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updated: 25.10.2022 requests are open but please read the guidelines! requests are closed! [answered asks / kind words] [drabbles masterlist]

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[completed] 88 dandelions celebration 🥳[lil’ blurbs to celebrate 88 dandelions (followers)] celebration post // tagged posts under “dandelions: 88” [web masterlist] / [mobile masterlist]

[completed] 50 kisses with fred weasley ❣️[50 kiss drabbles based on this list] [web masterlist] / [mobile masterlist]

[completed] a small little drabbles game based on this list! 1+1 drabbles: [web masterlist] / [mobile masterlist]

🌼loud & deafening silence drabbles: tag here / based on this list

🌼long fics (anything more than 10k words)

dandelions [14.2k words 🌸☔️🌶] 💌: fred stood in a field of dandelions, hoping one day you’d be his. years later, when the war was over and you were searching for him, he’s still standing in a field of dandelions. (insp. by dandelions by ruth b.) ➕bits from this au/ff: not alone (full of love) [939 words 🌸fluff] 💌: the weasleys’ has always welcomed you in their family. now, they’re welcoming your father together, too.

deja vu (but now with you) [19.3k words 🌸☔️friends-to-lovers ✨] 💌: it’s hard to get over someone you thought you’d spend forever with… until fred weasley reappeared. (insp. by dejavu by olivia rodrigo) ➕bits from this au/ff: a dream come true [1,184 words 🌸] 💌: molly has always joked about having you as a daughter-in-law. now those dreams are closer to a reality.

the prettiest thing [1,175 words 🌸valentine's fluff] 💌: fred’s theory still stands true: you’re the prettiest flower he’s ever seen.

forever and a bit more after that [2,515 words 🌸 fluff] 💌: fred thought his dream had came true when you agreed to marry him. the real dream was watching you walk down the aisle towards him

🌼oneshots (anything less than 10k words)

stolen glances and quiet sighs [632 words 🌸] 💌: fred can’t help but look at you, even when you’re not looking at him.

feeling heavy in the strongest arms [1,786 words ☔️🌸] 💌: when your heart feels exceptionally heavy, fred is there to hold your heart in his hands, willing to go through anything with you.

morning sighs (what a sight) [1,169 words 🌸] 💌: quiet mornings in the burrow was one of fred’s favorite things. he loves it even more with you in the picture.

flowing into your heart [3,800 words 🌸/ part of ch0colatefr0g’s writing challenge!] 💌: being friends with the golden trio, gave you front row seats to hagrid’s shenanigans. one of them, being a matchmaker between you and fred weasley.

tired but never of you [2,618 words 🌸] 💌: when you look tired and fred can sense it, he does what he does best. stealing you away from the crowd and self-care freddie activates.

a lovely day to do nothing (with you) [759 words 🌸] 💌: days where you have nothing to do, you would love to spend it with fred.

a little tipsy, way too handsy [2,463 words 🌶🌸] *explicit, minors dni! 💌 : when the pair of you get a little bit of alcohol in your system, well, it’s inevitable to get a little - very - handsy with each other.

anywhere where you are [2,304 words 🌸] 💌: a little, harmless “prank” turns into one of the sweetest moments you share with fred.

a keeper (keep her) [2,087 words 🌸] 💌: it took you a week to write out your feelings for fred weasley. he reads it in less than a minute, and takes even less to ask you out on a date.

home [786 words 🌸] 💌: to fred, home is whenever he comes home to you.

boyfriend boost [3,128 words 🌸] 💌: meet your biggest hype man (and boyfriend), fred weasley.

the sight of you [2,181 words 🌸] x college!fred 💌 : today, the world was heavy on you. and you would’ve made it home without a tear escaping, until you “bumped” into fred weasley

worst (perfect) timing [5,893 words] ☔️🌸 a little sad in the beginning, very fluffy in the end, almost too fluff-extensive :”) 💌: dating someone who was awfully passionate in pranks, it’s inevitable that he’d play one on you (even unexpectedly on a bad day).

not alone under the world [less than 1k words ☔️🌸] 💌 : when the world feels heavy, you tend to go under. quite literally, fred couldn’t see you underneath the table.

save your tears (i’m here to stay) [5,031 words 🌸☔️] 💌: what happens when you meet your hogwarts sweetheart after he left, after the war, and after all these years?

perfect fit [1,430 words 🌸] 💌: puzzles, rain, warm tea and fred weasley; it can’t get better than that.

cased in your love [2,192 words 🌸] 💌: fred loves to learn everything about you. in this case (ba dum tss), it’s indulging in your country’s traditional dish. (tacos) [w/ muggleborn/mexican!reader]

you’re my star (player) [3,475 words 🌸] 💌: usually, fred’s on receiving end of getting chastised for getting hurt. be it from quidditch or pranks. today, the roles have reversed. [w/ chaser!reader, gryffindor!house]

people watching (cheers to you) [1,087 words 🌸🌍- kinda slice-of-life-ish] 💌: fred forgot what it felt like to have his heart full since the day the war tore it apart… then he met you. (the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen)

charmingly loyal [1,054 words 🌸] 💌: even when fred’s pissed drunk, he remembers he has you as his partner… only thing is that he forgets that it’s you right in front of him.

