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taegimood · 5 months

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(edit: pls send me requests omg give me something legit to write about 💀🙏🏼 help)

ok literally no one asked for this but i’ve been asking my moots these questions, so i figured i might as well answer them myself too lol

which member's type do you think you'd be?

which member is closest to your type (bias or not)?

which member do you think you'd be closest with platonically?

which member do you think you'd be the least close with?

1: i think i’d be closest to yeonjun’s type, at least visually.. my primary fashion is grungy street style so i think we have a lot in common style-wise and would vibe hard tbh :3 (but personality-wise..? idk i haven’t thought that far ahead lmao what do you guys think?? would any of them like me o_o)

2: oh man.. this is hard cuz visually i don’t really have one set type, i’m attracted to several different vibes.. but yeonjun cuz of the fashion and fox features, and soobin because ??? look at him ?? kdrama first love coded, periodt. (but they’re all so stunning that if i saw any of them on the street without knowing who they were i’d definitely want their numbers and also their [redacted])

personality-wise… RAHHHH why are these questions so hard i literally suck at making decisions- i’m the one that made these questions too ffs- ok sometimes yeonjun makes me want to shove my hand into his face and PUSH (lovingly. respectfully.) because he’s so Frat Bro Coded sometimes LMAOO 😭 so i think soobin or beomgyu. gyu is INSANE but i think we’d have so much fun together and he can be soft and serious when the time calls for it. i rlly want someone i can be goofy as hell with and gyu def fits the bill. and soobin……. oh, my sweet soobin……. dream man…. he’s so 💖💕💝💘💗 ……. (not me clowning matcha for being biased for gyu in her response while soobin is living rent free in every single one of my answers 🤡) soobin is the Actual Love Of My Life™ and i think we could fit well together in so many ways but 3 things that DEPRESSINGLY make me wonder if we’d work:

i’m also an introvert so i need someone more extroverted than i am to get me out of my shell 😖 biggest one is he said he doesn’t lead in the relationship and lets the girl make all the decisions (i prefer a guy who leads and wants to make decisions together) and he loves physical touch but only when he’s the one giving it 🤨 IM SUCH A TOUCHY CLINGY BITCH SOOBIN PLS LET ME HOLD YOU-

3: this post is so fckn long for no reason why am i such a verbal processor this one is ALSO hard cuz not to sound like a pick-me but i feel like i could be pretty good friends w any of them?? 😭 maybe gyu ??? i’m an introvert so he definitely might get too overwhelming for me at times but i also become a crackhead when i’m with friends i can be myself with who share my humor, so i think when i’m in the right headspace gyu and i could just go crazy together and be goofy asf lol. we could also game together and i could run him into the ground in victory 🫶🏼

but ok yeonjun and i would be such bros together plus he knows what it’s like to live in america so there’s that and fashion to bond over… i could be total gym buddies with taehyun and we’d bounce that dry humor off of each other… just like soobin and kai, i’m a huge anime and video game nerd (could do show and tell w kai and all our plushies too 🫶🏼) so i could game and binge anime for hours and be totally content especially if i’m bonding over it w someone else o_o SOOOOO i feel like i could be friends with all of them but as for besties? not me wanting to pick soobin again i don’t know 😀

minji do you literally know anything

4: honestly i think taehyun :((( i just think i have the least amount of things in common with him, that’s all !!! no other reason i still love him sm although i’m also a singer actually (fun fact) so i think we could do such pretty covers together 🥺

anyway this is LONG AS ALL HELL for literally no reason other than the fact that i talk too much lmao so here are the answers that no one asked for 😍

#mj sayin stuff #mj’s txt talk #txt #tomorrow x together #taegimood

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moonjxsung · 1 month

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star bby 🫶 it's been a while from me since i've been so busy with school and life in general butttttt ive missed you sm and ive seen all the shit going down with wattpad thieves

i really don't understand these thieves cos all throughout my educational career i've always been told that plagiarism is wrong and not to do it. so even as a 10 year old child it was drilled into my brain that stealing someone else's work is wrong and you shouldn't do it but idk… apparently it just isn't common sense and that's annoying as hell

anyway, on a lighter note, i saw the solar eclipse earlier and i was reminded of you because moonjxsng, so i decided to pop in and say hi 🤭 i also wanna say that i love going back to your fics and reading them again because they're so beautifully written and i love them so much. sometimes i wish i could wipe them from my memory, so each time i revisit your work i can read them and experience them as if it was my first time.

ily and i hope you're doing well outside of the wattpad thieves 🫶

~🌸

HIIIII MY BABYYYYYY I MISSED YOU SO MUCH ☹️🫶🫶🫶🫶💝💞💘💖💕

genuinely at my limit with the plagiarism on here that just funnels straight to wattpad 🤕 I’m mostly sad that I won’t be able to provide you guys with shorter pieces in between long fics but I just don’t have it in me to be chasing it anymore and begging people to at least give me credit. Maybe one day the drabbles will return but I’m far too exhausted right now ☹️

STOPPPP your message about the eclipse genuinely made me tear up that’s so sweet 😭 sadly I missed it because I was in a 3 hour business meeting (😀😀😀😀) so I’ll just have to wait 20 years for the next one LOLLLL but my colleagues who work on different time zones got pics for me which was really sweet 🥹🫶

I’ve been doing okay for the most part, insanely busy at work and back and forth with my mental state so I’ve been a little absent from my phone. But I’m still living my life off here and going out and eating good food and I’m surrounded by so many amazing people so I’m quickly healed when I feel down ! how are YOU doing my angel? 💘 you’re the absolute sweetest 😭 I will have something published for you very soon (👀) and I hope you love it just as much as the other stuff !! Sending you all my love sweet angel I love you so so so much. I hope you never forget it ⭐️💘

#🌸 anon #ask

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webslingingslasher · 2 months

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“hey, i might not wait til marriage but you are and that's fucking cool”🥹🥹🥹 this is so cute and made me feel so good AHHH <3

okay I need to SPILL.

first I wanna say i know this isn’t a big deal and when I eventually talk to him about it, he’ll be reassuring but I’m freaking out first and i wanna talk to the girlies first instead, but I do feel like I can tell him (bc if u can’t talk ab these things w someone, you shouldn’t have sex w them in the first place)

but bro I am FREAKING out HDNDNDND. we’ve been looking at rings. he hasn’t proposed because he said he still wants me to be surprised and stuff but we got carried away talking one night and he let it slip that he wants to marry me and somehow we started looking at rings. we went to a couple shops just to get general ideas bc I have no idea what I want!!

