#i'm blessed by kind people

[average-hua-cheng-fan]

another reason i think that xie lian felt an instant connection on the ox cart is because he and hua cheng both grew up in xianle.

there are maybe 4 people still alive that grew up in that culture. based on my own experience, you can pick up on things like accent, cadence, references, and humor that suggest a person is from the same place as you without consciously noticing it. that sense of comfort and similarity probably played into their instant chemistry.

#thinking about how they are bonded together by being the only people who remember their dead culture... augh it kind of makes me want to cr #as much fighting as fengqing do they are really the only people who will EVER understand each other's childhoods #which. aughhhh #there's a lovely modern au fic by heavensturtle called ''i'm just there to admire you.'' where they talk about chinese diaspora go read it #fics that mention paradise manor being in the xianle style also make me want to bawl. especially when fxmq notice it #other people that remember xianle: qi rong. jun wu. mei nianqing. yeah. none of those people are easy to talk to #buried deep in the xianle quartets heads are things like xianxia silly bands and xianxia nickelodeon and xianxia hi chew that LITERALLY #NOBODY ELSE IN THE ENTIRE WORLD REMEMBERS. DOES THAT NOT MAKE YOU FEEL INSANE #the immortality in tgcf and how it affects memory and sense of self and relationships. ourgh #i speak #tgcf meta #tgcf #tgcf spoilers #i guess? #tian guan ci fu #tgcf books #heaven official's blessing #hob #xie lian #hua cheng #hualian #feng xin #mu qing #fengqing #xianle trio #xianle quartet

[oddberryshortcake]

I think the Knight of Dawn being "a coward who is unable to stand up for what is right and does as he's ordered to" and "someone who cares deeply about his family and did everything he could so that Silver could live a happy and normal life in the future" are two statements that can coexist.

#And Lilia knows this too which is huge #I love the complexities brought up in this chapter #I love how it really weighs in on Lilia's desire for world peace because war turns normally compassionate people do to terrible things #and no one wins when babies are orphaned #I love how far an act of kindness can go too #The Knight warned Lilia about Henrick's plan to kidnap the egg and gave Lilia an opening to escape #and 400 years later Lilia rescued Silver from his blessing turned curse and raised him and loved him the way his parents would've wanted #I love this fairytale #and the Knight is in the wrong but its kind of sad to see him being reduced down to his worst action #He's a tragedy but there's more to a person than just who they are at their worst #I'm gonna lose my mind when part 5 comes over here im sorry for what I become #twst #twst chapter 7 #twst spoilers #twisted wonderland #twst silver #twst knight of dawn

[thisonelikesaliens]

An appreciation post for the Unknown fandom:

To the gifmakers: thank you for putting in the time and effort to create such beautiful gifs that help me relive my favorite moments of the show.

To the big brains: thank you for the in-depth analyses in body language/color theory/cinematography/character development and other areas that I typically overlook. Your eye for detail and ability to connect those details into poetic eloquence have made me appreciate the show even more. (This includes those of you who write essays in tags, just dropping insightful gems like it's no big deal. I see you and appreciate you.)

Thank you all for making the past 2 months such an enjoyable experience.

#unknown the series #關於未知的我們 #i have so much more i want to say that i'm finding it difficult to articulate #so i'll just keep this short #i've been away from fandom in years and this return has been so much fun #thank you all for being kind and welcoming #there are so many creative and smart people here #what a blessing #this one watches

[leidensygdom]

I don't know how to put this to words, but after seeing SEVERAL posts of late about it in my dashboard, I just feel like I need to drop my two cents here

Making albino characters who are considered to be divinely blessed compared to their normally dark-skinned counterpart is fucked up. Like I'm sorry but if you decide your white-skinned drow amidst dark-skinned drow is the one who is "blessed" and "chosen" by Lolth or whatever, you REALLY need to stop for two seconds and think about what are you doing.

