#i love making lists

[circusclownproductions]

Celebrities with the funnest names to say

-Wayne Gretzky

-Mariska Hargitay

-Steve Buscemi

-Orlando Bloom

-Lucille Ball

#will add more later #when I think of them #🍱 #i love making lists

[simplydm]

Alright I’m doing another “pairs id like to see in the life series”

-Scott and Etho: Etho is scared of Scott. Scott will definitely bring up the sexyman poll

-impulse and skizz: please

-Joel and skizz: guy whose humor is over-the-top confidence and the ceo of hyping people up

-mumbo and Cleo: I think it would be funny to watch her try not to kill him

-grian and Cleo: same as above

-Martyn and Etho: they’d be deadly if they teamed up

#I love making lists #life series #speak up dm

[unsertraumschiff]

#I love making lists #robert de niro #martin scorsese #taxi driver #shark tale

[tallmadgeandtea]

Richard Woodhull pronounces Patriot as “Pat-tree-at” if you need any other reason to hate him btw

#I love making lists #tonight’s turn and tea #Richard Woodhull hate club

[whumpy-wyrms]

Anton is giving Flint Lockwood vibes! Cloudy with a chance of meatballs is one of my favorite movies lol

Of course Anton is a lot more whumpy about his science!

i’ve never thought about this before but you’re SO RIGHT. i loooved that movie as a kid and he was my favorite character but i never thought about those two being similar before. ahahahha i love autistic mad scientists they’re both so silly and have wacky hair

i don’t remember much about that movie but i neeeed to watch it again.. wow it used to be like my favorite movie. woooow (<— remembering. i loooved the giant orange jello part and the spaghetti tornado and the giant ice creammm and all the science parts. that movie was so great)

#ask #anton oc #need to rewatch cloudy with a chance of meatballs this INSTANT!!!! #/j but ferb i know what im gonna do tomorrow #i liked phineas and ferb as a kid and there’s lots of mad science stuff in that #ooooooohhh #i sense a list coming #gonna go make a list. categorize #i love making lists

[sammyloomis]

writing a physical list of all the films on my watched list on letterboxd so i can cross reference it with my spreadsheet fo movies i own so i can figure out which ones i need to download <- is unironically having a great time

#ash.txt #i love making LISTS #WOOHOOOO YIPPEEE

[soweli-musi]

ough I need to make a list of everyone I follow and why so I can more accurately recognise mutuals by their special interests and best know how to indulge them

#hoping for a random burst of energy to make a list #I love making lists #just need some motivation #ask me in like five hours if I ended up doing this and I'll tell you what your category is

[dykebarbie]

i am going to rank all the spirit songs based on how much i like them. for funsies

bringin’ back christmas [the instrumental. the visuals. it’s the closest thing we have to a villian song. im obsessed]

that christmas morning feelin’ (curtain call) [really like ryan reynolds’ voice in this one, plus it’s so fun. PLUS the harmony on ‘playing our parts, changing hearts one by one’. so good]

the story of your life (marley’s haunt) [this song fucks. LOVE the instrumental, especially the drums. wish stupid clint didn’t cut it off /lh]

unredeemable [i’m always a slut for this chord progression. love the build in it so so much. i really like will ferrell’s voice on the lines ‘or do i deserve to find’ and ‘or is all i am unloveable’]

the story of your life (clint’s pitch) [the guitar is really gorgeous in this one, plus i like the fast drum at the end. once again, wish it didn’t get cut off]

do a little good [so catchy plus, once again, i think ryan reynolds’ voice shines in this one, gets points off for the ‘on the right track’ part because i think it sounds bad and kind of strained. i like the tune on ‘a random day in may’ though]

that christmas morning feelin’ [i like this one, i just like the other version better. gets bonus points for the harmony on ‘so sing out his praise and raise a toast’]

ripple (cut song) [this song is very fun, love the build, love the tap dancing]

the view from here [i like the tune of this one. gets stuck in my head. octavia spencer kills it with the vocals]

good afternoon [fun, but i think there are better songs]

present’s lament [i think this song is just ok. don’t love it don’t hate it]

the view from here (riverwalk) [i’ll be honest, the original song was good but not my favorite and i could really care less about this romance so this one is at the bottom]

#this was fun #i love making lists #spirited 2022 #a sydney original #this is of course ignoring all of the godawful autotune #not everything can be perfect

[keekry]

Crushes I have had, but never really talked about.

1. This waitress in a Korean desert shop. BTS was playing in the background, I was like 14 and newly inducted into rainbow antics, and she was really, really pretty

2. A boy I would see in the lift every morning. I was maybe 10? He played the cello I think, and was very polite.

3. Three girls in the same friend group, one after the other. This was extremely embarrassing on multiple counts for different reasons each time. I just had lunch with two of them after maybe 6 years and we get along like a house on fire. I think I have a thing for English majors.

