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imaginecorporation · 4 months

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can I request heathcliff comforting a reader about dead wife syndrome. And then they are sad together. But then happy because… perhaps they kiss…. Ooooooh… -💕

And in Mending It...

It hadn't started as romance, what you and Heathcliff had. You were simply his friend to lean on when the weight of his past got to be too much, and him for you. The two of you were very similar, both having lost partners in one way or another, so you understood very well what that grief was like

One day it just... evolved. Comforting hands on shoulders lingered a little longer, sometimes drifting a little lower. You'd cuddle up close after crying and venting your tears, not caring what the other Sinners heard or thought, and you'd fall asleep with your cheek nestled to his chest, his head resting on yours.

Your coworkers realize your feelings before either of you do. They notice how happy the two of you are in each others company, Heathcliff rarely hitting anybody with rude quips that truly have any bite, and your bright smile is finally lighting up the bus.

Rodion takes to teasing you, but you swear on your LIFE that he's just a close friend. Someone you trust, someone you rely on. And don't all friends stare into each others' eyes for a little too long, slight blushes on their cheeks?

And then, one day, it just... hits you.

"Oi." Heathcliff's voice pipes up from next to you, and you're only vaguely aware of the scarred hand that's gently waving in front of your face to get your attention. You startle and turn from the window, cheeks dusted in pink, and look up at him.

"H-Huh?"

"You're starin' out the window like your brain's off in space, what's goin' through that pretty little head of yours, love?"

Love. That sends a jolt down your spine, and the blush on your cheeks deepens. You'd never thought much of it until Sinclair pointed it out last week. Heathcliff doesn't call anyone but you 'love'. In fact, he still usually refers to the other Sinners with insults or slightly rude quips. But you? No. Not for a long, long time.

"N-Nothing! I was just... thinking... About something I'd heard from the others." You murmur quietly, your eyes shifting. You can't seem to make eye contact with him right now.

"Eh? Do tell. What's every other weirdo saying that's got your knickers in a twist?"

You pause.

How do you broach this?

It's not as simple as blurting out 'I think I love you', now is it? No. That'd be reckless. And more than a little dumb.

So instead you elect for the ever so helpful...

"Uh..."

"C'mon, love. I know somethin's bothering ya... Tell me like you usually do, yeah?" God, that soft smile he gives you when he speaks almost melts you on the spot. Why does he have to be so damn charming?

"I..." You pause. You frown. You shake your head and make the decision to just blurt out your thoughts.

"I think I love you, Heathcliff."

That makes him pause. His own eyes widening. Those beautiful, striking violet eyes that you've come to love looking into so much. He seems shocked. He doesn't speak for a moment, his mouth opening and closing as if he has something to say. And finally, he does say it. A softly croaked out,

"You too, huh?"

You blink. Once, twice, three times, a fourth...

What did he just say? Did he...

"I love you too, _____. It's... fuckin' funny, really... Big guy saw me lookin' at you one day and just said... 'You like them, don't you?', you know, in that super plain know-it-all voice. And I almost beat him down when I realized... man's got a point. He has a bloody good point. I ain't ever been as happy as I am when I'm with you." Heathcliff's voice is soft, almost sweet. Another thing that only you get to hear from him. And that just adds to the tenderness of this moment.

You tear up and nod. He really took the words right out of your mouth. Being around him feels safe. It feels like you're home. You can't even stop yourself when you're gently leaning towards him, resting one of your hands on his shoulder.

And he doesn't stop himself when his gaze softens even further, and he leans down to meet you.

Neither of you stop yourselves as you share one of the most tender kisses, lips softly slanted against each other as you take in the warmth and comfort of each others' love.

