#in which you ask and i eventually answer

[phoomwhoosh]

would you ever write anything holiday/christmassy for lakreese lol?

Oh, I could. I could definitely do something like that. I wrote my Thanksgiving Danzen fic, like, the day before Thanksgiving and could get similar brain worms for LaKreese around Christmas. We'll see! XD

#in which you ask and i eventually answer #cksecretsanta23

[shkika]

I'm literally buzzing with excitement for the Wind comic thing :> I've been coming up with my own theories of what it could hold, and even making a video based on those theories! Tho, it'll take some time to finish XD It's like...A big project. Love your works!

This ask made me so happy I blacked out and this appeared on my screen.

I have the comic planned and sketched out with placeholder dialogue between the rodent sisters I just need to finalize it when I can!

#rain world #unparalleled innocence #grey wind #chasing wind #rw iterators #my art #ask #doodles #anonymous #theories and a VIDEO?? thats insane i cant wait to see if it gets finished!!! wowie #im so aaah honored?? #thank you for enjoying my work ive been having so much fun making them all! #the wind comic will be with her and innie! #its important buildup to their saint-ing #which too will happen eventually #just #in a while haha #aah i had some wind asks i need to dig up and answer eventually aaaughh #ill save them and see when that happens #hehe hoho excuse my deranged rambling #hope u enjoy the scribbles anon

[uncanny-tranny]

There truly isn't a universal answer to what a man and woman "is" and that's where the whole "well, tell me what a man is if you say you are one" spiel falls apart for me. In trying to answer it, you fail to see that gender is not something to be understood empirically - it isnt something you can analyze like you might a hard scientific phenomenon, but gender something that is a tool. Gender is (one) of the languages we use to communicate to others, so like language, there is nuance.

My version of manhood* is one which differs from another man's. We use similar language to describe our malehood, perhaps, but much like language, we will have different dialects which we use. If I were to try to answer what a man "is," I will be informed by my own manhood* and the manhood my culture deems desirable. This is inherently exclusionary because it relies on myself and my culture to be the only "right" ones. I refuse to play this social game because it relies on this exclusionary mindset. Gender is what we humans make of it, and there simply cannot be an "answer" to the question as to what men and women "are." It varies culture to culture, by religion, by race, by a history of colonialism, even, and all of this is ignored, downplayed, and erased, essentially, when one acts like there is a universally-applicable answer to what a gender "is".

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #this feels like gender 101 but it seems like some people are stuck trying to rationalize what 'is' and 'is not' a gender... #...which is pretty devastating to trans *and* cis people. eventually somebody is barred from simply being a man/woman/person... #...for instance drawing the line of 'womanhood' at 'is feminine' excludes butch and gnc trans and cis people intersex people... #...because the definition of feminine has to be exstablished and people *usually* have a definition in mind for what 'is' feminine... #...trans people are correct in saying what their gender is in *part* because there IS no correct answer to being a man/woman/person/ect... #...if there is to be no correct answer how then can you be wrong in saying what your gender is? #this is why trans inclusion is so threatening because there is recognition that people should be allowed to just *be*... #...and to *be* without constraints without expectations without conforming without conventionality or assimilation #so yes i am a man*. but i will not answer what makes me one. the premise itself is faulty #and you don't have to answer what makes you a man or woman or person or whatever else to anybody too #(and anyway when people ask that question it's always soooo fruedian. it's always been a source of discomfort) #(like in movies with a ~scary transsexual~ where a psychiatrist will come on screen/stage to explain transsexuality. very odd indeed) #(99% of the time in my experience all this is done in worse-than-bad faith and as a 'gatcha') #(as though a cis person would give a 'legit' answer to what makes them a man/woman. a legit answer doesn't exist really) #oh and this is also why xenogender and 'genderweirdos'/'genderfreaks' are completely understandable *and* valid :) #i say genderweirdos and genderfreaks with complete love and sincerity but i have seen people reclaim those narratives for themselves #ig i'm a genderfreak. i'm a gender weirdo. what the genderhell am i doing here? (radiohead if creep was more trans) #if anybody reads all these tags you deserve a medal

[beannary]

I feel like TLP Donnie is very relatable! At least, I know I've seen parts of myself in him when reading. Do you draw inspiration from things or people in your own life when writing/drawing TLP?

I draw partially on my own life experiences! Although I do like amp them up a whole lot for TLP Donnie.

