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golyadkin · 9 months

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I cannot express enough that if your reaction, as a hobby artist, to not getting that many notes on your art is to say "maybe I should just stop doing art altogether" you need to stop posting art to tumblr

not necessarily forever, not even for long, but just stop putting your art on here and start doing it for you again, remember why you enjoyed doing art in the first place and stop relying on the attention of faceless people on the internet for your enjoyment of your hard work

believe me, I get it, nothing crushes the artistic soul quite like labouring for hours on a piece only for it to get like 10 notes, so you need to find your own source of joy in the act of creation and a lot of the time that means making art and not showing it to anybody

#not art #listen #for real #this is not about any one person because i've seen posts about it from a bunch of people #you think i post everything here? buddy i dont even post half my stuff here #every drawing you see is preceded by five more just like it #that never see my cursor close to the save button #i have a sketchbook i draw in regularly that i do'nt show to a single goddam person #i make cutout art from gels i steal from work and stick them to my windows and do paintings in my living room just for me #because that it the only way you are ever going to be able to retain your original love of art #is by doing it for the sake of doing it #not for the sake of seeing how many people stop and stare #anyways i'm sorry if this sounds terse #but i'm so sick of seeing artists put all their self-esteem and happiness in the hands of a blogging website #stop selling yourself short by measuring your self worth by how many reblogs you get and what people say in the tags #your artistry and your happiness are worth more than that #if you're an artist for a living that's another story #but even then #even then #anyways sorry i'm done ranting

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arthursfuckinghat · 16 days

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I think sometimes people need a little reminder about this scene and how important it is in showing us how the dynamic between Arthur and Mary worked.

The feelings between them are solely mutual, nobody is taking advantage of the other, and they actually talk about it. They have the maturity to admit how much they wanted things to be different, and they agree that it's all in the past now.

Mary doesn't demand his help or beg on her knees. She asked sincerely because that's still her father, no matter how he treats her. Arthur knows this, he knows how important (what's left of) her family is to her. He put his feelings about her father aside because he wants to help.

Even despite how their lives had changed over the years, they still cared so much about eachother. After losing her husband, her brother going back to college, her mother not being around anymore and her father still being abusive, Mary was fucking lonely.

She was so miserable and if there was anybody left that she could trust, it would absolutely be Arthur.

And it hurts because so much between them was left unsaid, it's just that Arthur took it to the grave.

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cerise-on-top · 2 months

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Hi! Hope you're having a lovely day ✨️

Valeria and Gaz with a fashion designer s/o! Dressing them up and using them as a practice model to test new designs... this has nothing to do with my need to put Valeria in a suit, ofc not

Anon, you're so galaxy brained for wanting to put Valeria in a suit in all honesty! She'd look so good in one because women always look good in suits!

Gaz and Valeria with a Fashion-Designer!S/O

Gaz: He’d honestly be so flattered you wanna use him as a practice model. Don’t get me wrong, he’s a very pretty man and he’s well aware of that fact, but he didn’t think he’d ever get that sort of privilege. The first time you measure him he’s a bit confused, but complies, asking you with a chuckle about what you’re doing. However, as soon as you present him with a jaw dropping suit that leaves every other one in the dust, he’s a big fan. While he may have supported you from the very beginning as soon as he heard that you’re a designer, his support skyrockets as soon as you present him with the first piece of clothing for him to wear. He feels so very fancy wearing it. He may be used to wearing fancy clothing from time to time when invited to certain occasions, such as weddings, but he never really paid much mind to that sort of thing. Once you’ve put the first article of clothing on him, he’ll ask you if you wanna use him as a practice model again at some point. Only if you feel like it, of course. He hopes you’ll say yes, he loves how creative you are and the things you create. You’re a lovely designer who puts their heart and soul into it all, and it shows. Although unprompted and despite it being a bit silly, he’ll also pose and do that one walk models do where they sway their hips. He feels pretty in your clothing. If he can afford it, which he likely can, then he’ll even buy some of the things you’ve made. And yes, he will 100% wear them as well, doesn’t matter if it’s a fish tail or if it’s a shirt with a dragon on it. He unironically loves it and will wear it whenever he can.

