#it all feels so hopeless

[mxfortune-teller]

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#I think the depression just keeps getting worse #I don’t know if it will ever get better #I’m hurting and sad and I don’t think I can even cry #it all feels so hopeless #I try my best every day and it feels like I’m walking backwards #idk #idk what to do #also fyi this has nothing to do with the reptiles #that’s going well #or as well as just starting out goes #it’s more like…everything #like please either hit rewind or just take the damn tape out already #I want to cry but I can’t #I can’t even hold a conversation anymore #I’m so tired #I’m a bad person and a bad friend and a bad partner and just….bad at life #why is it easy for other people to be happy #why can’t I figure it out #I think I was made wrong

[wiltinghost]

i know i’ll be alone for the rest of my life, lonely and sad and lonely and lonely my friends are all happy with their other friends and their boyfriends and who do i have? lonely and lonely and lonely it all feels so pointless do i look forward to my empty room my too small one bedroom flat my wasted life my loneliness? alone always so alone

#vent #it all feels so hopeless #i want this life to be over #i don’t want to feel so alone

[nancywheeeler]

hopeless time loop. the way out isn’t to save everyone. the way out isn’t to save even one person. the way out isn’t to change anything. the way out is accepting how it happened the first time is how it always will be. that’s how you acted, that’s how they acted, that’s how you would have acted every time if you weren’t given the curse of hindsight. the way out is accepting you can’t fix the past; you can only forgive yourself for it.

#there's this game i love called little hope that plays with these ideas (though not with a time loop) #i do love time loops narratives that explore how a person is confronted with their life and their choices #when forced to live the same day over and over again #and i LOVE time loops that try to reverse mistakes made and lives lost #but to see a character put themselves through loops upon loops upon loops #trying to rectify past mistakes (especially in the case where people died) only to be confronted with the reality it isn't working #and even in a loop where they save everyone the loop just resets #because the universe is essentially saying 'no that isn't how it happened and you know that's not how it happened' #it compels me! #i feel similarly about time travel where time 'fights back' #like this idea that there is a central timeline that time does not like being diverted from #so it will try to course correct itself #you save lincoln from an assassination only for him to die in a train crash #it's a cool way to confront the idea of fate #anyway all tragedies are hopeless time loops thank you for coming to my ted talk #a shout into the void #1k

[ifisawyoueverydayforeverwill]

Y'ALL NEED TO SEE THIS PANEL

#Mobius will be the one to save him! #because he ended up very sad #But from what we saw on the series Mobius can push his feelings inside #maybe Deadpool can make him admit how much he misses loki?? #LET ME DREAM #I still can't bear the hopelessness Tom Hiddleston left me with when he said that his journey as Loki had ended #YOU CAN'T JUST SAY THAT #ofc u can I'm just rambling I'm heartbroken and sad #btw someone on Quora answering a question about whether or not Asgard was linked to time or not used that panel #so I don't have the source of the specific comic I just know it's Thor I'm sorry #loki #lokius #loki x mobius #mobius m mobius #agent mobius #thor #thor comics #marvel cinematic universe #marvel loki #we all not it won't be Sylvie shedding that tear #loki season two #loki series #loki season 2

[fumifooms]

NOO NO YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND LAIOS’ SUCCUBUS AKA MOST ALLURING FORM IS MARCILLE SMILING

#Dungeon meshi #Laios touden #marcille donato #and it’s the romantic advance that’s unwanted #…. OR IS IT #Anyways this is my TLDR of my huge succubus analysis #Laimar #marios #Marcille is so special to Laios it makes me go insane and feel ill (/pos) #I’m collecting laimar moments to post one day hehe #I’m a hopeless shipper but don’t let that blind u from my point if u don’t like laimar!! Like debate if u disagree #I see too many people fully disregard the succubus scene when it has so much to say!! #OUGHH THE WAY HE DOESN’T EVEN FLINCH AT SEEING HIS MOST ALLURING FORM BC HIS LIKING OF IT IS BASED ON FAMILIARITY #AND THEIR LONGTIME FRIENDSHIP. HE SEES IT ALL THE TIME SO OBVI HE WOULDN’T REACT LIKE A MESS #They make me unwell I can’t stop thinking about this #Btw that second picture is the last page of a chapter where on his deathbed Laios sees his life flashing before his eyes #And the chapter is all about how he met Marcille and when she became part of the party #And that chapter is the one JUST before the succubus mini arc #So like it’s 100% connected and intentional #dungeon meshi manga spoilers

[lunarharp]

you n me

#witch hat tag #orufrey #today was so wild emotionally... isnt it mad how no matter how depressed the world makes you feel you also do have to do Tasks etc. Lol! #then the pain of life makes you re-realise how epic a gay manga romance is after not thinking about it all day #idk whether i'm even 'depressed' because i can be this obsessed with something. i feel hopeless-not apathetic. my heart is fighting hard #qifrey in a keffiyeh was a charity sketch thing - oru i did before wants to be with him

[ichooseyoupikajew]

I've always cared deeply about reproductive health and I will always continue to fight for birth control and abortion access. However, I fail to understand why the Pro-Palestinian movement has gotten so involved in the American Pro-Choice movement.

