tirade" sorta vibe.

Mammon

A very enthusiastic enjoyer of these kinds of shows. He loves the drama!

Definitely has one of the long running-types (like Vanderpump Rules) like a comfort show, though he mostly sticks to Demon RTV. MC isn't going to have a CLUE what 2nd Circle Beats or Devildom Dynasty is all about...

Mammon strikes me as someone who either has been on or auditioned for a reality show in the past. Just... look at him. Tell me he hasn't!

His modeling agent probably told him to so he could get better shoots... But I'll guess he was pretty popular on whatever he showed up on. Fan favorite for sure!

Would definitely show MC some of his favorite shows if they're into that short of thing. Demon RTV is.... edgier (the violence gets pretty heated) but the causes are all the same. They should be in for a good time!

Leviathan

Reality TV is for normies!! Why would he want to watch that???

The very thought of watching attractive people go on and on about their love lives makes him physically ill... Like he doesn't get enough of that stuff from Asmo and Mammon already!!

If MC is going to try and get him to watch ANY of them, it has to be a show that's almost guaranteed to be a mess from the outset like Love After Lockup or MILF Manor (which is a crime against humanity, btw. Sigmund Freud haunts us all.)

Make him sit through a second of Too Hot to Handle or F-Boy Island and he may straight up dump them. Or melt into a smoldering pile of envious goo.

If easy-watching is what they want, why can't they watch something else? Like a cuddly Slice-of-Life or some dumb card game anime?? There's even sports anime FAR more worth their investment with a billion times the substance!!

Not a reality TV fan. Keep it away from him. He'll whine, mope, or go ballistic if he has to see it.

Satan

Approaches human reality shows kind of like he's watching a nature documentary... but still laughs at the stupid bits.

Watching a trashy reality show with Satan can be pretty entertaining because he'll spend the whole time trying to grasp "human culture" from all the chaos. Or try to deconstruct why anyone would want to what these shows AS one is playing.

What's even funnier is when he makes comparisons between how things happen in the show and how they would play out in Devildom instead. Like, if a succubus catches their SO cheating, they'll either add the new partner into the relationship or behead them both. Depends on the day.

Particularly fond of one's that follow around bombastic families because then he also gets to pick apart human family dynamics in the process.

MC has to constantly remind him that a lot of it is staged and not EVERYTHING he sees to true to human life.... but it is true to human entertainment.

Asmodeus

Keeps up with both human AND demon reality shows and has even hosted a couple in the past!

He LIVES for the tea! He BREATHES in the drama! Man can't get enough!! He'll even skim through the tabloids and keeps up with any feuds like he's following genuine war updates.

Since Asmo is such a popular figure in Devildom public life, it isn't even surprising for the paparazzi to stop HIM to get a few photos and ask him his opinions on any fights or scandals.

Unlike Mammon, he's never been in one himself (MC has no idea how bloody Demon RTV can get and does he want to ruin his skin like that?? Hell no!). He doew hang out with the stars of shows he likes all of the time, though.

He sometimes has watch parties with Mammon and MC gets invited along now. Being in the middle of those two is insane because it's like getting to know ALL of the dirty laundry of the kingdom's elite at every get together. Gossipy bitches be chattin' fr.

Beelzebub

Man will watch anything as long as they supply the snacks.

Does Beel care about reality shows? No. Not even a little bit. Will he watch all 16 seasons of Married at First Sight as long as MC refills his popcorn bowl? Absolutely!

Honestly, poor Beel can hardly keep up with the drama anyway... If a show has too many love triangles, he'll lose track of who's dating who and sit there lost for an excruciating amount of time.

Was even more confused about why anyone would watch these shows after MC told them they were staged. All that shouting is over nothing...?? This is a really weird genre...

MC would have an easier time getting him invested in like... I dunno a cooking game show than anything having to do with relationship drama. Though they would run the risk of soaking the couch in drool if they try...

Belphegor

Not super into them or super against them. He'll watch one in the background until he inevitably falls asleep.

Belphie is probably one of the brothers most likely to agree to watch any reality show MC wants with them, but with the understanding that's he's only using it as an excuse for cuddle time.

Belphie weirdly has both zero emotional investment in anything happening on the screen but also a frighteningly good memory for what actually happens per episode... MC could quiz him on actor personalities, timelines, scandals, or relationships and he'll somehow always get it right.

He can tell you that Vassago and Sitri from 2nd Circle Beats are having a feud over who sent the succubus to crash Baal's birthday party, but seriously don't expect him to care. He wants soft blankets and warm bodies to nap to. Give him that and he's happy.

Part of it is just learned behavior. Belphie was Asmo's go-to watch buddy for the longest time. Whatever part of his brain that soaks up class lessons in his sleep seems to work just as well for the dramatic minutiae of a reality show, so he's like a walking DVR.

Diavolo

Thinks that all reality shows are so quaint and amusing, but they definitely skew his impression on everyday human life...

After being exposed to some of the longer running shows, he was really surprised that MC and Solomon are so... chill with each other?

I mean. They weren't throwing drinks, talking shit, or stabbing each other in the back every second of day, right? Obviously they must be quite close!

He even comments on how truly well they must get along as Master and Apprentice! Such a beautiful bond... Stronger than their natural human impulse for complete social and emotional disorder!!

(Please educate him on actual human dynamics and NOT just the ones that get dramatized for TV. We're not that bad, Dia, promise.)

Barbatos

Doesn't exactly like the shows, nor does he have time for them, but if MC likes them then he'll swallow his distain.

Honestly, Barbs looks down on the humans in reality shows even more than he does most of humanity in general. The things some of them would do to chase fame is simply... Well. He looks forward to seeing certain individuals among damned one day.

He probably busies himself by giving MC a foot rub or caring for their nails while they watch their shows. Anything that can keep his eyes off the screen.

Occasionally, something OUTRAGEOUS will happen and MC will hear him make a small scoff of disapproval, but that's about it.

He's well aware that a portion of what is presented is fake or at least staged to some degree, so he doesn't let it paint his perception of human culture. That said, he thinks that anyone who's willing to make a spectacle of themselves for a public audience speaks quite enough on its own. (And seriously don't get him started on the demon variety of these shows unless you want to seem him get grouchy).

Simeon

Also not the biggest fan, but he does enjoy getting to guiltlessly throw shade from time to time.

At some level, Simeon thinks it's a little impolite to gawk at total strangers and judge how they handle their relationships... butvon the other hand, they ARE the ones who agreed to the cameras so...

Has a strict policy to never watch reality shows in front of Luke so he doesn't get a bad influence. But also, so the little angel doesn't end up hearing the absolute INFERNO that Simeon roasts the actors with.

"Ah... So naturally gifted in all but wits!" "I do believe that young man is quite familiar... I think I once saw something much like him at the bottom of my shoe." "Mm? MC? Are you sitting on the remote? I think you may have changed the channel to Devildom TV... No? Oh. My mistake. They just seemed so heartless that I thought they'd fit in well here..."

Tearing. Scathing. His contempt cannot be contained. It is, however, a good outlet for him so please let him roast away!

Solomon

Guy is so out of touch with the modern era that watching these shows is just as bizarre to him as watching a viewing screen into a Victorian ballroom would be to us. Who keeps creating these strange words every other month...?

Reality dating shows give him whiplash. People get married now after 90 days? Or at first sight?? Or before they even SEE each other at all??? The last time he ever thought of courtship, it was still mostly arranged by the couple's families... Things have really sped up.

