#ill try and post something this week

[egoarc4de]

if it stops i'm having an unshakable nightmare

#my art #tf2 #team fortress 2 #tf2 scout #tf2 engineer #tf2 sniper #tw blood #tw gore #tw gun #it's tf2 you get the picture! #HELLOOOOO #been working on these all week #based on something i started writing in the early summer but that will neverrrr be finished i dont think. ugh. #posted this to the wrong account too LOL #havent drawn in forever but it feels awesome #my favourite part of all of these is probably that little three decker in the left corner of the second one #this is what happens to you when youre coping w uni and listening to underscores parquet courts and CCR nonstop #link is the playlist of songs i listened to nonstop while drawing these hoohooheehee #peep the backgrounds too!! #trying to be less stiff with digital art is so hard but ill keep working on it o7 #also never drawn tf2 before give me time my friends! #is it obvious i didnt even bother to look at what a baseball bat looked like in the first one orz

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im so Normal. totally not shaking and crying rn

#its nice to be this excited about something again! to the point of nausea! #and i Mean That #this is the good kinda stress. tis a welcome break from the usual brands #all week i've been having moments of 'ohhhh god New Information Incoming' and i have to sit down every time #and measure my breathing to chill tf out #is this unhealthy! maybe! i am trying to keep it Contained!! tightly leashed if you will #BUT OH FUCK ITS ALMOST HERE AGH AGH AGH #absolutely unprompted #welcome home #i will probably be unable to discover secrets bc i am bad with computers and the like #but hey! ill try! #if there's like... a spoiler tag yall want from me ill make sure to tag any Update Posts with it #then again wh is a unique scenario of like... Are there spoilers #bc it feels like a 'a couple people uncover stuff and then show/tell the rest' thing #but what would i know! this is kinda the first update! #LETS GO GAMERS I HOPE THE NEW STUFF IS TRAUMATIZING FOR BOTH US AND THE CHARACTERS #alright im getting to excited again im gonna go lay down #gonna be refreshing pages every ten seconds even when its completely illogical and meaningless to do so

[quinn-pop]

mtdd week day 1 - sworn partners

can you tell i like drawing fluff

#mtddweek2023 #hi yeah it’s metadede week!! it’s like a whole week of cringe day wednesday!! #which is why i decided i want to have fun with this and indulge a little #not like i dont already but lol #so there’s a lot of fluff a lot of comfort and a handful of kisses #my ship posts are usually accompanied by self deprecating comments but im gonna try to keep it to a minimum #i go into a lot of projects with some level of ambiguity in mind and while i love keeping things more open to interpretation #i also love romance so im taking this as an opportunity to lean into that more #special occasion ya know #and maybe ill do it more in future we’ll see #either way i drew a lot for this week and i had a lot of fun with it #so thank you for being here i hope you find something you like #kirbyposting #my art or something #meta knight #king dedede #metadede #kirby #bandee #metadededads #also i guess wedding rings are usually worn on the left hand but i am terrible at left and right so bear with me #i just reaaaaally like drawing my blorbos being happy and loved

[bearyyayay]

SAM TRAPANI ACRYLIC STAND 🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️‼️‼️

I made this with laminate paper actually, since I don't have the stuffs to actually made an acrylic for this. But ey it worked :D ( Basically a showcase ) ↓

I AM THE SAM TRAPANI FAN Y'ALL CANT DO NOTHING BOUT IT 🗣️🗣️🗣️

#mafia definitive edition #sam trapani #mafia #Remember that i said that i wanted to so something? #Well this is it and im fucking proud of it #Perhaps if i got more motivation ill do one for Tommy and Paulie :D #But for now y'all can have Sam #Took me about a week since ive been busy #also lets forget about the post i said i wanted to draw #and actually i dont want to draw at all #but i will try completing your guys drawing request no worries #Acrylic stand #homemade #mafia 1 #mafiade #mafia the city of lost heaven #When the fandom youre in doesn't have any merch for a certain character so you made one yourself