Valeria: She chuckles a bit when you ask her to put on some clothing you made. Valeria is a very attractive woman, and she knows it, so she’s not at all surprised when you ask her to put on a suit. She’s worn those before, and every time she has she was turning heads left and right. If you blush while seeing her in a suit then she’ll chuckle and trap you against the wall before letting you continue whatever it was you were doing. Like Gaz she wholeheartedly supports you, and she’ll own every single article of clothing you’ve ever created. While she may not have the time to wear them all every time, you will catch her wearing your creations from time to time, if there’s no danger of them tearing. Valeria’s glad that you trust her enough to want her to try on all your prototypes and will gladly pose like a professional model for you and you only. The first time you measure her she, too, would be a bit confused and would ask you regarding what you’re doing, but afterwards she’s more than happy to model for you whenever she can. She doesn’t have a whole lot of time for that, but the things you do for love. If you ever want a real, professional model, she can arrange one, though, it’s no problem for someone like her. Besides, she has a pretty good eye for fashion as well, so she can give you some hints regarding what could look good and what might be a complete no go. You don’t have to do as she says, but she will point it out if you do. If she ever does find herself having the time and there’s a fashion show that shows some of your clothing, then she’ll watch it and jokingly tell you that she looked better in your clothes than all those models did. If you ever need some creative inspiration then I’m sure Valeria can help you as well, she’s seen plenty of things and is always more than happy to help you. Besides, she can get just about anything as well, so you really don’t need to fret if you wanna feel the fabric of something yourself.

#cod #cod x reader #kyle gaz garrick #kyle gaz garrick x reader #gaz x reader #valeria garza #valeria garza x reader #y'all would never guess who got sick again -.- but hey! at the very least I'm doing home office this time instead of resting up!#this request made me realise just how gay I would be for Valeria Garza. the one and only. to wear a suit #I need her to wear a really fancy suit and show herself off because she'd look so so good in it #sometimes I do go on pinterest and look up women in suits just because my heart can barely take it #women in suits are my ambrosia and I am so glad they exist. more women should wear suits in all honesty #maybe next month when I've gotten paid again I will commission someone to draw Valeria in a suit #naturally I will share it here because everyone deserves to see that sort of thing #the thought alone makes my heart sing with joy I think I will do that #Valeria is among best girls and I would force the world to stop spinning just to make her happy

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pearlcaddy · 1 year

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locklyle week 2023 🍞 firsts

first sight + you had me at hello [insp]

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thekintsugikids · 9 months

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so much for (tour) dust, the healing tour of all time

#it’s fine like whatever #it doesn’t even affect me #im totally absolutely completely chill about it!!#and i had to cut it out but after they played cfc pete made a point of saying “andy hurley's been dying to play that one”#and he seemed so happy after they played 27 the first time and pavlove the other night #just like....the fact that patrick seemingly had himself thoroughly convinced that the rest of the band hated the record #or they weren't proud of it or didn't really like how it came out #or that he “pushed them too far in a direction they didn't want to go”#but they clearly love the album and wanted to play it and have it be appreciated by the audience just like he did #whatever!!#it's fine!! i'm FINE!!!!!#and thinking about the fact that there was a chorus of people yelling for pavlove when pete said they were gonna play the Holy Grail #im gonna be SICK #also there’s one clip that’s not tourdust …. it’s from when they played headfirst slide the first time in the uk this year #but idc same energy same vibes same ✨healing✨#fall out boy #fob #patrick stump #pete wentz #joe trohman #andy hurley #so much for (tour) dust #tourdust

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sylvies-kablooie · 2 months

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📷 tom hiddleston and sophia di martino at GQ and paul smith's dinner, feb 15th, 2024

#wish they were pictured together but. alas! happy to see them regardless #tom hiddleston #sophia di martino #btw i tried that trick to convert webmps to pngs and it did not work so i had to screenshot these like a peasant #the lengths i go to for these two smh!#anyway they both look great. apparently tom had been sick for weeks so i'm glad he's doing better.#being sick for weeks is something i excel at so i feel ur pain tall british man

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kaymarie-bell · 5 months

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TWST Book 7 Chapter 6 spoilers and reactions ahead

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You know, through all the updates people have been wondering "where is OB Malleus? is he seeing the dream too? why is he not interfering despite our group being 'awake'? does he even know about all of this?" it might seem crazy what I'm about to say-

This update started with a banger giving us Baul knighting Sebek and giving him an armor that's just like his after fighting off the Silver Owls together

Btw I'm currently on a mission of stealing all the gel in NRC to keep Sebek from putting his hair up again. If you care.