Not that he's complaining too much, because that gives him all the more reason to go through with his fantasy of proposing to then marry the MC in less than 12 hours (or however long before the brothers notice he's attempting to steal them away).

He feels like he has a leg up on the angels and demons around them for once because at least MC doesn't have to stop and explain human customs to him every five seconds. ... Just the modern ones.

I feel like watching Reality TV with Solomon is a very, "Let's get a little drunk and laugh at the screen" sort of affair. Very loose with a lot of jokes flying at the actors expense. He may or may not remember what all happens in the show, but hey, it's good fun!

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iliveiloveiwrite · 3 years

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Butterbeer and BonBons // S.B. (celebration fic)

Request: C O N G R A T U L A T I O N S ON 1.25K 🥳🥳🥳 You deserve this and I love your fics so much! I’m not sure if this is right but, may I please have Sirius with Misc. 2, 3, and 4 in Hogsmeade? Thank youu! 💙 - @inkhearthes

Misc 2: “I wasn't sure which flavour you liked so I got all of them.”

Misc 3: “What happened?”

Misc 4: “You’re giving me a headache.”

A/N: I cannot apologise enough for how long this has taken me. Honestly, there aren't enough words to tell you how sorry I am, but thank you for your sweet words. This is honestly self indulgent fluff that has more pining in it than any form of a plot but it’s been a long week so forgive me please.

Warnings: THIS FOCUSES A LOT ON CHOCOLATE AND SWEETS. BE AWARE OF MENTIONS OF FOOD. Some swearing, pining, mutual pining, so much fluff your teeth will rot, teenagers in love, teenage angst

Word count: 3.5k

It wasn’t often that the long haired Marauder offered his services as a tutor; it wasn’t often for the fact that he simply didn’t want to help anyone outside of his friends. For you, however, he would drop all his plans to spend an evening with you recalling the events of the Gargoyle Strike of 1911.

For you, Sirius would happily accept the teasing and the jokes from his friends. For you, Sirius would happily sit through the dullest of lectures. It hadn’t been long since Sirius realised his feelings for you; his affection for you taking him by surprise but soon settling deep within him, becoming part of his very being as he watched and admired you from afar.

The library had long since emptied; the last two students being you and Sirius this close to curfew. It had been hours since you had stepped outside the large, cavernous room, wanting nothing more than to overcome the troublesome essay that had been set by Professor Binns. It had been hours since you started; hours since you had taken your designated seat next to Sirius and began your work.

This long in, a headache was starting to form behind your eyes, making it increasingly hard to focus. “You’re giving me a headache, Sirius,” You moan, rubbing your temples with two fingers as Sirius pauses his mini-lecture to take a breath.

Sirius laughs, closing his books, “That’s enough studying then.”

You smile gratefully at the long haired marauder, “Thank you for helping me, I know you aren’t the biggest fan of this subject.”

“No,” He states dryly, “I can’t say I’m Professor Binn’s biggest fan.”

“Still,” You sigh, “You didn’t have to help, but you did, so thank you.”

Sirius shakes his head, dismissing your gratitude. He would have helped you regardless; he didn’t need to extra credit for being a tutor nor did he care much for it. He just wanted to help you; he would always help you.

You roll your eyes, smiling at him as you begin to close the masses of leather bound books surrounding you. Book after book had been pulled from the shelves as you started to get to the crux of your essay, and now you wanted to groan at the task of putting them back in their rightful place.

“Fancy a trip?” Sirius asks suddenly; mischief shining bright in his eyes, personified further by the growing smirk on his lips.

You raise an eyebrow, placing the last book on its correct shelf. “That depends,” You state warily, “What did you have in mind?”

His smirk grows larger; he leans forward, resting his forearms on the table, “Shall we go to Hogsmeade?”

You immediate reaction is to laugh. It wasn’t a Hogsmeade weekend, and it wouldn’t be for another two weeks. “How are we going to Hogsmeade when it isn’t a Hogsmeade weekend, Sirius?”

Sirius shakes his head; refusing to answer your question. Instead, he stands, holding out a hand for you to take. “Do you trust me?” He asks; voice full of sincerity.

Wordlessly, you nod, taking his hand and letting him lead you from the library. He doesn’t let loose as he leads you to the staircase; stepping onto one and letting it lead the way.

“What?” You smile; leaning closer to him on instinct, wanting to know the joke that has him grinning like a fool.

Sirius shakes his head, “I just can’t believe I got you to sneak about the castle with me. You’ve never done something this bad.”

“Sirius!” You shout; tapping his shoulder gently, “I can be bad.”

Sirius doubles over; laughter pouring out of him almost uncontrollably. You stand next to him, waiting with crossed arms and an even crosser facial expression. “Sirius!” You shout once more; this time with anger lacing your tone, “What’s so funny?”

Sirius straightens up; dramatically wiping away any and all non-existent tears, “Just the idea that you can be bad, love. How many house points have you lost in our seven years of Hogwarts?”

You purse your lips, not enjoying having the fun picked out of you. “None,” You confirm, “Unlike some people.”

Sirius quirks an eyebrow at your pointed words. He shouldn’t, but he likes how easily he gets under your skin. He enjoys riling you up, getting you worked up. It gives him hope that he affects you just as much as you affect him; that perhaps his feelings for you are not unrequited after all, that you do in fact harbour some romantic feelings for him after all. He would think it a miracle, but he thinks it, nonetheless.

“This way,” He murmurs, pulling you in the direction of the one-eyed witch statue.

You repress the urge to slow your steps, holding nothing but blind faith in Sirius that he isn’t going to lead you on a path that could cause trouble. You begin to frown as you approach the one-eyed witch statue; her stance and eerie gaze enough to make you uncomfortable in the daytime. However, as evening descends, her gaze becomes close to terrifying.

“Why are we here, Sirius? I thought we were going to Hogsmeade?”

He nods towards the statues, another smile breaking across his face, “That’s how we’re getting to Hogsmeade.”

You eye the statues; the size of it compared to the size of you both has you doubting Sirius’ sanity somewhat. “How exactly?”

Sirius nudges your shoulder with his before dropping your hand, “Are you ready?”

You nod eagerly; desperate to know just how this statue would be your key to the small village outside of the grounds of the school. Sirius steps towards the statue with the air of someone who had done this a thousand times before, if not more.

Straining your hearing, you just about make out the word whispered by Sirius, “Dissendium.”

There’s a creaking noise first; then the grinding noise of stone against stone as you watch the back of the one-eyed witch open, revealing a passageway big enough for two. Sirius turns to you, a shit-eating grin on his face as he takes in your gobsmacked expression. He gestures to the hole in the back of the witch, “After you.”

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Popping up out of the floor, you recognise your location by scent alone. The overwhelming scent of sugar and chocolate had you guessing you were underneath Honeyduke’s sweet shop. Brushing down your robes, you turn to the teenager who waits for your reaction, “Honeyduke’s?”

“Honeyduke’s,” He confirms, striding confidently towards the door. A nervous whimper leaving your mouth has him freezing in place. “Love?” He asks.

“We can’t just go out there!” You argue, “What if we’re seen? What if we’re caught and marched back to the castle? We could get expelled for this!”

“I doubt it,” Sirius states, a smile in his voice, “I’ve been coming here for years and haven’t been caught since.”

You fold your arms; glaring at the long haired Marauder, “Gee, thanks, that fills me with so much confidence.”

