#jay's askbox

[jay-jp-art]

hey hey, do you mind sharing your akiyama headcanons? just saw ur tags talking abt how theyre dark and im very interested!!!! your fem ryuaki fuels me in ways i cannot describe and i havent even played dead souls FHKGJG and your tanimuras have my whole entire heart!!!

Oh wow first of all THANK YOU for the ask!! It's been only couple days since I've discovered I've had them disabled all this time so I'm very happy I noticed it before you found my blog (,:

I've already complained a bit on twt that when I've started to write down ryuaki headcanons, it prompted me to make a 35+ pages google doc with meta on both of them 😅 It pushed me to write more fun drafts tho, so all is well, but it won't fit in this post for sure ahbfght

But ofc, I will share a little about Shun specifically. (TW for implied SA)

Akiyama... I have complicated feelings about him, because on the one hand, he got betrayed by his closest people, lost all the standing in society and lived as a homeless person for a long time, and that's a big trauma to have. But on the other... He's got back up by a miracle, and now he's trying to recreate the miracle for others. He assumes the role of a judge for other people while himself being too young, too flawed, having black and white morals.

(In Y4 I downright despised Akiyama when he refused a loan to an abused woman on the basis that she didn't want to apply for sex work, but in the same substory gave some cringefail guy 4 chances to complete the test just because it was amusing.)

But I've just completed Y5, and it gave me lots of food for thought.

First of all, from what I see, Shun here was written (rewritten?) as a more sympathetic character. For example, now when it's implied that he's gonna make some woman "use her body" for the loan, it means he's sending her to work on the construction site. Well, alright. I'll take the bad taste joke over previous cases.

There's also an important quest when Akiyama meets his former boss, who not only initially fired him on false accusations, which started his downfall, but also married his ex-fiancée. And Akiyama finally admits that at first, he wanted to use his position as a loan shark to be selfish and to get revenge, but got disgusted with himself after seeing some humanity and principles in the former boss.

So, here finally comes self-awareness about his actions. Interesting tidbit.

Another big part of the character building we see now: when he is alone in Osaka, without Hana around, he's a complete mess. His new office is dirty, he barely eats some instant ramen and clearly just uses the place to escape Tokyo and the responsibilities he created himself. If in Y4 we saw him within his element, managing Elise and doing loan business (with a messy table because he's just soooo quirky and lazyyy \s), then in Y5 we get to see a bit of what's inside his head. And it's not pretty.

He's clearly distancing himself - from Hana and his new yakuza friends, because they have their own lives to care about. (Tanimura too mayhaps, but this is a separate friendship that I also like to talk about a lot)

Aaand he escapes to his ugly nook to have his ugly depressive thoughts. Can't let them witness it, can he? They'd lose all the respect for him.

At the same time, he throws himself into helping Haruka with passion, because that's the thing he actually cares about, for the first time in a couple years. (He also provides her with some much-needed parenting about the importance of being selfish, because, being raised by Kiryu, she's entirely too self-sacrificing.)

And suddenly - he's lively and energetic again, he's bouncing off other characters, he risks his life for what he deems right, he's helpful, organizing, charming. He's everywhere.

(But he's also afraid to acknowledge that he's got too close to people again. So he's ready to literally die for them and Haruka's dream, but avoids calling them friends, settling for "acquaintances")

Not much needed to imagine that, after everything settles down, he falls apart again. Because in his head he's never really needed or too important for the people around. They carry on with their life and plans. Such as Eri, Arai, Yasuko. Even Hana got fed up and left at some point, and has been keeping him at an arm's length since. (Good for her, that was unhealthy)

He's not only not that interesting, his trauma is "ugly" (by his self-admission). It's not heroic and it's very mundane. There's no clear villains to blame, like with Majima's torture in Y0.

It's just - waking up is hard. Akiyama can't see the point in much of what he's doing anymore. Money is just paper for him now, they might have bought him the freedom of choice, but somehow it didn't help. Even with all the financial help to struggling people he can't buy healing for himself. Most alive he felt actually was when he lost the money briefly in Y4 - it made him work to get them back again.

Now it gets a bit tricky, hence the TW.

I think that a lot of things about him actually make sense, if while living on the streets, he had it bad enough to the point of selling himself for food. Like, I don't want to make it into torture porn or downplay the traumatic experience of homelessness overall, but something for sure ruined him and his self-perception. That's why he's bouncing between playing a self-righteous entity and hating himself.

