#i look at it when I'm sad to feel happy

[tubbytarchia]

I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

#I know he has a tendency to go deranged on his red lives but idk something about him beginning to lose it after Jimmy died and killing Grian #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans fanart #trafficblr #Again its his red life shenanigans but... If only Jimmy had known how affected someone was by his death. I'm choosing to believe this #and him then going out like a sad pathetic wet cat even with Grian's sacrifice... He really deserves a win one of these days lmao please #Also I cant stop thinking about how Jimmy wouldn't have left him. Grian was sensible to and most players probs would have #Joel really does become a lost cause so its fair and Grian did still care (and went to say goodbye as well as sacrifice his time for him) #But Jimmy would have stuck by even if Joel were in this state (and they'd both get themselves killed pathetically but) #And Joel having shown such genuine care for Jimmy and concern over his limited time... man anything w Jimmy makes me so emotional lol #I love them so #oh Ig about the art itself. I dont like it but hey thats how it tends to go when you try smth new. And no shame in trying #but if one person likes this then yayy I will still feel accomplished and happy #Im looking at this again and hey its not that bad actually yay I love to approve of my own art. self love hell yea #tubby art

[creativesplat]

I would also like to see some miphlink, if that's okay!

I was really struggling with what to draw, and then I remembered your ask from ages ago (dang ADHD brain...) anyway, sorry its such a late answer, but Miphlink inspired by Dicksee's La Belle Dame

#thank you so so much for the ask stars!! I had completely forgotten about it (I'm so so sorry!!) and it saved me from an artist-not-arting #you know the sort of pent up unpleasant feeling you get when you need to do something creative but its not happening and then its sad? #yeah I didn't get that because your ask suddenly popped into my head! so very happy about that :) thank you! #link is a horse girl and we need more of it in life #also to try and get the flowy fabric look that Dicksee's La Belle Dame has without putting Link in a dress I decided to modify Mipha's fins #and then added some of that gorgeous salmon colour from the original piece #also the reason the reason the champions tunic etc have that grey tinge to it is because the knight was wearing armour in the original piec #with a beautiful duckegg blue grey colour and I thought including that might be fun too! #anyway #the couple that is perfect for one another and should always be together for all time: Mipha and Link #mipha #link #botw #creativesplat draws #breath of the wild #miphlink #lipha #I really need to catch up on the miphlink tag... its so exciting to have so much wonderful art and writing to look through but I am a rathe #busy/ adhd forgetful bean so whenever I get round to reading or looking at art... there will be a long reblog/ queue of miphlink stuff! #eventually #at some point #because fashionably late (coughjustlatecough) is my middle name! #enough rambling sorry #I love drawing miphlink its like a comfort drawing thing #like her head is so squidgy and so easy to doodle so if ever my brain is bored or I want to draw and need happy hormones but can't find the #mipha is the answer because the squishy head is just sooooo good #the designers of mipha were amazing and I love them #epona #tloz #zelda

[ferrari-desmosedici-wwe-fc]

🥹

#Please don't start any battle about who was the best who was this who was that. Just enjoy it peacefully. Share memories respect love for f1 #This pic makes me sad #Because I'm too young and so I wasn't even born when these 4 were the goats of F1 back then #I wish I were born some decade before just to fully love and enjoy '80s #I love so much this sport #They made the history of this sport #But I couldn't enjoy their prime #Anyway this pic make me happy too #Because they're for real some of the best pilots in history #This means that just this pic is so freaking powerful #It's not just a random normal photo #And you sit there looking at it and it makes you wonder #Just one photo but many thoughts many emotions many feelings many everything #ayrton senna #alain prost #nigel mansell #nelson piquet

[sysig]

Haha, this Winterkov stuff is fun- where did all these other feelings come from (Patreon)