When I was a kid I never had much control over my life especially regarding things I liked to do. Every time I expressed an interest in something my parents would see that as an opportunity to make me get really really good at it so that I could get scholarships one day.

Like I used to love playing volleyball I got really into it but then my parents made me continuously play club volleyball to the point where I was so miserable and I ended up sinking into a very bad depression 🤪. Same happened with swimming and also basketball and tennis and well mostly sports related activities lol

I’m sure you can see the connection between those experiences and what TLP Donnie is going through lol

There’s more like parts of my life that I want to explore through TLP Donnie like my eating disorder, depression, and anxiety but I won’t get into those too much because I don’t know how much I’m going to incorporate them into the comic and the narrative

I also don’t want to like only exclusively use the bad parts of my life as inspiration for TLP Donnie because I am an adult now and having freedom from my parents has helped me like figure out myself a whole lot more.

Like because of how exercise and sports were treated when I was a kid I stopped doing them even though I do like them! I started swimming again a few weeks ago and I’ve been really having fun! And I’ve always had fun swimming but now I’m actually able to control how much I swim and how often and it’s been so much better for me than having to stick with the schedule my parents set out for me. And I do want TLP Donnie to have that experience too of falling in love with something again if that makes sense so eventually he will start to love dancing and ballet again because he can do them on his own terms but that won’t be for a while :)

#bean babbles #answered asks #friendlyneighborhoodterrapin #hmmm this is a very lengthy answer #I hope I didn’t talk too much about myself #I never know how much info about myself is appropriate to divulge if that makes sense #and also if you relate at all to TLP Donnie then I hope you’re able to heal #and come to love yourself and your life which TLP Donnie will eventually learn to do

[dailyfatefigures]

shoutout to the most merch campaign ever

#that's a lie there's always. Always more. #genuinely the reason i got back into fate like unapologetically was bc i fell in love with anime merch collecting and remembered that one #video from years ago which asked the question 'could you live entirely off of fate merch' and the answer was yes #and there was also an evangelion one so i decided that. for the sake of never running out of merch to collect i'd give them both a shot #/second chance (<< used to fake an understanding of fate for weeb clout and eventually tried to read the og vn but was like. 14 at the time #and didn't understand nuance or character growth and thus dropped it early on due to finding shirou annoying) #anyways. there's a lot of weird as hell fate merch out there #not figures

[skyloftian-nutcase]

ABEL CANNOT CATCH A BREAJ FBDKDBDKDNMD

He needs a good ol classic Goron massage. Maybe they’ll help his thrown out back.

Then he needs a Gerudo spa day. He’ll have to dress up at a vai unfortunately for him but it’s for the greater good!

And then he needs therapy

FJSKLFJDS YOU'RE NOT WRONG LOL

All of these things sound absolutely perfect for him, c'mere, Abel--wait no--stop arguing with me dude this is for your own good--

#you ask skye answers #lovely smiles #this guy #he is absolutely refusing dressing like a vai #joke's on him blood of the hero exists #mwuahahahaha #he'll give in eventually #speaking of which I really should update that fic #how many fics do I have on standby hmmm #sorry y'all LOL #abel

[habken]

❤ I've sent some asks but you haven't answered them so I hope they didnt make you uncomfortable!! I'm sorry if they did!

Currently, I’ve got over 200 asks in my inbox, so it’s probably not you, I just can’t answer everything :’))

I love getting asks and I read them all !! I love getting sweet messages and questions about ships or people wanting to know how I draw things, but I like putting thought and effort into my answers, so I end up not responding to a lot of them right away just cause I’m pretty busy haha

#ask #I might close the inbox at some point so I can go through and answer what’s in it #there’s some I’ve wanted to make art for which is also gonna take awhile but eventually I’m gonna do it I swear #@ the one about bkdk and the old couple from tlou… I am looking at you so hard

[lskamil27]

Hey, do you have any rpg maker horror/rpg maker game recommendations?

RPG MAKER GAME RECOMMENDATIONS,,, Oh boy,,!

I have some that I do like a lot, however, there is a chance some people may not be TOO crazy about it since I am someone who likes it a lot when a game has lots of lore & story that I can bite into and think about more when I’m done!!

I think, right now, what I like as of right now ( these are not ranked in any particular order ):

1. Fausts Alptraum - Free to Download, Artbook You Have to Pay For: A game about a girl named Elisabeth who visits her family’s old home after a funeral, being trapped inside and having to get out.