ANYWAYS. I was super excited and I had a full blown freak out earlier😀 I’ve been waiting til marriage my whole life (I’m 23) but he hasn’t, he had multiple sexual partners in high school and college and a couple before he met me. I was just thinking ab our future wedding night bc it’s getting super real now and I don’t think it’ll be that far in the future and I was like omfg. this whole wait and it’ll be over in one night. like “that’s so exciting, FINALLY” type thing bc the wait has been hard😭 I’m just a girl and he’s soodkdjdkskskksskso sexy😭

and then I was like…. It’s all over in one night

and I was like, wait. I’m a virgin virgin. he isn’t. even just fingering/head (which I literally cannot WAIT for😭) is gonna be new bc I’ve never had another guys fingers in me and whatever. and I’m not nervous at all, I’m so excited, I’ve waited so long as u can imagine JDJDKDK but I was like realistically, it’ll probably be overwhelming. and then ur meant to do everything in one go? even in most ‘normal’ relationships where people aren’t waiting till marriage, you don’t usually go from 0-100 in a single night😭 that’s kinda insane. like ‘oh you’ve only kissed a boy? well here is literally everything under the sun!”

and I think I just realised today, for the first time, that maybe that wont realistically be what I want. like doing some things and then the rest after. like we’re gonna be married forever (that’s the plan😭) so we have all this time to go it yk. not that I’d necessarily wanna wait super long after we’re married, but I just feel kinda… bad. like, he’s waited this whole time, just for me. imagine we get married and he’s super excited to finally get to hit and in like “actually……..🤣”

idk. I just feel a little alone because even the religious/non-religious ppl I know (who decided to wait just because), none of them felt this way. they were so ready to just jump in and start boning (as they should bc the wait hasn’t been easy😭) but idk I feel… idk. I feel like that might not be me, like I feel like I might need a little more time just to get used to like, everything in reality yk. bc it’s all fun and games saying it rn but I realised earlier, when I started really thinking about it, that I haven’t done anything and realistically, even ppl that don’t wsit need more time yk.

he obviously won’t make me feel bad for this either, he’s not a monster & he’s very understanding but I’m just spiralling.

this might not even be a problem, realistically the second we’re married I might not even make it to the after party and just be like “dick in me now pls” but… ifkdjdjddjdjw

I’m thinking too much lol. I’ve waited 23 years and it’s so real now that my mind is spinning. I’m sorry for the ramble but thank u for listening & for the girlie talk JDJDJDX💗💗💗💗💗💗 i love u so much

(I am sooo ready to get married tho😭💗)

i am so happy for you both!!! i really wish you the best of luck!

i think him being experianced will help out so much in the long run, but girl, there's nothing to worry about! if he's waited this long, what's a little more? like you said, you may change your mind but you said you wanted to wait until marriage. so i'm with you, why does it have to be your wedding night?

it sounds like he's going at your pace and he's in no rush to bed you either. you already know you're gonna talk to him about this so kudos! and coming from me, it sounds like you're ready for sex and that's awesome.

you're excited and that's the most important. (after loving and trusting your man.) trust me, it'll be worth the wait and i can't wait to hear about the proposal!

#thanks anon!

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ssamorganhotchner · 1 year

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I'm normally quite a silent tumblr user but I felt it was important for me to tell you how much we all value your talent and appreciate so much that you choose to share it with us. It truly is a privilege to read, and yours specifically is a blog I come back to when having a shit day knowing that even your silly little horny on main posts about Aaron are enough to put a smile on my face and cause me to giggle. I'm hesitant in writing my own content but you and the community are inspiration enough to maybe start. Both your writing and personality are so enchanting, NEVER CHANGE BABE XX

Lots of love from a proud anon, sending you all the love i can possibly hold !!! xx

ps no one else's writing turns me on like yours.

oh my goodness anon 😭🩷 stooppppp i don’t even know how to respond to this. the love and encouragement you all have given me is insane & idk how i’ll ever be able to thank you properly for it.

i started writing for a smut prompt one day for kinktober and had so much fun i never looked back. it is a blast to write and share with all of you. i don’t think I’m the greatest but y’all’s compliments and encouragement go such a long way. im still writing though i haven’t published in a while, but im close to being done with one now so it’ll be out soon ◡̈

i am so glad y’all love the ‘horny on main’ posts bc I swear i thought people would hate that & be so annoyed. I have an nsfw hotch blog for that reason alone (@hotchners-sweetheart) but always forget to post my ✨thots✨ on there 😭🤣 so thank you bc you’ll be seeing more 😀

if you feel comfortable one day, you should absolutely write something, but remember only write for yourself and no one else. if you choose to publish it and let us read, by all means we will eat it up. writing is super intimidating at first but if you’re writing for yourself, i promise it’s worth it in the long run. 🩷

AND WHAT YOU SAID ABOUT MY WRITING TURNING YOU ON?! plz there are so many talented hotch writers out there that is such a compliment to me 🥺 we do not slut shame around here, we encourage it 😈

thank you again for your kind words, i really have no idea what i do for this but you all are so sweet and kind to me 😭🥺

#anon❤️#ask answered!#morgan answers!!!#y’all be making me cry before work fr #thank you again anon :(#aaron hotchner #criminal minds #aaron hotchner x reader

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zero-braincells-left · 1 year

