#im 22 and don't want to leave my house

[nicolesainz]

Darling (JB 22)

Jenson Button x f!reader (Mark Webbers Daughter)

A/N: Ya’ll can blame the Brawn Doc (which btw was great, go check it out)

Summary: A little visit to your dad’s old friend after the Goodwill festival wouldn’t hurt,right?

Warnings: minors dni, +18, suggestive smut, edging, fingering, p! in v!, age gap (reader is 22)

“Hey Jense, would you mind keeping an eye on her? Missus and I will fly back to Australia but she’s staying here for a friend’s party”

My father would’ve never let me stay in a hotel. It had to be Jenson. Out of all his friends, all the people in the fucking UK, it had to be him.

And reminded that I’m 22. Not underage. And I can legally drink, thank you very much.

“Of course mate. I have a spare room she can use. I’ll barely be home this weekend.” It was the British Grand Prix and he is a presenter for Sky Sports, hence why he won’t be around.

To be fair, I only watch the post race show just to admire him. But my dad doesn’t need to know that, or Jenson himself. He doesn’t have to know how handsome he is or how smart he sounds given his knowledge in Formula One.

What’s more attractive than that?

And the fact that I have secret screenshots of his shots in my phone, but again, no one needs to know.

“Let me get her luggage full of god knows what type of dresses. I don’t even know when she bought them!”

"I hope you know how old I am, dad" I roll my eyes at his comment as Jenson lets out a small giggle, earning a death glare from my dad.

"Before she leaves the house, please make sure to see what she's wearing. And if there are any boys in sight." my dad warns him, as if I am going to enroll myself in the army and fight the enemy, which to him, would've been more preferable compared to a party.

"Got it. We definitely know that you think she's 17" Jenson replies and my mother laughs along, as I try not to burst out.

"If you side with Y/N, I will break your Porche." My dad's voice raise and I glance at Jenson who has a look plastered on his face as if he was offended and scared by the threat.

"I have kids myself, I think she's going to be safe with me. Come on Mark! I was the only driver you never crashed with, kinda." He takes the luggage away from my mother's hands and waves them goodbye as I go and hug them.

"Take care kiddo and if you need anything, im a call away. Also if you want to go to the paddock, the passes are under my name" he kisses my head after having me squeezed in a tight hug.

"Y-yes dad, I know. Now please let me go because I cant breathe."

"Sorry" he sets me free and I join Jenson's side. God he's tall and broad.

"Alright now, shall we?" he looks down at me and I nod, unable to utter a single word, even though I've know him my whole life.

The boys in my university were dying to hear stories with the senior formula one drivers, coming from a daughter of one. It's a nice feeling to narrate all the success and glory of this sport.

"Seriously though, your bag is very light. Are you even carrying anything in here?" Jenson asks, weighing up and down my luggage, flexing his muscles as I try not to drool all over the place.

"Only necessities. Dresses, shoes, makeup, few outfits for the race and condoms." the last one quite shocked him but also was a way of teasing him, given my major crush.

"You have condoms, yet I didn't hear you say panties"

"Won't be needing any"

"And why is that, may I ask?"

"Cause I like to be free. More access and more fun" I wink at him and I stare at his lips, a smirk is growing as each word is leaving mine.

"So you are telling me, that right now, underneath this short but nonetheless breathtaking dress, no panties are worn?"

I get closer to him and whisper softly in his ear:

"Wanna see for yourself?"

Honestly, don't ask me where I found this much confidence and especially with someone twice my age. And a friend of my dad's.

"Behave yourself darling" he coughs lightly to clear his throat and grabs me by the waist, so my dress doesn't float from the summer breeze.

"And what if I don't want you, Mr. Button?"

"Then you'll wish you had never said that" he growls and immediately opens me the door to his McLaren.

When he gets in the drivers seat, he wastes no time and gets on the road instantly. During the ride, there's a comfortable silence filling the atmosphere, until the air coming out of Jenson's window pulls up my dress and his hand quickly falls on my thigh, holding it down once more.

Jenson decides to roll up his window but his hand remains on my thigh and this time, is holding it firmly and starts caressing it from the inside.

Soft sighs leave my mouth, but controlling them is inevitable when his touch was all I have been craving since I turned 18. His foot hits the gas harder, speeding and driving in between the other slower cars. He reminds me of the Jenson back in his Brawn days and I can feel myself pooling just at the thought.

It was the very right time when his hand cupped my bare pussy, feeling the wetness caused by barely a thought of him. The slight touch of his fingers on my trembling self has my knees going paralyzed. I feel like crying from pleasure and yet I don't even know if he's doing that on purpose to embarrass me or if he's actually enjoying it too.

"Oh baby, you're definitely not behaving yourself" he says as his index finger draws circles around my clit. My legs are clenching his hand inside me as the other one holds the steering wheel, looking at his knuckles that have turned white.

"Jenson" I breathe out and moan simultaneously as he starts pumping two fingers inside me fiercely, letting myself to his mercy and unable to react.

"This behavior will have consequences young lady. I warned you" he lets a soft kiss on the crock of my neck and feeling his beard scratching it, I go absolutely insane.

"Then punish me sir" I blurt out without thinking and Jenson drives in seconds at the spot in front of his house, stops the car and places me on top of his lap with just one hand.

Jenson's lips crash into mine without wasting a second as his fingers play with my uncontrollably wet pussy. The feeling of moaning is surely necessary and I don't hold back. My tongue dances with his and the kiss gets deeper like his fingers, hitting perfectly my soft spot.

"You are going to be the death of me" Jenson says as his mouth falls on my neck, sucking it off like there's no tomorrow. My hands try to unbuckle his belt and eventually make it to the part where I can feel his erection growing. It's true what they say, older men do it better.

In other instances I would have been furious, but Jenson ripping my dress, just so he can have better access at my breasts is incredibly hot. I don't care that I am left vulnerable at his sight. At this I was pleading it.

My breast hurt from his kisses and I know in a few hours small red dickies will be covering the surface. My fingers decide to trace the shape of his thick cock but I can tell he wants to feel me. I have teased him and he me, for way too long.

"If you keep being naughty I won't let you cum, dear" a groan escapes his body as I take his length in my hands and caress the veins that have popped out.

"Then I want you to fill me up with your cum" I take him by surprise and I can sense his heartbeat raising from worry. He regards me as something innocent, precious and fragile. Which I am. But I feel ready and I am.

"Are you sure? I mean, have you? Uh? Had sex before?"

"I-uh-well, no. But-"

"Baby we can't do it here. You don't deserve to have your first time on a car. You deserve to be worshipped."

Jenson's words make me blush and my heart was flattering as if I was a fifteen years old again, simply watching him race and get multiple podiums.

He looks around and opens the door of his house and then quickly rushes with me inside and shuts it with such force, my legs started trembling.

Suddenly, he picks me up and carries me all the way to his bedroom. A dark room filled with some of his most iconic trophies and with his smell that has been covering my entire body since the moment I entered his car.

He turns on the soft baby lights on the bedrest and takes a look at my flushed self, covered with hickies he's gifted me. His eyes scan me from head to toe as if he's about to feast.

"I want you to tell me to stop whenever you feel uncomfortable in any way." He kisses me softly and I nod my head, knowing that he would never hurt anyone.

Jenson stands up and with his strong arms parts my legs so he can have a clear vision of my already swollen womanhood. My breast are half showing from inside my bra and my lips are bitten to the core. I am a mess but he seems to like it.

He removes his shirt in quick motions revealing his god like crafted body with the hints of dark ink covering his lower v and shoulder. I had never seen them before and I am was very pleased with what was in front of my eyes.

It doesn't take him too long to strip off his trousers and be left with simply his boxers that were trying to hold in his hardened cock and my patience as well. They were giving me a preview of what was about to happen.

As Jenson lowered his body his hands were hoisting down his boxers, revealing himself and it wasn't just my mouth that was drooling but also my pussy.

His hands now were on the insides of my thighs, holding them fiercely, whilst mine were hanging around his neck. I felt like my heart was about t burst out of my chest.

"Are you ready baby?"

I was at loss for words so I gave him a final kiss for reassurance that he could continue.

In slow motions, he lowered even more and started inserting himself inside me, pumping slowly as I was trying to get used to his size. My cries were out of control as Jenson was deepening himself and my pussy was stretched to its limits.

"Jesus, you're clenching me so well darling" he breathed out and I tried to open my legs wider for his pleasure. Jenson was panting on the hem of my neck and upping the pace of his thrusts.

"Dear lord this feels so good" It feels better than good. As if I am in the seventh heaven. I don't think any man will ever make me experience this. And I don't think I want to either.

"Say that again" he demands with a harder thrust, hitting my G-spot, earning the biggest moan of the night, echoing at the entire house.