#~Mod Aleph #i hope this helps girliepop ily </3 #Limbus Company #Heathcliff #comfort #x reader #imagines

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boxwinebaddie · 1 month

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STAN HAS THAT K CHOKER RIGHT? DOES THAT MEAN KYLE HAS AN S NECKLACE? like he could totally stack his s necklace with his star of david one

aaaaaaaaa

you know i love a lil matchy-matchy moment~

and actually, i accumulated a lot of different asks actually, mostly, interestingly enough asking me about the same roundabout thing: if jersey wears rings, how he feels about jewelry, if he has any tattoos or other piercings, stuff of the like, etc.

but i never got around to answering those because i'm kind of a perfectionist and i get all worked up in my head about how i'm going to answer things because i want them to be perfect ( i keep trying to structure nsfw ask like it's a nine page research essay, smh ) buuut

basically, as we all know well, jersey is…Particular.

particularly abt himself and what is done to him/on him.

( okay, fair warning: the rest of this answer is very long and i just talk a lot about the former question about jersey/his attachments to material things and also physical-emotional things — people — you do not have to read all that...the short answer is yes, kyle does stack a stan 's' necklace with the star of david, i talk about it more at the end, but this intro part is a lot of exposition and information. so if your curiosity does not end there...perhaps i can further it below xx )

a lot of it ties into his ocd and this need to control every aspect of his life, not being able to put it in anyone elses hands but his own because he's scared of that improbability...that margin of error.

it keeps him up at night.

for that reason, even though he has a ton of health issues, diabetes, etc. he is extremely Defiant and Volatile in doctors offices. like, he will start throwing shit, rip ivs out of his arms, ask you to explain what you are giving him In Detail and will probably still refuse to take it.

tbh, the only reason he's taking any medication at all is because he really loves sheila and she is extremely worried about losing him </3

( jersey is a mommas boy, i said what i said! )

but he takes his own blood sugar, pricks his own fingers, runs all his own tests...he really does not trust anyone else w/ that kind of thing. which ties into piercings because he does...think that they're…lowkey, highkey *jersey vc* Hawt, i’m sorry; it's true.

i do think it's his...Thing.

the man really just wants a little hot topic emo boy accessory display for a boyfriend and he is right for that. cute, shiny, edgy. i respect it.

eye candy, arm candy, if you will?

( jersey is extremely partial to candy, ofc <3 )

and idk, maybe it's just a me thing, but to me, jerseykyle, specifically, is very conceptual and is intrigued by fashion and stuff, but because when he was overweight growing up, he was sort of just shoe-horned into all this oblong, ugly clothing, whatever would fit or they could afford. so he never really got to be able to wear things he wanted to, until about right now and it's been really liberating for him? idk? aaa

i love sleek, chic, dark academia, tired 1940s evil classics professor, thrift store couture jersey in his dollar store blazers and italian loafers. like my man is an off duty model, forreal. i am obsessed with him.

and actually he really Likes tattoos and piercings and dyed hair and thinks all the little rings are cool because you're like this living art form, this distinct individual, there's a uniqueness, a cool rebellion there he can’t create have within himself, so he combats/masks it as disgust and disinterest because he doesn't like to process his complicated feelings and also doesn't like forming attachments...especially...

...to things he's inexplicably Drawn to.

which is why, initially, upon even just bearing witness to raven of crimson dawn, kyle freaked out because he was like immediately Extremely Attracted to him because he checks all these little boxes in his brain, but his brain, of course, is corroded by mental illness and trauma, so he immediately projects extreme amounts of hostility in raven's direction because he is like you're all chaos and disorder, you're a mess, you throw caution to the wind, You’re Unpredictable.

when he’s actually obsessed w/ that capricious energy?

like he makes fun of stan for all his punk rock boy 'hood ornaments' and 'anarchical embellishments', but his heart starts racing every time stan winks at him and his little eyebrow piecing winks back, or he runs his tongue over that lip ring kyle got hyperfixated on, partially because it's pretty, which...rip, not even joking…

if stan comes out in the support rock, fuck a rockstar tank top, the tiny pants and sports that little lip ring chain thing that connects to the cuff on his ear...it does something seriously ( down ) bad to kyle's brain and stan is immediately getting Railed. soz if you were waiting for stan's autograph, hes gettin ky's all over his body. woops.

but!!! it's mostly bc stan had the courage and hedonism to put something through his lip and live with it. that he could get other piercings, get tattoos, let people handle him, put his life into someone else's hands, let them have control for a second, knowing they are executing the thing you want/need without you doing it...

