#its giving me anxiety

[evil-bonched]

@support why is the create post button on the dashboard it is making my scrolling experience stressful and messy. This is the worst update yet

#stop please stop #its giving me anxiety

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

i think it should be illegal to have to do school stuff during vacation. i think we should get at least a week to get this stuff done afterwards. but noooooo

#you see i have to prepare TWO presentations still #and one of them about a french book which i Still Have To Read at all #like at least let me choose a book and just hold the presenation in french! please!! #its giving me anxiety #so i procrastinate :) and work to forget i have to do it :) and then i remember and the guilt over not doing it is Worse :) #a biscuit's rambles

[densewentz]

i think the turning point in my life both academically and professionally was realizing that. If you Go First, be it a presentation or an interview or whatever. If you go first, you are being judged based on NOTHING but yourself. They aren't comparing you to anyone else, you don't have an act to "follow". You are the Bar. You can literally just do the best you can and at that point it will automatically be the best they've seen so far. And once you're done you're done. You can mentally and emotionally check out.

Game changer insofar as being stressed about presenting because now I just bulldoze over everyone else to go first like a feral hog.

#its true though #all my anxiety about presentations got reduced SIGNIFICANTLY once I started fighting to be first #its Good Advice #this actually especially applies to people with unfinished work like #girl you do not want to watch 9 people with complete presentations go and then give your speech #just jump on that grenade early before they've had time to be impressed by anyone #and the fallout wont be NEARLY as bad #and then its over right away #also if youre a smug petty bitch like me #you can absolutely blow the performance out of the water #and bask in the absolutely traumatized expressions of everyone who has to go after you now #if im gonna be the bar im going to set it at the ceiling #sorry #so i guess the next lesson is you have to fight to be before Me and those Like Me #rip

[queermentaldisaster]

Ghost cuddling with Soap when his anxiety gets really bad, so bad that he's genuinely crying and dead silent. He knows Soap is horribly overstimulated, and Ghost's room has always and will always be sensory safe for both of them.

So they cuddle on those rare nights, when Soap's hit his limit and just needs to cry in someone's arms, because Ghost's the only one who understands.

#soap with anxiety my beloved #obviously its not crippling #he wouldn't be in the military if it was #but there are days where it culminates #and ghost is there for him #every time #honestly im projecting and yearning for someone who's not my parents or siblings to come cuddle me and tell me that it'll all be okay #so i give soap that instead :3 #call of duty #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #call of duty mw2 #ghoap #ghostsoap #elo rambles

[13threbagel]

Now that i'm living in a english speaking country, I realized the hardest part to speak a second language is the phrases.

Grammars you can make do so long people know what you're saying and in writing there are programs to help you. And singular words, i know what they mean but compiling them into phrases?? That's like.. a whole different beast on its own its like learning another language on top of that one

Here's an example im still embarassed about :

I was trying to say how networking works by talking to more people and have your works spread by word of mouth.

But see, i didn't remember that phrase in english. I remember them, in my first language. And the literal translation of it would be 'mouth to mouth'. Which. Ya know. Means more kissing in english than spreading information via speaking to other people

It's a small things but you'll notice it more and more. And this is only phrases. We're not including expressions, what counts as a joke or an insult or a compliment. The thing im thinking about is probably not phrases either idk what it is but it sure is frustrating

#languages #kc rambles #dont mind me im flopping on the floor realizing this is why i been getting worse at talking in english in the past years #than when i was back in my country #i know so many way i messed up n it gives me anxiety in talking but also gghhhhh its frustrating

[cabinetduo]

"Everything I've ever let go of has claw marks on it" is so Sunny coded it's unreal

when she addresses her loved ones and goes "MY pa" "MY panada" "MY mustache boy" etc. when qtubbo had to leave for purgatory and she kept saying no and denying they'd take him because she cannot fathom being away from him

#whatever #whatever who cares who cares not me #SHES SO CLINGYING #shes sooo attached to her Pa especially its unreal #her separation anxiety is so so bad she will remind tubbo at every given opportunity that she cannot live without him #she needs him and always will and a life without him isnt one she wants anddd #whatever WHATEVERRRRRR who even WHO EVEN GIVES A FUCK not me pft not me #<☹️ #qsmp sunny #qsmp

[fairiencarnate]

Why did no one tell me that the "chemical imbalance" theory has largely been disproven, that serotonin and dopamine can't cause mental illness on their own? Why have all mental health professionals been pushing this idea as fact? I've always thought the whole BPD diagnosis was bogus, just modern day hysteria slapped onto (mostly) women with complex-PTSD. Almost an official gaslight, like "your trauma wasn't traumatic enough to warrant the PTSD label so we're going to act like your brain is malfunctioning". So I'm not surprised to find all this out.

