#it’s doubly fucked up in the movie bc

[fagbearentertainment]

Getting fucked up over the animatronics at 3am

Like in the movie they wanna play and make forts dude

That’s what really gets me, the movie humanizing them with that scene, it fucks me up so bad. Like I wanna cry bc they really are just scared angry kids :(

#it’s doubly fucked up in the movie bc #williams manipulating them the whole time #and ​im p sure that he was making them attack abby mike and all the other security guards #with that sound that’d play over the speakers #ya know when their eyes would change color #I say p sure but I’m just positive of that #but ya know #not 100% stated as fact in the movie #but it’s like what the fuck they were just small kids they didn’t deserve this #fnaf #fnaf movie #fnaf movie spoilers

[pinkanonwrites]

(part 2. now featuring me rambling about a Modern Triguns hc i have)

okay so im Native American and i do think, in my hc (not yours. wanna reiterate that i am saying this for Fun Conversation and not to convince you of shit), i really like the idea of Vash and Knives being either surrounded by Indigenous American influence (people who are non-Indigenous can live on our reservations, maybe Rem is Indigenous and is cross-racially fostering them, i dunno) or Vash and Knives are white-passing Indigenous Americans themselves (i say "white-passing" bc i know their creator is Japanese but also Vash and Knives are pale-skinned, blue-eyed, blond boys so im assuming they are white? but some Japanese people could be mixed, that's true. i dont know enough about Trigun to know ethnicity canon/fanon, i just know "ah!!! they might be blond and blue-eyed, but i see Me in them!" so. headcanon. anyway)

and i say that bc a huge part of a pan-Indigenous culture (not that we are a monolith to generalize, theres so many fucking tribes and specific tribal cultures, but you get what i mean) is focused on the enviroment and our interconnectedness to it, ontop of our history of being genocided against up until the last Indian Residential School closed down in 2007 and we had our right to practice our culture given to us in 1978 (so 1978 is actually when American achieved religious-freedom) and now we are facing various Indigenous protective laws being disbanded in the U.S.-- it's easy for any marginalized group, esp ethnicities, to see relatability in the Plants. like, the Americas were founded with the blood of Black and Indigenous people. but also many other cultures have faced similar experiences. so i do think its easy to project any marginalized culture that has suffered onto Plants. its just also cool to be like "yo, my culture is very much based on protecting and understanding the enviroment, and this fictional group is called PLANTS? hell yeah, easy projection" but like. we arent the only culture that does that. so i dont think Indigenous Americans are special any form of projecting ourselves with Plants/Trigun. i just also AM Indigenous American and also AM projecting. so. im biased

and i am, in fact, doubly biased bc my Indigenous American father was a BIG fan of westerns, something Knives loves. my dad loved them bc He Is Very Old (im talking "my dad was 60, close to 70 when i was born" old. my mother is his second wife and they met when she was 40. so i was "wow thats late to have a baby, but not SUPER dangerous") and, though things have gotten slightly better since he was my age but uh.. the reason why he liked old westerns so much was because that WAS the only place where he could see people like him on-screen. even tho they died half the time. and were often racist. highly recommend the documentary "Reel Injun" if you would like a summary on how Indigenous people have been depicted on film, it is very funny for a documentary lmao but anyway, yes, this does also mean my dad was a Twilight fan. he watches those movies all the time (even tho they are ALSO racist against us, but its still really funny to say my dad is a Twi-hard lmao). and my dad wasnt alone in being like that, a LOT of Indigenous people my age (mid-20s) grew up with old western movies and whatnot bc it was the only representation we had for a long time, even moreso for any generation older than us. i can still hear "John Wayne's Teeth Hey-a, Hey-Hey-a" a'la the 90s movie, Smoke Signals, being chanted in my mind lmao

so Knives' lil "bang, bang" and how much he loved old west content made me feel especially seen lmao so i like the idea of him and Vash either being raised in an Indigenous culture by Indigenous people or being Indigenous themselves and being raised by Indigenous people. it brings me joy ♡ especially the latter, bc, tho im not blond and blue-eyed, i am white-passing. people assume i am white until i "out" myself (im also queer, i label myself as Two-Spirited actually, so i am using the verbage "out" knowingly lmao). i grew up hating my pale skin and my monolingual tongue, because that meant i looked like a colonizer and spoke the colonizer's langauge (and i, unfortunately, dont have the kind of brain that absorbs second languages well. at all. damn you auditory processing disorder lmao rip). i wanted to look more like my Indigenous relatives, and less like my white mother who married into our culture. and i see Knives' hatred of Plants' oppressors, and with the modern au and my hc of Indigentity and my personal history of struggling with self-hatred, and i see reflections of myself in him

and like. Knives' desire to kill all humans isnt translatable in a contemporary context, really. i dunno what job i would want my hc of him to have. you could argue he would be on the side of the extremeists in protesting, But Equating A Genocidal Character To A Contemporary Protestor feels.. bad lmao thats an understatement. but like. yeah, i do hc my personal modern au Knives to be a Land Back protestor, and i think Vash would agree actually. but im biased bc i support that movement too lmao i think the fact that Knives is so untranslatable to a modern context in all his variety adds to the tragedy of the Trigun/Trimax/Trigun Stampede/what-have-you narrative. i think modern au Knives might be antagonistic and a nag (or i could empathize with seeing him as modern cult-leader, tho thats irrelevant to this conversation. just bc i can empathize with it, doesnt mean i would ever create content of it or have it as my hc. cults are serious stuff people shouldnt trivialize and i dont have any experience with them, but if people want to vent out their feelings about cults using a modern Knives au?? i can understand that, im using him to project and vent too afterall lmao) to his brother, maybe be estranged, but overall i think the rift between them would be easier to breach than in the canon

i just find modern au Knives to, at least have the capacity to be, more sympathetic than his canon counterparts in all their variancies. he's fun to stretch around and play with lol

anyway, thanks for making a space where i felt welcomed to talk about Trigun modern hcs with you. i cant wait to see what you make. and, again, this was NOT an endorsement for you to follow me at all in this hc, i completely get (1) people have their own hcs of what Knives and Vash's ethnicities may be in a contemporary world and (2) that other people's modern au stories might not even feature disclosing an ethnicity. i just loved your excitement and wanted to spend part 1 engaging with you with your possible hcs, and part 2 sharing mine. i hope i worded all of this in a way that makes sense. thank you again ♡

Ooh, I really love your hcs! I'm always a little hesitant to do any in-depth headcanoning about the intricacies of racial minorities because I'm a very white person myself (a quarter Korean technically, but a blue-eyed blondie nonetheless), so it's really cool to read in-depth and interesting takes from people who obviously have a better scope on the ins and outs than I would!

I agree that Knives's genocidal nature isn't really easy to translate to a modern era. He's a tough guy to nail down! In my head at least, he's more of a nihilistic environmentalist while Vash is an optimistic one. I see him working in a very white-coat, laboratory, scientific field when it comes to conservation, he just strikes me as a scientist type. Him and Vash don't always see eye to eye on everything, and oftentimes he thinks he has to protect Vash because his brother is far too forgiving to the world, no matter how cruel it's been to him. But Vash doesn't want to be coddled either, he's not naive. He's making a conscious effort every day to choose to see the good in the world around them, and for one reason or another Nai just can't wrap his head around that.

He still loves his westerns though, I'm definitely keeping that. Nai was glued to Vash's stream when he was playing through Red Dead Redemption 2, no matter how much he says he doesn't care for video games.

I really liked reading your headcanons too, so thanks for reaching out! If you ever end up wanting to write anything longform that takes place in your modern AU, be sure to link it to me!

#pink chat #anon #asks #streamer au #vash the stampede #millions knives

[duckylove]

hi you got me into duckylove and there are no fics on ao3 for them, would you possibly have any ideas so that i can write some for them? thank u for introducing me to a new polyam ship :D - @dr-dilfenshmirtz

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WELCOME TO THE TINY GROUP WE HAVE SNICKERDOODLES!!!!!! FIRST ORDER OF BUSINESS, THERE ARE ACTUALLY SOME FICS FOR THEM(AND A FEW FICS THAT CAN BE TAKEN AS THEM). ALL MY FICS IN SOME CAPACITY EITHER HAVE THEM, HAVE THEM IMPLIED, OR HAVE THEM PLANNED, BASICALLY, AND THEY'RE ALSO ALREADY BEING PUSHED IN WGP!! THIS SERIES IS ALSO A GREAT ONE THAT KINDA WAS THE REASON I COINED THE SHIP NAME AT ALL!!!!!!