I never see this sorta character concept for albino characters amidst white peers. Please think a BIT about the implications of making your special whiteboy be the blessed one amidst non-white peers (for the specific reason of BEING WHITE)

#i may delete this later but idk #like it's one thing to make an albino character be blessed for other circumstances #but i'm sure people CAN think about why making an albino character be blessed bc they're albino #when they are in a mostly dark-skinned community or society #it's kind of really fucked up #i follow the drow tag here on tumblr and the lore and worldbuilding takes i've been seeing from it are surely Something

[sciderman]

Sorry, I was not aware 😔 I forgive u tho, tea is pretty good ig

thank you! we didn't invent it, we stole it

#sci speaks #do not forgive the british for their crimes #though genetically i think i'm innocent. geographically i'm not. but it was an accident that i was born here. #i am scottish-iraqi genetically. which. wild. #i had one weird person in my inbox telling me how attractive that genetic combination is. which. weird. #i am blessed with the power of ethnic ambiguity #nobody can place me. #it's very funny how much of my introduction to new people has always been people trying to place me. #often it's the entire topic of conversation. people wildly guessing what i am and me kind of sitting back and enjoying their struggle.

[thevegetablewhichnoonedaresname]

absolute DEARTH of dungeon meshi fanfics on ao3. in many ways but particularly gen fics that are over 2000 words and focused on adventure, magical shenanigans, fluff/angst, or some combination of those

#pickle pontificates #dungeon meshi #''write them yourself'' first of all i can barely write my homework rn and I've always been bad at ideas #second of all I'm not getting on anyone's case I'm just complaining #I've been blessed to have been in a few fandoms with a couple prolific/consistent writers that seem to dedicate all their spare time #to that exact genre of fic #and i am very grateful to those people #I'm just going to wait patiently. that stuff takes time and dm is still gaining popularity #i just know the girlies who were super into writing platonic angst for fma/mp100/and a few for bnha and httyd would be ALL OVER this manga #if they knew #like #there's SO MUCH idea fuel out there from all kinds of RPGs that would be really fun to work in and explore #PLUS the wealth of extra content Ms. Kui has provided in adventurers bible/daydream hour??? #IT'S A PLAYGROUND FOR FANFIC. REALLY GOOD FANFIC

[boxwinebaddie]

so i was filling out my fashionably late ao3 wrapped post no problem, but then when i got to the section about what my favorite part of any of my fanfictions was, i had to stop and think, bc i feel like it should probably be that part in pep about the cherry nyquil/stan calling kyle medicine, but it's actually this flashback from og chapter 12 of pep that i deleted -- which good riddens, that chapter was a fucking nightmare from hell...but smack dab in the middle of it, i wrote my favorite flashback of all time and every time i think about it ( because it makes me want to scream and cry ) or the fact that i had to delete it, i want to tear the skin off my face, so i'm linking it in a google doc.

( yes, it's the one where they're on the roof and stan is drunk and talking about what his ideal future life would be like...i'm screaming. )

#listen like theres something about it #i wanted to cry when i was writing it #theres something about pep stan and everyone wanting to touch him and posess him and feel entitled to him that makes me want to SCREAMMMMMM #like his small town big tragic hero thing and just being doomed / constantly perceived by everyone bc hes beautiful against his will #when all he wants is to be literally no one and hide and live a quiet life being a veterinarian and helping people im AAAA #stan makes me so feral like im obsessed w writing about stan like maybe this is just my weird take on him but I FEEL HIM IN MY BONES #and specifically in kyles narration like if someone wrote abt me the why kyle writes about stan marsh in peppermint thats what LOVE is #like actually this entire flashback is what i based ravenstans private life around just like stan being sweet and humble #and going to the farmers market and making little kids laugh even tho hes all punk rock and wanting to kill randy and be someone else #and people just grabbing at him and being insane w him and not respecting his body autonomy and AAAAA AAAAAA #like everyone treating his beauty and talent like a blessing but its his curse he thinks hes hideous and gets taken advantage of #for his kindness AND AAAAA ANYWAYS THIS FLASHBACK MAKES ME WANT TO START BREAKINg STUFF #i could talk about this forever i'm passionate abt this AAAA #ALSO THE BOYS ARE SO TENDER IN THIS I WANT TO ACTUALLY SCREAM ANYWAYS ANYWAYS KEEP THIS #I FORGOT STAN WANTED TO CHANGE HIS NAME TO STANLEY WILLIAM NAKAMURA KIMBLE I LOVE HIM ;-;;;

[thewhizzyhead]

so i'm playing through the xianzhou arc in honkai star rail and i am intrigued by how they tackle the subject matter of longevity and how deceptively desirable it seems from the outside through the lens of "long-life species" with disabilities aka dan shu. i'm still playing through the arc so i don't know what exactly to make of it (and tbh i think i need to research quite a bit on disabilities to really make a comprehensive opinion on the subject) but to be quite frank, i have never seen the angle of "how do those with disabilities deal with near immortality or so-called "perfect bodily regeneration" tackled before. huh.