"You make me feel so damn good Jenson" I gulp hard as I try to catch my breath and scratch his back from the pain that this gives me.

"And I shall be the only one darling" he hoists me up and removes my bra with a single movement, freeing my breasts and enjoying the sight, as they are bouncing up and down along with the trusts.

"Only you Jenson" I scream his name as loud as I can and his chest fills with pride as I am reaching my height.

"Cum sweetheart. Let go" I can't hold it in much longer and I cum all over his cock. He doesn't remove himself from inside me and I don't want to. This felt so right even though for some it's very wrong.

"That was, perfect" I say in a whispering manner as I am unable to speak louder. I am so wasted but full of thrill.

"You deserve it. You deserve to be treated like that dear"

#jenson button #jenson button x reader #jenson button x you #fanfic writing #f1 drivers

[willyoubethepookietomypookster]

"Last Christmas"

ITS OUTTTTT!!!!! FINALLY. Enjoy this piece, cuz this is probably the second to last piece I'll make regarding good omens unfortunately. I can only stay in a fandom for a few weeks before i lose interest, but i got a request and im determined to finish that. Also i added my own oc in here cuz i didn't wanna write (your best friend) the entire time 😭😭 Enjoy!!

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It had been a few months since Aziraphale left to become the Archangel of heaven, and Crowley was hit hard. You don't know exactly what happened, but you know it was bad. Crowley wanted to up and abandon the bookshop all together, but you couldn't exactly be left alone with Muriel. You love her, but she cannot take care of a human, let alone a teenager. As much as it pained Crowley, he stayed in the shop with you, because he was living in his car and he didn't wanna have you do that too. You've tried to contact Aziraphale a handful of times, but it only worked once. He was on call for 30 seconds and you made him promise to come home for Christmas before the line cut out and you had to give up. Its now December 22, and you're awaiting Aziraphales arrival any minute. You mailed him a phone for Christmas, with your number attached to a note, but he isn't allowed to have contact with earth, so he's been discreetly texting you. Since he's Archangel, he can technically do what he wants, but the higher ups dislike when he tries to check in on earth. The only reason he was even allowed to be here in the first place was because he lied about wanting to study human emotion during the holiday. Well, not exactly a lie, he has to study your emotion to be able to pass his trip off as work. You hadn't told Crowley yet, because you didn't know how he'd react, but you also couldn't let Aziraphale be a surprise because that felt wrong. You had finished sorting some books and decorating the house when you walked into the room to tell your father figure the news.

"Pa..??" You asked warily. He looks up at you and raises an eyebrow, signalling you to talk.

"Uhm....you know how its Christmas n all???" You say, and he looks confused.

"Yeah...?" He says.

"Uhhh...." You squeeze your eyes shut. "Can I invite my friend over??" You practically shout. Of course you chickened out, how could you tell him that the love of his life, who left him for a place he doesn't even like that much, was coming back within the hour? He nods slowly.

"Is that it? Of course you can." He takes a sip of the drink in his hand. You nod and excuse yourself, inviting your friend Ivory over like you said you would.

"Hey Ivy!" You said into the house phone.

"What do you need y/n?" She said.

"Wanna come over today? Its gonna be kinda a Christmas party, but not really."

"Oh sure, let me get ready and I'll be over."

"Kay!"

A little while later, you started pacing around the house, awaiting Aziraphales arrival. You had this feeling in your stomach that made you feel sick. Anxiety.

"What are you all uptight for?" Crowley asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Uhhhh..." You say, avoiding eye contact and wringing your hands together. You let out a deep breath. "Aziraphale is coming over.." You say, looking up for a quick second. Something flashes across Crowley's features, but he notices how scared you are and he just nods.

"Okay.." He replies, and goes back to downing his drink. You let out a breath you didn't know you were holding and nod. You have such relief that it takes everything in you not to cry.

"Thanks pa.." You say, your voice wavering. He waves you off and you leave.

You have finally finished setting up when your friend arrives. You run to open the door and see Ivory standing there with a plate of brownies and cookies in her hands.

"Aw Ivy, you didn't have to bring anything!" You say, carefully taking the plate from he hands and inviting her in.

"Its fine, I never come to a party empty handed." She replies. You give her a tour of the bookshop and then introduce her to Crowley.

"This is Cro-...Anthony.." You tell her. She walks up to shake his hand.

"Nice to meet you, I'm Ivory." She says. He nods in acknowledgement and starts walking around, inspecting the bookshop. You walk up to Aziraphales gramophone and put on a Christmas Classics record. The first song is Jingle Bell Rock, and you and Ivory start dancing to it. Crowley walks in on you guys vibing, and an odd expression crosses his face before he leaves you be.

After a few songs, there's a knock on the door. You and Crowley both look at each other for a fraction of a second before you're rushing towards the door. You rip it open and throw your arms around Aziraphale and buring your face in his neck. He starts laughing and pats your back.

"I missed you too, Y/n."

You pull back and really look at his face. He looks tired, and he's grown a beard since he's been gone. He steps inside and you introduce him to Ivory. You show him all the decorations you put up, and you then lead him to the living room to show him the Christmas tree. He enters the living room and glances at Crowley. They share a lingering gaze before he snaps out of it and turns his attention towards the tree.

"Its breathtaking, dear." He says while smiling down at you. You nod and smile.

"Thanks, dad." He hugs you again and looks around.

"Wheres Muriel?" He asks.

"She went back to heaven for the week." Crowley replies.

"Oh.." Aziraphale says. The tension between them is obvious, and you guys sit in silence for a little bit before Ivory comes in and starts pulling you up.

"COME ON. THEY'RE PLAYING THE SONG!!" She shouts. You stumble to your feet as she keeps tugging on your arm.

"WHAT SONG???" You yell, startled. Aziraphale chuckles at your antics and stands up.

"I can move the gramophone in here, if you'd like." He says.

"Yes please!!!" You and Ivory say in unison.

He snaps his fingers and suddenly the gramophone is on a table in the main room. Ivory's eyes grow wide and Aziraphale seems to notice what he's done, because he starts stammering and trying to make excuses. Crowley rolls his eyes, and Ivory chuckles.

"Its fine, Mr. Fell. Y/n told me all about how you did magician work in your spare time." Ivory states and winks at you. Crowley groans at the mention of magic and Aziraphale smiles brightly. Aziraphale looks at you.

"Why of course she did! My magic is stage worthy. I once performed at the West End!" He boasts. Ivory feigns a surprised gasp.

"Oh my!! Thats incredible! Did the crowd throw roses?" She says, smiling. Aziraphales face falters for a moment, recalling the blank stares and boos, but nods nonetheless.

"Of course!! I'm one of the greatest, after all." He's practically shining. The song has long been forgotten, you and Ivory chat with Aziraphale for a while. Crowley stares longingly, but pretends to drink anytime Aziraphale looks over.

Soon enough, you've all been chatting and eating for an hour or so. Crowley has been unusually quiet, and Aziraphale has not spoken a word about him or heaven since he arrived. You grab Aziraphales hand and place him right next to Crowley.

"Stay. Don't even think about moving, I'm gonna grab something really quick."

"Y/n-" He starts, but you've already grabbed Ivory and dragged her away. He and Crowley sit in silence for a moment, before Crowley speaks up.

"So hows the big fancy office job? Better than down here?" Crowley asks. Aziraphale immediately spins to face him, word vomiting his concerns.

"I hate it! Well, hate is a strong word, but I hate itt!! I miss you and Y/n. It's stressful and the angels are prideful pompous jerks. Metatron is always on my ass for something or another, Micheal never shuts up about 'restarting Armageddon' At this point I think I miss Gabriel too." He sputters out. Crowley looks at him starstruck.

"...You miss me..??" He asks. Aziraphale turns red and scratches his cheek.

"Well of course I do, you're my closest friend." Aziraphale replies, and Crowley can't help but chuckle.

"Yeah, friend." He mutters. He looks over to Aziraphale and gives him a hard stare. "You aren't forgiven." He says. Aziraphale looks confused for a moment before his eyes go wide with realization.

"O-oh! Of course not! I- I mean.. I haven't even apologized or anything." He turns away, takes one of Crowley's hands and starts tracing little star patterns on it. "But I am sorry. Really sorry. And I obviously miss you." He says. Crowley blushes, but pulls his hand away anyway.

"Its gonna take more than that you know." Crowley practically spits. Aziraphale flinches and looks like he's about to cry, but nods and smiles anyway.

"I know. I know." He whispers that last part, and almost stands up to leave before the girls come rushing back in. They're holding four hot chocolates, each one having marshmallows and candy canes in them.

