#i love sam winchester so much

[sampegger]

certain deangirls just frustrate me so bad. like. the ones who insist with their entire chest that dean loves sam more than sam loves him. even just talking early seasons. to see sam leaving for stanford as a betrayal to dean and proof that he loves him less is so. him leaving for college wasn't about dean. it was about wanting something better for himself than what hunting had to offer. him being able to want something more for himself than what he had with dean and john is not a betrayal. to claim that sams ability to endure misery is directly correlated with how much he loves someone is cruel and a terrible perspective to have on any relationship.

and in season 4, to claim that he chose a demon over his own brother while in the midst of having an active addiction problem, and to take that and make it about his loyalty to DEAN is so. that is so biased and evil. you should not see sams violation of his own autonomy as a betrayal to dean. i know the show likes to think they do in the later seasons but the choices sam makes do not all have to center around dean, and that still doesn't mean he loves him any less! viewing it through that type of lens will certainly make it look like he does, but that is objectively the wrong way to interpret any of sams arcs.

when it comes to season 8 i'll say a lot of the same stuff i said about sam leaving for stanford in the first place. while yes i do think him not looking for dean was slightly out of character, it is still unbelievably cruel to think of sams ability to endure pain and claim it marks the level of which he loves someone. especially when he takes on the trials this season, and the entire narrative thrown on sam is his newfound notion that pain purges sin. to have that level of misery thrown in your face (these trials are purifying me) and still insist that if sam is actively fighting against something that is making him miserable (staying in hunting) it's proof he never loved dean that much anyways is awful!!! and that whole "non-agreement" line in which bobby says that he and dean promising not to look for each other was just something that was said and it should've been obvious he was meant to look for dean. don't even get me started.

season 9 is the last season that i think people use as evidence for this. sams claim that he "wouldn't do the same thing for dean." and really. i guess i don't expect dean letting gadreel possess sam to be seen in any other light at this point. sam said he wouldn't have done the same thing for dean because he literally wouldn't have!!! there is nothing that can properly convey the absolute level of violation that that was, especially when sams entire storyline is about his struggle for autonomy. it was a selfish decision on deans end, as is most of the way that he loves sam. it is just so frustrating to see this arcs that revolve specifically around sam turned into evidence of how much he does or doesn't love dean, because that is literally the opposite of what they're about.

i could move onto later seasons as well and talk about how dean is outwardly abusive in them, but that would just be dean slander and that's not what i'm trying to do. the entire point of this post is that tying all of sams decisions to how much he loves dean is wrong and you fundamentally miss the entire point of sam as a character if you view the story through that lens.

sam's ability to endure misery is not directly correlated with his ability to love.

#sam winchester #spn #supernatural #dean critical #i don't even hate dean #i love his inability to break the cycle but i don't think some dean girls even like that about him #i hate when he gets boiled down to a blank slate stand in for whatever ship purpose he has to fill #but whatever #wrote this at 11 am right before leaving for work #i love sam winchester so much #and supernatural is just. better. when you see sam as his own character #yeah

[dmoonrrr]

SUPERNATURAL SPOILERS!!!

Probably one of the scenes that made me most emotional in supernatural is season 4 episode 21 when Dean and Sam were fighting because Sam was drinking so much demon blood and he was trusting Ruby (the fucking demon skank ass bitch that only wanted to fuck Sam over and get him to kill Lillith and free Lucifer from hell) and Sam thought he knew what he was doing when he really didn’t :( and Dean told him that what he was doing wasn’t what was wrong but it was what he was and called him a monster. And then they started hitting each other, and Dean ended up on the floor and when Sam was walking out he told him “if you walk out that door don’t bother coming back” AND I CRIED!!! And then Sam ended up going to Ruby, who was truly a deceiving bitch because she got him to kill Lilith and release Lucifer from hell to start the apocalypse

AND THEN DEAN AND BOBBY WERE SO MEAN TO HIM WHEN HE LET LUCIFER OUT AND ALL HE COULD SAY WAS SORRY BECAUSE HE DIDN’T KNOW EVEN THOUGH HE WAS THE ONE THAT TRUSTED RUBY 😭 I HATE RUBY!! SHE REALLY IS A DEMON SENT FROM HELL 🤬

