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diioonysus · 2 years
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beautiful men from the past (imo)
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mainfaggot · 1 month
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i just had cute small talk w a white gay barista but im afraid i came off as arrogant
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flovverworks · 11 months
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gonna ramble again n continue my mika talk so teehee gbf spoilers but itd be So easy to drop her n shitori into mhyk n i think about that sometimes. cuz loki n fenrir r trickier what with them teasing lokis place in astral society and fenrirs a primal beast n idk what to do w that, but mika majorly could just be copypaste more or less
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farmerlesbian · 3 months
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hi farmer lesbian!
so ive identified as bisexual for a long time but ive discovered recently i feel very comfortable within the lesbian ideas of gender and specifically the butchfemme community. i’ve been dating someone recently who also identified as bisexual but has related to transmasc lesbians understanding of gender as well as posts about butches. we both kind of see ourselves within the butchfemme dynamic but i’ve been very tough on myself with calling myself a lesbian because i’ve dated a man before (…in middle school..)
it’s gotten to the point where i’m really worried to label myself because of what it’d imply for my partner? but also what people would say? and while i know i dont HAVE to label myself it just sucks to know theres an identity im drawn to and feel like i fit into that i cant immediately slip into
hmm i'm not really sure how to guide you here. i guess i want to challenge you on some of the things you're saying here, it feels like you're coming at this from maybe the "wrong" angle (wrong feels too harsh a word, maybe just not the most helpful angle)
you're worried you can't call yourself a lesbian because you dated a boy in middle school? i think.. a LOT of lesbians dated boys in jr. high and high school and there are lots of late in life lesbians who were married to men for years before figuring out who they are and coming out. this is all completely normal and common. like, dating one boy in middle school doesn't really mean much tbh. i wouldn't base your identity or label you use around something like that. i dated a bunch of boys in high school and early college when i was still figuring out who i was. your labels or identity or gender or sexuality don't need to account for all you life experiences and past. it's not so much about your sexual history but describing who you are *now*, what you're interested in, in the present.
you say both you and your partner really like Lesbian Genders and butch/femme stuff. that's nice, but liking and relating to lesbian culture and gender stuff doesn't make you a lesbian haha! it's who you're attracted to and who you're not, that determines your orientation. gender and orientation are different things, as i'm sure you know. obviously very connected and stuff. like, for example, just because someone identifies as a man it doesn't make him straight, even though heterosexuality is an integral part of manhood, in the dominant culture. gay trans men are certainly not rare! the same goes for you guys.
also, remember that transmasculinity is a broad umbrella and encompasses a wide variety of people and their identities and experiences. plenty of butches aren't transmasc, and probably most transmascs aren't butch.
i will tell you that in the course of running this blog and being on the internet, i've probably seen and shared thousands of photos and drawing of people. not once have i ever seen something that represents me and my wife. if you are seeking out representation or examples of the options to be, in order to figure out who/what you are, i would advise against that. seek what feels true to you, what feels honest and right. you do not need to be similar to other people in order to find belonging, acceptance, and community. (though of course this is absolutely nothing wrong or bad if you do find others just like you, if you do fit in to existing roles and dynamics! that is of course perfectly normal!)
now, i don't know you or your partner. you know yourselves best. i can't tell you what you really are or really aren't. and i certainly am not going to tell you what you can or can't be! everything i'm saying here is to prompt you to think about and questions to ponder for yourself.
so, i think you have some points to think about, why have you been identifying as bisexual? what is drawing you to the lesbian label? have you tried using 0 labels and not thinking about your identity or labels for at least a month or two (if not a several months) and then coming back and evaluating it afresh? what about the butch-femme dynamic are you drawn to? what is holding you back? you are allowed to discover that you are a lesbian! or you are allowed to continue to be bisexual! i can't tell you who you are - but you're allowed to be and do whatever you want, whatever feels true to you! even if it doesn't make sense to other people or you don't see anyone else like you out there. you gotta be a little bit brave!
hang in there, and sending much love to you and yours! 🧡
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ataraxixx · 6 months
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ok so theres this rlly obscure ninjago character i think their name is ekosan ??? idk theyre like zanes lesbian sibling i think itd be fucking baller if u drew them ...
or alternatively harumi and arin interacting ?
