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slotumn · 1 day

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Some notes on how I personally like to write the lords + Rhea+ Shezleth wrt sacrifices and deaths and moral dilemmas they face when they make decisions

Basically,

Edelgard: People will die because of my decisions, but it must be done in order to bring change and ensure more don’t die in the future under an unjust system

Rhea: People will die because of my decisions, but it must be done in order to maintain stability and ensure more don’t die in the future under chaos and turmoil

Dimitri: People have died because of me and my decisions, I know it’s unforgivable no matter what and I will atone for it by avenging them (feral mode)/saving as much as or more than I have killed (post-feral clarity)

Claude: People have died because of me and my decisions, but that was the best I could do in my situation, and as long as I/we stay alive thanks to that I/we still have a chance to turn things around for the better

Byleth: People dying is people dying and nobody knows if any of your decisions will be “justified” until it plays out. I’ll help you get the results that will hopefully “justify” your decisions because I love and support you, but honestly, all that shit you're saying is just cope

Shez: Cool cool, where’s my fucking money

As you can tell the main foils/contrasts I like are Rhea <–> Edelgard, Dimitri <–> Claude, and Shez+Byleth. More rambling about it under the cut

For Rhea and Edelgard, I like to focus on them being similar people at different points of life/the project they’ve dedicated their lives to. I’m sure people have already made the analysis about parallels between them, from losing their families/conquering the continent/etc etc but basically, they have very similar philosophies/attitudes/outlooks, and the difference is whether the current system and dominant ideology is what they like or not.

I think that a young Seiros, fleeing a genocide and recruiting allies in the south, would have had faced similar objections Edelgard did; Nemesis may not be the most benevolent ruler, yes, and we don’t literally believe everything his regime preaches, but at least things are manageable and stable if we play along, especially down here in the south. Do we really need to risk everything we have to go up and fight him? Your ideas hold appeal, but some of us don’t find it appealing enough to die for it.

And similarly, I think Edelgard, if she grew old enough to see her system really take root in society, would say a lot of the same things that Rhea would've liked to say, when younger generations complain; look, what we have isn’t perfect, but you really don’t want to see what it was like before, and the fact you can have these complaints at all are a testament to the system I’ve made working. And if you try to burn all this down out of youthful passion, it’s more likely that we will regress instead of progress.

For Dimitri and Claude, it’s about how they deal with guilt; on a personal level, specifically. Politically I think they’d take or dodge responsibility as is necessary lol

Dimitri is straightforward, almost too straightforward. Not great at coming up with excuses, or rather, excusing himself. His way of facing the guilt is very one on one; taking blood for blood, while he's feral. Saving life for life taken, post-feral clarity. And even then, deep down he feels like ("knows") it's will never be enough. And he takes on all that guilt head on even in places where it's not his fault, a.k.a. survivor's guilt.

Claude, meanwhile, dude is a mental gymnastic gold medalist (affectionate). It's not that he doesn't feel guilt, but I think he's very good at seemingly minimizing it, excusing it, and convincing himself that he's better off focusing on other things. As for survivor's guilt, I'm not saying Claude wouldn't ever feel it, but he'd focus on the fact he survived, rather than the guilt.

Finally, Byleth and Shez. Honestly I think they have pretty similar outlooks, it's just a matter of how they explain it lol. The role I like to give these two is reality checkers; because the lords and Rhea can have their debates about Ideology™ and The System™ and Morality™ and Responsibility™ of it all they'd like, but in the end, it's people like Shez and Byleth doing the dirty work and dying on the field for the decisions.

And when people die, the physical, material reality is that they're fucking dead. Attach causes and justifications and obligations and excuses to their corpses as you want, but at the end of the day, it is a corpse and the person is dead. That's the reality they've always lived in, and not just as a one-off incident, either; the thing they do for survival is fighting and killing. They have a "It Is What It Is" type of attitude as a baseline, because, well... it is. Doesn't mean they don't feel things about it. Doesn't mean they don't want to save people where they can. Nonetheless— they know all too well that what happens is what happens.