Can we finally begin a trauma-informed approach toward mainstream mental health shit? Especially mood disorders? Let's not rule chemicals and hormones out entirely, but let's acknowledge that trauma and genes have far stronger ties to mental health.

#obviously genetics are a huge factor too #and socioeconomic status altho i would also consider that under the trauma umbrella?? #im starting to wonder whether my meds were really helping me chemically #or if they were giving a placebo affect bc they affected me physically so much at first #like “this feels intense so they must be legit” #and then the belief carried me through being open to therapy and healing etc #definitely pulled me from the edge of suicide #either way they helped me #i wonder if I'd be ok off them now that its been like 6+ years #NONE OF THIS IS ADVICE BTW #personal #tw medical #chronic depression #chronic anxiety #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #cptsd

[moeblob]

I am really tired of a situation rn.

#fe three houses #felix hugo fraldarius #me using felix on my angy days because he is my angersona? you bet! #anyway if you want to try to get someones money or something bc you hurt your own car banging into mine #can you try to be a bit more timely with it buddy come on you hit me on feb29 ! #why am i getting your insurance company calling me today ! #also i would like to point out i didnt do it and neither of us were hurt and i filed a claim with my own insurance comp #and also filed a police report bc he didnt even suggest calling the cops to the scene #so like yeah hey man maybe you and your insurance company can move a lil faster or smth #literally everything that happened the day of is - according to my dad - an intimidation tactic #i look like im 15 and he probably thinks he can take advantage of a new driver but ya know! tough luck! #im just really tired and stressed over multiple things not negative so getting this on top of it was like #bro .................... anyway my phone didnt pick up for some reason so i called back and then nothing got resolved #cause the person who actually called me wasnt around to connect the line to from the guy who answered #idk man just its a lot despite my v minimal energy #got a job interview on monday tho ! and then also next week is an eye exam #and you might be thinking isnt that a good thing to get your eyes checked? you are correct but i am horrified #there are two body parts that give me absolute anxiety and eyes are one of them #and i know my eye sight is declining and im just v anxious #its fine im going to be fine i just have to be anxious about it

[silentgrim]

failing horribly at debate!

#dazey boy came over to provide moral support #he felt her embarrassment to the core #ts4 #ts4 gameplay #sim: roux tomato #sim: daze #nsb gen 2 #posting twice a day bcs shit is piling up and its giving me clutter anxiety

[generic-sonic-fan]

In case it wasn't apparent from my recent fic, I believe that a crucial element to writing Metal Sonic's obsession with Sonic is not hatred, but paranoia.

Sonic is capable of arriving at any point on the planet within a matter of hours, if not minutes. The only places of relative safety are Robotnik's bases, but even this is not guaranteed. Sonic can speed through conventional defenses, tear through walls, achieve verticality and attack from every angle, at any time.

And every time Sonic arrives, he attacks with every intent to completely destroy Metal Sonic.

. . . at least, according to the programming Eggman shoved into its head. Everything in Metal Sonic's processor, every scrap of personhood or sentience it clings to, is based on code written with a single purpose. The only way that Metal views the world is through the lens of this purpose. It analyzes locations based on defensive angles or potential resources during a combat situation. It sorts any person it meets into one of three categories: An Ally (aligned with Dr. Robotnik), A Civilian (irrelevant), or A Threat (aligned with Sonic). Its knowledge of objects is a complete toss-up depending on what info's been useful in the past to fighting Sonic- Metal only knows what a grocery store is because he punched Sonic through one once.

And Metal is always scanning, scanning, scanning the environment around it for any sign that Sonic might arrive. When your opponent is faster than the speed of sound, a half-second warning can mean the difference between continued operation or utter destruction.

#Metal Sonic #sth #Sonic the Hedgehog #Metal uses it/its in this post #because this is a more personal headcanon I have for the character #TL;DR: I think more people should give this robot anxiety. as a treat. #there's tons of fan content about Metal's hatred for Sonic with the whole identity thing #which I do greatly enjoy! don't get me wrong #but I think the 'everything I am is designed to combat you' is a VASTLY underutilized angle for angst #gonna tag this post with my tag for my wip starring this dude (that explores this angle) #complex inquiries

[holedyke]

going to the dentist tmr for the first time in 5 years. and at 8am no less

#in my worst fears they will remove all my teeth bc theyre too far gone (not true) and be soooo mad at me or give me 1000 fillings or some #shit like that bc okay i know my teeth arent great bad genes + plus i rlly struggle w taking care of my teeth but I TRY!!!!! i really do #anyway just nervous. my anxiety has been so bad lately im certain its bc my lack of enrichment in my enclosure (been unemployed since oct #despite my best efforts) and so i havent really been out of the house much bc everything costs fucking money which i dont have but i do #believe that it is taking its toll!!! #h