the want and need* [4,659 words 🌸🌶] *explicit, minors dni! 💌: fred’s has been a little preoccupied in terms of work and stress, lately. a small help from you hopefully elevates some of that from his shoulders.

big and strong, little one [1,024 words 🌸] 💌: you love fred weasley with all your heart; even if he accidentally makes you upset when you’re bearing his child. [w/ pregnant!reader]

once upon a now [2,420 words ☔️🌸angst to fluff-ish] 💌: what happens when you come across with your ex-lover, with his baby in your arms that he hadn’t known about?

take my words back (you took my breath) [703 words 🌸meet-cute fluff] 💌: fred wasn’t big on the concept of love at first sight… until he meets you for the first time.

can’t get away from you [443 words 🌸fluff] 💌: when you’re stressed and just want to be alone, fred–of course–can’t let that happen.

the smile on your face [534 words 🌸fluff] 💌: making you smile is one of the many things fred thinks is the best thing he’s able to do (it’s more rewarding to him in his eyes, though)

this is what you came for [959 words 🌸fluff] 💌: fred already thinks you’re breathtakingly beautiful each day he sees you. what happens when he sees you at the yule ball, coming down the stairs for the first time?

a little accident, a whole lotta guilt [823 words 🌸fluff] 💌: fred thought for sure this would be one of the most romantic dates you two have had… until he triggers your allergic reaction.

my baby (yours) [799 words 🌸fluff w/ husband!fred] 💌: in which you’re sick and fred takes care of you. :-)

through thick and thin [1,600 words ☔️🌸 slight angst to fluff] 💌: your first christmas as newly-weds and… it’s already off to a bad start.

you’re all i ever want (even if i don’t ask) [1,658 words ☔️🌸small angst-to-fluff] 💌: a small disagreement with fred turns into a misunderstanding (aka two idiots who should’ve talked it out instead of ignoring each other)

never tear us apart [2,147words 🌸 fluff] 💌: being in a relationship with fred weasley was the best thing that’s ever happened to you. a small request for alone time has fred thinking something’s wrong with your relationship.

better with you (wherever i am) [1,356 words 🌸 fluff] 💌: despite being polar opposites, there’s no one else you’d rather be with other than fred weasley.

you were always number one [705 words ☔️🌸 angst-to-fluff] 💌: in fred’s heart, you were always number one–if only he acted like it in the first place, none of this would’ve happened.

say a little prayer for you [1,739 words 🌸 fluff] 💌: fred’s decided to man up and tell you directly what he plans to do instead of taking his test… ditching hogwards with george… on a broom… he anticipates the worst but…

grow with me, grow with you [902 words 🌸 silly, maybe sweet] 💌 : fred adores the things you adore… even if it means being a plant dad. (that it gets him excited to one day thinking he’ll hopefully be a father to your children)

#fred weasley fanfics #fred weasley #fred weasley x reader #fred weasley fic #fred weasley imagines #fred weasley fanfiction #hp fanfiction #hp fanfics #harry potter #harry potter fanfics #harry potter scenarios #harry potter stories #;w;#m's masterlist #butterbeerblurbs

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persephonesinfernos · 3 years

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ignoti nulla cupido | part six.

summary: natasha finds you once again to be able to keep her an tony’s promise to keep you safe, but how would they react when they’ll learn about the little dirty secret you have been keeping since you left bucky’s side?

word count: 786.

pairing: bucky barnes x reader.

warnings: angst, angst, angst.

author’s note: one more step closer to bucky and reader facing each other, are you guys ready?

ignoti nulla cupido series | taglist | masterlist.

Bucky, Steve and Natasha entered together, together they walked towards the medical bay where shouting was heard. Bucky felt like a robot, it felt like his Winter Soldier years.

He was able to see and feel everything around him but his movements felt like another’s, as if he was trapped in his own body. Only one word replaying in his head and it was her name, the name of the person who gave him the whole word and dragged him from the darkness in his soul.

“There’s no pulse,” he heard Tony said as the three of them made the way into the medical bay. “There’s no pulse, c’mon kiddo. You can’t do this to me, you hear me?” Iron Man’s voice was shaking and full of terror.

Natasha grabbed Bucky’s hand, interlacing their fingers. The warmth radiating from her hand made Bucky snap out of his own thoughts and suddenly made him aware of what’s going on.

How (Y/N) was dying, how maybe this was his fault because he was the cause of her disappearing. How this was the first time in years that Natasha and he were sharing the same emotions, and how they needed each other at this moment.

“If you immerse her in freezing water her healing process will fasten,” Bucky didn’t know he spoke up until everyone stopped what they were doing and looked his way. Even then it didn’t feel like it was his voice.

Tony quickly fille the tube which became red in a few seconds. Natasha held Bucky’s hand even tighter if possible while watching the exchange.

“We need to do something more, Tony. We’re losing her, look at her face,” Bruce spoke softly as he moved a few locks of (Y/N)’s hairs out of her face.

