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gayleviticus · 3 months

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I overheard a guy today giving a progressive Muslim take on Islam to someone else - not proselytising, but sort of like 'here are the good things about Islam and why it makes sense to me and how it's liberatory' - and power to him for it! but what I found interesting about it from a progressive Christian POV was that even as he was expounding a antiracist, feminist, anti colonialist, anti capitalist version of the faith, he did not hesitate at all to draw on language of judgment and hell.

and ofc it was in an inclusivist way - God judges only evildoers not non-believers, Islam is not necessary to be s good person but is about going further to have a relationship with God. hence the targets of judgment are Israeli politicians and IOF soldiers who martyr Palestinians destined for paradise. but it was interesting bc I feel like progressive Christians tend to shy away from the topic entirely. heck, not even just on the topic of hell, even just on the afterlife in general.

and tbc i don't necessarily think this is in progressive christianitys favour! im not trying to be 'eww even progressive islam is so cruel and judgmental unlike christianity the perfect religion of peace'.

i think there is strong biblical language of judgment for a reason, and even as a universalist who believes all will eventually be reconciled to God, it doesn't mean I don't think any kind of judgment takes place.

I think judgment is an integral component of God's plan to recreate the world- to judge is to deem unfit, unworthy. we recoil from this because we see the language used of marginalised people far too often. but I think fundamentally judgment is on sin and death. sin cannot exist in heaven not because heaven is an exclusive VIP members club, but because heaven is defined as a place without sin. to admit sin into heaven is just to recreate hell. So judgment is God discerning what has a place in human flourishing and fulfilment of the law of love.

ofc that's not to make a blanket statement about all progressive christianity or all islam. but I did appreciate this guy shining a light on how judgment can have a liberatory dimension to it

#religion #christianity #progressive christianity #abrahamic

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esther-dot · 1 year

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Brave black crow," she mocked. "Well, long before he was king over the free folk, Bael was a great raider."

Stonesnake gave a snort. "A murderer, robber, and raper, is what you mean."- Jon(ACOK VI).

Replace Bael with Rhaegar. It's basically Lyanna and Rhaegar story. Like Bael, some considered Rhaegar loved Lyanna while others claim him rapist. Ygritte also told Jon that every lady fall in love with Bael in his songs and his truth is different from theirs

Most interestingly Jon considered Bael a liar and he was surprised that the Stark girl loved him. Personally I hate both Bael and Rhaegar.

(about this ask)

Oh, I hate Rhaegar too 😂 However, I think how we feel about characters/plot developments is a distinct category from speculation/what we think Martin is saying. The best part of his series is that he wants each character's POV to feel true to who they are, for each to shade our understanding. So, I agree with you that Rhaegar could be substituted for Bael here, but I think it makes sense that Ygritte would have one view, a Northman another, to clearly illustrate and maintain the conflict of the cultures (that is elaborated on via Jon and Ygritte's relationship), and from that I conclude that we, the readers, are expected to develop a more nuanced understanding as a result of the conflicting views, not conclude that one of the other is entirely correct.

And, if the goal is to understand where Martin is going, we should take the new revelations regarding Rhaegar seriously. Robert’s version is evil rapist, Ned’s thoughts make that difficult to believe, Dany’s vision makes us realize, oh, not lust driven, prophecy driven, and then we have Bran’s and Meera’s convo which starts to (maybe) contradict the Lyanna as an abductee narrative and suggest, maybe she was enamored with Rhaegar’s singing as Martin starts to indicate, all women were? I guess I think it’s worth the effort to pay attention to the wrinkles Martin is introducing into the story.

Also, I can’t remember if I’ve seen a meta on this, but Rhaegar is a little Biblical David-y, what with the harp playing, the paranoid king, going after someone else’s wife (betrothed), and of course, everyone recognizes Jon as a take on a Christ figure, which fits with that reading too, so I kinda…feel like Martin is likely wanting to say more, not less, with his version. That doesn’t mean justifying his actions ofc. I would think Jon will be appalled when he learns the truth.

#anti rhaegar #dot chat #< for filtering

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iliektehhaxs · 3 months

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reread that AU MIL anabella anon and honestly i think if she was being extra horrible to clive’s spouse one day and u just snapped back at her bc everyone has a limit (most likely the final straw of her commenting on how ofc clive would attract a second mongrel into the house after torgal) i think it would be prime entertainment for everyone but her (byron is trying not to burst out laughing at her shocked expression) and clive would try to rescue it with faux politeness and excuse the two of u but then fuck u till sunrise bc ur not holding back on ur thoughts of her

Oh when you blow up on her it’s anger in its most pure form, biblical even. Had you been a dominant your awakening would’ve happened at that exact moment when she refers to your husband as a mongrel. As impressed Clive is of your defiance he stops you from any further violence, barely stopping you from jumping over the couch and throttling her (even as much as he’d enjoy to see the sight, she’s still his mother.)

He’s forced to drag away the hissing cat that has replaced his wife, claws bared in the form of biting words and a colorful vocabulary he’s certain to ask you about tomorrow. But for tonight, he knows more than a few ways to tame your anger.

You’ve been pacing in your shared bedroom the moment Clive brought you away from that—that evil woman you’ve had the misfortune to call your mother in law. God, just thinking about her makes you walk faster.

“A mongrel, a fucking mongrel?” You nearly scream. “If there’s any flea ridden dogs in this castle it’s that spoiled old bitch—“

Perhaps it’s in bad faith to laugh, especially when his own mother is the subject, but the sight of you ranting out loud is quite amusing.

“—I mean seriously, her own son is in the room! I knew she hated me the moment we met but you’re her own flesh and blood! How could a mother look her son in the eyes and call him a mongrel?”

You look back to your husband lounging on the bed for confirmation, to which he only shrugs.

“Seriously Clive? Please don’t tell me she’s been like this your whole life.”

“The truth is often what we don’t wish to hear,” he says, gesturing you closer. The moment you do so you’re pulled into his lap, and all your worries seem to slip away from your mind.

You sit like that for a while, the sound of his breathing a gentle comfort, a heavy hand at your back resting against the curve of it.