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ship opinions 🤡

disclaimer these are my opinions

ur opinions are also valid unless it’s adult/minor in which case I respectfully ask you to go jump off a bridge <3

david x gwen:

oooohohoho I used to love gwenvid so much

they,, they’re so cute together

but I don’t feel as strongly abt it anymore

overall I’ll give this an 8/10, I love it both as romantic or platonic :)

david x daniel:

0/10 booooo 🍅

daniel is a literary cultist and I hate him </3

(this applies for david or gwen x daniel or jen as well)

(ffs jen was a one-off character made for a joke. why do y’all even remember her 💀💀)

(daniel x jen I think is dumb and I couldn’t care less abt)

david x jasper:

9/10 jasper survives au or when they were both kids, I love them anyways

I can’t describe why. its just. a great ship

david or gwen x literally any other adult I didn’t mention is 0/10 and irrelevant

oh god. it’s camper time. time to be controversial :)

max x neil:

7(??)/10

i used to love this so much and I’m currently unsure as to where I stand on this ship

rn I think they’re just friends but

still cute

max x nikki:

0/10. they’re friends

i can’t describe why I despise this ship as much as I do but alas it just is this way

nikki x neil:

??/10

idk man

on the one hand. sibling dynamic my beloved

but i 100% did have a phase where i decided the sibling h was stupid and instead decided to ship them, and that little voice in the back of my head still likes the idea

but I also know everybody doesn’t like this ship and I too am prone to peer pressure (by online strangers)

so currently I have no strong feelings on this ship at all ig

max x nikki x neil:

1/10 maybe?? but they’re better as a friend group

..harrison x nerris:

do I even need to say it

10/10 I love them 😀😀

the lake lilac dance episode still drives me insane. they,, they 100% wanted to dance together you can literally tell in the episode shhduhdbhudbhudnjisnjisnjienjienjis

“they certainly are standing next to eachother” hell yes they are. all the time. nneuindhubehuhhrbugrbsiuhbhueinuhebeuhubsiuhbsyugvsyugvsgyunrnunrijhen

ok next

presner, harriston, and nerriston all get a solid 7/10 they’re pretty nice but nerrison is still my favorite

max x harrison:

0/10 no thanks

ok moving on

neil x harrison:

0/10 this is,, no,, I don’t like it idk why

I don’t.. no

max x nerris:

🤷/10

i don’t care for this one at all tbh u do I ig but

meh

Nerris x nikki:

1/10 cute in theory, I have no real complaints about them, just don’t ship it or see it happening

max x preston:

augh. I’ve been dreading this one because,, idk actually

i used to hate this one bc i just didn’t see it and I’ve felt that way for basically as long as I’ve been in this fandom but recently

I can.. sort of see it? a part of me does things it’s kinda cute, age hc (or in max’s case, just canon) is 10 & 12 which isnt horrible but do with that’s what you will

i give this one a solid 6/10 for now, maybe 5/10

ered x nikki:

0/10 nikki def has some sort of ‘crush’ on ered but I don’t ship it and it’s more just like younger kids idolizing older ones

also. ages in my hc is 10 & 15 so,, yeah no.

Ered x dolph:

0/10 no no and no. age hc is 8 and 15 no.

space kid x dolph:

5/10, could be cute but I prefer them as friends

max x space kid:

3.5/10

i think it’s kind of cute but I do not see it at all and don’t really ship it

nurf x anybody 0/10

i keep forgetting Nurf exists and I don’t like him so fuck off

ok I did it

#orea’s irrelevant thoughts #camp camp #im not tagging everyone

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meiozis · 8 months

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jdlakdlakfd peach!!! i missed you toooo ive been really inactive on here cause school just started and it was all a rush and NOW IM SICK…….. idk if its covid and i dont wanna find out i just want it to be over 🧎🏻‍♀️ but whenever im on here again i always scroll thru ur blog to make sure to catch up on what i’ve missed ….You are like the weekly newspaper to me .! if u ever get around to doing the fanart and u post it pleaaaase tag me id love to see!!

ur hyuckisms are truly so real to me i saw haechan and then i was like 😀☝️ i need to hear what peach thinks…. HSKAKDKSK but also re: halloween asks i think it wld be super neat if u did a game or smth !! id love to participate and send smth in hehe u know i am ur biggest fan i have a Go Peach!!! banner under my bed ….Trust .

cat!!! hi!!!! i've barely been on here too since school started so i feel you </33 but im so sorry about the sickness, i really hope u feel better soon and i hope u can have some tea and get some nice rest 🥺🫶 but pleeease you're literally way too sweet </3333 im really running the silliest goofiest little blog on here, the fact that you scroll through my little posts is soooo 🥹🥹🥹 it always makes me so happy to see u on my dash and in my notifs <3 and if i ever bring myself to draw outside of school i'll def tag you hehe

i had so many more thoughts abt hyuck ngl but i held myself back to not seem Too Insane vsjvfvdvf but really my brain is a windows screensaver on 100x speed whenever i see him lately, its getting out of hand fr........ 🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻 i might end up doing a little writing ask game bc idk when i'll finish my long fic, and i miss writing sm so that would be a good compromise until then :') maybe i'll post smth abt it next week-ish???

#i get little hearts above my head when i see u on tumbler #u are literally such a positive force on here like what would my dash be without u.... what would be the point....#i hope u are feeling a little better now and hopefully school hasn't been too bad </3 #but also!! do u know what you're gonna be majoring in?#i always forget in the us you can make it up as you go so it might be a dummy question but still im always a curious little thing <3 #ask #mutuals #cat

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opia-tarot · 2 years

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Hey queen I have a request for you. so I have a Capricorn moon and mars but I have a PISCES VENUS that DRIVES ME CRAZY WHEN FINDING A BF 👹 I don’t know if that has anything to do with me not flirting but being a hopeless romantic at the same time 😀🔫pls help I’m going insane 🥴 anyways I love ur blog so much especially the nsfw parts 🤭😩 have a good day or night! 💗💗