"We have hot coco!!!!!!!" You yell. You quickly walk over to them and hand them each a drink. Crowley waves his hand.

"I don't want any, thanks." He says blandly.

"TAKE IT." You spat. Not in a mean way, but in a 'I'm going to kick you so hard if you don't' way. Crowley nods, holding back a smile, and takes it. Aziraphale chuckles at your antics and sips his coco.

You and Ivory drink and snack for a little while, when Last Christmas starts playing. Ivory quickly pulls you to your feet, and you guys start singing.

"LAST CHRISTMAS I GAVE YOU MY HEART!!" You sing

"BUT THE VERY NEXT DAY, YOU GAVE IT AWAY!!" She sings back.

"THIS YEAR, TO SAVE ME FROM TEARS, I'LL GIVE IT TO SOMEONE SPECIAL!!!" You guys sing together. Crowley and Aziraphale exchange a look, before going back to watching you two. You guys do this for a while, before the lyrics change to something that hits too close to home.

"Wrapped up a gift and sent it, with a note saying I love you, I MEANT IT!! Now I know what a fool I've been, but if you kiss me now I know you'll fool me again!!!" You guys sing together. Aziraphale looks directly at Crowley this time, and grabs his hand. Crowley looks at him and they both stare at each other's lips for a second, before Aziraphale cups his face with his hand, and pulls him in for a tender kiss. You and Ivory stand there start struck, before you guys turn up the music and pretend you didn't see anything. Crowley leans into the kiss and grabs Aziraphales face. They quickly pull away after about thirty seconds. Crowley glares at Aziraphale, but makes no move to get away or wipe the kiss off his face. Crowley tears up a little bit and kisses Aziraphale again, just a peck this time, and moves away.

"You still aren't completely forgiven yet." Crowley huffs, and Aziraphale just laughs.

"Well, I'll just have to spend all my waking hours making it up to you then. I'll tell Metatron I quit, and pray he doesn't kill me in return." He says. Crowley smiles and gives him another peck.

"Lets go to Alpha Centuri sometime, yeah?" He asks. Aziraphale smiles too.

"Yeah."

#good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale x reader #crowley x reader #good omens x reader #good omens fic #aziraphale #christmas fic #christmas #crowley x daughter reader #crowley x aziraphale #crowley being cute #aziracrow

[coffeeimagines]

bill cipher x a reader that is cheerful kind and energtic with a strong sense of justice plz :3

im going to throw tumblr out my window it erased everything I had I FORGOT TO SAVE IT AS A DRAFT....... but saw it earlier even when you requested more than 7 days ago im so sorry lmk if you'd want anything changed!

note: the reader is siblings with the twins if you won't mind? I'll def change if you don't like it. ( n/n is nickname )

another note: so sorry if this stops making sense towards the end I had major writers block & lost a bit of motivation to write I'm so sorry anon. - 9/23/22

Bill Cipher with a Reader that is so full of life

It was this very summer that you've finally made it to gravity falls, after being told it was a fun yet mysterious place. You came here with both your siblings Dipper and Mabel to meet your grunkles face-to-face for the first time.

When you finally arrived to the mystery shack, grunkle stan gave your siblings a warm hug and your grunkle ford gave you a hand shake.

"Ah, you must be my (niece/nephew) i've heard about! What is your name?"

"I'm (y/n)! You can call me (n/n) if you want though" you replied with a smile. You waved to grunkle stan and he gave you a soft fist bump.

"Great to finally meet ya kiddo."

"Yeah! I've been trying to tell you about them when mom said we were allowed to call you! They're absolutely the best sibling i've ever had, alongside dipper!" Mabel says as she hugged you.

"Why don't you two show them around? If they'll be staying here for this summer might aswell get used to the place, ay?" grunkle ford says and your siblings nod in agreement.

Dipper and Mabel both introduced you to their friends. When you met Pacifica she didn't really seem like the one to be interested one bit in you but you were so confident to becoming her friend.

After going around town for a bit, you've noticed a forest that seemed like a good place to look around the outside until you were called to go eat.

"Since you're just getting to gravity falls, you should know something very important, (y/n)." Grunkle stan told you with a serious expression.

"There's this triangle that goes by the name Bill Cipher. Whatever you do under all circumstances do not approach him if you ever see him. He tends to make deals with people he comes across just to backstab them in the end."

"Hey, we don't have to worry about him anymore though! Me and Dipper beat him multiple times and he's gone now! Don't you remember?" Mabel replies. "Well yeah Mabel but just what if he somehow comes back? We can't be so quick to assume that he's just gone for good." "I guess you do have a point but we're in safe hands now! And if he ever does come back who says we can't beat him again?"

"I understand, can I take a walk around though? I want to explore some more and I think this will be a great opportunity." You ask. "Of course you can. We'll call you back for dinner." Grunkle ford tells you."

You give him a hug before running out the house and into the forest.

"Evil triangle? What makes a triangle evil? eh." You shrug. You sit down breathing in the fresh air that surrounds you but a statue catches your eye.

"Wait, isn't that the triangle I was told about..? It seems harmless though." You say to yourself as you walk up to the triangle. You softly shake its hand until you hear yourself being called by Soos.

"Coming!" You say as you rush back to the shack.

"There you are dude, mr pines and his brother were calling for you its sort of getting late, I saved your meal though you're allowed to eat in your room" "Alright, thank you for letting me know soos- wait where do I sleep?" "I think you should ask mr pines"

You head over to grunkle stan to ask where your sleeping. He explains that you'll be sleeping in the extra room they have and guides you to it.

You immediately hop into your bed and eat your meal. Once grunkle stan leaves with your empty plate and closes the door behind him you get your rest.

When You woke up in the mind scape, this is when you met Bill Cypher himself.

He didn't seem harmful so you were confused on why everyone hated and feared him.

During the few weeks of you both knowing eachother, he started to gain quite a liking to someone like you, someone who's so full of life.

"Hey kid, how come you're... like this?"

"Like what?"

"So ongoing & full of life. It irritates me in a.. good way."

You giggle softly to yourself. "I don't really know myself, I just really enjoy seeing another day in life you know? Sometimes I just feel like everyday is a gift for us."

You both realize that you're fading away from the mindscape.

"Oh, looks like you're waking up kiddo."

"Well, yeah." You sigh. You leans towards bill a bit.

"Hm? Something you need kid?"

You give bill a kiss on his (supposed to be?) cheek as you fade away completely.

You wake up breathing heavily with a blush on your face.

#bill cipher x reader #gravity falls fanfiction #requests open #requests are open #reqs open

[unluckyhoneybee]

hello hello im back with my marcus requests :) feel like im a regular at this point (though its been a while) i would love cherry with dialogue 12 and 24! so i was thinking: fwb and marcus doesnt know, and one morning she hastily leaves when marcus is still half asleep bc of something with her kid (could be having to pick them up, take them to school or something else, nothing serious) 

maybe they later have a talk where she mentions having a kid and how it prevented her for going into a serious relationship, but she feels like a bad mum sometimes having a fuckbuddy (shes not!!!) i hope you can make something nice out of this :) - your regular marcus anon💆🏻‍♀️

Random prompt list.

Cherry: Single mum.

12. "What the fuck are you doing?" "Shh"

24. "You must be his/her favourite person in the world."

"Oh fuck" You checked the time and got up from the bed, waking a half asleep Marcus.

"What the fuck are you doing?" He said taking his hand to his chest. "You scared me"

"Shh. G-go back to sleep. I-I have to leave. I'm sorry. Uuuh... See you?"

He frowned. What was going on?

"Yes?"

You leaned over him and kissed his lips. "I'll text you"

"Cool"

And like that you ran to pick Roy up from his friend's house.

Days passed and you hadn't seen Marcus. Nor texted him. You were fully avoiding every contact with him because you had been late to pick your boy. The other kids parents weren't so happy and had definitely judged you a lot. And it had made you spiral down into a loop of anxiety and fears. Until Marcus texted asking if he had done something wrong. He had been feeling quite the same. You had left his apartment in a rush and he hadn't heard from you since then. He was thinking he had done something wrong and he didn't want to fuck things up. You were too special.

You: do you want to come over? There is something I want to talk about.

He showed up on time, biting his nails and feeling more nervous than ever. And when you opened the door and he saw SpongeBob on the TV and little cars around the floor, he only grew more confused.

"Are you babysitting?" He asked.

You shook your head and let him in.

"This is what I want you to talk about."

"What?"

"Mum!"

"Mum?"

Marcus looking at you and you wanted to cry.

"Come here, Roy."

He watched the little boy, who had your eyes and nose, walk to you. You picked him and kissed his cheek. You had a son? Since when?

"Roy, honey. This is Marcus. Can you say hi to him?"