it's literally All a control thing.

or rather, an inability to lose it.

because he's very particular, yeah, about what he likes and doesn't like, he won't wear any fabrics that itch or bother him, he won't buy something if the hem pisses him off, if he has to wear something he doesn't like, he will bitch and moan the entire day about it. and while it's good to have that level of self-assuredness, it's also kind of a self-preservation and self destructive coping mechanism for jerseykyle.

because he pushes everything out...

but doesn't let anything else in.

and a lot of that changes when raven/stan comes back into the picture, because when they were growing up, stan was this beautiful, glowing fixture of nonconformity, this pillar of strength that was twice as strong as he was, even though kyle was the fighter. because stan fought for self-acceptance and kyle fought for self-loathing.

and really...the reason why his ed developed in the first place was because gerald and society as a whole brainwashed him into hating himself and that people would only digest him if he was in small enough, beautiful, palatable enough pieces to eat so even though he acts out or throws punches: It’s All Within The Lines.

or the confines, rather.

of the person he thinks people want him to be.

but, idk, i'm talking too much. basically, gist is, kyle has a hard time handing over control to other people/being vulnerable and the final piece to that is...permanence.

a piercing...a tattoo...is Permanent.

i mean, sure, they close up and you can get them removed, but you are irreconcilably changed and altered. you are different now.

anddddd sigh, the jersey can't say i love you ask strikes again! because jersey can't say i love you because it's handing over control, because it's vulnerable because it's...permanent and he has extremely deep-seated commitment issues because of all of that.

which means he rarely, if ever, makes said commitments.

so when he Does...

it's a very special thing indeed.

because jersey has no tattoos or piercings on his body.

save for the sun/moon one he got on his ring finger for stan ( i can never decide if i want jersey to have the sun tattoo because he is the sun or if he has the moon one so he can wear rae around with him )

*** ( i also think it's possible he might get little hebrew things for his mom or idk, something very important later...i'll think about it more )

and...One ear piercing.

i was going to go at this in more comical and dramatic way in an old post, but basically, i think kenny/bebe/craig someone basically joked about there being reduced earring piercings at claire's and they should take kyle because he's the only one without pierced ears and jersey gets really defensive about it and everyone's like ooooh! kyle's scared to get his ears pierced, so the competitive and aggressive side of him that hates to lose briefly outweighs the neurotic side and is like "fuck you!!! let's go right now! i'm not scared of anything!"

and he gets there, stan's with him, and he is...freaking out in the little plastic chair with some eight year old girl next to him ecstatically getting her ears pierced for her birthday, bc he's going to have to let someone...do something to him/inflict something on him.

( which actually, i think, is what is really beautiful about j.k and r.s' relationship and dynamic, is that jersey teaches raven that you can't just let people do things you don't want them to do to you just because you feel like you should ft. his sexual trauma and stan teaches kyle that it is okay to let other people in, to do reckless things, to allow yourself to feel and enjoy simple pleasures w/o fear. ft. his ocd

lmao, is there a branch in my eye again? y is it Watering )

and ravenstan is like, mi amor, they are just your ears, you will be okay, i will hold your hand…

everything will be fine, i swear. :’) <3

and he gets hyped up, ready to go, the 16 y/o piercing his ears tells him she'll count to three and pierce on one.

...and she pierces on Three.

i'm not sure if it's bc she pressed too soon or because she thought that if she surprised him, it might make him less nervous, but it does not!!!! kyle FREAKS out!!!! his ocd goes haywire and basically has a nervous breakdown at freaking /claires/ bc she pierced his ear before she SAID she would and destroys the confidence that he built up to let himself be vulnerable.

it seems like a Silly thing...but i think it says a lot, yknow?

and though it was a serious blow to his ego, kyle only has...one ear pierced because he panicked and could not get the second one done. and it, to this day, is one of the only asymmetrical things abt him. which, i actually think is important to him coping w/ his ocd