Aside from his crippling depression from all this being shunned deep inside and not addressed, there's the attitude about sex work I've mentioned he has in Y4. He is distancing himself from the situation yet again. A little bit of a trick to calm his mind: "If I treat it like every other job, it won't feel as dehumanizing applied to myself". And also: "Well, I was not above doing that! I was not too proud to do it! Why should anyone else be?"

Now, of course he doesn't want to subject his former boss (and, by extension, Eri) to the same hardships. Even though he is, actually, a bit of a cruel person.

So here's Akiyama in Y4-5. Not super pretty and kind of greasy, but nevertheless charming, gallant and crazy smart. Fighting and dancing and singing and networking equally well. VERY annoying, because he considers himself an expert in all things he read about even once (I also hc him eidetic memory, which makes it worse). And with every year getting more secluded and miserable.

That being said, fem ryuaki has slightly different tone even in all-fem AU because of gender expectations. Akiyama's upbringing for example.

I hc his parents seeing him as this very "proper" son, encouraging his risk-taking neurodivergent activity ONLY when it helped to build onto that image. They happily bragged about their son - with prestigious business degree, good banking job and pretty fiancée. But ofc, when it's all came crashing down, they didn't want to hear about him anymore. Nowadays they acknowledge his existance with some disdain, because they care about reputation more then about him or his wealth. And he has some "disgusting jobs, no respectable friends and no wife".

(It's all kinda complicated from both sides, mb I'll get deeper into it in fanfic that I'm writing)

(And forgive me for saying this, but fem Akiyama is more interesting for me to write in this narrative, because she needed to balance fitting "proper little quiet Japanese woman" with her loud banking career, and while she was always openly feminine, she was never proper or quiet "enough". And now she's "not enough" among actual living legends.)

Well, that's all I have to say for now!

I'm always open for further questions and discussions 😊

#jay's askbox #ryu ga gotoku #shun akiyama #headcanon #rgg meta #yakuza #akiyama shun

[miaushii]

em jay save me.. em jay.. save me em jay

#so sorry if youre in my askbox rn i will get to drawing asks soon!! #school has just been a lot recently 😥 #em jay watson #earth 65 #spider gwen #atsv #across the spider verse fanart #spiderman across the spiderverse #mj watson #miaushii art

[sculkshrieking]

Hoffstrahmdon?? Oh my god?? Thinking so much about them?? Any more art or just thoughts for them in general would be so cool,,,

my hoffstrahmdon thoughts tend to be various canon divergence type AUs for hoffdon and hoffstrahm mixed together.

i like to think Hoffman had to take care of Lawrence when he was still very injured and delirious while John and Mandy were away in X. i also like to think Hoffman did wonders for Lawrence's gay awakening, since Lawrence is the most closeted gay man to ever live. to me. Hoffman, experienced in all things homo, is also definitely aware Lawrence is into him before Lawrence is even aware of it. Which is knowledge he uses to fuck with Lawrence as much as possible.

(if they had a fling or two in one of those warehouses then that's between them and whatever cameras John had set up in there.)

ultimately, i think they're two very fucked up guys wrecked with grief who grow to understand each other just a little bit, which leads to them also getting the slightest bit attached, despite their best efforts not to. a lot of very mixed feelings about each other all around.

as for the Strahm part, i think it'd be incredibly funny to mix Lawrence into the classic "Strahm swallows his morals and runs away with Hoffman to play house" type situation. hoffstrahm are like 8 months into living together peacefully in some random little town after Hoffman got his face ripped open and Lawrence shows up unannounced while Hoffman's home alone. Strahm comes back and walks in on them mid argument. immediately connects the dots as to why That One Guy from That One Jigsaw Trap is suddenly in his living room:

and then he promptly has a mental breakdown.

#hoffstrahmdon #hoffdon #hoffstrahm #3dshipping #coffinshipping #lawrence gordon #peter strahm #mark hoffman #saw #my art #askbox #anon #thank u for the ask <3 #half of these thoughts wouldn't exist without Jay. my best friend Jay who is the number one 3dshipping understander #i haven't yet really figured out the strahm and lawrence dynamic tho. hopefully it'll come to me #they bully hoffman together #this doesn't even get into that whole other version where they nab and keep Strahm as a little FBI house pet

[nin-jay-go]

thinking about my cursed au

basically these guys are in a half-fantasy environment where monsters have the ability to curse people, and these guys end up cursed by various different things. kai's a dragon, jay's a moth(man), lloyd is the great devourer, cole's a ghost, zane is pixal's curse, and nya's a phoenix. i love making these guys into Creatures <3

#jay.error #ninjago #ninjago au #aus.png #cursed.png #hmmm.... do i tag the characters #i'll lightly tag em #jay.png #kai #nya #jay #lloyd #cole #pixal #zane #askbox is open if anyone's curious :3

[babykittenteach]

Meow.