#tho i am quite worried that the character that discusses the problems disabled people have with xianzhou longevity is um quite sus #(and the fact that they seem to side with the abundance aka what the xianzhou people establish as the bad guys) #i am quite interested in where the game will take this theme (and also scared because um wow this is kind of a delicate theme to explore) #(especially in a game about beating monsters up) #all in all i'm intrigued and i hOPE that the game will um treat the theme well because oh dear #but tbh the whole thing with the mara thing and how the blessing and curse of longevity + the unavoidable end of being mara struck #is very very interesting and i really fuckin like how that is established as a biological advantage and a tragedy for the xianzhou people #like it's very unique tbh at least for me #and the disability angle is quite unique too for me (tho i would to hope and pray that the game will explore it well because um yea) #(tons of implications ooooff we need to be careful with this one gfjdjf) #honkai star rail #hsr #xianzhou

[kingsofeverything]

...

#i'm coming down from my concerts #now that i'm home i'm just thinking about how much fun i had #also shout out to the person wearing the shirt that said #MINIMUM STRESS MAXIMUM BLESS #we yelled about it #apparently no one else knew what it meant #so that was a cool little meeting #also everyone who said they loved my 1d metal shirt #i love you too #the best thing ever though was handing out flags #idk what i expected at first #but my waitress/bartender experience took over my body #and i was like FREE FLAGS #and everyone was so kind and so happy about the flags! #multiple people stopped us later to thank us! #it was just such a great time #and i made some new friends! #and i miss nic already lol #see you next month!

[eddis-not-eeddis]

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#my dad is such a good man #he is not perfect and there are times when he disappoints me #but he has never left me in even the shadow of a doubt as to whether or not he loved me or if he would be there for me when i needed him. #i love him so much #(i'm putting this in the tags because tumblr loves to jump on people who say positive things about fathers) #but mine is legitimately probably one of the top dads in the country and i love him so so much #i am so blessed to have such a kind and loving man as my father #because his father was a terrible man #and he made it his life's goal to be a good father so his children wouldn't suffer the way he did #he has always put us first above his own wishes and happiness #i am so incredibly grateful for him #the Lord was so good to me

[sleepymop]

How many more spiderpunk age tiktoks harassing me over an interview on scrapped ideas nobody watched(even miles was meant to be older but they scrapped it) ,hobie's intro that doesn't even state an age he got bit only that he's been spiderman for 3 years, trying to apply real life UK laws to the actions of the anarchic spider man, who has killed the president if we're citing "things it would look problematic for the producers to suggest a minor does" and racist ass anatomical analysis that makes me check if we're still in the damn 70's can I take before i become the joker.....

#do i look like the discourse kind of guy.. do i look like i take people to school.. #and everytime they dont even apologize or seem to grasp what theyve been accusing people of #someone with less restraint than me dooo somethingggg #i just wanna make art i dont want to make discourse tiktoks bruh.. ill give you a scooby snack (ill draw u something not even joking) #I'm beginning to think everyone there made up their mind rhat they were going to find a justification for feeling uncomfortable #feel free to screenshot this and post it on there because im clocking out lol.. but idk #and now he's getting the o'hara treatment oh you dont know what its like to be Meee #hobie brown #god bless fandomerica 🦅🦅🦅 #text tag #discourse #spiderpunk

[hirazuki]

Choose Your Own Adventure: Middle Earth Edition, part 2.

It is the year 400 of the First Age. Three hundred and forty years have passed since the Siege of Angband begun; one hundred and forty years, since a dragon was last sighted. There are scattered skirmishes with orcs, especially in the north of the continent, but these are more raids than proper battles, and the lands and realms of Beleriand have prospered in the wake of this watchful peace.

[*i.e. Avari, but they wouldn't call themselves that. Aryador is the name given to Hithlum in earlier writings, and -- while it's the name of that region in the language of Men -- according to the Gnomish Lexicon, it's an Ilkorin/Umanyar word, so I think it would probably be more likely to be used by Avari to refer to their land than the Quenya or Sindarin names you know, in the absence of knowing anything concrete about Avarin language; but also I just prefer it because I think it's prettier ^^]

[**"Man" refers to race, not gender, just to be clear!]