NOW IN TERMS OF POTENTIAL IDEAS, I HAVE A BUNCH I'VE DRAWN OR HAVE HAD SPINNING AROUND FOREVER!!! ALSO THE BONUS POINTS STUFF IS JUST. THINGS I HAD A REALLY STRONG MENTAL IMAGE FOR ABSOLUTELY NO ACTUAL OBLIGATION. A PERSONAL FAVORITE IS ALWAYS MOVIE NIGHTS, EXCEPT THEY END UP SUPER CHAOTIC BC OF EVERYONES CONFLICTING MOVIE TASTE AND THE FACT THAT EVERYONE IN THE POLYCULE BESIDES CANDACE KNOWS ABOUT PERRY, AND HE LIKES WATCHING MOVIES WITH HER. OTHERS IN A SIMILAR VEIN IS 1: STACY CANDACE AND JEREMY BASICALLY TRYING TO ORGANIZE A MALL DATE FOR ALL OF THEM, AND IT IMMEDIATELY GETTING SIDETRACKED AS HECK BUT THEM NOT RLY MINDING OVERALL(BONUS POINTS FOR SARA DRAGGING VANESSA AND HIROMI AROUND A PROFESSOR TIME DISPLAY AND INFODUMPING TO THEM), 2: THE FIRESIDE GIRLS DECIDING TO BRING A FEW OF THEM ALONG IN SEPARATE GROUPS FOR DIFFERENT PATCHES, LIKE FOUR GROUPS, ONE WITH ISABELLA AND THE OTHER THREE WITH TWO OF THE FIRESIDE GIRLS EACH(BONUS POINTS IF ONE OF THE GROUPS IS DOING JEWELRY MAKING AND YOU INCORPORATE MY HC THAT THE BRACELET JEREMY MADE CANDACE IN MONSTER FROM THE ID IS A TRANS AFFIRMATION BRACELET AND SHE MAKES HIM ONE BACK), AND 3: THEM ALL TRYING TO COOK TOGETHER AND ALL HAVING DIFFERENT RECIPE IDEAS THEY WANT TO TRY AND ENDING UP MAKING JUST A LITTLE TOO MUCH EVEN FOR ALL OF THEM SO EVEN AFTER EATING A LOT MORE THAN THEY PROBABLY SHOULD, THEY END UP HAVING A GOOD BIT LEFT AS LEFTOVERS ANYWAYS(BONUS POINTS FOR ANY SPECIFIC FOOD BASED INTIMACY AND THINGS ALONG THE LINE OF "YOU HAVEN'T BEEN EATING ENOUGH ANYWAYS, ITS PROBABLY BETTER IF YOU DO GAIN WEIGHT" BC FUCK DIET CULTURE(ALSO BC OF "I WISH IT WAS ACTUALLY A LONG SHOT AND NOT VERY LIKELY" KIND OF PROJECTION THIS ONE HITS HARDEST W CANDACE BUT I'M SURE IF YOU PICKED UP ON SOME OF THE CUES WITH LINDA IN THE SHOW AND SAW THE EATING DISORDERS TAG ON WGP YOU KMOW THAT. NOT TRYING TO FOCUS DOUBLY ON HER SRY))

JUST AS A LAST HEADSUP I HAVEN'T USED THIS BLOG IN A WHILE BC I KEEP FORGETTING AND SCHOOLS BEEN SUPER BUSY EVEN THO I'M ALMOST COMPLETELY DONE W IT, SO I'VE DRAWN AND DONE MORE DUCKYLOVE THEN THERE IS ON THIS BLOG DW

#DUCKYLOVE #ATT #DO I MAINTAG? FUCK IT ITS LATE AND I LOVE THID POLYCULE I PROBABLY SHOULD FOR ORGANIZATION PURPOSES AT LEAST #PHINEAS AND FERB #PNF #MILO MURPHY'S LAW #MML #HAMSTER AND GRETEL #H&G

[albertserra]

I can think of other old gay men movies, but they're either bad, portray the gay characters as predatory, or have probably been intentionally omitted. Scraping the bottom of the barrel here

- Colin Firth's gay movies (the Tom ford one and the Alzheimer's one)

- Bear City trilogy ( :/ )

- The River (not a bad movie but bleak/fucked up/probably not all that great a fit)

- Milk

- Birdcage

- A bunch of docs and miniseries but I'm assuming those are intentionally omitted

- Other movies with small parts/gay subtext for old gay men, which probably deserves it own list that you'd be the most qualified to make

I think you've got the best of what's out there. You're dedicated gay old men archival work is deeply appreciated, legend.

- A single man, the birdcage and milk are all kind of younger for my list (I tried to keep it 50+ y/o as like an arbitrary cutoff) but I forgot supernova, ty!

- The bear city trilogy.. is it worth even trying you think?

- the river - do you mean the tsai ming liang film? I haven’t seen that one yet, I’m assuming there’s a guy older than Lee kang sheng in that one? If so I’m even more interested now hmmm

- for the small parts, yeah I included the shape of water and magnolia bc those two are v important to me personally, but I don’t wonder if I’m missing some so if you have any favorites you think i might not have seen yet I’d love to hear! And doubly so for the docs, I don’t watch docs as much but every once in a while I’m in the mood for one so if you know any focusing on older gay men I’d love to hear (the one that comes to mind for me is We Were Here which I loved but was obviously v depressing). Not really for the list but just in general hehe

Tysm for the input I really appreciate it!! And ty for the compliment as well 😭💜 I’m really mostly doing this for myself but it’s nice to know it’s appreciated by others too.

#asks #anonymous #💜💜💜

[klapollo]

i upgraded my phone after having the same one for over three years (not by choice, it dropped and the screen finally broke beyond use) and the new one is so much fucking worse. the volume randomly decreases. the camera sucks. but probably worst of all is that it's RIDICULOUSLY slippery. i laid it down flat on my table at the movies the other day and it still managed to slip away and fall on the ground bc it's like a greased up ice cube. it's annoying but doubly so bc you just know it's intentional to increase drops and thus increase buying cases and needing repairs. evil shit!

#its a google phone but apparently iphones do this too now??

[bpdanakins]

i just infodumped to my friends about bpd anakin and i have No Regrets snakjdkajfsk

anyway, doth thee have any more bpd anakin (or just anakin in general) headcanons becuase i am living for this

I am So Sorry this took so long, but hopefully the length makes up for it. Thank you so much for sending this to me bc BPD!Anakin is my entire life. I could talk about it all day, every day.

I’d like to thank @apple-grass-and-smiles for helping me organize my Thoughts on all of this, prompting me to focus on certain things and giving me feedback in general too. 

Okay, here goes:

Anakin fidgets!! I’m not even sure if this is a headcanon but if it is I will die on this hill. He can’t stay still for the life of him and doubly so when he’s anxious, nervous or Ready To Do Something Already. 

We know Anakin can’t hold eye contact to save his life when he’s upset or insecure, but I can also see him having issues with touch when he’s upset, unless it’s from certain people only (Padmé always gets a pass, for example).

Anakin’s quick to let some small stuff go, but larger things people do that hurt him (whether intentionally or not) aren’t really ever forgotten, and he just kind of takes that in and suppresses it, until random moments when it pops up, he remembers, and it just hurts like it’s happening all over again. The people around him often have no idea what fully sets him off, bc to them, his reaction now seems out of nowhere while his mind’s still stuck on this other thing.     - His reactions also seem sometimes like they’re Over The Top, but even just remembering past hurts can feel almost disabling at times. It’s worse when he ends up ruminating on it, because the hurt and feelings of betrayal just keep building up over and over until it almost blots everything else out.

When he’s happy or surrounded by those he loves, everyone kind of can feel it too, bc he’s just fuckoff powerful in the Force and esp other Force sensitives kind of gather around his space and just… his affection and excitement are literally infectious. 

This probably runs closer to ADHD than BPD for sure, but get him talking about anything mechanical (robotics, engineering, racing, etc) and he will go from 0 to 100 so fast you’d get whiplash. No one minds though bc, as I said, his excitement is infectious and honestly those around him just adore listening to him go off even though half of it goes over their head.     - Ahsoka may not ever get Gotta Go Fast, but she definitely loves it when he really talks her ear off about all this stuff, bc it makes her excited to learn and she picks up on all of it easily. (There’s a part of her that wants to emulate him and she does def look up to him obviously.)     - We see it with Obi-Wan, but people love to use his love of all things mechanical as a way to distract him from things that upset him. It doesn’t always work but they try.

With Obi-Wan, he ends up on the side of Anakin’s splitting like, all the time. And unfortunately sometimes Obi-Wan can’t tell that Anakin’s lashing out not because of something Obi-Wan’s actually done, but bc Anakin’s young and Obi-Wan’s the figure he can project a lot of his frustrations on.     - It can lead Obi-Wan to being confused and hurt sometimes, bc he doesn’t always understand Anakin’s thought processes when this happens, and it definitely sometimes cuts him to the core. On the reverse side, though Anakin might not always say it to his face, Obi-Wan definitely can overhear him at times when Anakin’s ready to 1v1 anyone who even so much as makes a frowny face about Obi-Wan, which helps Obi-Wan remember that Anakin does love him too, actually.     - It ends up being one of the points of frisson between Anakin and Mace, bc Anakin can’t read body language perfectly, especially when it comes to feelings of abandonment or someone seemingly not loving who Anakin loves to the same degree. Mace has a drier sense of humor at times and defs has a more resting frowny face, and this rankles Anakin at times bc he can’t always tell when Mace is just chilling vs being disappointed, and while Anakin will take it all personally, he ALSO takes any perceived criticism to those he loves personally too.     - Both Mace and Obi-Wan don’t get this bc they have a perfectly fine relationship. Anakin’s just Like That.     - (And super overprotective of people’s perceptions of Obi-Wan. Anakin will go off about Obi-Wan being mean and all that, but fuck you and your entire family tree if you ever even think Obi-Wan’s anything short as the most amazing Jedi to ever Jedi.)