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ajax when there is making a stupid comic at the function. i have a lot of thoughts abt interactions between papaya+ the dr cast howevr im quite tired so this is fairly short. transcript under cut
A: i can't believe it's the quiet one!!
S: i literally don't know who that is
A: only one of the scariest villains the ninja have ever faced
S: ok??
H: who're the kids btw?
L: my students, arin and sora
H: hi
S: hi
A: bro!
H: are you guys ninja?
S: in training
A: yes.
H: i'm harumi, i'm lloyds-
H: -sister? i guess, don't think too hard about it
S: i'm from imperium, i'm sora
A: arin. i'm from ninjago city. i lost my parents in the merge, so..
S: he said you're evil
A: did not!
H: well, it's true
H: when i was younger, i lost my parents too. and i was angry
H: i tried to fill my heart with other things instead. and it turned out pretty bad, haha
H: you have a good mentor, though
A: ... yea
H: it was nice chatting! i've got to get back to my friends now
S: she seemed nice
A: morro and mr. e?!
S: is it really so surprising..?
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biohazurdd · 6 days
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falsettos and rent are my favs u shoulf tell me what yoy like ab9ur thisr two musicals soecifically
falsettos is my favorite for a few reasons
for one its been around since 1981, which for such an explicitly queer musical is really cool to me
it helped me also realize that i was probably queer in a funny way, i really fixated on martin and whizzer and i was like “thats so weird haha why could that be” (its because i was a queer little guy and seeing two men be so expressly intimate meant a lot to me)
it was also interesting to be able to relate to a lot of the characters and apply them to my everday life, i see my mom a lot in trina for example
i also think its a beautiful example of queer solidarity (ex: charlotte and cordelia helping marvin), and that the lesbians are super slept on theyre really cute and lovely, they deserve more attention
marvin and whizzer where do i even START man.. their relationship is really beautiful to me in a strange way. its not totally healthy and functional, but they’re trying their best and they choose each other over everything again and again and again.
im a die hard truther that all they needed was a good therapist and time to actually sit down and talk to eachother instead of just assuming that sex could fix everything..
and we can really see that towards the end when whizzer gets sick, you can see how well they genuinely work well together when push comes to shove and when they really need each other.
i’ll never get over how marvin stayed in that hospital room for god knows how long and how deeply jason and whizzer bonded before he died. i think its a really harrowing experience as the viewer to watch this family grow and develop and try to function only to be put back at square one after the loss of the family member they all, in their own way, were just beginning to accept and come to turns with.
im so normal about the baseball game and how no matter how hard marvin tried to be a hardass he just couldnt resist going back to whizzer because he knew that the truth was he loved him.
and again the dynamic between jason and whizzer just immediately brings me to absolute tears !! always !! the fact that jason didnt want to have his bar mitzvah without whizzer there, that whizzer helped convince jason to attend therapy, that jason invited whizzer to his baseball game despite him and marvin having been split for 2 years at that point hello??
also just how important it is for young queer people to be educated about the aids & hiv crisis and just how heavily it affected our lgbt elders, especially gay men. this musical started debuting when this crisis was on the rise and at its climax, and its still important today to remember why there are fewer elder queer people and why its so important to be educated on queer history and safe sex.
marvin and whizzer are excellent queer characters, but these events also happened in real life to thousands of people.
according to the CDC, nearly 330,000 gay and bisexual men with stage 3 HIV (AIDS) have died since the 1980s.
these are our fellow queer siblings, who are still fighting the battle our elders did. its so important to get tested, practice safe sex, and be open with your partner(s) about your sexual history. thousands of queer people are losing their loved ones to stds and illnesses like HIV and AIDS, don’t let you and your loved ones go without being tested and safe.