Hi hun. I love your vibe, the energy here is just immaculate. I’ve noticed cap mars people who like men have a difficult time navigating the whole dating process. Hmm you’ve sparked an idea, maybe i should start an advice series idk, anyway😂 ahahaha the not flirting could definitely be an issue, but idk without knowing the other components in your chart it’s a bit tricky. The capricorn placements u have, create a tendency to withold or be a bit closed off in regard to showing interest. Honestly, you should use this to your advantage. I’m giggling because this energy is really showing me the 9 of wands and 7 of cups. Idk if you’re into tarot or anything, but the 9 of wands imagery is such typical cap mars and 🌛 and then the 7 of cups really reminds me of your pisces venus. But anyway i digress. I think you can try tweaking your technique slightly. Your placements remind me of pandora’s box, it’s like the cap placements are guarding what’s inside, and that pisces venus in your chart is bursting to get out. It’s difficult to have such juxtaposing energies in your chart, but not impossible to figure out. I assume because of your capricorn placements you have a sense of realism to some degree. But my advice would be to stay grounded and to take action rather than romanticise. Idealising what could be will cause stagnancy, stay present. I always say subtly is key. But of course this depends on what sort of man you are wanting to attract, i would assume you are attracted to more dominant, self assured men. You don’t have to blatantly flirt to attract someone, because honestly this isn’t pisces venus or capricorn mars style. Keep it subtle, it’s also about what makes you comfortable. By subtle i mean, maintain eye contact, cute glances here and there. A little 😏 not 😵‍💫 or 😳. There’s confidence in eye contact, and assuming you want to attract a more dominant, in control sort of man, this is your best shot. Open body language and smiling too. Because i’ll say capricorn mars people tend to have an intimidating energy, even if they’re not. Take the tendency of withholding or concealing how you feel, and tweak it to become more mysterious. A subtle but noticeable difference. This is important so a guy can be curious, but still feel like he has a chance. Does this make any sense or have i been rambling on?😭

#opia’s flirting advice😭

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halfblood-princes-crown · 2 years

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There’s no point in anon anymore since I already revealed myself

but I liked the vibes of ELA anon so like idk 🤷‍♀️ Call me ELAMAN

SO LISTEN I THOUGHT IT’D BE A SIMPLE BOOKS RIGHT LIKE MY OLD COPY BUT NEW BUT HOLLLYYY SHIITIT MY TEACHER WHIPS OUT THIS

the wolf in the front and the rat in the corner and the fucking dementors jsedndnjsjsksllsksnsjsjjsjsjdjjwnwnsnsnnsnammmannsjsj THE SUN AT THE TOP AHHHHHHHH

not me analyzing the characters signatures too 🫣

I do believe you btw, tumblr is a hellsite too never forget

On chapter idk 7 or 5 whenever the other schools come in

Besides that, the hate on Cedric hurts it hurts my lungs and my eyes and my heart

and the elves THEY DESERVE BETTER

I HATE RITA SEEKER Æ

I was never one to read the news sample and so I’d skim it and then I was really confused throughout the whole book, but finally I have a chance to understand 😎

and like yeah okay Harry didn’t put his name in everyone agrees on that but the rules are literally from a rule BOOK??? I think that it can be overlooked for a teensy bit y’know get Harry off the dangerdeath competition

And like not the Neville and Professor Moody (Barry Crouch) friendship 💀

…

Is it bad that I wished that Draco got his head bashed in till it bled so Moody (Barry CrouchJr) would go back to Azkaban since it’d be funny

And then he like fucking turns back and they find him like that and 💀

Baby Voldemort insanity I’ll tell you, and BOT FUCKING TRELAWNY

the foreshadowing with her 🫣🫣🫣🫣

Have a good day!!

*GASP* an anon revealed themselves! Pleasure to meet you 😌

*GASPS AGAIN* THAT BOOK IS SO PRETTY OMGGG 😩 I’m literally dying. The details, the color, the fact that it says Slytherin 🤩 I want it but I refuse to buy it

Can you send a pic of the signatures? 👀

Cedric hate…😢😔 I never understood why he was hated, like cmon now! He was great

And YES! #FREETHEELVES! (Now I’m thinking about Dobby 🥺)

I don’t HATE Rita but I see why one would…she’s overdramatic and the biggest liar ever 💀 her personality fits the job description tho🤣

And I thought the rules were bound by a spell…like he LITERALLY couldn’t back out at that point…maybe I’m wrong…I’m probably wrong, ignore me

Neville and Moody…tell me why I almost forgot they existed 😭 (I should put them in my fic). That friendship was wholesome tho, but then it had to get ruined ☹️

😀 what was that about Draco!?

👀👀👀

The foreshadowing with Trelawney was pretty good actually. I love some good foreshadowing and that hit the spot. Same with Sevs foreshadowing

Have a happy day! 💚

#ELAMAN

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mariii-the-shapeshifter · 2 years

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Wow, okay!

I'm pretty sure we all knew a few episodes into Twisted Rainbow that it wasn't gonna go the way we expected, but idk... I still thought that Sabre would be defeated or something...

I'm sure I'm not the only one who's upset about there not being many happy endings in the Steve Cinematic Universe (if there are any at all). As interesting as TR was, and as impressive as the graphics and animation and all that were, and as much as I somewhat like the change in tone compared to the other series', I will always miss when things were allowed to be happy for more than two minutes. It's definitely personal preference, but I would rather rewatch The Steve Saga or even Rainbow Quest ten times over before rewatching Steve Legends or Twisted Rainbow. Not because one is technically better or worse than the other, but because SL and TR get too sad or too dark too fast, and it's just not my favorite style of content to consume all the time.

I understand that I, and maybe even a bunch of other fans, are kinda getting what we asked for with this. I remember a long time ago, when TSS season two was airing, we were begging Sabre to chill with the """"humor"""" and get serious for once, and then in TR, I was hoping that there would be at least one moment of levity, or a break from the insanity. Now that Twisted is over, I have the hope that Alux Rising will tone down the emotional damage, though I have a conspiracy theory that it won't, and I know exactly why.

...CHKN Legz...

