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pinkd3mon · 7 months

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Dealing with Trauma while being King Dedede

Bonus:

Dealing with Trauma while being Taranza

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noisy-weasel · 1 year

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When you can't play the main story because you're too weak and you can't catch up on hard mode 3 chapters behind because you're still too weak and you can't play the event because you're too weak and farming levels is a horrible part time job and it's like well wtf man. wtf I'm supposed to do?

#obey me #and then they ask me to rate their game. its a 1 for you my boy #sorry but i dont gaf about r8ings online bc theyre all fake anyway except for games with like 10reviews max #my 1 star rating wont change shit so it doesnt matter how i truly feel abt the game #still obsessed with tbe game but yeah its clear from day 1 fhat the battle system is not really well thought out #its not completely unpolished or anything its just WAY too grindy #theres kinda no excuse for only getting 200-320xp per battle when lvl ups are in the 10k of xp #and the quick clear not giving card xp is absurdly stupid + greedy #i genuinely do not know what to do rn besides just open tbe game every hour to send out jobs #since using money is the only real way to level cards that isnt a second job #really unfortunate basically #and then some absolutely unhinged person on reddit said you should have 3 cards per color??????#lady... i dont even have ONE CARD PER COLOR and leveling the 3 from my main party is taking SEVERAL YEARS #time to go back to my ikemen games for a while methinks #im caught up in ikepri but none of the others

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baldislearnersinitiative · 5 months

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ANNOUNCEMENT

Since, unfortunately, I lost my files [mostly the references for all the character colors], Ive decided to make a soft reboot of the series, o n e big change is that they'll all have uniforms now! [So i wont have to go through the trouble of getting reference pics of their outfits mostly] And to solidify them into the AU as a different entity, this is UNCONNECTED, to any of their canons [except for backstory] Anything done to them here on out is headcanon/au based, and things picked through backstory. THIS SERIES W I L L CONTINUE. I'll just delete the first two asks for a clean reset of it. The artstyle will also change a little, im trying not to be too much of a perfectionist so i can actually finish the asks. So, have their new uniforms + chatbubbles! The asks are reopened, as my christmas break is coming soon, which means by then [after my exams and projects] I should have some time to keep up with the asks, please rememeber I am just a student, so please dont pressure me into making these, this is all for fun, and Im sorry for making you all wait this long for a bit of content. Thanks for all the support so far! And I hope to update again soon!!!

#ask baldis learners initiative #baldis learners initiative #amanda the adventurer #ata amanda #baldis basics #ni hao kai lan #dont hug me im scared #dhmis #dhmis yellow guy #dora the explorer #dora #pibby #learning with pibby

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aliaology · 5 months

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HOUSE THAT BUILT ME

summary: reader (older hughes sister) takes a small flight to toronto to say goodbye to the home she grew up in before moving to michigan.

pairings: hughes brothers x older sister!reader

warnings: just angst. part three of my older hughes! sister au so it kinda contradicts never grow up bc i almost made the michigan house be her childhood house with the childhood room line, but the toronto house was her childhood house, i just lowkey forgot they lived in toronto in the first part.

you didn't expect to be here. you didn't expect yourself to take a last minute flight to toronto and stand in the front of the house you used to call home. but you felt drawn to do so, you had to come back one last time. even if people told you you couldn't, you still did.

you felt yourself walking up the stairs. your handprints littered them, along with little quinnys, little jackys, and little little lukeys. the multi-colored handprints were a stark contrast to the white, chipped paint of the porch stairs.

they creaked under you, causing you to step slower. you now stood in front of the screen door that covered the red door. your hand shakily reached up to the doorbell, pressing it. the all-familiar tune played. it wasn't a normal 'ding!' no, your mother made it ring to a beat. one you would tap your foot to every time it was rung.

the door creaked open, revealing a slightly older woman. "can i help you?" she asked, eyes squinted from the sun.

"im so sorry to bother you, i know you dont know me but, i um- i used to live here." you awkwardly laughed. "me and my brothers are actually the kids who did those handprints on the stairs." you informed.

she opened the screen door, stepping out. she had a soft smile on her face and waved you over to the small swing that was on the porch.

you two ended up sitting and talking. "the back bedroom, that was mine. i did my homework on a dainty desk and that room is where i learned to play guitar." you spoke.

a fond smile was on the womans face. "i've never once changed anything in this house since me and my family moved here." she told.

"i couldnt. i actually hoped one of the kids who did those handprints would show up. i like learning of what this place used to be. plus, whoever did that kitchen was amazing." she chuckled.

"my dad helped my mom do that. it was a dream kitchen for her. he helped a lot of her dreams come true with this house." you said.

you looked over the property. the green grass, the live oak, the trees that surrounded the house. you looked back at her.

"do you- do you think i could come in? i just want to look around. i swear as soon as im done, ill leave. i wont take nothing, just my memories." you smiled.

she let you. you found yourself tracing the walls as you walked upstairs. the same texture was there as it used to be. the steps still creaked twice with every step. the air was still cold, as it used to be.

you walked into your old room. the walls were still the dark purple they used to be. it made you remember who you used to be. the happy-go-lucky little girl whos only care in the world were her three younger brothers.

you weren't done looking around, but you already dreaded the idea of leaving. leaving home wasn't what you wanted to do. doing it once was hard enough. you could see yourself, your younger self, sitting at her desk.

feet kicking with a pencil in her hand as she hummed to some random song that she heard on the tv. she would smile every once in awhile as she did her math homework, realizing she understood something.

you could see young jack running in, a water gun in his hand, and shooting you with it, ruining your mood and your homework. you could see little luke rushing in behind him, tackling jack to the ground. little quinn would pin jack down and little you would tickle him as payback. luke and quinn were your little sidekicks.

after awhile, you walked back to the porch. "thank you again, ma'am. this meant a lot to me. it helped being able to see and feel the house again." you told her.

she smiled. "of course dear." you gave her a polite nod and walked down the handprint-filled stairs. you got to see the house that built you, and instead of leaving with tears, you left with a small smile.

tags (perm); @slaythehousebootsdown13 , @um-mads , @outrunangelss

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milkweedman · 6 months

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NEED TO MAKE RENT SALE

As you may have seen I'm selling some of my handspun yarn, along with some fleece, batts, rolags, and other odds and ends. I'm really short on rent this month, largely due to having so many flare up days that working was almost impossible. So, I'm selling some of my work in the hopes that I can still make rent somehow. I need over $500.