“You know, that was a very brave thing you did,” he whispers. “Standing up to my mother, that is.”

You huff in response, now suddenly aware of how rude your outburst was. “Someone had to, I suppose. I doubt I’ll ever get her approval now.”

A sympathetic pat to your back. “To be fair, my mother is a very stubborn woman. There is little to change her mind once she’s made a decision.”

You know he’s right, but you’re still saddened by the realization. No matter what you did, Anabella would never have approved of your love, even if you spent the rest of your days bending over backwards.

Clive senses your emotions and kisses you softly, quelling any doubts that form in your head.

“Darling, look at me,” he coos, turning your eyes towards his. “I do not care what she thinks of us, I would stay with you with or without her consent—I suppose that’s what mongrels do.”

#robo speaks #ask #I was gonna write smut for this but ITS 11 AND I HAVE WORK #SORRY 🙏

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cognitosclowns · 2 years

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Ok so you know how A.B has a pretty big god complex? What if he met someone whos as close as you could get to an actual god-like creature. like they can change into some seraphim or biblical angel type shit [not to where he can’t comprehend their form or anything lol] I just want some shocked/flustered A.B

[if you want to make it dating headcannons or nsfw headcannons that’s alright too :)]

GKRKKGRKGKR IM DOIN A MIX OF BOTH BC IM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS IDEA AAAAAA

tw : religious references, cosmic/eldritch horror!!

LIKE <33333

yknow what'd make it even better??? if he's the ONLY one who can comprehend it

CAUSE,,,, LIKE,,,

Listen 99% of the time you've gotta use a mixture of Mind Control Glamour and self restraint bc,, Your True Form gives ppl Lovecraftian Breakdowns (tm)

IT REALLY IS SOME BE NOT AFRAID SHIT. just,, this swirling mass of wings and eyes and hands, sharp fractals of multicolored light that twist around in patterns that Do Not Make Sense To The Human Brain. Like,, Penrose triangles and shit all made of shimmering beams of light that surround you in a bubble w/ you at the center??? A mixture of metal and skin and something Other, a color on a spectrum of light humans cant see?? M.C Escher's wet dream

THE CULMINATION OF THIS MEANS A LOTTA PPLS BRAINS TURN INTO RICE PUDDING WHEN THEY SEE IT. Their brains just,, cannot handle it all together.

BUT WHEN *HE* FIRST SEES IT??

there's this little flinch - like you can definitely hear his processor tic-tic-tic-whirring at first tryna parse the details but... it goes quiet and he has this Horribly Curious, Adoring Look on his face??

an outstretched hand, mentally tracing the ridges as if he's making diagrams in his head??? He looks so,, simultaneously enraptured and surprised??? <33333

YOU DON'T EVEN GET IT, ELDRITCH ABOMINATION IS LIKE <333 HIS END GOAL FOR HOW HE WANTS TO LOOK ONCE HE ESCAPES.

HE'S SIMULTANEOUSLY ENVIOUS AS FUCK AND COMPLETELY GOO-GOO EYED BC <333 awooga what a fucking bombshell <333

'you're staring'

'Very closely, yes <3' just barely mumbled. He isn't trying to be coy about it, he's so clearly taken aback in the best way <33

it obviously throws you for a bit of a loop bc,, usually ppls first reaction to Uncanny Horrifying Creature (tm) is speaking in tongues and tearing their hair out but,, he starts asking questions?? His fingers and wiggling with this Enthusiasm?? oh gee <3333

GOD FUCK IF YOU TWO ARE A COUPLE??? HHHH <333

of course the obvious nickname of Angel <3 or variants - 'my lovely seraphim <3' and the like <333 its your own little in-joke

he loves it he loves it he loves it god why do you even have a humanoid form he just always wants to see you in your natural state please <333 never never never bother with disguises around him he doesn't care if you accidentally make some humans brain fall out actually yknow what that'd probably make him fall even more in love <333333 awooga

YOURE SO FUCKING TALL <333 oh god he would never admit it but it makes his legs go a bit wiggly. He's in the presence of such <333 beauty and power ofc he's flustered - why are you laughing, he's telling the truth >:(!

coming up behind him and,, placing those dozens of hands along his sides and back and shoulders feels like a thousand kisses <3333

he loves your voice <333 it's this fantastic,, layering?? Like a thousand voices speaking at once, slightly discordant coming from every direction??? <333 he'd never ask but like,, reading to him while you two lay down?? <33 oh my god he will be so at peace

his favorite thing is just <333 running his hands along your wings?? tracing the fractals as they orbit you?? it makes his fingers tingle <33 he never wants his hands off you. there's so much of you to touch and so many unparalleled textures and he wants all of it

THIS WASN'T REALLY THAT SMUTTY SMNDSMD BC IT WAS ALREADY GETTING LONG APOLOGIES

#as smb who's OBSESSED with christian angelology and the positively bonkers shit it entails this was so fun <333 #msndsmdnm im not religious but like DAMN THE ELDRITCH HORROR THERE IS SO FUCKIN FUNKY <33 HOW BEAUTIFUL #give AB an angel s/o 2021 <333 #msndsm when writing this i was picturing like... the big eye in the center with these giant multi-layered sets of wings and some impossible #geometry floating around you??? yea <333 thats very gender MSNDMSNDMSD.#i love the idea of him seeing some Be Not Afraid Shit and immediately going gooey because <33 AWOOGA WHAT A POWERFUL BEAUTIFUL CREATION <33 #alpha-beta #robotus alpha-beta #alpha-beta x reader #robotus alpha-beta x reader #WERE THESE TOO GENERIC?? SMDNSDM lmk if you had smth else im mind #sorry i got caught up <333 describing the Eldritch Fun Stuff #tw religion #tw angels #tw christianity #tw eldritch #inside job

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anne-the-quene · 3 years

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I'm kinda confused rn, bc I'm looking through the historical records and in a letter dated Dec 21st, 1531, from Dr Ortiz to the Empress,it says that Anne miscarried? Ofc it doesn't say Anne, those people loved to call her... Not good things

I found the letter you’re referring to.

