#i'm just in one of those moods you know

[chronicowboy]

don't judge me, i'm going through something

#sami rambles #i'm just in one of those moods you know #i made the mistake of listening to willie nelson again.... #COWBOYS ARE SECRETLY FOND OF EACH OTHER #INSIDE EVERY LADY THERES A DEEP MANLY VOICE LOUD AND CLEAR #YOU CANT FUCK WITH THE LADY SLEEPIN IN EACH COWBOY'S HEAD #fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!! #i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!! #I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE! #tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood. #Why do you keep pulling away from me? #It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“ #oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!! #........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

[dunkledog]

...GAR KEIN AUGE ZUGEMACHT.

[Angst by Rammstein]

what is this, a crossover episode?!

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #emesis blue #medic tf2 #the brain rot is real #rammstein #i'm not sure how i feel abt this one either #i'm just in one of THOSE artist moods you know?? #if that makes sense

[skullsandcorals]

Happy Birthday, my beloved @kill-cry-die !!!! 😚💙💞💙💞💙💞

Giving you the warmest and most love-filled hug rn <333

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“What was the last line?”

(Percy Jackson, The Battle of the Labyrinth)

#gonna ramble after tagging this 😗 #pjo/hoo #percy jackson #annabeth chase #walker scobell #leah sava jeffries #my art 💙 #pjo fanart #percy jackson and the olympians #the lighting is just me going ham on it sorry (not really though) :^) #I know it's not the right lighting for the mood (and caption) but let me have this okay 😩 #those braids took me ages i hope u like them :] #that one braid is lighter because of Annabeth holding the sky‚ yes #drawing two characters hugging is HARD #also Annabeth stitched that olive branch onto her shorts <333 #words cannot describe how much I have been FOAMING AT THE MOUTH to give Leah's Annabeth butterfly clips #I know it's not exactly butterfly clips....but it counts.... shhh it counts. #girlie is CLAWING that shirt but can you blame her tho (no you cannot) #I was listening to “hug all ur friends” by Cavetown while making this :) #“So hug all your friends and let them know you're not letting go (No‚ I won't let go/I'm not letting go)” OUGH.................. #also I know Annabeth blinked back her tears but just. let her cry ok. #I wanted to draw more stuff but school is back and I.....yeah :( #Sorry‚ Aether. I hope you like this though. I love you 💙 #for mars #my beloved my partner in crime and in the wild wild west etc. etc. #sorry if the gray braid looks out of place but also I'm tired and I tried ny best :‚)))) #if the hand looks weird pls know it's the fabric she's gripping through her fingers. her fingers aren't just Like That. #Walker's Percy is just 🧍‍♀️ in this 💀💀 #shut upp he's just very flustered and awkward about it okay 😫 #I truly need to find a way to draw braids like these in a way that doesn't take me ages to render :‚)))

[deathdxnces]

full disclosure, writing is probably gonna be a bit sporadic because the demons are winning and my mental health is absolutely horrific right now, and that has been the case for days. i probably won't disappear or stop the hc posts because they're one of the few things i can do easily and give me joy, but until i'm better ic replies will take extra long. i am very much open to plotting or discussing dynamics or yelling about our muses together though, so feel free to jump in my dms or discord any time.

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #don't worry about bothering me or anything. if i'm not in the mood to talk i'll say so #or just not answer #but honestly? with how alone i've been feeling that would be very welcome #just one of those times it feels no one wants you around or even cares if you're there or not 🤧 #and not talking to people makes it worse. #sometimes it's just nice to have friends reach out even when they don't know exactly what to say #amd sometimes it helps to just keep myself distracted with other things like plotting or videogames too #but yeah dw i won't bother you w my problems i promise #i post this as i'm finishing an ic reply #iahdishd #but yeah they'll be sporadic #it's just difficult to write when you're feeling like irrepressible thoughts of death barbie 🫡 #negative cw #depression cw #for the mention

[jankwritten]

Jason Grace who finally has enough and turns around and snaps at the people who poke and prod at him about being perfect. His team loses ten seconds in a race because someone tripped and fell and they stopped to help, and someone on one of the lower-ranking teams makes an offhanded comment about how Jason probably wished they hadn't wasted the time and they kinda nudge him like he's in on the joke but he turns around and shoves them flat onto their ass instead. He kicks dirt on them. He says, "don't even begin to act like you know what's going on inside my head," through gritted teeth with a voice that's just a shade more voice than growl.