Im also linking to my kofi. If you don't wish to buy anything but still want to help me make rent--which I would appreciate so much <3

I'll be updating this post as I sell things so please make sure to click back to my original post to check if it's still available. First come first serve. Unless otherwise stated, all shipping is $5 USD to within the USA. If you're outside of the USA please let me know--shipping will likely be between $30-50 USD depending on to where, but I am happy to work with you if you're interested.

PLEASE DM ME IF YOU WANT TO BUY SOMETHING <3

YARNS (please ignore the slips of paper, ive given everything a nice label now)

A: 572 yards/ 480 meters. 5.75 oz/ 165 grams. 2 ply, approximately DK weight. Silk and merino blend assembled by myself. There are stripes of different greens which are arranged to be bigger at one end than the other, so a triangle shawl (working from the correct end of yarn) will have stripes that are more or less even instead of getting thicker near the narrow end of the shawl. I don't know how noticeable the effect will be, though. Silky soft and shines beautifully in the sun. $100 USD or best offer.

B: 175 yards/160 meters. 2 oz/ 57 grams. 2 ply, light fingering weight to sport weight. Luxury blend of alpaca, cormo, debouillet, silk, silk noil, angora, and cashmere. Very textured due to how I plied it and some noils, but also extremely soft and with lovely drape. Next to skin soft. $60 USD or best offer. SOLD

C: 176 yards/160 meters. 2.25 oz/64 grams. 2 ply, light worsted. Merino, silk, silk noil, angora, and mystery wool blend. Next to skin soft, lots of different colors, and good drape. $50 USD or best offer. SOLD

D: 152 yards/130 meters. 2 oz/57 grams. 3 ply, light worsted. Cormo, alpaca, and merino blend. This yarn was arranged into a stripey gradient--white stripes separating a light purple to dark purple gradient. 3 ply. Incredibly soft--would be perfect for a hat or cowl. $55 USD or best offer.

E: 100 yards/91 meters. 2.5 oz/71 grams. Traditional 3 ply, aran/bulky weight. Romney 3 ply. Durable, squishy, and warm, but not particularly soft. Would make a great hat or gloves. $35 USD or best offer SOLD

F: 140 yards/128 meters. 1.75 oz/50 grams. Traditional 3 ply, fingering weight. Beautiful BFL yarn in autumn colors. Due to the traditional 3 ply the colors constantly shift and change. Very soft and with good drape. $45 USD or best offer. SOLD

G: 325 yards/300 meters. 4 oz/115 grams. 2 ply, fingering weight. Wool, silk, silk noil, alpaca, and Angelina blend. Very textured but soft and drapey. $80 USD or best offer.

H: 166 yards/145 meters. 2 oz/57 grams. 2 ply worsted weight. Targhee, BFL, Angelina blend. Incredibly soft and drapey. Fuzzy and lightly underplied for maximum softness (so a little delicate). Next to skin quality. $45 USD or best offer.

(I'll accept the highest offer I get in a timely manner, so if you really want something and think other people also want to buy it, you can offer more to potentially guarantee you get it. Or offer less, and get it for cheaper if nobody else wants it. Although I wont accept very low offers, sorry.)

BATTS AND ROLAGS. These all contain several large handfuls of milkweed floss, because why not. Very fun and soft to spin.

A. 0.75 oz/21 grams. Romney, BFL, silk, bamboo, Targhee, milkweed floss. Somewhat soft, would be very soft if plied with a fine fiber. Lots of purples and blues, with small amounts of rainbow. Should yield a heathered, smooth yarn except for bumps of milkweed floss. $15 USD or best offer. SOLD

B. 0.75 ounces/21 grams. Naturally dyed Shetland combing waste (yellow), BFL, silk merino, milkweed floss. Many different colors arranged in stripes--yellow and blue primarily. Should yield a textured yarn due to the combing waste, but also lofty and colorful. Fairly soft and very squishy. $15 USD or best offer.

C: 0.5 oz/14 grams. Tussah silk, BFL, merino, merino combing waste, milkweed floss. Very soft. Majority tussah silk which is charcoal black. The other colors are dark purple, a few streaks of red, and the shining white from the milkweed floss. Should spin up to a fine and soft yarn. I am also able to make more of these, which would be the same weight and price and matching the original as closely as possible. Let me know if you want several. $12 USD or best offer. SOLD -- but i can make more, if youre interested !

D: 0.5 oz/14 grams. Merino combing waste, merino, BFL, silk, milkweed floss. Buttery soft. Mostly dark brown with purple, blue, and white streaks. I can make several identical ones if desired, for the same price each. $12 USD or best offer. SOLD -- but i can more, if you're interested !

E: 0.5 oz/14 grams. BFL merino, mystery wool and milkweed floss blend. This has stripes of purple and blue, suspended a squishy mystery combing waste. Should yield a fine but squishy yarn. $10 USD or best offer. SOLD

If I sell all or most of these I will make some more !

FLEECE. I am selling by the ounce (28 grams). I'm also willing to process these into fluffy hand carded rolags or fine hand combed top as desired, which will cost extra depending on how difficult the fiber is to process.