A BIIIGGG favorite of mine, due to having a nice balance of awe and admiration of its art direction, while balancing tension and unease as you explore

2. Angels of Death - Pay to Play: A game about a girl named Rachel who wakes up in a building and is forced to progress through its floor levels to get out, each floor having a leader who seek to hunt her down.

Another favorite of mine, because I love the story and characters! The symbolism and juxtaposition of Rachel and Zac is so fun, along with plot that had me hooked into it! ( I will say, I am not the best at playing high stress games so I had to watch play-throughs to see the endings LMAO )

3. Mad Father - Pay to Play: About a young girl named Aya who lives alone with her mad doctor of a father, and his assistant. Aya is forced to confront the horrors of her father’s crimes to try and save him when she hears his screams on this particular night.

This was a game I had gotten into when I was WAYY younger! It definitely left a lasting impact on me since I am a big fan of medical & body horror now. I don’t know how to say it, but trust me!! It’s a lot of fun!

4. Fear and Hunger - Pay to Play: Between a cast of 4 playable characters, you are tempted by a personal quest that leads to the Dungeons of Fear & Hunger, unaware of the horrors and depravity that lies inside.

This is a big time favorite of mine, HOWEVER - I do not recommend this to everyone, as the triggers and violence in this game can be extreme for some others to go through. I highly recommend reading any available list of triggers for this game before trying it out, because the content is pretty dark. However, I do like it for its art direction, the lore and its characters, that the creator has made for it’s story and sequel!

5. Flesh, Blood & Concrete - Free to Play: Focused on the protagonist, Lera, who’s car breaks down on a snowy and is invited into the apartment building nearby by a young girl named Nika. Exploring the strange building, Lera encounters unsettling visuals and strange feelings of deja vu.

I recently just played this, and I adore it a lot for the story that has been crafted by the creator, with its message - as well as the welcoming, yet unsettling art direction it has, with the various home-y apartments and depictions of meat & flesh.

Now, these aren’t RPG Maker games themselves, but I will recommend them because I think they are fun to play on free time:

Soul Void - Free to Play: Gameboy pixel style, regarding the protagonist who explores a strange world, looking for a way out. Very beautiful art, and beautiful message!

Saint Spell’s Love Guide to the Magical Student’s Spellbook - Free to Play: Pixel Visual Dating Sim, very pretty, very fun routes to play, my friends and I loved playing it during our lunch breaks in uni!!

#ask #SORRY FOR THE LONG ANSWER I TALK A LOT #I love all these games so much and they are downloaded on my pc #i could go on essay length rants of my thoughts on all of these but this would make the post HUGE #anon i hope you check some of them out if you havent tried some of them #but yeah #i am someone who NEEDS a story in the games i play or else i get disinterested eventually #which doesnt mean all games need it tho! this is just a personal preference of mine #i just like to think on stories a lot when i rest in bed? if im making any sense ( i hope )

[akechi-stole-my-heart]

wait, how does goro die in the anime?

Akechi is confronted by the cognition in a similar way, but the main difference is that Akechi kills the cognition with his first shot and then traps himself on the other side of the partition wall with a bunch of shadows. Then instead of just the two shots from himself and the cognition, for some godforsaken reason like a bazillion shots are fired, presumably from the shadows (stop! stop! he's already dead!) and Futaba says his signal is gone. So it's pretty similar but honestly just so much stupider in literally every way. Akechi being killed by Shido's cognition is the entire point and thematic endpoint to his arc, without it his death feels a lot more meaningless and random. Even ignoring how it doesn't make any sense plot-wise (why is there a need, however false of a pretense it might be, for Akechi to sacrifice himself/protect the Thieves from a horde of shadows? at least cognitive Akechi is an unknown and presumably incredibly dangerous threat so Akechi has some reason to trap himself and give the Thieves an escape route in the game), thematically it's incoherent. Akechi sealed his own fate. He isn't killed by random shadows, he's killed by the manifestation of his deceit and malice. Akechi allowed himself to become the corrupt puppet of an evil man and he's forced to face that truth and its consequences. It's deeply poetic and all of that meaning and nuance is lost for no fucking reason and I will die mad about it.