Sirius marches back to you. He places both hands gently on either side of your face, “Love, would I have risked bringing you here if I thought we were going to get caught?”

“No?” You state, but your voice raises at the end, making it more of a question.

“No,” Sirius confirms, “I would never risk you, so let’s have a nice evening and some fun. What do you think?”

You hesitate; teeth worrying your bottom lip as you glance between the teenager who has nothing but sincerity in his eyes and smile, and the hole in the ground that would lead you to sure safety but boredom.

“Love?” Sirius prompts, “If you don’t want to do this, we can head straight back.”

You shake your head; the continued use of that term of endearment combined with your want and need to spend time with him has your heart winning over your mind. You step past him, facing him over your shoulder, “Are you coming or what?”

His answering grin is enough for you to know you’ve made the right decision.

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Despite the sickly sweet scent that often gave you a headache, Honeyduke’s was one of your favourite shops in Hogsmeade. It had such a wonderful atmosphere and the sweets created were nothing short of genius. It had become tradition after your third visit to the shop in your Third Year to stock up on Chocolate Frogs and Fizzing Whizzbees, however, this time you didn’t have your stash of sugary treats in mind.

A floor to ceiling shelf was dedicated to the craft of Honeyduke’s. The chocolate created by the owner being famous across the wizarding world for its creaminess but also its extent of flavours. Heading immediately there, you fix your gaze on the brightly coloured labels, pondering the best tasting flavours.

Sirius joins you; eyes pouring over the countless bars of chocolate. “What shall we do now that we’re here?”

You tap a finger to your cheek as you continue to read the labels, admitting shyly, “I’m not too sure. I’m surprised I’m here.”

Sirius laughs, “It’s surprised me too.”

You nod towards the door, “I’ll meet you outside? I just want to buy something.”

Sirius smiles down at you as he nods, “I’ll be out by the bench across the street.”

You don’t take very long once Sirius leaves; the bell above the door chiming as he goes. You grab a handful of bars from the shelves; making sure to pick an array of flavours and drop them on the counter. The worker eyes your robes but doesn’t say anything as he rings you up, placing the delicious sweets in a paper bag and handing it to you.

Spying Sirius where he said he would be, you rush to his side, already feeling the harshness of the howling wind. “I wasn’t sure what flavour you liked so I got all of them,” You comment lightly, hoping not to make a big deal over what you had done for the teenager you had a crush on.

Sirius laughs – his real laugh; a happy sound that brings a grin to your face as it was a sound so few heard and those that did, treasured. You felt fortunate that you could now be included in the select few.

He takes the bag from you, already smelling the sweet scent of the chocolate in the bag. “What have you bought?” He asks, voice teasing.

You grin up at him; wishing you had a camera in this moment to capture the curious look on his face. All his expressions should be captured, you think, everything about him should be immortalised on film. You shake your head, “I splurged a little.”

He opens the bag; curiosity getting the better of him as his mouth begins to water at the rich scent of dark chocolate. “Honeyduke’s chocolate?”

You nod your head, “I overheard you and Remus saying you had finished your stash. I thought it would be an apt opportunity to start that stash back up when you brought me here.”

Unexpectedly, Sirius surges forward, pressing a kiss to your cheek. Your face heats immediately, unable to truly comprehend the way it feels. It feels too good; it feels like something you want him to do again, over and over for however long possible.

He clears his throat, rubbing a hand across the back of his neck, slightly embarrassed at his sudden show of affection, “Thank you. I didn’t expect that.”

You wave away his gratitude as he had done earlier with you. “I wish we had time to grab warmer robes,” You shiver; rubbing your arms to warm up some as you trundle through the ankle deep snow. You bite your bottom lip, looking down at your snow covered feet, thinking that by the time you return to the castle with Sirius in tow, there was a very good chance that the snowfall will have increased.

Sirius snorts, throwing an arm around your shoulders and tugging you to his side. The simple, unthought action has you warming up considerably; not expecting this form of affection from Sirius in the slightest. His hand rubs your upper arm; the friction and his proximity warming you up faster that you realise.

“Come on,” He starts; nodding his head towards the popular meet up for Hogwarts students, “Let’s grab you a butterbeer and warm up slightly.”

“My saviour,” You comment; a wry smile on your slips as you let him usher you into The Three Broomsticks. Like the gentleman he has been raised to be, Sirius holds the door open to the tavern open for you, his cheeks aflame as he realises how much he likes being called your saviour even if it was said sarcastically.

Grabbing a booth close to the roaring fire, Sirius leaves you with a warm smile as he heads to the bar. Madame Rosmerta had spotted him when he walked in; she had smiled at him broadly before her eyes widened when she saw you. Sirius is immediately dragged into an interrogation at the bar whilst you’re left at the booth, warming your hands by the flames of the large fire.

The longer Sirius remains at the bar, the louder the whispers get from the booth next to you. Filled with students from your year but ones you had never spoken to before, you shuffled down in your seat, close to burying your face in your robes and wishing to melt away like the snow. Their laughter rings in your ears, and you know it isn’t from a joke freshly told but rather at your expense.

Their laughter makes some sense. The evening so far hadn’t made any sense. Sirius had been tutoring you in History of Magic for weeks; happily volunteering to the task when asked by Professor Binns. However, his sudden want to spend time with you outside of school wasn’t wholly understandable, and it did very little to help you curb your growing feelings for the long haired Marauder.

They weren’t the sort of feelings that crept up on you overnight; surprising you and leaving you breathless. No – these feelings had been there a long time, simmering away in the recesses of your mind where Sirius often featured as the main character of your daydreams. Not long after the start of your tutoring sessions did you come to see how easy it was to fall for the charms of the Marauder. His easy smile and his bright eyes; his charming personality and his sharp wit. All perfect contributors for a gut wrenching, heart clenching crush.

Two steins of butterbeer land on the table, snapping you out of your ponderings; foam splashing down the sides, creating a small puddle on the age old wooden table. Sirius swears lightly; rushing to grab napkins to sop up the mess before sitting down across from you, taking a large swig of his drink.

“What happened? You’re quieter now than before I left,” Sirius asks; a note of concern in his voice as he glances between you and the group of teenagers now watching you two. He furrows his eyebrows as you shake your head, refusing to answer. Instead, you focus your attention on the cinnamon stick poking out of your butterbeer. Sirius had bought the flavour on a whim; Madame Rosmerta wanting to try out her new festive flavour on the patron who visits her the most. How could Sirius say no to such an offer? Besides, Madame Rosmerta had let him stay late in the tavern when things at Hogwarts and things at home became too much. She kept an eye on him, and for that, he would happily and gratefully try out every new flavour of butterbeer she concocted.

Sirius reaches across the table; gently taking your hand in his. His thumb rubs across the back of your hand in such a comforting motion that tears burn the back of your throat as you shake your head. “You know,” He mumbles, head tilted to you, “Keeping it all in doesn’t help. You can tell me anything.”

You sigh, plucking the cinnamon stick from your drink and placing it on the napkin next to it. Shrugging your shoulders in what you hope is a nonchalant manner, you answer, “They were just rude to me, that’s all.”

Sirius’ frown deepens, “There’s no ‘that’s all’ about it – no-one should be rude to you full stop.”

You smile, flipping your hand to squeeze his fingers, “Thank you, but it’s fine, really.”

His frown loosens, and you know he doesn’t believe you. However, he doesn’t push, and he doesn’t let go of your hand, he keeps it in a tight hold as he takes a sip of his butterbeer, smacking his lips at the sugary taste of butterscotch and cinnamon.