"Hi, Marcus" He sweetly said.

Marcus heart beated so fast. The toddler was definitely cute. So cute. And you... Oh you were perfect.

"Hi, Roy. Nice to meet you"

Marcus shook Roy's hand and the boy giggled. For the first time, you smiled.

"I'm sorry" You said looking at Marcus.

"No, no. Um... It's fine"

And it was. He was strangely fine. He wasn't bothered at all. He was 22 and his fuck buddy had a hidden son. And somehow, he didn't care. Probably all of his friends would be bothered by this. Past him would be bothered by this.

"Can we talk about it?" You said with sad eyes. He nodded.

You left Roy playing with his cars and dinosaurs in the living room and took Marcus to the kitchen.

"Why didn't you told me?" He softly asked and grabbed your hand. His thumb brushed your knuckles and you lowered your head.

"I... I have been ditched before. Guys don't want to mess with a girl who has a son." You confessed. "But... You are so nice and I have so much fun with you... I was selfish the first time and didn't told you. Then the second time I was too scared and then... Then I simply couldn't..."

"The other day..."

"He had a play date and I was late to pick him. I lost the track of time with you and... Fuck... I feel like a horrible mum sometimes"

"Why?"

"I went to fuck someone while my son was at his friend's house."

Marcus shrugged. "Is it such a big deal?"

"Kind of? I don't know"

Marcus swallowed the lump on his throat and cupped your chin. You let a shaky breath out and he pressed a kiss to your lips. "Would it be such a big deal if instead of your fuck buddy I was your boyfriend?"

Your eyes opened like plates. You had just introduced him to the son you had hidden from him and he was (somehow) asking you to be his girlfriend.

"What?"

"Answer"

"No"

"Then... Do you want to be my girlfriend?"

Your grabbed his shirt and pulled him closer.

"A-are you serious?" You struggled to say. "And sure? Are you sure? I-I have a son..."

"I am"

You cupped his cheeks and kissed him deep and slow. "Yes, yes. I want to" You said between kisses."

Marcus smiled on your lips and pulled you for another kiss.

"Marcus! Look! My stegosaurus!"

Marcus pulled back and licked his lips. He didn't let go of your cheeks.

"Wow mate, that's so cool" He told Roy.

The boy happily ran back to the living room.

"Did he just perfectly pronounced Stegosaurus?"

"Um... Yes." You answered with a smile. "My boy is really clever, Marcus."

"I wasn't expecting less"

You both laughed.

"Marcus!"

"On my way"

You gasped when Marcus went, without doubt, to the living room and sat with Roy.

Soon they were both playing together with the little cars.

"I drive cars, Roy"

"No!"

"Mhm. Really fast"

"ON RACES?!"

"Yes, buddy"

You sat with them and kissed Marcus cheek.

"Mum! Is true?"

"It is"

Roy jumped and grabbed Marcus hoodie.

"I want to go"

You both laughed.

"You must be his new favorite person in the world"

Marcus chuckled and looked at you with a smile.

"I love you"

You blushed and smiled.

"I love you too, Marcus."

"Thank you for telling me."

"Even if it's late?"

"It's not late. It's the right moment"

You leaned your head on his shoulder.

"Marcus! Let's race. You are the blue and I'm the green"

"Okay mate, come here"

Heeey, I changed it a bit. I hope you liked it!

#Random prompt list #Marcus Armstrong #Ma #Blurb #Fluff #Indycar

[stalkersdiary]

Hi Mxster R!! If you dont mind me asking, have you ever struggled dating because of not being cis? Sometimes if feels like im so close to getting an obsession then the person just completely ruins it by saying something transphobic :/

(Im transmasc btw)

Hello. This is a little tricky to answer because I'm... Kind of cis. I'm intersex and while I don't have a very "male" appearance, I am biologically male and female. Being in my situation, I'm sort of... Cis and Trans at the same time. I'm socially transitioning to how I hormonally present but I also want to get on HRT because I lack part of the hormones I'd need to have the look that would make me more comfortable. To answer the other portion of the question, yes. Not because of transphobia but because I am just not physically what many people's preferences are. I know for some of the people I've dated, I'm like a weird bragging right (for fame as well as for my intersexism) so they almost fetishize me. Which is bad in its own way. However I rarely date as I'm demiromantic so it takes me about 6 months to a year to even know if I like someone romantically. I'm only 22 and I don't leave the house due to anxiety and other social issues so... I don't really have any problems with dating. Aside from not dating and being somewhat lonely. On another note... If you're struggling with obsession issues, I highly recommend finding a good sense of self and reremind yourself proper boundaries you and the other person have. I haven't really had any issues with obsession recently (Thank goodness) but I know it can spike, especially when you're at your most vulnerable. I'm glad you can break obsession easily due to disagreements and misjudgments of character (I'm a little jealous since I have a hard time) however if you ever feel like you're having a hard time trying to focus on yourself and how to give proper distance, please feel free to write me. I'm always a safe space and I can offer as much support as I can. Thank you for opening the Stalker's Diary.

#stalkers diary #yandere #yandere x reader #irl yandere #yandere male #yandere x you #yandere boy #male yandere #nonbinary yandere #actually yandere #yandere rambles #yandere blog #yandere community #yanblr #yanblog #unrequited love #darlingcore #possesive love #ask blog #yandere thoughts #gender neutral reader #actually psychotic #obsessive love #obsessive thoughts #obsessive love disorder #obsessed with you #stalker #yandere Diary #unmedicated #mental Illness

[youmustfixyourheartt]

OOOOH PERFECT I KNOW SOME OF THESE LIL GUYS!!!!

okay I NEED NEED NEED to know your thoughts on Agnes 10+12, Gerry 5+22, and Melanie 26 (do you like how she healed in the end? Do you think she's finally somewhere where she can recover from the way the Slaughter took ahold of her, or do you think it'll haunt her forever?), as well as Homura 5 :]

(Sorry if that's a fucking lot, but I love sending these asks a LOT)

agnes:

10 "could you be best friends with this character" in a perfect world i'd like to think so. she scares me a little and we only really learn about her from the perspective of others...but i think maybe i'd like to learn more about her, make her tea even.

12 "a headcanon you have for this character" OHH BOY!! she tried to cut her hair when she was at hill top road. it just seemed to get dusty and damp and full of cobwebs and it scared her, that her warmth couldnt seem to get rid of it. she wanted every single inch of that house to evaporate off of her. it wasnt a good job at all, it was choppy and the scissors couldnt take the heat, but it was something.

gerry:

5 "whats the first song that comes to mind when you think of them" OH OH OH "demolition lovers" by my chemical romance or "the figurehead" by the cure. "all we are all we are is bullets i mean this" gerry drives me fuckign GAHH

22 "If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to ths character? Something you don't like?" ok so. i dont usually read a lot of fic, but when i do ohohoh. i really like explorations of his motives and what makes him scared. he acts cool as shit but hes scared just like everybody else. he had no choice but to be thrown into this world of monsters and fear and the only thing he can do is try to help and undo something that seems so woven into him. i really also like it when he gets to talk with the modern archival staff sue me he would have fit in so good. i dont usually like heavy slash fic with him ..i think its fine but not something im Huge Huge on. would love to see more exploration of him and gertrude's dynamic or his mom

melanie:

26: Freebie (asked above) i love melanie so i like to think she is far away from everything and safe. realistically? its probably more complex. i think shes working on it shes trying her best with the cards shes been given. its ok to be angry its ok to not forgive, but you cannot burn up with those emotions and let hatred consume you whole. there are things you must persist for, things to love and love you back. it is ok to get hurt and to hurt but you must learn to forgive and love yourself so that you may love those around you. i don't think it will ever truly leave, all bullet wounds leave scars, but i think you can break down scar tissue and learn to grow again.

homura:

5: "whats the first song that comes to mind when you think of them" probably "darkness at the heart of my love" by ghost!!

Will you spill the wine To summon the divine? I'm with you always, always

Now paint a pair of eyes And let's watch as it dries Remember always, that love is all you need Tell me who you wanna be And I will set you free <- VERY HOMURA TO ME i know its not one to one but the song as a whole is so...i have many thoughts about her...

(ask game)

#thank you so much for the ask i had so much fun with all of these #there is never such a thing as “too much” with me when it comes to characters im so down to talk about them #L.A. tag

[yesyourstalker]

Ikkan:....................................

Neta:.......................................

Cirrina:...................... So like..... Are we at aunt K's house yet?

Neta: we're ......... We're almost....* Cough*......... We're almost there....... Just another hour.........

Cirrina: you good Dad?

Neta: yeah...... Yeah I'm fine....

Ikkan:........... ...

Neta: I'm just a little nervous. I haven't talked to my aunt in maybe 14 years or so....... Not sure she'll recognize me.......