I want Jason Grace playing a secret role board game and everybody keeps joking that Jason can't possibly be the villain because he'd give himself up, that's just how perfect Jason Grace is, he can't even fake being evil for thirty minutes, haha, meanwhile Jason grips tighter and tighter to the little traitor token in his pocket and loses the game, because he got lost in making that one specific person miserable.

Camp-wide truth or dare where people keep giving Jason all the tame fetch-quest type dares like they all think he'd immediately protest to anything even slightly straying from the rules to the point that he starts targeting other people with the worst dares he can think of, asking the nastiest truths, things that go beyond petty gossip into realities. They decide to end the game early because he asked one of the Aphrodite boys if it was true he laughed while his capture the flag teammate nearly bled out last weekend.

Jason Grace who had all of his wolf traits beaten out of him by a merciless system that couldn't see who he was beyond a name, a son, a soldier, so when he bares his teeth it's not to threaten he'll physically bite yknow. Because when he snaps it's not his jaw it's his tongue you need to worry about.

Jason Grace who is a menace, and not in a good cute fun way. Jason Grace who is a bully and an asshole and he sucks and he deserves it.

#WOW i'm in a fucking mood tonight partners holy shit #pjo #jason grace #hoo #evil Jason Gracce #If you can call it that #really more chatoic neutral jason than Evil Jason #yfeel me #he's only going after the people who go after him first he's just being WAY meaner about it #i'm in a vindictive little mood because my brain is an asshole today ugh #percy: haha oh i bet you hate that your diorama is just slightly off scale bet that bothers you soooo much #jason: are you truly sure that your dad loves you? i mean really. do you look in the mirror and see someone who deserves a father's love? #percy: #FUCK now I wish I remembered who made that post earlier about Jason and Percy having a more irked relationship #like they DOn'T like one another but they're still making out about it you know #yeah that's this Jason #but also of course this Jason has a soft spot for Nico still because Nico has never once pressed those ideals onto him #Jason will slash someone's throat open with pointed words and then turn and snuggle his cheek against Nico's hair immediately after #help my jason grace and my kent parson are bleeding into one another #oh man. oh fucking man this just gave me SUCH an idea for hockey au....

[cluster-b-culture-is]

cluster b culture is seething because you're trying to find articles againdt the term narv abuse but all you can find is articles for the term narv abuse because this world is full of ableist pieces of shit hhhhhhhhhh

.

#cluster b culture is #cluster b #npd #aspd #bpd #hpd #Mod Reef #anonymous #MOOD #related feel: sitting next to someone you know and hearing them talk about ASPD and they decide to say (with their full chest) #''i'm one of the few people who know that there's a difference between sociopathy and psychopathy'' #(and then adding on using psychotic as a negative descriptor for a bonus) #and sitting there just. fucking stunned. like did this person Really Just Say That #and now you have to find a way to explain the ableist history behind both of those terms and tell them off for using the word psychotic-- #--like that #without coming off as Caring Too Much™ lest you be found out which you really don't want #i was very much *head in hands* during that particular interaction. yesterday

[thebeautifulfantastic]