thats all, thank you for the ask, sorry this ones so long and heavy. :]
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munamania · 1 month
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i won’t screenshot the dms bc i don’t feel like opening the latest message but EYE posted on my story abt the tiktok pictured below basically about how i got horny thinking abt someone working through a difficult math problem lol don’t worry abt that anyway sam slides up bc i cut part of it out so as to avoid insta censors and my slight embarrassment lol and was like does that say c*m and i was like well yes and then he was like haha what you’re into math… girl u have to walk w the thought process 😑 which i know you’re incapable of anyway so i vaguely responded like ah yeah what being away from stem for so long will do to u and he responds with like ten messages. including. ‘you gotta do it yourself’ that’s not the point 🙄 ‘you know how i’m terrible at talking to women’ wow really ‘so i realized i can calculate the speed of cum’ ‘bc i have some data’ DID I ASK?????!???!?!!!?!!!!! hello there’s oversharing and then there’s this… does the girl you’re having sex with know you share to this extent. and then he said how he accidentally brought this up to someone irl to be like haha awk whoops and i was like yeah well there r times where perhaps we need to self censor. and then i also get a message that’s like ‘hang on im doing the math’ IM NEVER EVER EVER GONNA BE ATTRACTED TO U I HOPE U KNOW THAT SCREAAMMMMM (and u need to know bc he’s genderfluid. im only using one set of pronouns for clarity on here ok i promise im not a dick. but he thinks he’s like. an exception for lesbians basically… like he doesn’t Count…. and like look im no essentialist im all for like freaky gender sex but also at so many other turns you do take advantage of being seen as a white male so. i don’t. yeah.) he’s kind of like the creepy dude at the edge of the friend group in high school named matt who would constantly harass me and my ex but like tried to be so lowk abt it. and it’s so bad basically. ‘17mph is crazy’ i hope you fall in an intersection sorry i can’t do this anymore 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 so pissed i have to see him tmrw i should be able to watch mmxxl w scully in peace
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criticalrolo · 1 year
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i INSTANTLY need to know more about cormorant da-ge
im sticking nie mingjue in a house by the river run by two lesbians with their younger siblings so he can make friends with some birds and be wildly overprotective of the kids to his hearts content
anyway here's what's going on to get NMJ sent to the seaside for his health like a jane austen character
JGS is making noises about how much more convenient his life would be if someone would Rid Him Of This Turbulent Sect Leader, Henry II style, and JGY has the idea to try out this cool new composition called the Song of Turmoil
Except he's never tried to kill someone with the Song of Turmoil before, and apparently those songs are powerful enough to kill people within three notes if played by a master! and this is a Modified Version that could conceivably do... Anything
So the first time he decides to try out the song. well. instead of a slow poison he's got a half-dead da-ge spitting blood on the floor 50% of the way into a qi deviation
PANIC. drag his sworn brother to the Koi Tower Basement to see if your half-baked stygian tiger amulet can do anything
the song is still in NMJ's head causing problems so he works out a plan with XY to try to just. erase the song and the memory of that afternoon. see if that does the trick
NMJ wakes up and says what the fuck. where am i. who are you
FUCK SHIT FUCK okay. we're going into crisis mode since we obviously can't send an amnesiac da-ge back to Qinghe when we were SUPPOSED to be doing medical care
Xue Yang go dump this guy in a river to get him as far away from here as possible while JGY does some DAMAGE control to make it look like NMJ left Lanling like expected and possibly disappeared on the way back home
1 terrible trip down the river later, local Yunping fisherman's cormorants find a body in the weeds. he fishes the biggest dude he's ever seen out of the water and OOPS this guy is still alive!! good thing his sister's "very good friend who shares a room with her and is raising a child with her" is the town's doctor!