His exact words are

“Is grieved to hear that queen Katharine is removed from the Court, and that the King's wench is there. It is said she has miscarried.”

I think the key word here is ‘said’. It wasn’t uncommon for false information and rumors about Anne to spread. I wouldn’t be surprised if one of Anne’s enemies made up some story about her being pregnant.

I really don’t think Anne and Henry were having sex (at least, not in the Biblical sense) because it just won’t have benefited then if Anne got pregnant before they were married. Any child Anne had would be a bastard and, obviously, Henry needed a legitimate heir (otherwise, what would’ve been the point of divorcing Catherine when he could’ve just made FitzRoy his heir?)

I mean, I’ll do some digging and see if I can’t find any other evidence of this supposed pregnancy, but I doubt it was anything more than a rumor made up to make Anne look bad.

#anne boleyn #anonymous #ask

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lala-pipo · 3 years

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(1) WOW! 4 months has passed since you answered my last ask hahaha… so fast… I understand, sometimes when I spend too much time on something, be it working or studying or even recreational stuff I feel burnt out to :D Like I spent 5 straight days last week playing Stardew Valley, now I haven’t touched the Switch lol anyways, I am still enjoying the updates on Dorm Life! It’s slowly progressing but I think it’s good for both of them so far? Taking it one step at a time :3

(2) It’s like they are back at it again with their bantering and anime/fanfic conversations :’) the comfortableness is there but also at the same time it feels unsettling? maybe because we are seeing it from Taem’s POV and he is kinda fidgety (for a lack of better word) or tense about the situation? Hmmm but yeah the ending at the latest chapter though!! Whoooo could have been calling Jong at that time? And the off-character part where he turned off his phone, refusing to take the calls :O

(3) Obviously like Taem we would probably just wonder if it’s Key right, but idk why some instinct telling me it’s not Key like it’s a new part of the story? A new subplot? Lol or maybe it is Key and we are closing that chapter? Uhuhuh I’m just going to theorize in the corner here as I wait for the next update :3 Ah! Yeah, and you said there won’t be any crying moments anymore, so will there be more cheesy things like the end of the latest chapter? Cringe inducing lines and “aww” moments? ;)

(4) Yeah, ofc ofc since to Taem, Key is his “antagonist”, we were bound to kind of see it the same way… in the latest update too, there were a lot of thoughts inside Taem’s head regarding his observations on Key right… like I think there was a part where he thought that Key was looking down on him, or even he thought that Key and Jong should be having stricter? (Idk if that’s the right word) boundaries on things that they should and shouldn’t talk about lol

(5) To be honest, it’s kind of entertaining to see Taem’s train of thoughts on these things like, that almost instantaneous thought in someone’s head that they don’t really share to others. It can be a little bit biased, it can be overdramatic, but ofc I also I understand Taem’s hatred? Or more like insecurity maybe? When it comes to Key (and Jong). It’s the kind of things people think about but not really say out loud hahaha I love it, it makes the characters more whole?

(6) Oh yeahh? I shall be sneaking my way into AO3 to see your replies :3 For a while I kind of realized that you uploaded every 3 weeks? On my Sunday nights, so I timed it perfectly lol recently I’ve been busy too so this one took a while hehehe :D Since my last ask I think you updated twice with chapter 10 and 11! I think chapter 10 was more like “where is this going, what is happening” uncertain section with everyone just passing by time and going with the flow? Ft. mother and Kai hahah

(7) In chapter 11, I think the direction is clearer for them, thanks to the convo by the river!! It was a necessary conversation and I’m glad that they were able to talk about it, after great difficulty :’) Then the chapter was filled with fluff cheese fluff Taem’s thoughts on Key fluff :3 hahaha oh! Maybe I wasn’t paying attention as much but there weren’t many biblical allusions in the past 2 chapters? Maybe it was intentional or maybe not, either way I didn’t notice many of them I think? haha

(8) Maybe ‘cos Taem’s thoughts are filled with “where is this going”, Jong, Key, and then the upcoming exam lol so not so much bible references going on in his head haha… Also!! I saw new fanfics for Jong’s month and I did not read them yet!! So excited, probably will read them as I wait for the updates :D Also!! SHINee x AoT fanfic, yes please omg… I actually searched for one back in 2013-2014? When AoT Anime was just released… we have Pacific Rim AU, so I was rooting hard for AoT AU :’(

(9) Sooo yeah, I’ll look forward to any new fanfics by you in the future too! But please do take time away from it if it tires you out or if you are burned out! It should be an enjoyable thing to do for you :D Anyways! Thank you for the updates! I thoroughly enjoyed the fluff, oh! and thank you for accepting my tomo-choco lol, and I gratefully accept yours! <3 I hope you had and will have an amazing time for the upcoming months! Take care, and stay healthy! – cricket anon

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Cricket nony!

Wow indeed! It certainly has been a while. How have you been? I have never heard of Stardew Valley before, but I’m glad you’ve enjoyed playing it. But I know that feeling, sometimes I play games for weeks and then I won’t touch them for a year. Humans are weird like that I guess. ^^

I’m glad you’re still enjoying my slow updates. I mean we are about to cross the finishing line. There are only two chapters left to complete the storyline + the epilogue. So yeah. Considering that I already wanted to be done with the story by March – and now we’re nearing July already. Haha – but at least I’m working on it to push this story over the finishing line.

It’s not really a subplot – more like the underlying theme of the story which has been there since chapter 1. If the story was written from Jonghyun POVs it would have been a main theme, but since we’re seeing everything from Taem’s perspective, we just know what Jonghyun shares with him – which is not a lot. :’)

Yes, there won’t be any more tears. There will be a few cheesy moments, but less so compared to chapter 11. :’D Chapter 12 is like the last peak before – hopefully – all ties come together in chapter 13 *knocks on wood*

Oh, Taemin will have a lot more thoughts on Kibum in chapter 12. Lmao The whole situation between Kibum and Taemin is loosely based on something from my own experiences. However, without going too much into detail – let’s keep it simple and say I was the Jonghyun in that scenario. Lmao

Yeah, I think there are plenty of moments in this story in which Taemin thinks a LOT of things but says something very different out loud. I think that’s only human. It’s just better to not share all thoughts one has. :’)

It’s certainly intentional that there are less biblical references after they’ve actually been to church. There are still some left to come, but far less than in previous chapters. It’s supposed to show that Taemin is slowly beginning to find his balance in a way, his way in life? I don’t know how to put it, but he slowly gets more rooted.

