#it's never fully said in the game but

[honeyedfruitblend]

((Need to go to bed but Yuri's real name is Regulus and that just gets me every single time I think about it.))

#out of abyss ;;ooc #it's never fully said in the game but #it starts with reg and he says it was after a star so like -gestures at it- #literally only shez knows this (and byleth in three houses if you s support) i don't think even any of the other wolves know

[svtskneecaps]

ngl i really hope german joins the red team sometime. i have no idea what he's like or what he's up to but 1) i want to 2) carre needs a buddy besides cellbit, because i love that guy and being surrounded by english is probably wild in maybe a bad way 3) idk just want to see what happens. maybe homie can match energy. gas mask squad, team friendship. could this be what drags him back? god only knows, but i want to

#qsmp #to be clear every team can probably be called team friendship this is the qsmp #but they went turbo friendship. friendship is the only reason they're still playing #cellbit fully intended to take like two to five days off this morning and then played a few hours with the team and will probably log again #cellbit and baghera both said it was probably best if the red team only played with each other and never alone #they ended day one making the equivalent of a blood pact but with fire and dying #day two they almost immediately made a cult #wasn't watching his pov but carre def seemed to match energy from my view #absolutely a standout when he unmuted complete star sorry about all the english he did great #tbh the backbone of the team morale along with phil #slime was like 'dude we're screwed' when carre was gone only to immediately change his stance when carre came back #(it wasn't exactly like that but character limit lol) #idk i have many thoughts about team red and their manic energy and crazy bond #shut up vic #block game brainrot

[unhingedlesbear]

Hoghhh after a long month of defending the following characters from an entire discord server, I'm running back to here to say:

-I love Mark

-I also love Ashley

-I ADORE Emily

-I think Alex is okay

-I like Salim a lot

-I love Rachel

-I love Taylor

I am far less likely to get attacked here than there <3

#I can see peoples reasons for some of these but #1. idc I still love them #2. Why Mark? Genuinely what reasons are there to hate Mark? #This I will never understand #Genuinely the least problematic character in that entire game #And people despise him there #It's crazy #You know it's bad when DU'MET gets more love than Mark #And I've said enough here about Emily and Ashley #As for Rachel I haven't played HOA enough to fully defend her but I know that she ended up being my fav soooooooo #And Taylor? She's literally just a girl who made the mistake of being *Gasp* Emotional #tbh most of these are just girls making the mistake of idk existing #let me not get into all that here but #Isn't it funny how all these people I listed are either women POC or both? #Funny how that works #Anyway yeah it gets exhausting sometimes

[icewindandboringhorror]

Baby boy brother birthday photos from last year that I just realized I never uploaded!

#cats #also hopefully it's not weird to still post photos of George (the brown cat) even after his death a little while ago. I just have so many #beautiful old pictures of him that I still love but just never had the time to sort through or upload (my cat photos folder on my #computer had like 450 pictures in it or something lol... SO many). I feel like it's kind of just honoring or appreciating him #and not actually strange or anything. like what am I supposed to do. delete them?? I want to share them still because he is beautiful and #perfect ! idk. aNYWAY. Also this is their 2022 birthday when they turned 14 years old. (even though I think when I posted #their 2021 bday I might have said they were 14 then too. I was off by a year lol). 2023 when they turned 15 I unfortunately #was feeling kind of sick at the time and didn't really have the energy to do the decorations like I usually do. So they just got a few #treats and stuff. But I didn't know that would be george's last birthday lol. :/ #They also do not really know or care though. they're cats who cannot process it or know the concept of birthdays so. eh #I still have no idea how these got lost on the computer though. Like I had them fully edited ready to post but just sitting in a folder?? #Since MARCH 2022 lol... ??? the folder was in another folder of pictures so maybe that's how I overlooked it #But it's my 'once every 4 months computer organizing and clean out time' so I was going tghrough looking for pictures #I could drafts posts out of or sort or etc. #They got lots more treats for this birthday because one of my friends actually game me a few gifts for them #elderly boys.!!!! #I used to write in the little caption/image description sections to talk about them all individually but at some point tumblr broke that #feature and for so long they never saved or weren't visible so I stopped doing them and just ramble a bunch in the tags instead #but I kind of miss them. Thinking about old posts of the cats where I commented on each photo individually too lol.. the good ole days

[void-and-virtue]

OP I LOVED UR ANDREIL POST GOING CRAZY THINKING ABOUT IT if you have anything else in that amazing brain of yours on this take please do share because i absolutely LOVED how you articulated this aspect about andreil. its something i particularily appreciate about their dynamic and relationship with anger and Their Issues TM. your post will cross my mind whenever ill think about it from now on.