“How are you feeling about the Gargoyle Strike of 1911 now?” He asks; wanting to get your mind off of whatever had brought your mood down.

You smile smally, sitting up in your seat, “A lot better now. I don’t know why I find History of Magic so hard.”

Sirius chuckles: a finger tapping the stein of his butterbeer, “We don’t have the most entertaining of teachers, love.”

“You’re right,” You snort, “Binns is a bit of a bore, isn’t he?”

Sirius leans back in his chair; eyes wide as he gasps dramatically. He drops your hand somewhat reluctantly to press it to his chest. “What’s this?” He all but shouts, “(Y/N) sneaking out of the castle and chatting shit about a teacher all in one night? Am I in a parallel universe or something?”

You laugh, flicking your cinnamon stick at him which he catches with ease. “Not in a parallel universe,” You reassure, shrugging, “Just the realisation that I can have fun sometimes.”

Sirius grins: smile wide and straight, white teeth on show as he realises the extent to which you’ve relaxed over your evening with him.

It isn’t long before butterbeers are finished and muffled yawns are leaving your mouth. You do your best to stay alert, but the sugar crash from the overly sweet drink is imminent. The evening had felt like something out of a dream; never in your wildest imagining did you think you would be spending a night outside of the castle with Sirius Black. You never imagined that he would be the one to make your heart feel like it is about to beat right out of your chest, yet he does.

Biting your lip, you begin to realise just how much you don’t want this evening to end. The very thought of turning away from him to return to your room has sadness pooling in your stomach. It dampens your mood and ruins your sugar high. It hits you all at once; the strength of your want to spend every evening with him. It knocks you breathless; eyes wide as you rake your gaze over the intent expression on Sirius’ face.

There is so much more he wants to say; so much more he wants to find out about you. He wants to know what makes you laugh, what makes you cry. He wants to know your favourite book and why; he wants to be the one to read to you from it, watching your reactions to moments you long knew were coming. He wants to be the one you do everything with, and it all starts with cinnamon flavoured butterbeer and bags of chocolate.

“Shall we head back?” Sirius asks, standing from his seat and waiting for you.

You nod silently, gathering your wits and steeling yourself for the bitter winter wind waiting for you.

You inhale sharply as the first gust of wind travels over your body. You long of nothing more than Sirius’ arm around your shoulders; the action he showed earlier that warmed you up better than any blanket and any fire could.

Walking back to the castle, neither of you bother with the secret tunnel under Honeyduke’s cellar. Instead, even though neither of you dare utter the words, the both of you don’t want the evening to end. Between you both, it felt like the start of something more. It felt like the start of a closer friendship and a deeper relationship, but neither were ready to confront the feelings that were quite obviously there.

Your hands brush repeatedly as you amble back to the castle. The sky has long since darkened, and the both of you know that the caretaker will be prowling the castle, searching for students out past curfew. However, as Sirius’ hand brushes yours, fingers reaching out for yours, the jolt of electricity sent up your arm has you not caring about the caretaker and the consequences or the weather that threatens a chest cold. All you care about as the turret of Gryffindor tower is illuminated by the moon is the teenager walking beside you, wondering what the future could possibly hold with him by your side.

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Sirius Black taglist: @approved-by-dentists @fific7 @susceptible-but-siriusexual @just-a-belgian-girl

#Sirius Black #sirius black x reader #sirius x reader #sirius black imagine #sirius black imagines

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samwilsonshandsandass · 4 years

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Age of man, edge of darkness, watching over, lover leaver 💛💫

Age Of Man: Have you been to one of their concerts? If so which song was the best for you live? If not what song are you most excited to hear live in the future? Sadly not since I became a fan after they finished their European dates last year and now they’re on a well deserved break apart from the whole corona virus. But if I could see them some time in the future I’d like to see them cover something originally by John Lee Hooker, because of the blues and all, but anything where Danny could go absolutely feral would be appreciated!

Edge Of Darkness: Who is your favorite member and why? List specific reasons.Danny! I was drawn to him because of how strong he looks but also so, so soft and calm when he’s not playing. Like he’s a rock and you can always depend on him and he’d support you. Oh, and I’m good at guessing if someone is shorter or the same height or taller than me from pictures alone and I’m almost always drawn to people taller than me.

Watching Over: What song do you want them to cover the most?Some song by John Lee Hooker would be awesome!

Lover, Leaver: How did you discover them and what made you a fan?I actually discovered them through tumblr last autumn. Tumblr kept showing me posts with and about them and then I finally gave them a listen and saw so many pics of Danny, I was hooked!

Thanks love!Send me Anthem of the Peaceful Army asks

#ask #satingrass-maidensfair

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keldae · 5 years

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Interview Meme

1. Choose an OC.

2. Answer them as that OC.

3. Tag 5 people to do the same.

Thanks for the tag, @greyias! Let’s tag.... @garbonzobeanz66 @andveryginger @lumielles

Xaja’s up for the questions, roughly now in-game (24 ATC).

1. What is your name?

“Xaja Elynnai Taerich.”

2. Do you know why are you named that?

"Taerich is my dad’s surname, and I think Elynnai was a family name from Mum’s side?”

3. Are you single or taken?

*says nothing, just raises her left hand with her wedding ring and smirks*

4. Have any abilities or powers?

"Like telekinesis or telepathy or Force-pouncing on things? No idea what you’re talking about.” *she says, smirking, as a few loose datapads and comlinks start floating in the air around her.*

5. Stop being a Mary Sue.

*smirk goes away, and she flatly stares at the interviewer while raising a single finger at them. And not the wedding-ring-sporting finger.*

6. What’s your eye color?

“Green.”

7. How about your hair color?

“Uhhh... bright red. You’re not so good with the observational skills, are you?”

8. Have any family members?

“Sometimes I’ll admit I’m related to a Sith Lord and a career criminal and the snarkiest spy to come out of the Empire.” *she smiles* “I also married the cleverest spy to come out of the Republic, and we have a son together.”

9. Oh? How about pets?

“Officially, no. Unofficially, don’t get Theron started, he’ll go on for days about the critters I find. For the record, Scritchy the rakghoul adopted me, not the other way around, so he doesn’t count.”

10. That’s cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don’t like?

"Spiders, dumb questions, and people calling me ‘Missy’.”

11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?

"I like reading, maybe writing a little bit. I also can play the space equivalent of a Terran violin and like dancing!”

12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?

*slight frown* “... Yes.”

13. Ever… killed anyone before?

*bitter snort* “I lost count a long time ago.”

14. What kind of animal are you?

"Felinx. I’m either the cuddliest person around or I’m a high risk to claw eyes out of the people I greatly dislike. There is no middle ground.”

15. Name your worst habits?

“Uhhh... Going to bed way too late, yelling insults at people I really don’t like -- are you still mad about ‘dear and fluffy emperor’ over the HoloNet to all of Zakuul, Arcann? Yes? Whoops. -- and to hear certain people like my husband tell it, jumping headfirst into dangerous things without looking first.” *she frowns* “Like he can talk...”

16. Do you look up to anyone at all?

*deadpans* “Literally everyone except Blizz and Tee-Seven is taller than me, so...”

17. Are you gay, straight or bisexual?

"I think the most correct term is ‘bi-romantic demisexual’?”

18. Do you go to school?

“Does Jedi training count? Master Allende and Master Orgus trained me well.”