THANK YOU! Finally someone who understand my craving for SHINee x AoT fanfic. I really, really want to write one because for some reason I want to write something more action driven with blood, and gore and violence lmao and of course titans. I mean romance is cute – but romance is even cuter if you put it into a dystopian setting where people are fighting for the survival of human kind. A SHINee survey squad would be so cute T_T <3 I don’t really know why no one picked up on yet after all those years – we have so many crossovers in this fandom – and yet a crossover with one of the biggest fandoms out there is just nonexistent. It makes no sense to me. I also always wanted to write a Harry Potter crossover but there are so many out there already – so AoT really lets my weeb juices tingle. Lmao

I remember really liking bmot’s JongTae pacific rim AU…although I still have no idea about pacific rim to this day. :’D I always wanted to look it up because I like the description in their story – it seemed an interesting concept but somehow I’ve never went further than thinking about it.

Thanks for dropping by again, cricket nony! Talk to you in 4 months? Maybe…lmao Take good care of yourself. *waves* <3

#ask #cricket nony #dorm life

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pipesflowforeverandever · 5 years

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11 and 7 :0c

11: What do you like best about this fic?

Of the fic itself: The gradual buildup to and then the reveal of anything to do with Joey; delving into Sammy’s religiosity and mindset; creating a female character I can be proud of.

Of writing it: Seeing people analyze it and see everything I intended and then some, and then gush about it.

7: Where did the title come from?

As a heads up, a lot of these refer to things in each arc so if you don’t want spoilers for parts you haven’t read (and don’t want to be spoiled ofc), I wouldn’t read about the titles you haven’t gotten through yet. It especially includes the major plot twist in ARITR and the end/climax of the whole series.

Hymns of Struggle: This was the very first thing I had to name, and I don’t remember a lot about the process, but I think I was just especially thinking of things I wanted to convey in a way that sounds good. “Hymns” fits both musicality and religiosity, and “Struggle” conveys a feeling of, well, struggle. And together, I intended to give the idea that people are praying through their suffering, with hope (either pointless or good).

Wonders of Heresy: I wanted to keep the same basic rhythm in titles, so this is where the pattern (blank) of (blank) starts. This in particular is supposed to point out the things Francine brings that are amazing, even if they distract or go against Sammy’s faith. This goes for both her phone and new knowledge as well as her meeting Alice. I also think it especially fits the very last chapter where Sammy is trying to teach Francine how to sing/pray to the ink demon and she just… *plop* to the floor like a little kid.

Parables of Empathy: I already knew ahead of time I wanted this part to be about Francine getting to know Alice and the Projectionist better. “Parables” in this case refers to biblical lessons meant to be modeled after, and so this part is about trials Francine (and Sammy secondarily) goes through that she and others will learn from and use in the future.

Flickers of Faith: “Flickers” simultaneously refers to a flame dying and a flame sparking to life; it’s an in between state and by the name alone, you can’t really tell where you are. It’s precarious, and dangerous, and the characters both physically and emotionally are threatened. My first chapter for it is called “The Last Stair,” which tries to convey the idea that sometimes the in-between is more distressing than whatever outcome is next. And so, Sammy for the first time has doubts in his faith, and Francine for the first time begins to question what Sammy has told her and goes out to test it herself.

Tides of Longing: In Flickers of Faith, I use the title here to refer to Francine’s want of something more eating something up Sammy holds dear- if I recall right, his sense of security in the ink demon. Here, I use it to also refer to a recently revealed Joey swallowing the studio up in his curse because he longed for his son. Joey, Sammy, and Francine are all shown here to deeply want something, and they face the moral complications of the pursuit of it.

Cares of Communion: In a way similar to Parables, I knew I wanted to talk about people “communing” or talking and being together. I knew I wanted Francine to talk to Joey again- inevitably so, as they are both very drawn to one another despite justified apprehensions on both sides- and I wanted Sammy to talk to Alice after Francine met with her again. This is probably my weakest title choice, but it’s still not necessarily bad imo because it sounds good and rolls off the tongue. I want to say I changed the title at least three times, even after posting chapter 1 of it.

Dances of Duality: I was talking at either @startistdoodles or @aceofintuition‘s stream and I was asking for ideas for titles of upcoming arcs in general, and Ace suggested either the whole title or at least the Dances part. In this section, I try to make it more apparent that something deeper is happening, that there is mirroring between Joey and the rest of his studio and between Francine and Henry.

“Dances” is both literal and figurative, of course; it can both be something fun and intimate as well as an analogy to dodging one another in a fight- predicting their next move. It goes for Joey especially as he does his best to analyze Francine while simultaneously marveling at the warmth she brings other people, and so Joey ends of in one moment letting himself go and allowing himself to enjoy the otherwise horrid, murderous whimsy/power of the studio with her…and in another moment he has to predict what she is going to do, and what the demon is going to do. And well. I actually already drafted two dancing moments prior to writing this arc, so “dances” kind of fell in my lap…and especially so with Sammy’s dance mirroring Joey’s.

A Rock in the River: I had a big, long talk with Ace about this one. I was pretty attached to the title pattern at this point, but they convinced me that the finale needed something different, because something different is happening in a major way for the story and the characters. And so the title itself represents that- a change. The path of life is being redirected by something towards another direction.