I don’t think I have ever gotten an ask and this is kind of making me go insane??? I hope you know that you made my day and also, I’m so glad people share in my endless brainrot bc when it comes to this series and these characters I simply cannot stop

It really isn’t nearly talked about enough that the thing that got Andrew to actually look at Neil and become interested was (as cited by Neil himself at some point tho I can’t remember in which book that scene is from the top of my head) Neil’s bone-deep jealousy of Kevin. It’s—it ties into that whole epiphany that Neil has at some point, when he looks at Andrew and realizes that while he is hurtling towards his own breaking point and about to burn out and shatter into something he’s not sure he’d recognize if he survived the encounter, Andrew hit that point and broke from it years ago. And that’s an understanding that goes both ways between them—in a fucked up way, it feels like Andrew might be the future that Neil has waiting for him if he doesn’t end the year six feet under: hollow and drifting, passionless after everything he had to rip away from himself to be able to survive. At the same time, Neil probably reminds Andrew of how he used to be, back when he had hope for things only to have that hope rip him apart—which is exactly where Neil seems to be headed for the majority of the story.

I think that a lot of Andrew’s understanding of Neil comes from the fact that he knows intimately what it feels like to be caught between a rock and a hard place and cut his own lifeline, only to then fail to die on impact. Neil hasn’t had to resort to that yet, but he is hanging by a thread. You’d think that watching him struggle would only serve to drive it home for Andrew that he made the right choice in closing himself off, except… well. His expectations of life and the people in it are so bleak, it’s no wonder he finds himself drawn to Neil’s messy emotions and every unexpected show of spine like a moth to a flame.

Neil, for all of his issues and scars, can still feel things—can still want something so badly it defies all logic. Can want something with such visceral, fucked-up intensity that it resonates where it shouldn’t. It’s an ability that Andrew thinks he’s either lost or cut out of himself to stay somewhat safe, sane and alive a long time ago, but that remains as the most fundamental crack in the foundation of his being. It’s a fascination that seems to come out every time he’s sober and eventually ties into him wanting Neil—wanting something worth wanting and putting a name to it once he finds it. They look at each other and don’t want a watered-down version of the person in front of them. It creates a relationship that embraces issues big and small and accepts (even values!) the messy parts of being human. It means that any space shared between them immediately becomes safe once they settle into something comfortable together. The way they handle the uglier sides of each other’s personality honestly makes me feral because it’s always done with understanding and acceptance and they even find positives or comforts there that the other can’t see and that’s probably a reason for why 1) their chemistry is so off the charts and 2) their relationship is so damn healthy (in addition to their communication being stupidly good when it comes to each other).

Andrew wants something real and Neil wants to be real. And then they get to have exactly that.

#I hope this is even somewhat coherent #this went way out of hand but it’s an aspect of them that’s so hard to put into words #something something Andrew’s almost detached fascination with intense emotions and fervor #he shows that same tendency when it comes to Kevin vs exy as well #in the sense that I’m convinced Kevin’s passion both fucks him up and mystifies him #Neil is just much more up close and personal bc yeah his original devotion that caught Andrew’s eye was to the sport #but then Andrew got to experience that devotion turned around on himself full force #you cannot tell me he was ready for that #but also also #this and the og posts were meant to be about Neil and Neil’s emotions being ugly and messy and human #and how that resonates with Andrew because even terrible feelings can be better than an emotionless void #between numbness and twisted-up falsities #Neil’s raw emotions were probably the most honest thing about him early series and he had a lot that he was never allowed to express before #and not only is Andrew safe to let go of those inhibitions around #Neil also wants for Andrew to relearn how to enjoy that same privilege with him #losing control and all that #there’s a lot that can be said about all of this and I’m really not fully finding the words but. THEM. That’s all and thank you. #also ty for the ask I was really !!! when I saw that in my inbox :)))( #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #andrew minyard #andreil #aftg meta #answered asks

[imaginarypasta]

i’ve been trying to get through hoh for literally like a week now but it’s so hard bc the way my fave nico is treated is absolutely ABYSMAL and i know it only gets worse