#Doodles #And to think it's still all Winter's fault lol #I would not be feeling even a fraction of what I'm feeling if not for still being Very about him even with Petrigrof so at the forefront #He inspired a lot! How rude lol #He can't be blamed for All of it of course - the Petrigrof dynamic is extremely cute discounting him entirely lol #Throwing it into relief against Winterkov makes for some very interesting thoughts tho lol #The dynamics are different! As expected when substituting one character for another lol #But even the Winterkov dynamic can be looked at through a Petrigrof lense - of how much Simon was shaped by Betty #Of how much of him is human - how much is effected by Magic/Madness/Sadness - how they slot together and grow into themselves! #It's all interesting! They're very interesting! And in love! And cute! #Big love always gets me real bad haha ♪ I just love love - especially so when it's got some meat to it hehe #Betty and Simon are/were very good for each other and it's extremely sad that they never got to grow together into marriage et al #And/but they were also very flawed people! That would've come up at some point in their relationship even if they were overall happy #And what Simon has brought with him through the gift that Betty gave him I just jdklsafhdsf #I do really love them they have such good chemistry and fun motivations and what they end up doing in relation to each other! #Fun to dissect #Adventure Time #Simon Petrikov #Betty Grof #Petrigrof

[fnafawoundleftbleedingau]

I plan on doing another version with a more detailed background in the future, maybe I'll draw a few more of the animatronics and do either one big piece or a set of 4 based on the sketches I posted yesterday. Either way, I'm really happy with how this turned out, I tried a different pen to ink this to try and maintain the sketchy quality of the original lines, and I really like it! Then I tried using watercolor brushes for the coloring. :3

#insomnia hyena art #fnaf au #insomnia hyena fnaf aus #fnaf: a wound left bleeding au #Fnaf Vanessa #FNaF Plushtrap #I'm just gonna gush about some AU thoughts I had while drawing this #at first I just wanted to make Plushtrap look kinda happy #it still likes to play after all. and even if dress-up isnt a game it was really made to play. its still a game and it'd try it and have fu #i think! But I changed the sketch a little so it was looking up at Vanessa #and it looks like #and i realized it /would/ be. AWLB Vanessa has gone through some shit man. it knows she has #it knows shes not really happy. and when you're that down. you really just /cant/ put in much effort beyond staying alive #dressing up nicely really isn't something on your mind or you feel like youve got it in you to do #but here she is! All dressed up in something really nice! And even though shes a bit reluctant about it. Plushtrap recognizes the effort it #likely took to even try! And its proud of her! #That's its friend that's been terribly sad for so long. and even if its a temporary affair. she felt up for trying something different- #and nice and it's freaking proud and happy for her! ;;

[chirpsythismorning]

📝 💐 🛼 💔⏪️💭🧊🌄❤️‍🩹

I Will Survive by Gloria Gaynor

previous ⏪︎ now playing ⏩ next back to playlist

#stranger things #bizarre love triangle playlist #el hopper #el's pov #i was so happy when i re-listened to this alongside the lyrics when looking for songs from el's pov #'at first i was afraid. i was petrified. kept thinking i could never live without you by my side' #all season long we saw el experiencing heartache over mike and how it led to her feeling insecure as if it was all her fault #she was convinced that if mike didn't love her then she couldn't be happy #'but then i spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong and i grew strong and i learned how to get along' #el spending time away from mike at nina along with all the months of doubt prior to their fallout now having validation... #it wasn't just her loving and falling out of love with mike over the course 3 days #it was her realization that their relationship has been deteriorating for a while now and coming to terms with that in 3 days #'and so you're back from outer-space. i just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face' #this is the main line that reminds me of her brushing past mike and will in the cabin #probably a little more harsh as this song is pretty harsh in terms of the singer not being capable of seeing her ex as even a friend now #but el's earned some harshness after what just went down #that doesn't mean they'll never overcome this #it just means there is still a serious need to confront it which wont be super pretty #and then the forgiveness and acceptance can only come after that #'and you see me. somebody new. i'm not the chained up little person still in love with you' #oooooo get him! #'you think i'd crumble? you think i'd lay down and die?' #sort of reminds me of the assumptions not just mike has but also most of the audience #they think it would be impossible for mike to end things with el bc she would be so broken hearted and she doesn't deserve that #which of course she doesn't #but maybe el knows what she deserves... and it's more than what mike is able to give #'i've got all my life to live and i've got all my love to give and i'll survive. i will survive.' #she's not going to go on forever being hung up on something that wasn't what she deserved in the first place #she will survive ya'll #4x09