A. Jacob lambswool. Very soft but lots of large vm (so, easy to pick out) and nepps/noils. Those will stay in the fiber unless combed, so this tends to produce a very soft, bumpy yarn. I love this fleece but I just can't seem to use it up. Primarily dark brown, but I also have some white and mixed as well. I have about 8 ounces. Washed but still a tiny bit greasy (just to my preference). $3 an ounce.

B: Rambouillet. I have almost a pound of this stuff. Incredibly buttery soft. Like touching seafoam. But it has a ton of fine VM, so it can only be cleaned either lock by lock on hand cards or combed. I am willing to clean it for you. Takes a long time to get into a spinnable state but it is SO worth it. $2 an ounce. SOLD

C: Breed unknown. Some sections are salmon pink, others closer to hot pink. Not much vm, can be combed open lock by lock on hand cards or combed into top. Yields a silky, strong, hairy yarn. Willing to process for you (this would be one of the cheaper ones to do, it's very easy). I have 5 ounces. $2 an ounce. SOLD

D & E: These are both rya lambswool, naturally dyed with yellow onion skin (the bright yellow one with alum, the copper one with copper). Very soft and silky, spins up to a surprisingly robust yarn. Absolute treat to work with. Some vm but the nature of this fleece causes the vm to fall out pretty easily. I have about a pound total. Will process for you. Washed and dyed by myself. $5 an ounce. D IS SOLD, E IS STILL AVAILABLE

F: Sunshine Shetland. Very soft and fine. Naturally dyed, again with onion skins. The tips are somewhat felted and need to be pulled off, which is quick and easy. If combed lock by lock and then spun that way you can get a subtle gradient of orange to yellow with each lock... absolutely gorgeous. Will process for you. I have about 10 ounces. Washed and dyed by myself. $5 per ounce. SOLD

G: Red Hampshire. Not neon red like in the picture, more of a brick red. Very soft and foamy. Some vm. Easy to process on hand cards by combing lock by lock or turning into a rolag. Washed and dyed (using food coloring) by myself. I only have an ounce and a quarter--which is $6 for all of it. SOLD

COMBING WASTE GRAB BAGS

These are 1 ounce bags of primarily combing waste (so, short fibers and likely some vm) along with other interesting scrap such as mohair locks, colorful merino, and sometimes the occasional single rolag. Lots of the colors are naturally dyed by myself. Great for turning into rolags or using for batt fodder. These are $5 USD if you're buying more than one item (that could be yarn, another grab bag, some fleece, etc) or $10 USD each if you are only buying a single grab bag.

SPINDLES

Lastly, I'm also selling some spindles. A-C are whittled and decorated by myself. D is a beautiful Dealgan which I never could figure out how to use.

A. Supported spindle carved from a fruit tree. I gave it a steeple shape, which does make it slow to spin with. Really enjoyable for special spins that you want to do slowly and thoughtfully. Small spindle, about the length of my hand. $55 USD or best offer.

B. Onion dome supported spindle. Very light for its size, so it can hold a decent cop on it. Small spindle--about the length of my hand. $50 USD or best offer. SOLD ! thank you 🩵🩵🩵

C: Larch spindle. This one has lots of beautiful spalting, as well as being woodburned. Also the length of my hand. Has a very distinct feel to it, sort of in an alive way. $90 USD or best offer.

D: Lightning Dealgan. I got it for $50 and it's basically unused, so reselling for $50 USD. Very heavy and smooth.

And thats it ! If you don't want to buy anything but still wish to help me make rent, you can also donate to my kofi, which would mean the world to me <3

#destash #handspun yarn #wool fleece #natural dyeing #supported spindle #mutual aid

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the-s1lly-corner · 10 months

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Which of the creeps (that you write romantically for) be okay/like a bada$$ s/o? Like every1 is intimidated and every1 thinks that if you try to fight them you’re stupid? Have a great day!!

Creeps with a badass reader!

i actually really like this idea!! also im so so sorry it took me so long to get to this </3!! ive kinda been focusing on art these past few days, and when i havent been drawing ive kinda been. laying in my own. feelings. sleepy.... yk how it is!!

with that said! yeah! i wont be doing all the bare bones list of characters i usually do with non specified characters! to keep true with the prompt im going to stick with characters i feel would like this kind of S/O and/or compliment the readers fierce nature... also going to aim for a more comedic style

LIST OF CHARACTERS: Laughing Jack, Eyeless Jack, Hoodie, Splendorman

CW; mentions of violence

Splendorman;

No because just think about it; a soft easy going cryptid with a strong and ready to fight partner

"he asked for no pickles" dynamic basically imo LMAO

he would rather you tone it down, or at least dont fight for him... he doesnt want you to get hurt, or in trouble..! mostly trouble, he knows you can handle yourself

he wont ever say it but hes internally swooning anytime you fight for him, though. like. "oh? they would do this for me just because someone said something vaguely mean about me?"... hes red in the face

tries to introduce you to new people to make potential friends since he kinda thinks part of your bloodlust(/j) is from loneliness, which in turn makes people see you as.. mean... so its a loop. he doesnt mean it in a bad way! he just cares about your well being!

overall he secretly thinks its hot but hed rather you stay out of trouble and hed try to find ways to make you less fierce...

Laughing Jack;

like splendorman he thinks its hot but he WILL vocalize it

also he thinks its really funny whenever people try to antagonize you

pulls a bag of popcorn out of thin air and watches the show/hj

he will literally cheer for you from the sidelines and becomes the fights personal announcer

absolutely treats you when you win; showered in praise and love and gifts

hes flustered; depending on what color you think he blushes (personally i think he blushes a purpleish-grey), his entire face is that color when he watches it happen

again, hes really into it

smh ive been on a lj trip these past few days and i hardly got anything for him here god mfing damn!!!!