[elquacktism]

Happy pride :]

#tntduo pride week 2022 #tntduo #dream smp #dream smp fanart #quackity #wilbur soot #quackity fanart #wilbur soot fanart #tntblr #rhey kissed afterwards:] #anyway this was really fun!!! #I CAN STILL POST THIS IM NOT LATE IM NOT #as you can see they have been reduced to silly little guys #ill miss this and waking up in the morning with sketchbook in hand trying to sketch up something #i have like a sketch and a drawing that was supposed to get uploaded but didn't #but you'll have to wait tomorrow #digital artism

[icewindandboringhorror]

a quite simple outfit, trying to use the little blue and white apron thing (which is actually a dress I think, that I just leave un-buttoned in the back and added an apron-like tie to lol)

#self #mori kei #jfashion #NOT really but like.. it's.. adjacent I guess.. forgive me .. I may try using tags again though I kind of got out of the habit ghhj #I need to be... Seen to some degree. I want to start selling clothes and sculptures again to recoup the costs of having to euthanize my cat #and stuff . but that won't be very successful if I have like.. 15 people to sell to lol... #the eternal Hermit Conflict where you hate attention and Being Percieved in general yet in todays capitalist society it is nearly #a necessity to have some form of social network or media presence especially in creative fields. etc. etc. ... kicking screaming wailing #sobbing so on and so forth.. tearfully punching the cold mossy stone walls of my evil wizard tower... #I was also thinking of maybe opening a few sculpture commission slots and maybe Tumblr Blazing that post or something #but.. again.... sobbing crying interacting with the general public oughhf ouuch -500 HP #why can't I just be approached by some wealthy 65 year old woman who is nonsensically infatuated with my art for no #reason and gives me like $10.000 a week for food and art supplies and etc. and I can go fuck off into a cabin in the middle of nowhere #in the uk and just be left alone to work on my projects without even needing to build any form of connections or social presence because I' #already set for life and can just get funding and connections whenever lol.. WHICH not to be ungrateful like obviously I still appreciate #anyone who follows and interacts with my posts. I dont mean it in a 'grrr fuck all of you imbeciles I wish I could delete my blog!!!' or #whatever hhjkjk.. I just mean it more in a like.. I am very socially inept and my mental illness gives me severe social issues so any situ #tion where I'm expected to self promote or network or interact with others generally is nightmarish and stressful for many many reasons #and if I could somehow skip that part and just go straight to being a famous author or somethin.. that would be cool. Which I know EVERYONE #hates networking and stuff but I mean like.. on a level most people could not possibly comprehend.. I am not just an 'introvert'. I am like #doctors declare me incapable of functioning in general society very poor mental health prognosis probably should have a caretaker at #some point type Hermit lol.. ANYWAY ghbhj... alas.. I also feel weird about the sculptures in terms of what to charge for them #and always have which is part of why I stopped selling them. If I charged a fair even like $15 an hour many of them would be like #close to $150+. and nobody is going to pay that for a decoration. that doesn't even factor in like.. supplies or time spent communicating/s #etching the concept (if a commission) etc. etc. I thought it'd be better to just auction them then and let people pay what they want inst #d of a set price but etsy doesnt allow auctions and is it weird to just.. link people to an Art Ebay or something lol.. #AAAANYWAY.. the outfit.. I still love these shoes. they're nice and a little Older Style looking. always into pastel florals too lol #(everything is thrifted as usual. excited about the shirt because it's so puffy! it was in the halloween section though ghjhj.. like when i #s october and they make the special aisle in goodwill for 'Costume' clothes even though theyre all just normal stuff I would wear ghg)

[lesbiangiratina]