Bucky started walking towards where they were, feeling something similar to jealousy looking at Tony and Bruce taking care of her, it was something that was once only reserved for him. But before he could make it Steve stopped him and looked his way with a pleading look.

Tony hovered over (Y/N)’s body with a needle in his hand “Romanoff, please.”

The redhead let go of Bucky’s hand and positioned herself next to her best friend, holding her upper body down the water.

“On three, okay?” Tony let out a heavy sigh. “C’mon Waterfall, you can’t leave me like this. Don’t you dare do this to me, to die on me. I got a new prototype that’s run by water and I kept doing upgrades until you came back, I need that brain of yours.”

Then Tony pushed the needle straight to (Y/N)’s heart, not hesitation on his movements. Everyone stopped breathing, focusing on her body, expecting any kind of reaction.

Seconds, minutes passed and no change was perceived. Bucky had to hold himself to one of the metal tables so he wouldn’t fall to the ground. Natasha was still holding her not daring to move and Tony stumbled backwards until his back hit the wall, hand on his head trying to suppress the tears on the verge of his eyes.

What nobody noticed was how the water in the tube had become ice and a little crack was making its way from (Y/N)’s feet to her heart. A loud gasp was heard as all the ice shattered and move upwards the ceiling. (Y/N)’s body went up too, eyes wide open and arms searching for something to anchor herself to.

Bucky’s hold got tighter and made the table split into two halves when he noticed that she came back from oblivion, maybe this was God’s, or whoever was up there, way of letting redeem himself.

“(Y/N), breather, (Y/N)” Natasha screamed as she held (Y/N) down. “You’re safe now, breathe”.

But (Y/N) couldn’t breathe, she kept gasping for air as she held for dear life to Natasha's arms. Her eyes started to become red, her veins were bursting from the effort and she kept searching the room for something, for someone.

The frozen water that was still just above Natasha and (Y/N) became liquid abruptly and fell down soaking both best friends. It eased (Y/N), her grip on Natasha loosened and took a deep breath of air.

“Ja-Ja… “ Her voice was soared and full of anxiety and it made Bucky’s heart to dissever.

“Shh, just closed your eyes and rest. You’re gonna be fine, we’re going to resolve this mess” Natasha hushed calmly as she took (Y/N)’s hair out of her beaten up face.

Before she could fully close her eyes and succumb to slumber, she searched fanatically once again the room. Her eyes fixated on a well-known pair of grey-blue orbs that made her cry as she whispered I’m sorry.

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misterewrites · 3 years

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Announcement

Hey everyone, E here and I guess it's finally time to reveal my little side project: I am going to try to clean up and repost my old star vs work. For those who aren't aware or maybe never heard of me before I am EVAUNIT42 over on fanfiction dot net. I made my name writing a series called Always a Star and A hoodie which was basically a giant, giant collection of one shot AUs I wrote for the star vs show.

I want to be clear: This does not mean I'm going to write more star vs or even my own series Nova vs. I am just cleaning up and reposting my work so people can enjoy it again. I am in hiatus for the show still. maybe forever. We'll see. Right now I want to write other stuff, specifically my own original work. I didn't want this to overshadow my new work but @hipster-rapunzel, a great friend and beta reader for this ( You're the best love you!) convinced me maybe it won't especially since ao3 search features and such are pretty great.

Full transparency, I stopped writing this series for various reasons: Burnout, i was disappointed in the show's quality after half of season 3 and frankly the way the fandom tore itself apart over shipping. I was just bummed out all around but at the same time this story has a special place in my heart. It really helped me find some of the best friends I've ever known and it helped through a dark time in my life as well as convinced me to write. to fully throw myself in writing and just enjoy it. And I know for a fact so many people loved my stories, loved my work and maybe it hasn't aged great but I'm still very proud of what I accomplished with so many wonderful readers and friends supporting me and I will always appreciate that. Love that.

So I decided to post it for everyone to enjoy again. It's my work and I should be proud of it.

So the plan is basically give each story their own page but make them a part of the Series called Always a Star and a Hoodie (thanks for the idea @hipster-rapunzel!) so you can enjoy whatever AU i wrote without digging through allllllll of them.

Warning: I am not writing more star any time soon. I am not sure if I will complete cleaning up my entire work collection either because the file sitting in my computer from exporting Always a Star from ff is sitting at like 3 million words and like 786 pages. I was insane for writing that much and I can't believe I did it haha.

Thank you for the wonderful journey. Thank you for the support because without it I wouldn't still be writing.

Side note: A lot of the stories I wrote were done in season 1 when we had very troupe sets up like Tom being an impulsive jerk (I love Tom's growth in season 3. I love Tom now) So when you're reading some of my earliest stuff, keep in mind when it was written. Also I was getting back into writing after years of not doing it seriously so *shrugs*

So that's it for me. Enjoy this blast from the past or maybe it's your first time. I hope you have fun, stay safe, keep you and your loved ones safe, wear masks, wash hands, vaccinate if you can and push it for world wide for everyone. Have a great week! I am going to write my new stories and I'll see you soon. special thanks to @hipster-rapunzel for her support and convincing I should do this. Go read, it's great! E out! Byeeeee!