4. A very cute boy I met, once again, in a lift. He was also an English major. (I cover my face) He told me the horrible cat my friend had drawn on my arm was cute and I was kind of smitten with his voice. I never saw him again but I think about him sometimes. Nice hands.

5. Shiro, from Voltron. Please do not comment on this.

6. My gay awakening! I almost never talk about this, because she reacted pretty badly when she found out, and homophobia was alive and well in my high school, but she was cool as fuck. Got me into writing and drawing so you can blame her for my 3AM thoughts.

(I say reacted badly but it wasn’t hostile or anything. My friend group was just very misinformed.)

7. A guy who came up to me after I gave my thesis presentation, shy as fuck and adorably charmed by my (quite intense) gesticulations about queer retellings of folklore. I confess I didn’t really have a crush on him but I do think of him fondly. Baby boy. Deep deep voiced baby boy.

#I will regret this in the morning #maybe #anyway enjoy the lore #I love making lists #the English major realisation only happened today and I am incredibly embarassed about it #staying far far away from the English department #(we have class on the same floor😔) #writing #personal

[cl0udpup]

Autism self-discovery

This post will be detailing the thread I referenced in my last post. Here we go.

I’ve spent the last few months researching autism, trying to decide if it fits for me. I feel like I need to basically write a report with all the reasons I may or may not be autistic, before bringing it up to anyone in my personal life.

I’ve already gone through so many diagnoses, mental and physical health, because I’ve had so many problems my entire life. This adds to my fear of being disbelieved, or called a hypochondriac, or that people might think I’m just collecting diagnoses. In reality, I’ve known there’s something wrong and/or different about me as long as I can remember.

Some things fit, and give me a sense of relief and understanding. As time goes on, and other symptoms or circumstances clear, I feel I get closer to witnessing the real me. The clearer a picture I get, the more at peace I feel.

Right now, I’m at the end of a year that’s been almost entirely focused on my health issues. I found myself more disabled than ever before (and learned for the first time that I do indeed fit that label,) unable to work, do hobbies, take care of myself... I was falling apart.

Thankfully, also for the first time, I have genuine, unwavering, non-judgmental support. I have someone who believes and validates my struggles, and encourages me to continue healing.

After my physical ailments were brought under control, I was able to focus on my mental health. I went back to therapy, got a psychiatrist, adjusted my depression/anxiety meds, got diagnosed with ADHD - Inattentive type, started meds for it recently.

Yesterday I felt clarity like never before. I realized I felt “nothing”. I felt “normal.” It was amazing.

I’ve mentioned this before, but being sober now has been wildly eye opening as well. I’m sober, stable, medicated, and feel I finally can look at myself and my life, free from the fog.

I have always questioned WHY my life has been the way it is. Why I’ve had such a hard time, despite my best efforts, despite using any resources I could, despite trying to be self aware, research and learn about my problems, my behavior, my thinking.

ADHD explains a lot, but my experiences don’t fully align with other ADHD’ers I talk to or read about. In contrast, I feel seen when interacting with autists online, especially with AuDHD’ers.

The experience of being:

so sensitive (in every way)

chronically both over and under-stimulated

feeling like an outsider

excelling in some areas (or appearing to) but struggling deeply in others

always falling behind / can never catch up 

quirky and annoying

drawn to “weird” subcultures

bouncing around to communities without a group to call home

desperately plotting routines and schedules, but never able to stick to anything

always trying to “get my life together” 

I’ve been searching for so long for an answer to explain everything, why I feel so deeply, like I’m too sensitive for this world; I don’t understand how people can be so detached and uncaring. I’ve just been bewildered by it all, and don’t understand why people think I’M the weird one for caring so much about everything.

I’ve read others stories I see myself in. I feel it could be me, but I just still am scared, and don’t know. I told my therapist today I think my sibling is autistic, and we are alike in many ways. I’m thinking next week, maybe I’ll say: maybe I am too.

The replies:

“The fact you connect with what you’re learning about Autism and especially AuDHD’ers lived experiences is a good indication. Internalized ableism and Autistiphobia are hard to overcome.

I learned I was AuDHD as a young adult, and while it was liberatory in a way, I felt it was wrong of me to co-opt something I didn’t think I deserved to take the title of, as there were people who have more or different support needs. That was the ableism.

It’s okay to take your time. Feeling the need to justify your existence to others is their neuro-normative expectations on you, not your burden to bear.”

“I’m autistic and have all the traits you mentioned too.”

“Whatever you decide, you’re welcome between us! It took me a couple years to bring it to people close to me, and even then I have been really guarded about it in general, that’s ok too!”

“This is wildly autistic; which is to say, so awesome. You don’t need a test to know who you are.”