We first came up with the idea that something nature based and/or like a fairy tale is fitting, and a lot of the analogies I use of such things (candles, bodies of water, trees, rain, etc) would be brought full circle. In particular, I was thinking about the second or third chapter of Tides where Joey is described as having the belief that time is like a river, and when Henry left, fate was going in the wrong direction. Joey had faith in magic and believed that it brought him and Henry together, and therefore as a man of magic, he had the ability to change the flow of fate and put things where they were supposed to be. Of course, he only ends up in the most ironic way shifting it entirely away with his selfishness and lack of introspection, and so no one was allowed to continue living as their were supposed to not just as employees but as human beings with proper bodies and souls that can rest in death. Time is askew and means nothing to the studio, and this is not a world these people are meant to be in.

There’s a few people that I could say are the “rock” that comes and changes everything to the way it’s truly supposed to be; most obviously, Francine brings about change and it’s entirely plausible the studio would not be set free if not for her influence. But I also really wanna give credit to Sammy, for one. Sammy goes against everything he’s taught himself to emotionally survive what he’s been through for nearly a century- he runs away with his faith and believes in himself and his friend. He basically kills his “god” in order to set himself free, he is the change he prayed for.

…I really, really need to mention Henry too, though. Henry changed the studio- his game-canon arrival creating the setup of Hymns- but also in his own personal story, he sought for his dad and ultimately left again after realizing (one way or another) that he not only did not change in a way that mattered- and actually got even worse as his destruction created an eternal cycle of self-hatred and perpetuated harm and possessiveness. I haven’t written about this yet, but Henry presumably had to struggle with the aftermath of his decision and try to reconcile the truth that he did what was good for himself and his family. And in the end, Henry survived and left the studio, and he had his own peace living a full life with a loving family. And Joey realizing Henry in spite of Joey’s mistakes still had his own life in his hands of course couldn’t take back everything the 50 years of believing he killed his son did to him emotionally and to the studio, but it managed to undo the knot for Joey to let go; he let go of his son, and his son saw the sun again, and so could everyone else without him.

It’s also less directly relevant, but I feel I should be fair and give a shoutout to Alice for changing too, going from someone that harms others because she believes they’re wasting away anyway- using their bodies to make herself who she wants to be- to someone willing to throw away the body she’s worked so hard for and put her fate into someone else’s hands. She learned to love, and to let someone care for her instead even after being reaffirmed in her first life and the eternal one that no one was really looking out for her.

As another note, I also already planned out the ending where everyone is released at Joey’s “heart”- or his sacred childhood home in a beautiful, natural scene like a fairy tale, and so the title helped wrap everything full circle that way too.

#hymns spoilers #ask box #gingie #hymns alice #hymns sammy #francine #hymns norman #hymns henry #tak talks #tak writes #long post #science5life #hymns of struggle #batim au #fanfic #fanfiction #writer ask

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k-sseulegi · 7 years

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JJP fic rec~

I decided to make a list about my personal favorite jjp fics, in honor of their comeback. I do appreciate if you share your favorites with me as well~

Also don’t forget to stream Tomorrow, Today!! ❀

Okay here we go:

Citation - (college au/smut/slow burn/side markson) savage and tsundere jinyoung, only-soft-for-jinyoung jaebum… bad first impressions, and denial of feelings everywhere. sounds quite realistic huh?

Renewal - (a sequel to Citation, where jy is 25 and jb is, well much older) as good as the first one but hella more angsty (yeah i love angst) (and i literally fall in love the characterization of jinyoungie in this one)

Compass Calling (pirate au/prince!jy/pirate!jb/very well-written smut (get ready to squeeze yo ass cheeks)/angst/violence etc...) this fic is e v e r y t h i n g for me… The sexual tension between jinyoung and jaebum is so pleasurable that i cant even. you sink into the atmosphere so easily, the writer is really gifted about portraiting the scenes. it also has a very deep and sad side markson, so get your kokoro ready for this… i can talk about this fic like 9 hours but it’s not necessary bc READ IT OKAY

Better Late Than Never (college au/rich boyz/rivals/fights and angst) ENEMIES TO LOVERS IS MY KINK OKAY i will fite you. ehm let’s get back to the fic, it’s quite dynamic, i mean every second sth happens, so you don’t get bored or lose your concentration. jealous!jaebum stans will love it ( ¬‿¬)

It has a sequel too and it’s pure angst believe me —> Pace is the Trick

On the Road to Happiness (coffee shop au/amnesia/fluff/smut/angst/dont be surprised if you see some markjin/ plus side yugbam) Another beautiful fic… Mark is jinyoungie’s first love for a thousand years,platonically ofc, however he’s getting married with another woman and jinyoungie is his best man. and after background information takes place, shit got really real… However the real charm point of the fic is CHIC AND SEXY AND POSSESSIVE AND JEALOUS AND JY’S PEACH STAN JB. i assure that you’ll also see lots of the chin thing dsdkdkf

I’ll End Up Like Icarus (college au/fluff/romantic comedy) You should read it, i dont know what else to say. This fic has the most iconic lines i swear you’ll understand what i mean after you read and i like coffee; coffee is the key for everything.

Do What We Do (one shot/smut/cross dressing) get ready to quality smut to the accompaniment of jinyoung wearing a red miniskirt and lowkey but strong jjp feels, that’s all i say.

Breathless (college au/coffee shops/fluff/romantic comedy/mark and jackson are dicks) CUTEST FIC I’VE EVER READ i want to write this fic’s url on my forehead so everyone can reach this beautiful fic and we can make the world a better place i’m serious. Savage, devilish but still cute as hell jinyoung and confused-one-night-stand-boi jaebum strike again!! ((In this point i want to note that the characterization is very important for me in fanfics. I can’t read neither passive and soft jinyoung, or serious and henpecked jb fics. They’re seem so unrealistic (you know what i mean) and boring to me so i don’t enjoy reading them)) Fluffy scenes in this fic make my phone’s screen crack bc of me throwing it to the meaningless spots in my room with a stupid giggle and blush; just a friendly warning before u read…

Glass Fingertips (soulmates/marks/high school au/fluff/angst/some illnesses/dont worry noone’s gonna die) jinyoungie who has just moved in seoul is from jeju island, the place he misses the most and jaebum is his classmate, a froward boy who usually gets into fights and is not liked by much people in their school. Jinyoung has a mark on his forearm which means he has a soulmate somewhere he doesn’t know yet. He’s afraid of the power of the fate and he doesn’t want to believe that a ridiculous mark suddenly has appeared on his arm can erase all his rights to control and direct his life.