[nickolox]

i love the valve fandom on tumblr

the tf2 folks, the l4d guys, the portal friends, the half life gays

you are all so good

you're all awesome

i love you all :)

#ramblings #it makes me so happy that the fandom here is at least ALIVE #half the time I feel like i'm doing fucking archeology when I look into stuff #ill look at art and ill be like “oh that's cool i love that” #and then i check the date #and its from 10-15 years ago #why is it all from 2010 that makes me so sad #at least here i can revel in the goodness of new art #<3

[sensitivegoblin]

I'd do anything to have a teasing voice in my ear

#I'm not even craving the actual tickles or sex I just want the teasing affection relentlessly flustering me🥺✨🦋💕 #there was this cute guy who kinda flirted with me at the grocery store and I can't stop thinking about him since #I just... #I dunno #I feel like I'm just never gonna get what I need #that soft teasing loving affection #I want someone who loves to fluster me as much as I love being flustered #I dunno I'm just really sad and lonely and I feel like I can't talk to anybody because this is all I want #the only thing that's gonna make me happy is this soft tender love that I dont think I'm made for #people don't really look at me and go 'I wanna make them talk more or get close to them' #I dunno how to say it #it's really hard talking to people #I'm stuck on how to word why #but I want one spefic thing and it's hard not having it #I wanna feel someone pull me close I want them to WANT me near them they WANT to fluster me #this is why I want a partner so bad #I need a certain closeness that nobody has wanted to give me yet #I have amazing friends but I feel bad talking to you when all I want is basically sex (the verbal teasing) #I'm so mentally and emotionally wounded #and sex is the only thing that makes it feel better #I just wish it was real instead of me maladaptive day dreaming it #nothings real and I just...I think I'm not the type of 'girl' to get this consensually intrusive attention/affection #I'm just feeling stuck and lonely and empty

[things-that-make-sa-happy]

Jeremiah Fisher | tsitp 1.04

#the summer i turned pretty #tsitp #tsitpedit #Jeremiah Fisher #my beautiful boy! #sa loves tsitp #sa makes gifs #team jeremiah's happiness! always! forever! #I'm a little sad that these are not the greatest looking but i'm not even all that mad #cause this scene was SO DARK and these came out better than i was expecting so i'm calling that a win haha #I was honestly thinking that I'd get too frustrated and give up with this scene- dark scenes are my nemeses lol #I'm so tired omg... i'm happy this is the LAST WEEKEND OF THE SUMMER SEASON at work! woot! #then it'll be back to monday-friday! less chaos! less insanity! #i'm excited about it! #NOT too excited to figure out weekend shifts for after this summer season... #my little lab techs don't seem too thrilled with the idea of having to come in some weekends (for like an hour tops) #even though they were TOLD all of this when they interviewed... it's gonna be a struggle I think... #whatever- I actually never minded my turn for weekends- it's so chill- you have the place to yourself! I would dance all around the lab! #i'd sing obnoxiously even though I CANNOT sing! I never turned the lights on so it kinda felt like being in school at night? #that weird feeling like you were somewhere you weren't supposed to be? all sneaky like? #I dunno- I'll probably have to do more than my fair share of weekends now so I guess it's good that I kinda like them #buy anywhosle- enjoy this mediocre gif set with my apologies for not making many lately due to my joints not being very nice to me!