( similar to how kyle, sorry slight nsfw, having stan have to ask for things if he wants them, helps him, in a seemingly innocuous way, build confidence in himself/not let things just 'happen' to him without his consent ) because having only one ear pierced means he has to deal with being lopsided and that, everyday the earth doesn't crash into the sun...means that he's okay.

also a cute thing about the one ear piercing is that i think kyle wears like this cute little gold sun dangly one that has a similar ambiance to the sun and moon glasses chain charms? it's his signature.

and other than showering, sleeping, etc. he only really ever takes it out when raven is going off somewhere far away :( and he switches it with a little stan silver earring ( idk kyle feels very gold jewelry bc of his orange hair and stan feels v silver bc of his blue eyes and stuff ) and stan sometimes takes kyle's with him on tour...AAAAA i'm sad

on the subject of rings, since someone else asked me, kyle does not wear rings even though he does like them/they're pretty because they're heavy, they clank against his pen when he's writing, the sound pisses him off...but he wears stan's lil silver emo boy rings when he's away and gaslit himself into liking the sound because the sound it makes against his pen reminds him of the sound it makes when stan is excitedly scribbling song lyrics and singing to him aaaaa IM :(

WHERE WAS I GOING WITH THIS AGAIN?

oh, yeah.

extreme mental illness.

so jersey never makes adjustments or accommodations for anyone, and when he does it's a big deal...but really...

it's because Stan is a big deal to him.

stan is EVERYTHING to him.

and kyle thinks it's cute that at every show and every concert, stan always wears the little spicy k charm on his emo boy choker ( and got the little even spicier inner thigh tattoo w kyle's name on it...anyways )

so, he starts wearing a little s around his neck for stan.

which, initially, i'm sure you're like...oh God.

jersey making an adjustment to his very specific cartoon character outfit alignment of things he wears every day, things he wears at home, things he wears specifically when going out depending on the environment...this sounds like a recipe for disaster. this is a big change for him. he's gonna spin out or short circuit his brain.

but...really? it feels as easy as Breathing.

because for one of the first times in his life, kyle got something that he didn't just get for him, w/ selfish intentions or bc he needs to be in control...he got it...

to make stan happy. :)

and it does make him very, Very happy, indeed.

which is really funny to me because jersey is super annoying and just starts wearing it and pretends like he doesn't know what's going on bc he's bad at ~gestures~. so stan comes home, sees it and immediately is like *big stan eyes* 'what are you wearing??'

and kyle is like, ‘oh, this? i've had it forever, it's was just in the back of the closet. why? is it wrinkled or—‘ and stan is like 'no, dummy. the NECKLACE' and kyle, playing dumb, trying to act nonchalant because he's kind of embarrassed abt having emotions is like 'oh, that. y'know. just something i'm trying out...' and stan is like

'kyle broflovski, are you wearing a necklace with my initial on it????' and kyle is like 'alright, woah there, mr. celebrity. but not eeeeverything is about you, okay? that s could stand for anything.'

and stan is like *genuine heart eyes wowza because kyle is being annoying but stan loves dumb annoying kyle that's why he wears his lil possessive emo boy k charm on his choker everywhere* 'okay, well the k on mine stands for kiss me or kiss me kyle or whatever you want just, come and kiss me please' kshdlkshd <333 eWW

anyways...they're Gay. they're in love. they having matching tattoos and earrings and wear eachother's intials around their neck. nbd.

but...in a very longwinded format, i hope this answers your question baby and hopefully some other questions you have abt jersey. i'm sorry that was a lot but i literally could talk about jersey forever, like he is so fascinating and bc he's our narrator and he's such an unreliable one, it's hard to understand how his brain works.