#I haven't even seen the anime outside a few clips and the first couple episodes but I did watch the engine room scene #bc I am obsessed with Akechi so ofc I have #I've also seen proof of justice. I need to watch Akechi's other moments in the anime tho since I've heard there's a lot #but tbh the little I've seen of his added stuff in the early episodes I uh. actually really hate lol I don't think a lot of it #is in character. but that's another rant I can make once I actually watch the full show and live blog about it #which I will do eventually. so don't send an ask abt that since it's been a hot minute and I don't remember my precise #takes anymore but you will be getting them eventually. so just be patient haha #anon #sera answers

[chiara-klara-claire]

6.2.24 🎉🫥

#I brought cake to work because I gues you have to #colleague asked me what are you going to do tonight #I said not much I think #another done said jeez you’re 26 and not doing anything #and I answered oh yeah that’s for the weekend which is true but still #I’m just so down I don’t even have the energies to pretend it’s fine #I was about to cry #I think I’ll spend the day eating and crying #it’s really great how it only gets worse with time #they say at some point things get only get better but truth is it can always get worse #yesterday tho I almost lost my phone by leaving it at the zelfkassa at the Albert Heijn. thank god I realised it run back & it was t #nothing really make sense and I’m tired of sending cvs #there’s nothing I like and I have to pretend I like everything and everything is cool #i replied in a very dry way to my family wishes bc of how bad I’ve been feeling #I’ll probably eventually just throw something on ig and have 2 people say hbd #it’s all about suffering #this weekend I’ll go to Sweden if things go according to plan and will probably feel like crying most of the time there too #by myself in some hostel bc my friends are too busy for me #there’s always some god eating your heart out right #I think I’ll spend a good amount of time blinding myself with tears #I can’t wait to go to the psychologist

[honeydots]

how would soleil and seigbert be as siblings??

omg. well first i like to hc siegbert as the older one (usually a year but w/e works), partially bc i like the whole "im the older brother and i MUST act like one" scenario it would inevitably produce. i think he'd end up protective of soleil, but this causes issues bc soleil would also be protective of him, albeit in a slightly different way, but ultimately i think they'd end up clashing in this particular regard lol. i don't think they squabble too often (beyond siegbert chiding soleil and soleil going hehe whoops *continues skirt-chasing*), honestly their biggest hurdle to overcome imo is that dual-attempt at protection which might end up requiring xander or laslow to step in. OTHER than that tho i think they'd get along well as siblings, it's not like they hate each other in-game--they'll just also have the occasional "daaaaaaaaaaaad siegbert is nagging me again make him stooopppp" peppered in there lolol

#as a resident haver of both older and younger siblings that tends to disagree with like 90% of sibling posts on this site. here is my take #some of soleil's being protective certainly comes from her whole 'future-lord siegbert' thing from their support #one of my first xanlow wips (that i still wanna write eventually) goes into the exploration of the fact they have different heritages #and trying to recognize each other's feelings on the matter #(i.e 'why won't siegbert let me protect him?' 'he's your big brother he loves you') #(and 'why won't soleil listen when i say that our bloodlines don't matter?' 'well unfortunately it's because they *do*' #partially reflecting how xander and laslow have had to deal with a very similar thing! #i wanted to write xander and laslow going through their feelings on the matter first. which i have now. so it's just a matter of when-- #--for me writing the sibling fic. gjsjgjdfn #oh but also speaking of their support. i do think the 'PLEASE PUT A SHIRT ON' aspect is completely hilarious under a sibling context #'it's my house siegbert :/' 'ITS ALSO MY HOUSE' #ghsjfjsfhshfjsfnsnfb #phew. heh #thanks for the ask this was fun to answer #dots answers asks #anonymous #dots's xnlw tag

[phoomwhoosh]

Whomst is rayford? May I ask?

(share more of your oc stuff if you want)

Yessss, thank you so much for asking!

So, Rayford is an OC I've had kicking around since 2018 although technically it's been longer, he was just based roughly off of another character of mine who wasn't named Rayford.

(Cut because I know this is gonna get long lol)

His name is actually a combo of me knowing someone named Ray and misreading "Sanford" as "Stanford" and going, "Well, I don't want to name him Stanford. But Rayford could be a good combo..." and then his surname just popped into my mind one day and I went, "Yeah, okay, there we go. He is named."

I came up with him around the same time I was watching Critical Role (The Mighty Nein campaign) so, naturally, I gave him a dice set because I thought I was gonna play him in a D&D campaign then I decided not to after I saw how he rolled. His dice are super cursed. What I mean by this is, every time I use them for him, they roll really badly. Even after I made him in Baldur's Gate 3, he still rolls like garbage lmao. My boy can't catch a break. (For reference, I use DnD dice to roll for combat stuff in my stories 'cause it makes keeping track of everyone easier.)