In other words; tough guy jaebum gets soft only for our dazed and confused jinyoung.

Work Sucks (smut/comedy/non au/jjp are officially boyfriends/jb’s about to explode lol) Basicially JB and Jinyoung haven’t have sex for weeks bc of their busy schedule, finally they have a day off but fuck their luck, they’re cockblocked by the world non-stop.

Stupid Lies: Let It All Burn Down (unrequited love/childhood friends/HEAVY ANGST/love triangles) I guess you should first read the previous parts of the Bleeding Love Saga series, but this part is my favorite so i only added this one. Even though it’s not finished yet, i have high expectations about this fic. Jaebum is a softie blindly in love and Jinyoung is an asshole that i don’t understand what he’s trying to do yet, i swore him about 6 minutes per chapter i admit it. *plays kokobop* It goes down down baby~

The Tiger & The Duke (sugar daddy jb/smut/angst/jealous!jb) Fav one of my faves… I personally am not a fan of sugar daddy fics, because everything happens so fast usually; i mean the daddy is the owner of everything, one day he sees our regular boy and falls in love with him immediately, is ready to give him the world etc… But in this fic everything develops slowly for both of them. I love this. And ofc it has savage and unattached jy and jealous, short-tempered and possesive jaebum; seriously what did you expect??

Bed Sheets (prostitute!jy/sugar daddy!jb/angst/smut) rich boy JB wanted our prostitute jy to be his fake boyfriend for one week and things started to get complicated. The characters and the plot are actually similar to The Tiger and The Duke actually but i love it whatsoever.

A Certain Romance (single dad!jb/baby yugyeom/escort!jy/fluff/smut/awkward situations) I’ll just copy paste the summary because that’s it: By day, he’s a top-rated babysitter. By weekends he’s an x-rated escort. These things are generally kept separate, until the day his weekend regular gets his phone number by recommendation and calls for an emergency babysitter. The problem is that Jaebum doesn’t know that Junior the escort is also Jinyoung the babysitter.In which Jaebum and Jinyoung know each other in the biblical sense but maybe want to get to know each other, too.

Also baby yugyeom is too precious for this world.

Walls of Glass (ABO dynamics/tattoos/omega!jb/alpha!jy/enemies to you’ll see/smut) This one is probably my favorite A/B/O universe fic. Jaebum’s family which is the number one enemy of jinyoung’s family (which is a new-house), is an old-house one and has been pure blood alpha for hundreds of years and everyone was sure jaebum is an alpha too, until suddenly the omega tattoo appeared on his neck in the middle of his alpha class. (I’m a simple person; if there’s tsundere jinyoung, sign me in)

The Buckwheat Flower (historical/war/one shot) It’s sad. It’s really sad. It leaves you purposeless. If you’re already sad don’t read it because tears won’t stop. I don’t think I’ll ever forget that very scene.

Hypersystem (sci-fi/unrequitted love) Another fic that broke my heart so bad. You’ll enjoy it if you’re interested in math and stuff tho. Jaebum is in love with Jinyoung for years, but Jinyoung is with Mark. Any other detail i give would be spoiler so i’ll shut up.

Falsettos, Stains, and Drama (high school au/drama club/fluffromeo!jb/juliet!jy/aaaand some jealous!bambam lol /everyone is so cute and shy omg) I’ll end this rec post with a fluffy one. Where the year’s play is Romeo and Juliet and everyone becomes wholly absorbed in their role.

#fanfiction #got7 #jj project #jjp #jinyoung #jaebum #bambam #mark #yugyeom #jackson #youngjae #ao3 #got7 fics #got7 fic rec #jjp fic #jjp fic rec

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ALEX THERE ARE TWO HUNDRED OF THESE PLS

200: My crush’s name is: Nupur199: I was born in: is this asking for time or place198: I am really: too tired to be dealing with this rn197: My cellphone company is: verizon I think196: My eye color is: brown. like 20% hazel-ish if you squint195: My shoe size is: 9 1/2194: My ring size is: uh193: My height is: 5′5″192: I am allergic to: capital pi191: My 1st car was: lol190: My 1st job was: working as a Hebrew teacher? That is. Still my job.189: Last book you read: Invisible Man for school, Adaptation by Melinda Lo outside of it, and I’m currently working on a book written about Tolkien.188: My bed is: A CASTLE IT’S THE BEST BED OKAY187: My pet: Sasha and Maya, the bestest cats186: My best friend: “””””””””””””””””you”””””””””””””””””” that’s a lie it really is you

185: My favorite shampoo is: I use Pantene but like. I don’t really think of shampoo in terms of favorites?184: Xbox or ps3: what are those183: Piggy banks are: c u t e182: In my pockets: money, quarters, this one teabag that I keep forgetting to do anything with, and occasionally small wrappers.181: On my calendar: your birthday!180: Marriage is: classy179: Spongebob can: sponge the bobs but can he rob the mobs?178: My mom: a great and good and amazing mom177: The last three songs I bought were? Three individual movements of Johan de Meij’s Lord of the Rings symphony176: Last YouTube video watched:175: How many cousins do you have? 4174: Do you have any siblings? 1173: Are your parents divorced? nope172: Are you taller than your mom? yup171: Do you play an instrument? DO I EVER170: What did you do yesterday? sure as heck not any calculus homework[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: I thought I did, until yesterday 3168: Luck: Yeah?167: Fate: I mean idk166: Yourself: “””””””””””””””””””””””””””””””””sure””””””””””””””””””””””165: Aliens: I believe in the possibility, I’ve never pretended to know!164: Heaven: I wish I did more than I do163: Hell: nah162: God: *waves my hands in a squiggly agnostic way* not in like a biblical sense but in a unifying connect-y energy in everything idk161: Horoscopes: I mean I believe in them as concepts like. They exist. That’s a thing. I don’t buy into them but I like them all the same.160: Soul mates: 159: Ghosts: nnnnnah158: Gay Marriage: HELL YEAH157: War: not in so many words156: Orbs: what155: Magic: the elf sitting in my computer says yes[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs153: Drunk or High: drugs are bad152: Phone or Online: Are these mutually exclusive? Online151: Red heads or Black haired: BOTH I mean red heads bc maedhros but I find both very attractive150: Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes all the way149: Hot or cold: how cot or how cold?148: Summer or winter: mmmeh147: Autumn or Spring: autumn!146: Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla!145: Night or Day: night as a concept, day as a time when I’m awake144: Oranges or Apples: apples. unless we’re talking clementines or mandarins here in which case...143: Curly or Straight hair: shrug?142: McDonalds or Burger King: I only eat organic kale cubes141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: dark chocolate what sort of a rigged survey is this (but okay I like all chocolates they are all good and great)

