#its okay ill know it in my heart

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OOH YEAH BABY! PARTY TIME BABY! MUSIC! DRINKS! SOCIAL PRESSURE & A PSYCHEDELIC BREAK DOWN! WELCOME TO VAMPIRE SOCIETY MOTHERFUCKER! ARE YOU SCARED? DO YOU UNDERSTAND YET? ITS OKAY IF NOT. FIRE DISSOLVED IT! ITS ALL GONE NOW. HAVE FUN!

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #RRAAHH IM IN LOVE WITH THIS SHOW SOOO GOODDAMN MUCH!! each o these characters has STOLEN my HEART!!! #LIKE EMIZEEELLL i love emizel so much.. runnin around announcing that HE isa PRINCE while shiloh FINALLY quietly clicks the pieces together #nathan hanover you MADMAN!!! that slow dramatic guitar riff as emizel makes that announcement was so fuckin COOL UGHHHH #MR HANOVER DOES IT AGAIN just creating tracks that absoultely WORM into my MIND and HHEAARRT UUGHHGHH #emizel is so cool and so funny and so adorable UUGHH ill gush abt him more when i finally post my emizel n soda doodle page #ARTHUR FUCKING BENNET. i totally get why grizz has a hard time playing him. hes cool and stoic n its not easy to play a man o little words #BUT BBOOOY DOES HE DO IT WELL!! arthur DOES come off as so stoic n cool & it just makes his lil misfortunes all the more charming #like falling into the red fear or confrontin edward twilight or accidentally doing lsd. I LOVE THATS HES THE BAD LUCK GUY. #okay uhhu uhh i have limited room here what else should i say uhh. THE NPCS. MY GOD THE NPCS. CHARLIE U WONDERFUL MADMAN #edward twilight is SUCH a funny fucking antagonist. and supposedly his magic stuff is super scary?? SO EXCITED TO SEE MORE OF THAT #ill ramble abt mr deacon keller later eheh i have a. uh. a doodle page in the works. so in the meantime DAYBRINGER SOLOMON!! #“HERE COMES THE SUN MOTHERFUCKER!” “ILL SEE YOU IN HELL. NOT. IM GOING TO HEAVEN. BITCH.” like come on now. oh my god. i need him #BIG POWERFUL BEAST AND EVERY WORD HE SAYS HAS ME CRACKING UP. THE MUFFLED VOICE IN THE DARK BROKEN BY “LIGHT!” #TRULY HILARIOUS AND YET TRULY HORRIFYING. I FUCKIN LOVE CHARLIE NPCS SO MUCH. I HOPE WE SEE HIM AGAIN OHH MY GOOOODDD #OKAYokay. im normal now. ill talk abt the piece. if u read my tags this far then u get special secret knowledge abt the artistic process #IM VERY HAPPY WITH MY COLORS! i know they were hallucinating on drugs so i just recalled the times i did drugs & used that as my influence #REMEMBER KIDS! acid is totally fine if ur safe and responsible about it. do acid and then stare at my art for a bit trrruuust me. IT MOVES! #anyway i think thats all my thoughts here. thank you for looking at my art n thanku if ur one o the ppl that says nice things in the tags #U are LITERLY my life blood i pick up each of u n kiss u so sweetly on the head. remember to try acid!!!!

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#alexa play if i can't have you #this song fit them so you know had to make #i think im done with making gifs of them now for a bit cause other shows #but maybe ill return down the road #its been real #we will always deserve better #but its okay harry and sally kind of love i will stand by that forever #tedbecca #ted x rebecca #rebecca x ted #tedlassoedit #ted lasso #hannah waddingham #jason sudeikis #gif #gifs #gifset #i love them #faves #my heart

[cheerfullycatholic]

Who's gonna get whacked by the snowstorm? It's supposed to get me the next two days and I'm kinda excited tbh 👀

ARE Y'ALL PREPARED?!