<3

#been thinking a lot about how whenever i have a dream or an idea marinating in my brain for long enough it then becomes something that i am #determined to pursue. and that no one can really dissuade me from #it simply becomes a permanent part of my creative direction in life #i guess you could say that's kind of the same thing as having a special interest but not QUITE #like for example. what i'm thinking of right now is my desire to start a band #and i come up with a lot of crazy ideas on a day to day basis but a good amount of them end up being simply fleeting or dictated by my mood #the ones that stay though... those are the one that actually HAPPEN #i've wanted to sing in a band for at least a year now #to be honest it's probably been longer but it's been at least a year of me being consciously aware of it #and it just made me realize. this desire has stuck around in my brain for quite a while now #and i think that means it is going to happen someday #i don't know exactly how yet because the way i originally thought it might happen (me going to music college) didn't work out #but it's been a year and i'm still thinking about it and keeping my eyes open in case i meet the right people to make music with #i know from experience that when i put my mind to something i WILL get it done #in the sense that i will surprise myself with how stubborn i can be when it comes to not stopping chasing my dreams #and i've had big goals in the past that i did achieve because of this #i'm also like. surprisingly adaptable??? i only recently learned that about myself but i be pulling Plan B's out of my sleeves #so that's all to say -- i'm choosing to believe that i will start my band someday and it will be better than i can imagine right now #and in general i'm choosing to believe that the things i truly love and truly want in my life will only become more clear over time #even if i'm confused and lost at times NOW... if i keep moving forward in time it will all make sense #and a lot of times situations do work out exactly the way they were meant to but in the most unexpected of ways #i don't know how coherent this all was but yeah #starting a band is only the most recent example #belle speaks

[mattodore]

VERY early stages of creation!!!!!!! but this is what i've been doing for the last few hours. i wish i could make his eyes look more hollow and deep-set but alas... the limitations of the sims' sliders...

#river dipping #kavi sunder #look at me........ actually in cas making new sims that's so crazy who would've thought #he's probably going to look completely different by the time i finish with him lmao #the fc i'm using for him was actually the fc i was going to use for jackson but then i was like. should this man's name really be JACKSON? #and i'm too emotionally attached to jackson's full name so i couldn't part with it #sfdkjnhdjfngh so now i'm adding another guy to echthroi bc i just really wanted him in there somehow... like the fc is too good to pass up #i'm thinking he's one of theo's classmates like he's not in theo's party/friend group........ but he's on the outskirts trying to get in #again theo is like i'm so unlovable no one likes me and then you look to the left and there's a line of ppl wanting to get to know him #so funny how long this is taking me to finish. like. there's only one skin detail on him rn and all i've done is finish #going thru the makeup categories... 100% true that i take decades on ocs but townies or w/e are like. only thirty minutes to an hour #i was making him while my best friend was sleeping over but now that she's gone i'll try getting some sleep too #i'll get back to it once i wake up bc i've just rlly been in the mood to make sims lately... might have to be a little chef again soon #anyway goodnight friends <3 absolutely forgot to answer those messages from the other day i'm sorry dfjhfhjbb i WILL get to it tho i swear!

[moodlesmain]

while im (takes a deep breath to hold back my rage) sympathetic to the fans of Those Wizard Books who're taking a death of the author approach so long as they're not supporting the series financially or actively promoting it and are sticking to fan communities, I really, *really* wish people would put away their merch. Because when I see someone in public with merch from it, I always have to wonder if I'm safe around them as a trans person, if my trans friends are safe. And that's a sucky feeling to have, especially when talking to people who otherwise seems perfectly fine and nice!!! A lot of HP fans are just, people!!! Who maybe don't know what the big deal is, or have chosen to deal with the problem by doubling down to spite the author!! But even when I know for a fact they're totally safe or even trans themselves, I don't want to be constantly reminded of the series whose author is an incredibly rich and powerful person whose whole agenda for the past several years has been to push back against the rights of people like me, and who people like my own god damn mother is more willing to listen to about trans people than her own nonbinary child.

I know it's irrational to feel surges of rage at the mere mention of a popular multimedia franchises, but while I know not every trans person is bothered by it, I also know that a lot of trans people and even allies *are* bothered by it. Just... begging for some understanding, and for people to just PLEASE dial back their fandom-ing in public spaces, especially mostly queer spaces. You don't know how much difference it might make in the comfort and feeling of safety for the trans people around you