hope this helps. <3

uncle nina, keeper of the cryptid jersey whore-lore

#okay i am sorry #i know this barely answers your question #but i got a lot of similar questions #and i wanted to answer them in one big ask while i was feeling inspired so here is a bunch of jersey trauma lore #i hope it's fascinating i find it all super fascinating #because he presents like this perfectly in control orderly well maintained militant self-satisfying self gratified thing #but it's just a front for the fact that he's scared of change and is scared of not being in control or making mistakes #like he is put together but a breath away from falling apart #stan teaches him to sit down kyle teaches him to stand up #also sorry kyle having a fascination with edgy boy things and piercings and stuff in particular is kinda spicy to me #i luv him like he really is like that man is a satanic abomination and i want to do terrible horrible depraved things to him #like he really saw raven of crimson dawn and was like oy gevault i have never wanted to cut my lip open on anything #more than on that mans lip ring holy hell oh my god he is so shiny and ripped up and his makeup is so cool #he is a celebrity he has no original thought he doesnt think abt anything thats why he has all those tattoos and piercings #but also y do i want to trace my fingers down them every time i look at him he reveals himself more to me i want to learn more #kinsey scale gay 6 jerseykyle everyone but specifically for dramatic crybaby bisexual punk rock boys w/ piercings #which...i think is incredible bc i do not think people would expect that from kyle...but people also thinks he cannot feel #BUT HIM ADJUSTING HIS WELL REGIMENTED LIFE TO INCOPORATE STAN INTO IT I WANT TO SCREAM #HIM LEARNING TO LET OTHER PEOPLE DO STUFF FOR HIM AND BE OKAY WITH THEM HELPING HIM #I WANT TO START FUCKING SCREAMING I COULD TALK ABOUT THIS ALL DAY I LOVE JERSEYS CHAR DEV #ok final thot is he does sometimes do a gold jewelry ring moment or somethin if he's feeling like its important to the look #but they are very insignificant things for aesthetics easily taken off or removed...its the important stuff he has trouble w #and makes it all the more rewarding i think <3 #ily jers #okay last last small thing as far as like getting little piercings and random fun tattoos goes i just think he doesnt want any #boring king ik minus the ocd and stuff he just likes all his stuff to be very a-line and crisp doesnt like massive statements #like my man Is the statement like he has beautiful luxiourous curly red hair and green eyes and his nose a modern art piece #its too busy for him its distracting and u know thats what u have a hot rockstar bf for so u can pretend 2 read ur book #but the plot of the book is tracing ur sbfs sexc hip tattoos and helping him decide what belly button ring hes gonna wear #you know!!! The Plot!!! which kyles eidetic mem comes back but he does get distracted looking at stan a lot help

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oathofkaslana · 5 months

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I saww someone ranting about it earlier today; and since you’re the #1 collie fan I know, how do you feel about her treatment from the comics to her appearances in game??💜

GOD. DEAR GOD. ok this will take a moment. be patient w me

short answer: 2 me. in game collei is a poorly done adaptation of webtoon collei (which. i feel the need to note. was not perfect at all i just think her story was done better there). in game collei is wasted potential and mischaracterizes her for the sake of profit over artistic direction which honestly. leads to a bit of ableism and misogyny.

long answer: DEAR GOD. COLLEI. ok. the comics are in no way perfect. they're incredibly racist (particularly with barnabas's design), and they're not at all the perfect portrayal ever of a kid with cptsd. but with webtoon collei we got this story of a little kid who was so angry at everyone because she'd been hurt time and time again to the point where she genuinely believed that other people would always hurt her and she was just inherently a bad person. she believed her chronic illness was a sign of the archons hating her. she believed that the archons didn't care about her. she believed that she was inherently worth less than other people, ESPECIALLY those with visions. so we start off w that lil kid who's so rightfully angry and had to fend for herself using powers she was forced to have (the archon residue that actively feeds and stokes her negativity)! she literally kills people without remorse the first three pages we see her!!!!!! and it only turns around when amber (a vision user!!) is unrelentingly kind to her and keeps reinforcing this idea that collei is a human that is deserving of good and is capable of good. amber makes collei believe that she isn't doomed for some awful destructive fate. amber is the first person that shows collei that she believes her life matters. amber is the first person collei has met that unrelentingly believes in her humanity and goodness and makes an active effort to reinforce it. that kindness! and the want to believe she can do that! (the want to believe in amber) is ultimately the thing that spurs collei to action!!!!! her arc os essentially about kindness, finding humanity in yourself, and finding and believing in agency for yourself. and obv cyno plays a big part here and its the start of her rebirth symbolism ofc. etc etc etc.