(Part 1 is here)

#silmarillion #tolkien #polls #finally a day off! i can indulge in important things. like this poll XD #i know there are plenty of peoples i left out but i'm going with the main ones + those whose racial background i think will #have the most impact (positive or negative) on story events #also some races weren't present in beleriand in 400 F.A. or prior so. i had to leave them out #(i love how this is supposed to be a bit of mindless fun and yet here i am with 279 web browser tabs and the Atlas of Middle Earth open XD) #(i literally don't know how to chill) #i'm kind of worried that i introduced a vanilla extract option there but. you know what. that's fine. i'll make it work. #go wild; with my blessing

[bogunicorn]

Having unfollowed a ton of people and put effort into not-hearing as many Dragon Age opinions as possible, I've come to the conclusion that I should've done that a long time ago because wow do I enjoy this broken-ass website without having to hear people talk about the Thedas Wizard Wars like DA is some fucking historical document that's also written specifically to target you, Tumblr User number who-fucking-cares.

I will be continuing this practice going forward, damn.

#bog post #fandom bs #frankly the further away i get from it #the more i see the myriad mistakes i made in 2022 wrt: fandom activities #i don't think there's anything wrong with seeking community ofc #i'm just not compatible with the environments i put myself in #people acted like total assholes #but i showed my ass too #none of it was worth the stress #very grateful for the people who survived the filter and who i get to call friends NOW #i think it was worth it for that #but hoo boy would i never wade back into that kind of stuff #bless all y'all who have the personalities for it #i just do not #to be clear: the beef is still beefy and i do hold grudges #they're not just that big a deal or worth fussing over most of the time #just stupid niche fandom bullshit

[under--pluto]

Officially moved into my boyfriends house 🥺 I live here!! with him!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaa

#I'm so so happy #like I've basically been living here but now it's official!! #no more rent to my apartment #no more of my stuff there #also like I thought just one guy was helping me move but my bf and our neighbours both came too and we got it done in one trip #they're so kind #I'm so blessed to know so many people who care for me #aaaa #words.png #h

[thedreadvampy]

sometimes I am like 'boy I am So Normal' and other times I am like 'wow my grandmother sure did give me a lot of undergrad level art criticism to chew on when I was like 13'

#red said #both the good thing and the bad thing about my grandma was that she didn't talk down to kids #and she had taught undergrad art school #and I'm not sure i was always 100% on board on account of being A Child #but she had me reading Klee's pedagogy of drawing when i was like 8 #and oh god what was it. herbert read's 1930s analysis of modern art? when i was like 14 #i know this bc my year 9 portfolio is full of anime art and a big typographic quote about interpreting art from read #now when i go to art galleries with my friends i vacillate wildly between 'haha look at how weird this guy's hair is' #and 'the impasto creates a kind of paradoxical verisimilitude!' #bless them but i was walking around a gallery with my partner enthusiastically going on about trompe d'oeil and marxist analysis of realism #and i said '... does that make sense' and they said 'nothing you've said for the last 20 minutes made sense but it sounds cool' #and people think I'm like this because i went to art school #NO THE ROT SET IN WELL BEFORE THAT and also like i did a year less study than my classmates at undergrad #and i still found most of them hadn't heard of most of the terminologies i was throwing around #it wasn't until my masters i started meeting other people who were hype about critical theory #and then i felt stupid bc tbh i haven't like. STUDIED it formally. i just pick bits up. #so when i was talking to someone with a really thorough grounding in semiotics i was just Saying Words #understood what she was saying but couldn't back up my own points enough to feel like we were on an even keel

[constellationcrowned]

((I want everyone to keep something in mind in regards to this blog and this is going to sound like a general, common sense post (and in a way it is) but it's also hi I'm in your house, whispering into your ear, telling you to call ga//amestop and ask them if they have bat//tleto//ads---, blah blah, basically it's personal too:

With me, regardless of blog or content, both communication and engagement go hand in hand. Communication and engagement needs to go both ways.