Silver carrying an injured Lilia on his back while Yuu and Grim look after the egg instead of leaving him behind like he asked. I'm ok I'm ok.

Sebek got to show off his UM training. I'm so proud of him 🥹

They killed my hot wife.

Fighting as Meleanor vs The Knight of Dawn felt so sick and twisted knowing what the outcome was.

FUCK THE SENATE. TF YOU MEAN "Filthy bat" "Don't touch Malleus" "get out of the capital and don't show up here again" I'm genuinely upset, what the fuck leave Lilia alone 😭

Maleficia's magic was not helping with hatching the egg, and touch and love is more effective so of course the responsibility falls on Lilia. Huh, who would've thought-

Lilia and the egg communicating. Did y'all see that. Is anyone else being totally normal about it.

Meleanor knew what she was doing when she left her child to Lilia.

Also what do you mean his own grandmother couldn't provide him the love he needed to hatch? 👀

Lilia's numerous travels around the world were all to find something to help hatch the egg. And he got discriminated against by both humans and fae everywhere oh I'm so sick-

Egg!Malleus feeling lonely even before hatching. Lilia being the only one who hears him crying. Lilia running to him despite it being dangerous. 😭

HE DISCOVERED HIS SIGNATURE SPELL WHILE SEARCHING FOR A WAY TO HATCH THE EGG. THE SPELL THAT BEST REFLECTS THE ESSENCE OF HIS SOUL IS THE ONE HE USES FOR BOTH MALLEUS AND SILVER. Shaped like a father fr.

Oh so the egg seems to gain strength only whenever Lilia shows up around it? What a coincidence I wonder what could this mean

Lilia's VA did a phenomenal job. I started ugly crying too. The 200 years were worth it to Lilia 😭😭😭

*Silver voice* I'm sure we were all wondering, "if these dreams are supposed to be happy then why have we seen nothing but pain and suffering so far?" well, it turns out Malleus being born is his happiest moment in life.

not a single thought behind that baby's eyes (he's 1 minute old)

Leona was right he sure *is* a lizard

not the senate suddenly praising Lilia as a hero 😒 I haven't forgotten what y'all said earlier.

Oh shit OB!Malleus is back. I got so caught up in the euphoria of seeing Malleus' birth that for a moment I forgot about overblots.

Malleus has his mom's looks and his dad's voice according to general Lilia

OB!Malleus is absolutely pissed at his grandma and the senate. Good for him.

Malleus offering Lilia a dream where Meleanor and Levan are alive...

If anyone is wondering "how are we supposed to win a battle against OB!Malleus?" the answer is: you don't. We only survive 😔 (for now ig)

Silver is able to secure the entire group in his arms. So normal about it haha.

SON IS BACK.

IDIA IS AWAKE LET'S GO GAMERS LMAO

we have reached 100 chapters. I can't wait to see what Idia's victory strategy is going to be

#twisted wonderland #twst #twst diasomnia chapter #diasomnia spoilers #twst jp #Malleus needing love to hatch and the only person who could provide it not being allowed to because of difference in status...I'm so sick #I can see next update being the last for this chapter #I got so happy when I saw the Shrouds I'M HYPED #imagine Idia shows up in full mecha suit next chapter #not even going to think about how he was able to wake up from his RSA Ortho dream #kay shouts into the void

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californianedgeworth · 4 months

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Kiryu x Goromi New Year's art I like enough to post but not enough to finish

#I didn't like the first go and redid it. and I'm still not quite happy with the second go :/#i'm so happy with how the tattoo turned out though. looks sick #in a bad place w/ my art now. and even drawing Goromi isn't fixing it #my artstuff #yakuza #rgg #kazumaji

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icewindandboringhorror · 4 months

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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

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softcryz · 2 months

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Still can't draw but I've been thinking about when people put their own little twist on a character's design. Make up and add their own little things. It genuinely makes me very happy

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me-sploh-rada-imas · 1 month

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Jan poked Nace in the nipple at the Paris gig 🤭🤭🤭🤭

truly unforgivable! explains everything...