For this reason, I like to think that grand moralistic judgements are not their thing, no matter the route; they don't even think the lord they sided with is fundamentally more correct/better. Like, come on, when they were asked to choose a house upon arriving at Garreg Mach, they probably weren't weighing their options based on who'd be the most "objectively" "morally" correct if a war broke out between the three (+the Church).

That being said, I think they definitely have a sense of what's good. But it's not the philosophical/abstract type of good you might hear the other four get into debates about. Shez and Byleth's idea of good is, in many ways, very small and inconsequential— but grander concepts of morality can't exist without it. And I like to think that the reason why Shez and Byleth become so important to the side they picked isn't just because of their powers, but also because the constantly they remind others of those small good things.

"Good" to Shez and Byleth is having enough to eat; having warm clothes and bed to sleep in and a roof over their heads; spending time with the people they care about and seeing them safe. It's quite animalistic, in a way; interesting, considering that Agarthans belittle their enemies by calling them beasts.

But I don't think those two would be particularly affected by being called animals for that reason. "These beasts are happy— what about you?"

#fe3h #fire emblem three houses #fire emblem warriors three hopes #few3h #rhea #rhea fire emblem #rhea fe3h #edelgard von hresvelg #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #claude von riegan #byleth #byleth eisner #shez #fe3h meta #slotalks #meta #shezleth #when i bring up shez and byleth as a set just assume it's me pushing shezleth ok

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vani-candy · 2 months

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today on "i played a video game and fell in love with a character whose story ended in tragedy and i fell into such a depression as a result that i had to drop everything and doodle him to heal the sadness"

#blade and soul #hajoon #doodle #vani candy art #i love him and i miss him i still havent recovered #i absolutely drew his gloves wrong oopsie doodle #i literally just needed to get this out of my system #NOT THE FIRST TIME THIS HAS HAPPENED AND IT WONT BE THE LAST #i will return to Sandrock brainrot posting momentarily #I GOT A CHAPTER DRAFTED TODAY AND I THINK I'LL DRAFT ANOTHER ONE OUT TO GET A BUFFER GOING

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arkos404 · 3 months

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prohibitedwish enemies to lovers but prismo is into scarab in the enemies part just as much as in the lovers part

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btw i never watched the original souce material of any of these so dont read too deep into it, i just found them outta context on pinterest and thought "damn thats them" and passed out and woke up with this

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eraiyang · 10 months

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under the dying sun, under the extinguished stars

#钟离 #morax #zhongli #I NEEDED TO GET THIS ONE OUT OF MY SYSTEM SO I CAN START DOING OTHER STUFF W MY LIFE LOL #so funny when i say other stuff i literally just mean my other zhongli wips 😭

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appri-dot · 1 month

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I like to draw nutcracker yaoi for character reasons trust fencer(hurt fella) belongs to @ballcrusher74

#this is dumb yaoi angst but i need to get them out my system #also a wip #i wont post the final product probably because the cringe will catch up but for now i WILL gush abt how silly their contrast could be #metal body damaged wooden body worn #woody just way more emotionally driven because fencer is literally the only nutcracker he can connect with #the silly tendrils bristling as a defensive display but involuntary because hes so scared #woody talks in more broken sentences to fencer because he infers that he can understand him as is a lot better then his human crew #fencer very nonchalant because its not the first time his shits been rocked on the job #i worry this is ooc for fencer so idk how far i will finish it #but ugh i need to stop using these 2 as nutcracker behaviour dolls #SORRY BUT DAMAGE TO A METAL SHELL BEING MORE SIGNIFICANT BECAUSE THE VIOLENT VIBRATIONS #THUSLY WHY NUTCRACKERS IMMEDIATE BECOME EXTRA AGGRESSIVE WHEN HIT WITH SHOVELS #im normal im normal....#woody mimics a human in body heat because the wood better insulates the interior of his body #tw blood #tw body horror #tw gore #lethal company

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mermaidstede · 6 months

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what if all i need is you?