His appearance/age has changed over time but four things have remained consistent: he's inherently kind, he's not very perceptive, he's asexual, and he has pink hair. Why did I choose pink? I honestly can't tell you. But it's naturally pink, which is important for me to point out.

The Rayford that I commissioned Cookie for is 16 and a half-elf. No one knows what his other half is, just that his dad vanished one day and reappeared with a baby and they were all like, "Hold on, dude, where did that come from and why does it have pink hair???" His dad never told them who his wife was for Reasons. To Rayford, she was a beautiful pink-haired lady with pretty blue eyes. Did her eyes sometimes glow weird? Sure, but he was a child and gave it no thought because that was his mom and also magic exists. -_o_-

The first five years of his life were excellent, fantastic, his parents weren't murdered. Then they were murdered and the next five years of his life were hell but he held onto his kind nature despite that. Then some stuff happened and he got adopted by someone who genuinely cared for him and made sure he got whatever he wanted. He's not spoiled because he doesn't really ask for anything. He's content with what some might call "ugly grandpa sweaters" (they remind him of his dad) and cutting-up a pair of jeans for shorts (even though his adoptive mom would 100% just buy him a pair of shorts if he would ask). He's just happy about living in a loving home again. That was all he really wanted.

However, he attracts trouble like nobody's business. Actually, that's been another thing that's stayed consistent for this OC. He could bump into a girl and just be helping her pick up her books and her boyfriend sees him doing that and is like, "He's trying to steal my girl!" Rayford is asexual and has no interest in stealing your girl but, well, stupid's gotta stupid. (Alternatively, the OG Rayford walked into a cave once and almost got killed by a wight. He rolled so poorly that day. Failed that perception check almost into unconsciousness.)

Rayford does actually tie-in with Alis and Tali. They all go to the same magic school (which is literally nothing like HP, don't even get me started on how different my world is. I've been cultivating this world for well over a decade).

Anyway, Rayford just transferred to that school from another one and, if he was honest, he wanted to go to this one anyway. Eventually, he meets Tali and Alis and they become friends because Alis is like, "you don't have any friends yet? guess what, meet your new friends ^_^" and Tali rolls with it lol.

Tali is actually going by a nickname because her dad thought it'd be neat to name her "Taliesin." She likes her name and all but going by Tali makes her full name sound like "talented" if it's said fast enough and that's brought her endless amusement.

Alis is pronounced like "Alice" but spelled that way because I just like the spelling for some reason. I seem to have developed an affinity about half-elf/elf names ending with "-is" and I don't know why. It all started with Elder Scrolls: Oblivion...not that it's not every half-elf/elf I make just, you know, I've named more than one like that XD

My "face claim" for Rayford was basically me pointing to one of Cookie's drawings of Daniel and going, "I'm gonna be honest, I love the way you draw Daniel and, obviously, Rayford isn't gonna look exactly like that but you know." So, yeah, his face claim is basically Ralph Macchio lmao. I'm not sorry.

When Cookie showed me the WIP, I had to take a moment because I was like, "That's Rayford omg." Same with Leo when they did Alis and Tali for me! I was all starry-eyed and like, "This is them." I actually combined both pieces into one so I could have all three of them as a desktop background because, genuinely, I love both so much! I do plan on commissioning the rest of the gang one day since there ARE six of them.

In conclusion, here are his cursed dice:

#in which you ask and i eventually answer #took me a while because i was so excited to talk about him lol #in which i won't shut up about my characters #that'll be my oc tag

[swashbucklery]

Every time I try outlining a next fic and diving into Kit meta she gets more and more nonbinary I don't make the rules I just work here.

#like she doesn't want to be a princess #she has a complex relationship with embodying that gender role #but once you start peeling back the layers of that it's uhhhh #not NOT trans #you know? #also don't ask me what i'm working on next the answer is everything and nothing #i had a clear and specific focus #and now that's done and i have six outlines #and eventually one of them will click and i'll finish it #but which one clicks is up to the vast and unknowable universe #writing tag #kit tanthalos: girl prince #willow: medium powerful magic once adjusted for inflation

[desolateice]

For the ask game: Next :)

NEXT — the next line. meaning i will finish the sentence I’m on and write a new one, which you’ll get.