#supernatural #sam winchester #dean winchester #number one Sam apologist #I love Sam Winchester so much #I hate Ruby #rants

[qtepasacalabaza]

Based on that scene of Lilo and Stitch, you know which one

#fanart #art #digital art #spnfandom #supernatural #castiel #dean winchester #sam winchester #spn fanart #short comic #dean winchester is a swiftie #eppy cas #dummies #i love them so much

[blah11]

kiddos <З

#tiny winchesters #dean winchester #sam winchester #i love them so much i can't #supernatural #spn #spnfandom

[tongjingnian]

we learned about the definition of love today

#dean winchester #sam winchester #wincest #supernatural #weecest #god i love weecest so much #🥰🥰🥰 #😱😱😱

[lambmotifz]

thinking about those two times dean confessed to sam that he enjoyed killing & torturing people and how both times sam was understanding and just accepted it

#if you don’t think sam loved dean unconditionally then idk what to tell you #i’m seeing so much sam hate lately so i just wanted to point it out #the fandom doesn’t talk enough about dean’s sadistic tendencies me thinks #wincest #samdean #sam winchester #dean winchester #spn

[2sw]

Supernatural S1E06 Skin S2E04 Children Shouldn't Play with Dead Things S2E14 Born Under a Bad Sign S6E08 All Dogs Go to Heaven S7E02 Hello, Cruel World S10E02 Reichenbach

#sam winchester #spn 1x06 #spn 2x04 #spn 2x14 #spn 6x08 #spn 7x02 #spn 10x02 #s1 #s2 #s6 #s7 #s10 #gifs #he has no concept of weapons safety #i love u so much lawboy

[bloodfreak-boyking]

"you wanna take another swing, go ahead, if it'll make you feel better." -> "dean you only touch me when we're dying or fighting so please dear god punch me if it means i get to feel your hands on me again"

#sam winchester is touch starved and i believe this with my whole chest #he just wants dean to touch him #and dean is so afraid to touch him bc what if he does and he can't keep himself in check? can't keep his feeling buried this time? #they're both so afraid to show how much they love the other and i personally find it delicious #emma rewatches spn #2x4 children shouldn't play with dead things #spn #wincest #samdean

[mentallyunwellsamgirl]

Being a Dean-coded Sam girl is the most fulfilling way to watch supernatural. I understand and empathize with all of Dean’s batshit insane decisions because I too would be that crazy about Sam Winchester.

Literally my favorite guy ever Dean you are so real

#supernatural #sam and dean #dean winchester #sam winchester #i love him so much #spn #sammy #samdean #psychotically irrationally erotically codependent

[rustic-space-fiddle]

Passing the time~

#supernatural #sam winchester #dean winchester #sam and dean #weechesters #I saw people using that tag in rbs and I love it so much #supernatural fanart #spn #spn fanart #art #fan art #digital art #artists of tumblr #rustic space doodles #I had a lot of fun with the environment details in this one #though I did struggle with not making the boys look like fricking giants #*sigh* #perspective is a cruel mistress

[fluffsnake]

#my art #supernatural #spn fanart #dean winchester #sam winchester #castiel #jack kline #dadstiel #baby jack au is my everything #tfw 2.0 #I love them so much hghgjfdgh #suptober22 #I know Cas not knowing who LedZepp are is inaccurate but shh

[inbredbrotherhood]

Sam oscillates so seamlessly between prey animal and predator. Sam is a lamb but he’s also the wolf, Sam is the fawn in the same way he’s the hunting dog and every iteration of Sam — every time he is prey or predator, he encapsulates that perfectly. The perfect victim or the perfect killer.

#I love him so much #sam winchester #supernatural #spn sam winchester #soulless sam winchester #hell sam Winchester #trials Sam Winchester #samifer #demon blood!sam #boy king of hell sam winchester #the boy with the demon blood

[samwinchesterslostshoe]

Heart to heart.