Everybody and their mother can see the pedestal Anakin puts Padmé on, and surprisingly she rarely is on the end of his splitting. When he does, he just internalizes it bc he can’t stand the idea that he’s somehow seen her in a wrong light, or he feels guilty for getting angry with her.     - He also defines a huge chunk of his life around loving her, making her his center for a lot of his decisions and reactions, so when they’re off, his whole world seems backwards. It makes him Really uncomfortable and unsure. He gets panicky and upset and often people have no idea what the cause is so they just end up a lil panicky in return.     - He tends to take it out on others, by doing an exercise or by disappearing to fiddle with something.     - Pads has an easier time recognizing Anakin’s emotional needs, bc in some ways they’re the same as hers. She’s good at reaching out to him, comforting him and reassuring him of her love. And in turn, he like, never fucking shuts up about how much he loves her, and those moments are what make her feel so special around him. Being loved by Anakin makes someone feel important and even get tingly, bubbly happy feelings, because it’s hard to doubt it sometimes.     - There’s a part of her that sometimes worries about how Intense he is, but, like I said, when his positive intense emotions are focused on you, it feels wonderful. And he’s genuinely super sweet and gentle, and she appreciates that, when she tells him to back off about something, he’ll listen to her wishes. (I’m using movie Anakin as my base here bc TCW!Anakin in this regard is just…. bad y’all lmao)

Anakin’s anxious about Ahsoka All The Time. He’s afraid he’s a bad teacher, he’s afraid he’ll mess her up somehow, he’s afraid he’ll hurt her or she’ll get hurt, and that’s why he can’t stand the idea sometimes of her being on her own. It’s not a lack of trust in her abilities, but because he feels responsible for her, and that’s why he’s always ready to put himself between her and literally anything that could potentially hurt her. (Even if it’s not a physical threat.)     - There are times she finds this amusing and times this makes her angry, but mostly she is long suffering. There are times she appreciates it though, bc she’s still a kid and isn’t always sure which way is up, especially when in a war. Anakin is often a cornerstone for her, and though she’d literally NEVER admit it, his overprotectiveness can sometimes be a reassurance. She knows she can handle herself just fine, but when she has an inkling of doubt, she’ll remind herself that Anakin will be there, and then go and take care of the problem herself.     - She doesn’t always get his moments where he’s not always falling over himself to talk Obi-Wan up or go out of his way to sass at him. To her, they have a wonderful relationship and she rarely notices when Obi-Wan might say something that pokes at Anakin wrong, so she often just winds up ???? when Anakin is huffy or annoyed with her grandmaster.     - She sees Anakin’s anger issues a little more easily than others, and she worries about it but always brushes it off or downplays it, bc she always sees why he’s angry, and also always just assumes (like everyone else) that he can Handle It.     - Anakin’s recklessness and impulsivity are some of her favourite things about being his padawan. He’s literally never boring to be around, and Ahsoka needs that sort of excitement to sometimes push aside the knowledge that she’s literally in a warzone. Anakin’s also really good at doing this intentionally; he’s literally always worrying after her, and all he wants to do is take care of those he loves and make them happy, so sometimes he’ll be Extra just to get under her skin or distract her and honestly this is the basis of where their playful competitions always come from.

If Ahsoka is long suffering, Rex is doubly so. Sometimes it’s all he can do to keep up with Anakin and Ahsoka, but he appreciates Anakin “thinking outside the box”. He also appreciates knowing that Anakin is just as loyal to him and his men as he himself is (well… Anakin is until he isn’t lmao)     - Rex, like Pads, is really good at picking up Anakin’s moods and even trains of thought, so he’s always able to work around that, or even see where Anakin’s mind is going when coming up with a plan. They make a really good team bc while Anakin can jump from one idea to another without them seemingly correlated, Rex immediately follows Anakin’s leaps and they just end up in sync.     - That being said, Anakin can be really confusing at times. His moods are often so all over the place, that Rex generally has no idea what tf is going on. He deals with it by learning to be calm when Anakin’s unable to, and just ride out Anakin’s worst moods until they pass by, learning not to let it all phase him. Anakin lowkey hates it when he’s upset, but once the worst of it passes, he really appreciates that Rex will just… not press like Obi-Wan, or balances out the moments Anakin’s mind is so cluttered by instead just keeping a good focus on things.

Probably everyone’s most baffling symptom of Anakin’s is his paranoia. Obi-Wan kind of sees it the most, because Anakin is always testy with the Council and often feels put on the spot, dismissed and looked down upon. To everyone else, they don’t get where Anakin’s ideas come from, bc everything seems chill on their end. His fretting about others’ well-being is straightforward enough, but his instant panic-turned-anger shift when he receives any criticism (especially the perceived type) always gives people whiplash. It’s hard to keep up with, hard to see what it was that got to him so much, and hard to know how to help (particularly when they’re worried that trying to help him will feel like “taking sides”).     - Ahsoka takes Anakin’s POV of the Council pretty easily, at least when it comes to him. This is mostly bc she’s not there when there’s a meeting or tension around them, nor was she there when Anakin first arrived, so she just assumes they must genuinely often have issues with him too. She doesn’t see it to the extent Anakin does though, but she recognizes that sometimes he seems to blow things out of proportion when he’s upset, and figures it’ll just blow over once he’s calmed down.     - Pads, on the other hand, is always kind of aware of Anakin’s fears of losing her. He often not-so-subtly looks for reassurances that she loves him and won’t leave him, that she’s feeling alright or not angry/annoyed with him. She chalks it up to his trauma with his mother (and she’s partially right), so even when sometimes it gets on her nerves that he seems to doubt her so much, she tries to remind herself of that and let it go. 

Those closest to him can pick up that Anakin tends to see the negative in things, and is generally really hard on himself. They try to help out by giving praise where it’s due and just overall Being There, but it’s Rough to know they often don’t get through. (Palps, on the other hand, knows how to weaponize this.) 

The saddest part is that I don’t think anyone once thought Anakin was Seriously Ill, partly out of ignorance, partly bc they assumed it had to do with his age/upbringing, and partly bc, eventually, everyone was dealing with trauma and even if someone wanted to send Anakin back to the Temple to have a nap or something, they legit couldn’t bc there was a war going on and he also would never have tolerated it at that point in time.     - Obi-Wan’s the one who worries about all of this the most, because he’s always felt such a huge responsibility for Anakin and loves him a lot, he’s just never fully been able to understand how to get on the same wavelength as Anakin.     - Anakin, too, actually never fully figures out that there is something Going On. Everything’s always overwhelming him and even though he prefers doing things at 100mph, sometimes it seems like there is Too Much going on, and even during peace times it just felt like he couldn’t keep up with everything. He hates internal reflection but also can’t stop overthinking about everything, and so he just ruminates and goes in circles and often just ends up going nowhere when it comes to dealing with things. He tries his hardest all the time, he is ALWAYS trying, but doing stupid stunts, fighting droids, making robots and speeding everywhere all the time is truthfully only a bandaid.     - Being surrounded by those he adores and receiving affection from them/seeing them happy boosts his mood a lot but he doesn’t have enough self-awareness to guess at why his happier moods just won’t last.     - Sometimes he can figure out when he’s being irrational and then just takes it out on himself, which only exacerbates his bad episodes. 

Palpatine doesn’t help. He’s abusive, manipulates Anakin all the time and is the Worst and definitely makes everything Anakin is struggling with harder and I think we should all just punt him into a sun thank you this isn’t a headcanon I just want everyone to know how much I hate him

#this is like... super long im sorry lmao #and it's probably a bit all over the place anyways #long post #also idr much about mace's characterization so i'm Pretty sure he has a dry sense of humour but idr so lmao forgive that #borderline anakin skywalker #also a lil bit of #adhd anakin skywalker #i focused a bit on his bpd + his relationships here #but if there was something else you'd have preferred my ideas on please lmk #or even if this was remotely close to what you wanted in general #star wars #anakin headcanons #this is my first time doing a like... headcanon list or just some rambling list of ideas so skjlkjsd rip me #gray-does-stuff #ask

[seijorhi]

asks :))

what i have learned today is that y’all wanna get fucked by some monsters...

