#ive been in a writing slump lately

[rose-tinted-vision]

Tales from Tianji Manor

relationship: Di Feisheng/Fang Duobing/Li Lianhua

prev/read it on ao3/next

double update today! To make up for not posting last week (⁠^⁠～⁠^⁠;⁠)⁠ゞ

Chapter 5

There were a few things that He Xiaohui noticed about her son's relationship within two months of their residence at her Manor.

One: Between the three of them, wherever Li Lianhua went, the other two would always follow.

If he went back to the Lotus Tower to nap, they would follow, bearing blankets and pillows from Xiaobao’s room. If he went to the kitchen, they would follow, with Xiaobao nagging all the way about the last dish that he made. If he decided to sit on the roof to stargaze, they would follow with drinks in hand.

They were like little ducklings, He Xiaohui decided. Trailing after Li Lianhua as one would after imprinting.

But it was probably also just for their own assurance, that he was still alive and with them. She knows how that feels, the all-engulfing panic that almost consumes a person is not one she would like to go through again.

She could not begrudge them for needing the comfort of seeing their loved one alive.

Two: Her son did not deal well with waking up alone.

The one time Xiaohua and A-Fei woke up before her son, he had nearly torn the room apart in his panic.

He Xiaohui only managed to catch a glimpse of him dashing across the courtyard in a flurry, yelling for Li Lianhua as he ran towards the Lotus Tower, leaving a horde of confused servants in his wake.

A-Fei had immediately flown over to intercept Xiaobao at his shout, sweeping up Xiaobao into his arms while muttering lowly to the other, a scene that had the servant girls blushing, averting their gazes from the couple.

He was soon followed by Li Lianhua, who'd looked as frenzied as Xiaobao had, evidently distressed by whatever was going on.

(The guilty expression on Li Lianhua's face did not go unnoticed by He Xiaohui.

There was a history there, she knows, Something that explained why her son suddenly developed abandonment issues.

But she would not pry. Her son was not a kid anymore, his relationship matters were not hers to meddle in. She trusted that they would work through it on their own).

Three: They shared clothes. More specifically, clothes made by Li Lianhua.

Something she had noticed when they returned to her Tianji Manor was that Xiaobao had not touched the wardrobe in his room at all. Robes made of the finest silk made by top notch seamstresses. And yet he had not returned to wearing any of those.

Instead, what He Xiaohui saw Xiaohua wearing one day would be worn by A-Fei a week later, and what Xiaobao wore one day would be worn by Xiaohua the next. It was as if they shared a wardrobe.

They probably did, all things considered, having been sharing such a small space together.

She had offered to buy them more robes and thus brought Xiaobao down to the market with her, bringing up their clothes sharing habit as casually as she could.

“Well, most of A-Fei’s old clothes were bought by Jiao Liqiao, so he does not want to wear those, and some of my old robes got quite battered so Li Lianhua helped me to patch those up,” Xiaobao said, barely sparing a glance to the dazzling array of clothes on display, “I guess we just started sharing clothes somewhere along the way.”

He Xiaohui takes this information in, tucks it away with the rest of the stuff she had gathered in her “Xiaobao's partners” folder.

“Xiaohua is skilled at sewing, then?” She asks, because there was a difference between being able to patch clothes up and being able to actually make robes.

(And well, she had also heard of Xiaohua’s infamous cooking skills. Knowing how to do something and being good at it were separate matters).

“He mentioned that he made his robes, so I suppose,” Xiaobao hums thoughtfully, before running off to a stand possessing rolls upon rolls of all sorts of cloths, “A-Fei would look good in this colour, don't you think? And this would suit that Si Li Lianhua.”

Chapter 6: an intermission

Fang Duobing is 16 when his xiaoyi returns from an expedition with a roughed up looking stranger. A weird, unkempt stranger.

His xiaoyi had introduced him as Zhan Yunfei, a name that Fang Duobing recognized. Though could hardly believe that the man standing before him really was the legendary Zhan Yunfei, master of the Wufeng sword.

Zhan Yunfei had been rumoured to be someone who cared very much about maintaining his pristine appearance, who never had a single strand of hair out of place, nary a wrinkle in his robes, his sword always kept perfectly polished.

The rumours did not match up with what he was seeing. This man who claimed to be Zhan Yunfei was neither neat nor tidy. His borrowed robes were worn carelessly, ill-fitting and wrinkled, and never had he once combed his hair, choosing to let it remain in its unruly nest.