Here is the link to the first chapter i guess? https://archiveofourown.org/works/32523940

and here’s the rest of my work which i hope you check and enjoy

https://archiveofourown.org/users/MrE42/works

and here’s where you can find some awesome stories

https://archiveofourown.org/users/nat_bug/pseuds/nat_bug

#Announcement #Star vs the forces of evil #Always a star and a hoodie #my work #blast from the past guys!#woo!#I WAS INSANE

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insanityclause · 4 years

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Sara Krulwich/The New York Times

A Director Making His Mark in More Ways Than One

LONDON — The director Jamie Lloyd was giving me a tour of his tattoos. Not the Pegasus on his chest or the skeleton astronaut floating on his back, though he gamely described those, but the onyx-inked adornments that cover his arms and hands, that wreathe his neck, that wrap around his shaved head.

When I asked about the dragon at his throat, he told me it had been “one of the ones that hurt the least,” then pointed to the flame-licked skulls on either side of his neck: his “covert way,” he said, of representing drama’s traditional emblems for comedy and tragedy.

“I thought maybe it’d be a little bit tacky to have theater masks on my neck,” he added, a laugh bubbling up, and it’s true: His dragon would have eaten them for lunch.

It was early December, and we were in a lounge beneath the Playhouse Theater, where Lloyd’s West End production of “Cyrano de Bergerac,” starring James McAvoy in a skintight puffer jacket and his own regular-size nose, would soon open to packed houses and critical praise.

Running through Feb. 29, and arriving on cinema screens Feb. 20 in a National Theater Live broadcast, “Cyrano” — newly adapted by Martin Crimp, and positing its hero as a scrappy spoken-word wonder — capped a year that saw Lloyd celebrated on both sides of the Atlantic.

In London last summer, his outdoor hit “Evita” traded conventional glamour for sexy grit, while his radical reinterpretation of Harold Pinter’s “Betrayal,” starring Tom Hiddleston, was hailed first in the West End, then on Broadway. Ben Brantley, reviewing “Betrayal” in The New York Times, called it “one of those rare shows I seem destined to think about forever.”

When Time Out London ranked the best theater of 2019, it gave the top spot jointly to all three Lloyd productions, saying that he “has had a year that some of his peers might trade their entire careers for.”

Lloyd, who is 39, did not spring from the same mold as many of those peers. There was for him, he says, no youthful aha moment of watching Derek Jacobi onstage and divining that directing was his path. Epiphanies like that belonged to other kids, the ones who could afford the tickets.

If there is a standard background for a London theater director — and Lloyd would argue that certainly there used to be — that isn’t where he came from, growing up working class on the south coast of England, in Margaret Thatcher’s Britain.

The first time I laid eyes on him, chatting in the Playhouse lobby after a preview of “Cyrano,” he was the picture of working-class flair — the gold pirate hoops, the pink and black T-shirt, the belt cinching high-waisted pants.

He looks nothing like your typical West End director. Which of course is precisely the point.

What’s underneath

“It’s quite often said of him,” McAvoy observed by phone, once the reviews were in, “that he strips things away or he tries to take classical works and turn them on their head. I think he’s always just trying to tell the story in the clearest and most exhilarating way possible.”

The “X-Men” star, who put the number of times he’s worked with Lloyd in the past decade at a “gazillion,” calls theirs “probably one of the most defining relationships that I’ve had in my career.”

Yet Lloyd himself is on board with the notion that his assertively contemporary stagings pare back stifling layers of performance history to lay bare what’s underneath.

Like the tiger and dragons that he had emblazoned on his head just last May, though, the unembellished nature of his shows — as minimalist in their way as his tattoos are the opposite — is a relatively recent development.

Lloyd’s first “Cyrano de Bergerac,” starring Douglas Hodge in 2012, was also his Broadway debut. It was, he said, “absolutely the ‘Cyrano’ that you would expect,” with the fake nose, the hat, the plume, the sword-fighting.

There is, granted, sword-fighting in the new one — but the audience has to imagine the swords.

Lloyd’s productions, including a lauded revival of Stephen Sondheim and James Lapine’s “Passion” in 2010, long marked him as a hot young director on the rise. But he sees in some of his previous work a noisy tendency toward idea overload.

The pivot point came in 2018, with a season that the Jamie Lloyd Company — which he formed seven years ago with the commercial producing powerhouse Ambassador Theater Group — devoted to the short works of Harold Pinter. The playwright’s distillation of language forced Lloyd to match it with his staging.

That immersion led to what the director Michael Grandage — one of Lloyd’s early champions, who tapped him at 27 to be his associate director at the Donmar Warehouse — called Lloyd’s “absolute masterpiece.”

“I had quite a lot of ambition to do a production of ‘Betrayal’ in my life,” Grandage said. “And then when I saw Jamie’s, I thought, ‘Right, that’s it. I don’t ever, ever want to direct this play.’ Because that’s, for me, the perfect production.”