#my animals all should be okay #im just a bit worried about the half wild chickens who wont let me put them in the coop #or even the garage #i know theyll be ok with the cold im just worried about how deep the snow will be #ill have to keep up on making paths for them #other than that #i have enough animal and people food to last awhile and i have extra straw in case someone needs more #also got ten gallons each of diesel and gas #lots of blankets medical supplies board games #oh dang i should make sure my portable phone charger is charged #i really need to get a solar charger #the thing im worried about most is if the power goes out #we have a generator but if we can keep the house warm during the day we might turn it off at night #and i know its stupid but i have anxiety and nighttime is really hard for me #especially in pitch black silence #i dont like the way my fear and anxiety makes my heart feel #anyway #ill stop rambling now #yall are in my prayers #please pray for us

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

sometimes i like to imagine a future where i write that (y/a or adult targeted) dragon book series i desperately want to, but i know that i wouldn't be able to do it without including art in the book. every time a new important character is introduced the next page would have to be a reference / art of them to Show What They Look Like

#i dont think id be able to handle like. publishing or whatever Without that #maybe that stems from my control issues maybe im just an artist at heart #but i would also need there to be a glossary and a detailed map and maybe footnotes or a basic bestiary- #but then sometimes i wonder if i'd want it to be like... a comic instead #manga style in a way??? i wouldnt color it. it'd be in b&w with only the occasional colored spread or somethin #but all of that If Possible or plausible is a very long way off which is okay its okay #ill get there ill get there #unless something changes and i want to do something Else but its been a goal for many years already #its only recently that ive buckled down on the worldbuilding and character crafting and genuinely considering the plot and themes #its a hot mess! but theres something in there! im determined to find it #its definitely a couple years yet of changing things and switchin stuff around and Thinking.... #who knows if ill ever get there! i hope i will! #but yeah it'd be a book with a bunch of art shoved in it httyd style (kinda) #bc if im gonna Make something im gonna combine my favorite hobbies as best i can #absolutely unprompted #its an exciting but daunting prospect. writing an actual Thing #mostly the plot part of it #i can craft characters i can do worldbuilding #but the plot? oof #there's this other one ive been working on since 8th grade #and its still... barely anything lmao #its for my favorite personal characters - my very first real oc my special boy light of my life but Man. #plot has hands!!! #and then ofc there's my beloved idiot squad... i want to do something for them some day maybe.... #so many ambitions so little energy... i will strive to make future me healthy enough to achieve Something we so desperately want!

[nezukoo-channn]

I need the olive tree bed scene from the Odyssey stuck inside my head, I want that fucking injected into my veins. I love that scene so much .

#it's the i haven't seen my partner in 20 years and idk if its really you so ill test you with something we only BOTH know about #its Penelope's question to see if that's really her Odysseus and its his response of telling the whole bed thing that gives #her the realization that yes after 20 years her Odysseus is home. hes back and hes back for good #its the effort made! the question! the secret to their wedding bed! #it's kinda the main reason why i read the odyssey in the first place #i love that scene so much okay? like imagine being either one of them and Haven't seen them in 20 YEARS yes they were unsure but that #that realization that they're there. that they're home back into your arms and you have waited for 2 DECADES. #mannnmn #that scene always tugs my heart #nezukoo-channn #nezukoo channn #greek mythology #the odyssey by homer #the odyssey #odysseus x penelope #odysseus #penelope #odypen

[holedyke]

of course the night i need to get to bed at a reasonable hour bc i have a early rise is ruined by my own brain working me up into a complete meltdown 😵‍💫 i am a prisoner to myselfffff

#i feel so so bad. tbh #tw for child abuse but i need to vent #i was watching a rlly good doc series on behavioral schools for teens which are pretty horrific and even though i never went through #anything like that. but just hearing the subjects from the doc talk about how they feel ruined after being destroyed like that as kids just #has me really emotional and i cant stop thinking about it bc i feel the same way i feel like ill never be who i could have or should have #been but what i went through just ruined me and ill never be okay i just feel fragile and mournful of myself i know nothing could have #saved me like its some big cosmic joke on me. and i never did anything to deserve that #no kid does amd yet it fucking happens and it happened to me witj zero repercussions which is almost what hurts the most #i just feel like a goddamn blubbering mess with a knawing black pit in my heart and i am never going to get to sleep at this point. #fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk i just for once would like to feel okay about my past and my future like is this the me that ill always be? #broken and blubbering? fuck it feels awful. anyway. prob delete later but i just needed it off my chest #h

[a-smol-cosplayer]

since yall seemed to like my incorrect quotes - here are some fanfic tags for wednesday :D (if u make a comment about the og fandoms these where from ur biphobic, don't be rude)

pre-warning: highly wyler adjacent however there is some wavier and wenclair in there - but they are mostly just general bestie vibes :) also sorry about the quality :/ beggars can't be choosers, other than that here we go!