Hoodie;

ngl he probably throws himself into the fight and yall both kick the shit out of the person

basically think something like this scene (ive never seen jjba my friend showed me this) where he just joins you after watching for a few seconds (we can say the third person is masky/j)

anyways it wont let me move the gif up so pretend the gif is under the above bullet point instead of at the end of this segment

really yall are kinda the same but hoodie is more likely to sit back and access the situation before jumping in and fighting someone unless like. its an immediate life or death thing

now how does he feel about you being a proclaimed badass?

he respects it, and he knows that you can defend yourself when hes not around so it also puts him at ease

maybe you two will spar every now and then to get better at defense and offense stuff (he will not go easy on you btw, bro will give it his all)

Eyeless Jack;

he doesnt really like the fighting since hes also likely the one who has to patch you up afterwards. like even if you win the fight youre still going to be hurt in some way, this applies to all the other characters too. ej is just the only one who has the knowledge when it comes to tending wounds...

with ej, in my au, he doesnt really. like conflict, especially since his own body is changing into something that isnt human; he already has enough on his plate already, doesnt need to go bury an extra body because he let his temper get the better of him

and every now and then, that mindset of avoiding conflict bleeds to how he views you and your attitude

hes happy that you can defend yourself, like hoodie he admires it; but at the same time he gets so scared that youre going to pick a fight with the wrong person or get hit in the wrong spot, and..

he does not pity those who are dumb enough to rile you up, though..

overall he worries for you and already has enough on his plate with himself ... but dont think that he sees tending to you as a burden! hell do it regardless of what caused your injury

possible idea for an angst post? ooo? maybe, if you guys want it

#creepypasta headcanon #splendorman x reader #laughing jack x reader #hoodie x reader #eyeless jack x reader #splendorman x you #laughing jack x you #hoodie x you #eyeless jack x you

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critterchitters-closedcaptions · 1 year

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Hi, this is gona be a long ass post and im on mobile, so hang with me.

first, ill cut right to the chase

Im currently unemployed and need money to exist in this capitalist hellscape.

so, since thats my current predicament, ill be taking commissions!

here are some examples of things ive done and my prices

ill take payment through paypal, though im willing to work with other payment options as well!

The body prices are per-character, the other prices are per-piece (example: a flat colored sketch of two headshots would be 12$, 5 per character head, and 2 for the color), and im able to do lineart or lineless - though i dont have any good examples at the moment with lineart - and the prices will only vary if the design is super complex or hard to do, and theyre able to be changed a bit to work with your budget

I will draw

anything for your blog! (example: the pokemon images above, a header, an icon, etc!)

gore! (dm me if you want to see examples)

full scenes (with backgrounds and all!)

characters from pre-existing media (scp, homestuck, pokemon, etc!)

ocs, adopts, ideas, you name it! human, furry, and any other is alright with me.

plain background scenes with no characters in them are things i can do too!

minor nudity

things i Wont draw

hate speech

sexually explicit scenes (due to a lack of practice)

transphobia/racism/n*zi imagery, general nastiness like that

im also willing to design characters for you, and i can provide prices and examples of designs ive made upon request.

please dm me here or on discord @ [CC&CC]#8992 to contact me about any of this!

thank you for reading this far! ill also be reblogging this to my side accounts to try and get a few more eyes on this.

below is a little bit of info about me so you can decide if you want to Give Me Your Money or not ^^

im a genderqueer and overall queer trans man whose just moved out from my parents home and am living with my best friend of nearly 10 years. ive got a snake, salamander, and two bug colonies, i love pretty much all animals, and am an amateur songwriter/musician! im disabled in multiple ways (but that just makes me cooler 😎) and i deal with some pretty prominent mental issues which make being regular to a job without my health getting in the way pretty difficult. also part of a did system, which is. So Cool and Epic

im looking for a proper job, but its not been going too well for me thusfar, largely because places ive applied have found more fitting people to fill the roles. and thats ok! i just need some way to make money in order to buy groceries and Supplies for My Boys and generally. live, lol! i also want to take some burden off of my roomates shoulders, considering hes been doing wonders to help support me, but im not really able to provide much in return. job places are also a bit hesitant to hire me considering my aforementioned health issues.

anyway, sorry for the rambling and thank you for reading this far! i hope you can consider supporting me, but if not maybe a quick reblog to spread this around would be great! thank you so very much and have a wonderful day!!

#commission info #shooting beams of please by my art into ur brain rn #comissions #i need money and i am so sorry to have to ask you guys for cash but also i need to Exist somehow #dont feel pressured to buy though!! i understand how tight budgets can be esp in todays economy #art #art commisions #comission #art comission #digital art #digital art commissions #idk what else to put aaaaaaah

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pikslasrce · 4 months

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hiii sorry if this is a weird question or too personal or anything I'm a little drunk but how do you find the courage to start dressing differently 😣 I wanna look cool but I'm worried about going against people's expectations of me and it becoming A ThingTM. anyway I love your style and I think you look dope <3

oh well. see my courage to dress differently was instilled in me at a young age by my dear mother (#individuality complex) so i dont have like.. good tips for that

as for the clothes themselves basically you just have to start doing it. make an inspo board on pinterest and analyze what elements you like, be it colors, accessories, makeup styles etc.

rome wasnt built in a day and neither will your wardrobe. once you've figured out a direction in which your style should go through your existing wardrobe and identify which items fit your target style and whether they can be styled or altered in some way.

after youve done that its time to rebuild your wardrobe, go thrifting.. a Lot. the most important thing is to have staples that look interesting on their own, as well as accessories that youd use regularly to spice things up

(for example i hoard blouses/button-ups with interesting patterns, bc even if im having a low-effort day i know i can just wear them w some pants and have an outfit, and i have a necklace w some teeth on it and an anatomical heart pendant that i wear w almost every outfit + a lipstick that i wear all the time)

as for other people and their expectations... fuck them!! their world wont crumble if you start doing something different! and if the way they act towards you changes... well, send them off!

and for it becoming a ThingTM its just enough to have like. low effort shit. dont have a wardrobe that only looks good if its styled (as mentioned a few paragraphs back)

last but not least, in fact the most important thing. you WILL have flop outfits. believe me, ive been there. dont despair when it happens though! its all a part of the process

thats it! i hope you find this helpful!