140: Mac or PC: ...............mac139: Flip flops or high heals: neither gross sneakers are good138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: I love how it’s not even pretty and poor but “sweet”, like what kind of asshole would say ugly and rich and have that be an official statement that they make.137: Coke or Pepsi: I don’t like fizzy drinks136: Hillary or Obama: I’m going to cry135: Burried or cremated: planted into a tree134: Singing or Dancing: BOTH133: Coach or Chanel: what does this mean132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who are these people131: Small town or Big city: Once upon a time I would’ve said small town, but these past two years I’ve really come into my own as a citygirl.130: Wal-Mart or Target: target ofc129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: uh128: Manicure or Pedicure: I don’t have nails127: East Coast or West Coast: I mean I feel like I kind of have to say east126: Your Birthday or Christmas: my birthday lol christmas is. not a thing. that I celebrate.125: Chocolate or Flowers: I’ve always thought flowers were the cutest, but I’ve also always wanted chocolate the most124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney I guess? I’ve been to neither123: Yankees or Red Sox: what are sports[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: really really fucked up and unfortunate121: George Bush: which george bush120: Gay Marriage: I don’t have specific thoughts on this it’s just a thing that should be a thing that I want to be a thing119: The presidential election: let’s not118: Abortion: I think I would have a hard time getting one personally, but I would never presume to speak for everyone.117: MySpace: sure is a website116: Reality TV: oh you mean the sitcomarillion?115: Parents: parents in general? Or my parents? My parents are the best most understanding loving parents and I’m really lucky to have them114: Back stabbers: “””””pals””””””113: Ebay: a party112: Facebook: I sure don’t use that consistently. I only really made my account to check in with my mom’s account.111: Work: should be FUN AND LIFE ENRICHING WOA110: My Neighbors: a okay109: Gas Prices: priced108: Designer Clothes: designed107: College: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH LETS NOT106: Sports: ew105: My family: I LOVE MY FAMILY104: The future: L E T S N O T[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: I just hugged Benjamin goodnight a moment ago102: Last time you ate: I had eggs for dinner101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile:100: Cried in front of someone: the real question is when is the last time I DIDNT cry in front of someone?99: Went to a movie theater: To see Hidden Figures the day after it came out!!98: Took a vacation: for a given value of “taken”...97: Swam in a pool: I honestly can’t remember96: Changed a diaper: Have I ever changed a diaper?95: Got my nails done: That one and only time at Lena’s birthday party where Elizabeth made me even though I didn’t want to.94: Went to a wedding: I can’t remember right now I’m too tired93: Broke a bone: 7th grade. Clarissa was there.92: Got a peircing: I got my ears pierced in fifth grade?91: Broke the law: I stole a firetruck to go to starbux90: Texted: 500 years ago in Vampire Scotland[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: u88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: I can’t think about this or I will cry87: The last movie I saw: Hidden Figures86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: going to Starbucks85: The thing im not looking forward to: calculus examinations84: People call me: Buttermay83: The most difficult thing to do is: answer all these questions in one go82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: what’s driving81: My zodiac sign is: capricorn!80: The first person i talked to today was: My cat?79: First time you had a crush: You already know this leave me alone78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: sometimes you and sometimes Benjamin but mostly JRR Tolkien77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: that time you said “I want an oreo” in class today76: Right now I am talking to: my own exhaustion75: What are you going to do when you grow up: gay marry74: I have/will get a job: what is this even asking73: Tomorrow: Thursday72: Today: Wednesday71: Next Summer: pre-college screaming70: Next Weekend: pre your birthday excitement!69: I have these pets: Sasha and Maya, the bestest cats68: The worst sound in the world: Dr. Propst67: The person that makes me cry the most is: Uzuki Kakinuma66: People that make you happy: lots of people, you know the people65: Last time I cried: :}64: My friends are: the actual absolute best friends in the world63: My computer is: trying its best62: My School: has a fire microwave GK GK WE ALL WE GOT61: My Car: what’s a car60: I lose all respect for people who: are in robotics59: The movie I cried at was: the singular movie???? who does this survey think I am?58: Your hair color is: dark brown!57: TV shows you watch: the Uzuki Files56: Favorite web site: mspadventures obviously55: Your dream vacation: to middle earth yes hello54: The worst pain I was ever in was: when I last gave birth to my uterus and almost died53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium rare?52: My room is: smallish, messish, comfy51: My favorite celebrity is: Yuna Kim50: Where would you like to be: in bed49: Do you want children: we’ve discussed this. I go back and forth48: Ever been in love: ye47: Who’s your best friend: this was literally already asked46: More guy friends or girl friends: what are guys45: One thing that makes you feel great is: not having to answer 200 questions in a row44: One person that you wish you could see right now: Uzuuuuuuuki43: Do you have a 5 year plan: nnnnnup42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: we started one at least?41: Have you pre-named your children: HAVE I EVER40: Last person I got mad at: horst39: I would like to move to: bed38: I wish I was a professional: bed. I mean artist[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: Reeses36: Vehicle: bus35: President: Guiney34: State visited: California sounds so cliche but. I mean.33: Cellphone provider: idc32: Athlete: Yuna Kim31: Actor: *mumbleslumbles*30: Actress: too many to choose from help29: Singer: selena gomez obvious28: Band: selena gomez and the slene27: Clothing store: my mom’s closet26: Grocery store: Publix25: TV show: Galavant, Stranger Things, Community in the earlier seasons...24: Movie: I watched Boy Meets Girl lately and it was Fantastic23: Website: fernferction.dert.nert22: Animal: snow leopard21: Theme park: harry potter. world.20: Holiday: Tubishvat19: Sport to watch: ice skating18: Sport to play: night tennis17: Magazine: Elves Weekly16: Book: let’s not open this can of worms I need to go to bed15: Day of the week: tuesday14: Beach: all beaches are great13: Concert attended: Midori performing the Mendelssohn left a really lasting impression on me forever12: Thing to cook: eggs11: Food: eggs10: Restaurant: Tuk Tuk Thai Loft 9: Radio station: GPB OBVIOUSLY8: Yankee candle scent: wat7: Perfume: no6: Flower: azalea5: Color: jewel tones4: Talk show host: Stephen Colbert3: Comedian: andrew hussie2: Dog breed: cats1: Did you answer all these truthfully? of course