Tomorrow, there's an NYC Loves Abortion rally in Foley Square. One of the organizations participating is NYC Healthcare Workers for Palestine - the same organization that protested the Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center back in January.

Hamas raped people on October 7th. Several survivors have spoken about their trauma. It's highly likely that some of the remaining hostages being held in Gaza are several months pregnant or dead. Surely that would be more relevant to the importance of abortion access, the trauma of sexual violence, and bodily autonomy?

#I'm truly in disbelief #Will the survivors of October 7th massacre even be mentioned at all? #Some days it all feels so hopeless.

[tennessoui]

au where the Jedi Order has a program where Knights take odd jobs around Coruscant to strengthen their connection with the planet and also experience life outside of the Order, and Obi-Wan volunteers to work at a newspaper right before the beginning of the Clone Wars, because he thinks writing about intergalactic politics or reviewing new ship designs would be cool…..but the Coruscanti News immediately puts him on the Advice Column, creating a new section called Dear Ben because they think a Jedi would give interesting advice even though they won’t advertise that he’s a Jedi, and the Jedi Council are incredibly supportive because it’s a way to teach Jedi tenets and beliefs to people struggling with grief or anger, etc so Obi-Wan can’t quit even though he very much wants to

Meanwhile Anakin hears about a new column in his favorite section of the Coruscanti News called Dear Ben, and he’s dealing with so much as a senior padawan!! He’s going to see the love of his life Padmé Amidala again soon!! So he writes to the column for advice on how to woo her while on a job (“I’m seeing a woman I met when I was a kid again soon because she hired my company to help her. I know it’s time to kiss her. How do I make her see me as an adult? I dream of her supple body and her—“ the rest of this letter cannot be published in our newspaper for its vulgar depictions and explicit language)

And Obi-Wan gets this letter and he has to write back and be like “Dear Grown and a Shower Not a Grower, please do not do that. Be professional. Romance can wait until after your work is complete. That dedication will surely impress her.”

and Anakin takes his advice, it works, and he keeps writing in for more advice and every single time obi-wan answers because whoever this guy is has ideas of relationships and MARRIAGE and life that need to be corrected

and they absolutely don’t know who they’re writing to, but they carry out a very public correspondence throughout the war as their job allows, and Obi-Wan-as-Ben is able to talk Anakin through a lot of his hurts (ie Rako Hardeen) and eventually Anakin is like holy shit I think I am in love with Ben from the advice column around the same time Obi-Wan realizes he’s incredibly fond of Hopeless On Coruscant (his nickname for Anakin after the 4th major life crisis he wrote in about)

what ever are they to do about it 🙄🤪 other than….meet up 😏

#Kit’s silly lil AUs #hopeless on coruscant au #obikin #I feel like I wrote something like this like 2 years ago but it’s just easier to rewrite the post than try to find it #also this one is gffa so definitely better than them just being modern au #because now anakin has to translate all of his problems into non Jedi speech #ie Ahsoka is assigned to him and he has to be like ‘dear Ben I have a child now and also i am worried about her safety because of the war’ #and obi-wan is like oh no I understand it’s hard to raise a child in such difficult times but coruscant will be safe from the war I oromise #and anakin is like Hm no I take her into war zones like all the time

[neonparades]

What Once Was

#rottmnt #Her’s song caption on tmnt art<3 neonification starts Here And Now #anyways thinking about how post-movie things are rocky and difficult and restless #so they all find safety around splinters recliner even for a moment because familiarity is the pillar of existence #familiarity from old lou jitsu and jupiter jim movies and huddling around the recliner with your family when things start to feel hopeless

[five-star-stay]

Han Jisung's smile has to be the best thing in the entire universe. God just look at him light up the whole stadium with his heart shaped smile. He's so bright and full of love.

#i have been not all there lately #just sad and stressed and hopeless as fuck #and his smile made me feel a little lighter #so thanks hannie❤️❤️ #han jisung #stray kids #skz #han #skz japan fanmeet

[metukika]

ill say it before and ill say it again. hc that teru doesnt like serizawa at all.

#im gonna go into it here cuz im not confident in my hcs hi hello #so actually not cuz of the whole claw thing. i think that seri wanting to be a better person is like the one thing teru respects about him #and thats the thing. hes like !!! hes kinda like me!!! so he lowkey tries to make a connection thru that like haha we were both assholes an #arent perfect but trying! but see heres the thing. serizawa is an adult. he wants to act like an adult. so he treats teru like a child. not #in a bad way. normal adult to child. he respects him and all but see teru acts and maybe feels that he feels like an adult. so he sees that #as disrespectful. finally someone whos kinda ignorant like him... but hes treating teru like hes a child?! maybe legally serizawa is an #adult but after staying inside his room for years and then all that manipulation at claw.. mentally teru considers them the same. except #that seri wont act like it cuz reigen told him how to treat regular teenagers but teru isnt a regular teenager get what im sayin #ok and. then teru is kinda mean to him like ok man get outta my way but seri respects him and gives him more chances which makes teru feel #guilty which makes him dislike seri even more and try to push him away by being mean and its this hopeless cycle until one day teru snaps a #him and they have an actual conversation and he can see that hes actually the one treating serizawa like a child. and that hes like a shitt #adult in this scenario am i making any sense is anyone even listening #anyways sorry this is in the tags if u thought it was good and wanted to rb. hope i made u consider some dynamics