#joker out #nace jordan #jan peteh #jance #cuteeee #anyway i'm not serious about them being divorced lmaooo i'm just happy that oslo was so much fun #i had been thinking about going to paris instead but i'm v glad i picked oslo #not just for that lmao but oslo was so good and they all weren't sick and had a good time #paris seemed less fun from what i saw on the livestream anyway but obviously i wasn't there so 🤷

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pastafossa · 8 months

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Thank you for all the kind comments for me and my old kitty. It helps so much to know I'm not by myself with this.

I spent most of yesterday crying on and off tbh. Today's a little better. Although every time I try to talk about it I start crying again, so idk.

I ordered Cato a bulk package of socks. He loves to bring them to me to make me feel better (he brought me a *lot* of socks yesterday) or to hear that he is a good kitty who hunts socks really well, so I'm going to make him a little box and fill it with socks. He can bring them to me every day, and every night when I go up to bed I'll gather all the socks and put them back in the box so they're ready for him to select again. I think doing things like that, focusing on things I can do to make him happy, helps a bit. And in between, I'll just... go one day at a time I guess.

#tw: sick pet #I'm going to try to find things I can do for him to make him happy and focus on that #and let my brain process in the background #i don't want him to know i'm upset. he's always been very in tune with my emotions #so focusing on the now is the way to go i think and just enjoy the time i have with him

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respectthepetty · 1 year

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I've written about physical barriers being used to show the emotional boundary between two characters (in Between Us, Happy Ending Romance, Ghost Host, Ghost House, Never Let Me Go, and many more), so to see it play out so well between Tinn and Gun in episode six of My School President has me trembling with excitement.

It might just look like a column in the wall behind them, but that is a physical barrier representing the emotional divide between them, and that barrier can be anything that cuts between the two leads in the space of the scene. Like the handle of an umbrella

which an umbrella is also symbolic, like in Love Mechanics and Together with Me, because it shields the lovers from outside harm and allows them to hide their secrets from external forces. A transparent umbrella represents the clear understanding between the lovers of their feelings within that isolated space, so when one steps out from the umbrella, it signals a desire to live honestly in the open without the protection of their temporary shelter.

So recreating Tilly Birds' music video for "Just Being Friendly" to show Tinn's growing desire to be with Gun was a genius addition since the original music video creates distinct lines that people must cross in order to convey their feelings.

We see the line faintly begin to form on the physical barrier between Tinn and Gun while the boys sit in their color-coded outfits

But when Tinn confesses that he likes Gun, and Gun admits that he is fighting his feelings for Tinn as well, the line becomes more defined

Gun's declaration shouldn't be too surprising considering he has been wearing Tinn's blue most of the episode including in this scene with the soft blue shirt hiding under his rascal red and the blue shoes, but it is Tinn, the one who stepped out from underneath the protection of the umbrella, that crosses the line

So the next time you see a barrier between two characters, think about why it's there and squeal with glee (and lose your shit for 42 minutes) when one of them crosses it like I did.

And don't even get me started on the music video and what passageways such as doors and elevators represent

Just know this episode fed me well

And Tinn, our stable and rule-abiding blue boy, finally crossed the line

#Crossing the line #My School President #tinn x gun #episode 6 #the cinematography #the colors mean things #I love when blue boys cross the line #I'm ecstatic and cannot be calmed down #This was beautiful visual rhetoric #I'm going to be sick because I'm so happy #And then the clear umbrella #AHHHHH!

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theworldisabrokenbonebutitishome · 11 months

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The wonderful Guardian Bingo Fest mods put 'lollipops' on my card and my brain went 'ah yes let's be as weird as possible about this'.

Bonus photo for anyone risking pressing on a read more on one of my posts. You're safe from me rambling for once.