Playing dress-up

Charm is a ready currency in the theater, but Lloyd’s is disarming; he seems simply to be being himself, without veneer. Like when I fact-checked something I’d read by asking whether he was a vegan.

“Lapsed vegan,” he confessed immediately, with a tinge of guilt about eating eggs again.

Pay no attention to any tough-guy vibe in photos of him; do not be alarmed by the sharp-toothed cat on the back of his head. In conversation, Lloyd comes across as thoughtful and unassuming, with an animated humor that makes him fun company. If he speaks at the speed of someone with no time to waste, he balances that with focused attentiveness.

His father, Ray, was a truck driver. His mother, Joy (whose name is tattooed on his right forearm, near the elbow), cleaned houses, took in ironing and ran a costume-rental shop, where young Jamie would sneak in to dress up as the children’s cartoon character Rainbow Brite.

“It’s very embarrassing,” he said, squelching a laugh.

Seeing professional theater wasn’t an option then for Lloyd, whose grown-up passion for expanding audience access — one of the things he has made himself known for in the West End — grew out of that exclusion. His company has set aside 15,000 free and 15,000 £15 tickets for its current, characteristically starry three-show season, which will also include Emilia Clarke in “The Seagull” and Jessica Chastain in “A Doll’s House.” At the 786-seat Playhouse, that adds up to just over 38 full houses.

Lloyd, who was studying acting at the Liverpool Institute for Performing Arts when he decided he wanted to direct, found his way to theater as a child by acting in school shows and local amateur productions. Twice he was cast as a monkey; in “The Wizard of Oz,” thrillingly, he got to fly.

The details of his early days have always been colorful — like having a clown as his first stepfather, who performed at children’s parties under the stage name Uncle Funny. But Lloyd is quick to acknowledge the darkness lurking there.

“It sounds a little bit like some dodgy film, because he was actually a really violent man,” he said. “And there were times where he was very physically abusive to my mum. There was a sort of atmosphere of violence in that house that was really uneasy. And yet masked with this literal makeup, but also this sense of trying to entertain people whilst enacting terrible brutality behind the scenes.”

This is where he locates his own connection to Pinter’s work.

“A lot of that is that the violence is beneath the surface,” he said. “And on the top there is this sort of, what I call a kind of topspin, a layer of cover-up.”

Long relationships

Lloyd was still at drama school when he staged a production of Lapine and William Finn’s “Falsettoland” that won a prize: assistant directing a show at the Bush Theater in London. Based on that, Trevor Nunn hired him, at 22, to be his assistant director on “Anything Goes” in the West End — a job he did so well that Grandage got word of it and hired him to assist on “Guys and Dolls.” While Lloyd was doing that, he also began directing in his own right.

The costume and set designer Soutra Gilmour, who has been a constant with Lloyd since he cold-called her for his first professional production, Pinter’s “The Caretaker,” said theirs is an easy relationship, with a “symbiotic transference of ideas.” Even their creative aesthetics have evolved in sync.

“We’ve actually never fallen out in 13 years,” she said over mint tea on a trip to New York last month, just before “Betrayal” closed. “Never! I don’t even know how we would fall out.”

Of course, the one time she tried to decline a Lloyd project five years ago, because its tech rehearsals coincided with the due date for her son’s birth, he told her there was no one else he wanted to work with. So she did the show, warning that at some point she would have to leave. Now, she says, he understands that she won’t sit through endless evening previews, because she needs to go home to her child.

Lloyd and his wife, the actress Suzie Toase (whose name is tattooed on one of his arms), home-school their own three boys (whose names are tattooed on the other). Their eldest, 13-year-old Lewin, is an actor who recently played one of the principal characters, the heroine’s irresistible best friend, on the HBO and BBC One series “His Dark Materials,” whose cast boasts McAvoy as well.

Enter the child

Lloyd’s interpretation of “Betrayal,” a 1978 play that recounts a seven-year affair, imbued it with a distinctly non-’70s awareness of the fragility of family — the notion that children are the bystanders harmed when a marriage is tossed away.

Its gasp-inducing moment came with the entrance of a character Pinter wrote to be mentioned but not seen: the small daughter of the couple whose relationship is imperiled. In putting her onstage, Lloyd didn’t touch the text; it was a simple, wordless role. With it, he altered the resonance of the play.

To me, it seemed logical that Lloyd’s production would have been informed by his experience as a husband and father — and maybe also as a child in a splintering family. How old had he been, anyway, when his parents split up?

“Five,” Lloyd said. “The same age as the character would be.” He paused. “Oh God, yeah, fascinating. I’d not thought about that. Exactly the same age.”

If that fact was of more than intellectual interest to him, he didn’t let on. He volunteered a memory, though — of being a little one “amongst these kind of big giants, and I guess what we can now see as the mess of their lives.”

Blazer-free

Doing “Betrayal” in New York, Lloyd was struck by how eager Americans were to chat about his tattoos. Still, he told me after I texted him a follow-up question about them, he hadn’t expected his appearance to be such a talking point in this story.