then the game. i do think the game got some things correct! like i do generally like the change in character and i think that's expected for someone like collei who idolizes amber so much to the point of wanting to be her. i also really enjoy her character stories and a lot fo ehr voice lines. and i really really like how she's still obviously dealing with her cptsd. i like that it didn't go away! she still has triggers! she mentions anxiety! our first introduction to her was her having a nightmare!!

lsBUT the game also does a lot wrong imo. i think the game has a tendency to reduce collei a lot. while i do think the initial direction w her sweet nice girl facade was intended to show her admiration towards amber and lack of real identity/faith in identity for herself, i think it's been too. vague. and led to this becoming her Actual personality instead of a facade she's attempting to become. like while i don't think its inherently insidious i do think it's kinda suspect that they allow characters like scara (who's very similar to collei) to keep the asshole parts of their identity with their healing arcs but never let collei express that part of herself when it was such a huge part of her original character. (her cynicism being fostered by her environment and a protective thing for her and made her a nice character foil to amber). also the magicuring. i fucking hate how they handled eleazar in the game. like even if it weren't incredibly ableist for them to be treat chronic illness as a narrative device that's always meant to be cured, it was actively corrosive to collei's character bc so much of her arc is realizing her own worth and healing mentally even while her eleazar was getting worse. it means so so much for collei to be at a better state and actually have some sense of compassion for herself when she's experiencing flare ups from her chronic illness that everyone told her was the reason why she was worthless in the first place! and taking that away from her! taking that away from disabled players in general! sucked a lot!!!! i also think the game just does not want to acknowledge what collei's arc actually was and how much anger and exploitation it involved. especially in the 3.5(?) windblume event where she was compared to sucrose because of anxiety when their anxieties are so different (both being incredibly valid ofc but sucrose's social anxiety and fear of abandonment can not aptly be compared to collei's anxiety thats a byproduct of her cptsd from yk. experiencing discrimination and almost dying multiple times and human experimentation etc etc..) it often feels like they're rebranding her entire character to be more focused on this particular anxious nice girl image for the sake of consumerability (its how the fandom sees her and its easy for her to fit into tropes like that), this easy to sell found family w her tighnari and cyno (like i love their unit but dear god. i hate the way they've been written sometimes bc it feels like she's an accessory to those two who are also being flanderized), misogyny (again. collei is so much more similar to scara than she is sucrose and the difference between how they’re treated makes me so sad). AND because she's a four star she's so often side-lined! it's really disappointing to see how little of a role she played in sumeru when. honestly i think adding her to a larger part of sumeru could've benefited the story esp bc she's literally the first sumeru character we've seen and has been teased in the game since 1.0.

basically. collei is colleinations collective oc now :3

#gi #asks #monard/crepe tag #HELP SORRY THIS TOOK A LONG TIME.#wait lemme find my sumeru rewrite au :3333333 #:3 okok ily! <3 i hope your day/night has been restful!#mhy criti

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youngestdaughtersyndrome · 4 months

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How can I be offline more even when I’m depressed? I can’t go on walks or hang out with anyone so I need help and I’ve seen you do good with your tumblr breaks and getting outside

Honestly the only reason i can go offline the way i do is because i tell everyone i wont be online until i do such and such (in my case its typically writing a substack post) and because i made myself a little rule, im obligated to follow it if that makes sense ..... idk it works really well for my specific neuroses to have precise rules around screen use because im the type of person who needs to follow the rules i make myself or i lose it. So thats not much help unless your brain is wired like mine BUT for getting outside i usually have like a reward system of sorts??? Once again hinges on my love of making little rules for myself i guess but going outside means i get a cig and/or a drink (not the healthiest of motivations lol but its better than nothing).... if u cant go for walks i suggest also just finding a place to sit and hang out!!! Parks in ur area or even just outside wherever you live r good places for this.... if u have the pleasure of having a stoop to sit on i recommend sitting on it with some headphones and a book or podcast or whatevers up ur alley..... if u dont want to be talked to or looked at (me too <3) then doing this at night is pretty awesome. The more ur offline the easier it gets btw like ik everyone says that but fr the fomo disappears pretty quick. Good luck i love you stay gold