Cue frantic life saving scene where eventually This Guy wakes up and tells them he doesn't remember anything about himself or his life. oh no he must have fallen off a boat somewhere and hit his head really hard :(
Doesn't even know his own name. He's pretty sure he can remember being called Da-ge by someone though
They'd feel bad if they just set this guy wandering off with literally Nothing to go on in the world. plus he can reach the top shelves in their house without having to get a chair
He can stay with them if he helps with the farm animals, learns how to fish, and helps out the family business. And even though his meridians are all fucked up he's got a little bit of cultivation ability so he can help their daughter build up her golden core. He's pretty good at this training thing!
They've got nine cormorants named after the Nine Sons of the Dragon. Baxia the cormorant is fucking obsessed with Da-ge for whatever reason
Domestic life continues with Da-ge out on a boat during the day and helping the cultivators out with developing their golden cores, training they normally wouldn't really have access to
One day the doctor says her cousin is coming to visit! she hasn't seen her since the end of the Sunshot campaign and she's excited to reconnect with her. oh look here she comes!! hi luo quinyang it's been forever since we've seen you!!
POV: you are Mianmian, you left the cultivation world a year ago and you're traveling around as a rogue cultivator now. You visit your cousin. Fucking Chifeng-Zun is in her front yard. He's been presumed dead for the last year. what the actual fuck do you do
meanwhile JGY is desperately trying to convince NHS back in Qinghe to accept that his brother is dead for his own sake <3 for his own closure so he can lead the sect in his brother's memory <3 please god stop looking into this <3
NHS: "haha yeah you're probably right sang-ge. anyway im going to go look into all of our historical records to see how i can get access to Dead People's Spirits to Find Their Bodies and maybe this will lead to me bringing my dead necromancer friend back from the dead. xoxo"
anyway eventually they reunite and it's a whole debacle. this is actually a v long way for me to make NMJ and mianmian accidental friends because I think it would be funny
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bxnnmoon · 1 year
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So, I've never done this but I wanted to try it💕
I really love pkmn journeys u know
I like the dynamic between Ash and Gou, romantic or not and now that is almost about to finish, i will say that there's something that bothers me A LOT, in pkmn the friendship groups in every gen i feel that they're friends between all of them
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BUT JOURNEYS?????
HELL NO
It feels unorganic, forced to be together more than a group of friends, like honestly only Ash and Gou are/feels like friends, Koharu is just,, there, which is a shame i really like her and potential dynamic between them but,, i can't lie
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It's just sad bcs not only they don't work as a dynamic group but 1 and 1 also don't work out, Gou and Koharu are supposed to be childhood friends, speculating they met for sure when they were 5 years old, basically 5 or 6 years (depending on how old Gou is) of friendship and,,
it doesn't seem like they've been friends THAT long💀, They seem more like friends because they're neighbors or their parents introduced them from a very young age and WHY. It's very difficult to maintain a friendship that you have known since you were very young
but since they want me to believe that despite everything, they never stopped talking to each other since they're so different 💀??
I can't, like their personalities match up so perfect and makes sense why they're friends but
I'm just making hcs bcs journeys doesn't show that 😔
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Like yeah both are my babies and they are besties gay/lesbian solidarity/hostility<33 but
It's just headcanons JDNDJ
And.. I don't even want to talk abt Koharu and Ash bcs they just interact in such a meaningless things or offscreen lmao i don't get why some ppl ship them
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It's so funny this screenshot for me but it's LITERALLY how their dynamic is 💀
And i don't think that should say that the only dynamic that works is Ash and Gou bcs it would be dumb saying this knowing im stgo shipper and that i love their friendship and i talk about them JDKSK
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so yeah they're my babies but damn.... i can't with that bcs i really like the companions in the previous gens and how their dynamics were so fun and they feel like friends 😔
And the worst part is that i have to point my daughter bcs i think this happen bcs Koharu writing
It's a disaster what they tried to do with Koharu, which is disappointing bcs it was a cute concept, getting her so far away from Ash and Gou was the biggest problem why they don't work together, but also it's funny bcs she gets along much better with girls lol
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I TALK TOO MUCH BUT I HAVE A LOT TO SAY JDNDJ
I THINK THAT'S ALL THO
I want them to be in the next gen even with this being said bcs i love Gou and Koharu haha pls don't go</3
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olivieraa · 10 hours
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My sympathies 😔 I also have food issues and fending off people who are trying to make you eat things you can't and keep asking why is so exhausting. Out of curiosity though, have you ever tried any of those meal replacement drinks?