Cirrina: I'm 14

Text

Cirrina: is dad doing ok?

Ikkan: he's fine he's just a little on edge is all.

Cirrina: he's shaking

Ikkan: mm ......do you want me to drive?........... Why don't you sit in the back and look up the window okay?

Neta: yeah alright....... think I might take a small snooze

_______________________________________________

Kat: she's pregnant?

Neta: yes

Kat: and it's yours?

Neta: yes

Kat: are you sure?

Neta: what are you trying to imply about Sylvia?

Kat: I'm just asking.... Just want to make sure that-

Neta: what that she's not a whore?...... I know it's mine..... And I don't want to leave her... Not like this

Kat: and how are you going to take care of this baby? You don't have money. You don't have a job?

Neta: I can get a job!! I can get my own fucking place!! Fuck I can go to the surface-

Kat: do you know how expensive it is to live on the surface? It's hard enough to bring one person up there but two more! You don't have enough money or experience up there to make it out on your own-

Neta:oh so suddenly you give a shit!!! all of sudden aunt k wants to be fucking provider... woooow.... where was she all these years!!... I know my way around the surface! I fought on the surface and I sneaked up to the surface all the time!!

Kat: watch your tone with me

Neta: Why so you can drop me off to my dad!?... Hehehe you'd like that?! just drop me off at the fucking curb or fucking train station?! Wait for him there!? That certainly worked the last time right?! Fortunately for you, I'm old enough to be on my own so the cops won't have to show up at your door to drop me off at 5am!!!!

Kat:.................................... I'm sorry.......he told me he was

Neta: he was on his way. He says that all the time and I don't understand why you keep on believing it................*ugh*...... You know what..fuck you....... I'm going to take care of her and I'm going to take care of our baby........... I... I'll marry her and I'll get a job....

Kat: how? You barely know her!!.... I just want you to think about this!!

Neta:I NOT GOING TO FUCK UP THIS KID LIKE YOU! YOU TWO DID TO ME!! I'M GOING TO LOVE THEM MORE THAN YOU EVER LOVED ME!!!......... I know what I'm doing! I'm Taking responsibility for my actions. Unlike him.

Kat: Neta!! You! Are! A! Child!.... You don't know what you're doing and you can't do this by yourself!!

Neta: I'm 22 and I'm an adult-

Kat: you may be a adult physically and legally but mentally and emotionally especially right now........ baby you are not prepared for this responsibn-

Neta: im not your fucking baby....... don't even try that on me... Not anymore............. I've barely had any one in my life who I could trust..... when I did it didn't last very long........

Kat: Neta-

Neta: shut up! I'm done. I'm done with everything..... You never loved me.... None of you have........ I'm done being everyone's burden....

Kat:.... Neta.... You don't mean-

Neta: I hate you!

Kat: .................

Neta: I hate every single person in this Cod forsaking bunker! I never want to see any of you assholes again!...

Kat:.......... . ..*sigh*....... If that's how you feel..... I can't stop you. If you think this is the best for you and your child then go like you said you're an adult.

Neta:..............

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Cirrina: dad?.... Dad?! ... Daddy?!!

Neta: huh! Wha.... cirrina... Cici hi sweetie... Come here... [Kiss]

Cirrina: hehe

Neta:......*yawn*..... I went into a deep sleep.huh?.. Hahaha where's ikkan?

Cirrina: he's booking a room in the motel... I just want to see if you're okay dad

Neta: I'm fine sweetie. ....... [Kiss].... And I'll bounce back if I'm not.... You don't need to stress about me baby okay?

Cirrina: I just get worried sometimes.... I know you tell me not to......... But sometimes I see you and...*voice crack*... You look so tired...and- and upset and sometimes I wish I could do something and when I try it feels like I'm bothering you or that I'm making it worse... Like I'm being a burden..*crying*

Neta: come here baby girl..........[kiss. Kiss. Kiss] you are the best thing that's ever happened to me. Look at me. You are not and you never will be the burden to me.......... No matter how bad my day is and how bad I feel.......every time I see a little girl. And her sweet face. it makes everything worth it..................[hug and kiss]........

Cirrina: mmmm...*sniff*...I'm sorry Daddy.......

Neta: don't worry about Crab cakes..

Cirrina:........ Can you tell me something... You won't be mad or upset?.....

Neta: hm?

Cirrina: ............I used to hate you

Neta:............

Cirrina: when you were gone.... With squid squad..... I thought you left me and you didn't want me...... You were having so much fun on the surface. Making money, making friends, you left me behind......... I thought.......*crying*...... I thought you didn't love me anymore........

Neta: Crab cakes.... No.... Sweetie I love you..... I will always love you. Even before you were born, I loved you and the minute I held you I loved you even more.... And I would do anything to protect you and make your life easy..... I understand at the time that it didn't seem like it.... But I thought about you everyday, every minute and I couldn't wait to see you again............ I did all of this for you baby..... Every single choice I made I made for you. [Kiss]

Cirrina: I know that now dad hehe..... I just feel so dumb... I was so mad at you...... I thought you didn't care about me.... I hated you....

Neta: that's my fault... That's all my fault..... I should have reached out to you..... Wrote and called more. I'm sorry babygirl.......come here baby....Awww

Cirrina:hmmmmmm.[kiss]... It's ok. Love you dad

Neta:..I love you too......….............................. what's taking ikkan so long?

Cirrina:... I don't know hahahaha... He's not really good at talking to people.

Neta: hahahaha he really isn't... You should see him order food. It is terrible...if he can't order through an app he's doomed. Hehehe If it's not about a record label or scheduling shows he's a disaster when it comes to talking to people....... let me check up on-

Ikkan: I talked to the front desk lady and I got a room! I also ordered a pizza!... So there!! I know you two were talking shit.

Neta: aww babe! You did it!.... I wasn't talking shit... I love you. Right cirrina?

Cirrina: right! Hehehe we weren't saying anything

Ikkan: uh huh... Hope you enjoy shrimp and anchovies pizza

Neta: you know I do!!... Let's go babies! Get some food and some sleep.......................... Ikkan?

Ikkan: Yes

Neta: did you book a room with only one bed?

Ikkan: I said two beds but she put in one bed and I didn't correct her.

Cirrina:.*snort*hahahahahhaahhah

Ikkan: I'm sorry

Neta: [kiss] it's ok.hehehe... We can all share it.........for one night.. Aww it'll be just like when you were a baby Cici!! Remember when you were little and you had a nightmare? You used to sleep with me and Mommy?! Awww

Cirrina: Dad!.....*sigh*...... I'll take the left side.

Mahi? Mahiiiii?!...... Huh I guess they weren't in this one.. @fish-at-fish-fish-resort

_______________________________________________

#Daddy daughter heart to heart #cirrina is just like her dad both good and bad #cirrina love's her dad is grateful for all the sacrifices he made #Neta loves his baby she comes first before anything #she low key kinda spoiled tho #Kat isn't the greatest parental figure or person but who is really? #better then Gai #neta was left at the train station at 12 waiting for his dad he texted pulpo until his phone died and fell asleep on the bench #ikkan is shit talking to service workers #if someone messes up his order he accepts it anyway and gives it to nibbles #he's even worse when it's a phone call

[mischief-and-tea-by-the-sea]

Tarot and Rune Readings

Let me preface this by saying that the job hunt is a lousy and stressful thing, leading to many sleepless nights and nauseated and crying mornings. I put out at least 10-15 applications a day, and with a BA in English and MFA in Creative Writing, I should've had non-scam bites by employers by now. This has been going on for months. I wanted to move to NC this year and get the hell out of Texas, which is becoming more and more dangerous to live in by the day. I never know when I leave my house if I'm going to be shot for being bisexual, genderfluid, pagan, a uterus owner, wearing a mask in a world that isn't done with the pandemic yet (despite what anyone says), or just for existing in a space that a cis white straight conservative Christian man (or woman) is in where they just don't like my face that day. The lack of a job and incoming funds has made my sister, with whom I live and hoped to move to NC with before the end of the year, hesitant to move because it will be expensive to move across country, find a place, and live without it, but the jobs are just not coming, and I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm terrified of what will happen if we stay here.

I've got 30 years experience in reading Tarot and probably roughly 20 reading runes. I also have 22 years using psychometry, which comes in the form of symbols and ideas that mean something to the owner of the object. I've been doing dream interpretation even back into my teens (I'm almost 50 now, if that helps). I've worked dozens of psychic fairs when I still lived in South Texas and there was a shop there that held them four or five times a year. I'm good at what I do, and I'm prompt at getting back to someone who requests and pays for a reading. Only if I'm away from my computer on errands am I just not available at that moment but will make myself available as soon as I can.