Zhao Yunlan has company now! ☺️

#guardianbingofest #twabbbiih made a thing #guardian #shen wei #xiao wei #the fucking lollipop #is apparently a tag?#zhenhun #guardian cdrama #HI YES I'M BACK WITH MY UNHINGED EMBROIDERY FILLS! are you sick of them yet? tough #we're ignoring the hand ending abruptly okay? okay. also how terrible and inconsistent the hair is okay? plaits are evil #someone did one (1) embroidery project with hair and thought she was a genius despite the struggles so did another MORE COMPLICATED ONE #DISCLAIMER: Z1L is possessed with unnatural beauty and no my sewing will never do him justice #also his lip is supposed to look a bit squished cause it does in the screencap #i can keep listing imperfections but i am actually somewhat happy with this go figure #well. mostly happy 😂#i have a love hate relationship with taking photos of embroidery. i love the embroidery hate trying to make it look as good in photo format #did i rush to take these photos first thing this morning before work instead of eating breakfast calmly and without needing to rush? maybe #i finish a thing and then need to yell about it sorry

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fluffytimearts · 11 months

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"Transracial" Definition

Transracial is the state of someone who was born with one ancestry or race, but has taken on the customs, traditions, and behaviors of another racial group. An example of a transracial person would be someone of Asian descent who grew up in the United States with a strong attachment and identification with the American society and culture.

How "Transracial" is used and coined.

Rachel Dolezal, for example, is a white woman who claimed to be of Black ancestry, and used this claimed heritage to advance her professional, academic, and political career. This act of cultural appropriation is an example of the misconception many people have about the word transracial, which is not actually someone transitioning from one race to another, but rather someone born with one racial ancestry who has taken on the identities, norms, and traditions of another race. You could say she among many changed and coined this term of transracial.

"Transage" or "Transagism" Definition

Trans-agism or transaging is the theory or practice of a person becoming or identifying with a different age to their chronological age. Transaging is a toxic myth and is often used to mock the trans community. It is not a legitimate scientific or psychological theory. It has no basis in scientific research or fact. In fact, transaging is often used to make fun of and invalidate the real experiences and feelings of trans people.

How "Transage" is used and coined.

The term "transage" was probably coined by a group of internet users who wanted to create a term that could be used to mock and make fun of the trans community. It may have been originally used in a joking or sarcastic way, but the term has been since adopted and used by people who are actually trying to invalidate trans people and their identities.

"Transage" is different from age regression.

The biggest difference between Transage and Age Regression is that Transage refers to a person who genuinely identifies as a different age than their chronological age. Age regression, on the other hand, refers to a mental state in which an individual psychologically reverts back to a younger age.

Although both terms refer to a person’s relationship with their age, the underlying motives are different. Whereas Transage is an identity, Age regression is a coping mechanism to deal with negative emotions and events.

"Transabled" or "Transabilism" Definition

Transability, or transabled, refers to a person who believes they should have been born with a physical disability but were not, and as such they may attempt to induce disability via methods such as amputation or other forms of mutilation in an attempt to “achieve” their disability

Transability is toxic because it encourages people to physically mutilate themselves in order to “acquire” a disability, which can be extremely dangerous and damaging to their physical health and mental health. It also serves to mock and invalidate the real experiences and struggles of people with genuine disabilities.

How "Transabled" is used and coined

The term "transability" or "transabled" was likely coined by a group of internet users who wanted to create a term that could be used to mock or invalidate people with genuine disabilities. It has been since adopted by people who actually do attempt to disable themselves in an effort to "achieve" their disability.

The fact TERFs, Radfems, and the like try to use these made up or changed definition terms just to harass trans people. Go outside and touch grass or somethin', damn. Y'all annoy me with these stupid ass excuses like "oh if transgender exist then going by that logic --" shut the fuck up. Go study, research, and actually learn before opening your mouth like the size of Texas and spouting repeated words from others without actually looking it up.

#I am sick of y'all and I've had it so here's definitions and explanation #fluffytimearts #Before y'all start @ing me you need to read #I see these terms thrown around so I need to provide clarification here #I'm not fighting so don't go screaming at me full caps lock #terfs dni #fuck transphobes #happy pride 🌈#trans rights

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gimmethatagustd · 6 months

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#i made the mistake of going on the internet #and seeing so much anti-palestine bullshit #and now i'm sick to my stomach cuz i'm tired of people justifying literal genocide with their chests and thinking it's okay #it's nothing new #colonizers are colonizers yknow #but it's awful no matter how expected it is #anyway #sorry #i want this blog to be a happy space but i also can't pretend #jai talks

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