#mkay thats it #ill probs do a pt 2 at some point once I have collected more tags #this is what I put into the wednesday/wyler fandom in exchange for consuming every single piece of media/fanfiction I happen to come across #fair trade #wednesday addams #wednesday netflix #wednesday x tyler #wyler #wenclair #I know there where only two posts im sorry #next time I promise #leave my multi shipper heart alone #if anti Wylers can post hate in our tag I can post one or two screen caps in theirs #can u tell im terrified of getting told off online #its wenclair I promse #anyways #wavier #^^^same anxious rant applies to yall im trying okay #Tyler Galpin #enid sinclair #bianca barclay #(thank u to the person that corrected me) #xavier thorpe #ajax petropolus #Eugene I can't remember and I don't want to exit this post so he just gets first named #everyone else #yoko tanaka

[skitskatdacat63]

this video makes me want to sob and throw up and scream and cry and collapse onto the floor

#actually like sobbing through it this is going to kill me genuinely #god ive not cried these kind of tears in a while LOL #i cry a lot but not whete it makes my chest hurt like this #everyone should watch Get Back. best docu ever made actually :) #but no theres smth about getting a beatles song in the year 2023 #like its not smth i ever imagined but now that it exists its like wow. its truly over. its a fucking solid conclusion and it hurts so badly #im going to rip up my pillow the emotional pain this is bringing me is actually heart wrenching #my one brother one time was like the Beatles are so mid and overrated and i wanted to leap up and strangle him across the table #THEYRE LIFE CHANGING OKAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #idk its just so much my childhood :/ #and this song is ripping my heart out </3 #and hearing them talk about this being the last beatles track ever. like yeah i KNOW but god fuck ouch #the way they talk about george and john im going to bang my head into a wall #mayne i shoulf rewatch get back and have a mental breakdown #i told my friend about that docu when it came out and hes like wow that sounds incredibly boring #how dare you how fucking dare you. 8 hours of content????? fucking...great #but no seriously to listen to this song released now and it sounds exactly like their original work. im gonna throw up i feel so ill #never recovering from this actually 😊 #catie.rambling.txt #Youtube

[caffeinatedopossum]

Now I just feel sick to my stomach... like thinking what if I get top surgery and it doesn't fix me? Obviously it's not going to fix me, why would I even think that. It's something I've wanted so badly for so long that I don't know what's going to happen afterwards. I have problems unrelated to this and they aren't going away any time soon.

I just already feel bad, like I don't deserve this. I didn't earn this. I feel like I'm supposed to be happy and excited and satisfied about it/after it... but what if I'm not? I'm not scared that I'm making a mistake or that this isn't something I want- I'm fully certain that is- I'm just scared that there's something inherently broken inside of me. Something that I don't deserve to complain about. Something that I don't deserve to involve other people in.

I feel like I should just be grateful but what if I can't be? Is that justified or am I a bad person? I know that I want this more than I think I've ever wanted any single thing for myself... but what if it isn't even worth it? What if nothing ever is

#sorry depression posting because im kind of freaked out #i dont know how to function like this #its like idk do any of you have anxiety about receiving gifts? well this is really fucking big gift #i dont want to say anything negative about it even if thats me asking for help because what if people think im ungrateful #im so very grateful. but im scared. and i need help #i dont know how to react and im afraid ill react wrong and my girlfriend will regret doing this for me #and theres no way to undo it so then she would just feel resentful about me. especially everytime she sees my chest #that would break my heart. i would awful too #i need this to be okay

[craycraybluejay]

I miss him so much I kind of want to go back to burning in hell if it means that I can hug him and kiss him and make him laugh himself to sleep again

#im not normal about the people i love at all #personal #this is meant to be vague because if i talk about it more ill say some very deranged shit #sometimes you just want to walk into hell and feel unimagineable agony just to hold someone else there and tell them #its gonna be okay #i can protect you #i can save you #give me time #and i will burn down everyone who has ever hurt you #and if that includes me then i will gladly set myself on fire till i die too #and i hope it doesnt #not because im afraid to die but because im afraid to have hurt you #and maybe i would live that hell all over again if it meant you were a stranger who had never been there #who had never been touched by the evil we both know #but also im selfish #and if you were a stranger id have a third empty hole in my heart #the biggest one #just for you #and #only for you

[petvles]

Mr worldwide come to the Netherlands challenge

#closest i can go is antwerpen and i fucking MIGHT OKAY #käärijä #the hyperfixation is strong i am actively thinking of going 👀 #10/07 edit #still planning on going but ppl are liking this so #i just wanna let yall know this was a joke and at the time i didnt know he was going to songfestivalfeest #which i am also debating on going to but then ill have 3 concerts in 3 days that is a lot #but this was just a silly light hearted post please dont read this as me being mad #because i fully understand him not hitting every single country in europe for this tour #i of all people need to understand taking time for your mental health #lmao #i literally stopped 3/4 through my thesis because i was too depressed to function i fucking get it #so its all in good fun and lets all cheer for our lovely green finnish man!!! even if we cant see him #i know i will #💚💚💚