What does nostos mean? What language is it in? 🤔 also I of course loved it, mind blown as usual queen

it’s ancient greek! it means homecoming, the idea of a triumphant return home for the hero after a long journey. i found it through looking at the root of nostalgia. in this fic of course it’s kind of a grim tongue in cheek play on it. the reader’s coming back to the mountains, but she’s running away after a bad breakup, and the welcome she gets is... shall we say less than ideal haha

Just read nostos-

First of all as a person who reads monster shit- hell ya. Mhm. That’s some good shit right there. That was DELICIOUS horror. It actually had me a bit nervous and afraid to read what was gonna happen next 😳

Secondly- omg I wanna know what happened next (at the end) 👀 know what I mean??? 😼

ANYWAY AS ALWAYS you never disappoint and your writing is fantastic (if/when you write horror yandere stuff again I’ll be there- frothing at the mouth. A+++++ work ILY💖)

you want me to write the monster porn, just say it bby ghfjdkshgfjkd but ty

Omfg that fic was so good!

Did the readers mom know about monster kuroo?? Or was she just worried because of the previous murder? And did Kuroo somehow manipulate reader into coming back to the forest or was it just a big coincidence? (👁👄👁 there's no such thing as a coincidence)

Looking forward to your future work <3

ty nonnie!! i didn’t have the right space for it, but after kohsuke was ripped apart and eaten kuroo stayed by the reader’s side until late in the night, only disappearing when he heard the reader’s parents/search party approaching. they found her lying in pools of blood (and scattered half eaten body parts), shaking and unresponsive – they knew no animal could’ve done something like that. so they knew something lurked in those woods, but considering the reader had repressed the memories, her mom couldn’t just come out and say it <33

You are an AMAZING horror writer!!!

The uneasiness I got from the conversations with the mom is just *chefs kiss*

A+++++

ahh thank you!! horror is such a hard genre to write because i’m never sure if the suspense and everything’s gonna hit right haha

I read Nostos before going to sleep last night and at the time I was like “sure hope this doesn’t give me nightmares” and thankfully it didn’t lol. But I think I’m willing to take that chance again because it’s so GOOD and I think I’m just going to have to relive it – @ohno-otome

fhdjgbfhjkdfn i’m glad it didn’t give you nightmares bby!! but i also appreciate that haha, i’m an absolute wimp with scary movies and stuff but i just can’t stop watching them haha

I just wanna say that I was listening to "You're a psychotic villain playlist" on youtube while reading Kuroo's oneshot and I can't explain the emotions I felt, but I'd let Kuroo do things to me asdfghjkl – @itishebihime-samaforyou

ooh nice! sometimes the right playlist makes things doubly as fun haha

OH MY GOD!?!?! Nostos was soooo GOOD?!?!? Like it was so creepy (but in a good way), and scary and suspenseful!! And the ending!?!? Omggg honestly one my fav fics from you!! You did my mans Kuroo justice 🥺💖💕

TYYYYYYY i was genuinely concerned i was gonna scare everybody off haha

Ah! The new fic! Chiefs kiss! Magnificent! Bravo!🧚‍♀️✨🧞‍♀️🦖🦭🌹💫

tysm nonnie!!! <33

i’m pretty sure i’m in the same/similar timezone as you? and i do be staying up late to be one of the first to read your fics (i usually stay up late anyways). so imagine my surprise when i see you post in the afternoon. in conclusion, whether you post to align with your european and american readers’ timezone, my gmt+10 arse will still be one of the first to read your fics. also nostos sjdufigyyjf i have to admit, i recently just found out about monster fucking and nostos scratched the itch😫 i feel bad for kohsuke though

bby i always post at like 2-4 in the morning please get some sleep!! the fics will be there in the morning lmao. i kinda low key forget about my aussie/gmt+10 followers because i think there’s like... 3 of you haha

Honestly if i could give u a dollar everytime i got off to your fics, you'd probably be rich by now

lmao the idea that people find my fics hot enough to get off to still blows my mind lol

your newest kuroo fic was so SO good!! its totally okay if you dont want to answer this so you can keep things ambiguous but is monster kuroo planning on killing the reader after he's...done with them

thank you, bby!! but no, monster kuroo isn’t gonna eat her – he’s had plenty of chances to do that if that’s what he wanted, but he has other plans for the poor reader

RHI, I WANT TO STATE FOR THE RECORD THAT I AM OKAY WITH MORE MONSTER FUCKING IN THE FUTURE. i also want to say im not a monster fucker, but that just feels like a lie at this point. okay, now that that's off my chest, i love it. the mystery, the connections of kuroo to a cat. kuroo's probably gonna go and batter around his prey once they're under his grip like my cat does. hopefully the reader will come out somewhat unscathed, if they are ever allowed to leave 😌 love this, love how different it is, the way kuroo just tries to weasel in. very monster and yandere vibes, very you. have i said i love this yet?? id willingly let him get me drunk on his cock, maybe never leave the peace of the mountains again

‘i want to say that i’m not a monster fucker’ bby the denial will get you nowhere haha. just lean in and embrace it hgfjkdlkfgjnkdl ahh but thank you this is such a sweet ask ILY!!!

Omg omg the monster thing kuroo was in ur latest fic is so familiar to me abdhdmfnjfjf. I remember being told abt a monster with VERY SIMILAR characteristics to it (aka the not being able to go inside a house unless invited and using fire to lure ppl out) AND JFC IT TERRIFIED ME. Esp how when i told ppl around me and they didnt recognize what it was, but it was somehow known to the kid that told me abt it.

(Some ppl thought it was familiar but still didnt know what it was)

Do u know what im talking abt? Hopefully u do

-🥚

GHFJDK so the monster in this is kind of based off the nekomata spirit in japanese folklore - they can appear like people, torment victims by reanimating the corpses of their loved ones, they’ve been blamed for forest fires, so it was just fun to use that as a basis and then go buck wild haha. anyway thanks for the ask bby!

Rest In Peace Kohsuke, you would’ve loved Haikyuu season 5😔✊– @joyvstheworld

poor kohsuke deserved better, i’m just mean to the oc’s i throw into fics haha

Monsterfucking ❤❤❤❤❤❤ a little annoyed you're making me simp for yan Kuroo though (a vibe tho tbh). You're so extremely talented!!!! &

This is probably a stupid question, but how did Kageyama react when he couldn't find y/n? How is life with yan Suga? I imagine probably awful BUT yknow maybe the stockholm syndrome set in fast lmao. Sorry, I'm going on a binge reading your stuff. - @oracleofdin

i will not apologise for making you simp for kuroo he deserves it the man’s a snacc. and as far as your second question, suga’s a very caring, very smothering kinda yandere, so i guess in some ways it’s better than what the reader had with kageyama but... pick your poison haha

That was so good. I’m so shook rn I can’t comprehend anything but how good that was and how good a writer you are

TYSM NONNIE!!! <33

Ok, so, I just read Final Girl and the lil' ticket addition to it and just---

Well, ok I've been playing Dead by Daylight a lot lately? And I'm just picturing Tetsu as the newest killer "The Trickster" and I'm positively RANDY.

Your writing is ALREADY thirst inducing and just as satisfying, but this has SENT ME- If you're not familiar, please...

https://youtu.be/iowkiPobYYQ

Understand my thirst. (I'd also like to clarify, I use a different skin for him that gives him black hair and he looks like Kuroo with an undercut.)

~ @the-casual-hedonist 🌸

i love how feral y’all got for final girl kuroo. like bo and akaashi had his fans, but i put a spiked bat in kuroo’s hands and y’all lost your goddamn minds and i love to see it. fghdjkvhfjdkls thanks for the ask bby

idk why but I love preggo reader as long as I don't pretend it's me 😢✋ I hate babies n pregnancy anywhere else other than horny haikyuu fics

i think that’s a valid thing for a lot of fans. the idea of breeding is sexy, the actual getting pregnant and having a kid thing... not so much. but especially with non-con scenario’s, it’s more about the aspect on control than the actual desire to have kids. but yeah, i feel you

Sorry to bother but uh was just wondering in fracture did Osamu kill his wife or was it actually an “unfortunate event” ? Love your work btw!!

he most certainly did :))

LMFAO RHI i totally get not liking cheating/infidelity fics (towards reader) bc IT HIRTS ME SO BAD I CANNOT HANDLE THOSE.

id be reading fics those fics like: tf you mean my yandere aimt gonna baby me and only want me??🤨🤨🤨⁉️‼️

EXACTLY! listen i get that it’s a fucked up fantasy, but in my fucked up fantasy you damn well better have the decency to be loyal smh

Finders keepers is the most beautiful thing I've read by you: I read it twice like I normally do and here's what I figured out the second time (that's when I analyze it and find the little tidbits of things that are much darker than they appear (: )

To start I LOVE THE DETAILS OF THEM NEVER TEACHING READER ANYTHING- at first I assumed "oh they might see her as a little sister or child or something" but realized thAT WAS THE ISSUE!! they infantilize her and isolate her from everyone but her group. the small details like that are what make the story amazing 😎💅

ahh thank you so much, nonnie!! pls this is making me soft 🥺

I just wanted to stop by and say that I love your writing and I hope you're doing well!!! Drink plenty of water and keep up the amazing work :) but seriously you're one of the best fanfic writers I've seen on tumblr! I read your "Imitation" piece about kuroo and i keep coming back to it, it's so good! I did want to ask if you think it'd be possible for the reader to ever escape with the baby (or at least attempt to). Or if Kenma would "help" at all just to put an end to kuroo's antics lmao

kenma would in no way help the reader, and tbh by that point if kuroo did get her pregnant, she’d be far too emotionally dependant on him to actually even want to leave, but thanks for the ask!