Xiaoyi had claimed to have found him in the forest, barely clinging onto consciousness as he tried to fight her off.

(He very nearly did, his xiaoyi admits afterwards. She only narrowly managed to subdue him).

They had chosen to let Zhan Yunfei stay, with his xiaoyi pledging to take responsibility if he turned out to be a thief. Or conversely, if anything happened to the man under their care.

He had braely spoke to anyone during his recuperation period, under the excuse of meditation to regain his inner qi, coupled with his daily physical rehabilitation.

Fang Duobing, who had initially been excited at the prospect of being able to witness the Wufeng sword in action, had been sorely disappointed. Why was the healing process so slow? But Zhan Yunfei wasn't going anywhere, so he could wait it out, he supposes. His tutor had said that patience was a virtue, and the making of a good man.

(And he had heard the guards whispering that Zhan Yunfei had lost to his xiaoyi in bet- lost in a fight, so he had to stay).

He had been thrilled to learn that his xiaoyi, with his mother's approval, had appointed him as an official guardian of their Manor, where he could put his skills to good use. Yet another opportunity for him to watch the famed Wufeng sword in action!

It took a while, but Fang Duobing eventually got used to having Zhan Yunfei around.

The man would not give into his begging for stories of the jianghu, would not tell him stories about Li Xiangyi, and only responded to his xiaoyi.

But he did allow Fang Duobing to spar with him, dispensing curt but effective advice everytime he lost against him. (The score was now 315-0 in Zhan Yunfei’s favour, but Fang Duobing believed that his day would come. One day).

—

Fang Duobing knows that Brother Zhan did not approve of his insistence on joining the Baichuan Court, that the other man did not like the people there much- a story that Fang Duobing swore he would get out of him one day- but he did not stop him from attending their annual acceptance examinations either.

Year after year, Brother Zhan would be waiting at the back of the Manor where he snuck out from, radiating disapproval even as he asked if he really was sure of his choice.

Each year, Fang Duobing would respond with the same line.

“My shifu is definitely still alive. he's not dead. I'll join Baichuan Court and wait for him to come back.”

And every time, Brother Zhan would crack a slight smile at that line, allowing him to pass. It felt good to know that he was not the only one who believed that Li Xiangyi was not dead.

#double update! #apologies in advance if this does not make sense #ive been in a writing slump lately #also started on Guardian!! its so good ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ #difanghua #fanghua #feihua #difang #mysterious lotus casebook #rose writes #posted from: my potato phone

[justalildumpling]

guys i want to write so bad but like😭😭 where is the motivation

#dumpling’s thoughts 🐳 #ive been in such a writing slump lately idek #ive been so behind on kpop content too like #somebody get me obsessed with men that dont know i exist again

[zedif-y]

birthday headcanon :]

impulse and bdubs are still bound to each other. in fact, they have been since the beginning. since that fateful moment in third life, where bdubs betrayed him for a clock.

theyre not bound in a traditional soulmate way, not usually. the narrative itself has stuck them together and they cannot be pulled apart. theres this pull, this instinctive draw that keeps them as each others doom and livelihood at the same time. back and forth. the wither impulse built leading to bdubs death in last life. the soulmates in double life. etho, skizz, and tango swapping out bdubs one life game for impulse in a later one. bdubs final death and impulses hands in limited life.

and of course, the clock impulse hands over time and time again.

they physically cannot stay away from each other. narrative counterparts for as long as the games go on. they can feel the pull. they know when the other one dies.

- headc-anon

(side note, did tumblr eat my other asks? i think ive sent a couple that didnt get posted)

OH MY GOD!!! THIS IS VERY SWEET OF YOU, I APPRECIATE THE LITTLE BIRTHDAY GIFT<3

i'm going to be . thinking about this for a long while. soulmates in the sense that they will be each other's doom. soulmates in the sense that no matter how far they run nor how hard they fight it, they will tear each other apart, one way or another.

but in the same vein: the hand that breaks will also mend. the hand that kills you will also hold you gently. the lips that tear into your throat will kiss you oh so sweetly.

i miss impdubs so much </3

#ryan's screaming #also the other asks werent eaten! i have them . i just wanted to write something for them but ive been in a bit of a writing slump lately : #i didnt want to just react to them yk? but rest assured i see them and theyre very cool! #impulse tag #impulsesv #bdubs #bdouble0 #impdubs #trafficshipping #trafficshipblr #trafficship #mcyt #headc-anon

[pigeonwit]

every time i want to express a newsies opinion i remember the time i made one vague comment about a fic in the newsies ao3 tag and got more responses than my 10 follower having ass had ever gotten, none of which were about the fic i was actually talking about, all of which became more polarizing, judgemental and aggressive on both ends of an argument that i was not making, and then got accused of being an anti-intellectual pro-censorship sanitizer of queer fanfic who clearly needs to grow up. and again none of this was even close to the fic i was referencing.