Transgender people in my mail

#the se anniversary merch stuff was kind of lame LOL but this is a cute standee they made this for me. #im glad i ordered it when i did it is sold out now. i kind of forgot about it until like 2 weeks ago #UHUH YEAH AND THE TESTAMENT ANTHOLOGY i will be cracking it open now. #whats the. the ethics of posting doujinshi images. it is 15 years old. #idk if something is simply too cute ill post it w reblogs off i guess. maybe try to see if the artist is still online somewhere #i know the cover artist is uhhhhh #user 1491544 on pixiv. む #@muuuuuuuunnnnn on twitter. theyre still a testament enjoyer they posted some art around their strive reveal isnt that awesome go look. #the kat goes meow

[beauceronn]

I see a lot of people who remind me of me when I was a kid, who get their hearts set on a breed that obviously don't suit their needs. Learning more about the breeds I love has really shown me what my limits are. I could not offer a CAO a fulfilling life, I could not offer an Anatolian a fulfilling life, a Tibetan Mastiff, etc.... I cannot presently offer a Dogo a fulfilling life, nor any other working hound.

It's not a matter of "I will never be able to" but a matter of "I am unable to now and in the foreseeable future." I do not have property, I do not have stock to guard, I do not hunt. Reconciling that has been hard. Maybe one day I will be able to give a Dogo or a CAO a fulfilling life, but today is not that day, nor is tomorrow or the next day.

On the other hand, I had given up on Beaucerons a few years ago as a pipe dream, because I had been told time and time again that they were Too Much dog... like a 100-lb WL Malinois. And then I met them and realised oh, no, this IS the perfect breed for me. This is a breed that checks almost all of my boxes (except some aesthetic ones which aren't as important to me). This is a breed I can offer a fulfilling life to.

(Someone told me they were a "step up" from a Lab... I would agree. Maybe not a "step up" but certainly a little to the left... probably because of the difference between sporting and herding breeds.)

I don't know. The list of breeds I want in the future is insanely long, but I do my best to have no illusions about these breeds and about myself. I love herding and I love conformation. I don't enjoy hunting, and I probably never will. I like ringsport and rally/obedience. I don't like agility, and I probably never will.

Thinking a lot of thoughts this morning I see.

#motivated by those two posts in the fb group this week. #its like... tell me you dont know caucasian shepherds without telling me you dont know caucasian shepherds. '' beaucerons. #its fine to not know a breed but to keep trying to jam that breed into the mould of what you want when it clearly doesnt fit... #thats something i tried to do a lot as a kid #caucasian shepherds/gamprs/tibetan mastiffs were some of my favourite breeds #and ill probably never own ANY of them. and thats fine. i can enjoy them through my friends' dogs #and thats as close as ill get

[crimswnred]

writer brain is ON

#i know i NEED to post new chapters for a few fics I still have up #don't worry ill be posting them #i was waiting for the new season to drop so everyone would be here again #and then i started at a new job so #anyways #i wanted to write something for s8 #like this episodes left me like this #👀👀👀 #let me write!!! #ill try and find some time on the weeked

[igneous-crocnroll]

Reupload since the tag decided to be a Jerk!! >:(

Masaru's turn on the wheel, he's a Hampster!! A wild hampster!

(Also, the friend who introduced me to live a live needs a bit of help and has thus opened commissions! If you can, please check out docrosalia on kofi! -> https://ko-fi.com/docrosalia)

#LIVE A LIVE #live a live #masaru takahara #Masaru live a live #Great aja #Jackie iaukea #Senshi moribe #Namkiat #Max morgan #Sfw furry #Anthro #Weirdfur #bara furry #Clean furry #IM SORRY FOR NO TULA HAN i forgot to clean his drawkng up and this is the third week this post was in drafts #Sumo furry #Also sorry about the weird tags im just. Trying to reach a wider audience cuz of my friend #I think ill upload sketches ive made so at least theres something More. I dont want to overwork myself #Anthro hamster #anthro character #Furry #furry character #furrydrawing #artists on tumblr #Digital artist #commisions open

[nezzling]

Lol I need some of y'all to realise that the more you bug me about making sexual content when I'm openly posting about really bad health issues, the less likely I am to fuckin bother talking to you again when I am healthy, cause why do you deserve extra Me if you can't respect me at all health levels