#ofmd #our flag means death #gentlebeard #blackbonnet #ed x stede #ed teach #edward teach #blackbeard #stede bonnet #ofmd gif #ofmd edit #these are low quality asf but i just needed to get this out of my system lol #i'm too tired & don't have time to make this prettier. boo real life #this song is just literally themmmm aghhhh #slut! taylor swift #taylor swift #my gifs #*

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erineas · 3 months

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Nobody asked for it but now I throw you:

ROCK HEADCANON ✨

They let it hang out with other pet rocks, sometimes they even feed together but Doomfanger is always there to suffocate them:

She likes they're always warm and you'll never know they're under there until she moves hours after.

Edge loves his little psychopath as much as we love them @unnamedcrane

#I spend my time the best ways #I was supposed to be drawing maid-chan but I needed to get this out of my system #There are more pet rocks i like to think outertale is one of the prettiest #Idk much about underwater aus but please tell me if they have big ass pearls or shells or other kinds of inanimate objects is for homework #The “concept art” tittle in this is the funniest part #Rock fanart? Rock fanart.#This is a personal headcanon for personal au with bestie that you can use because is funny #I could have just made it spiky but it's literally a random rock Red picked up after meeting Swap's and Classic's pet rock #Underfell headcanon #Doomfanger

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pitske · 2 months

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they occupy my mind

#dude I'll draw them “properly” at one point for sure but as of rn I need to get this out of my system as fast as humanly possible #literally the best duo imo #hakenzahn #Rotzbacke #snotlout #snotlout jorgenson #hookfang #httyd #how to train your dragon #httyd fanart #httyd rtte #I am realizing just how much I always loved this franchise #like no mtter what I'm obsessed with the vikings with the dragons are always in my brain somewhere #I mean I have the entire soundtrack memorised /j #pitskederdoenerhaendler #pitske’s art

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avedoodles · 2 months

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mfs on twt will have you believe this guy is ugly cuz he looks freakish. do not be fooled: the truth is he is not freakish ENOUGH.

#i fucking love the concept of this brawler. its literally so fucking banger #but i wish they leaned more heavily into the mosquito aspect of his design #like you cannot look at this guy and tell me you do not just see a conventionally attractive twink/twunk body type #with mosquito parts halfheartedly slapped on top #this was just a quick doodle and i think ill probably try to modify this design more #i saw another redesign on twt which incorporated the mosquito back which i want to try to do #so ill probably end up posting another redesign in the next few days #i just needed to get this out of my system rn #anyway angelo haters dni #brawl stars #brawl stars art #brawl stars fanart #brawl stars angelo

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spacedlexi · 2 months

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the way the ericson group were at the outbreak just a bunch of troubled kids who made various mistakes or committed crimes and were judged by a system that punished and abandoned them instead of giving them the support and love they needed, are then nearly a decade later put into a situation where now they must judge a troubled child for the mistakes and crimes hes committed against them. and 5 to 3 vote them out 😭

#twdg #i love the way s4 connects back to lees whole 'murderer' thing back in s1 😭 guilt...atonement.....systems of punishment #i love thinking about s1>s4 themes and crying #anyway this is partially why i hate when i see the ericson cast reduced down to 'just some teens' its so much more than that #them being abandoned in a boarding school for troubled kids is SO IMPORTANT its not 'just some school'#anyway its also probably why theyre my favorite cast #theyre literally one of if not the most mature group of the series even while being a bunch of kids who make choices i dont agree with #because they actually love and care about each other. even when theyre mad. because theyre all they have left #i do think the vote was a fair way to handle it even tho i still ultimately find it cruel. they couldve talked it out #but this is still a story that needs conflict to resolve so is what it is #they would rather they leave than have to face their confused feelings. the most immature thing they do. but understandable #they did such a good job crafting that cast for clem GOD an entire ensemble built around her and aj....delicious #zombie/post apoc media about love and community my beloved 😭#sorry but get tf out of here with that 'humans are evil and everyone dies' lame ass bullshit we are nothing without community #the amount of love pouring out of s4 is like getting my ass kicked but then they give me a big hug and kiss after and send me on my way #s4 my absolute beloved i really love it more and more every time. so much to appreciate even with it the way it is #the themes bro the themes........ the connections between seasons 1 and 4 you are everything to me #it speaks