#maybe this matters less in the US #or like anywhere else in the world #but in the UK............. please holy shit terfs are a bigger force here than anywhere else #PLEASE stop openly showing support for the multimedia franchise that made the one with the most mainstream influence insanely rich #that she still uses to prop up her arguments about trans people #do you know that she's claimed the fact that people still like her wizard books means that shows people support her beliefs? #do you know that she's compared queer people to the villains of her books? #do you know how much she hates us? how much she hates our transfemme sisters especially? #im just a short afab nonbinary weirdo #i'm not seen as a threat by anyone #i can't imagine how trans women must be dealing with this #vent post #technically #ugh #sorry this has been on my mind for a while and i'm in a weird mood rn #don't come at me for this just block me if you're going to be bothered enough by this #because if you do bother me i'll just block you first lmao #edit: not that not being seen as a threat is necessarily a good thing because in the case of us afab enbies we're mostly just dismissed #there's a lot of us but it also feels like we're so invisible outside our own communities #we're just assumed as queer women most of the time especially those of my generation who haven't had any opportunity to medically transitio #except the lucky few who were able to get a diagnosis relatively early in life #or had the money to turn to private healthcare #trans men who don't pass too #moodle rambles

[rotisseries]

just remembered in march how I scrounged through the entire ellabs ao3 tag on some sort of feverish mission after binging playthroughs of both tlou games in the span of about 3 days. who else here remembers that

#“who else here remembers that” <- did not do anything more than vaguepost about it out of weird shame #hiii guys this is actually what my last post was about lollll I am lowkey falling into ellabs again just a little #read some new fics these past few days #I know why actually it's cause I'm really in a narines mood again and narines does not have as much content to pick through #and narines is not the same as ellabs they're different in a lot of ways actually but I get the important stuff #and I'm filling the hole I guess #sorry anyway yeah that's what the last post was about #I actually just went into the regular tlou tag I was just bored #was maybe gonna rb some fanart of ellie or abby or smth cause I lovee those two girls sm #and I just saw someone's post bitching. tagged with every possible fandom tag too btw (although admittedly not the ellabs one at least) #and I was like girl that's fine your opinion is your opinion but you're so boring😭 also you don't get it #“they could never be lovers??” OH BOY I FUCKING AGREE. THAT'S NOT WHAT I'M HERE FOR #anyway who loves mutual destruction raise your hands if you love mutual destruction

[lieutenant-amuel]

I remembered I had made a top of my favourite Gabe scenes a very long time and thought it would work very well in a video format, so here it comes!

#Elena of Avalor #Gabriel Nunez #Gabe Nunez #My video #I've got a content-making mood so I'm suspiciously active now #Anyway feel free to share your favourites if you want! #This video is almost an entire embodiment of that super old post except I replaced one scene #I added Gabe's promotion to general because this scene has been growing so much on me #I mean I always loved it and I literally squealed when I watched it for the first time but somehow I'm even softer to it now #The way his eyes sparkle as he's listening to Elena he's just so happy #and his parents are there for him #even Roberto!!! #They're so proud of him 😭 #and Elena is too! #And me aksjnskfkkd #Honestly I love many many Gabe's scenes but those ones just hit me emotionally #(well except for the 10th position I just love sassy Gabe lol) #And all the scenes illustrating his bravery just deserve their own video calling #'Gabe being damn selfless hero for I don't know how many minutes straight' #It reminds me I wanted to make a compilation of Gabe's body language bc I noticed he makes that 'pfft' sound #and crosses his arms across his chest way too often #He also rubs his neck/back of his head when he feels uncertain or awkward #(This is probably natural for everyone but I didn't notice other characters doing it often) #This is absolutely random but he also held his palm (like his whole palm) on his hip at least two times and it made him look very fancy lol #But I'll probably never make it because those are very minor things and honestly it's kinda weird akusndkfk #Anyway returning to the video Gabe is just such a good person I can't #And yeah about that ‘pfft’ sound to be fair he doesn’t make it way too often and I’m pretty sure it was only in season 1 #but I memorized it so it still was often lol #Gabe was a sassy eighteen years old guy

[that-was-anticlimactic]

sometimes i think about my mutuals. and then. i want to hug them.