Okay here me out-

Sabre has what I assume is going to be a comedy channel. If Alux Rising is super intense and/or depressing, he could just post something on CHKN Legz, and his audience is gonna be like "Wow! 😀 That's super funny! I don't even remember all the crazy stuff that happened in AR!!" And he can continue doing what he wants on his main series while putting funny stuff on another channel.

Okay conspiracy theory over.

Whatever tone Sabre's gonna go for in AR, I'll still watch and enjoy it. It's just that I'm less likely to rewatch it if the ending is depressing or open ended in any way. I'm aware this makes me look soft, but it's just not my favorite thing.

The last thing I'll mention is that I think the only thing that would make me feel better about TR's ending (an ending that I didn't exactly hate anyway), would be if there were other miniseries' taking place in other alternate universes, since they exist in the SCU. Series' where everyone doesn't die in the end, preferably. Things in the vein of Cooking with Time Steve or the video where all the characters in RQ were actors except for Sabre. I think it would be kinda fun if we had more stuff like that.

I know this was mostly about the vibe of Sabre's series' rather than being about the Twisted Rainbow finale, but I just had more to say about his channel as a whole than TR, and this gave me a good reason to talk about it.

#marii's just talking #mcyt #favremysabre #steve saga #rainbow quest #twisted rainbow

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jayflrt · 2 months

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no because jay im so ready to defend you but what the hell ???? What the actual fuck 😀 HE DID NOT JUST OMG I DONT KNOW HOW HE WILL GET AWAY FROM THAT BECAUSE I JUST KNOW UNKNOWN WILL USE THSI AGAINST HIM AGAIN along with wtv he has done in the past. im I WQS GASPING I WAS SCREAMING I JUST WHAT THE HELL ?$38,!&: HE DID NOT OKAY PAST THAT YUNA AIRING OUT EVEDYONES BUSINESS LIKE THAT AND JUST ??? also can we talk about yeonjun im sorry but he’s so suspicious IN THIS WHOLE UPDATE WHY IS HE SO CLAM AT THE SAME TIME NOT??? IDK JUST. the whole jayn things and just this is so insane she really made the whole friend group look like a messy bunch (which they but still) Oh god how are they going to ever make themselves look better for krypton 😀 OKAY NOW IM SO IMPATIENT FOR NEXT UPDATE BUT I CAN WAIT

theory anon

🤭🤭 HAHAH reading this after the latest chapter makes me glad that i set it up to look like jay posted it (i was lowkey worried it wouldn't seem like that LMSOFGHSJ) 🤝 also yeonjun is suspiciously chill !!! 👀 i personally would be freaking out a bit more if all my business was aired out like that ESPECIALLY THE STD 💀 but maybe that's just his personality or ....???!??? 🤨

#💌 : love notes #theory anon #series: yours forever in 786

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television-pil0t · 1 year

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Unsurprising I went to the mental hospital. The Carolina Center for Behavioral Health. I stayed 2 almost 3 days.. maybe 3 almost 4 days idk. Idk time blindness is a bitch but whatever. I’m back so I’m gonna talk about it because.. GENUINELY what the fuck.

So I was having a episode odviously. Full out psychotic ass bitch. Voices, believing I was god, thinking there were tall black people in my room (shadow people I just like sounding racist) like the whole nine yards. After I got off I’d tumblr swing “I keep hearing shit” or “seeing shit” or whatever I said I’m not gonna check. I called my friend queenie. She was asleep.. of course. Like no duh it was late.

I’m talking to her and I have her my account so know she knows about my awful bad boy tumblr account but I wanted her to understand what was going on. She dead ass is like “daemon this is really bad. Like your not thinking straight.“ I’m like “whatever whatever I do what I want.” I hang up and sleep like nothing happened.

Next day hits me like a fuckibg truck. I completely convence myself to go to the FUCKING AIR FORCE! LITERALLY LIKE

BRO WHAT LMAO!! I GOT IN CONTACT WITH A FUCKING SARGENT BRO!! AT MY SCHOLL LIKE!! ?!?? So I clearly had no intention of.. preserving my life. I get into a PHYSICAL fight with one of my DEAR FRIENDS and tell him to FUCKING KILL MYSELF. Like.. basically pushing everyone away as fast and aggressively as possible so.. as I told my psychologist ”If I say something or do something so bad then I won’t be tempted to come back to them. And they will hate me to much to come back to me.” 😀? What was I on? Nothing MOTHERFUCKER AND THATS THE PROBLEM.

So after that I go home. I told queenie I was going to the military. She’s like “literally don’t cancel that. Like your not doing that. That’s as never in your plans. Your going so far off the rails rn. What’s up with you. You had a whole plan and you’ve gone so far from what you wanted to do like.. your so creative you can really do something with all this..” blah blah blah saying every true stuff but I was insane so I didn’t care. Hung up. Blocked her in everything. Said fuck her she doesn’t undersand me 🥺 and.. she called the police telling them I need to be taken to the hospital..

LMAO I DID BUT I WAS ODVIOUSLY MAD

THEY HAD EVERYONE OUT THERE BEO. The cops were farther down but they were making sure I didn’t try and kill myself or something so they brought everyone.

So I go to the hospital and I’m out of it at this point I can’t lie I barely remember this shit. Straight up. I don’t remember a lot of this whole.. few months because I’ve been stirring up a episode but like.. I really did good on dissociating the entire thing.

I do remember them giving me apple juice but it was open. I was like “can you.. give me another one I’m not happy that it’s open.” And they were like.. :/ and got me another one but THAT ONE WAS ALSO SLIGHTLY OPEN?! SO I WAS PISSED OFF. Because I was like?? ARE YOU TRYING TO DRUG ME LIKE?? WHY IS IT FUCKING OPEN CUNT?! I eventually just said fuck it and drank it and it did have meds in it because I was knocked out in a matter of a few minutes but like.. if they just told me I’d drink it?! I just don’t like they were like.. hiding it.