#im so serious like ive been posting about being ill for weeks and about it worsening #and then its like “yeah i dont check that unless you post pics” like ok thennnnnn you dont get that extra lol #like how hard is it to check what im up to before you ask something of me and then if you see im ill then try again another day omfg #like yeah booooo me for not wanting to make content when it feels like someone is stabbing my neck and kidneys with knives #this is what you fuckin sign up for when you deal with chronically ill hot bitches #you gotta deal with the bad days and if you dont handle them with kindness and respect you dont get shit ever again <3 #lil rambles

[animalinvestigator]

dark spore kids

#my art #noriko kawada #ken ichijouji #punimon #Im not gonna tag the other dark spore kids and their digimon because the seocnd one isj ust goofy. #ive had these sitting around for a while. i haev more other digimon 02 drawings ill post later i didnt want to put them in the same one with #this becuase the poses came out really similar without me thinkingabout it LOL. #ive just bee ndrawing a bunch of shit like this trying to get through a rough couple weeks. hopefully i can draw more soon!! #a little embarrassing to have only digimon art to show for myself right now but im having fun and making the things i want to see and i gues #thats whats important to me so. o7. bear with me until my heart eventually settles into a calm about it and i can draw other things again #i may have talked about it before but the dark spore really is a very compelling story element to me. so naturally i really wished that the #kids who got it implanted got to be characters more than they did. one of my favorite lines in the entire show come sfrom noriko . soim very #sad that theres not much art of her. thats why i drew her #i also just thought the idea of ken running a dbt skills group therapy session was really funny. hes canonically a psych student as of #02 the beginning im told. tough crowd to be testing your knowledge on.... #anyway enjoy!! im outta here until i draw something else i guess

[syrupyyyart]

Slowly more and more glad I waited so long to start working on Motley, because it is much much much easier to draw these characters consistently now that I've been doing it for so long lol. Simple artstyle + silly designs = I can bust out 10 panels in, like, 10 minutes, easy peasy.

I was worried about making long chapters time-wise but maybe it'll actually be fine lol

#procastination is bad but at least i can draw better now so idk #not art #i said weekly art posts but maybe no art this week #i have something TO post but its kinda ugly and i dont want to post it 😌 maybe ill try to make an oc post instead #really the longest part is gonna be background art. but even then its not like theres a big complicated background in every shot lol #also its quickly changed from 'episodic mixed with serialized story' to just 'fully serialized' lol. ooooooough i hope people like it #but honestly at this point you couldnt stop me from working on it even if no one reads it lol. this project is for ME!!!!!! #you can pry my characters from my cold dead hands

[frecklystars]

Holy shit. Thank you guys for all of the asks. I got exactly 50!

I meant to respond to them when I got home from work last night, but I didn’t have enough energy by the time I was done reading these. I’m still incredibly exhausted today, it’s like all of the energy is completely sapped out of me since I was in the emergency room the other day.

The heavy ache in my chest definitely lessened while I was focused on reading what you guys wrote last night. The reminders that my TF F/Os still love me is something I really need to hear, something I probably have to tell myself multiple times... I spent so long being conditioned to believe otherwise.  

A few of you also reminded me that Starscream had gone through heavy abuse, and he wouldn’t support someone who treated me the way Megatron treats him. It helped me feel better... I think that’s what got through to me the most. I’ve seen so many commissions/fics my ex-friend showed me where she was being manipulative, and that she would be loved for it. Seeing all of that visual representation of her being so tenderly loved by these characters while she was hurting me at the same time, for so many months, it really did some damage and made me internalize the belief that all transformers characters would want to hurt me the same way and love her for it. Especially when the characters she commissioned and talked about the most often were forming into PTSD triggers. For almost a year now, I have just assumed that all of those characters she wrote and commissioned, including Starscream, would encourage her to hurt me and that they would love to see me getting hurt. I don’t choose to feel this way, it’s just... trauma. 