#idk if u were following me this summer but i picked specific days of the week to be online (weds+sat) and only was online then #which worked pretty well as opposed to going cold turkey. i cant rlly help as far as things to do bc i genuinely enjoy staring at the walls #i believe in u though i hope ur eating to the best of ur ability and staying hydrated <3 and always remember.#five minutes outside is better than not going out at all and an hour off the phone is better than not going offline at all!!! mwah ily #asks #anon!#hollyws

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reavers · 8 months

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i'm officially a bachelor of arts and i'm free until my masters next month :) so expect a small revamp + an updated carrd and a bg3/dnd verse for bull <3

#if anyone wants to brainstorm and help me adapt qunari into the dnd world i would honestly love that #cos where do i even start lol #but YES hopefully i'm back for real now ily guys and i hope everyone is doing good <3

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feelslikegold · 7 months

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goodnight angel <3

#I feel the nighttime sadness #and i’m nervous bc my sister’s boyfriend’s best friend is coming in tomorrow and staying with us until sunday which means there will be #another man I do not know in this house and I really hate that but my door has a lock so that helps my irrational panic tbh #anyways. I hope I sleep tonight I am on day 4 of like 2 hours of sleep #goodnight jake ily <3 #jake kiszka

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toastsnaffler · 9 months

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heard it was butch appreciation day 2day so im posting arm pics on here + no one can stop me >:-)

#no face bc im shy sorry...#i havent been working out for like a month + a half bc of moving/family stuff so only just getting back into it now #thankfully i still have some arm left.... im hyped tho im gonna start a new cg series + hit the boulder gym a ton more #had to order more protein powder bc im almost out and damn that shit expensive. my main motivation to get a job fr..#and ive finally quit vegetarianism so hopefully thatll help me put on more weight too.. can't wait to be built like a tank. someday #anyway im still figuring out how my gender relates to my dykery but butch is one of the things i feel closest to rn #v grateful for the community + how seen it makes me feel. butch mutuals ily i hope youre having a kickass day <3 #.diaries

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sillyrandomwriter · 2 months

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Gonna sound dumb but thanks for letting me just babble terrible AU's and shit at you (especially if it's spawned people wanting to write fic) I've basically been sitting vigil at a relative's bedside for 3 weeks in the hospital hoping for the situation to change one way or the other and yeah it's been a break to be able to check my phone and see replies and that stuff.

So thanks.

ahsjajahah im so glad to be making you feel better and let you get breaks anon. and no you didnt sound dumb its completely fine lmao. some of my ideas i havent written down yet also sound dumb so yea.. i hope everything over there gets better and i wish the best for you anon!

so what im trying to say is that im glad i could be making you feel better, and you’re welcome. if you may have any ideas dont be afraid to drop it in my inbox i love it when anons send me asks it just puts an instant smile on my face.

#i hope it gets better for u anon #anon <3 #ily for this anon/p #im so glad to be able to help u omg #anon appreciation #i love anons #u anons put a smile on my face instantly #and its not even funny anymore #makes me giggle and shit

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stardustandstress · 4 months

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Question, does anyone else who deals with dissociation experience the thing where you get unreasonably dizzy out of nowhere? Because ahhh

#things be so fine and then #yikes #dissociation #dpdr #personal #i hate feeling lightheaded like ugh no please #and blinking or moving or eating or sitting still doesn't really help #so you just kinda have to ride through it but AHHH #i hate it i hate it i hate it #and then the existentialism hits and it's like Why #anyway tl;dr #if anyone is reading this ily + i hope tomorrow treats you well <3

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gentlemanthiief · 4 months

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happy new year, friends. i hope this year brings good things to all of you. it hasn't been easy for us, i know. but even though it seems silly, every new year is a new start. billions of people around the world are all wishing that renewal into reality, and i hope that you can find comfort in knowing you're not alone.