#personal #even hazel being like ‘yeah he’s hard to get along with’ or whatever she said #every single non-tartarus perspective has had at least one reference to this #and like i understand the reasons it’s not that it’s that it highlights this issue i have with a lot of the characters in that series which #is that i don’t like them. and that’s so different for me bc i actually usually find that my two favorite characters in anything are the tw #that don’t like each other? unrelated to that dynamic usually mostly but still within it #but that’s not even what the dynamic is yk. #and it’s just the whole thing overall like in the last book there was one part where these two characters who are supposed to be good #friends are separated and one makes a comment about how annoying (or something along those lines) she finds the other which. #i’m vaguely aware of what happens in toa so i think you could argue something about that but read on its own bc i don’t want to make that #argument without fully grasping where her character goes #it just kinda reinforces this… vibe to the whole series that was not nearly as present in the first series of like. really overemphasized #like gender roles/heterosexuality/etc. i can’t think of the word to use to describe it. i’ve seen other ppl talk about the parts that add u #to the whole that i’ve seen but never synthesize them. and it really varies between actually insidious and simply not my taste which is par #of the reason i hesitate to make a full critique out of it. but suffice to say i really don’t like it #with that being said the pacing of this book is really good and i am compelled to finish based on the themes i do find interesting #autonomy being a huge one #but anyway those are my thoughts on it after a few days of a break. i’ve been playing a video game instead :3 but i start work on wednesday #sooo i won’t have as much free time boo #looking back maybe ‘insidious’ is a very strong word for it. i’m talking about like when percy complains about the bag and similar moments

[digirainebow]

listen as the local jacoblover i do have to address the charlie thing at some point. especially now that i've seen it uninterrupted and at its worst. like, i am relieved he really was never planning on hitting him, OBVIOUSLY. but he still pushed him. and calling a child a mistake is one of the most fucked up things you can possibly do in this life let alone to charlie's face. i have not forgiven jacob summers for his crimes believe me. like you are a full adult man jesus christ. doghouse for one thousand years

#digi discusses #grounds for divorce i am not joking bitch. you are spending the night on the floor with athena #that being said #it is SUCH an interesting thing to include in the game. jacob really still thinks he is a kid. even if he wouldn't admit it #or isn't fully conscious of it. really important side to show of things in a late in life coming of age story. #he is a sweet guy mostly but the scenes with charlie force you to look at the fact that the lag in learning to live has HINDERED him badly. #violently even. lol #its relatable unfortunately. so many of my emotions are underdeveloped for my age and it has hurt people in my lowest moments. #i just find it fascinating that in a game where the timeline is so damaged people are seeing into the FUTURE #when that was not possible in the previous iteration. that jacob is only ever seen flashing back in time. he never once sees the future. #he is always going back to his childhood. middle school most commonly it seems. the maggie adler times. #although the thing where he says he is being buried alive by bugs could be. him seeing is own death or something. so who knows #as always: maybe i am forgetting stuff or over-analyzing #oxenfree II spoilers

[giraffesanddietpepsi]

A trope that I can never fully understand catching on for Neil is him hating sweets. He tells Betsy he’s not fond of them when he first meets her, but this is also a woman he’s incredibly weary of and would likely not take a drink from no matter what it was. Whenever there’s ice cream to eat, like at Sweetie’s or when he and Nicky go get it in TKM, he eats it without a thought spared for his supposed lack of fondness for sweets

#edit: I’ve been informed of the reason but I think Nora’s reasoning is dumb so now I just don’t care #if Nora said otherwise in the extra content I would not know as there’s stuff I haven’t fully read there and likely never will #don’t get me wrong I don’t see him as a person who actively seeks them out #but I think he will indulge occasionally because he can enjoy them on occasion #but that’s more just vibes #the crux is that I don’t think he dislikes him #he’s just a lying liar who lies #I do support Andrew being obsessed with sugar because of it being a rare treat growing up #aftg #neil josten #andrew minyard #andreil #all for the game #giraffe post

[whumble-beeee]

🎯 for Declan?

🎓 for Stan?

🎯 -What do they do best?

Probably the best thing would be his marksmanship, he can hit a target with his S&W model 19 extremely accurately up to 60 feet away. It's also great bc that same revolver has so many quirks bc of how old it is and how many times Declan's had to fix it that it's basically unusable to anyone except him lol.