agreed and I'm actually curious about you as well? aside from it being exhausting, do you somewhat feel like you're... not exactly a burden but somewhere along those lines when it comes to making other people not feel uncomfortable around you and your food issues?
one, I was on a holiday with friends in Croatia a few years ago which I knew that if there wasn't a plain chicken and chips option anywhere, I was quite screwed. one of the first nights we were there and we went out for dinner, everyone ordered a meal with a name I'd never heard of. I ordered a cocktail. when I finished said cocktail I left the group to go look for a nearby takeout of some kind just to get a bag of chips (fries) so I wouldnt starve, and ate there by myself before heading back to the restaurant. I stress myself out with my food habits, but always feel like... I'm stressing the people around me as well, even tho it doesn't affect them. it affects me and my whole life, trying not to starve, and yet I feel like Ive to be polite and like... apologise to others for not being a normal eater. Im less so now, I'm actually quite angry when people get annoyed at me for it now. I was curious is it the same for you? Ive 2 friends weddings coming up and I'm dreading the idea that I have to push the "set dinner" out of the way if its something I dont eat. I'm planning to bring a couple of cereal bars with me in my handbag and just drink a lot lmao JUST incase there's no "basic" food
and about the food drinks, I was thinking of looking into one that these two camper lesbian youtubers keep promoting in their vids, but I'll need better income for it haha. but yeah I consider it an eventual thing
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cordialsilence · 10 months
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I just read a new article about Beetlejuice 2 and I am absolutely DISGUSTED because the article was about the leaked images from set and since Jenna Ortega is in a weding dress the entire article was just “oh haha maybe the plot is Beetlejuice Ruins Jenna’s Wedding”.
You buffoons
You morons
You pieces of cilantro
did you even look at the photo:
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apart from my lesbian ass dying at how pretty Jenna Ortega looks during golden hour lighting
THERE IS BLOOD ON THAT DRESS
WHOS BLOOD IS IT WHERE DID IT COME FROM WHO IS JENNA ORTEGA FIGHTING IN A WEDDING DRESS WHY IS SHE SO PHOTOGENIC IS THERE AN ACTUAL FIGHT WITH LIKE KNIVES DOES SOMEBODY GET STABBED DOES JENNAS CHSRACTER KILL SOMEONE IS THST JACKET PART OF THE COSTUME WHO DESIGNED THAT DRESS IM SURE YOU TRIED BUT THE FABRIC MIX IS HORRIBLE MAYBE ITLL LOOK BETTER ON CAMERA
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i-like-omori · 10 months
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no one asked, but here's my omori headcannons
no one ever asked for my opinion but i still wanna share these are romantic/s*xuality headcannons, maybe a few others but at the time of writing idk these wont have explanations besides just like, if you've been in the fandom and know where im comming from (is saying s*x or anything related bannable to tumblr? i dont want to risk it so everything will be cencored)
sunny
he thinks he's 100% straight.
gynoromantic or neptunic gynoromantic: can like anyone, but they'd have to have prominent feminine traits neptunic: only liking non-binary people and girls
aegos*xual doesn't want s*x physically but can still think about it I guess
most likely cisgender
omori aromantic having no romantic attraction as*xual having no s*xual attraction*
kel
doesn't know much about the LGBTQ community, but knows he's at least not straight
biromantic bis*xuality, but romantically*
bis*xual or gigas*xual /j + orchids*xual bis*xual: likes both men and women** orchids*xual: expirences s*xual attraction but doesn't want s*x at all gigas*xual:
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😭help- ok back to seriousness ···
most likely cisgender
aubrey
fights her homosexuality, hates it with a passion.