#one of the reblogs was 'LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK!!' GIRL WHAT PEOPLE #THE BACK OF WHAT?? #WHAT POINT IS BEING MADE HERE CAUSE I DO NOT KNOW #yall have no idea how terrified i am posting fic and headcanons and just general opinion posts now. #i spent four years!!! purposefully excluding myself from fandom!!! to better myself and my content!!! #and id been back for like two seconds and was immediately being considered an irredeemable person!!! #and its still a lot for me actually!!! #every thought i have im like 'no no thats wrong and im bad for thinking it' and idek WHY #anywhore. ive been in a big slump lately and my old paranoias and anxieties are all coming back full force. and its not fun. #my fics are... coming. theyre coming. its just slow. and scary. i can barely write anything without panicking- #-about how i might be harrassed for my terrible misunderstanding of davey jacobs #i love this fandom yall are so creative and intelligent and wonderful but god. it is exhausting here sometimes. #too poor for therapy tag

[kirishwima]

should i..also participate in something like flufftober or other october writing prompts

#ive seen them all over my dash an dit WOULD be a good way to get back inti writing #ive been in a massive slump lately mainly bc of work #so it could be fun idk #hmmm #burrito talks #delete later

[revasserium]

I swear every time I read one of your fics I legit start hyperventilating, kicking my feet- going into cardiac arrest occasionally.

Anyway, I just wanted to say I love your writing and please have a good day and don’t overwork yourself ❤️

sldkfjowied thank you <3 it rly does mean a lot u__u i know i haven’t been posting much lately but i promise i haven’t left!! i’m still here and reading ur messages/replies/reblog tags really does make my day! <3 you have a good day too darling!

#anon love #u__u i love u guys #ive been in a REAL BAD reading/writing slump lately it’s not even funny LOL #like wtf…. but this past week has been ??? not great #like everyone at work has also had weird things go wrong for them this week #which planet is in retrograde someone tell me LOL #i need december vacation to hit so i can lay in bed for 10 days and sleep forever #but i did start reading again this past week #quick lil novellas to start but i’ve been really into Alix E Harrow #her writing is something i really love and aspire to #i hope you guys are doing well!!!!! #muah! #🌧 raindrops

[hehosts]

#ive been doing my best to be active #and im not like going on a hiatus or intending to be inactive #ive just been having a very stressful time since october since we were stranded until now #just IRL stuff honestly nothing really here #it's just like a lot with work family animals finances so ive been just drained im ngl #without even all of that i still have so much work to do on writing this comic and ive been just like in this #creative slump ig #and i have no energy lately i just can't get my brain to focus so #im really sorry to everyone waiting on me like i can be slow but not usually THIS slow #and it's not intentional at all i have high interest #and lots of ideas and wants #but just like i cannot seem to get anything down #this will pass but that's just kind of a brief explanation that im not disinterested just very exhausted and busy

[teruthecreator]

apwheads start prepping the finale hype

#ignorance cloud on #apw #look. im not saying its gonna be done soon....HOWEVER #i AM halfway through writing the final chapter. and ive been making remarkable pace lately #now things may change! i might hit a slump and explode #but seeing as ive been pushing myself to get this done i'd say just...be ready!!! ill let yall know when its gonna drop dw #it will be announced WELL AHEAD OF TIME #AND IF U HAVENT READ A PICTURES WORTH YET: GET ON IT. YOU HAVE TIME IF U START NOW

[jrueships]