Ofc he's also pretty good at other stuff like strategical thinking, stealth, etc, but what really makes him scary as a bounty hunter is his ability to holepunch in someone exactly where he needs to without having to worry about hitting somewhere he didn't mean to. Great for intimidation, incapacitation, and torture.

🎓 - How long have you had the OC?

Oh good lord, uhhhhh. So the very first iteration of Stan was created in March of 2020 (might've been earlier tbh but that was what's on the toyhouse page). I had an idea for a cool magician design so I drew it on the drawing tablet I had gotten for my birthday the year before. He didn't even have his cane back then, that was added later, and he also had no personality or anything. Just a character design (old artwork pictured below lol)

Since then he's evolved so much, both in design, in gaining a personality, and more. I have more old art of him if you'd like me to share it And you would not BELIEVE the amount of changes he and also the rest of the cast have gone through since I first conceptualized them. Their story used to be completely different, hell, Declan and Vaughn kinda switched personalities.

Can't believe its been so long yet so short a time.

But thank you for the ask and the opportunity to ramble about my OCs! It's one of my favorite things!

#(un)official guide #answered asks #ask game #lmao of course one of the first pieces of art I ever share on this blog is 4 year old art from when I was first starting out #its fun to look back though #I was still in high school back then #didn't know what whump was #Oh how times have changed #I bet Stan would love it if I never discovered whump tho #bc his life is SO much worse bc of it #That being said #he probably wouldn't be a fully fleshed out character at all

[thedeadthree]

— TAG GAME.

TAGGED BY the dear @marivenah and @leviiackrman to answer a few questions! ty ty so much love!

TAGGING: @feystepped, @griffin-wood, @jendoe, @kingsroad, @chuckhansen, @risingsh0t, @queennymeria, @denerims, @phillipsgraves, @jillvlntine, @morvaris, @aartyom, @minaharkers, @unholymilf, @leviiackrman, @jacobseed, @arklay, @corvosattano, @jackiesarch, @malefiicarum, @pearlcscent, @shellibisshe, @weisshaupts, @shadowglens, @leondaltons, @adelaidedrubman, @florbelles, @belorage, @confidentandgood, @girlbosselrond, @thee-morrigan, @rosebarsoap, @fragilestorm, @lacunafiction, @noonfaerie and you!

THREE SHIPS: inspired by mari <3!

THREE CANON SHIPS: geralt x yennefer, corlys velaryon x rhaenys targaryen, and arianne martell x daemon sand!

THREE OC SHIPS: iovanna dayne x daemon targaryen, edelgard vanderweyden x reese verner, maekar targaryen x aeryal arvel (carolines dear!)

THREE MUTUALS SHIPS: mo @kingsroad's alyse x aegon (they mean the world to me!), ash @unholymilf's iconic varya x roman (forever the moment!), airika @chuckhansen's nina x adam (the loveliest! they're dear to me!)

FIRST SHIP: oo ok ok i want to say my first ship was I think? rajaion and ena from fire emblem path of radiance? that or? selina kyle/catwoman and bruce wayne!

CURRENTLY CONSUMING: an iced coffee ajanjnsk bc i am a responsible adult <3.

CURRENTLY WATCHING: my 3829838th rewatch of house of the dragon <3 am i surprised? nay nay! its not at all for oc lore! (leg says like a liar jnjanj <3)

LAST MOVIE: the batman! <3 and one i recently adored seeing was bullet train as well! (ty ty orion and ash for introducing me bc of ur ocs u dears u!)

LAST SONG: its been stuck in my head all week! the fruits by paris paloma <3

CURRENTLY READING: rereading fernweh saga by the dear aelsa! and fire and blood by george rr martin <3 (leg once again says its bc they want know more of what’s in store for the characters and not for oc lore at all like a liar <3)