It’s not just idle curiosity. It’s about what the tattoos signify in a field where, in Britain as in the United States, the top directors tend to have grown up very comfortably. It’s about who is welcome in a particular space, and who gets to be themselves there.

For a long time after Lloyd started working in the theater, he wore a blazer every day: a conscious attempt to conform in an industry where he felt a nagging sense of difference.

“Every other director at the time was from an Oxbridge background,” he said, “and looked and sounded a particular way. I spent a long time pretending to be like them.”

It was a performance of sorts, with a costume he donned for the role.

It was only about seven or eight years ago — around the time he left the Donmar and started putting together his own company — that he stopped worrying about what people might think if he looked the way he wanted.

“My dad had tattoos” was the first thing he said when I asked him about his own.

“I guess it’s partly getting older,” he mused, “but it’s just sort of going, ‘You can’t pretend to be someone. You’ve got to be who you really are, in every way.’”

The tattoos that have gradually transformed him are from a different aesthetic universe than his recent work onstage. Yet the impulse, somehow, is the same.

In shedding the blazer, in inking his skin, Lloyd has peeled back layers of imposed convention to show who’s underneath.

And should you spot him at the theater, where he is hard to miss, you’ll notice that he looks just like himself.

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thoughtlesstales · 5 years

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Below is a Masterlist of all my works - The links will take you to tumblr Posts, not AO3. Please do not comment on this post asking to be tagged for certain works or when I post a new work. Please send me an ask instead, you can find the masterlist of tagging options here.

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- MARVEL: AGENTS OF SHIELD

I WASN’T EXPECTING THAT - SERIES | TEEN | WIP - HIATUS | PHIL COULSON X DAISY JOHNSON | PREGNANCY - WORRY - OLDER/ YOUNGER RELATIONSHIP - Daisy finds out some interesting news.

- ARROW

A LITTLE WHITE LIE | GENERAL | 1376 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | FLIRTING - Bruce Wayne takes an interest in one, Felicity Smoak

ALL BETS ARE ON | GENERAL | 325 | NO SHIP HUMOUR - BETTING - Sara, John and Roy place their bets

ALL SHE WANTED WAS A DOG | TEEN | 712 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | PREGNANCY - LABOUR - ANGER - A very angry in labour Felicity tells Oliver it’s all his fault that she is in so much pain. and that she would of wanted a dog instead.

BLEEDING LOVE | TEEN | 1254 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK ANGST - BLOOD - ALCOHOL - HURTING - Thea catches Felicity kissing the Green Arrow

CAUGHT IN THE ACT | GENERAL | 450 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | HUMOUR - KISSING - Thea catches Felicity kissing the Green Arrow

COME HOME TO ME - SERIES | MATURE | 14,955 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | ANGST - VIOLENCE - MISSING CHARACTER - Oliver leaves them, or at least that’s what they’re lead to believe.

DREAMS AREN’T THAT FAR FROM REALITY | GENERAL | 1240 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | BABIES - FLUFF - Felicity isn’t too good with babies, so she puts in a phone call for help

DREAMS COMING TRUE | GENERAL | 245 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | PREGNANCY - Felicity has some news

FATHER AND DAUGHTER | GENERAL | 382 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | BABIES - FLUFF - CUTENESS - Felicity falls and awakes to find Oliver with baby

FATHER LIKE SON | GENERAL | 784 | NO SHIP CHILDREN - CHILD BORN WITHOUT PARENT KNOWING - Oliver leaves once more, gone for five years. When he returns his blood runs within another

FRAT BOYS & BOOBS | TEEN | 1606 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK TALK OF SEX - FLIRTING - HUMOUR - Anyone with boobs can get a frat boy to do anything

GIVE DADDY A BREAK EH? | GENERAL | 1048 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | BABIES - TALK OF SEX - MARRIED - Oliver and Felicity go on holiday with their little one

HE DIDN’T NEED A REASON | GENERAL | 608 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | LANGUAGE - KISSING - FLUFF - It’s a cold and windy day, but that doesn’t stop Oliver and Felicity enjoying what they have.

I CAN’T LOSE YOU | MATURE | 1326 | FELICITY SMOAK X SARA LANCE BLOOD - VIOLENCE - ANGST - KISSING - It’s a cold and windy day, but that doesn’t stop Oliver and Felicity enjoying what they have.

INSECURITIES | TEEN | 1258 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK NERVOUS - FIRST TIME - KISSING - MILD SEXUAL CONTENT - INSECURE FEELINGS - Oliver and Felicity have yet to sleep together. Felicity is nervous, comparing herself to Oliver’s past conquests

IT’S A GOOD JOB I LOVE YOU | GENERAL | 1525 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | FLUFF - I LOVE YOU’S - KISSING - Olicity have been dating for a couple of months, Oliver says I love you first, but Felicity doesn’t say it back, now Oliver is insecure about the fact that she didn’t say it.