I hope this satisfies u u hellspawn

#shovelthefries #ask meme thing #my brain is dead now goodnight #alkaline earth muses

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whims-ic · 7 years

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(So much for posting before 12 - I would push for leniency just one day more... and that this entry be without time limit. I’m talking to myself; I am aware.)

So much can happen in one singular day... six years of dreams set aside. Personal dream of loving on children in an asian Christian orphanage- to prepare them for the harsh, unrelenting societal demands and values of respective asian country, a counter-cultural force. My thoughts were that... if accomplished in South Korea, this time could be one of equipping with language and knowhow for bringing the gospel to North Korea, an area (...not of personal preference lol) that God has kept burning in the back of my mind. So many unreached. Additionally, I should’ve died from depression and satanic attacks by my own hand, but God brought me through, literally saving my life. As such, the logic was sound: many people don’t want to go, I love East Asia, I don’t mind going -or dying. So, first things first, asian Christian orphanage (as well as supporting myself and plugging into local church ofc).

In my time here at GP, however, I’ve admittedly fallen in love with this church, the vision of an acts2 church in each college town, the open possibilities of college ministry, this clear direction and sense of purpose. Such that I’m loathe to part ways. In the entry two days ago (the brief mention of: “don’t think i can stay”), I had weighed my loathing to leave against those aforementioned dreams and the inexplicably placed love for those lands. It had seemed selfish to stay.

I had mentioned to S and M during retreat that I feared not being able to find a church so biblically committed. I feared not finding any man with shared vision, ideals, background - and so, though I’ve mentally prepared myself for years..., not marrying. And, of course, I’d simply be incredibly sad that I’d be far from my immediate family. Staying with GP seemed the safer option.

So, safe+loathe to leave v. dreams+love for land. No brainer.

In the few days since, though, I’ve only fretted about said choice, as I was daily reminded of love for this church body, the work to be done here, and the growth I’ve experienced. Today, confronted with a sudden choice to make, I balked and could not follow through. After a realization that I’d immediately balked and a subsequent flailing at M in distress, she asked me to think on it... and so, I came back to the apartment (after sharing with upstairs apartment and hearing their thoughts) and prayed and thought some more for a good while.

Reflecting hard, this (staying with GP being safer) turned out to be a half-truth. I unearthed fears about staying... that involve public speaking, public prayer, things with guys here not working out and - with close community pool - not marrying. Lol you’d think after years of mentally preparing myself for the possibility of singlehood, marriage wouldn’t have found itself in both lists of fears.

Anyway, it turns out- fears being an unworthy reason to stay is balanced by fears being an unworthy reason to go.

The equation back to: loathe to leave v. dreams+love for land.

This good dream plan I’ve nursed for six years. It’s hard to let go... but it also seems... not good practice... to resolutely follow one dream and pull the blinds all up around any other possibilities - around one’s immediate surroundings. (“Don’t let anyone tell you no!” is stupid unless it’s stated against haters. Which isn’t the case here.) Dreams are dreams and can be set aside and replaced with others - if done without flippancy or frequency (unless you’re 4y/o). A personal dream is a short thing in light of eternity... It’s I that wants to serve through orphanage work. It’s I that wants to go to hard to reach places. Wanted to do these for God. However, “faithful with what’s been set before me” ticking in my brain since retreat... In honesty, I’ve only ever felt divinely and truly tugged toward the general terms “East Asia” and “North Korea” - with no exact date of action. The others were only my own plans and dreams stemming from wanting to give of my best years to these places. As they were my own ...I can let go.

The mission-concerning question is much more: “what weighs on my heart” - and not “what are my dreams”.

Equation is now: loathe to leave v. love for land. Which, when boiled down, is really: love for vision v. love for land.

God has undoubtedly placed East Asia on my heart. That is frank, true, and unchanged. North Korea. The thought of that closed nation is painful still. I cannot say the thought of campuses in Connecticut or Idaho burn with that same ferocity in me.

However, that does not mean it does not burn. Not a land, but a need. In light of lands passing away and the people remaining, a vision, clearly delineated battle plan, and some fellow soldiers (armed to the teeth to boot) seem just that little bit weightier. Both are good works.

As such, might love for vision take precedence until the day these loves might merge. Which must entail wholly letting go of past dreams and throwing myself into nursing this vision here. And should the time come for another church plant in East Asia, I’d allow that love of land taking a backseat its voice back. In asking to be first to go. Until then, it must stay quite quiet.

I paused to pray intermittently while going through these thoughts and had peace going both ways. The ball and choice thrown in my court. No right or wrong, tugging or pulling in either direction. A calm. As such, I can make peace with what I’ve chosen.

North Korea is not addressed, but I had planned to wait for an opportunity to enter anyway. It was a distant goal. Only God knows the future, and if in distant decades clear opportunities arise and I am to go, well, that’s another thing. It will be dealt with then. I will not forget, but there is good, clear work to be done now.

I'll tell S and M tomorrow. Will record how that goes.

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