But a few of you wrote about how... canonically, Starscream was so fucking pissed when he was abused, especially in RiD2015!! He was so broken up and angry just like I am!! His entire 3 episodes focused on him repeating how unfairly he was treated, how much he wanted to hurt Megatron for all the times he was put through emotional/physical pain, how years had passed since he escaped being tied to his abuser and yet he was so, so angry and still worried that he wasn’t strong enough bc that is what he was conditioned to believe for millions of years. I want to think that same bot would look at me and see himself in me, and hold my hand through this and tell me it’s gonna be okay and it’s gonna get better and he’d never want to treat me the way my abuser treated me. How could he bear it if his little starflower looked at him the way that he looks at Megatron? I don’t want to think he would support my abuser’s actions, no matter how many fics or commissions she has stating otherwise. When I escaped a toxic situation with someone else 3 years ago, I turned to Starscream for this exact same reason, I looked to him for support. He helped me get through it. Now, I need him again after facing treatment that was absolutely horrific, except I’ve been conditioned to believe he would hurt me too; I just feel so sad when I look at him and I wish I could feel loved by him again. It’s been really, really, really hard. Hearing other people tell me that he loves me and would never want to hurt me really helps, I need to be reminded of that, because I absolutely can’t believe it when I try to tell myself.

I’m sorry I’m not able to respond to your asks at the moment, I’m extremely exhausted from. everything. Today has been difficult as well so I will be offline for the rest of the night. I don’t know if I’ll be online tomorrow. 

I’m not 100% sure when the commissions will open up, I was really hoping it would happen this week but I didn’t expect to have that panic attack Tuesday, it really drained me. I am hoping that I’ll have comms open by next week, it all depends on how I’m feeling. I might spend more time offline to limit seeing any potential triggers bc I’ve been very fragile since I went to the emergency room, things that normally wouldn’t make me spiral before are probably things that I will have more trouble handling right now, at least until I can calm down again. Normally it takes me about 3 to 5 days to calm down from a severe panic attack like that. But I gotta spend another $400 on new glasses tomorrow morning so... I really do need to open comms soon :’) They will absolutely be open within the next 2 weeks, I just don’t know exactly when. Anyway, thank you guys again for the nice messages, I really needed them and you helped me feel less alone last night ❤

#woof #and all of the asks were nice!!! thank you!!! #im sorry i gotta turn anon back off :( #i didnt get any bad messages or anything but im just cautious #dw i wont keep anons off forever. some of u were asking me to keep it on #i just dont want to read something negative or see any reminders of my abuser #bc then when im at my concert i will be more prone to having flashbacks instead of enjoying charlie puth bangin out the tunes #but ill turn them back on uhhh when im feeling a little better i guess #i just got some ppl trying to talk to me abt my abuser last week like 'ooh shes posting abt u!' #'shes spreading rumors about u. thought u should know' well i DONT want to know! thank u! #anyone who brings her up telling me what she's 'posting about me' is automatically blocked at this point #if she wants to spread rumors that is her problem. and i dont wanna know about it #bc shes dead to me and im keeping it that way ❤ #anyway. to all the ppl who wrote 50 nice messages!!! thank u! i needed them #i will reread them the next couple of days while im feeling rly sad and missing my starlight #god i cant wait to get the hyperfixation back. i cant wait to feel safe w/ them again. #one fucking day

[queenlucythevaliant]

Six things I wish you knew about chronic migraine

(By a person who’s lived with the condition for the last eight + years)

While it’s true that migraine is more common than you think (something like one in five women, one in twenty men), it’s also true that there are lots of different kinds of migraine. Optical migraine (“aura”), vestibular migraine (vertigo), and abdominal migraine (lots of nausea and vomiting) can and do frequently coexist, but only a fraction of the people who get “migraine” experience all three all the time. Complex migraine has symptoms similar to both a seizure and a stroke, frequently in addition to some/all of the aforementioned. A person with chronic complex migraine (like me) and a more normal person who gets an acute migraine every month or so (like my mom) might as well have two entirely different conditions.