[lilac-vode]

hey! this is a long shot but seeing as i have some ppl following here, i wanted to ask if anyone at all has links to mental health resources that could be helpful for repulsed aroace ppl constantly struggling with feelings of alienation. or like, any mental health resources at all geared toward aroace ppl!! there is just. not that much out there for us and i don't have a place to start trying to make my brain less miserable. i would appreciate so much if anyone is familiar with stuff like this that they could share

#thanks for reading #ultimately im sad at the prospect of spending my entire life feeling outcast and miserable just bc of the way i am #especially when it used to be a part of myself that gave me confidence and joy #there are no aroace elders i can look to for help and guidance. or if there are - they are invisible. like i am #right now i'm in lie down & give up mode and i want to hope for something more someday #i don't want to be like everyone else. i just want to stop feeling like im a problem for being how i am #anyway i fully expect im just tossing this into the void so dont feel bad if you have nothing to contribute #all the aroace positivity blogs are just a mix of ace/arophobia discussion and other ppl saying they feel as sad as i do #which is not really helpful even tho those feelings are real and relatable #i dont have examples of how someone like me could live a happy life without removing themself 100% from society. #i want so badly to be a light for younger ppl who are like i am & to show them it's possible to live a happy life #but that is not possible at the moment

[edge-oftheworld]

starting to have a way of processing my reaction for when i see what i call 'shallow hearts for shallow minds' takes on here like. do you not know how when you don't feel something at the time it catches up with you later? do we not understand the cumulative nature of nervous system stress and how. sometimes it gets worse before it gets better. sometimes getting better isn't about being happy, it's about feeling things as they come rather than trying to force yourself to be happy. making choices that will lead to the most happiness, even if they're painful at the time. i won't know exactly where an artist is at, neither do you, but I can trust that they're making the kind of decisions that are a step forward in self care in times where I see something that looks familiar and i'm like. i think i've been there. i know it doesn't make so much sense to everyone, but, that's what the fandom's for right?

#this could be about any band member idk #but with both luke and ashton's release cycles meaning there's a time where they're kinda. bleeding everywhere while singing #and i know some people are concerned and being like 'they looked happier when ...' please consider. maybe this is healthy #like ideally they don't have to suffer! but sometimes it takes feeling safe to actually get it out and we gotta let them have that now #trust the process. trust them to make their own choices! trust that it gets a little better each time and don't cause any more harm #if your understanding of mental health is just. happy vs sad. please take some time to learn more it'll help you too #5 seconds of summer #luke hemmings #ashton irwin #5sos #anyway. i don't blame anyone for not getting that. you'll figure out what you need to; so will i; maybe i'm wrong but? there's still so muc #to learn. so much learning to do. so much to discover! there is no need to be cynical but if you are. tidbits of hope sent your way

[da-proti-toku-grem]

feeling like a total asshole today 👍

#an aunt's mom passed away yesterday night #i didn't really know her that much just spoke to her a few times for the typical merry christmas & happy new year you know #so when my mom told me i felt bad for my aunt bc i knew they were really close but i don't feel SAD #but my parents seemed to be like so shocked and sad and my little brother even started crying #and i felt absolutely nothing #idek what my mom saw in my face but she went like 'don't you feel anything?' and like wtf am i supposed to feel #like. i'm sorry for my aunt and everything but i just????? #that already made me feel like an absolute asshole but now we have to go there (like 2hours away by car) #and because i am an adult now i *have* to go to the funeral home (?) today and to the funeral tomorrow #and i REALLY don't want to and thought it's making me so fucking anxious bc i haven't been there since my grandma passed away 2 years ago #i really don't want that feeling that i felt back then to come back #not right now #not when i've been starting to feel a bit better this past week #but i'm already failing at that because they started to come back the moment i was told i have to go #and i feel like a fucking asshole because my aunt's mom literally passed away and she (and her whole family) must be heartbroken right now #and all i can think about is that i'm anxious #i'm anxious to go back there. i'm anxious just thinking that i'll have to express my condolences to people that i don't even know #i'm anxious because i'll have to TALK to people and at least try to look a bit SAD but i can't just fake it #bc if i don't look sad my brain tells me that i'm an asshole that doesn't have feelings like apparently everyone around me has #but if i fake it my brain tells me that i'm an asshole bc why tf do i have to fake my fucking personality #why can't i just express my fucking feelings like normal people do and the only thing that i know how to do is fucking complain #like. i know i rant a lot here but it's literally the only place where i talk about my feelings #i NEVER talk about my feelings with anyone because idk HOW to do it #i have like a million things in my mind that i want to tell my mom or my therapy for example but when i finally convince myself to do it #i just CAN'T. the thoughts won't leave my mouth because i don't know how to phrase them properly #so nothing ever leaves my mind unless i make a post here bc apparently writing my thoughts in english (my 2nd language) #is easier than talking in spanish #and at least if i write them here they don't just stay bottled up in my mind #but i'm too tired of myself and my stupid brain that tells me that i do everything wrong :/ #i'm gonna shut up now bc i once again reached the tag limit