I'm not going to lie. I need to get some financial security under me so that I can pay my bills, help cover rent, groceries, and to push for the move out of the rapidly growing more dangerous state that I live in. I'm willing to work for the money, and I'm not going to give half-assed replies to questions. I've got PayPal and Venmo and a selection of Tarot and Divination Cards to choose from as well as runes. If you're interested, I sure would like to talk and pull cards for you - in helping you, you'd be helping me, and it would be a great cycle of exchanged energy that would make things positive for the both of us.

My prices are:

$30 for 3-5 tarot cards

$50 for a full spread, 30 minute reading

$75 for for full spread, 1 hour readings

$25 Dream Interpretation

$35 Rune reading

Readings done online over IM chat (I have FB Messenger and Discord and can be persuaded to get back on Skype if preferred). I'm still learning Zoom but can probably work that out as well. I will provide a write up and photo of the reading, with the exception of Dream Interpretation, which will just have a write-up. Payment up front and readings to follow immediately.

I have also set up a secondary Tumblr for tarot/dreams where I may compile interesting topics from time to time as life permits. Please feel free to follow this blog, too, and messaging me there will also message me on my main Tumblr.

Mimir's Well.

Message me on Tumblr for further communication.

Thank you!

#Tarot #Runes #Divination #Dream interpretation #psychometry #Help a sibling out #Help a sibling escape a hell-state

[koiryuu]

21, 22, 27, 29

21. a number that weirds you out?

yknow.... despite my synesthesia, i don't have negative feelings towards a lot of numbers, they just have (pretty neutral) personalities, my brain sorta treats them like fictional characters so none of them creep me out or anything. which is weird, cause i have dyscalculia, so numbers are in fact the bane of my existence. idk ig really big impossible numbers like googolplex or whatever weird me out. i don't get how they exist or why but like Ok.

22. do you have an emotional support water bottle?

absolutely i do! its a dark blue zojirushi thermos with temperature control to keep my water fridge-cold and tasty. i literally have it with me at all times and bring it every time i leave the house, and im building a collection of fandom stickers on it :3

27. what’s your favorite or go-to outfit?

im a little lost in the Cool Outfit department lately, i have a lot of cool alt clothes but they don't really fit me right and its exhausting to try and dress up whenever i go anywhere so i mostly just. don't wear them. and opt for anime t shirt and sweatpants. but when i do try to dress up, i like my omocat sweaters and some accessories.... i just need cool pants. i have been dreamily planning an outfit for hot topic lately; loose tripp pants, a baggy t shirt, and a pink waist corset thing.... Yeah......

29. preferred pasta noodle?

DEPENDS ENTIRELY ON THE SAUCE.... im kind of a pasta purist honestly. i want the noodle that's supposed to be paired with the sauce. spaghetti is spaghetti. alfredo is fettucine. etc etc. but i will say im a sucker for when pasta has Stuff In It. stuffed shells, tortellini, ravioli, etc.

#SORRY THIS IS SO LATE.... i forgor

[szappan]

okay here we go: 1, 2, 4, 5, 8, 22, 23 i'd ask you about every single thing, but i shall leave something for other people to ask :DD goodbye for now i love you

hello darling thank you <3

1. song of the year: after careful deliberation i decided im going to say isn't this world enough?? by admiral fallow, which wasn't my most listened one nor did it play during any particularly important moment, but it's had a thrall on me ever since i first heard it and it's been in the back of my mind constantly. i'll probably want to change my answer the second i hit reply but very important song nonetheless.

2. album of the year: the corries' compact collection baby

4. movie of the year: rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead, every single year of my life. tbh i dont even know what i watched this year because ive been on a 24 hour x-men lockdown and it's taking up the entirety of my brain

5. tv show of the year: i shan't say it

8. game of the year: before your eyes. i didn't play it because i don't play viddy games ( :-( ) but i watched a playthrough of it the day i got my high school diploma, on my last day of school (which would have been emotional enough on its own but like this.. well, i was barely keeping it together, and it's been making me cry ever since every time i thought about it). anyway everyone go play before your eyes

22. favourite place you visited this year: péliföldszentkereszt maybe. but there's so many. i've also been to rome. and to samu's house

23. message i'd send to 2022 jan 1 me: you need 15 copies of paintings, not 15 pictures of your copies. you need to double the current amount of your painting copies. you dunce. hop to it.

#asks #aldrig #thank you aldrig! :-D it was fun to answer these. you often forget that the year doesnt start in september by the time you get to december #there was a whole spring this year and it was monumental and i dont remember many details of it

[selfmadetorturedsadnessetc]

1-22-23

Im back at the house after staying the weekend with a coworker. I don't want to be here other than being with my kids. I will be sleeping on the couch with my sister or I can try and sleep in the same bed as my daughter. Im seeing through a fog, it feels. Knowing this isn't my home anymore and I have all my stuff to try and pack up. 15 years of stuff mixed in with his. Also he says he has to take his mom to a dentist appointment tomorrow and will be missing a 3rd day of work. Which sucks bc I wanted to pack up a lot of knick knacks and such. First I need to transfer things from one shed to the other so I will have all my stuff in my moms old shed and he will have stuff in the one we had before.

He just sits around moping and such. I understand i hurt him by leaving and telling him I do not want to be with him. I don't want to be with anyone. I just need to get my stuff packed up while he is not here. Bc if he is here, he will be over my shoulder and yelling at me to not pack up my stuff. He swears I will come back to him. I have to find a place to stay in the next week or two. I can't live here with him. Knowing that me walking around is like throwing it in his face that he can't touch me or anything. Im not sleeping well at all. Im mentally exhausted. I have never been on my own and I know this will be the right thing for him and I. I plan to show him the bills and such. He needs to grow up.

I havent told DL or WN or anyone for that matter except JP. I dont want them all thinking I will be with them now. I want to be alone and travel and find myself and enjoy my passions.

[absurdthirst]

Im writing this to you because I don’t really know who else to talk this out with. I just wanted to know if I’m over reacting or not. I recently had a garage sale and this man comes over and looks at stuff and acts interested in something and he never buys anything so I’m expecting him leave but he stays and starts making conversation asking me all types of questions like: are you single? Do you have a husband/boyfriend? How old are you? (I’m 22). Do you like going out? Asking questions of if I live at the house I’m doing the garage sale at (which yes it is) asking who the person that lives across the street is (which is a family member) and things like that. He eventually asked if I was on Facebook and I lied and told him no and he finally went away. My reaction to all of this was just being uncomfortable and just wanting him to leave. It was just me and him outside and there was no one to really save me from the situation. I was trying to rationalize that maybe he was just asking questions because he lives on my block and is staying with one of my neighbors and is probably asking things because he’s curious about his neighbors. Or is he trying to get to know me and hit on me? He was older like 30 or mid 30’s because when I told him my age he said I “was still young”. And I just feel conflicted because I was uncomfortable while he was talking to me but also I’m questioning wether I should like the attention since I kind of crave male attention. Am I supposed to like all male attention if I want male attention? He wasn’t exactly giving off bad vibes but I wanted him to leave me alone anyways. Are my feelings valid? Or am I overthinking?

So IMMEDIATELY my mind went to the man asking questions because he wants to perhaps find an easy target to rob. He's asking if there are extra people in the house, if you are close to your neighbors. Things like that throw up a red flag when someone knows where I live. I'm not saying that is what he was doing, but when someone asks you things like that - lie. Make sure it seems like your house would be the worst house to break into and try to rob.

Second, just because you want male attention doesn't mean you want all male attention. That's implying that you have no choice in the matter and whoever comes up to you gets a turn. You aren't the village bicycle and have the right to choose what kind of attention you seek. The man may have been horrible at flirting, or he might have just not been your type. That's okay to not want him to keep talking to you.

Cut the conversation short, you don't owe this man a damn thing and it doesn't matter if he buys something from your garage sale or not. If you don't want to talk to him, or answer his questions, don't. Your feelings are valid in this and I think perhaps warning bells where going off. Some strange man comes up and asks me questions like that, I'm going to be wary too. It doesn't sound like a friendly 'I'm new in the neighborhood conversation' - he was gathering information on you

#real talk

[verbosebabbler]

ZampanioSim North About Newsposts: ZampanioSim North

I'm currently retracing my steps through the game with the new tools I have. Anything I find won't be added to my main document until I get enough to make the change substantial. It'll be v.2. at that point. But until then, I will list all my findings separately here.