Ghee you’re account funny asf 🤣🤭

TY!!!!!!!!!!!!@🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🥰🥰‼️‼️

#IM GLAD U ENJOY MY LIL SILLIES !!!!! #ive been worried abt my VAST decrease of tag writing lately #these mood slumps or highs are NOT helping my 'FUCK IT. JUST POST. REBLOG WITH MORE TO SAY LATER' #and then i never reblog bcs im busy posting smthin new that caught my eye #ive been mad busy tho so im hoping the chatting can find an increase later ... #BUT IM RLLY HAPPY YALL ARE STILL ENJOYIN N SHIT #ive gotten worried that im starting that twitter shit where my account suddenly gets big n i just post to post #until i eventually get tired of tired posting and abandon it for a new smaller thing to build up #n then THAT blows up n the cycle continues #BUT!!@!@!! i love what i post here and what ppl have to say in return #or think #n i think ive been posting without tags so much to speedup the reblog process bcs i just wanna hear what my moots have to say on it #now that i have more of them and im not thinking alone on this subject #BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN IM DONE CHITCHATTIN CUS I LOOOVE CHITCHATTIN #just gotta be in that mood n timing rn i feel #BUT AGAIN thank u🥰🥰 #i appreciate the love ALWAYS #love my funky lil ted tumblings #ted tumbunity things #HAVE A BLESSED NIGHT

[fwob]

one day ill be brave enough to post abt my aus

#like . i have a bunch of them ! ive actually been writing them down !!!! which i wasnt for a while #but NOBODY has been hearing abt my aus lately #the ONLY person whos heard abt any of my aus lately is flux . and thats IT #and i guess polly but sol doesnt count #the problem is that they all just feel so wildly self indulgent #most of my aus rn are just like . what if this one thing was different and how would it affect everything else #still trying to get out of this slump . its still not going great #i dont know how to convince myself that these are Normal actually #ugh #ace speaks

[literaturebf]

can't write anything or access my journal or my bed for a month and i thought it would be fine but it's not. i have so many thoughts nowhere to put them i won't survive

#thats why ive been so active here lately like i cant write when i want to and i write in my journal everyday normally. #and I havent written for two weeks now even though things keep happening #like hello . I am going to die #ive been reading embarrassing amounts of fic to turn my brain off exceot it worked too well and now im in a reading slump #summer is so terrible #julian.txt #whatever. im gonna text my friend

[goldenliartrash]

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#vent i guess #every single year without fail October starts to taste like getting to class late and unshowered #with the same clothes ive been wearing for a week #and i guess its normal to reach a slump at this point bc its when classes start to get serious and work starts to pile up #but bc of a lot of non academic related things we've reached the burnout point so much faster and i dont know what to do #usually i slump after midterm essays and those things are over but now ive gotten here before ive even started writing them #im so tired and so unmotivated but i can't rest either because I'll just stress over this stuff like crazy if i tried #and #there's also the added embarrassment of all of this #coming to class looking like a mess and spacing out constantly are not nice looks and its obviously not something i enjoy #i just don't know how to stop or what to do to get better #anyway writing this instead of my paper hehe 🤩😋😳😆😆 im gonna kms

[rooftop-boys]

I thought of a cute erasercloud fic idea at work I'm going to try to write it help me manifest

#ive been having trouble writing lately :( #i hope this can get me out of my slump

[lexsssu]

Hey, I've been a fan of your work for a little while and your self-indulgent fics have inspired me to write my own self-indulgent smut. I only have one chapter complete rn, but it's given me an emotional boost and given me some confidence in my smut writing.

So I just wanted to thank you for writing and posting your works. Seriously, they're a huge inspiration, and I hope to be as good at writing smut one day.

I actually saw this yesterday, but I had to take some time to digest it and reread it several times before I could answer asdfghjkl

First & foremost, thank you so much for reading and enjoying my very obviously self-indulgent thirsty works! At first I was also scared to put my writing out there for everyone to see, especially since I know damn well that I'm not the type to write any literary masterpieces or any thought-provoking stuff

I'm literally just writing stuff for my own happiness despite how cringy it might come off to some people and I'm so glad I can somehow encourage others to also whip up their own self-indulgent pieces too asdfghjkl

If you're comfy with sharing, I'd be glad to read whatever you come up with once it's published ( ´ ▽ ` )

Anyways, good luck with your writing anon and I pray for your continued writing inspiration and motivation (*˘︶˘*).｡.:*♡

#lexsssu speaks #how to deal with positive emotions #ive been in a writing slump lately and reading this is making me feel soft #assdfjbnvosdncfpiac

[leonsi]

this is the worst essay i have ever written.

#im in such a writing slump lately ?? why cant i write anything decent #i swear everything ive created in the past month has been bland #isnt mental illness supposed to make you a great artist or whatever /j #ramble

[miniimight]

Hiiii idk if you’re doing requests rn but I just ADORE how you write Izuku and katsuki like omg-

Anyways- my meds are causing me some crazy nightmares lately and I was wondering how they would handle you waking up from a nightmare???