[bonesrbleaching]

had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what

#lolaa.txt #what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!' #'i wouldnt lie to you!' #okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time. #its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa #also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!' #yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up. #i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men #and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man #so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up. #and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face #that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense. #shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin #you dont have to worry about anyone else. #im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to #never really have #im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are #if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box #then when would you have any space for self discovery #youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats #and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that. #and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names #and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy #and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares. #and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look? #then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness. #SORRY RANT OVER. #im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric. #tw homophobia #tw transphobes

[mymarifae]

i hope everyone's prepared for me to become the most annoying person ever in 13 more hours

#i'm going to cry i'm going to listen to this and just start fucking sobbing #this song is so special to me you don't understand and i'll never be able to put it into words properly but like #orangestar's music. is important to me. i relate a lot A LOT to the feelings he incorporates into every song #those feelings of like.. struggling. and sadness and wondering what the point of it all is but trying so hard to stay positive #trying So Hard to see the beauty in the world even when it all seems like fucking garbage #and to stay hopeful for the future. to continue building your own life rather than letting society shove you into a monotonous routine #it's just... so so important to me. putting my relationship with music into words is hard but it's more or less how i keep myself sane LOL #daybreak frontline is a particularly beautiful song. one of my favorites. #and the thing about having these vocaloid songs that you hold near and dear to your heart and then they get covered in prsk is like #well all of the kids are like. very important characters to me. they make me happy i love them lots!! #so when they sing these songs that i've loved for years and like grew up on. that just makes them even more special 🫶🏾 #and i think this song is like. peak vbs. this is the kind of music they do best this is where they all shine the brightest #also the art looks very very very very pretty. #see what i mean. i am going to be so fucking annoying about this forever this iseverything. to me.

[gideonisms]

I think the first time you burn out & take a little break from living in a society After you know what's wrong with you should be like a celebration. When you feel it coming on and then plan for it and burn out right on schedule it's a coming of age thing. welcome to living in this world if you've just crashed & burned and now you know why! you should have your beverage of choice and sit in the bath about it

#takes bong hit. when you feel like situations were overwhelming sometimes it's because they were #i was reading through this old journal i kept where i wrote down things that made me happy bc research showed that helps with mental health #and one of the entries was like so i scrubbed the mold off my wall it keeps coming back but at least it looks nice now! #girl. #facepalm #call into work to send the email about that you can't just let that happen. both jobs. call in #living in the worst conditions with 2 jobs and full time class still barely making rent like why am i sad & overwhelmed? #girl i. #it wasn't even that bad this last time i was living with family in a place with no mold working and only taking like 1 or 2 classes #it wasn't quite as concerning tho i'm sure at some point we will unpack the way customers acted during the early days of covid bc wow.

[taegularities]

bro...

#i know the dash is empty but i need to write down my dream here before i forget #lol it's not even 6am but anyways #i was still in love with my ex (it was the actual one but let's call him tae) but i was at a party with my current #guy (let's call him joon) #i thought the party might distract me from my ex and the misery thoughts of him brought but suddenly #he was there too.. of course #he left early bc of smth and i tried to enjoy my night (and i kind of did?) but all that joy vanished again once the night was over #and joon is telling me how distracted i feel and how it's unfair to him (which.. so true) and how he only #saw me smiling and laughing for the first time this week when i saw that ex again and talked to him for a sec #'this is the first time you looked happy in so long' ... that fcked me up so bad that i woke up lol !! #but bro if that isn't a story idea to keep in mind #i'm so sad. anyways. good night :') ty if u read and if not that's ok LOL