I love posting and reblogging memes and calls and will continue to do so but you folks---old mutual or new mutual doesn't matter---need to take the initiative yourself sometimes too. Be enthusiastic. Be spontaneous. Be proactive. I don't want to ask people to write with me all of the damn time nor do I want to chase after people all of the time because if I have to do that constantly over and over again it starts feeling incredibly one sided even when it isn't (because ofc people have lives, specific interests, anxiety, and whatever else which are all things that I deal with myself and I understand how that can stop someone from doing something, but that's how it feels especially over an extended period of time) and I don't need to explain how disheartening and draining that can be.

My seeming to interact with only one person---and for both of my blogs it's @magioffire and we all know that---it's not because we're being stuck up, elitist or whatever inane and incorrect term people want to throw at our feet it's because we engage and communicate. The give and take between us (both from an ic and ooc standpoint) never feels imbalanced or even transactional (I really hate using that word but, again I gotta stress this, that's how this makes me feel) and I have never felt like I needed to chase them down for an interaction or had to fight for a scrap of their time---which feels like a feat bc Blair has a lot of people scrambling at their door---and I cannot tell you how huge that is. That sounds like a huge sweeping thing to say, I know, but I mean it in all of the little ways too. I could post some stupid bullshit on here; not a starter or a meme just a little random muse thought or observation, and 100% of the time here comes Blair telling me what they think or adding on to it or just...whatever. They're here for both me and my muses for the big and small things, whenever I've asked and, more often than not, when I haven't (or couldn't) and that's incredibly important. It's that kind of stuff that makes what we have special and that's putting it super lightly. And yes, our relationship both as friends and as writers has developed over a long time, and we did click immediately that's true, but there's never been any doubt to cast upon the work and effort both of us have put forth.

And this post isn't to say that I'm demanding constant or immediate attention from you all---because, again, we all have lives, health issues, etc, etc, and all of that takes precedence over a hobby as I've said before and will say again and again---but....put some effort into it when you have the capability. Yes, like the calls that I post or send a meme in, absolutely, but also message me on your own and ask a question or shoot a muse a random prompt or just @ me in a post. Show me some enthusiasm and engagement on your end because right now it feels like I'm doing all the work all of the time and that's tiring. I'm tired of handing stuff to people all of the time---I'll keep doing it, obviously, because I need and want to engage on my end and love throwing stuff at people and providing opportunities---all I'm asking for is understanding and reciprocation.

If you can't reciprocate for whatever reason? Tell me.

If you're unsure about something, no matter what that something is? Tell me.

If you need help or even a specific kind of accommodation in order for us to start interacting or continue interacting? Tell me.

Don't just assume that I don't want to write with you or that you can't ask me for things. Don't assume that I'm being a snob or whatever else just because I seem to be paying attention to a certain mun full time because do you know what that actually is? That's friendship. That's effort. That's me giving back what I've been given. That's me reciprocating the enthusiasm, love and creativity that I've been handed, nothing more. There's nothing unobtainable or gatekeep-y about that either, you just need to be earnest and forthcoming with me and I can assure you that I'll return the favor in kind.))

#;;ooc: mun muttering #long post #this isn't a guilt trip of any sort (it doesn't even feel right calling it a vent tbh) I'm just being earnest in my point here #I'm tired of constantly pulling teeth (and this is an issue for both old and new mutuals rather than one over the other) #it just....doesn't feel good. there shouldn't be this much of a struggle for *any* of us #and are we all going to end up on the same level as what I have with Blair? No absolutely not and that's not what I'm asking for #the difference between them and you all is the lack of struggle and just...the earnestness to put it mildly #I'm honestly tired of people trying to give me shit for writing w/ them so much because??? why wouldn't I??? #getting mad because I'm having a blast with someone who wants to write with me and actually does/tells me? that's nothing to be jealous of! #in fact you should strive for it yourself!! you could have it all too if you just crawled out of your own hole and thought for a second #I am incredibly fucking lucky and blessed to write with Blair; they've greatly influenced me both as a person and as a writer; #and every day I return that kindness and attention with more (hopefully) great content regardless of what or who we're writing #because they do the exact same thing for me every single day and that should be celebrated #stop wasting time trying to pit people against each other or feeling left out and actually step in yourself #I've said this before and I'll say it again: the main thing holding you back from interacting with me is you #so think about it and just...get over whatever is telling you that you can't and just do the fuckin thing. come have fun