biromantic (with preference to women) or lesbian biromantic* lesbain: a woman who only likes other women
bis*xual or lesbain bis*xual**
most likely cisgender
basil
he knows, kel knows, sunny knows, aubrey knows, hero knows, mari knew, it's obvious, but he still says "straight"
gay.
gives me genderfluid but tends to be male presenting 98% of the time, but probably cisgender
hero
one of those guys who get really nervous when speaking to gay people hero - "haha i love fruit.. wait.. i-is that offensive? i'm sorry, i dont know if the term 'fruit' or 'fruity' is okay to say.." kel - "dude we're talking about watermelons here."
heteros*xual ally
grays*xual only sometimes feeling s*xual attraction
cis.
mari
trys to learn everything she can and be as understanding as possible. Tries to help hero out of his paranoia around offending people.
heteros*xual ally
as*xual*
cisgender
hopefully these are cool 👍
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fraudulent-cheese · 3 months
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heatherra, dashawn, scottney
Ok dang, three interesting ones! Im gonna do these in the ship ask game format because fuck it we ball
Heatherra - don't ship it
Why don’t you ship it? IM SO SORRY I TRIEDDD MAN I TRIED SO HARDD i know about the fuckin "boyfriends come and go but girlfriends are forever" line and the idea of Sierra going from not liking her at all to being Heather's ultimate supporter is a neat idea but it just. Never clicked. That and the content about them doesn't tend to grab me. (doesn't help that i haven't watched WT yet and i don't have the time or motivation to commit to a full watch)
What would have made you like it? Idfk!!! Alot of Heather ships just don't click with me in general (like i either prefer them as friends or just. don't fucking get it), and canon Sierra is. a problem. give her therapy and then i'll consider it
also uhh im attached to the aroace Heather + aro Sierra headcanons too much oops
Despite not shipping it, do you have anything positive to say about it? I actually see where you guys are coming from at least! The fanart's great and they definitly work for me in some cases.
Dashawn - ship it
What made you ship it? I'll be real, @noahtally-famous's fics about these boys did. I love how they write them!!! They both have issues and are pretty opposite and their relationship 100% needs major amounts of compromise to work but damn they'd be cute i think
What are your favorite things about the ship? As i said, the opposites attract aspect here is pretty strong; Shawn is a survivalist who can hop from tree to tree, Dave looks like he spends 2 hours at most in the sun. Shawn could probably dive into a dumpster and be completely fine afterwards, Dave has a panic attack about grease on his hands. They do have some things in common: namely that they're both really weird. Only one is aware of it. Pretty funny to me.
Dave could probably calm Shawn down if he's panicking about zombies and Shawn can wash the dishes for Dave in return :D
Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship? There are like 5 shippers i don't even know people's general opinion on this ship??? so instead just have this image because i think it's cute
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Scottney - Don't ship it
Why don’t you ship it? I'll be real, it's just because i only like them as like. Fun stupid drama. That fucking clip of Scott eating dirt and asking if Courtney would cheat on him is peak comedy to me. comic relief straights. (it's a lesbian and a gay man)
What would have made you like it? Uhhhh nothing? lmao i already like them i just don't ship them haha
Despite not shipping it, do you have anything positive to say about it? They're really funny to me. Honestly this template's biggest issue is that it assumes you don't like the ship at all if you don't ship it lmao
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glitterock · 6 months
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I love ur gender, tbh I've always felt like that too (woman to lesbians and nb to everyone else) and it's like !!!!!! I can put it into words instead of just saying half nonbinary lmao. cause tbh the only ppl who make me feel like a woman are other lesbians. in conclusion lesbians are the greatest ppl on earth <3 luv ur blog vibes, and pillow princesses/high femmes deserve the world
also ur poly ? could u make a post bout that like... idk mentioning a lil more bout ur experiences w that, also do u have a free love "relationship anarchy" type thing where everyone gets the same amt of commitment etc, or do u have a main anchor type gf along w other relationships? cause I am in a poly relationship rn and it is going kinda ehhhhhh and most shit online I've tried looking for advice is wayyyyy too unrelatable for my taste. not just struggling w jealousy but it's kinda like there's sm empty feeling and I think the prob is not having an anchor partner but idk
not trying to b TMI or whateverrrrrrrrr and sorry I wrote so much !! not expecting a reply or anything I'm sure u get a lot of messages lol
have a wonderful day!! :)))
hehe thank you ! glad u like my vibes !