#damn this got longer than i thought it would be... and i didnt even say everything i wanted to say 💀💀💀#piksla.txt #ask

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slowjamastan · 1 year

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My favorite color is green. I play violin, though not very well. I love dogs, and volunteer at an animal shelter. I'm into sci fi and my favorite author is Ursula K. LeGuin. I also like Batman comics.

And I also happen to be a FTM transgender man. What you folks would call a TIF.

Ever since I was 10, before i even knew why, I hated my body. For years of my life, I had daydreams of taking a kitchen knife to my chest and cutting off the breasts. I tried to kill myself twice.

That changed 3 years ago. I realized I was trans and bought myself a binder.

When it's on, I feel relief. I dont think of the kitchen knife. I'm not too depressed to get out of bed.

But after 8 hours, I have to take it off.

I plan on getting top surgery so this relief can stay.

I should note- this isn't about sexism or anything of the sort. Both my parents were outspoken feminists, and I've been fortunate enough to always live in progressive areas.

This is about people. And if transitioning can keep people like me from killing themselves? I'm all for it.

you seem to be engaging in good faith, so im gonna take you serious and not just be a dick. but man, this is my blog where i have fun and post memes. i hate doing this and am annoyed u sent this at all. theres so many radfem blogs that love discourse and im sooo lukewarm, im radfem-adjacent at best. im a fandom blogger at heart bro. who tf are you lol

first of all i do not care about your life story. youre like "please please see me as a person, we kweer transes are real people, i hope you can understand that even though youre a horrible evil t*rf. im reaching out to u because i believe theres still good in ur heart uwu" you people r annoyinggg

its not like i lack empathy, i was dysphoric and suicidal for a whole decade of my life and mostly surrounded myself with people who felt the same. what changed for me is realizing that my internal feelings about the gender-flavor of my soul didnt mean a goddamn thing and werent worth dwelling on. im a person and my body is female. at first i still wanted to change myself. i switched to id-ing as transmed, i was ready to acknowledge that i was born a girl at least but i knew so strongly that i wanted to pass as male and that it would make me more comfortable in my body. i was completely sure i was a man.

now ofc body dysmorphia is different for everyone but i really think no matter how fucked up your brain gets about how you naturally look, changing your body with medical intervention isnt the best answer. theres so many side effects and complications with each transition step. taking T in a female body can really fuck you up medically. keep yourself informed about what youre doing and think about if theres less expensive and drastic ways to go about fixing what makes you uncomfortable about the way you're perceived. and not to be insensitive, but if you have a history of s*xual assault, that can also be a very real reason for disconnect from your secondary sexual characteristics and ive met enough people that struggle with that sort of ptsd that manifests as wanting to trans their gender that i would rly think about where the desire to become male comes from. it could be a lot of things, and it can feel so real and valid dont get me wrong—but could fade away with time and/or therapy, leaving you reverse-dysphoric about your changed body

committing to being a transsexual while young is a tricky thing. i trust youve already thought it through but goddamn i promise you everything in life changes so much all the time. maybe this wont for you! but it might!!! it did for me and thats terrifying!!!!! identifying as trans is very much the current "its not a phase mom!" thing that teenagers do and you cant convince me otherwise btw. this isnt to say genuine trans people arent real and dont exist. and medically transitioned people definitely do, bc its exploded in popularity. but most of yall are a joke to anyone with a brain sorry lol most people are humoring you guys but would never admit it. this is a fate i wouldnt wish on anyone. being trans is cringe. or it will be soon, trust me

tldr i desisted from being trans myself after a full decade of self-id, various pronouns, etc. so i know where youre coming from. then when i started anxiety medication it helped boost me out of that spiral, which if u havent gotten medicated for other underlying issues i suggest you look into before jumping into hormones/surgery. ive heard that ocd can make u obsess about breasts and want them gone and stuff like that. body dysmorphia in any flavor is a bitch! im wishing you the best anon

also, read some self help literature instead of just fiction. i recommend 7 habits of highly effective people by steven covey. i read this for college and it fr made me a more functional person when i was still FtM and deeply depressed

edit: for the record im not gender conforming to femininity now. i see that misconception a lot, and forget that most ppl dont know what radfem types actually believe. i dress however i want, i just am not delusional about how i want people to address me. im just a lesbian 🫶

#mail #post #this is a little incoherent but im trying to be honest with u brotha ok ur a man u can take it #t

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chanstopher · 1 year

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I don't want this to come off as rude at all,I'm just curious as to why you get so much interaction. your posts always get notes and you seem to answer a lot of asks everyday. I am also a cc in the fandom (I'm on anon because I don't want anyone to judge me for this) and my content flops pretty constantly. I'm just wondering if there is a secret to success I'm not learning or if my content is just garbage. Any advice would be nice!

Hi, I definitely dont think you're being rude, I totally understand being frustrated by numbers on here. i wish i had secrets to share but i really dont. i have a lot of followers so my content is pushed further. using tags properly and becoming friends with other ccs is really good for getting your content seen. ive been lucky enough to have ppl like me for some reason so ppl support my blog when i post things most of the time. i do also have some flops, thats just how tumblr works and some ppl wont agree that your content is good and ignore it.

its harsh to say that and i know that ive had terrible content get a lot of notes because of my blog size. but you just have to keep working at it. try changing up how your content looks (more or less grain, sharpening settings, try unique coloring or try to really work on color correction instead of just making things more vibrant or darker) if u write find other writers, no one supports content like content creators.