Making me write right now huh? 🤣

Chozen held his wrist up so it got more sunlight coming through the ceiling of the Euglena Mall, looking extraordinary pleased, before taking Johnny’s hand. I'll put what the item is under a readmore (also in case you want to see it too @yallwildinrn )

#writing asks #asks #ask game #thank you for the ask #🤣 this I guess answers the question from the last one of which fic am I currently working in which is Umibudo #little star ⭐ and 🧜‍♂️ merman sticker for whoever maybe guessed that #they're clothes shopping because impromptu trip meant they left with 0 things #and also means I can deep dive into fashion and fabrics and traditional things #including a slight argument of swimsuits Johnny: Uh 1000% necessary #Chozen a merman: swim nude that's normal or the world's tiniest speedo because otherwise you'll be too slow #i'm a couple chapters ahead of where I posted because I couldn't figure out what was in a box until recently and eventually I gotta go #back and fix that or like re-add that thread in

[misspickman]

cassierose for the ship ask game !!

Ship It

What made you ship it? i liked them in tt03, which you know, is truly a feat considering how terribly that comic treats both of them. but their dynamic (angry homoeroticism) managed to be compelling still

What are your favorite things about the ship? i enjoy girl antagonism from time to time. i know were all sick of the trope that teen girls all hate each others guts but considering cassie has a pretty good relationship with all the other girls on her team(s) its fun to see her just go ugh i hate this one. this one can go. theyre just fun and bitchy and i think they should hatefuck about it. but beside that theres also so much potential there ! i think you know, if anyone writing that comic actually cared about cassie or rose or about their character development, it would have been interesting to see their relationship change over time instead of getting one issue where cassie implicitly calls rose family while protecting her, and then the next one she immediately she calls her a manipulative psychopath for no good reason bc they cant figure out how to make the team interesting without having some wildly antagonistic relationship that doesnt make sense if u think about it for a few seconds. theyre never going to be besties but it would have been nice to see them go from blind hate to an uneasy truce; they dont like each other but they do, unfortunately, care about each other, and lets see where we go from that. + itd be interesting to dig into cassies hypocrisy when it comes to hating rose

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship? i guess its that i would like them to grow past mindlessly despising each other ? this is not me criticizing anyone but i feel like a lot of takes on cassierose ive seen are that they should stay in the hatefucking no mushy business❌❌❌phase which is definitely fair and true to how they are in tt03. but i do have some issues with the way they were written in tt03 (particularly cassie) and would like to see their dynamic progress from that (see rant above)

#i guess the reason im personally more interested in them sort of working through it is bc cassie doesnt have. a good reason for hating rose #i dont think its ooc but a lot of it Is supposed to be bc shes either jealous of her bc of tim (??)or thinks rose sucks bc she killed peopl #which is. she was drugged and manipulated and i think most teen titans in the superhero business should be able to handle #that sort of a not black and white situation #and idk. be more understanding. i know rose isnt super nice but maybe calling her a manipulative bitch constantly isnt the way to go #theres fun antagonism and theres cassie being just needlessly awful to her (that convo she and tim have about rose) #and i do think theyll always be bitchy to each other but i would like to imagine cassie is more considerate than this #and would eventually recognize she was occasionally just being shitty ! it would make for an interesting story ! alas #i think cassierose going from hating each others guts as teens to adult coworkers who dont really hate each other anymore #bc theyve been through so much shit together #but need to keep up the appearances of hating each other bc god forbid they admit to being kind of friends. that would be fun. to me<3 #ask #thank you. so sorry this got so long #youve given me an excuse to rant about cassierose so this is what u get<3 #sorry that the question was what i like about the ship and i just bitched about how it could be better #i guess the answer is im intrigued by the potential. also i love lesbians

[gideonisms]

do I want to date or do I want to split tasks with someone else and take turns doing each other favors until we die. Another question I have been asking myself lately

#i imagined trying to take a girl back to my uh. blow up bed inside the tent and 2 uncomfortable folding chairs #we'll be keeping it real let's just say. #i could make her a romantic meal of scrambled eggs (only thing i don't always burn) #eventually you have to be around someone all the time too! which is what i've never managed #when i have to go into a room and be upset over something silly are they going to like ask me what's wrong? how do i answer that? #they're going to like see the amount of time i spend online and potentially read my smut over my shoulder? #am i going to lie in bed beside them & do my whole worry/read on my phone worry/read on my phone/sleep at 3 am routine? #sounds like a recipe for disaster tbh #but i do long to take out a girl's trash and do little nice things for her and sit on the couch together #anyway. firing those shots by pathetic posting. gotta keep the rent down!! #i could not fix her (me)