#jensen has adhd

[dean-winchesters-adhd]

this is a completely unhinged take but ok so jensen has ADHD. he said it himself. and he's a smooth guy apparently. but he's also an actor. he's ALWAYS acting. and if he isn't acting in the moment he would be masking most likely. i don't know his life but that blows my mind.

now strap in and get your neurodivergent tin hats on, folks. what if dean is just him playing the dream version of himself and that's why he can't let dean die.

#dean winchester #jackles #jensen ackles #jensen has adhd #so does misha #canOn ND folks #spn #the winchesters #tinhatting #unhinged

[ricky-tiki-tah]

Some character boards for Stanford Era Au Claire and Dean

#supernatural #spn #dean winchester #trans dean winchester #adhdean #autistic dean winchester #dean has adhd #claire novak #adhd claire novak #autistic claire novak #lesbian claire novak #aro dean #Ace Claire Novak #stanford era #stanford era dean #jensen ackles #young jensen ackles #kathryn newton #Claire & The Winchesters au #my art

[habrabbit]

literally!!!!!!

#dean winchester #supernatural #destiel #castiel #castiel novak #spn #dean winchester is bisexual #cas and dean are literally in love #dean winchester is bi #dean winchester has adhd #dean winchester is autistic #dean winchester has autism #castiel is gay #castiel is autistic #jensen ackles #misha collins #supernatural headcanons #dean headcanons #castiel headcanon

[newwwwusername]

Scream (MTV) - Audrey & Noah - Autism Acceptance Month Prompt 14 : Unmasking

Prompt : Write a fic about unmasking Headcanons : Autistic!Audrey, Noah has ADHD

Audrey had been masking her entire life.

After her mother took off and she was left with only her father, she learned pretty quickly that her needs were not gonna be taken care of and that she had to grow up fast. With that came the sudden realization that she needed to be as normal as possible if she was to survive.

No one would hire her if they knew she was gay. They'd also not hire her if they knew how hard it was for her to grasp some social situations or hold eye contact or not bounce her hands up and down or deal with loud noise and bright lights. At least, that's what she told herself.

Noah was one of the only people who knew that other side of her because she felt safer around him, especially because he had ADHD and, ergo, had some similar things. Emma also had known her when she was little, before the trauma kicked in.

Even then, she still masked around them, just less.

It wasn't until one late night after Kieran had been arrested that the topic came up with Noah and she broke down, telling him about how hard she'd been trying to be normal since her mom died and how exhausting it was and how much she hated it and that's when he came to her with a groundbreaking idea.

"What if you just... Didn't?" he asked and he seemed so genuine that Audrey had to do a double take.

"What?"

"I mean, you already have a job" Noah shrugged. "And me and anyone else who's a real friend won't care" he continued. "Or, well, of course we care about you and everything, but-"

"You're sure?" she asked with so much fear that Noah had to resist the urge to tackle her with a hug.

"Of course" he nodded earnestly. Then, Audrey took a deep breath and did the unthinkable.

She broke eye contact.

Do not repost on other sites! If you want to participate in this month's challenge, there are 15 Autism prompts that you can find here

#scream #scream franchise #scream mtv #mtv scream #audrey jensen #autistic audrey jensen #noah foster #noah foster has adhd #autism #autism acceptance month #fanfic #fanfiction #fanfic challenge #unmasking #masking

[tarotoftheendless]

Tom Sturridge: A Review

Disclaimer: I have ADHD, so, please forgive me if I jump around and go on tangents... I have lots of thoughts about this man and his projects, so....

At this point I have seen almost everything the man has been in. And I have thoughts about most of his work. I may have to do this review in parts as some of his work I need to re-watch in order to get my true thoughts out on it.

Firstly, Tom seems to enjoy choosing projects that are obscure, which I can appreciate. It fits in line with him not wanting to be in the spotlight and kind of live a more private life. In fact, The Sandman is both in line with the sentiment and yet isn't at the same time.

It kind of reminds me of Adam Driver and his filmography... and then Star Wars happened. Granted, Adam Driver has since been in the spotlight more, but he sure was uncomfortable with the attention when he was in Star Wars.

And I think Tom is the same. Not only does Tom come of as neurodivergent (it is just a speculation, not confirmed... I have observed his mannerisms and the way he speaks from many video interviews...), but he is introverted, doesn't have social media (though he might have at one point, though I think he got rid of all of it when his daughter was very young). There is something about him that screams "Don't perceive me" even with all the modeling he has done and him serving cunt on the Red Carpet. He does acting for the art not the fame, and I think he is handling The Sandman the same way. He always seems so uncomfortable at Cons... actually, it reminds me of how Jensen Ackles used to be at Supernatural Cons...

Anyway, I am sure I could go on and on about Tom himself, but I have thoughts about his films and shows. I will not be review The Sandman though... it's been done to death and I really don't feel like weighing in on it right now. But I would love to discuss in the comments about Tom himself with other Tom lovers if ya'll have something that you feel should be brought up about him.

I have seen the following projects of Tom's:

The Sandman - Dream/Dream of the Endless/Morpheus

2. Sweetbitter - Jake

3. Irma Vep - Eamonn - this was basically just a glorified cameo

4. Skin - Nathan

5. Velvet Buzzsaw - Jon Dondon - almost another glorified cameo

6. 3 Way Junction - Carl

7. Hello Apartment - Adam - basically a cameo... a sexy cameo...

8. Mary Shelley - Lord Byron

9. Double Date - John - a goth pretentious musician cameo

10. Remainder - Tom

11. Far From a Maddening Crowd - Sergeant Francis Troy

12. Effie Gray - John Everett Millais

13. On The Road - Carlo Marx

14. Junkhearts - Danny

15. Waiting for Forever - Will Donner

16. The Boat The Rocked/Pirate Radio - young Carl

17. Like Minds/Murderous Intent - Nigel Colbie

18. FairyTale: A True Story - Hob (A Fair) - cameo

I tried watching Journey's End and it was slow and depressing, so I never finished it... and I plan on watching Hollow Crown... but those episodes are basically films in themselves, so, that'll take forever... and I can't find a way to watch A Waste of Shame...