and yes i have a handful of experience with being poly and i’ve tried many different poly relationship styles and honestly yeah it’s really just about trying it out and seeing what feels right. The relationship i was in where i had one primary partner and we both got to have casual dates and sex with others probably worked out the best for me and made me feel the most secure and fulfilled out of any relationship i’ve ever had. We were also long distance which is why this worked well for me, and I liked knowing that no matter who we were hooking up with, me and my partner were actively choosing each other to be with (that is until they left me for someone they were hooking up with but that’s not the point haha before that it was all great!)
i also have been in poly relationships/situationships where i’ve been the secondary partner/have been seeing people who were primary partners and i haaaaated that. i think it was also partly the fault of the other people for various reasons, but to me, that kind of poly relationship was extremely unfulfilling and made me feel like i was only being appreciated when i presented myself in a sexual manner. I realized that i myself definitely am more secure when i’m going to be in some sort of relationship with people that want to prioritize me always not just when i’m invited into the bedroom. i think being a priority is where i draw the line with being non-monogamous and i don’t think i would try a polycule/dating primary partners ever again. im sure some polycules exists that are free of favoritism and bias but im not willing to try that again to find it
i use “poly” as an easy umbrella term but i less consider myself polyamorous (which i define as being able to have multiple committed relationships with multiple people at once) and more consider myself non monogamous where i prefer to have a primary or “anchor” partner who is separate from my casual dating/sex life. I also wouldn’t mind trying monogamy again one day, just not in this stage of my life when im young and traveling and just love making connections with the people around me !
idk i think a lot of queer people are poly or some variation of it these days so i think it’s easy for people to feel pressure to be a certain kind of poly or just poly in general when really you shouldn’t be doing anything you don’t feel secure with just to please others. i hope this helps and good luck!
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menalez · 1 year
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hey i just wanted to say thank you for talking about your SA. i actually had a very similar experience w/ a guy i was really good friends with in high school.
he was my best friend, but i got pressured into dating him by my friends, family, his parents. (his mom guilted me into being w/ him 🙄 practically stalked me til i said yes)
he ended up abusing me for nearly 3 years.
and in that time i wrote stupid notes or letters to him making sex jokes cuz i was a KID. the lawyer we hired blamed me for his actions bc of the letters bc of he did 🤦🏻‍♀️
but even still, some weird part of me misses our friendship that we had before other people started meddling in our business. it makes me feel guilty sometimes, and other times it's relief. iunno trauma is weird.
uh but yeah. thank you for sharing, i know it's hard to talk about and be open with this sort of thing. i just wanted to say that you aren't alone as a lesbian who wrote dumb things as a kid or who missed/misses what friendship you had before your friend SA'd.
i think it's also extremely fucked up for people to judge your sexuality based on the way you tried to cope in the past, let alone now.