CURRENTLY CRAVING: my mom is making sauce so i have pasta on the brain <3

#only if you want to! 🤍🕊 #ahh this was so cute! and lovely to get me back into the swing of things <3 #t: about leg #i would also like to say that all of the ships of my mutuals with their dears are my favorite <3 THEYRE ALL SO GOOD #IYKYK on the fe ship the way ten year old me watching the cutscenes for that game on yt and that scene had me SOBBING #i fully blame my appreciation of tragic/doomed dynamics on them AHH #AND OF COURSEE the one and only duo <3 can cite my brand! my appreciation for enemies/rivals dynamics on them! #(bruce can have two hands for sel and polly bc i said so <3) #AELSA I HAVE BEEN MEANING TO SINCE I READ IT ON RELEASE DAY NEED TO SHRIEK ABOUT FERNWEH I MUST AHH #if y'all haven't yet YOU SHOULD YOU SHOULD i mean it was the loveliest read floored and blown AWAY absolutely STUNNED it was so good! #(but im never not floored by ur talent and its a HIGH honor truly to know u and be mutuals AND GET TO SUPPORT AHH) #my friend wrote an if an it was PUBLISHEDD and u all should read it <3 #AND I SAWWW THE DENIAL ROUTE AND THE PIANO CHOICE I DID I DID AND WHEN I TELLU I SHRIEKED AND WAS SOBBING?? #ill be sure to be sobbing for eternity! R VERNER U MEAN THE WORLD TO ME and j I need to make a dear for them I HAVE TO #I mean????? just their dynamic with the mc I was on the FLOOR u know? and the nightmare scenes!!!!!! my god! the bestest! #ok ok also like...... new song with PEAK una energy that has been living in the psyche rent free that I found in my rec songs <3 FLOORED #''angel' he calls me does he know that im falling from a precipice that I tripped off long ago?' -> #''your so pure' he says does he know im forsaken? the original sinner but soon you'll know for if im going down I guess ill take you w/ me? #LIKE I COULD RECITE ALL OF IT FOR HER BUT UHHH im fine im fine totally really not at all shrieking about una at all from this <3 #two of the top ships that live in my head rent free that are canon being asoiaf ships <3 AAAND THE OC SHIPS they won this year already <3 #AND I MEAN ALWAYS IN MY HEART ALWAYS ON MY MIND Eddie and reese <3 #ok ok im suuper thinking vanna and daemy may be the first piece? this week ive done a lot of thinking of them and..... they <3 #leg.txt #leg.tagged #MO I CANT WAIT TO CATCH UP ON ITR+R GODD THE WAY THEYRE JUST <3 they mean the world to me! #can't wait to yell about them and be floored by ur writing!!!! VARYA ALWAYS IN MY MIND AND NINA AND ADAM ALWAYS ON MY HEART <3 #listen i read the t*wow preview and? ari x daemy? SO GOOD. (and very excited for caro's dears lilyana x daemy he deserves it! he's lovely!)

[buggyandthebartoclub]

Sorry I won’t be on here for like 2 days I got a fat stack of voiceover scripts to get through (80 pages !!!)

And it started with over 100 that my child then came very close to breaking my laptop and managed to delete the massive chunk I already had done and could not salvage for some reason (no idea what he did while I was out of the room ugh) so I had to start over lol

If you need to reach me before I’m back try discord (same username buggyandthebartoclub) - tho I may not answer immediately I will be swamped in editing and recording

Gonna pop in some anime battle music in my headphones and hit the ground running I really want my next pay to be approved and processing before the end of the week lol

#lord help me bc kiddo wiped my progress I had to cave and ask my boss for an extra 1-2 days because I only got like 40-50 scripts done #and I am soooooo nervous I feel like I could throw up #he said it was fine if I needed some extra time before he assigned the milestone anyway #but like #please let me keep this job I really like it and wanna keep it and need the pay lol #Hbnnugghhh gonna throw up #anxiety anxiety anxiety #I’m so tired #I never wanna think about the word Kubernetes ever again 😭😭😭😭😭 #I would do this over and over and over again tho if it means keeping my foot in the door for voice acting #this is my dream I won’t let it go!!! #luffy would tell me to give it my all so I will…. #taking a leap when this job is fully done and applying for some video game rolls… #anyway #bye I’m gonna throw up for real form anxiety then get back to work before I take a Power Nap and keep working

[niishi]

Id v is so crazy for making a big lizard man hunter with braided rows and then make him a survivor persona and they made him a skinny white man with rows.. not just that but he's a redhead too......... There's like only 2 genuinely poc characters in this game.... And one of them the devs are constantly drawing as a white man for no reason. the one guy who's supposed to be native American is just a white cowboy who was adopted by a tribe.