19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?

"Didn’t I already say I’m married and have a son?”

20. Do you have any fangirls/fanboys?

“Considering I have to get Lana to screen most of my mail and I regularly hear her laughing at some particularly good pieces of ‘fanmail’...”

21. What are you most afraid of?

"Ummm...” *frowns* “Spiders... restraints... having another presence in my brain...”

22. What do you usually wear?

“Depends. Running around Odessen’s base, usually a jacket and tunics. On the battlefield, light armour. In private, a tank top and sweat pants, usually.”

23. What’s one food that tempts you?

“Oooooh. Corellian buckwheat noodles -- but specifically from this one little vendor on Coruscant...”

24. Am I annoying to you?

"Not yet?”

25. Well, it’s still not over!

“Okay, you’re starting to get there now.”

26. What class are you (low/middle/high)?

".... That’s a good one. In terms of traditional Jedi income, I think I’m low-class; but considering I’m frequently rubbing shoulders with and headslapping or telling off the galaxy’s elite -- yes, Arcann, that meant you -- I think that makes me high class?”

27. How many friends do you have?

"Lots of friends, a few very close ones.”

28. What are your thoughts on pie?

“Om nom nom.”

29. Favorite drink?

“Depending on the time of day, caf, stimtea, or whiskey.”

30. What’s your favorite place?

*thinks about it for a minute, smiling softly* “Rishi, I think. I’m fond of Coruscant too... and my old ship.”

31. Are you interested in anyone?

“The guy who put this ring on my finger that you seem to keep forgetting about.”

32. That was a stupid question…

“No, really?”

33. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?

"Ocean!”

34. What’s your type?

“Smart, sarcastic, mysterious, dreamy voice, tall, dark, and handsome.” *she says while smiling at the guy with the matching ring to her own... who, conveniently, has all that criteria.*

35. Any fetishes?

*blushes bright red and mumbles* “That’s private!”

36. Camping or outdoors?

“Outdoors. I’m not a fan of camping if I don’t have to. Wait, isn’t camping outdoors? That question made no sense!”

#thanks for the tag!#Xaja #meme #swtor #you better believe she called Arcann a dear and fluffy Emperor with Zakuul listening in #he was not happy #still better than what she yelled at Malgus

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riverrspond · 6 years

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Rules: tag ten followers you want to know better! :)

Tagged by @sansapond thank you hun :) Good to pass that study time

NAME: Silke

STAR SIGN: Taurus

HEIGHT: 158,5 cm ( yes the half is important)

WHAT’S YOUR MIDDLE NAME? Lisa

PUT YOUR ITUNES ON SHUFFLE. WHAT ARE THE FIRST 4 SONGS THAT POPPED UP?

That’ll be my spotify playlist I haven’t updated or listened to in months oops

Africa - Toto

We Built This City - Starship

Good Times - CHIC

I’m Gonna Be - The Proclaimers

GRAB THE BOOK NEAREST YOU AND TURN TO PAGE 23. WHAT’S LINE 17? It’s one of my books from uni. “Mede vanuit handelingsgericht oogpunt, verdient het dan ook aanbeveling om dergelijke items ter bespreking voor te leggen aan de cliënt.” I can not be bothered to translate :p

EVER HAD A POEM OR SONG WRITTEN ABOUT YOU? Yes.. (I’m not a fan of poems)

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU PLAYED AIR GUITAR? I don’t really do that often so I’d guess one of my home-alone-crazy-dance-sessions

WHO IS YOUR CELEBRITY CRUSH? Ah I think Emma Watson will always be number one though Gal Gadot is coming close

WHAT’S A SOUND YOU HATE + SOUND YOU LOVE? I’m not sure if there’s a sound I hate, any sound when I try to concentrate + sound I love, the crackling of a fire (also the ice cream truck but that bitch has changed it’s route)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS? I’m neutral about ghosts

HOW ABOUT ALIENS? Also neutral

DO YOU DRIVE? Yes

IF SO, HAVE YOU EVER CRASHED? No thank god

WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (reread)

DO YOU LIKE THE SMELL OF GASOLINE? ew no

WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU SAW? Zootopia, it was on tv last night

DO YOU HAVE ANY OBSESSIONS RIGHT NOW? Hollow Knight. It’s taking me ages to beat the game but soon...soon (after studying fml)

DO YOU TEND TO HOLD GRUDGES AGAINST PEOPLE WHO HAVE DONE YOU WRONG? It depends on what happened and I won’t really hold grudges very long but I also will not forget.

IN A RELATIONSHIP? Yes (not with the poemwriter thankfully)

I’ll tag: @jenswans @cuppateadeer @ofedmundandlucy @deckerswans(I’d tag more people but they be changing urls and I have no clue who is who anymore :o)

#tag game

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amisbro · 7 years

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Breaking down Broccoli’s Messages

(a.k.a. “The Method to the Madness”) Alright SO...since we are less than 2 weeks out for Uta no Prince-Sama’s 7th Anniversary I wanted to go and break down some things that I thought were interesting when it came to both Broccoli (The company that owns the rights to UtaPri) and also Sentai Filmworks who does the distribution here in the US What is going to follow is a rather detailed breakdown of when the series started airing to present and also certain other things that I have found of interest as...it would appear that this “UtaPri detective” might be close to cracking what is Broccoli’s code on June 24th! Ready... Set... GO!