IT’S JUST DINNER | GENERAL | 698 | NO SHIP JEALOUSY - HUMOUR - Oliver thinks Felicity and Lance are on a date

IT TECH WITH THE KILLER MOVES | TEEN | 2084 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | ALCOHOL - DIRTY DANCING - FLIRTING - KISSING - An adventurous, drunken and un-Felicity like Felicity there to make Oliver jealous

NEXT TIME, I’LL TRY AND DODGE THE BULLET | TEEN | 1079 | FELICITY SMOAK X SARA LANCE | FLUFF - BLOOD - BULLET WOUND - Sara patches Felicity up after getting shot, based around 2x14

NO MATTER WHAT | MATURE | 203 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK ANGST - MISCARRIAGE - CRYING/UPSET - Despair and heart break wraps around the hearts of the Queen Family.

PLEASE JUST WAKE UP | MATURE | 786 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | CHARACTER DEATH - VIOLENCE - BLOOD - ANGST - It’s the end

POUTING PARENTS | GENERAL | 767 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK FLUFF - BABIES - CUTENESS - Starting them young

SHE COULDN’T BE HIS GIRL FOREVER | GENERAL | 899 | NO SHIP ANGST - DEAR JOHN LETTER - She writes a letter saying goodbye, for good.

SHE’S SCARY | GENERAL | 610 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK PREGNANCY - LANGUAGE - THREATS OF VIOLENCE - Felicity isn’t handling the pregnancy well

SKYLINES & THIEVES | GENERAL | 1120 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | VIOLENCE - KNIVES - LANGUAGE - Oliver, Felicity and Dig head to NYC for a QC meeting/undercover mission

SUNFLOWERS & DATES | GENERAL | 699 | NO SHIP JEALOUSY - Oliver thinks Felicity and Lance are on a date

STAMINA | GENERAL | 607 | NO SHIP HUMOUR - ALCOHOL - - Thea wonders who is under the Hood

THIS IS YOUR ONLY WARNING | TEEN | 2024 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | THREATS OF VIOLENCE - REHEARSAL DINNER - Max Fuller tries to make a move on Felicity at her’s and Oliver’s rehearsal dinner

WHAT THE BLOODY HELL WAS THAT | TEEN | 1271 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | KISSING - ARGUING - Oliver & Felicity are arguing in front of the team and the only way Oliver can stop her is by kissing her.

YOUR LOVER, YOUR FRIEND, YOUR CONFIDENT AND YOUR HUSBAND | GENERAL | 1374 | OLIVER QUEEN X FELICITY SMOAK | MARRIAGE - FLUFF - KISSING - Felicity walks down the isle to the man of her dreams

- CRIMINAL MINDS

ALPHABET CHALLENGE | EXPLICIT | WIP | AARON HOTCHNER X SPENCER REID | VIOLENCE - LANGUAGE - BDSM - D/s - - A different chapter every time based on a letter of the alphabet. Warnings/Triggers listed on each chapter

- CSI

YOU’VE NEVER SHIED AWAY FROM DANGER | TEEN | 1015 | NICK STOKES X READER | GUNS - VIOLENCE - LANGUAGE - Nick’s changed and you don’t know why

- HAWAII FIVE-0

EVERY BIRTHDAY HAS SURPRISES | TEEN | 2335 | STEVE MCGARRETT X KONO KALAKAUA | KISSING - HUMOUR - Kono thinks everyone has forgotten her birthday and Steve goes above and beyond

FINALLY HE COMES HOME - SERIES | MATURE | 9387 | STEVE MCGARRETT X KONO KALAKAUA | PREGNANCY - BABIES - VIOLENCE - MISSING CHARACTER - ANGST - TENSE RELATIONSHIP - CHILDREN - Everything was good, and then it wasn’t

HEART BREAK | MATURE | - | STEVE MCGARRETT X READER CHARACTER DEATH - ANGST - You lose the love of your life

HR NIGHTMARE - COLLECTION | MATURE | WIP | STEVE MCGARRETT X READER | HUMOUR - SEXUAL LANGUAGE - TEASING - They’re all HR’s biggest problem, but mainly just you and Steve.

ONE NIGHT. JUST ONE NIGHT | EXPLICIT | 3821 | STEVE MCGARRETT X READER | SMUT - ALCOHOL - NO PLOT-ISH - Steve gets picked up by you.

POSITIVE - SERIES | TEEN | WIP | STEVE MCGARRETT X READER ANGST - PREGNANCY - WORRY - MORNING SICKNESS - You find out you’re pregnant with Steve’s baby

SAY SOMETHING | GENERAL | 440 | STEVE MCGARRETT X DANNY WILLIAMS | SOME VIOLENCE - GUNS - FLUFF - ENGAGEMENT - Steve’s plans, don’t go exactly to plan

WHAT DOESN’T KILL YOU, MAKES YOU STRONGER - SERIES | EXPLICIT | WIP | DANNY WILLIAMS X ORIGINAL CHARACTER | ANGST - VIOLENCE - GUNS - TORTURE - KNIVES - HOSTAGES - THIS IS DODGY SHIT GUYS - Danny meets a woman that will change his life, in more ways than one.