#i cannot believe ppl get their moral knickers in a knot over #fandom issues #if youre worried about morality you shouldnt be playing this game at all #the devs are racist and ableist and homophobic lmao #i will never get over them writing lore where a therapist Stockholms her mentally disabled patient #and breaks him out of the mental hospital and marries him #and the devs are like “this ISNT stockholm. theyre fully in love! she has power and advantages over him and used them several times #but its true love and not stockholm! we prommy!“ #“also this guy is autistic and his special interest is killing ppl!” #lrjfjekxked #them drawing william as white all the time is wild to me #also idv fandom are the only ppl who made me calling out someones black face #an issue.... they told me i was racist for saying this guy shouldnt do blackface... #all of the ppl who play this game need to be admitted to the psych ward #sorry when i said poc #i actually meant dark skin #there are asian characters too #its a chinese game i beliebe #but most of the characters are British

[crossbackpoke-check]

i C u moyle

captured in 4k

#i REFUSE to admit defeat at the hands of the umich boys #except i did verbatim send a text to my roommate that said ‘bro stop he’s disgusting i’m so in love with him’ #after fully watching a trail of spit come out of his mouth while he was bent over to take a face off. i am Down Bad #also nolan never keeps his tongue in his mouth my dude is just out there full 👅 all the time i can’t stand him close ur mouth or i’ll kiss u #nolan moyle #ethan edwards #philippe lapointe #relatedly duker skates EXACTLY the way he runs in the monday videos which is how i identify him at all times & i almost started wheezing #if i knew how to make gifs there would be gifs of nolan stickhandling however i don’t Know how to make live videos gifs ☺️ #deep cuts from the draft dumpster dives #is this from two different games? the world may never know (yeah. do i remember exact dates for either of them? no of course not) #we’re just getting close to the end of the season & i am succumbing to my desire to post Him #also inCREDIBLE nemcklance content in the second picture (not of nolan) 🫠 #nemcklance #things i am not proud of: my reaction 2 this. everyone shhh i’m allowed one breakdown about a dirtbag per quarter & i haven’t seen mo enough #like most days i do not want to be a puck bunny but sometimes u lock eyes with a man & go ohhh the hoggles are glued on for you ✊😔 buffooner #trying 2 undo my internalized misogyny! by allowing myself 2 say i can be a valid sports fan who likes players! sorry about it! idk why him! #it is 1000% because of la’s umich fic & all the lore though. most likely. also apparently i’m a crustasche lover 😪 the struggle is real #if u loved me u would have stopped at the tag about nolan drooling on the ice & we will never speak of this again (said by someone who will)

[void-and-virtue]

I’m a big fan of the whole concept that Andrew actually ends up grudgingly enjoying Exy at some point, entirely because he enjoys being contrary. Like. To Andrew, denying people who think they can one-up him their success is a basic need. Riling them up for his own amusement in the process, only to make the takedown that much more humiliating when even the anger is not enough to give them an edge against his immovable presence is Andrew’s idea of self-fulfillment. Exy makes it so he’s literally getting paid millions of dollars to do that.

Kevin would be so much more successful in his pursuit to get Andrew to actually play if he stopped trying to get him to like the sport itself, and instead started to subtly market it as a professional career in being a little shit. I like to think Neil eventually figures out how to intentionally garner Andrew’s interest and starts to capitalize on his instigative tendencies to the fullest to give him incentive. Andrew plays Exy like it’s psychological warfare when he puts his mind to it. They could probably get him to run precision drills at night practice by prompting him to imagine how mad it would make people if he managed to strategically bounce balls off of his opponents’ helmets mid-game as a way to pass the ball up to Neil so that he can score. Stuff like that is actually creative, and hard to do, so the challenge becomes interesting when the reward (grim satisfaction in his own skill, his opponent being mad at him but unable to do anything about it, Neil’s smile) is worth the shot. It’s not the game itself that interests Andrew. It’s the opportunity to thoroughly mess with people and be as much of an inconvenience as humanly possible that sometimes makes playing Exy satisfying for him.

On a more serious note, there’s also something to be said about how his personal history/trauma feeds into this. Saying ‘No’ and the ability to see through that his ‘No’ is final is a very integral part of who Andrew is as a person. It’s really tangled up with Exy for him because, as Neil accurately put it, he plays Exy like he plays life.