as for the asks, i have literally no idea. i am confused as to why people would talk to me constantly abhdjs I just try to be kind and keep my negative opinions to myself unless theyre about ppl stepping over bounds or being mean or rude to skz. i try to just be unapologetically myself tho, posting about chris like a rabid dog or just weeping over how much i love him. it is apparently very relatable lmao

i am not good at making friends, all of the people who i am friends with on here have come to me seeking friendship, but going on anon and talking to ppl or just showing up in tags with fun comments or thoughts or just compliments on the content will make you friends. a lot of ppl have reached out to me just because i was kind to their work.

the only real advice is to not give up. i think blog growth is always slow until you just hit a certain point where for one reason or another you become more known and then it will grow more rapidly, but it can take a while. and it can take you finding what youre really good at, you might have no idea how well you are and gif blends or graphics or even just being someone who updates on activities happening with skz (this site is absolutely lacking a proper skz update blog fsjniss) if you ever want to vent about it i'll listen, and if you ever want to send me your content and ask for critique i can do that too (but it will just be my opinion and im not anything special fhbdjs)

above all else you have to enjoy making things or it is never going to be worth it. no number of notes is going to make u better at any kind of art. only time and effort and enjoyment will.

I'm sorry this is so long and i wish any of it was truly helpful, but tbh i think i just got lucky with tumblr and how much interaction i get :/

#drm.ask #anon

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lycanthian · 1 year

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hiii i just saw your ryuseitai phone theme and it’s so cool!! can you make a tutorial of how you did it?

hi !!!! id love to! im so glad you liked my ryuseitai theme! :3

first step: this widget app (widgetopia), or any other of choice. i used this to make the little square widgets as well as the countdown timer labeled LIBERATION (which is actually my graduation date)

in addition, i would recommend having some kind of drawing app / image editing program on hand in case you want some custom graphics like my lock screen / wallpaper! ibisPaint X is my app of choice, as its free and has a pretty simple interface, but any programs will reasonably work!

keep in mind both of these programs have ads and paid versions but you dont need to pay for anything for this!

also i dont have progress pictures so. bear with me lol.

for the small square widgets, youre going to want to go to the LIBRARY panel and hit +SMALL.

this will open the NEW WIDGET menu! from here, youre going to want to hit NEW WIDGET (should show up as a tealy green button), which brings up this menu

from here, you can set various things, such as making the background of the widget transparent, making it a specific color, or setting it to send you to a website via an embedded link if you please!

for this tutorial we'll just make a basic regular widget with a picture on it :3

on this screen, hit the PLUS icon, and choose the option that says IMAGE. choose the image you want, and voila! its there!

although...

the borders are an issue. youre going to want to resize your image! this is a part of the process regardless of the image's original size.

click on the image to open the image property menu! here you'll find a ton of options for moving the image around, and edit it! here you can add some extra flair such as a slight rotation or tint, or you can set it to have an action when you tap on it! i wont get into that in this, but its neat to take a look at on your own!

make sure the chain icon between width and height is LINKED, and then increase the size! this is just a matter of eyeballing it based on your image, and will result in corners being cut off, so avoid having important bits of the image in the very corner! when youre done, you should be able to see rounded corners INSIDE the image's bounding box! this means that your image is as large or larger than than the widget, meaning that no weird borders will show!

from here, you can hit the back button, and then the purple ADD WIDGET button to put it on your homescreen!

note: if youre editing an already made widget of the same size, you do not need to press ADD WIDGET, as it will result in having two of the same widget on your screen!

from here, itll look something like this!

if you ever want to change the widget image, you can just click on it (if you have multiple, click on the specific one you want to replace), and go through this process again!

as for the lock and home screen backgrounds, thats more tedious. i recommend a 9:16 aspect ratio for phone screens, but other than that theres not many tips i can give you in the design sector of things, sorry 😔

one tip i can give is that if you dont want your home screen image to shift when youre swiping between screens, go into google photos, and zoom in on the image! make sure its cropped the way you want it to by the borders of your own device, get the UI out of the way (done easily by tapping once on the image), and take a screenshot, that way there wont be any buffer room on the sides for it to shift!

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anyways, i hope this helps! i absolutely advocate for playing with some of the more advanced options on your own, as its super fun to learn new modes of phone customization! if anyone makes any themes with help from this tutorial, feel free to tag me in the comments! id love to see your work! :3

#gamey rambles #enstars #ensemble stars #tutorial #home screen #layouts

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shimenawas · 2 years

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HELLO AINTOT CONGRATS AKING ANAKINS🤩⁉️

as for the match up event! fandom is genshin ofc ;)) my mbti is enfp, sun sign is libra, then moon sign is aries and ascendant is pisces. my enneagram is 7w6. i dont think i have a hobby though but i do enjoy reading (fictional stories only hehe) and probably writing too but like writer's block is with me rn💔💔💔 i wanna learn how to draw too! lalo na water color or painting! i used to crochet but not anymore since i dont have yarns el oh el im still a beginner btw

i am a read >>> watch type of person. i dont watch movies or like im just not interested in watching bc its probably i have a short attention span? tbh idk when's the last time i watched a movie. i am a night owl >>> early bird. i hate waking up lalo na sa mornings (f2f is coming, gonna cry) i am also a vanilla flavor >>> chocolate flavor person. idk but even though vanilla is plain i eat it up everytime. but cookies n cream is top tier. no one can change my mind.

i am interested in psychology or anything that revolves around personality (psych is probably my course in college). idk how to describe my self but i am more of a humss girl than stem girl bc math and science is boo👎👎👎 (dont come at me, im just bad at it)

im not really a hard worker or anything. more so, i am probably lazy and a procrastinator. i do everything the last minute. i am the type of person who chill first before doing things. i go with the flow and try to be friendly, kind and nice at all times. i am probably a ppl pleaser (but i wont admit that) bc i dont like it when ppl feel upset bc of me or they just don't like me. i am mostly passive agressive. idk how to be direct. i cant confront ppl and i most likely keep my thoughts to myself bc others might disagree or criticize me or i might hurt them unintentionally like i said i dont like ppl hating me. i feel satisfied and happy whenever i help someone :DD

i am an extrovert shy di lang halata. i can be the loudest, bubbly and chaotic person in the room but also the most awkward and shyest. i adjust accordingly to the atmosphere or mood of the room.