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johnslittlespoon · 27 days

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i was so excited to listen to glass animal's new song 'creatures in heaven' today and instead my heart has been ripped out because it's so awfully painfully fitting for our mota boys (i'm currently making an angsty heartache–y edit to it lol whoops) BUCKLE UP because i need to yell (and keep scrolling if lyric analysis/song fics aren't your thing <3)

also tumblr keeps screwing with the formatting ignore that pls lol

What do you think about when you think about love? I'm dumbstruck when you're tender, but It's three in the morning, be in the moment It tears through my head, does it haunt you too?

i mean, the imagery. pillow talk, sneaking off base before dawn, vulnerability and raw honesty laying side by side in a field, looking up at the stars and wondering which ones are the people they've lost looking down at them, every peaceful, happy moment laced with the knowledge that so many friends will never get to have another one.

You held me like my mother made me just for you You held me so close that I broke in two

fuck my life. dave bayley count your days. these lines are just so viscerally painful and stunning? john feeling like every core of his being was made to fit gale, like puzzle pieces slotting together, the gaps in his life filled the moment gale enters his orbit. both of them never having experienced being treated so gently and with so much reverence, feeling taken apart and put back together in each other's arms.

You pass through my head, does it haunt you too? Never really said that I loved you, too

heavy on the angst here because this reads like post–war john pov, filled with regrets but plastering on a smile as he watches gale marry someone who isn't him, aching to tell him how he feels but knowing it will only make a mess of things. and more than anything, he wants gale to be happy, and if that means staying quiet and loving him at arm's length, he can do that. but late at night he can't help but wonder if gale ever thinks about what could've been, if all the moments they shared haunt him too.

Lucky, lucky you, 'cause I'm fortune's fool Such small words but they hit so huge

this reminded me of gale's father and his gambling and how despite everything he falls in love with john, a gambling man. such small words (don't count on it) but they mean everything :(

I don't think I realize Just how much I miss you sometimes We were young and so in love

this hurts on SO MANY LEVELS. i immediately read this as curtbucky– john never gets time to grieve, everyone just has to keep trucking on. but sometimes late at night it hits him so hard he feels like he's drowning, realizing how empty of a space curt's left, how much he truly loved him, the first person to make him feel that way.

but also can be read as buckbucky, both of them properly feeling the emptiness of not being by each other's sides for the first time before they reunite at the stalag, maybe both having a feelings–realization moment when they're hit with how wrong everything feels when they're apart.

or, post–war, john aching for gale and wishing on everything that he can just fall out of love. he knew that it would be hard, going back home and going their separate ways, even with the promise to stay in contact, but it's so much harder than he ever could have imagined.

Three in the morning, safe inside Bury me here in your laundry pile

ouch ouch ouch. a few images: john seeking out one of gale's worn shirts after his plane goes down, falling asleep with it pressed to his chest in his bed. or john stealing one of gale's shirts before they all go back home post–war, shoving it to the bottom of his suitcase, sleeping with it every night despite the way his stomach turns, feeling hollowed out as the smell of him slowly fades away. or, john staying at gale and marge's house for the wedding, having a breakdown the night after, finding himself on the floor of their laundry room at three am, curling up in a pile of dirty laundry just to feel close to gale one last time before he goes home in the morning.