You know who I think would be a perfect Yandere in the JJK world? Choso.

🚨Spoilers Ahead🚨

After being locked in a glass jar for however long he was, and all that happened with his brothers, I feel like he would absolutely never let his darling out of his sight. He would be possessive. Obsessive. And Oh So delusional. Sure he’d be your anything - he truly is a softy - but to what end?🤤

choso would make an excellent yandere, ngl 😌

what au/troupe of your fav character(s) that you have written do you like the most?

(rlly hope this makes sense🙏)

i am always a slut for soulmate au’s :))

#ask #anon #rhi answers #ohh so many asks #i love you guys <33 #fic q's

[doctorobinson]

;; shoutout to @everstride for directing me to this ( very fucked up bc y’know... molly does nothing normal ) movie with the perfect bby!mauren still in/just out of iowa aesthetic

it doubly fucked me up because ( and only @anarcalina and @starsdestined will really get this ) canada has like 12 actors so both michael shanks and don s. davis were in it and neither of them were very nice men.

but also peep the penny resemblance because seriously. is that molly or mina ? how can you tell ?

#R3491 ✩ ooc | out of the jupiter #R3491 ✩ visage | my name is rebel #i swear to god lost in space is the most normal thing mollys ever done #i was gonna say and deadwood but that is written in the western equivalent of shakespeare bc david milch is a genius madman #and 99% of her batshit projects have actually really good points to them but its hard to see beyond the batshitery #like this one is a really interesting commentary on poverty and sex work and bodily autonomy #and how men feel entitled to a sex workers body #and how poverty quickly leads to exploitation #but you can be so distracted by the fact it seems like a romantic drama and then takes a HARD RIGHT TURN in the 11th hr #that you just miss all that #anyway no one asked for this analysis on mollys filmography i mostly just wanted to share the bby maureen pictures XD #but here we are

[ubemango]

big joon meeting jimin officially for the first time (like as pups oc boyfriend meeting the best friend👀) but also sending you much love! 😚😚😚

OMFGJQNWNWN This makes me so happy I love when besties meet an s/o. And in Jimin’s case he just so happens to spot oc and Joon on the campus quad in between classes and he’s just like >:)!!!!!!!!! Time to go bother my Bestie <3!!!!! And he’s like ugh this is perfect bc I haven’t officially met Namjoon yet so YESSSS... time to doubly annoy my bestie <3 anyway Jimin is so strange bc he can be Particularly Abrasive but it’s just his charm you know? Like he’s not mean for the fun of it, his friendships just work that way. He knows when to respect boundaries.

So when he starts interrogating Namjoon like it’s a neo our crime thriller movie you know he’s just being stupid. He even has a notepad with his pen for fuck’s sake. Bless Namjoon for just going along with it.

“Name and date of birth.”

“Kim Namjoon. The twelfth of September, nineteen-ninety-four.”

“Occupation?”

“Student.”

“Any allergies?”

“Um. I don’t like seafood,” Namjoon deliberates.

“That sucks.” Jimin shakes his head with disappointment. “Let’s see. Favourite drink to have when it’s a rainy day?”

You watch Namjoon think from across the table. “Tea?”

“Sophisticated. What kind?”

“I’m a fruit kind of guy,” he says.

“That was like, the sexiest thing I’ve ever heard,” Jimin says, scribbling something down. “Okay. You know how to drive?”

Namjoon scratches the back of his neck. “Ah. Not yet.”

“Minus five points. But it’s okay because your handsome aura makes up for it.”

“Thank you,” Namjoon says.

“You have any pets?”

“I have a dog. Name’s Monie.”

“Like money?”

“Sure.”

Jimin nudges your shoulder. “A dog guy? Nice one.”

You heat. “Can you please finish questioning him before I kick your head in.”

“She can be so violent sometimes,” Jimin scoffs. “Fine. Two more questions.”

“Shoot,” Namjoon laughs.

“What’s one thing you like best about my wonderful friend who is very close to beating me up?”

You will actually snatch Jimin by his ear and drag him across the yard and chuck him into the closest garbage bin. Being complimented makes you want to boil yourself alive!! And not because you’re being cocky but because the attention is just too much. Even talking to Namjoon at this point in your relationship (which is like, five days old) gets overwhelming.

“I like that she has a friend who cares a lot for her,” Namjoon says, and you chance a look at him. He stares at the table, thinking.

“Good answer,” Jimin says. “I like that about her too. So if you ever decide to hurt her, you will find this—“ he sticks his index finger up— “up your ass before you even realize it’s there.”

Very sweet. Jimin loves butts so it’s very scary when he threatens yours because it’s likely that he means whatever he’s saying.

Namjoon nods, frozen. “Understood.”

“Okay, final question...”

You watch him flip his notepad to a new page. He starts giggling.

“Is it big?”

“YEP, okay, ha ha, you had your fun.” You push at Jimin’s shoulder till he’s toppling over the bench seat. “Don’t you have class soon?”

He brushes off the grass stains on his jeans. “Yeah but I’ll probably skip because my ass hurts, Jesus you push hard. Anyway. It was nice meeting you Namjoon. Don’t forget that your ass is mine.”

He makes another gesture of violence with his finger.

“Got it,” Namjoon says. “Nice meeting you too.”

When Jimin’s walked away, Namjoon deflates with a sigh. “He scares me.”

“I’ll protect you,” you assure him. “I beat him up for being annoying like everyday, so.”

#f: pups series #d: pups series

[turnleftaticela]

Last night I had an insane panic attack while trying to do laundry and I’m trying to figure out why. (This post is long so start scrolling now if you don’t want to read about my anxiety problems.)

My hypotheses so far:

1. I have a deep-rooted fear of appliances, especially when they’re loud/fast/whirring, ESPECIALLY when they’re not supposed to be doing so, because that means they’ll explode and ??? kill me or something

Evidence:

When I came downstairs to check on the laundry, the washer was spinning really fast, even though I’d set the spin speed to low

My instinct was to cover my ears and crouch in a ball, as one would if trying to protect themselves from the noise and impact of an oncoming explosion

As a kid, I was similarly afraid of the VCR when we would hit rewind on a home movie and it would start whirring really loudly and the timestamp counter thingy would go past 00:00 into the negative numbers, which seemed like a malfunction, so I thought it was going to explode

I was also deeply afraid of the scene in The Brave Little Toaster where the air conditioner gets so worked up and angry that it starts yelling and sparks fly out of it and then it explodes and dies

2. I’ve formed an unhealthy, almost personifying emotional attachment to my favorite jacket and I’m deeply afraid of hurting it

Evidence:

I have a long history of doing this with other inanimate objects, to the point where I had to cut off that part of my brain entirely and stop taking comfort in any items at all because I would get so worried and scared about them and feel so much guilt and pain and loss if anything went awry (see: Sam the toy lizard, whom I took with me to school every day in seventh grade until one day I lost him there and totally spiraled)

So the only comfort items I let myself have these days are my stuffed animal alpaca and, apparently, this jacket

I associate the jacket with a fictional character whom I feel protective towards and proud of

I feel safe and empowered when I wear the jacket

It makes me happy when I see it or hold it

My jacket was in this particular load of laundry and I’d already been stressing out about how to wash it because it’s black and white so I didn’t know which colors to put it with and I ended up washing it with my normal clothes which have various colors of varying lightness and I was worried they would bleed onto the white parts of the jacket

I was doubly scared because my other clothes I don’t really care about since they’re old and tattered so I kinda just throw them in whatever cycle and let it do its thing bc they’re not gonna get more damaged than they already are, but now I had this special item that I wanted to take extra good care of, so I felt I needed to step up to the plate for the first time and figure out how to actually be careful and wash it with the exact right settings that would keep it safe

I purposely set the spin speed to low to be as careful as possible with the jacket, but when I came downstairs, the washer was spinning VERY fast and immediately I was worried the jacket was going to get damaged

After my initial crouch-panic, I immediately stopped the washer, but for like five minutes afterwards I was too scared to even look at it let alone open it, because I didn’t want to see the damage my jacket had suffered

When I finally worked up the courage to check on the jacket, I assessed it for damage (there was none (though for a second I thought there was and almost freaked the fuck out)) and then hugged it really hard for like several minutes and cried like it was a family member returning from some terrible accident and said “I’m so sorry” over and over

3. It’s both. This is the correct hypothesis.

Evidence:

The VCR thing was specifically about home movies, which contained precious memories of the people I cared about, meaning to my little kid brain that those people would get hurt if the DVD player exploded

The air conditioner had a face and a voice and thoughts and feelings and as a kid I probably empathized with it and cared about it like I would a human being, and it literally died. To my little kid brain, I watched someone I cared about explode and die

So put two and two together. Loud whirring appliance = explosion and death. Dysfunctional empathy = caring about objects like they’re humans who love me and I love them. I thought I fucked up the settings so bad that the washing machine malfunctioned and might explode, damaging or even potentially killing my loved one

In conclusion: “I need therapy” -quote from person already in therapy

#Long post #Vent #I feel like I should tag this but no one has ever requested I tag anything so just . lemme know alright lmao #Wait nvm I’ll just put it under a read more #No but that feels inauthentic #Sigh #Why are these the problems I have #Fuck it I’m just posting it #There’s only like 5 people on here whose opinions actually matter to me and I already know those people won’t abandon me for this #So #Akwbwvwgwjdsbvqfwshbwqgwhdvgwhsjd #Happy Candid Friday everyone #Lfjegwwhdb

[lucidityelixr]

i love my partners  i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners i love my partners

i know im a selfish bastard and in some way its probably sexist but like i just love them. I want to support them to do whatever they want in life without fear of failing an crashing. i love the idea of going to a long day at the job factory, busting my ass and like, coming home and there are my beloveds!!! Nd they have had a lovely day taking care of the homes and doing errands and their passions nd i had a good day at the buisness factory and they make me shepherds pie and each of them hold one of my hands while we watch movies. I want him to tell me about his new investigative projects and how he plans to like, drive to some nuclear power plant to interview the workers and i want them to tell me aout th new fursuit theyre working on and their plans for tabling the next con. I want to spend time with both of them and each of them. I want to pour every fucking thing i have in me into them bc i love them so much in a way i want them to thrive, and i know they both love me and take care of me so well.

I can’t wait for my long distance partner to be like, down the street from me. most might find it creepy, but like sneakign in while they’re asleep and turning on their coffee maker and surprising them with breakfast sounds so nice. or if i am massive insomnia i can just, wheel on over there and tidy up and theyd wake up in a clean apartment!! nd we can nap all the time. hopefully my job will be coding by then and i can just post up in their kitchen all day and be a pain in the ass while they noodle around me.

aaaaggh i love being in love. im so lucky to do it doubly. i just love them so much i wanna marry them both. i wanna spend my life with both of them. i never thought it would be like this but i think i always needed both of them. we make a good team

#poly yearning

[snapedefender]

im sorry, i need somebody to vent to djfjrjfjdj i was debating w a snape hater, and they hit me with the CLASSIC "unlike snape, james grew up" and when i told them there's no actual evidence that james ~grew up, bc he died in his 20s, they told me - and here's the kicker!!!? - that there's no proof or record of james' (or lily's) age when he passed away NFKFKDNFOSKFJS I WILL LOSE MY MIND I SWEAAAAARRRR TO JESUS

OMG AND THEN!!!!! THEY ASKED ME IF I HAD, AND I SHIT YOU NOT, READ THE BOOKS DISJDDIJEEIWKDJ i have had some stupid snape arguments - though definitely not as bad os as many as you - but never has anybody had the sheer AUDACITY of asking me if I've read the books (implying, y'know, that i have only superficial knowledge of the series) while wildly claiming lack of evidence on one of the most easily google-able facts in the entire series. on god. (sorry this got long)

alsjflakjfakfjaf i’m LOSING IT this made me cackle out loud

like. we don’t know much about james, that’s true. one of the only things we know is, in fact, when he died and when he was born and thus how old he was when he died akjsjahfjha

one of the major thematic points in the books is the effects of war on young people and a major part of that point is the tragedy of people like lily and james dying so young like that is the POINT that is what they are meant to represent and we know that bc we know they died in their fucking 20s asfajfjhk im just!!! this is such an easy fact to know!!!! this isnt deep lore!!!!!!! snape went to school with them and he’s in like his early thirties when the books start. it’s not hard!!! it’s basic maths!!! snape antis proving yet again that they only have one brain cell and they dont know what to do with it!!!!

did you ask them if they’ve read the books bc maybe theyre confused about when james and lily died bc they hired like 40-something actors to play them in the movies. but seriously why.... is that always the argument. like you said, the implication is you can only have superficial knowledge of the books if you are stupid enough to actually like snape. which is ridiculous. just bc you like an unlikable character doesn’t mean you have no knowledge of the canon or that you’re just too idiotic to know any better. that’s fucking infuriating to me, like sorry you don’t like this character but it doesn’t make me stupid bc i like him!!! it doesn’t mean i didn’t read the books or that i’m just horny for alan rickman!!! and it’s doubly infuriating when it’s so clear that these people just haven’t thought critically about the books at all or when they mess up something as basic as the age when james died. 

anyway you were RIGHT and you SHOULD say it bc yes we don’t know that james did change!!! we don’t see him as an adult except for when he’s sacrificing himself for his wife and child - a very noble thing, yes, but also something that james would have done regardless of if he had left behind his bullying ways (james is a bully to those he doesn’t like and good to those he does like, remember? of course he’s going to sacrifice himself for his family). that doesn’t make it any less heroic but we can’t use that sole moment in his adult life to figure out if he stopped being a bullying toerag. and he never got to actually grow up because he DIED in his TWENTIES which antis can find out if they ever actually read the goddamn books alkfsjafjaklfj

sorry that you had to deal with that nonsense. you’re always welcome to come and vent to me, i am very bitter and petty and i love being bitter and petty with other people.

#Anonymous

[bolshoiromanova]

Natasha, the Soul Stone, and the Black Widow Movie

I’ve been wanting to write this all day but I had to spend three hours doing a take home exam and after that I had to work on an essay (final weeks of college are a bitch) so it’s late but hopefully I’m still coherent enough so I can do this justice.

Anyway here’s my meta on Natasha and the soul stone and how that might affect the Black Widow movie (SPOILERS DUH)

putting this under a cut bc it might get long

One of the most frustrating things about Natasha’s death (besides, y’know, EVERYTHING) is that no one who worked on this movie seems to fucking understand how the soul stone works or how the soul exchange works. None of it is consistent: the writers and the Russo’s insist that Nat is gone for good because of the exchange, while failing to provide a coherent explanation for why Steve returning the stone at the end didn’t undo her death (you give back the stone, you undo the trade, right??) Not to mention the fact that Clint willingly didn’t give up Natasha so he could take the stone, something that was seemingly made very clear in Infinity War when Thanos sacrificed Gamora. So essentially, nothing about the Soul Stone/Nat’s death really makes any sense and if I see the Russo’s in the street I’m throwing hands.

But anyway, there is one aspect of the soul stone that we saw in Infinity War that I want to dress, and how that could factor into the Black Widow movie.

Back when rumors of a legitimate Black Widow movie started coming into fruition at the beginning in 2018, The Hashtag Show reported that there would be details in Endgame that would factor into the solo, details that Marvel would insist on being included. Obviously, her death factors pretty heavily into that, as if she is indeed not coming back this film will undoubtedly be a prequel. 

Now, back to the soul stone. The scene I want to talk about is from Infinity War, right after Thanos snaps and he finds himself face-to-face with a young Gamora in (what appears to be) a version of the soul world:

This is never explained. The scene heavily implies that Gamora (and all others who where sacrificed for the stone) still exist in some capacity within the soul stone. For awhile fandom speculated that all of the characters who got snapped ended up in the soul world, but from Peter’s explanation during the final battle it looks like everyone just felt like they had slept for a few minutes, and never actually spent any time conscious or in limbo. 

Therefore, it looks like only the characters who were sacrificed in the trade for the stone remain in the soul world. It makes sense, as the stone takes possession of the souls it was traded for.

So presumably Gamora and Natasha are still in there. As we saw at the end of the movie, this might factor into guardians 3, as the guardians are looking to save Gamora in one way or another (either by tracking down the 2014 version or otherwise).

So, how does all this factor into the Black Widow movie?

Since it’s become very clear that this movie is actually happening, I’ve been (of course) thinking a lot of what I might actually want from this film (and oooohhh the list is long!) But I’ve always liked the idea of Natasha, maybe at least for one of the trailers or the beginning of the film, getting to narrate her own story, similar to how she narrated in her 2014 comic run. Something along the lines of “you may know my name, but no one knows my full story.” The narration is a doubly symbolic for me, as it quite literally would show Natasha taking control of her own narrative, being given the chance to tell her own story, instead of being filtered through the lens of male characters/writers. Obviously, with her being dead, she wouldn’t be able to do this while sitting in Avengers HQ, but clearly we can’t have nice things.

Which brings everything I’ve said into play here. The soul stone, soul world, details from Endgame Marvel insists are included in the Black Widow movie.

Could the Black Widow movie include Natasha in the soul stone, narrating and looking back on her life, now that she’s made the ultimate sacrifice?