So some shit happened. At night they would watch me and I’d be like :/ and they would be like 🤨😦😑🫤 and I be like ☹️🥱😴 and that was that. So then..

This nurse?? Come in. It’s like 8 in the damn morning and I’m tired as fuck and she gives me breakfast and asked if im ok. I’m like “yeah whatever”. She’s like.. “do you know why your here” im say “because im a bad person.” He’s like “can you explain to me how.” I’m like “that would be to long and you have other patience and I’d rather just talk without a time limit.” She looks at me with the most.. “damn.. you right but shit” look I’ve ever seen and then leaves after writing something down on her little tablet.

I stay in the room almost all day. They keep checking in me. I keep responding the same.

So at the end of the day.. bout.??? 9 or 10 idk they didn’t have a clock in there. That nurse came back and sat down in a chair. She was like “would you like the light on” I was like “nah it’s better it adds dramatic effect when it’s dark” I make her laugh at this point I’m like “Hehe I’m in baby!” In where idk but lord knows I was fucking ovulating so nothing I was saying or doing was making since. Thinking with my dick and shit or something idk idk.

So we have a long conversation.

She gives me my phone… and I show her my tumblr..

She looks at me with the most 😐😧😦😬😨😰 look I’ve ever fucking seen. Like bro was SCARED.

She sets my phone down.. DOESN’T TURN IT OFF BTW. And goes “so you think you have aspd. You know you have bpd right.” I was like “very aware.” She was like “well.. I think you have some define characteristics of both.” I just kinda was like thinking ok the worst that could happen is that I stay here for like.. a month if I tell the complete truth. So I go all out. Say fuck it. Tell my whole ass truth because I’d im gonna be here im gone leave with a correct diagnosis and help that I need. I’m like “I feel like I’m constantly in conflict with myself about caring and not caring. Like I know I have abandonment issues but I broke up with my bf out of pure anger and then did shit just to hurt him and I did that to my friend when I got into a fight with him and I did that to my mom when she was still alive.” She as like “do you feel bad?” I was like “I don’t know.” She put her tablet down and it felt like she was just taking to me and not working. I know that’s literally just a ploy. She way probably recording the conversation but it felt nice. “Do you know what it feels like to feel bad about something?” I’m like “I think I remember.” And that goes into my emotional blindness and perception. After a while of not feeling a emotion I forget what it’s like and it feels like I’ve never experienced it before and I tell her that and she’s like “well that sounds like both disorders working together pretty well. Do you ever feel like your fighing against someone else in your head” and I’m like I don’t have DID but.. sometimes sure I do. Because it’s hard to keep both feeling in check. I don’t wanna be reckless but the more I think about something the more in convence myself what I’m doing is right.

So we start talking about people. We talk about the first and I admitted it was a bit irrational (now I know it was very dumb but I wasn’t there yet) and we talk about my mom because I just kept being her up and then she looked at my phone again and asked me how I felt about my ex. I was like “I feel like I did the same thing to him as my friend except I feel like I lost feeling.”

This woman said something that ripped my apart. “Did you lose feelings or did you just not remember them once he hurt you.”

Bro I’m gonna throw up at this point. She goes on because I’m completely silent because I never thought of that but she was completely right. “you wanna feel better than everyone else because that’s how you think you deserve to be treated. Do you treat others like that?” I’m like “yeah I treat all my friends well.” She looks at me and she’s like “do you? Do you treat them and say things you’d like to be said to you? Or do you stop being nice once you realize you can’t control them.” And I’m like “I think I’m nice.. I think I say nice things.” And then I remember again.. she was right. I’m just kinda a asshole. Once I realize I’ve lost someone’s “undying loyalty.” I stop caring for them. Happened with my mom. With Mali once he got a gf I almost completely treated him like a completely different person. Happened with khye. And we didn’t even talk about the “others” until the second day but..

I’m like at a lose. I’m really sad because I realized how bad I fucked up and I start feeling empty and like shit. Idk if it was guilt but.. it all made a lot of since

I felt like I couldn’t feel love for a very long time because I just forgot what it felt like. Not that I want loved by my bf I was. And I loved him. It was just I was having a episode and genuinely couldn’t see it or feel it at the time because sometimes in her words “when your long distance it’s hard to hold someone with your words. You seem to crave that. Even if you don’t want the physical affect do you think he hugged you with his words enough.” And I’m like “I think so. He wrote me letters and gave me gifts” and she as like “ok.. did those make you happy or did they make you feel warm. Did they remind you ‘oh yea this person loves me’ or was it more if just.. this is how I should be treated.” And I was like :( because damn girl this hurts. Your hurting me. She was like “did you stop loving your mom when you realized she didn’t do anything worth loving.” And I was about to fucking kill myself because as much as I saw her struggle.. in my mind the bare minimum was her feeding me and giving me a house and shit. That’s all she COULD do. That’s literally it. She could only do a little bit for me and I didn’t feel love for her when I realized that’s all she could do. That’s.. awful. I feel so fucking bad that I thought like that.. and that I thought like that too late before I could change it and be better. Yes she fucked up. We would fight and argue and she would say some awful shit but she also tried so hard to give me a good life with the best possible education and food on the table as often as she could and the fact that I didn’t see that as enough.. that sucks.

She basically kept going on for about an hour or 2 until I was like.. “damn. I’m tired.” She gave me my meds and I went to bed and the next morning I went out and talked to some people.

Met this guy that was pretty neet. I got called into the office and they talked to me some more this after noon. It was basically just “you have very conflicting mental illness and we’re surprised you haven’t ended it all yet. Here have meds.” Lmao

Fr tho. I have autism, bpd, adhd, and some kinda aspd (not officially diagnosed.. or maybe I am but they gave my paper to my parents and I never saw it.) but they were like “Your listed here as a self centered .. extremely selfish narcissist with paranoia, social anxiety and general psychosis or schizophrenia (like all of it delusions, hallucinations, disorganized, thoughts and behaviors etc I was fucked up yeah I know.)

