he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.
except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?
at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.
except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.
about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.
he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.
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so you’re telling me that grace chasity put together a plan originally to harm the reputation of max jagerman but instead max was so brave he fought off the “ghost” and “skele’on” and really enjoyed this plan. that it was the nicest thing anyones ever done for him. grace chasity unintentionally gave max jagerman the nicest gift ever and you’re gonna look at me and tell me they’re not soulmates?
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I want a dad so bad I’m going to cry and throw a tantrum. I don’t want to be an adult, I want to stop thinking and be taken care of like a kid & feel safe and cared for again
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thinking of rafayel who does the most he can to win MC, all his efforts, all his time (missed art exhibitions, unfinished paints) but all of that gradually dwindles as time passes. he's watching MC fall for someone else in real time (bonus points if MC just never felt the same way at all). then there's some nights where he's staring out in the ocean and when he thinks about MC a little too damn much, the symbol of their bond burns against his chest and with fire coming from his fingers through his evol, he's scratching at the symbol, leaving angry red marks on his chest where the symbol resides, taunting him. so he scratches harder, lemurian blood flowing through the wound. he does so as if getting rid of it would free him. but it's proven futile when his blood heals the wound and he's back at square one, but a little more empty each time it happens.
the thing is, he doesn't yell nor scream. he doesn't curse the ocean—if anything, he's spent, jaded—his eyes empty. then he turns his back to the ocean, like he did many times for her. returns to his studio. probably throws paint around out of sheer anger and passes it as a new piece that he'll paint throughout his rage and somehow turn it into something peaceful. a calm scenery. no one would know that under the calm vibes of the painting was rage like a storm at sea, and he's smiling that charming smile, eyes bright to others but voided to him, engaging in conversations with others at art exhibitions, or interviews scheduled the following day. like he didn't just try to scratch his damn heart out by his flames the nights before.
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You ever think about how we're never going to see Jackie ever again? Like. The real Jackie, not everyone else's versions of her. Every time we see her in season two and beyond (if she even shows up after season two) it is/going to be Shauna's version of her, who is so intrinsically not Jackie. Even if she's just talked about, it's not going to be Jackie. Nobody knew or remembers her, not really. Not her own parents, not the other Yellowjackets, certainly not Shauna.
Y'know that saying about how you die twice: once when you physically die and once when you're mentioned for the last time?
You ever think about how Jackie died both deaths at the same time?
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tenth doctor being aroace is so important to me and i don't even know why. i love rose tyler so so much but i don't think the right end to her arc was 'kissing tentwo to show people they love each other' like YES THEY LOVE EACH OTHER. did rose want to kiss him, yeah sure i just don't think she wanted to be romantically involved with him yknow?? he'll love rose forever but that doesn't need to be romantic. like yes ten *gets kissed* a fair bit but idk. i just think he's aroace. and that's part of why i think he is so sad about river in the library episodes because he knows it's not *him* that she loves. that's why it's important that martha left him to be with her family and get married because she fancied him but she knew he 'didn't look at her' because he just... couldn't feel that. that's why it's so so so important about donna. that they both knew they were best friends. the ending of the giggle made me so so happy because he's living with donna because he loves her because they're friends. he didn't need to be *with* her to be part of her family or to love her completely.
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Fabian and Riz to me are like. They’re like the definition of “a secret third thing” to me but not like in a qpr way. Their thing is just Their Thing, like they’re inseparable they drive each other fucking bonkers they care so deeply and they’re stupid teenagers and I don’t think they would even really think about it at all. I don’t think either of them can imagine a world where they’re not at least around the other, and like whatever their thing is definitely isn’t allo but it’s definitely not regular besties shit. They just like being around each other, I don’t think either of them would really even think to put a name to whatever it is they’ve got going on, and I definitely don’t think either of them would ever put enough thought into it to even figure out what a qpr is, much less label themselves in one. They’re just Fabian and Riz. The Ball and Captain of the Owlbears. They’re just them I think. Idk man.
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