[thekidsarentalright]

just saw someone posted this on twitter erm. theyre so scary

#thru investigating it seems like this and the wells fargo arena next door are like Connected so. very much giving tour teaser vibes still #but also its a convention center so maybe it could end up being smthin like the mania experience IDK!!!!!!!!!! #fob makes me feel such a special type of anxiety it is unbelievable i need it to be tomorrow now so i can Know #txt #fob #p: 100

[basementpartier]

currently having thoughts about schlatt w/ separation anxiety

(all sfw)

texts his s/o about everything he's doing all the time to keep in as much contact as possible

also sends pictures of everything he's doing throughout the day since it can be faster and more engaging than just describing things or sending brief updates like "on the bus now"

calls every single night if he's away for multiple days. he'll typically either fall asleep on call or stay up super late talking to his s/o and fall asleep at like 5 am

likes calling his s/o while they're out of the house (as opposed to getting texts from them all the time cause he knows most people can't keep up with that)

not a big fan of splitting up when on an outing with his s/o, even if it'd make the trip faster or otherwise be more convenient

will come up to his s/o at random times during the day and just insist on hugging them for a minute or two cause he remembers that they're there and they're a person and he needs to be close to them

#im praying that no one gives me shit for using the term separation anxiety #cause people write “clingy” headcanons/pov stuff literally all the time and this is the same as that #the only difference is that i have severe separation anxiety and i like projecting that onto characters and people i write #cause it makes me happyyyyyyyyy #dear god i just realized that this.. is telling everyone SO MUCH about me #its dogboy hours bitch #anyway :) first post from me and im being silly about my mental illness #now how tf do i tag this #schlatt x reader #jschlatt x reader #i kinda dont want this to get into super general tags personally #rpf selfship #celebrity selfship #i discovered just now that those are actually tags :) #my posts

[puppyeared]

if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified

#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing #i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though #at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself #as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed #escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date #although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL #ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting #workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety #i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back #AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO #im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts #i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem #in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material #and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school #maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess #only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard #hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms #i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work #not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall #anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh #yapping

[todayisafridaynight]

no ones ever gonna understand how much i love daigo doin this stupid shit after dissolving the tojo

#snap chats #is this a gaiden spoiler. its been like five months catch up you nerds #ANYWAYYYYY NOO I LOVE HIM ....... this whole bit is like four seconds long but i love it so much #i just reminded myself i should probably make gaiden/y8 videos for daigo.. i'll make it a JP/ENG comp or somethn.. one day #not soon tho like its barely anything since he's not in those games Long At All but still. im lazy 💀 #excuse me while i gush about daigo for twenty minutes now because hehee HE'S SO CUTE I CAN'T GET OVER IT #this is literally the middle aged equivalent of going yippee like YOU CAN TELL HE'S SO RELIEVED IT'S SO CUTE #got the energy of a student with crippling anxiety after they somehow get through giving a presentation without throwing up #AND his lil smile ......... thank you gaiden you made me wanna eat drywall with daigo's sad puppy dog eyes about kiryu #and then immediately made up for it a minute later #sorry i keep scrolling up to look at him and i love him so much. what if i threw up #i dont like using babygirl lightly but this is actually the most Babygirl frame of him ever ive decided #thats my boy .... i love my boy so much ..... he's so cute ... come so far in life congratulations king ..... ily ... #him lookin up at the sky for a minute just to breathe i know he thankin god for the fact he somehow isnt dead yet #im gonna ignore the fact all of this was for naught so i dont bash my head against a wall anyway stan daigo #im gonna be sick i love him so much #if i redraw this later shut up. i love him... #this is why i try not to look at cutscenes anymore cause when i do i feel my brain being put in a microwave and start to melt #its not my fault i love my guys so much .... ok bye i have work to do .... #and then when i finish that work i can go back to loving my guys YAAAAAY !!!!!!!

[unicornsaures]

the date ill be 1yr clean from sh is slowly approaching and im viewing it as a sort of doomsday as if im gonna implode on may 1st or something. Like girl as if youve been able to say anything above 2 weeks clean in the past 5 years? Anyway happy 10 months and 24 days clean for me

#it is not a bad thing idk why its giving mr anxiety #possibly for feeling like a fake for 5 years of my life ?? #gonna write the most self indulgent angst ever come may 1st.. #JL im coming for you.. #CANNOT escape me #shoutout to 11 months clean #almost #like 10 months and 24 days rn #ironically i stopped exactly a week before my birthday #spring of 2023 i love and hate you #and summer of 2023 #i could make so many storytimes on 2023 in a whole actually #personal #vent post #?? #dolirants