“I relate to a lot of what you shared. I went from social anxiety to BPD to cPTSD to ADHD before ever considering autism. I needed to know why I am so different and why life is so hard for me. I needed validation which I never got before finding the autistic community here.”

“This is autistic as fuck. Reminder that autism self-dx is absolutely valid. You don’t owe an explanation to anyone.”

“You do you and what works for you, but as soon as I started reading your thread I was like hmmm, yep, sounds very familiar! :)”

“That would be a very autistic thing to do, you probably don’t need to do the list. ;)”

“Something I’m learning is that people who are not autistic don’t spend time wondering if they are.”

“This is me but 4 years of intensive research. My traits are recorded in sections in a document.”

“This first post right here is all the diagnosis you need. You just described the most autistic thing. This is the journey for so many of us. Welcome to the club.”

“So you’re saying you’re autistic then. ;) I agonized as well, making lists, weighing ADHD with ASD. Then I came here and talked about it and was assured that NT’s don’t make lists about whether they’re autistic or not. In fact, their brains are apparently rather quiet from what I hear.”

“There’s not much in the world that’s more autistic than extensive research on whether or not you’re autistic.”

“Making a list is a very autistic approach. I use it often.”

“This tweet shows your autism. Extensive research and writing a report, that’s your autism tell right there. Also, no one who isn’t autistic wants to be autistic. You have done the research; self-diagnosis is VALID because of gatekeeping of the diagnosis.”

#gosh #actually autistic #autistic #autism #neurodivergent #neurodiverse #self advocacy #autistic community #validation #autistic af #i love making lists

[so-many-ocs]

[on the verge of having a complete breakdown] i need to make some kind of list or perhaps sort things into categories

#🌿 misc #idk how to tag this #i just love making lists #and sorting things into categories #pinterest #?? #this is part of what motivates me to write i just love making lists of scenes and then sorting them into categories #bangers

[plague-vulture]

using the reminders app so aggressively

#i cant do checklists on my notes app so i do them there #chores lists. homework i need to do. getting my friend flowers for her concert. taking a thing to a place #i love making lists #plague's thoughts

[notquitehuman-creations]

IM BACKKKK ‼️ :3

What do you think the would be the easiest trap to get out of in Saw (in any movie) and do you think you guys could get out of it?

-🦷

HII AGAIN TOOTH!!

ok so I just went back and watched all the saw kill counts to jog our memory and I'm gonna make a list, one choice per movie the the ultimate. lists are fun ^^

Saw: the barbed wire trap probably. just crawl under it L

II: not many options here, so I guess I'll go with the razor box. or Eric's test if that counts, I could listen to John talk for hours <3

III: I could do Jeff's test and any of the the traps in it. I'm better than him

IV: idk. the scalping seat I guess. it's the only one that doesn't totally suck. and I do like doing nothing which was the whole point of that set so

V: neck tie trap. easy peasy

VI: oxygen crusher. I'm quite good at not breathing

3D: public execution. this one is verrry easy to cheese if you hold the contraption at the right angle so all three contestants stay just out of reach of the buzz saws

Jigsaw: shotgun keys. borderline not even a trap if you just, like, listen

Spiral: I GUESS the subway trap. once again, still not ideal, but the others are worse

X: fingerbending suckmaster 9000, without a doubt. not that it wouldn't be difficult, I happen to like my fingers, but compared to the others... yeah no lmao. fingers, leg, brain, hand/foot, or lungs? really...

and out of all these,

*drumroll*

shotgun keys. no contest. it's a simple riddle that you'll solve in a minute tops as long as you're not an idiot(sorry Anna)

#nqh asks #🦷 anon #thanks for the ask! #saw #sawtism #i love making lists #- 📚 #- 🐀(co-written)

[trash2k]

nothing is more satisfying or calming than making a list

#i love making lists #grocery lists. lists of books i want to read / like #lists of my favorite numbers #playlists r lists they r litrally in the name #lists mine beloved

[cinnabeat]

ranking vbs comms and this is infinitely easier than wxs

#michi tag #i love making lists

[notbrucewayne48]

"aphobia doesn't exist"

bitch literally not that long ago an aroace youtuber animator was insulted by almost half of its community for being it

#i did some research about it and found out that the problem was principally that she had previous experience in the romantic area #so people just didn't take her seriously and said she was lying #even though she stated multiple times that she wasn't comfortable in those situations #now things are more calmed but damn #mind your own bussiness #i believe she knows more about herself than you #sorry if i offended you with this comment but i hate how aro/ace/aroace people are always left behind #insulted and rejected because they “dont know what they are talking about” #or because they “just have to wait for the right person” #or because they are “psychopaths and they are missing something” #i love that animator and she helped me realise a lot about myself #and now that i know the context i think i will start making a list and killing aphobes one by one #aromantic #arospec #asexual #aroace #acespec