Corollary to the above: migraine advocacy needs to cover both breadth and depth of sufferers. Naturally, resources and up-to-date research ought to be available to anyone who experiences migraine symptoms, but there also needs to be acknowledgment that even some people for whom the condition is technically “chronic” (eight days a month) might have it relatively easy in the scheme of things. I often tell people that I have a seizure condition (closely related to migraine) in order to be taken seriously in lieu of a thirty minute lecture. 

Migraine is under-researched and poorly understood. I have one of the most expert migraine neurologists in the US and yet frequently, when I ask him questions that seem like they should have simple answers, his response is “good question.” Lots of meds/treatments are new and experimental and thus not covered by insurance. There is a LOT of migraine-related misinformation in the milieu. I cannot overstate this. Immense truckloads of misinformation. It’s incredible. Take anything a non-neurologist tells you about migraine critically.

You would be astonished by how many needles and hospital visits severe chronic migraine entails. There are periods where I’ve had to get painful injections 3x daily and had hospital visits every other week. IV steroid infusions are also a pretty common occurrence and they suuuuuuck.

Most people who get migraine take either OTC drugs or Imitrex/Sumatriptan pills, and if a person gets any kind of nausea/vomiting with migraine, this is pretty much insane. The body can process migraine like a physical trauma and as a result the stomach stops working (gastric stasis). As a result, if you take a pill after an episode has already begun, it won’t actually get digested until the migraine is basically over already. Injectables are much better if you can get them and it’s absolutely crazy to me that most doctors don’t prescribe them across the board. Doctors have known about the gastric stasis thing for decades now and it really ought to be common knowledge.

 Not specific to migraine, but the longer you suffer with chronic pain the more sensitive your body becomes (barring improvements in treatment). This is kind of counterintuitive- you’d expect to get used to the pain over long exposure, but actually your nerves get hyper-attuned to it. This goes double if you have any kind of allodynia. If you have long-term chronic pain—you’re not going crazy if you think something/everything hurts more now than it used to.

#this barely scratches the surface but i was trying to write something digestable #i've had a particularly bad migraine week (actually the last two weeks have sucked - makes me wonder about my last nerve block) #and every now and then i see migraine misinformation/overgeneralizations floating around this site and it makes me want to post long angry #ill-advised replies #i saw one this evening and wrote this instead #the last thing i want is to be one of those people who makes their illness their entire personality #but this is a big part of my life so #hopefully this is edifying educational and appropriate #chronic illness is hilarious #pontifications and creations

[milkweedman]

I want to apologise in case you already tried it. But I've seen many people with ehler danlos say that shapewear helps. Do you think it's something you could use?

Ive tried pretty much every otc method of keeping my joints in place including shapewear, with the execption of like 1 or 2 that has slightly too many steps for me to muscle thru the executive dysfunction and do (ring splints -_-). I dont actually know if there is a way to keep my joints from subluxating or dislocating with almost every movement but if there is its gonna have to be like. Complete imobilization except in the direction that said joints are actually supposed to move.

#compression (which is part of what shapewear does right ?) helps a ton for my wrists specifically but not for anything else #i remember reading something written by a wheelchair user with eds as a teenager right before it all went to shit for me #they were talking about how technically they could get up and walk its just that their hips literally dislocated with every step #which was agonizing and painful #and i remember thinking holy shit that person lost the universal lottery to an insane degree #:/ #indeed. #indeed they did. #eds #chronically ill #sorry ive not posted on here lately #i havent rly done any crafting lately bc 1) too insane to find any comfort in it n 2) i think ive actually found migraine meds that work ? #trying not to get my hopes up because if i go back to 25 migraines a month i will die from despair but i havent had a single one in WEEKS #and thus have been playing minecraft nonstop #sorry guys. havent dumped you for minecraft i just really missed being able to play it without my brain eating itself alive #cherrynika