These are newsposts that I found in the code. Debugger > farragofiction > ZampanioSimNorth > static > js > About.tsx

I tend to not add these to the main document as it feels more like notes meant for the creator's, programmers, and othersuch and not the participating audience. But It's important to at least archive them somewhere. The notes are here below the tab from 04/15/2021 - 10/19/2021

"04/15/2021", "i feel...tentatively hopeful about this project? maybe it goes nowhere but this is my first creative work since the pandemic started so *shrugs*. i'm just happy to be MAKING something. plus im kinda burnt out on homestuck???  and this Zampanio thing is...well i don't wanna spoil the creepypasta faq if you haven't read it yet. i just feel myself spinning up a new obsession is all."

"04/18/2021", "ugh. why did I decide a skill tree was so vital to this simulation? it's HARD to get it looking right rip. but skills are obvs important to actual Zampanio so what can i do. plus its absolutely hilarious seeing things like 'Book Beam' get generated"

"05/22/2021", "stats exist now, just copying from wigglersim cuz why wouldn't i. s'not like the actual Zampanio is clear on how stats are"

"06/01/2021", "shareable urls are a thing because i have a problem and the problem is wanting ppl to be able to share urls. this might TECHNICALLY violate the personalization requirement for Zampanio but...i mean. its me. i can't NOT make shareable urls.", "plus this way i can make custom sessions"

"06/02/2021", "lol i just realized what appeals to me so much about Zampanio. its kinda like House of Leaves meets Polybius? (however you spell that). i wonder if that makes the [REDACTED] the ~minotaur~?", "srsly i just freaking love that creepypasta faq so much"

"06/03/2021", "happy birthday OB, the achievement system just went live. its on the third too which is just perfect. i already was using 3 as an arc num in here. hey ,neat, all the numbers are divisible by 3 on OBs bday.", "i should do something with this..."

"06/06/2021", "finally making other menu screens, got statistics and achivements in. its weird, theres a lot more work than id think for just a simple simulation", "its because i cant keep my damn nose out of adding secrets everywhere and putting a frankly absurd amount of work into set pieces designed to make twists punch harder"

"06/08/2021", "im love. rage mode is everything i hoped it would be. absolute perfection. maybe i should call it headache mode? its just. its breath taking. beautiful. im the smartest damn human.", "i just really am a fan of things appearing to be one thing, revealing themselves to be a completely seperate thing, but if you think about it never weren't the first thing too."

"06/13/2021", ":) :) :)", "oh man im feeling so smug right now about what happens even in normal mode"

"06/16/2021", ":) :) :)", "https://www.reddit.com/r/TheMagnusArchives/comments/nzz96g/this_notspiral_perfectly_represents_spiral_in_my/"

"06/19/2021", "wastes can hack now (both in game wastes and real ones)", "if you're a real waste you don't need me telling you how to hack, g'luck ;) ;) ;)"

"06/20/2021", "finally got the skill tree to center itself omg why was that so hard"

"06/23/2021", "mess up bg but softly"

"06/27/2021", "50% less homestuck", "look this is just where i am right now, caring more about creepy pastas then sburb"

"06/29/2021", "menu items actually can be unlocked upgraded but not everything is implemented yet obvs"

"07/01/2021", "music!!!", "i especially love how terrible and upsetting the rage mode music is"

"07/03/2021", "just truth mode :) :) :)", "basically its a reference to Just Monika and a few other things"

"07/06/2021", "can use the skill tree to upgrade menus finally"

"07/10/2021", "working on gaslighting word meanings", "my fav part of this is i keep forgetting i did it and i get upset/confused that 'quests' are now called 'dogs' or something"

"07/11/2021", "standardizing OBs voice. they deserve more than just being AB but meaner."

"07/13/2021", "as the false bg moves around the true mirrors OBs thoughts"

"07/15/2021", "it is physically impossible to create a shitty world and NOT be a sociopath", "turns out the easiest way to make party members is to lobotomize a fully realized player"

"07/18/2021", "really like how i did the gods screen", "honestly everything about this project is ridiculously self indulgent. i don't actually expect many ppl to enjoy it but...its really fun to make??? it brings me joy to try simulating such a weird creepypasta.")

"03/30/3031", "i have finally implemented spiral/sand"

"07/22/2021", "hunting is no longer associated with clowns", "did i go out of my way to leave the 'bug' in for weeks just so i could mirror the faq bug? yes. ofc i did. theres just something so surreal about being issued a clown wig and a bicycle horn when you ask how to kill deer"

"07/23/2021", "THE END IS NEVER THE END", "we're really in it now"

"07/24/2021", " the Thief of Beef is now possible. that is all there is to say on the matter.", "rereading old newspost and srsly its surreal to see any even tangentially mention the pandemic? if i'd seen something like that in a dev log two years ago i would have assumed it was part of an arg or some shit and not just like 'ah yes that period of literal years where eveyone wore masks and reassured everyone about quarantine procedures any time they mentioned leaving the house'.

"07/25/2021", "the Thief of Beef is no longer mandatory for all party members to emulate", "haha whoops"

"08/02/2021", "okay so maybe game like activity is possible but i do not recommend it the ~~minotaur~~ gets pissed if you wander into its labrynth", "if you do it its on your end"

"08/03/2021", "dammit AW just let me know that the faq link is dead... gonna try to see if its cached somewhere (is it old enough for waybackmachine to find it???), if anybody sees anything related to it send it my way, i *swear* im not crazy this is a real thing", "also shoutout to 'craig researcher' which a scammer just let me know 'died' adn probably left me a huge fortune"

"08/05/2021", "one good thing about ZampanioSim getting leaked early is that I found out that firefox freaking *hates* fuckUpBGButSoftly. my beloved. why. ", "at least Truth no longer hates firefox with an unending rage"

"08/08/2021", "eyes and spirals are illegal, i thought you should know. and claiming the menu isn't a menu is equally illegal. maybe more illegal tbh", "maybe i should make like, a youtube guide showing why"

"08/14/2021", "how can eyes be real if mirrors aren't real? so anyways i made mirrors real just in case", "also truth is more true than it was before via being less true than it was before. its okay."

"08/15/2021", "Spiders can wear hats now.", "also, I guess if you care about that sort of thing, you can now be killed horrifically by monsters. well. just the one monster. it follows you around and even if you can kill it it just comes back slightly different. don't worry about it."

"08/16/2021", "time is now officially hard", "in addition to being the shittiest aspect it just is difficult to form. its difficult to follow without a proper mind"

"08/19/2021", "lets all regret having eyes together, shall we?"

"08/24/2021", "look i don't know how or why found footage is a part of the zampanio experienceyar. i just know i feel really proud of how i worked that part of it in."

"08/25/2021", "new avatar who this", "my fav part of this new design is it implies my lack of face was *always* a coiled spring, i just chose not to uncoil it"

"08/29/2021", "skills are real now but only if you're willing to blaspheme against the concept of simulations", "i personally wouldn't recommend blasphemy"

"08/31/2021", "theres something calming about actually getting to see what the skills do, finally. fun fact: its nothing", "shoutout to the late coleman researcher who definitely left me some money according to this scammer"

"09/13/2021", "starting to get desperate about finding that FAQ. the forums mostly seem dead, so I'm gathering up whoever I can find in a discord server to try to follow the breadcrumbs.", "Note to self: post link to discord once this goes live."

"09/21/2021", "bad news: still haven't managed to find that FAQ. good news: guess who just managed to get their hand on an *actual copy of zampanio*???", "Shout out to that weird dead zampanio server for somehow embedding it in a powerpoint???”

"09/25/2021", "things are really starting to come together!!! polish is continuing, a few more secrets!!!" :) :) :)

"10/05/2021", "trying to herd the spiders in here before Halloween. my plan is, no matter the state of the sim, to 'go live' before then.  i get the feeling i'll be working on this sim for the rest of my natural life (quite happily, don't get me wrong) so no sense in waiting for it 'to be done'!!!", "i still wanna add the quest system, maybe unlockable titles instead of them being default, maybe that lore screen i keep promising, you know, the basics. but also THE END IS NEVER THE END and all so there will always be things to add. you should add things too. on a03. on the wiki. anywhere fan works go. maybe if enough of us are making zampanio works we can shake loose what happened to that faq? or play it ourselves? Zampanio is a very good game. You should play it."

"10/19/21", "realized its kind of a dick move to throw wastes at 'infinite spiralling secrets' without even a hint of a guide (shame AB couldn't join us over here), so made my traditional gigglesnort hideytalk riddlefuckery checklist. going to start herding people in here proper.  shout out in the meantime to the Herald, the Scribe, the Weaver and the other Unmarked who found their way in even before I started herding, btw."

#discoveringzampanio

[toasts-httyd-hyperfixation]

I posted 95 times in 2022

That's 95 more posts than 2021!