[rice-fae]

Funny little story about me and nimona: i was just a kid when the prints arrived in a couple bookstores in my country. Very much coincidentally, a way smaller version of me picked it up and showed to her mom. Very much coincidentally, she bought it, and it became my favourite book for years. Not even kidding, that book brought me so much comfort when i didnt even speak this language, when i half a world away from where the first panel was drawn, and when i didnt even know half the things about myself than i do now. thanks nimona, love u tons

#i was shocked when i knew a movie was coming out #the translated ptbr print was one of like 5 there were in the bookstore. pure coincidence #i related to her sm i didnt even know why (i am mentally ill) #never wondered why (im gayer than gay) #my favourite character was the golden knight. dont know his original name but in my heart he will always be ouropelvis #“my favourite is ouropelvis mom!” *awkward silence* “thats great love” #ballister coração negro also rocked first found family i read and i didnt even know what wattpad was #wait is his oq name ballister blackheart? thats so cool actually okay maybe coração negro goes second place on this one #but still ouropelvis is the best character name it sounds like an old pt name it means gold dick #nimona #thanks a lot #i still have my little print :) it is tear stained ragged and dusty af but its my child

[truckstoptigers]

i should've known it'd come back

#i was okay for a few days. stopped having as many flashbacks & was even able to stop thinking abt it for a while #and i dont know what changed but today its just. its so bad. my heart is beating too fast & the flashbacks come and go #the only thing i can think to do is write abt it but i cant if its like this i dont think. im gnna play minecraft maybe #if i try to write. the minute i feel like i cant handle it anymore im gnna walk away & try again tmrw #milo murmurs #csa vent #the flashbacks are so fucking graphic and i have to sit here like nothing is happening. my chest hurts and im shaking #maybe ill write here too. thats kind of what this blog is for

[feelmyskinonyourskin]

Kicking off 2024 by being very brave and doing two things i didnt wanna.

Set a boundary with my boss and she was a little rude about it but i think it will be better all things considered.

Scheduled a doctors appointment for symptoms that I've been dealing with but getting worse. I hate the doctor/hospitals but I'm sick of living in pain/with symptoms and I know that American medicine/being a woman is going to get me shrugged off and be made to jump through hoops to get help but I'm doing it anyway.

#my heart feeling like its stabbing me and passing out on the train and gaining 25 pounds in 6 months is not normal #ive had so many doctors shrug off things before and im just worried the same will happen now and ill never feel better #also american labor laws are shit i should always have to know my schedule a week in advance i dont care if its a small business #okay rant done

[battleaxeproficiency]

I know that like . various official art shows Dorian with long straight hair but I'm begging everyone to give this man some waves .... his beautiful curls.... please my life depends on them

#dragon age #i know its not canon but i NEED them to live #in my heart and soul dorian has beautfiul long wavy hair ........... bioware will give the flattest hair texture #maybe of all time #in da:d #but thats okay because I'LL know #ill know whats true

[goldensunset]

when a thing is so good you can’t even post about it tbh you have no idea how to even do it justice it’s so important to you that it just has to live in your brain quietly forever

#i have a zelda sideblog but i like do not post super frequently there #i don’t even know how to like begin to touch on how good botw/totk are #instead of fandomblogging as a fun hobby in and of itself to entertain myself (like i do here) #i’m just so blown away by the quality of those games they entertain me alone #and like i don’t think there’s anything i can say or create that someone else hasn’t already said or done so incredibly well #either that or it couldn’t possibly be put into words anyway #does any of this make sense #peach rambles #kh is like ‘aaaah what a fun and complex ongoing series ooooh i’m so invested!’ #botw is like ‘ah. i’m still the same mentally ill high schooler i always was. i’m still trying to learn to grow and recover. okay.’ #one makes my circuits spin and one punches me directly in the heart and knocks me over but then gently lifts me back up on my feet #only video game actually worth its $60 #totk was indeed worth $70 by its own merits but since it was built from botw they still should’ve knocked it down to at least normal price #they should’ve run a deal where like it’s $70 for new people but if you have botw already it’s only like $50 at most or something #i’m rambling here but y’know #nonetheless. well worth the money to me. that was like the best experience of my life