#idk nothing happened i'm just in a friendship mood right now #like one of those moods when i want to cry because y'all are RIGHT THERE but also SO FAR AWAY #and i talk about y'all ALL THE TIME #today someone mentioned that they couldn't find any good s.t fanfics so i sent them nellie and kaylynn's fics and i was emotional #it's so wild how we've never met each other but we know so much about each other #the fact that so many of y'all have genuinely let me send you letters is just... so wild to me (affectionate) bc i was honestly expecting no #one to want that??? but y'all did and i get to write you letters and y'ALL RESPOND??? and i have a shelf in my closet dedicated to y'all's #letters and just. frick. 'motional. #it's times like these when i'm like wow m.lp really made me get so emotional about friendship but that isn't really a bad thing - i actually #really love how much i care about friendship even though i'm so bad at making friends and it just sucks that y'all are so far away #internet friendships are my favorite thing but also one of the most excruciating things because. you're here but you Aren't #tho nothing beats the feeling of meeting an internet friend irl... i know i am going to absolutely SOB when i meet shannon... #we've been friends since 2013 and have never met... we're planning it some day. we are Determined. #i have a picture of shannon hung up in my apt lol #ahem uhhhh anyways sorry for this. idk. just emotional about friendship right now ig #mutuals my beloved tag

[siren-of-agony]

Finally coming back to this blog at the same time as falling back into a magnus archives hyper focus def does not influence my relistening experience at all

#The way the just #All have some not good times #Really does hit all the right spots #I've stumbled upon a cosplayer on tiktok who has just the right mixture of sad puppy eyes and unhinged revenge vibes for Jon and #Whenever I've finally managed to stop my relisten at like 3 am I just watch those videos I am #Fully getting lost in that shit #Also since I'm already rambling in the tags #The twins are both daisy basira coded and breekon and hope coded #Except of course that breekon and hope like the circus #Also if you know tma I can recommend thinking about which fears your characters would be avatars of #And which would terrify them the most #The twins are actually so hard for that #I think they would both be most afraid of hunt and Stranger #And Alba would prob be an avatar of the lonely which. Mood #And Nero either spiral or end #I think #.... Anyways I hope after this tag rant I got finally enough of my thoughts out to sleep #I have exactly one friend who I managed to make her listen to it and while we do talk about it a ton I am having the thoughts™️ #Rotating sad Jon in my head for hours putting daisy and basira in a snowglobe in my mind yknow the deal

[scorndotexe]

in a world where everyone relies on clickbait, the simple titles are a hundred times more eye-catching

#this post is about adam ragusea <33 thank you mr ragusea for your reasonable and simple titles you're everything #he lists out all the key aspects of the dish he's making like ''mustard rubbed tri-tip with grilled leeks'' #AND THE TECHNIQUES if needed #and he offers conversions and alternatives AND tells you what things are called outside the us #i just spent twenty minutes raving about him and his videos to a friend but honestly i meant all of it #i don't really cook i just like to watch cooking videos and his are my favoritess #favorites* #he has some more science-y ones too and those are great when i'm in the mood for them #or ones about food history! #like i don't need ''[some food] WILL MURDER YOU IN A GOOD WAY -- BEST METHOD!!! WORTH IT!!!'' i just want to know what the dish is!! #it all blends in #anyway i'm now raving about him on tumblr #idk man i just like his videos #persimmon's rambles

[a-god-in-ruins-rises]

idk if it’s just me but i feel like tumblr was so much more alive and sociable 4 years ago. it seems so dead now. my dash used to be filled with mutuals all reblogging text posts with each other, having conversations, making memes, lots of friendly banter, making personal posts, etc. it’s only an occasional thing now. just going through some old messages too. sad. so many of the people i used to talk to on a regular basis have deleted or just haven’t been active in years.

it just feels lonely around here lately.

#probably why i'm on here less and less as time goes on #i wonder where they're all at #i'm too sentimental tbh #i can't stand it #i think about shit like this and i just dwell on it #i'm so antisocial but deep down i crave human connection #and it makes me sad when relationships of any kind come to an end #and knowing i'll probably never talk to these people again #guess i'm just in one of those moods #having an existential crisis about aging #and the unrelenting passage of time #cheers to my mutuals who have been around for years #hope you all stick around for even more years to come #i love you all and wish you all the best