So paranoid schizophrenic with narcissistic personality disorder and religious psychosis. (Supernatural reference) and I was like :/ damn son where’d you find this.

They gave me some meds to take and the. Kinda watched me for a while.. I have to go back and be watched a few more times cuz ya know but I’m not excited about it.

My meds definitely work. I’m not like.. batshit insane anymore but I still have my symptoms because they didn’t cure me. I still have to go to therapy and shit for a while. I feel bad because my friends fucking hated me for a while because queenie told them what happened and tbh I’m surprised I was even slightly forgiven. I don’t use my mental health as like a “sorry I did that” moment but literally they was no other explanation for what that happened. It was straight up I thought I was god full on insane mode and then basic “your think in a shitty way and that’s not your fault but you still have to work on changing it.” Therapy.

Am I gonna apologize. Yeah. When.. idk. I pissed off so many people I’ve the past couple of days including my parents. They didn’t believe me at first but now they feel really bad for everything and shit.

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tflaw · 1 year

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AVAAAA omg i am very sorry i havent been in tumblr for a while bc i was rlly ... on the grind for raiden doing hidden quests n all that :// and i managed to farm a WHOPPING 20 pulls 😀 so yea ... ya girl finally got welkin now too n ngl im scared of losing the 50/50 but fuck it we ball !!

+ aaa since shenhe might unfortunately be jailed in their basement again i wanna pull for yelan :(( as much as i love hutao and xiao .. i cant pull off their playstyles at all 💔 but i dont think ill get too ambitious ADMKA raiden is coming but tbh if i do lose on her banner i'll just save it for yelan n build keqing instead .. yea sounds like a pretty good idea BUT HYV BETTER NOT JINX IT I WANT THEM BOTH

+ windtrace got me reaaally scared as well tbh 😭 i dont like co-op events at all it rlly makes my anxiety spike up for some reason .. i hope youre coping well w it though im pretty sure u were having a hard time w it 💔

+ and omg youre reading bsd :0 i havent read the light novels but the anime was rlly good too though hihi AND U LIKE MY BRO RANPO ??? i love him too he's just like me fr !! the moment i saw that man slacking while eating an ungodly amount of sweets i just went "i am you. and you are me" 💀 but yes omg ranpo's amazing he's soooo interesting AND FYODOR TOO GAWD u have taste ava i love ur taste u get me !! i rlly should read bsd as well bc i was an anime only :(( i miss them fr :((

+ and lastly, happy holidays ava !! i hope u enjoy christmas hihi i dont celebrate it but i still wanna send some good vibes by saying that im so, so grateful for meeting u <33 i love u sm ava i wish u all the best these remaining days of 2022 ♥️

AI MY LOVE MY BELOVED !! i really wish u get raiden :(( hyv should give u raiden !! she’s rly easy to build and so powerful i love love love her !! i’ve managed to grind at least 10 wishes . pulled . got c3 gorou . :))))))) no faruzan cons. i give up on kuni’s banner 😭

+ AYE im having second thoughts abt hu tao, too!! bcos fyodor . and ayato . same VAs im gonna go insane. and ayato can be a good support for ayaka if i build him right. but hu tao <//3 i’ve been wanting her since i first started playing. maybe i’ll get ayato next time. idk im so . sighs. i WANT ayato too 😭 shenhe might have a rerun after hu tao… i’m praying… i need her…

+ OH MY GOD windtrace. i rmb now why i hate this event 😭 the first game we were at the fatui camp near the jadeplume terrorshroom. i disguised as a box and nilou was the hunter. THANKFULLY the hunter didn’t catch any of us my heart was gonna burst 😭 and then the next we were at byako plain . i panic and transformed into the wooden barrel near the water stream. idk what’s happening at first bcos i can see the other rebel from where i’m at— they were using sayu. they were standing there with the npcs and the apparently the hunter just couldn’t see them? and then the childe one transformed to a chair . the hunter chased them every where and to the roof. i was the only remaining rebel after the game. pretty fun!!

+ i read then i decided to just watch !! IM ON SEASON 3 RN and halfway thru!! im so excited to meet the rest of the villains . this anime rly proves if villain why sexy. everyone is attractive . god. pls. I KNEW ID LIKE HIM !! ive seen photos of him before and he seems interesting as well as cool . i love him a lot :,)) he and fyodor . ai when i heard fyodor’s voice PLS i was ready to risk it all. HE HAS THE SAME VA AS AYATO. and u know how i feel abt ayato. i love him a whole lot i wanna give him babies.

+ i love you, too, ai!! happy holidays and i hope u and the rest of ur family are safe <33 m so grateful of meeting u and having to be ur friend :,)) i hope we can meet someday hihi ^^ i love u sm, too !! mwah !! mwah !!

#xoxo: ai.#✉️: hotmail.

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pepprs · 3 years

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straight up haven’t done homework in like 2 weeks (and then 2 weeks before that too) and I know i need to do it right this second i can’t afford to not do anything but i can’t even move off the ground rn mentally or physically. god fucking help me

#my counselor and advisor are gonna be so mad at me but i have just been so low this week and like. this whole month. and things are kinda #getting back to normal now but im just done im tired my brain feels like it’s in tatters and my room is a mess again and im hungry but #refusing to let myself eat bc eating means having to go out and see my roommates and i just want to hide forever. girls who are too mentally #ill to be living on their own or taking an extra year of college and no one sees how bad things are in part bc she is very good at hiding it #but like godddddd this is bad this is really bad i just want to start over i feel so empty rn 😀😀😀😀😀😃😃😃😃😃#purrs #ask to tag #i sure fucking hope i just have pmdd or something and i’ll be ok in a week but i really get so fucked up whenevrr.. you know and like. well #here we are and. yeah i just need to claw myself out of this chz ive been in such a funk and i have the most insane week this week. jelp #i think it’s probably not pmdd cuz it could be a lot worse maybe it’s just rly bad pms? idk. not to talk abt this publically i feel very #stupid for it but like i think i maybe actually do have a. well um a mental problem in this department. either that or ive had the most #fucked up start to a semester ever and covid isn’t over which is ruining my life. i think i need to just say fuck it and start hugging ppl #again and not tell my mom like i actually think not having any physical contact w anyone even just like touching someone’s hand or whatever #is not every good for me. there’s just a lot working against me rn i know im rambling and being insane im just hungry and in pain and #losing it but i need to stand up go make pasta and like fucking glue myself to my laptop and just do it even tho i know i literally do not h #have anything in me to do it i just need to do it #food #menstruation tw #<- sorry #i need to ask for a hug actually. fuck im crying out of nowhere now i really cant go get food FUYCK but like. thinks abt hugs. instant tears