I don't see the point in a subtle romance Ten tonne heartache sitting on your back

john is so all or nothing with love; when he's in, he's in, barrelling full speed ahead, giving it all up for his person. maybe the secrecy when they first start seeing each other is okay at first, little midnight rendezvous, but he craves more, he wants a future with gale so badly, he wants a house and a wedding and kids and a dog and sitting side by side on a porch at eighty years old. but he knows that gale is giving him all that he can right now, and it's better than nothing, so even though he wants so much more, he'll settle.

Scared of the crack where the light comes through I'm only really me when I'm here with you

ughhh both of them being so scared to be really seen by someone that it's terrifying how quickly they grow close. that nauseating feeling you get right after opening up to someone for the first time, the feeling of holding your breath waiting for rejection– but it never comes. they accept each other with open arms and patience and unconditional love and they show each other what it's like to be able to be so fully unapologetically real with someone for the first time. a shell of themselves when they aren't together, like they're missing one half, and it's so obvious that everyone around can see it. they share the same name for a reason.

And it gets into your head like a cosmic zoom Coat on the door like an old space suit So long cowboy, you're so cool Cash in hand with a memory of you

okay, ngl this just made me think of john ditching his coat that gale hates– even in the heat of going up on a mission, it's still in his head, enough to go through the motion of swapping it out. so long cowboy just sounds like something sweet he and curt would've said to each other honestly; thinking about john saying it again when he looks up at the stars the night he finds out curt didn't make it.

cash in hand with a memory of you? come onnn it's literally the lucky deuce. may as well have just slapped that bit of the song behind the scene of gale going through his belongings when he makes it back to base, picking up the cash and thinking about his man. </3

–anyway! apologies for the word–vomit, sometimes i just get a song wedged into the front of my skull and i am paralyzed from doing anything else until i get my thoughts out about it. and it's truly such a gorgeous song, 10/10 recommend if you feel like crying, been listening to these guys for a decade now and they never disappoint.

literally gonna agonize over making an edit for this for hours to get the vision just right and would not be surprised if i end up writing a oneshot inspired by it lol i adore every song they've put out but this one just gripped me so strongly the moment i pulled up the lyrics with how perfectly it slotted into the mota–verse. <33

#i don't even know how to tag this #curtbucky and buckbucky pain ig lol #johnslittlespoon brainrot #this is so funny literally no one cares i just needed to get this out of my system #thank you and fuck you glass animals for another stunning song #also i was looking at the album tracklist and one of the songs is called 'how i learned to love the bomb' watch that give me brainrot too #july nineteenth will be my last day on this earth methinks #johnslittlespoon musicrot

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year

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The brainrot this literal 2 second clip had given me is insane

#(tumblr deleted all my tags so unfortunately they wont be as unhinged as my og tags but)#AAAHHHHHHHH THE WAY IS SEB IS LOOKING AT HIM IN THE THIRD PIC I CANT I CANT #SO TENDER IM ABSOLUTELY INSANE ABT IT #this hug is probably my top martian moment ever i literally cant get over it #i just obsess over saving every single angle of it i can find #but the thing abt the photos of it is that you can mostly rly only see mark's fond expression #so to see the way seb is looking up at him...im just still so unwell about it #the typical paddock one hand bro hug but they're literally so close together and curled into each other #martian one handed hugs always ended up w their clasped hands tucked in btwn their bodies and im just so abnormal abt it #the way seb's shoulder is tucked into mark's chest...mark's hand grasping his neck...the way seb is clutching his arm...their clasped hands #i needed to post this to get it out of my system bcs every time i glance at it in my camera roll i just end up staring at it for 5 mins #as i said i feel like every pic of this is just completely permanently burned into my brain #i still cant believe mark posted a pic of this hug hes just like me fr ;;;;#mark webber #sebastian vettel #sebmark #martian #2010 monaco gp #f1 #formula 1 #(i will eventually make this vid my header im just very lazy abt it)

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thunderon · 8 months

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those girls were special. they were champions.