Would it in any way justify/make Natasha’s death any better? Hell no. Would it clear up all the crap surrounding the soul stone? No. Would it even open the door to bring Natasha back? I have no idea. But I like the idea of this happening. Why? Maybe I’m comforted by the idea that Natasha’s still alive in some capacity. Maybe I hope that this will give people more time to meditate of Natasha’s sacrifice if she is shown in limbo like this. Maybe I just really, really like the idea of Natasha narrating her movie and don’t want that possibility to be lost now that she’s dead. Whatever the reason, I will hold onto this theory until it is definitively proven otherwise.  

#endgame spoilers #natasha romanoff #black widow #meta #soul stone #black widow movie #Scarlett Johansson #speculation

[ofregiums]

silence ! raise the royal standard, for the king of hungary, DOMINYKAS VANCURA, has arrived. being thirty-one years old, he is currently on the throne. many around the court call him the insurgent by virtue of him being perspicacious and captivating, while also being ruthless and aggressive.  —played by max irons

— THE BASICS

full name: dominykas leandro vancura date of birth: july 26th age: thirty-one star sign: leo profession: king of hungary ( canon ), hedge fun manager mi6 operative ( modern ) loyalty: hungary, house vancura, entente alignment: chaotic neutral mbti: estp spoken languages: hungarian ( first ), english ( fluent ), spanish ( fluent ), french ( fluent ), mandarin ( fluent ), russian ( advanced ), italian ( advanced ), lithuanian ( intermediate ), polish ( intermediate ), hindustani ( intermediate ), arabic ( beginner ) mother’s name: gabriella vancura father’s name: richárd vancura ( deceased ) siblings, if any: pál vancura ( older, deceased in canon ), aurélia vancura ( younger ), adelaida & angéla vancura ( younger, identical twins ), dániel vancura ( younger ) children: laima vaisvila ( aged five ) height: 6′2″ hair colour: dark brown. eye colour: blue-grey.

— CANON VERSE

first off, let me start off by saying that dom can be the wOOOoooooOoooRST. what’s his damage, heather ? well, it’s not his family. his family was super loving and supportive and he grew up loving all of his siblings and such. never rly had the responsibilities of being king so he fucked around a lot as a teenager, partaking in hedonistic behavior bc why not ?

fell like fucking head over heels madly in love at the age of seventeen to a lithuanian duke’s daughter and shit, nothing else mattered. she was his polar opposite like a goddamn ray of sunshine but she made him want to clean up his act in a way that he never though possible. he !!! fucking !!! loved !!! her !!!

yep, loved. bc he can’t be happy, duh. they got married at the age of eighteen, things were fucking great. she tempered him down and reminded him that there was good that no one else saw. about two years into their marriage, the two discovered that tiesa was pregnant. but the war was brewing and he felt like he needed to fight and that all sorta stressed his wife out a lot. she has a miscarriage due to it.

that was the first knife to the heart. dom grew resentful and numb to his emotions. he detached from his family and was a far harsher and colder man. lacking a purpose, he went off to fight in the war. witnessing those horrors really fucked him up and added another knife to the heart.

he had a partner in crime in the war, a total ride or die. this was probably the only guy that could coax a smile out of dom lately. so obviously that meant he couldn’t live. he was killed saving dom. that traumatized the hell out of him.

coming back from the war, dom was no longer the boy he’d once been. he’d become a man, and that man was more akin to something horrible. he delved headfirst in hedonism to drown the pain and clutched to anything that could make him feel – if there was anything at all.

then, his father who he LOVED was murdered by prussia. ( clearly, i’m saying fuck dom rights ) 

the final straw for him ? losing tiesa. after the glorious news of hearing that she was pregnant again, the two thought this would be the new fresh chapter in their book together. she gave birth to a beautiful baby girl that they named laima. but as quickly as happiness returned to dom, it was taken away -- tiesa lost too much blood during the birth and didn’t even survive to see her beautiful creation. in absolute anguish, dom plucked all the knives of trauma that had once pierced his heart and declared that he no longer had one -- save for his affection for his sister and child.

coveted the throne from his older brother, but really it’s just something to fixate on so he didn’t delve too much into his own fucked up head. he was angry that his brother refused to attack prussia for their sins against their father. considered his brother a weak leader and fully convinced himself that he would be better. (spoiler alert: he wouldn’t.)

he got the chance to make that selfish, horrendous dream into a reality when the vancura family traveled to bern for the peace talks. one night, pirates stormed the castle taking lives and innocence left to right. dom seized his opportunity and stabbed his brother in the midst of the attacks. as he died, dom promised to exact revenge on prussia for their father. when guards came around, he pretended that it was the pirates that had done the deed. oh no ! long live king dominykas, i guess.

dom is hurting and in return, he wishes for everyone else to hurt. and if that meant lighting himself on fire and burning all the bridges on the way, so fucking be it. he’s vindictive and charming like a fucking snake, and he’s just as venomous.

anyways that’s my trash son. if you’re hot, he’ll flirt. if you piss him off, he becomes a scary mass of rage. terrible temper smh.

prussia, he’s coming for you hoes.

— MODERN VERSE

born the second oldest of the vancura children, dominykas didn’t have as heavy of a responsibility on his shoulders as his older brother did. honestly, he liked it that way. he had no desire in being controlled or even having a hand in his family’s business – banking. his great grandfather created the company and soon, the ambition turned it into an empire.

while his parents had met as children in hungary, they migrated to london once they eloped for a better chance in life. dom has only been back a handful of times in his life to visit family. he hasn’t been gone by his own will since the age of sixteen and doesn’t plan on doing so. 

instead of worrying about the family name, dom enjoyed being the pretty hedonistic rich boy that got everything he wanted and did everything he pleased. was the peak definition of a fuckboi growing up and was very proud of it.

didn’t really want to further his education. while he was naturally intelligent, he never had the desire to just learn for learning’s sake. but not attending university was a non-starter when it came to his strict father. he was handed pamphlets of high-end schools and was forced to make a choice. he decided on oxford university, since he had zero desire to leave england.

that ended up being the right choice because: a.) he met his best friend florian & b.) he met tiesa. she was by far the most beautiful woman he’d ever seen in his life and the moment dom tried to use his usual disingenuous charm on her, she shut him the fuck down. holy shit, he needed it. and the reason that she called him out on his bullshit was exactly the reason he fell in love with her. after much back and forth throughout their studies, she agreed to go out with him and they started dating very soon after.

near the end of his university experience, dom was approached by a “hedge fund firm” for an internship. upon the interview process, he learned that it was in fact a cover for the secret intelligence service. they wanted to hire him as an operational officer. dom, a known thrill seeker, thought it would be fun.

keeping his lives separate proved to be difficult, especially with how things were going with tiesa. they fought a lot about him being secretive and it placed a strain on their relationship. things grew doubly complicated when tiesa announced that she was pregnant. dom asked her to marry him instantly, not wanting this to be a decision that severed their ties. they had an elopement, much to his family’s dismay, and a few months later – laima was born.

if he thought he understand love before, fuck it only grew tenfold. all he knew was that he loved his wife and his daughter and he would do all he could to protect them. ironic, considering the nature of his job.

upon graduation, the secret intelligence service offered him a lucrative new position – in the field as an operative. it sort of felt like something out a movie but this was a cold reality that would change dominykas’ life for the worst.

collecting information, by means or torture or even worse methods, wore on the man. but he couldn’t just back out of his agreement. he was in for life and that was a decision he would have to learn to accept. except, dom was a stubborn man. so, he tried to get away. packed up tiesa and laima and booked a trip to the states. he was willing to trade secrets to the cia for protection.

the day they were supposed to leave, he found tiesa shot through the head in their kitchen. laima was wailing in her nursery. the official news was that it was a botched bulgary. but dominykas knew, he fucking knew. it was them. and he had no choice but to continue to work for them. for laima’s safety.

his mind spiraled into darkness and paranoia after his wife’s death. he didn’t know who he could or couldn’t trust. could it have been one of his siblings who betrayed him ? a friend from his dining club ? truth be told, the only person that he trusted throughout this all was florian but even his best friend could not salvage the shell of the person he’d become after losing tiesa.

now, dom bitterly continues to work for the service, no longer batting an eye at the the violence and schemes of it all. 

drinks a lot more than he used to. too much, actually. 

no longer attempted to be there for laima as he should be. truthfully, he sees too much of tiesa in her and the reminder threatens to take him off the deep end.

#( * introductions. ) #( * rich kid asshole ; paint me as a villain | dominykas vancura. )

[falselyprofound]

Okay, now that I’m home, I’m gonna thought dump on the latest Avengers movie.

Lots of actual spoilers here, naturally, but the tl;dr is that I enjoyed myself much more than I thought I was gonna. Which is impressive, because I’ve only seen, like... four solo Marvel movies. Two of whom got snapped out of existence, and the third only had like four minutes of screen time.

(Christ, though, did Endgame really need to be three hours long...?)