#take your time { ooc }#// it's a kind of solidarity i tend to try to remind myself this time of year #// and i hope the reminder helps some of you as well <3 #// i've got a fuckload of asks sitting in my inbox both old and recent so i'll probably be trying to throw a few of those out soon #// things have been kind of all over the place but i'm finding stability where i can #// thank you all for being wonderful and cool ily all

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yuukimiyas · 5 months

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₍ ᐢ. ̫ .⑅ᐢ ₎ happy weds everybunny!! the wkly midway point!! woo!! i gotta hop to it & get ready for another long day at work ૮Ꮚ⑅ ˵ᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈꒱ა i hope your day is so so amazing like you!! <33

#ᕱ⑅ᕱ.* journals!#i was gonna wash my hair today but i overslept a lil bit so a ton of dry shampoo & messy bun it is!! ૮꒰ྀི ∩៸៸៸∩ ‎꒱ྀིა #im so so sleepy (a given ofc) bc i’ve been GRINDING away in genshin until like 1 am the last few days ૮꒰ྀི ´∩∩` ꒱ྀིა i cant help it!!#its a game thats so so easy to get lost in & lose track of time i swear!! BUT i finally hit AR 23 & started the liyue archon quest!! :3 #im hoping its not crazy busy today so fingers crossed!! (ㅅ´ ˘ `) ily ily ily I LOVE YOU SM!!

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moltage · 7 months

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What would you say are the essence of mick and prophet as characters and as a couple? I've tried writing them before and I've always felt like I got their dynamics wrong. You're who I think of as the keeper of these characters so I thought I'd ask you and see what your thoughts are on them.

i feel like there isn't a lot of ways you can go wrong with these two because aside from the very basic facts we don't know much about them at all. like yeah they have these backstories and interactions to some point but it's up to you to fill in the blanks and interpret it as you please so, don't think too hard about whether or not you're getting it "right". As long as it's not THAT visibly out of character (for example Mick is a sniper and you can make a lot of guesses about his personality based on that) i say just write them however you want. sometimes rewatching the show to remind myself of their dynamic also helps me write. i would also love to help if you ever need a second opinion about the way you write them^

as for their essence. (p sure i got the question wrong but?) They're like two sides of the same coin to me. they're so different but also very similar. they complete each other. i like this contrast of two very opposite people being so close to each other. like a welshman and an american, a non-believer and a devout man, the younger extrovert and the older introvert type of deal. but then they're also best friends. they share similar experiences, both have pasts they don't like talking about, two wounded men uniting in their grief. also when you think about it, they were both starting a new life when they joined the red cell, Mick straight out of the army (maybe not right away) and Prophet straight out of jail, a new work, a new environment, a new life, and being the first two recruits of the team, they had to get to know each other and grow close. and seeing how well they do together now, id say that worked out pretty great. (i mean, Mick is new in the US and Prophet is starting his life after 6 years, it's not like they're gonna have much friends or family. i think it's safe to say all they had was each other when the team was first formed (and cooper) lmao)

and as for what i think makes them a great couple is that, the potential they both have to heal and grow if that makes sense? the idea of mick learning to be vulnerable and letting someone get close, or prophet letting his walls down and learning to love someone again. as i said, half of these are just how i interpret them based on their backstories , but yea. i just feel like they have a lot of potential. a lot of things they could learn.a lot of new experiences. it wouldn't be easy for them to carry their relationship to the next level but that's what i like about it. can you imagine the yearning, the angst and all the other things we'd see if any of this was real JSHSKAHEKD LIKEE

i apologize if i didn't answer your question in a way you wanted, sort of just rambled there. feel free to ask if you want me to clarify anything or have another question. sorry

#i just searched up what essence means and its basically the opposite of what i did here #well #if ya want a shorter explanation basically theyre dumbasses who are in love and they have so much to learn from each other #was i supoosed to talk about like characteristics or soemthing i really dont know im sorry #hope this helps a bit though #also im flattered you think that i know about themshsgajdh #please do write about them though god knows we need more 🥺#they are honestly such a great pairing its. a shame no one knows them. they deserve so much more #god i cant shut up today can i #once again #sorry #i really appreciate the question and ily anon #im here if u need me<3 #answered #cmsb

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