as for the emotional or personal something. i am an idk person like?? im not really mentally ill or depressed or sad i think and i am not that super duper happy either. im just fine...? idk if you get me but that's it. i am just okay. im just simply existing is all i know lol pls ignore this idk too

as you may know ain, i have a hard time opening up my feelings too. i prefer to be alone and shut my world than to solve a conflict together bc like i just cant and that's not good </33

i think thats all? it's pretty long na im sorry huhu and idk what else to say bc i am confused abt myself too. congrats again ain my ex-child! wishing more milestone to you beh! lablab (づ￣ ³￣)づ

pls match me up with someone that im compatible with and not with someone i love huhu iykyk ;) i mean pwede din naman if sa tingin mo compatible!

Written for you,

Hey how have you been doing? I won't bother asking how you feel after what happened, I'm sorry if it felt like I was putting my work first before you.

My first priorities may look like it's my job but it's you! though it doesn't seem that way, you're more important to me than anything else.

I'm sorry I made you feel that way all those days ago and remained completely clueless as to why you were acting so differently, I'm sorry okay?

A letter like this isn't the best way to apologize so I hope you and me could talk something out sometime soon?

thoma,

#(📌— events)

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jowoeyclaire · 2 years

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do u have any tips for digital painting for people who like.... exclusively have experience in only lineart and simple cell shading ? i rly want my art to look like that but it always turns out horrible when i try to paint. i simply don't know how to blend colors i guess

this is going to be kinda long since im not very good at explaining things so i'll just run through my drawing process when im working on a digital painting!

first things first tho, im still learning to get the hang of it myself since im also super used to working with lineart/cell-shading rather than painting. so as time goes on my process will probably change as i learn new things!

first, i start out with a sketch of what i'm gonna be painting. i'll use one of my ocs as an example

when im working with lineart, i usually put the lineart layer over the sketch but when i'm painting, i tend to put the layers i'll be working on underneath the sketch! i do this cuz since i wont really be doing much defined linework, and it makes it a lot easier for me to do the next step which is:

blocking out shapes!

under my sketch layer, i'll block in shapes of color corresponding to my sketch, this works as a guidemap for me and usually each block of color gets a seperate layer to avoid getting frustrated while trying to work on areas where they intersect. (for example, the face, the bangs, and the back of the head are all separate layers to make it easier to avoid blending things i dont want to blend, like the face with the hair)

now here i start to work on each of the separate layers ive made, and i work on blocking in shadows. i usually clip layers together to avoid overlapping any unwanted things

at this point my process isnt super straightforward and i honestly havent exactly figured out what i do here definitively but i usually start working smaller and more focused on specific layers and work my way through the painting usually with one or two brushes. mainly, i use these two brushes, one for blending and making strokes, the other for VERY small details (i use clip studio paint so depending on what program you use and what you want out of your painting, your brushes may vary)

at this point im SUPER unsure on how i actually do what i do but i DEFO recommend studying other peep's art and using references to get things like hair and clothing textures. you'd be surprised on how some super complex-looking pieces tend to use less blending then you would think!

a tip when it comes to blending: i know it's super tempting to blend everything but from messing around with this style for a bit i can say that sometimes less is more! while blending is fun, it can sometimes lead to the colors or certain parts of the piece feel 'overblended' in which it might lose it's defined shape. although this is something that you'll learn to work through as you learn new ways to approach it!

now here is my final stage in where i might spruce things up a bit using layers to alter the colors and make things look a bit more unified and cohesive! honestly my fav step since i try out different layers that might bring out certain characteristics in my art!

also before i end this i wanna say that this is only the process i use and that you might use a completely different approach to it but if you find anything here that might be helpful, don’t be afraid to try it out and experiment!

and honestly… i think that's it? i tried my best to go through my process and hopefully people can see and try out what might work for them! idk if any of my points came across that well since im not very good at explaining but YEAH SORRY THIS GOT LONG OOPS

#ask!#WOW THIS IS LONG SORRY ABOUT THAT #hopefully yall find this helpful!#myart

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lettersformiah · 2 years

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12:06am, 16 aug

hey bubba. we are in a call right now. the vibes are low, cause i think maybe we are both low. im sorry for that. its late and im not tired, thats new. woo for not being asleep at 10pm, i guess? i love you. i dont tell you enough. i love you. im crying. i love you. youre on val. and i was singing but i stopped. i dont want to annoy you with my singing. its not very good most days.

i was watching the new season of never have i ever. and the last episode. paxton graduates and does a whole speech. everyone expects him to do something fun and stupid because he is hot and the jock of the school. but he doesnt. he talks about how devi showed him that he is more than what everyone thinks he is. thats hes more than he even thought he was. that she pushed him to do hard things, things he was bad at, and that he owes graduating to her. i resonate with it. its a silly netflix show and im not sure youd be thrilled to be compared to it. but,, i think youre my devi.

youre really lovely, you know? and youre too humble and silly to realise just how amazing you are. you were talking today about how you felt like you werent anything in a way, or i guess that you didnt do much and couldnt see how people would like you considering you are just a nice fella at uni.

i owe my life to you. i owe my happiness to you. i owe you all my grades and friends and everything ever. you dont see it, but then again how could you? you arent in my brain so you dont see how much i value you. baby, you met me at the end of one of the worst years of my life. but you met me. and you talked to me. and you kept me going. even for just a little bit, you kept me going. even while we were just friends and a bit goofy and a bit flirty but oh that doesnt mean anything-y. you made me really fucking happy. and of course you did, you make everyone happy and comfortable just by existing. but then, it was more. youve helped me so much and youve changed me so much. im loud with a purpose and with passion and im loud for you. but im quiet for you and kind for you and fast but slow but happy and sad and excited and scared and colorful. i am alive for you. i am me for you. because, i guess, you have found a way to give me being things a reason. i didnt know why i was anything before. sometimes i dont know now. but i know now that one day, ill be with you. ill be with you, laughing and cooking and cuddling. ill be the happiest person on earth. and i cant wait for the day i can see you and you wont be leaving. but, for right now, im just excited that im with you at all. im maddi because youre miah, and i wouldnt have it any other way.