So: I did not like Infinity War at all. I thought it was a massive pile of unfocused garbage, with a 2D villain trying waaaaay too hard to be sympathetic and intelligent, and an ending that was both highly predictable and very unsatisfying. Given that the MacGuffin of these movies is a gauntlet that literally lets you rewrite reality, I figured nothing in either of these movies would matter in the long run, because I presumed that it would all just end in a Magic Reset Button.

My expectations were at rock bottom. I was expecting an hour of angst, followed by an hour of the Avengers manning up and tracking down Thanos and the stones, and then an hour or so of boring back-and-forth fistfighting, and then someone snaps their fingers and reality resets and none of this ever happens.

To put it simply - that doesn’t happen.

Thor decapitated Thanos before the title card, and I nearly lost my shit.  WRITERS KNEW WHAT I CAME HERE TO SEE AND WASTED NO TIME IN GETTING TO IT.

So needless to say, I was pleasantly surprised by a lot of things in this film.

For a start, we actually get to see the fallout of the Snappening. After Thanos dies & the stones are revealed to have been destroyed, we get a five year time skip. Some people move on, others don’t, and it’s honestly nice to see them balance it out rather than just have it all be angst.

It wasn’t until Ant Man showed up that I really started to take interest how things were going, though. I’ve never seen any of his films, but I think he was probably the highlight of the movie for me? Alas, he never goes up anyone’s ass, but his parts are really entertaining regardless.

The perspective of “guy who somehow missed the last five years worth of plot because he was technically locked in his car” was both kind of hilarious and kind of spooky. Plus, having not seen his movies, it was pretty entertaining trying to work out what his deal was. I didn’t know where he’d been, who he’d lost, or why everyone thought he had been dusted - but the writers do a solid enough job of cluing you in without slowing down the action.

Anyway, after that it turns into a full on time-travel movie. Which... was also not what I was expecting. What was doubly unexpected was that they weren’t trying to reset the world to the pre-Infinity War days -- they just want to grab the stones so they can bring people back to the post-Endgame world. Which is both a great way of avoiding time travel paradoxes and a great way of actually making the five fucking hours of movie I had to sit through actually mean something in the long run. Again, I can’t stress enough how much I hate reset buttons, so I enjoyed the hell outta that. (It’s... kind of a low bar but anyway.)

The time travel makes up the bulk of the movie, and they have a lotta fun with it. Visiting lots of locations and eras, comparing and contrasting future versions of characters with past ones, getting closure from deceased loved ones, punching Peter Quill in the face bc he’s too busy listening to music, tracking the quality of Captain America’s ass over the decades, yadda yadda yadda. All the usual stuff.

Also, they fucking made the ridiculous “Captain America is HYDRA” controversy from two years ago a plot point and I am so, so glad.

Things get kinda stupid around the three-quarters mark, though. A character gets sorta-fridged, there’s a giant CGI battle bc of course there is, the timestream gets fucked because people kill past versions of themselves and apparently that doesn’t affect anything... but if nothing else, it’s... coherent. Which is more than some of these bloody crossovers are.

Several characters either perma-die, perma-retire, or get resurrected without their character development. I’m sure people who are more invested in these movies than I am might get a bit emotional over all that, but like... people called this shit years ago. And I never watched their films, so... I didn’t care.

But all in all I found it to be a pretty entertaining movie, despite my lack of knowledge of the series. I’ll probably never bother with the grim pile of sludge that is Infinity War again, but I could see myself picking Endgame up again some time in the future.

Other misc thoughts:

Peter Parker may have only had four lines, but they were all gr8. Welcome back son.

(Also every female character showing up at once to stop him from getting killed? big fucking mood.)

...Hoh man, not liking the implication that all of Peter’s classmates - Ned included - got dusted. I’m lowkey wondering if the reason they cast Aunt May so young is so they could show the effects of that five-year timeskip...

Why was Clint Barton a ninja? Like was that in the comics, or did they just think that was cooler than it actually was

Kinda liked how they wrote Carol Danvers out of the plot. It felt natural, and was probably the first time I’ve seen one of these “Earth is only the ground-zero of a universe wide catastrophe” plots actually address that awful shit is happening elsewhere in the galaxy. (Lookin’ at you, Doctor Who.)

Loved that every time Thor was seen fighting Thanos, he was always visibly aiming for his head.

Loved that Thanos has canonically died like three times now.

I have never heard a cinema audience clap/otherwise go apeshit as hard as they did when Cap picked up Mjölnir. I wish I knew more about the movies so I could share their enthusiasm -- but I was legit happy for them regardless.

...I wish I’d seen Thor Ragnarok. Everyone keeps telling me I should’ve.

(Also, Thor may or may not play Fortnite. I wish I was joking.)

#pointless post #avengers endgame spoilers / #(maybe I should just get a generic 'marvel blogging' tag or somethin...) #marvel blogging

[asuka--langley--soryu]

30- 41!

lol alright here we go!

30. what do you think LCL smells like? Expired orange juice

31. would you be an evangelion pilot? Answered!

32. do you think toji should’ve piloted unit 03 in 2.0? 

YES. I wrote on this a little bit last time I complained about the rebuilds, but I think swapping Toji for Asuka was kind of dumb. To be brief, the audience has had much more time with Toji at that point in the film series and thus the emotional payoff of having him in the destroyed unit would be greater than Asuka who is (as I argued in that post) essentially kind of a non-entity in the movie. Also, it felt pretty centrally important to that original scene that Toji is not entirely complicit in his piloting. He’s essentially an innocent in the plot--has not had the kind of experiences with nerv that the others have had and provides the viewpoint of a normal citizen during the angel attacks--a terrorized victim of all the cosmic manipulations at play. Plopping him in the eva is sudden and devastating--the innocent in the path of danger, destroyed by what he aptly predicted might destroy him. Replacing him with Asuka (who, yes, is no more deserving of her eva-based trauma but at the very fucking least wants to be there) is weird and dumb and has no emotional or thematic payoff beyond ‘it vaguely sucks when human beings are in pain’. It also makes bringing his sister in for 3.0 make even less sense and also carry literally no weight whatsoever, which is a massive missed op in my eyes. It would have been way more effective if it had been Toji who had gotten fucked up in the robot and then we meet his sister (his initial and sole motivation for even being there in the first place) in the next film. 

Also they do this weird fake-out scene where they literally make you think Toji is going to be piloting and its sooooOoo fucking dumb. Every time the rebuilds do those weird wink-nudges to people who watch the series it makes my eyeballs abscond into my fucking medula. 

But yea Asuka got a cool eyepatch so like whatever. 

33. on a scale of 1 to 10, how much do you understand nge? answered!

34. do you have tags for the characters in nge?

Oh christ this is where I come out as a bad nge blogger lol. If you’ve followed me for a while you will perhaps remember a time when I was extremely fastidious about tagging and had individual tags for everyone and everything and you may notice that I......don’t do that anymore. I tag pretty much everything on my personal and I guess it feels more important there bc I’m posting more disparate shit, but it’s also a little annoying sometimes and juggling it for two blogs is doubly so. I got tired of doing it here for a few reasons and so dropped it a while back, save for content warnings. 

35. favorite track in nge/rebuild/eoe? 

all the usual ones (cruel angels thesis/komm susser todd/ thanatos) are obvs dear to my heart but I think the one ost song that always sticks out to me is Tokyo 3! First of all, I love a good horn section and tokyo 3 is....99% horns so. Second of all, and probably more importantly, its the menu song for the platinum edition, which is how I first watched nge and have watched it every time since. So in that way I have a particular affection for it because it kind of underscores my entire evangelion viewing experience. 

36. Would you cosplay someone from nge? if so, who?

I’ve cosplayed Asuka like 4 or 5 times now (most recently). I’ve considered doing Misato in the future but we’ll see if that happens lol. 

37. dub or sub?

okay so like do NOT even at me but I first watched nge dubbed and I have a big fucking soft spot for it despite the og dub being a little.....inconsistent. I love tiffany grant and I’ll stan her Asuka till I’m dead. 

38. Rei’s new plug suit or old plugsuit? Rei’s black plugsuit is the best part of the rebuilds. 

39. Asuka’s new plug suit or old plugsuit? OG red/green plugsuit 100%. I like the 3.0 track jacket/plugsuit outfit a lot though--enough to buy the figure and cosplay it a few years back lol. 

40. mari’s unit 05 plugsuit or unit 08 plugsuit? 08 plugsuit. I don’t like the white rib bits/boob cups on the 05 suit, and I think 08′s pink/black scheme is cuter than 05′s pink/navy. 

41. shinji’s new plugsuit or old plugsuit? I think the og plugsuit is indisputably more iconic, but I do like the unit 13 suit bc its a little more goth and I am a parody of myself at this point. 

This is so fucking long and I’m so sorry everyone. I hope at least one person enjoys this and it’s not just irritating to scroll past. This was very fun though and thank you for the questions!!!

#asks #nge #oh god wow i cant be brief can I #Anonymous #mine