#it's still soft sub saturday i guess #if you saw the genius that left this idea in jay's askbox i would credit them but that would be self-aggrandizing #if you pull the chains that's the sound he makes ok bye

[aferinbyname]

-Your hair dye has turned out to be swapped with pink hair dye! A shock!-

+ 2 points in charisma checks

This will last for a week or two- -have fun-

HOLY SHIT WHAT- oh shit i kinda slay what the hell

#im pink now :( #just role(play) with it #jrwi rp #jrwi riptide #just roll with it riptide #just roll with it #jrwi #jay askbox

[creativehomicide]

This is supposed to be them in their Christmas outfits but it was February when I drew this so-

AAAAAA THEY LOOK SO CUTE, I LOVE YOUR STYLE

Damn it Jax, why do you have so emotionally constipated all the time? Apologize to her! >:O

#the amazing digital circus #tadc #jax #gangle #ribbun #jax x gangle #gangle x jax #jay askbox

[jardinvrm]

How did Fuyumi react to the Ninja after she got out of prison?

Awful and clearly upset, like she was throwing tantrums and insults at the ninjas the entire time she was being uncuffed and screaming telling them how lonely she felt and how nobody came to visit her... the worst part was that she was being framed for killing her parents which is... not a pleasant situation to be in

Meanwhile the ninjas; they're feel so fucking guilty and dumb on how they thought she was 'acting' the entire time she was being arrested or when she found out the empress and emperor died

This all takes place after the ninjas found out Harumi is the Quiet One and she takes away Lloyd and bla bla bla it's basically how the storyline goes in canon

#i love lore #THIS IS THE OLDEST ASK IN MY ASKBOX IM SO SORRY FOR NEVER RESPONDING #AAAAAA #ninjago #twin au #harumi's twin sister au #ninjago oc #fuyumi #my art #ninjago au #ninjago original character #oc #ninjago fanart #should i tag the ninjas #ok #kai smith #nya smith #jay walker #cole brookstone #zane julien #thats it ig #harumi is mentioned #prison

[crittersofhollywood]

I was gonna yell FAG but I decided against it so uou should be grateful

#so grateful #obligatory “leave my askbox alone jay” tag

[solaaresque]

Peacock would look so good on you

OMG... YOU THINK?

#askbox #dawndelion-winery tag #I REALLY LIKED IT NGL #but i think my favs were lorikeet and blue jay #haiii acco btw <3

[ryuvnosuke]

ooooooooo i wanna sed you asks so bad

hey jay what the fuck

#jay <3 #banning you from the askbox forever

[cosmicnuisance]

I need people to send me weird random shit in my ask box. send me photos tell me about your day ask me crazy questions. I love interacting with yall! Tumblr is my favourite social media because of functions like these so let's use them more!!

#jay speaks #ask box i love you #tumblr #askbox open

[theelispace]

don't interrupt

🔥🔥 THE CHAZZ 🔥🔥

AAAAAAAAAAAA--

#eli's funky askbox #I WANNA MAKE THAT MY NOTIFICATION SOUND FOR WHEN I GET A TEXT #/ref #yugioh gx #jay and eli do dumb shit

[sculkshrieking]

can i offer you a rosefinch in these trying times 🐦

really channeled my inner barbie for this one

#hermitcraft #grian #hc s9 #cuteguy #i may have gone a bit overboard #never used this much pink in my life #my art #askbox #jay my beloved i hope u enjoy him <3<3<3 #requests

[rwbyofmyheart]

you are one silly goose... DAD JOKER!

I HAVE EXPOSED YOU! MUAHHAHAHAHHAHA

bestie I swear you have the wrong person—

#rwbyofmyheart #feel free to send asks #this is what i get for spamming my friends’ askboxes isn’t it? #jay I DEFINITELY didn’t do it :) #wrong person

[girlstressed]

it’s ur bday and i didn’t know 🤥 i need to get executed via firing squad. happy happy birthday cutie patootie, loml, the star that shines brightest in the sky etc etc u are so slay and cunt and one of my fav mutuals!! love u to da moon and back or whatever taylor swift said. i hope you’re having a good out of kewchie day <333 may dec treat you well and may it be filled with love and infinite face card 🥰❤️❤️

if they try to execute u via firing squad i will jump in front of the bullet jay jay YOUR FACE CARD . LITERALLY NEVER DECLINES!!!! leave ur boyfriend and make out with me fr ! miss u lets catch up properly soon!! thank u for the bday wishes kisses xx

#askbox #jay