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gunsatthaphan · 3 years

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I lately notice alot of negative Tharntype reviews and while i am lukewarm about the entire series, i can see why. It looks like Tharntype s1 was made for an entirely different audience (one that loves the tragedy and the problematic character types in it's bls), dramatic, intense, and dark (in my opinion, on of the darkest and i have seen alot).

Tharntype s2 is was made for fans who just want more domestic Tharntype moments. The drama here is dwarfed by the batsh!t insane stuff Tharntype s1 did. (Maybe that's why TinCan too, was more sweet and had to be reset, the author didn't write it alone 😀) 7years doesn't have the intensity nor the darkness but does still have something that i find annoying. And that is blaming Type for everything bad happening in the "perfect" relationship. He couldn't come to dinner to watch a proposal, (that's normal, he had work). He has to go to work during an off day and comes home late at night,he works in a hospital (dude hospital employees have insane schedules and it isn't Type's fault his boss was a bigot). I ain't gonna mention Fiat cause he is no serious issue .Lastly, Type doesn't want to get married because he is afraid of people looking down on Tharn. While that's an entire different issue, you don't just guilt trip him Tharn, and Tharn's urgency to marriege is so "no-one can still type from him". Tharn is possessive, ok good, so is Dean form UWMA .He too, is adamant on marrying his boyfriend, but does a FAR better job at reassuring him for the future than Tharn ever did. Sure, you will say, "Tharn is broken and sensitive about breakups" but this is Tharntype 7 years later... I ain't expecting him to pass over his trauma but atleast improve their communication. If he is afraid that after 7 years they will breakup, if they truly were that incompatible ,then marriage ain't gonna do crap. So please, blame Tharn a little but too.

If you are someone who was invested in the main couple more than the drama and the side characters (and the woohoo scenes), like Tincan, you will enjoy this season.

Oh! and! (I am the long Tharntype series review anon) i remembered something that i should have included to the negative points of the series that are continued in the second season and that is P'San still draws breath. He is still here, why, why isn't he dead? Lhong did awful things and got shipped abroad, so how awful characters are is measured by how much they affect the relationship of Tharntype.

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hello anon!

thank you for your detailed review, I’m gonna try to articulate myself the best I can and try to not repeat myself lol.

it’s interesting how you’re talking about the different audiences for season 1 and 2 because that’s how I feel too. I noticed from the start that this season has a completely different vibe to it, it’s somewhat calmer and slower, which I like, but the drama feels unnecessary and far-fetched which gives me the feel of a classic old-fashioned lakorn lol. I don’t think they actually intended to direct it towards a different audience but like you said, it feels different. and not in a good way lol. They definitely did take the fan’s wish for more domesticity into consideration and I actually like how they’re implementing it bc I’m a bitch for cute domestic moments and they do have those but... the whole thing has a very unrealistic feel to it.

Which brings me to my main point; I said this a few times before but my main problem with this season (and I’m saying this as a long-time fan who is still very much attached to the show & the characters) is that the way their relationship is portrayed does not match the timeline. Idk how else to explain it but they are not acting like they’ve been together for 7 years lmao. And the main catalyzer for that is Tharn.

Type is becoming the scapegoat for trouble in paradise just because he’s facing trouble at work, some random guy won’t stop pestering him and he is hesitant about getting married, which is not the way to go and definitely not how a relationship between 2 grown humans after 7 (!!!!) years should be handled. It’s unrealistic and an odd mannerism on Tharn’s side. In ss1 he was painted as the “mature” one and Type as the “immature” one and now it’s the other way around which is....incomprehensible and kind of ruins the viewing experience for me as Tharn seems to be developing backwards? The only thing that still has me invested is Type’s character and his development. The way Gulf is giving him a more mature feel while implementing his core characteristics from season 1 is very well done and def my favorite thing this season. Also the story around his issues at work is something that I appreciate a lot. It’s interesting and very relatable (at least to me) and I love how he goes about the situation. His actions are reasonable and it strikes a chord with me personally since I’ve had similar experiences.

But regarding realism, that’s about it for this season lol. Fiat is being portrayed as the main problem but in reality it’s not him - it’s Tharn lol. Fiat is a broken and loaded character who admittedly has an interesting story but he should not be taken seriously by anyone other than Leo (and maybe his future therapist - Which is NOT me disregarding his mental issues; I’m just saying this in regard to the jealousy situation!). So Tharn seeing him as a serious threat, without any solid reason or proof at that, is beyond ridiculous... Yes, he’s always been possessive but after 7 years (!!!! can’t stress that enough), a person like Fiat should not be such a trigger for him in my opinion....

BUT before this rant gets more fired up I’m gonna stop here lmao. We still have 2 more eps left so let’s hope it will somehow come to a good end. Also we still have the special ep in February so we’ll see how that goes. But for now I’d say I’m neutral about this season. There are things that I really like but the overall frame is just not it. but oh well...

xxx

#tharntype #tharntype 2 #review #criticism #anon #ask #doreen answers #oof this got long afterall sorry #i also agree about the lhong/san situation!#sigh #it couldve been so good #also have i mentioned the censoring?#im not someone whos thirsty for these kinds of scenes but i was pretty pissed as well ngl #hyping up a specific scene from the get go just to be like 'lol jk buy the boxset if u wanna see it lmao' is not cute....#anygay #lets put it to rest #for now #<3

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