WE’RE YOUR OHANA, THIS IS WHERE YOU BELONG! | EXPLICIT | 2825 STEVE MCGARRETT X DANNY WILLIAMS | SMUT - SOME ANGST - Danny wants to leave Five-0, Steve wants to know why

WHEN IT RAINS, IT POURS | EXPLICIT | 2825 | STEVE MCGARRETT X READER | MAJOR ANGST - MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH - IT’S SHIT - It’s the hardest day of their lives

- JURASSIC WORLD

THERE’S A TIME AND A PLACE TO BE TALL | GENERAL | 1884 | OWEN GRADY X CLAIRE DEARING | CUTE - FLUFF - KIDS FIGHTING - Three times Claire was taller than Owen, one time she wasn’t

- MAN OF STEEL

HELPING HIM FOCUS | EXPLICIT | 1878 | CLARK KENT X LOIS LANE ANGST - PTSD - SEXUALLY EXPLICIT SCENES - KISSING - Lois wakes to find Clark lost in through, she brings him back to the world in the dead of night.

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Why Her? (Part 12)

Prompt: You’re in love with Chris Evans...but your best friend is dating him

Warning: language, adult content-ish? Jealousy, drama-rama

Word count: 786

Note: This is for one of my bestest friends. I hope she enjoys it! @amarvelouswritings This will feature Sebastian Stan and OFC Lexi. This is a drabble/short chapter series. Beta’d by the perfect @like-a-bag-of-potatoes

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You texted Chris Saturday morning to meet for brunch. He declined at first, which hurt, but it was highly expected. You were persistent though, determined to set things right. So when you said it was imperative, he finally agreed to meet you. At least it was a step in the right direction.

You met a small breakfast place and as soon as he saw you, your heart sank. He didn’t greet you with a hug or smile or anything. His face was like it was chiseled from cold stone.

“Hi,” you softly said, hoping friendliness would warm him up.

“Hey. You said you had something important to tell me?”

Not even a degree did he warm up.

“Yes. I wanted to say I’m sorry about this whole Lexi-Sebastian-you ordeal,” you started. “I lied to all of you. I was being selfish and it was mean.”

His eyes had been fixed on the ground, until their pain-stricken gaze lifted to yours. “Why did you do it?” he demanded in a quiet, firm voice, taking you off guard. You’d never heard him speak that way to anyone. It wasn’t a soft inquisition.

“Because,” you began, sighing, “because I’ve always lived in Lexi’s shadow. She always got the best dates, the best cars, the best jobs, best...everything. When I’m standing next to her, I don’t compare. So...when she had you, I was so jealous, but I didn’t say anything. I didn’t want to come between you two. I wanted to tell you about my feelings but...I didn’t.”

“Why not?” he asked.

“Because...I...I guess I was afraid.”

“Afraid of...what? Of ending Lex’s relationship and mine?”

“Well that...and...I was afraid of rejection. I mean. Look at you and look at me. Why the fuck would someone like you want someone like me?” you asked, not even in a rhetorical sense. You knew all along why you had never told Chris your feelings. If he was single, maybe. The spark was sure enough there. But you had Lex to compete with...So how were you supposed to walk up to Mr. Perfect and tell him that Mrs. Perfect was all wrong for him and to take someone like you?

He seemed to open his mouth to say something but didn’t.

“So...anyway, when I thought she was cheating on you with Sebastian, it just made me so angry and I got so mad at her, it made me behave in ways I never have. I’m pleading insanity here. Maybe it was the months of watching you with someone else. I couldn’t even dislike her either, I mean, she was my best friend, how could I be upset with her happiness?”

“So you spread a lie about her because…?”

You sighed, realizing you needed to get to the point.

“Because I want you. I am so in love with you, Chris. I know it’s only been a few months but every time I’m with you I feel something, and I think you feel something too. So when I thought she was cheating I was trying to do you a favor and make sure you didn’t get hurt. I thought that if I painted her in an awful light, Sebastian would stay away from her and she would stay with you, and stay faithful, and you wouldn’t ever find out and things would go back to how they were...even if it hurt me, at least you would be happy.”

“Wow…” he said in a low voice. “That’s...wow. You filled my best friend’s head with lies about my other best friend, all to be with me. I know you were trying to spare me, but you’ve gotta admit, what you did was pretty fucked up. You wedged them apart so that somehow we could be together...” He looked at you with a disgruntled look, frowning, his plump lips set deep in disappointment. His eyes seemed to burn through yours with accusations and disbelief and anger.

“I know,” you said quickly, trying to ignore the heartbreak that was twisting around in you. “I’m not asking forgiveness. I just want you to know what...just how I felt. I just needed you to get the full story and my reasons for doing what I did. I know there’s no excuse...Just...thank you for hearing me out.”

After a moment, he seemed to be lost in his own world as he sat there, his eyes no longer on you.

Finally he frowned at the table, still preoccupied with thought, and said, “No...Yeah. Thanks for telling me.”

You stood up and left, praying that at least some small portion of the damage you had caused was repaired.

#why her #chris evans #chris evans fic #chris evans x reader #chris evans x ofc #sebastian stan #sebastian stan fic #sebastian stan x ofc.

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