Okay so where do we begin...let’s start on 2011 and 2013...specifically July 2nd of 2011 and then April 3rd of 2013. Now why are we going to use these dates in particular? Here’s why! Have you ever looked up the dates between when the (original) games for the PSP games came out in Japan and the release dates for the Seasons came out? Its really quite fascinating July 2nd, 2011 is when S1 of UtaPri came out and what is interesting about this is that not long after (August 11th of that same year) was the ORIGINAL Repeat that came out on the PSP...a game that I actually own for the system and have to finish at some point but I just haven’t gotten to it yet. At this time also in UtaPri land 3 games had already been released for PSP before the remake of the first one. In order they were The ORIGINAL Uta no Prince-Sama (June 24th, 2010) Amazing Aria (December 23rd, 2010) Sweet Serenade (February 10th, 2011) Now keep this in mind too: These three games released BEFORE S1...what was the reason? The obvious answer (and the very likely one is that they wanted to make sure that they had a lot of stuff to use for STARISH if they wanted to do a series...well they did a Season 1 and then at the “ambiguous” message of “See You Next Time” in the final title card it almost seemed cut and dry after the debut of STARISH in the Anime that they would get to a second series...a second series where the rules changed and we got to start “expansion” of the UtaPri world” BEFORE THAT! Broccoli wanted to make sure that the fans were introduced to new characters outside of the ones they already know (i.e. the STARISH boys, Saotome, Tsukimiya and Hyuuga) so two more games would come out before April 2, 2013 Debut (May 24, 2012...3 days before Maeno’s 30th birthday) All-Star (March 7th, 2013 and became notable for the first game you could date the QN boys) So keep this in mind because its at this point where e get ready also for the second series in April pf 2K13 and NOT ONLY do we meet the QUARTET NIGHT BUT...Shining starts to really show his cunning by subtly introducing a new unit that wanted to take on STARISH but at the time he simply called them “A trio of Amateurs” The Anime comes and we do meet QUARTET NIGHT but during the final 3-4 episodes of ML2K we find out that there is a “rival group” and I seriously hesitate to use that word but others do so let’s go with it for now. The trio, as we find out, is brought on by a competitive and twisted man named Raging Ootori and his son Eiichi is the leader. The group HEAVENS would be the pawns in a twisted match where the loser would be forced to disband. Its at this time you can ask the following question: Is this story going to end after two seasons? OR Do the producers and the people behind the scenes have a “bigger plan” for not just HEAVENS but also STARISH and QN? Well HEAVENS would lose as one would find out and...at the time you might not have been the biggest fan of that trio because Eii came on so strong that contact cement wanted him to chill out and Nagi (at the time) was a brat...I admit this wholeheartedly! The thing was they didn’t end the series with a message like “Thanks for watching” or the “STARISH FOREVER” message that we would see later in this unique setup...no they said “See you next time” which made things rather intriguing! What could broc be planning? Christmas day of 2013 we found out! 12/25/2013 an OVA which has only ever released in Japan called “Shining Star Xmas” was released and it was during the OVA that Reiji convinced the QUARTET NIGHT to work together again because of the inspiration he had gotten from their Juniors (remember that the plot of S2 was SUPPOSED to be that QN and STARISH were Senior/Juniors) and they decided to go and make more music and also take on STARISH. Now let’s pump the brakes because this is where Sentai comes in It was towards the end of 2013 that Sentai announced they had gotten the rights to release S1 and 2 of Uta no Prince-Sama in the US. S1 would release in January and S2 would be in August. I thought it was interesting that they did it this way but then again I am curious if that is a common practice or I’m just losing it! ANYWAYS So S1 and 2 get released here and other songs would come out for the series not Anime related up until about 2015 and during the lead up we would start to get a lot of little hints about the new season that was announced not the least of which would have STARISH doing “cross units” (I fail to see how they were to a degree but I’ll go with it) while the solo idol songs this time around would go TO...my boys of the QN! Fun fact time for this that might not have been in the know: The date of the OR release for season 3 AND the date of this past stage were the EXACT SAME DAY...take a guess which left a better taste in my mouth ANYWHO! So S3 happens with the two groups working to see who would get to appear as the rep for Shining Agency for the Triple S! Wait...what is this and why are they doing this? Alright politic time! So...in 2013 (so this back around S2) the IOC (International Olympic Committee) was selecting the host city for the games of 2020. The three countries that were up for it were Turkey, Spain and the eventual winner which would be Japan to see who would host the games. Japan won and for the past 4 years they have been getting ready for the games and its going to be interesting to see not just how it sets up but also who opens the games as there has been a poll for the public to see which group gets to perform the Opening Ceremony...this is kind of like what would become the storyline between STARISH and QN for at least the 3rd season except...well let’s talk about it During Season 3 a rift would begin to open between STARISH and QN and this was ESPECIALLY the case when they said they would take Haruka if they won (this is the same thing FYI that HEAVENS said or more specifically Eiichi...it was VERY INTERESTING to hear trust me). Now what made this also interesting was towards the end of the season and Reiji made a declaration that they would keep facing STARISH until they surpassed them! Now surely this “moving out of the dorms” couldn’t be game ref right? WRONG See Broc likes to drop things that happen in the GAME WORLD into the Anime...except I think when they leave in the game its under happier terms...I haven’t got that far in the TL yet! we SHOULD mention that the game “All Star After Secret” was released before this series came out. The date of the game was March 12th, 2015 and, to date, is the final PSP game that has been released in the series. the other 2 games on the PSP were both Rhythm Games that were called “Uta no Prince-Sama MUSIC” with (so far) the final game being released on the VITA om January 28th, 2015 NOW we get to have some fun! In the midst of all of this Broccoli DOES announced another Visual Novel game for UtaPri called “Dolce Vita” (Translation: The Sweet Life) which follows the 11 boys after ASAS. Also Broccoli announces a partnership with KLAB who is behind the series “Love Live” and NOW things get interesting because LL: School Idol Festival DOES I believe have an English release...hmm! Back to the Anime At the end of Series 3 HEAVENS reappears as a 7 member group and each member would be a counterpart to a particular member of STARISH (ex: Eiichi/Oto, Masa/Kira, Van/Ren etc.) and they performed HEAVENS GATE again...aight! At the end of the season two things are put up on the screen: “To be continued...” and “SEE YOU NEXT SEASON” Aight...this is interesting! It should also be noted that during the season that Sentai announced licensing S3 (Maji Love Revolutions) but it was interesting that even though they announced licensing it they didn’t release it...why? The answer doesn’t come until after the 2016 season and into this year when they announced that they WOULD release both of them...but about that 2016 season During S3 there were fans that speculated (both on here and facebook) that S3 was it for Utapri...now we forgot that STARISH saved HEAVENS from disbandment for a reason and that became apparent when we got to the end of “R” as the North American license calls it and now that might have come back to bite them. HEAVENS didn’t appear at 5th stage for the announcement but in January of 2016 it was announced that the season would air in October of 2016 which breaks the two year cycle for UtaPri! Up to this point they only did one season every 2 years and now they did this...interesting When Season 4 was announced (called “Legend Star”) what form it would take would be interesting...what we got was a duet season with STARISH and HEAVENS (a proper C-U if i can say that) and then the fun began! for the most part it was an interesting season...especially if you were on the HEAVENS side watching it to see how the boys of HEAVENS were represented. Most of the time they were okay with some genuine sweethearts in ther (hello Eiji, Shion and Van), one that was rough around the edges in Yamato, another that...depends how you want take him in Nagi, Kira was a saint and then Eii...the most controversial of the original trio! What became somewhat clear in HEAVENS is they wanted fans to try and accept them...I already had after a second viewing of S2 but for some it was trickier and I get that! What was interesting was to see if the situation with Eiichi would cause more fans to sympathize...or if they wanted to forever turn against HEAVENS Episodes 9-11 would become one of the bloodiest battlegrounds in an Anime as far as fandoms went. You were either looking for ways to prove (and you had plenty) that Eiichi meant well but he might have just gone a LITTLE TOO FAR and then you had the crew that wanted his head on stick even if there was more evidence that what he did wasn’t completely his fault! Now that not withstanding here is where it gets interesting and this deals in the end cards for the season First off on AniPlus’ facebook page they specifically stated this was the SEASON finale and not SERIES. They actually made that mistake with DRIFTERS when that was getting ready to wrap up and then had to retract it. Crunchyroll also promoted the final episode of YOI as the SERIES finale and who knows...the series MIGHT be over and the Movie is the last you get of it but the way of advertising the final episode towards the end of a few seasons...it was intersting Okay now let’s get really good! So the end cards...let’s recap how they did the end cards for S1-3 1000% - “See You Next Time” 2000% - Same Revolutions - To Be Continued/See You Next Season Legend Star - the “STARISH FOREVER” message and then the Message about the Animation Project Here is what I have found interesting so far For STARISH there have been 4 games where they were the sole focus (remember Debut was only when QN came in but they weren’t playable yet) AS/ASAS were so far the games when QN comes in as playable characters Nothing on HEAVENS...YET! NOW it gets good though After the finale if you went on the twitter for UtaPri they first wished the fans a Merry Christmas from Shining Agency BUT ALSO Raging Agency...I wonder why they also had a message about the new project on their twitter but they used three words that were key I think FROM NOW ON when you read that it almost sounds like both Agencies will be active right? I can jive! Now we get to NOT 5/27 of this year BUT 5/24 which was 3 days before the concert (and the now infamous debacle) It would seem that, when you get to breaking it down so far Broc has been strategic in WHEN they start expanding the UtaPri Universe and HOW they dod it right? There is a reason I bring this up According to the translation of the blog post which was put up three days before the concert it has some interesting wording towards the end “Please watch the development of this work that sets Uta no Prince-Sama Sports and Expansion of this world” Okay...WTF?! THIS POST was brought to my attention by my dear friend @shiningstarish (P.S. Nadie one of these days you have to tell me what that blog title means) and when I read the whole thing which, I will bookmark and if you want the WHOLE translation I will give it to you so you can break it down but I thought it was interesting “Sports”...alright are we getting a sports game in time for the Olympics or... Okay but then there is this “Expansion of this world” THIS...this is interesting Broccoli has NOT introduced a new group into the Game verse since the QN back in May of 2012! Its been over FIVE YEARS since the last “expansion” of the UtaPri universe (so this ends the argument of “milking the franchise” really) so it would stand to reason that the next thing to happen is that HEAVENS would come in to the game world in some way and then a game would come out for them...makes sense right? But hold up...something’s NOT...QUITE...RIGHT! Ahh I think I know what you might be thinking and you would be right See the STARISH and QN characters were given games FIRST and then seasons...HEAVENS went backwards! Here is the theory we can work with Broccoli WANTS to have a game done for HEAVENS...they wouldn’t have made that splash page for June 28th of 2015 with the HEAVENS 7 on a newspaper article if they didn’t AND they wouldn’t do the “White Day” even for them right? So if you read between the lines of the “UtaPri Masters” what can we take from this Broccoli is probably going to be announcing a HEAVENS game in the near future and more than likely it will be either at or around 7th Anniversary thus the “Expansion of this World” line But what about “Sports”? I got to thinking about this and I was thinking that MAYBE they don’t want to announce another rhythm game since they have “Shining Live” to come out BUT what about something in the realm of the “Olympics”? That’s a “Sports” theme right? Maybe part of the “Expansion” could also be that they include all 18 (or 22?) characters in the game and you do different athletic events (which could ALSO explain the episode with Yamato and Syo which was SPORTS THEMED)...am I on to something here?! again EVERYTHING that I just talked about and scoped out is PURE SPECULATION but if I am reading the tea leaves right then June 24th could be a VERY INTERESTING DAY!