Loved the drawing I made of Dean so much so i decided to make a matching one of Sam. I wanted to place them next to each other but it felt like something was missing, so then I had the idea to add the heart into the middel :)

I am don’t say this often about my own art , but I am genuinely extremely proud of these drawing and think I improved quite a lot when it comes to digital art❤️

Ps: thank you all so much for all the love on my previous drawing of dean!!!

#dean Winchester #Sam Winchester #teamfreewill #supernatural fan art #spn fan art #supernatural #I love them so much aaagghhhhh

[woundlingus]

Sammy fretting/worrying over Gabriel 13x20 🥰

Rich really said hey Jared play this like you’re in love with me and boy did he

I guess trying to nurse someone back to health while they cry and whimper and flinch at every raise of your hand might make you a little protective…

#I show so much love to Loki and Gabriel in this episode that I forget there’s a 3rd superstar 🌟 #Sam Winchester appreciation #spn #supernatural #gabriel spn #sam winchester #sabriel #supernatural s13 #supernatural 13x20

[youchoseeachother]

Sam, getting to know Dean in season 1.

#was there even anything he knew about dean. like... #i wonder if it's because dean has changed a lot during the four years they were apart #or if sam was too young/immature to actually see dean past his exterior before stanford #probably a mix of both. but it's so interesting because the idea he had of him doesn't have anything to do with the actual dean!! #sam winchester #dean winchester #supernatural #spn season 1 #corespnedit #.anna #also psst this is why it's dumb to call dean a creep just because sam once implied that dean would sleep with minors #like sam at times tends to see him as worse than he is! #like when he can't believe dean actually loved cassie or cares about saving a kid's life #so - don't trust too much what he says about him #in particular because all of the women dean actually slept with were roughly the same age as him or older #(aside from the fact that sam was probably joking that time)

[sammygender]

thinking about dean growing up and putting everything before himself. hunting and his brother and his dad and his dad’s revenge quest for their mom. he doesn’t matter. he is entirely irrelevant. thinking about dean internalising this as just what you do, just how people behave and how they should behave. him viewing selfish as the worst thing you can possibly be.

then thinking about sam growing up and fighting. brave enough to challenge their father and rebel against him and voice something different, brave enough to focus on what he wants. dean seeing this and it stings - he could never do that. how is sam acting like that? he can’t believe that’s the right way to behave. so sam must be selfish, just in believing he has any right to his own life.

dean sublimates himself for the family and expects sam to do the fame, and his resentment and jealousy that sam doesn’t turns into anger and making sam out to be the mean one, the one in the wrong. and this never goes away. this is always what dean levels at sam - that he’s selfish, that in wanting to make his own choices he’s rejecting their family, rejecting dean……. awful. toxic. evil evil message to send to sam. entirely in character. dean wants to prioritise sam, would save him over the world. but he doesn’t care what sam wants.

selflessness isn’t always a charming character trait. it’s not the same thing as a generosity of spirit and it’s definitely not the same thing as being caring. sometimes selflessness just means you’re incapable of prioritising your life and incapable of understanding how anyone else could or should prioritise theirs. sometimes it means you still act selfishly, you just convince yourself you were objectively in the right, because doing something actually for yourself is unthinkable. sometimes it means you think the very act of having wants and boundaries is selfish, no matter whether they’re yours or anyone else’s.

anyway… thoughts on dean’s specific brand of awfulness regarding sam. what does it matter to him what sam actually wants? since when did it ever matter in the winchester household what anyone wanted? dean had to deal with things he didn’t want for the mission (for john). sam has to deal with things he doesn’t want for the mission (for dean). augh. the cycles

#& what do they get for that? sam gets punished repeatedly for being brave and attempting to have any sense of agency #it’s taken from him repeatedly by everyone around him. hes violated in every possible way. him wanting his own life is framed as selfishness #i can’t stop thinking abt this. Am i dean winchester am i on the pathway to becoming him #it makes so much sense now. of course sam is everything to me. i always always latch onto characters who fight who try to say fuck you i am #worth something. and that’s what sam tried to do. it just didn’t work. the story wears him down too much. augh. #the story + his abused/abusive brother #spn is a horror story #dean winchester #this is written with love but it is very much hashtag dean critical #spn #meta #supernatural #sam winchester #spn meta