If you don’t take requests then forget this ever happened :’)

Have a nice day byeeeeee!!!

NIGHTMARES you wake up in a start and wake them up in the process

with izuku & katsuki

notes guys i know ive been away for way too long im so sorry!!! :( i'm in the process of moving so it's stressful T-T thanks for the request, anon, hope those nightmares got/get better :( <3

it was so vivid. your mind sunk into an alternate reality that captured all your senses. you felt yourself spiraling deeper and deeper, faster and faster—

your body jolted upright with a breathless yell and a sharp gasp, the world stilling for a mere second...

and then you leaned over your knees, your lungs racing to catch up with your need for oxygen. your chest felt tight and you squeezed your eyes, remembering that your boyfriend was laying peacefully beside you.

you peeked to your side and found him staring right back—wide, bright eyes piercing into your own—sending a shock through your body.

IZUKU

"god, izuku, you scared me—" you sighed, your hand pressing on your stomach as if that would make the uneasy feeling disappear.

"i scared you?" he sat up further, scooching closer to your side. "you scared me, angel. are you okay? you're out of breath, honey. let's do it together, okay?"

you whimpered softly as you tried to follow his guide. izuku could tell you were in distress and it took everything to stop himself from overwhelming you with questions. he just laced his fingers with yours and squeezed.

"good job, honey." izuku praised you ever-so-softly, rubbing your back soothingly. "feeling a bit better?"

you nodded, frowning. "m'sorry for waking you—"

"angel." he whined, letting his eyes do all the talking. "don't do that! please, don't do that." he actually sounded offended.

you looked away from him, your throat hurting from holding back tears. "it's been happening all the time, though, and you need your rest. maybe i should take the guest room?" you were more talking to yourself than anything, but izuku refused to let you entertain such an idea.

izuku's shoulders slumped, the shock fading as drowsiness began to overtake him. he smiled lazily, fighting a yawn. "y/n, even if i knew you would wake me up every night for the rest of time, i'd still choose to be here beside you."

you turned to face him, the horror of your nightmare slowly fading to the back of your mind. "really?"

"really." he confirmed.

you smiled, letting your head rest on your knees as you stared at him lovingly.

the rustle of sheets and whistle of wind reminded the both of you that it was indeed the middle of the night. izuku tugged you closer by your waist, pulling you back onto the bed. he groaned softly, stretching a little before he relaxed against you. "did you wanna talk about it?"

you pursed your lips. curling into his embrace, you immediately felt warmer. "...not right now."

he kissed your forehead. "don't worry, i'll always be right here to protect you from anything your head throws at you. you just tell me and let me at 'em." he kissed you again before wrapping both arms around you.

his steady breathing and soft snores brought a fond smile to your face. you found yourself falling asleep despite the night's events.

KATSUKI

you both stared at each other for a good few seconds before you spoke up.

"sorry for waking you," you mumbled, still having trouble managing your breathing. you turned away from him, pressing your palms into your eyes.

"no," he whispered with a softness reserved for you only. "you didn't wake me."

you stared at him through the darkness and could see him so clearly. "katsuki—"

"shh, it's okay, baby." he gave you a soft smile, once again reassuring you. "come 'ere."

you sniffed as you inched closer. katsuki gently took your arm and pulled you the rest of the way right into his arms. his hand fell to your waist, tracing little shapes and lines as he allowed you time.

"wanna talk about it?" he asked.

you shook your head.

"okay." he squeezed your shoulder, kissing your cheek. he figured you'd tell him when you were ready—the last thing he wanted to do was stress you out even more. it was hard, not to get all the answers on what was bothering was you... it was in his nature to want to make all your problems go away. "what do you need?"

you hand wound around his torso, hugging him back. "um..." you shuddered as you breathed in. "just you."

he smiled against your skin. "yeah? promise you're not holding back on me?"

you giggled. "yes."

"cuz you know i'd do literally anything—"

you sat up slightly, turning to face him with a swat to his chest. your face burned and it was a struggle to recall the images of your nightmare. "katsuki! oh my god."

"what?" he scrunched his nose. his eyes never left you. "it's true."

you returned to your spot between his arm. "just you."

"whatever you say." he pressed his lips to your temple before he got comfy. he sighed. "goodnight, pretty. wake me when those stupid nightmares bug you again, okay?"

your heart fluttered and your smile grew out of your control. "okay."

© miniimight ! thanks for reading <3

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