39 posts created (41%)

56 posts reblogged (59%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@jusiri

@toasts-httyd-hyperfixation

@anhttydbookfan

@smallish-viking

@strawbearri-frog

I tagged 59 of my posts in 2022

Only 38% of my posts had no tags

#httyd books - 38 posts

#httyd book fandom - 34 posts

#httyd book series - 31 posts

#httyd - 22 posts

#book hiccup - 20 posts

#httyd book spoilers - 13 posts

#alvin the treacherous - 12 posts

#book!hiccup - 11 posts

#book fishlegs - 10 posts

#camicazi - 9 posts

Longest Tag: 116 characters

#but yeah even besides werewolves n stuff just giving characters ears or tails or wings or whatever is really fun lol

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Saw some troubled bird memes and while im sure this has been done before i wanted to do it anyways

Hiccup:

See the full post

90 notes - Posted August 30, 2022

#4

Alvin throughout the entire series

118 notes - Posted September 18, 2022

#3

I had wanted to make this post for a bit but I just never got around to it lol

So I know people have talked about about how Hiccup doesn't really fit into the typical gender roles of a Male Hero Character

He's quiet, polite, likes books, doesn't like fighting unless he has to, is generally just a softer hero than usual

And that's all true

But I haven't seen anyone mention how Stoick and Valhallarama also don't fit the typical Gender Roles of Mother and Father

Usually it's the mother that's kind and caring, takes care of the house and the kids

And the father is colder, more rough, distant

That's what the did in the Movies with Stoick and Valka

But Book Stoick and Valhallarama are the opposite of that

Stoick is the one who stays home and takes care of Hiccup, is openly affectionate towards him, is much more parental

And Valhallarama is more reserved, often gone, not very emotional, not particularly parental

It's never 'oh Valhallarama needs to stay home, be a mother, Stoick shouldn't have to do all this'

Those are just the roles they have

Idk I just think that's neat

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Another thing i appreciate is that Valhallarama being less emotional isn't portrayed as a bad thing

Like her not paying attention to Hiccup, her often leaving, and Hiccup feeling unloved by her is the problem

But not the fact that she's unemotional

Once she explains things to Hiccup and he understands that she does love him, but she's not the kind of person to openly express that, he's not angry about it

He never expects her to become more loving and emotional

That's never something that she's supposed to do

Pretty much she just has to own up to the fact that she made mistakes and work to fix them and her relationship with Hiccup in a way that makes sense for her

She doesn't have to change her whole personality to be seen as good, as loving, as caring

She's allowed to be unemotional without being emotionless

As someone who's bad at emotion and is uncomfortable with verbally and openly expressing love and stuff, it's nice that she's not made out to be horrible because of that

I really appreciate that about her character

148 notes - Posted September 16, 2022

#2

If Hiccup isn't AroAce then explain this

Ha, checkmate Aphobes!!

295 notes - Posted October 26, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Pride flag with colors eyedropped from each of the httyd books

With colors arranged in order of books:

With the colors rearranged:

See the full post

392 notes - Posted October 21, 2022

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[caninekakashi]

1 16 and 22 djdjsjdjfj <33333

I OWE YOU MY LIFE. im gonna do 22 first because everything else has to go under a cut its SO much

22. how much of your own self/experiences do you believe pours into your projects? if this differs per project, which projects have the most and least of you?

so much! i have to project onto these men or i will go insane. my brain is a big cocktail of disorders so i love seasoning characters with trauma or other issues and just forcing them to go through it, if a fic is lighter ill try to keep it softer but if i really want to write a whump fic, no one is coming out of that without at least 8 years of therapy

ok under cut now <3

give short descriptions of all your current WIPs

ok this is kind of a mess because i have so many

kkgai secret marriage fic: essentially team 7 decides that kk is a lonely sad man and start trying to set him up with literally anyone they can think of, blissfully unaware of the fact that gai and kk have been married for 3-5 years. all of the other shinobi know and do not say anything because this is hilarious to watch play out. this is sadly one of the least done ones </3

heart of a dog: i already have a oneshot up on this for ao3 but its going to be kkgai early years to pre-team7 and then a dif fic for after team7 to the ending. i am exploring youth mental illness and kakashi being a dog. this was mainly an excuse to write a slightly feral wolf kakashi

obkk pwp 1: kakashi's chakra veins get frozen fighting kiri nin while on a mission with obito, obito funnels his fire into a chakra massage to help melt the ice in kakashi, kakashi is half naked for Reasons and obito is pretty much fondling him in a sensory way.

slip your wedding veil over my eyes (leave me mourning, leave me blind.) obkk unknown marriage fic: follows canon events up until ob gives kk the sharingan, uchiha clan traditions dictate that a sharingan is a marriage present (exchanged between 2 clan members or between the clan member and the one being invited). ob does this as a last ditch effort to ensure that kks can NEVER have the sharingan taken away from him. since rin does the procedure she is counted as a witness and its a binding agreement. there WILL be angst in this

“with this eye i curse you, as you curse me. what i feel for you, you will feel through me. to the end of all things, i will fan your flame eternally. <- wip vows

you're here forever 2: this is another gift fic for u actually sdjhgs, obkkrin being in the timeout den all day. kakashi is very zoned out and very dog, obito woke up without a bedspread, rin is the only functional adult in the house that day

currently only at 2k words so its still Coming Along

explosion sound: friend sent me this i laughed about it for a full day. went "wait obkk" and started writing like an insane person. video is nearly verbatim conversation ob and rin have

time of the month: obito confuses the menstrual cycle with the phases of the moon <3 he is 13. rin and kk want 2 kill him and minato is dying

hokage requirments include fucking uchihas: thought about THIS post way too much, and decided that'd be a great post war redemption arc for obito

top surgery:

i genuinely don't know, this is the only thing written in that doc.

16. to what extent do you research for your writing?

for hoad i was googling the gender ratio for wolf litters at 3 in the morning. i don't know. what that necessarily MEANS for me... but it cannot be good.

this was to differentiate between hatake clan and inuzuka clan traits btw. for a throwaway line of topic that may not ever be used in fic, but it IS in my lore bible.

#tysm for sending an ask in i love these so much #lev responds #ask game

[banghwa]

tumblr user banghwa, formerly known as jihopes, famously known as an hyyh enthusiast, I must beg your opinion on some Lore(tm).

When hoseok swallowed all those pills in i need u, was he trying to die? or was it an addict chasing a high that alluded him as his body grew used to it? and does either answer change the overall context of his arc?

HIIIII my love ofc though im very forgetful so i may be wrong but i will try!! // tw for mentions of suicide, drug use, discussion of self harm under the cut

from what i remember the hoseok scenes in inu - specifically the one where he's walking down that overpass - is from a scene in the notes (may 10th, year 22) where one of the ladies from the orphanage hoseok grew up in fell very ill. hoseok gets really worried bcs shes v much a mother figure to him so he decides to go visit her but he sees through her window that she's laughing and seemingly in good health. which sends him into spiral which he only comes too from on the overpass briefly before passing out.

i dont think the pills are ever explicitely explained in the notes, and im also not sure whether he takes them before or after the entry...but my assumption is that, if inu is supposed to mirror this scene, then hoseok taking the pills is 1) (self?)medication for his misdiagnoses, which it is implied there are quite a few so its likely he'd be taking a cocktail of all sorts of meds, or 2) not so much an attempt on his life as an attempt to land himself in the hospital. hoseok compulsively lies about his health and causes himself harm in order to replicate symptoms and garder sympathy - result of his mom abandonning him. so the thought of another mother figure trying to trick him and leave likely freaked him out. either he took the pills before he went to her house and passing out was a result of his overmedication and a vasovagal episode, or he took them after in order to overdose and feign sickness.

as for whether that changes anything in his overall arc.....i would say his motivation not being to end his life is really significant. he doesnt want to die necessarily but he does need to feel cared for at all costs. i definetly do think addiction and numbness play into this too - he's so desperate to feel and to be loved that when the pills don't take as quickly he panics and takes more than he needs. it really illuminates a lot of his behaviour too, especially how he snaps at yoongi over jungkook. and how, despite hoseok "not actually being sick," he still IS deeply mentally ill and unstable and he doesn't even know it. it's only after he's able to admit this outloud that he can start putting his foot down. and in the end i think that really feeds how desperate hoseok is to get better once he actually hurts himself unintentionally and risks never being able to dance again. it just goes to show how important dance is to him because it's NOT an extension of his pain or his friends or his mother but its HIM. its the only thing that he has that isnt a derivative of someone else and so for once he desperately clings to health and autonomy.

#this got so long YAHOOOOO i could write a thesis on this guy <3 #hope this isnt too winded and makes at least a little sense lol and if im mistaken pls someone correct me !! #💌 #hyyhposting #anonymous #drug ment // #suicide ment // #self harm ment //