#Amisbro #uta no prince sama #7th Anniversay theories #what do you guys think?

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stockholmimitthjarta · 7 years

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answer all of em'

Wow haha okay I’ll try my best :’)

1:Something I fantasize about: Moving out and living in my own apartment. I fantasize about that e v e r y day2:Zodiac sign: aries 3:Three fears: losing anyone close to me, having feelings for someone and deep oceans4:Three things I love: already answered that :)5:4 turn ons: actual interest of getting to know me, smile, personality, soft touches (lol idk)6:4 turn offs: being rude, thinking your better than everyone else, socks, too pushy 7:My best friend? @hellothunderclatter8:Sexual orientation? heterosexual 9:My closest Tumblr friend: besides my best friend up there my closest tumblr friend is @tragikern10:How tall am I? 170 cm11:What do I miss? summer12:What time was I born? 23:30 ish13:Favorite color? purple14:Do I have a crush? not huge but yeah maybe15:Favorite quote? “The happiest you’ve been won’t be the happiest you’ll be”16:Favorite place? my bed. or grandmas apartment 17:Favorite food? tough one…………………. but I guess Vapiano’s pasta carbonara18:Do I use sarcasm? uh absolutely not?19:What am I listening to right now? now and later20:First thing I notice in new person? hair I think21:Shoe size? 4022:Eye color? greenish23:Hair color? red bronde24:What do I like about myself? already answered25:Ever done a prank call? yeah when I was like 1226:What color of underwear I’m wearing now? black27:Meaning behind my URL? I absolutely love Stockholm as a city (eff some people in it) but the city is so beautiful. My biggest dream is to live in an apartment in the big city one day! Stockholm i mitt hjärta is also a swedish song by Lasse Berghagen28:Favorite movie? Must be Dirty dancing29:Favorite song? of all time it must be Every breath you take by The police, Dom andra by Kent and Samma barn by Norlie&KKV30:Favorite band? Kent31:How I feel right now? already answered that32:Someone I love: My friends and family33:My current relationship status: As single as you can be34:My relationship with my parents: it’s great. They’re the best. Annoying sometimes but who’s aren't 35:Favorite holiday: I love the christmas feeling36:Tattoos and piercing I have -37:Tattoos and piercing I want -38:The reason I joined Tumblr: I was a hardcore Justin Bieber fan in my younger days so my first tumblr blog was a fanblog39:Do I and my last ex hate each other? no we don’t hate each other 40:Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night” texts? sometimes41:Have I ever kissed the last person I texted? yes, just for fun tho42:When did I last hold hands? I work in a kindergarten so the little kids come and grab my hand to show me things all the time 😍43:How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 35-45 minutes44:Have I shaved my legs in the past three days? hahaha nope. 45:Where am I right now? in my bed46:If I were drunk and couldn’t stand, who’s taking care of me? my best friend! She’s my rock 47:Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? loud48:Do I live with my Mom and Dad? yes49:Am I excited for anything? idk50:Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? maybe51:How often do I wear a fake smile? like at work when I have to chitchat with parents when they’re picking their kids up from kindergarten52:When was the last time I hugged someone? Last night53:What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? Jahapp54:What I’d do if I won in a lottery: depends on how much I’d win, but if it’s a lot I would buy myself an apartment or a car55:What is something I disliked about today? I’m having a cold and I hate being sick56:If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? wow Idk… It’d be really cool to meet JB tbh57:What do I think about most? things I don’t have or wish I was58:What’s my strangest talent? lol idk mitt “partytrick” är att jag kan typ böja mig dubbel och stå med både fötter och handflator i golvet på samma gång om du fattar hur jag menar hahah har typ inga talanger59:Do I have any strange phobias? idk60:Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? both61:What was the last lie I told? The one I remember was when I told my parents that I would sleep at a friends house when I was somewhere else62:Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? video chatting63:Do I believe in ghosts? Yes 64:Do I believe in magic? Hm nah65:Do I believe in luck? I think so66:What I’m really bad at: being genuinely happy for others. I just see the things I don’t have. I try to be better and I hate that I’m not67:What was the last book I’ve read? Färjan av Mats Strandberg sååå bra68:Favorite pizza topping? shrimps 69:Do I have any nicknames? Emmis haha but only my dad calls me that70:What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? I don’t recall having any major injury71:Do I spend money or save it? save it72:Can I touch my nose with a tongue? no73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? yes74:Favorite animal? horses75:What was I doing last night at 12 AM? on my way home from what was supposed to be a good night out76:What do I think Satan’s last name is? what’s his last name?77:What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Öppna din dörr - Dannys version78:How can you win my heart? Show me that you really want to get to know me as a person, that you’re thinking about me when we’re not together. You remember things I’ve said and done. That you’re proud to have me79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? bye bitches!!!! (joke)80:One of my scars, how did I get it? I was hit by a boy with a stick when I was like 3, but you can barely see it now81:Play any musical instrument? I can play some chords on the guitar and the piano, I’ve also played saxophone but idk if I could play it today82:If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? stop being so fucking proud and tell people how you really feel about them. don’t leave them guessing and worrying about things they don’t need to worry about. life’s too short for that shit83:Where do I want to live when older? In Stockholm city84:What super power would I want? read minds, not all the time but like decide the moments I wanted to read someones mind.85:What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? idk tbh86:What is my current desktop picture? From when I went skiing in Trysil87:Had sex? Yup88:Bought condoms? Yep89:Gotten pregnant? nope90:Failed a class? no91:Kissed a boy? yes92:Kissed a girl? yes93:Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? I think so94:Had job? Yes me work now95:Favorite TV Show? right now Skam, grey’s anatomy96:Bullied someone on the Internet? sadly I think I have commented anonymous “mean” comments when I was a little shit that shouldn’t had been online97:Had sex in public? haha yeah98:What was my favorite toy as a child? probably all of my teddy bears99:Smoked weed? no100:Did drugs? nope101:Smoked cigarettes? yes102:Drank alcohol? yep103:Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no104:Do I like my handwriting? sometimes, sometimes not105:Was I named after anyone? no I don’t think so106:Been to a wedding? yes but I was like 3 so I don’t remember anything107:Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? probably108:Watched TV for 5 hours straight? duh109:Been outside my home country? yes I have110:Gotten my heart broken? yup yup111:How many kids do I want and what will be their names? right now I don't feel like I want kids at all. but maybe in the future I would want 2 kids. I like the names Kasper and Felix for a boy112:Broken a bone? no I have not113:Cut myself? mhm long time ago tho114:Been to prom? yes omg I miss it115:Been in airplane? yes I have116:What do I want for birthday? an apartment, a car and a loyal boyfriend :-)117:Been rejected by a crush? haha like every time118:Had a crush on someone of the same sex? yeah119:Learned another language? me hablo espanol lol 120:Had a surgery? no121:Lost my virginity before I was 18? yes122:Had oral sex? yup123:Dyed my hair? yep124:Rode in an ambulance? no125: Been fishing? yes