[defiledtomb]

making big strides now that I'm not crippled by pain and wanting to shout it from the rooftops but somehow feeling awful about it because I'm not doing it fast enough. #livelaughlove

#im fraid ill actually never be comfortable flaunting my progress on social media unless deranged via substances or the delerium #of plainly existing with a factory recall brain #anyway i finished the final chapter and made some incredible developmental edits and im kinda sobbing about it. per the usualllllllll #always feeling like the 'i cant hold all these limes'-guy #theres so much left to do and no victory until i have something (incredible and completely flawless) to show. thats a healthy mindset right #im going back to the mines. but if you heard a lil celebratory eep. that was me #adding delete later as a failsafe because even this vulnerability feels like an involuntary alien probe. GAH. #FRUSTRATION AND JOY AND ANGER AND HOPELESSNESS AND ALL OF IT LIKE POCKETSAND IN YOUR EYES

[planetariumx]

NO ONE TOLD ME NIMONA WOULD MAKE ME CRY WTF

#i can’t do this man #it’s the ‘monster’ of it all #aheem heem whimper #i have so many feelings #its the desperate need for love and thinking you’ve finally found it #only for the one u trust to turn on u #it’s the betrayal of it all #the heartbreak #the feeling of hopelessness and yet the ones who would fight to save u #i’m getting way too into it but i just KSKFHDKLA THE LEVELS OF DEPTH MAN #planetariumx posts #nimona

[uncanny-tranny]

I think as we grow up, we have to be really conscious of romanticizing the world we grew up in in order to scorn how the next generations are growing up.

Nostalgia isn't inherently bad, but especially in political spaces, be very wary of this idea that there is an Ideal Past we must Harken Back To.

It sucks to feel left behind, but such is the human condition. It isn't bad to feel nostalgic, but that doesn't mean that these new generations are inherently "lost" and "need to be saved (by you)", and I think that is very important to remember and try to be conscious of.

#politics #'the world you grew up in no longer exists' frankly... GOOD! #the world i personally grew up in was scary and lonely and traumatizing. no kid today should STILL be growing up like that #the whole 'nostalgia as a poltical means' is rooted in this idea that... #1) we all grew up in a hegemony 2) we all turned out the same 3) the way we grew up had more privileges afforded to us #and i personally like nostalgia! i like watching videocamera videos from 2005 and looking up super specific shit #but nostalgia does not a good world make #INSERT UMBERTO ECO'S FOURTEEN POINTS ON FASCISM #(though i don't always think nostalgia can lead to this in a political sense there is a fine line) #be very mindful of what motivates nostalgiaposting #is it because people miss childhood and how 'simple' it felt? or is there a different reason that motivates this type of posting? #are you romanticizing childhood to the point you are not remembering your childhood /at all/ but the *idea* of it? #and honestly it is SO jarring when my peers are nostalgic because it's like... we aren't even that old!! #it comes across like... the world is hard and it's getting harder and so we cannot chnage and must wistfully think of the past... #...and to me it comes across as almost... doomerist in how end-stage feelings of nostalgia and hopelessness seen #i feel compassion for the impulse to feel like your old life is over and you need to grieve it... #...but certainly that isn't the younger generations fault? especially because WE are now the ones rasing them and we still yet live #(even at our completely decrepit age of not even close to a mid-life crisis (sarcasm and lighthearted))

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

The most interesting thread to me in Olivia Rodrigo's writing really is how she keeps saying she got what she wanted! She created the life she wanted! And it wasn't good!!!

#her writing makes me sad because it feels so hopeless a lot #trapped in fame with no escape #but the fact she recognizes it all so clearly really makes me hope for her

[phoen1xr0se]

I want you to know that you’re a source of hope and faith for all of us in the fandom. Every word you write is poetry, the sort of lyrical wonder which everyone and anyone can appreciate. You straddle the line of literary and unfathomably approachable in your writing and I couldn’t ever stress enough how much we all love you. I know you’ve been going through hell recently and I just want to tell you that, for someone who is being constantly challenged and tested, you give other people an awful lot of happiness. Just in case no one’s said it recently: you are a wonder to us all.

Sometimes, especially recently, I wonder what I could possibly have done to have earned so much darkness and pain, what did I do to deserve so much devastation and trauma? It can feel extremely... hopeless.

But then sometimes I get little signs from the universe, that all is not lost.

Like this beautiful, heartfelt message that reduced me to a blubbering wreck.

Thank you, nameless person, for bringing me back a little further from the brink of utter hopelessness today. Today was... bad. But now it's that tiny little bit better.

I don't feel much like a light right now, but whatever sputtering spark I have left, I'll try to keep it lit.

#thank you #phoenixrose314 #good omens fandom #despair #hopelessness #i feel so much less alone here than irl and i love all of you for that #❤️