i love you

-mads<3

#letters

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the-system-mailbox · 2 years

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dear parker,

i know i already wrote to you, but i. i dunno. i wanted to write again. my thoughts ... they aren't clearer, but they're less chaotic. less messy. you understand? well, it doesn't quite matter. this letter wont get to you, maybe a version of you, but not you. not the one i know.

did you... write me back? i hope so. ugh, what am i saying, you didn't even get the letter. even if you did, even if you wrote me back, i wouldn't receive it. just know that i ... appreciate your time, is all.

i'm... it's weird, ive traveled across multiple dimensions now. all against my will. im assuming you wanna hear about it? i hope you believe me. out of anyone, i'd bet you will. you saw me disappear.

so... the first place i went to, it was called 'the plane.' infinite grass lands, a couple trees, two clouds in the sky. the sun never set. the air was stale, it felt like a too-clean apartment. always room temperature. the weather never changed. the sunlight felt fake, like i was on a movie set. if you walked far enough, there was this big... i 'unno what to call it. it's officially named 'the plug.' but it didn't really... seem like one. it was this dark grey pillar that reached up into the sky. it never ended.

i was brought there by this bitch named airy ... he was invisible, or at least always hiding. he was the host of the place. apparently it was a game show. he called it 'ONE.' never found out what 'ONE' even stood for. anyway, i hated the dude. he brought a bunch of random guys there too. 5 others (one of them being like, an 11 month old baby. or something.) came with me first. then he brought others from different universes... i know, crazy right? they spoke of things i never heard of. we were put into teams and competed for a 'wish for anything.' the competitions were stupid. it sucked. airy made us change our names. he called me 'moldy.' god, how stupid is that?

and ... well, this is the craziest part ... if you died, you'd get revived. airy didn't let you die. death's terrifying, parker. terrifying. i got used to it after a while though.

and now i'm. here. in another, completely different world.

there's these beings called humans. they're fleshy, with arms and legs like us. their 'heads,' the closest thing to our objects, have their eyes ears mouth and nose. they have a 'torso' which connects the arms legs and head. i'm in the body of one.

the color of the one's im in skin is like... god, how do i describe it? like a light, light beige. it has dark brown spekles all over it, called 'freckles.' but! this isnt the only way human skin looks. there's different colors, too. all the way to the dark brown of your flooring, and every color in between. humans are quite pretty, being honest.

anyway. i share this body with many others. not all humans share their bodies with others - but i do. some are objects, some arent. i've met so many people here. i've learned a lot, parker. i'm trying not to make the same mistakes as i did with you. thank god i'm not in charge of the money around here, eh? haha... bad joke, sorry.

but, besides, even after all that. this body is still malfunctioning. we know it's curable, but it's taking a while. some thing never change, do they?

i wish i could say more. i want to say more. theoretically, i could, but i cant think of what to say. i hope you... i hope you understand. im sorry, even though i already said it last letter. i hope we can make amends one day, even if it's unlikely we'll ever meet again.

sincerely, charlotte.

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#to parker #from charlotte #hfjone letters #mail

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fictionfixations · 4 months

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christmas go brr

realized i have a startling lack of fandom stuff. (..and a stupid amount of hoodies for those i do get as a person who doesnt even wear hoodies that much.. oops.)

so. i. got. stuff. and im gonna show you. cause this blog is all for random stuff that i share that people probably wont care about but i dont care haha

The first thing that arrived. Basil keychain :DD

I don't have an actual picture of it and i kind of cant cause i attached it to my phone. and its kind of hard to unlink it off? i have like one of those wallet phone cases and since its not meant to be an actual phone charm (as in, it'd probably have like a string you tie around a hole and boom?) i had to clip it around like the camera hole. which youre probably not meant to but i see a hole im taking it. i dont really use bags that often anyway

2. gojo keychain

he was soldout when i first went to actually go buy it. but then it got restocked so yEAHH, arrived pretty fast imo. (theres a suguru one too)

..i. also. hanged it on my phone. but also it took a lot of careful maneuvering to get it in so i cant really be bothered to take it off. or even try to. very pretty, one of the sides glitter if you change the angle)

3. pjo decal stickers (well. hoo.)

sorry about the light lmfao official image beacuse i dont really think mine does it justice is:

i got like the hoo ones (or im pretty sure its hoo. gaea. prophecy. seven. its been a hot minute since ive thought about it)

and depending on which one you get, you can customize which cabin or roman god you get. i went with like pluto i think

you can also choose the color. very cool

last thing im waiting on are some vanitas earrings

admittedly. i kind of have like a. sort. of. sensitivity towards mixed metals? something like that (i have no clue if its count as an allergy)

but i think its like a delayed reaction. and im too dumb to know the difference of whats good and what isnt?

basically. if it triggers anything. i can just wear it for short periods of time, no harm, cause otherwise itd be fine (i had another set of earrings that triggered something, but nothing actually happened until awhile later)

if anything, it'd be fun to attach it to something and still look nice

anyway. i should probably lay off on getting more keychains. but its either that or like standees of characters?? i dont use stickers that often, i dont use pins (i dont really use bags that often??), i dont wanna get stuff thats just gonna waste space so im just stuck here getting decorative stuff to attach onto things. aghh

#etsy #thoughts #etsyfinds #is that the right tag?#christmas shopping #shopping #items #stuff #random stuff

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