just know that a lot of women, myself included, really appreciate you being here c:
hey thank u for sharing ur story with me ❣️ honestly the thing that rly hurt about it looking back is it was in a v vulnerable time in my life. i rly had practically nobody. i lost almost all my friends bc i was suddenly a "whore" for getting raped. i would get these messages on all my social media accounts like "you deserved it" "you were seducing him" "haha hes living a good life and youre cutting yourself looooooooool pathetic!!". my friend group went from a lot of my school (small school but its normal for bahrain) to like ... 4 people in bahrain. one of them was that guy that had a crush on me since we were like 11. he would stand between me n my rapist and went to the principal about it so that i would have lesser proximity and was one of the only people who seemed to empathise w my situation. i felt quite indebted to him n everyone would repeatedly call me an idiot and tell me i should be with him and my mom would say she wishes he could be her son in law or w/e and at one point he started insisting that we are together despite me telling him no we are not & that i dont want to be w him. i gave up on saying no eventually n just went along with all of it. i felt like i was stupid for saying no ??? ppl kept telling me i was n i was like huh i guess i am. never said no again rly, up until the very end where i could no longer ignore it n keep putting myself thru any of that. after leaving that situation i saw how fucked up it was that there were all these obvious signs and me obviously signalling TO HIS FACE that i dont want to be w him, that im not interested in him, that it was further traumatising me n harming my mental health, and also the times where what he was doing would fall under SA....idk i felt stupid for facing one male friend taking advantage of me and then another one doing it soon after right in front of my face n i thought it was somehow different and normal and ok simply bc i wasnt getting downright threatened. but i know if someone else didnt hear my rape story n tell me "uh thats rape and thats fucked up" to begin with i wouldve also probably let that happen again n again too n not thought much about that while getting traumatised until afterwards too.
anyways... im glad that ur out of that situation. im sorry that we have some shared trauma there. shit like this is why i dont even trust "nice guys" anymore fr. i dont think that many ppl can rly understand that sort of situation and i can get how its confusing, bc it was a confusing time for me too. but idk why they think theyd know better than me about my own life either lol
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js watched heartstopper s2, dont do it. dont watch it. im in tears rn
(also this is gonna be a rant post so haha)
SPOILERS FOR HEARTSTOPPER S2 AND MENTIONS OF SELF HARM AND EATING DISORDERS!
charlie telling nick that he used to cut himself and then nick asking if he still does it and making charlie promise that if it ever gets that bad again he'd tell nick is honestly not how i wanted the season to end. i am in SHAMBLES that was SO FUCKING SAD IM CRYIFN AND SOBBING. also charlie passing out because he hadnt eaten enough made me actually so sad. i love that nick is always there for charlie and tries to make the situation better but he obviously messes up sometimes because not everyone is perfect. i love that alice oseman actually recognizes that not everything people do is going to make shit better
heartstopper really js makes me sad and happy at the same time because it dives right into like shitty stuff but then shows you nick and charlie kissing and it makes everything better again (almost). i really like how they (alice oseman) actually notice that mental health is a thing too bc a lot of shows and movies and shit dont recognize that people have trouble with problems mentally. i like that alice oseman actually made it so they struggle with mental health and not just making it seem like everything is fine because it isnt. it also has a lot of inclusion from having lgbtq+ cast members and characters to having people who use they/them be in the cast and be characters, and it also realizes that gay bi and lesbian arent the only sexualities to ever exist. it also had issac being confused about his sexuality after he kissed james. i thought that was a nice touch bc not everyone instantly knows their sexuality. it takes time to figure out who youre attracted to, what youre attracted to, or if youre even attracted to anyone. i thought it was nice seeing issac having to figure out his sexuality and being confused about it. james was also really understanding and not pressuring issac to know everything about himself and his sexuality right then and there. i like how he was supportive and didnt immediately push issac to tell him his sexuality. also having the characters families not be absolutely perfect was nice to see (coming from someone who doesnt have the best family ever), because not everyone is lucky enough to have a good family or a good relationship with their family. heartstopper is just really cool man, idk. i love it sm its such a cool show and book series :3
on the other hand though, we got to see more tori which was sick. i love tori sm :D
theres a ton more i wanna say buuuuuut going back thru this i js realized how long it is so im gonna stop now lmao
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