yellowjackets // varsity blues

#yellowjackets #op #if everyone could pretend the image quality isn’t literal dogshit that’d be swell #i made this in under five minutes so take that into account #i just needed to get the last of yj and varsity blues out of my system #the more im thinking about it… agh

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willosword · 7 months

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cannot stop thinking about the synchronicity of it all. the dual "love" confessions. the dual shooting a limb. the dual suicide attempts. why did they frame it like ed and izzy are two halves of one whole person i'm clawing at the fuckin walls here

#ok i promise i'll be normal tomorrow i just need to get all this out of my system i think #literally how do they expect me to care about new characters when these two fuckers are reenacting an operatic tragedy over here #izzy hands and ed 'blackbeard' teach you are everything 2 me <3 #our flag means death #our flag means death spoilers #willow whispers

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lollytea · 2 years

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My fave Hunter ep is Labyrinth Runners cuz nothing and I mean NOTHING this dude has done (and will ever do in future) is gonna top that scene where he forces himself though all of his most painful memories so he can reach Gus, desperately calls out his name until all the other illusions ripple away and they're in that bedroom again and Gus is curled in on himself, looking so small and scared, and Hunter sees a reflection of himself. Then he sadly sits down on the floor next to him and, despite having never comforted somebody before in his life, he makes a sincere attempt to fumble through it and even voluntarily opens up about his own internal conflict (which he has been stubbornly refusing to talk about it until now) just so Gus won't feel so alone with his emotions. And he obviously does not have a way with words but what finally calms Gus down is looking up at Hunter and seeing somebody so genuine in what he's saying, somebody who then manages to make him laugh by being so unintentionally silly and it's just. He cares about Gus SO MUCH!!! And what he did was so SO big of him, all things considered. Hunter is not good with vulnerability but he had enough emotional maturity to understand that it was what Gus needed at that moment and he was willing to do anything to help him. Knowing all of his hesitations about this stuff just makes his actions so much more powerful. He has always had so much empathy but I think this is the biggest example of him actually expressing it and making a positive impact because of it. No scene has ever shown just how much unabashed compassion and gentleness Hunter is capable of and I am going to be thinking about it every day until the end of time.

#all because gus was nice to him!!#he literally never takes kindness for granted. hes always grateful. even in eclipse lake when he was an asshole about it #he still stopped to thank her #but anyway ya i adore labyrinth runners #its scenes like that really show you that the events of hollow mind kinda tipped hunters brain askew #something in him just changed permanently. its forced him to think about things differently. he matured in a big way because of it.#i dont NEED to make this post the hype for labyrinth runners has died down #but im doing this for ME i need to get this out of my system #i love this scene to death #toh spoilers

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runawaymun · 15 days

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#sorry let me rant real quick in the tags #cw personal #once again hitting an insurance pothole bc the psych says she accepts my OHP plan HOWEVER the therapy group she is contacted with says #THEY don't #they only accept the insurance if it's through my employer but NOT through the government??????????????#so there's still some kind of payment???#anyway I want to scream why is this so complicated #like will she take my insurance or not who's right here #anyway called her back directly and went to voicemail so now I've done all I can for now #why the hell is this so hard man #the person on the phone didn't know really how to explain #once again no one knows what they're talking about #like can y'all not communicate and figure this out?#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i need to get an ADHD eval before my next PCP appointment in june so that they will continue giving me my meds #and the psychiatry through the hospital has a limited number of visits that insurance will cover #*contracted #not retyping all of that #and once again the only reason this is so stressful is because the psychiatry group at the hospital fumbled the communication ball last tim #and the psychiatrist I was with never put the ADHD on the chart #and now somehow it's MY responsibility to fix that>#UGH #like I am grateful to have some kind of coverage but holy shit is the US healthcare system in shambles #the bureaucracy is INSANE #i had to just sit down and put my head in my hands for a second #and then go 'right okay nothing i can do about that rn moving on'#uGH #literally said 'what the FUCK' out loud a couple times #like not on the phone after I hung up obvs

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