omg that took a while. your welcome :’)

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talkingtoemptyrooms · 4 years

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Today I had a meditation with Nakita and the theme was to let go and to manifest.

It’s currently 2 am, 2nd night in a row I can’t sleep and wondering why my psoriasis sparked and I feel like whatever Reiki Nakita gave me on Tuesday really opened up a big fat mirror.

I’m listening fan to “Om gam ganpataye namaha ” it’s a mantra praying to Ganesh to remove all obstacles. It’s soothing and overwhelming at the same time.

In all this self reflection, I’ve been in my head a lot more than usual. It’s like I get wrapped into the vastness of it all the mess and complex feelings- it’s exhausting to work through. Where do you start.

Well, now that I’m observing this “low” a little clearer. I realize that my ego is what is coming up and acting like a big fat baby. Perhaps my inner child being mad? Not getting the attention that I feel I deserve? I’ve been so frustrated that I haven’t tapped into my intuitiveness and sometimes I completely doubt that I’m being heard. I know in my bones all these things are real - spirit guides, higher self, multi dimensional beings, archanegels etc, but I just crave a connection.

Maybe because I’m lonely? Maybe I think I’ll feel better that I have buddy’s to actively learn from. Like having vip tickets to hearing your favorite professor talk.

The darker side im embarrassed to admit is that I just want to feel special. I want to get the letter saying “ you’re a wizard Harry”! It’s like knowing there’s a hog warts but not being admitted. Or doing a class and having to completely teach yourself because the teacher is focused on tutoring others. That’s how it feels. It’s easy to go down the spiral of “WHY NOT ME?”.

I was reading some tweets from some psychics or intuitives and they had a platform to speak yet they spread ego centric, seperation seeking things to others that are so poisonous and low cove. Like why do they get the gifts and I don’t? Like, you just “woke up like dis” and I’m here like that meme with DW looking through the fence at all her friends playing in the basketball court

Maybe I’ve been around too many people that can see, hear and comunicate with their guides as easily as picking up the phone, calling and almost always getting an answer.

I do think it’s important to focus on why I don’t feel like I’m seen or heard. See that’s the ego. The “why me” bitch... yeah her. Shes the one that needs to take a seat. Why is it so hard for me to have this connection? My ego is so focused on wanting to feel respected, guided, pure, loved, multidimensional, gifted and actually have a reason why I can guide others.

But why do I need a big fat sign to feel that. Why do I think I am not worthy right this present moment? Why do I fee like I am not special without it? Then I realize, If it’s not that, then it’s something else...

Will I ever just be content with the space that I am in? Pamela Aaralyn, a freaking alchemist is still trying to to figure out her truth, so why can’t I?

I would assume it’s because I need to go through the foundations. Okay, I’m a little more awake than before, but how can you spread, share, and be the boss bitch if you can’t do simple things like enjoy time yourself, be kind to yourself and set the boundaries?

In all this I realize that it’s needed. And here I thought I was doing the work but really I just haven’t been seeing it. I mean, I’ve improved but I have some way to go to be the empowered Astrid as opposed to the victimized Astrid. I definitely don’t want to be that.

In this self reflection, more now than ever, I also came to realize how I’ve been getting in my own way!!!! Ive has this obsession with perfectionism and it’s the single most unhealthiest habit (amongst many other things) that I’ve carried.

David, my boss reviewed my presentation and called it ‘good’ and made a few suggestions to add. Immediately I thought “OMG, he hates it and so disappointed” and “he caught me”. “I probably don’t execute projects as good as Stina and Lisbet. Compared to them, I must be his least favorite or the one delivering less”. The one that is not as productive or as smart as the others by getting it the first time. The one falling behind. I can’t even articulate in an intelligent way certain things and he must realize that I got through college and high school by being likeable, obedient and not smart. He’s so kind in the matter he expresses that my presentation is unimpressive and mediocre.”

CAN YOU BELIEVE THESE ARE THOUGHTS THAT ARE CONSTANTLY RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD? Like wtffffffff. I’m crazyyyyyyy. And thennnnn I spend time venting to my two favorite co workers and let them see how insecure I constantly am and NOBODY likes an insecure girl. Because I sure as hell don’t. Insecure girls are jealous and mentally unstable.

What kind of self dialogue am I saying? Also, do I think that by over sharing my insecurities to these girls I’m asking for validation that I’m not those horrible things and need to be reminded how awesome I am. Like, the desperate narsasistic puppy asking for the pat on the head? Also, how ugly is it that I’m then lying to MYSELF and saying that I’m just being vulnerable, and vulnerability is good and from a place of wisdom. Do I really believe my own shit? I guess it’s been so long since I’ve held myself in a neutralalized state of accountability that I actually believed this “I’m wise and vulnerable” when in reality I’m just in survival mode being a beggar for reassurance.

I mean, I was today years old when I realize how determinntal these thoughts are. How utterly dependent I am on how others view me or think of me and how their level of reaction to my work determines if I’m worthy or not. Yes, these themes have shown up in my life, but never this “in my face”.

The real question to this is- am I ready to let go of these ties? And if so how bad? Obviously this is years of learned behavior so what do I do to shock me out of the hamster wheel when I’m triggered? Also, how and what do I need to heal to get over this really horrible view of myself.

In recap, the points that I noticed:

- feeling deserving and worthy with or without obvious spiritual connection

- perfectionism doesn’t cut it and never will. Why do I do this to myself and how can I get away from this self dismorphia?

- stop lying to yourself and get a grip. It’s not fun or in your best interest being the girl your coworkers need to console whenever she’s having an insecurity meltdown. Your best should be the success factor. Own your strengths. You know what your good at regardless if you receive praise or not.

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