Andrew is someone whose choice has been taken away from him far too many times in his life. The ability to choose and deny what happens to him and those under his protection is the highest good he has. Playing as the last line of defense at his level of skill quite possibly has the potential to be downright therapeutic. There’s satisfaction to be found in every goal denied, in being the best at what he does and taking control of his part in the game, if he allowed this to mean that to him. And that could factor into enjoyment of the sport as well — a quiet, subdued kind rather than loud celebration, but silent satisfaction is just as valuable as the much louder, more obvious kind. Anybody who matters can recognize happiness and contentment in him without needing him to say anything anyway.

#it’s thinking about Andrew hours y’all #obviously it’s never Neil or Kevin level of devotion from him #Andrew isn’t exuberant #he doesn’t love Exy like they love Exy or most of his teammates do #but that doesn’t mean he can’t find his own satisfaction in playing #I’m tired of the idea that he never actually likes anything and Exy in particular #like all things Andrew it’s convoluted as all hell #because his relationship with stuff like joy and literally emotions and wants in general is extremely complicated #that said he is a little shit and he is an instigator and a protector at heart #and Exy is a prime opportunity to channel all of that #especially when there’s people he cares about playing together with him and he gets to watch them glow #sights like that make hitting balls with a stick actually worthwhile #all of this is entirely despite himself but at some point even Andrew has to admit that he isn’t actually fully impassive towards it #ball isn’t life but the power of antagonism and friendship sure as fuck is #aftg #all for the game #does this count as andrew meta? #or maybe Andrew vs Exy meta #aftg meta #andrew minyard #neil josten #kevin day

[thecherrygod]

thinking about hdb while holding my head in my hands and suffering

#my posts #i cant fully articulate this #idk if i have the time either #but. help. i will tag this with my organization tags. i may see this at some other time and maybe ill be able to so #disco elysium #hdb #im just thinking about him and martinaise harry and his childhood and the 15th indotribe thing and dora #how probably considering the type of friends he had and how they all ended..... they were probably all like him personality wise #like. im not saying they were bad people like harry was kind of an asshole but not fully #like they were all a bunch of teens in a bad situation trying to make the best of it however they can and well... didnt work out too well #but what i mean is that i think thats partially why he got that level of attached to dora? she didnt go through what he did #she had the money to not go through that she was stable she was a constant in his life that was pure and that wasnt always #going through something. a guide. harry went to her like a moth to a fire with pure devotion bc she was everything he never had #she probably also treated him different than what all his previous friends would have. i imagine her to be very gentle #and harry probably never got to know too much about people being soft so that was also. new. but somethign imposible to him #so i can see how he would love her like that to the point of basically worshipping her as god and how he would still love her #years after it went to shit even when he cant remember anything. it makes sense #i think they were engaged bc the wedding gown but idk if its said in game. but he loved her enough to want to marry her in a world #where real love isnt possible for him but only for new people in a new world he still wanted that with her even if it didnt work out #he holds to whatever he can of her as a lifeline and i. man. dude. yeah no i get him #idk how long they were together but it also doesnt matter bc of how harry is as a person #also of course at first it was all good. she was basically fixing him but he cant get fixed only with love in a world like that! #or with a life like his... it was always going to go down. and i. dude #... i am thinking about this as someone who still loves someone and we werent even dating like #i think if we dated and it went bad like. i think id be in a similar situation to harry tbh. i get him #yeah no yeah lmao i do think of this person also sort of as the only good thing in my life #and i am glad she did reject me when i confessed bc if i had fully lost her i dont know where id be? but also man its been 7 years #of the rejection and basically 10 of falling for her. i get harry so fucking badly on this one USHDGIUHUSG #ok in the end i did say what i had to say but in the tags i dont think ill make a proper post out of it #but i did write it in a way that wasnt articulated for a post so i think i was right making it like this lmao

[mar64ds]

What do you think about those fanon what-if scenarios where Papyrus is the final boss of the Genocide Route after Sans is the one who's killed before him instead of the other way around?

I don't really have an opinion, it's an interesting idea and if done really well it could work, but I think that's a difficult thing to do because writing Papyrus in that situation is complicated

#for starters i dont think he would ever try to kill the player. thats just not how he is #our HP can go down to 1. but it's not going to get lower than that #his fight can be so difficult it's practically impossible. but you're not ever going to get a game over #and it's just so difficult to imagine papyrus in this scenario because like i said we never see him experience any strong grief in canon #he misses undyne in some scenarios but he's not completely sure that she's dead. so he's not fully affected by the situation #so we dont actually have any canon evidence that helps us write this scenario. it's completely mysterious. and that's so interesting #deltaruneundertale