I have thoughts on many of these shows/films, so I will go though them in no particular order. And I might not have much to say about all of them because either there isn't much to say or I need to watch them again to fully be able to give my thoughts on them.

SWEETBITTER

Jake is a traumatized 30 something bartender that hides behind sex, drugs, and alcohol... and he has no idea how traumatized he really is because the one person that has continued the trauma for him has also been his savior, according to him... and he has to believe that in order to cope with his life, his choices and what actually happened to him. He was absolutely groomed by Simone, and before the show got cancelled I really think they were gonna go there with his character.

I love Jake. I both love his bad boy tendencies, but what makes me love him more is who he is beyond that, beneath that. The episode where is really opens up with Sasha was really eye-opening. He is struggling, and he has to believe that Simone is his lifeline because otherwise his whole life has been based on a lie, "No one knows you like I do", which is word for word what domestic violence abusers say to their victims. He truly believes that Simone fixes things, he has to believe that otherwise he'll fall apart. Much like Frodo has to believe that there is good in Gollum, Jake has to believe that Simone is actually his protector. Everything falls apart if Jake faces reality, hence drowning in the sex, drugs and alcohol. The lies are better than the truth.

He hates himself and doesn't believe that he deserves love, so he believes Simone's narrative of being damaged and dangerous because it is easier than really breaking away from her control and standing on his own two feet.

It makes me sad that we will never get a season 3 of Sweetbitter because Jake was such a beautiful and fascinating character, far more than Tess. I don't think I would have wanted Jake to actually be with Tess in the long run, I think Tess was also wanting Jake to fill a role so Tess herself could grow and use him a stepping-stone forward, a "been there, done that" sort of thing. Tess liked the bad boy, and she tried to make it seem like she wanted to help him but I still think it was for her own gain rather than actually wanting to help Jake, and that is why she would have ultimately lost him. He would run to what he has always known; Simone. Jake needs someone that gives him space to breathe for once. Someone that sees him and hears him and helps him see the truth without wanting anything from him in return. He needs permission to live, truly, for himself rather than for others that always want something from him. He needs therapy and better coping skills... cuz yeah not being sober and burying his dick in everything he can is not helping him at all.

So, really, that's review of the character... and I think Tom did a great job playing an aloof yet interested character that is a bad boy. The song 'Hot n Cold' by Katy Perry fits him quite nicely, I think.

The Boat That Rocked/Pirate Radio

So, I saw this film years ago, probably around 2018/2019, before I had any idea who the fuck Tom Sturridge was. I remember liking it.

Then I watched again after seeing The Sandman and I have grown a lot in my leftist views... and oh boy... this film is so sexist, homophobic and really super okay with SA it is scary... Tom has gone on record saying he would never do the 'Switch' in real life, but holy fuck that is some toxic shit.

As far as young Carl goes, I don't think casting a 23 year old Tom Sturridge was the right move if they wanted the audience to believe he was a virgin. Tom has always been gorgeous, and this film is no exception. And he got expelled for smoking, cigarettes and weed if the implications the film made are correct, making him a bad boy sort of. Girls and guys alike would have gone feral for him. As awkward as he is, it is more charming than anything else.

He should not have forgiven Marianne and he absolutely shouldn't have forgiven Dave. He also shouldn't have been okay with SA of a woman that would've had seemingly no idea that someone else was having sex with her other than the person she wanted to have sex with. I know that we all love young Carl, and I still do and will, but he really shouldn't be let off the hook for considering and almost going through with an SA all because he didn't want to be a virgin anymore.

All in all, I don't believe young Carl would've actually been a virgin because of Tom Sturridge portraying him, but also, the toxic shit that he goes along with shouldn't be over-looked either.

I love this film and Tom's character, but yeah, 2009 was a different time...

Waiting for Forever

So, this film is basically unwatchable... except for Tom's Will Donner... and even then, we have got to talk about the toxicity of this film.

Will Donner is basically a Manic Pixie Dream Boy... and his mental health issues are not only not named but they are handled poorly and without care. AND STALKING IS NOT CUTE OR ROMANTIC. Period. He should not have gotten the girl in the end. That gives the wrong message... like oh yes, we need more incels thinking they can just try and try and follow women and be quirky and then they will wear us down enough for us to see how romantic it was all along.

Now, that being said, I do think that Will is neurodivergent, ADHD and autistic specifically, with PTSD/C-PTSD as well as some sort of delusional disorder that has him speaking to people/ghosts that aren't really there... not schizophrenia exactly, but close to it. And I really think that he had no idea that what he was doing with the stalking because of his mental health issues. He didn't know any better... still that is no excuse and Emma should not have chosen him in the end.

Will Donner has no idea who Emma is. He has an idea of who he thinks she is in his head and that is who he is in love with. It was 2011 and men in films often were rewarded for being in love with a woman even if he has no idea who she really is... and that is a problem. Will, as precious and charming as he is, should not have been rewarded for loving his idea of who Emma is... and he really should not have been rewarded for his stalking... I love Will, he is a cinnamon roll of a man, and I get he has mental health issues, I too have ADHD and autism, but he should have had to work through his own toxicity before Emma would ever consider him... but I really don't think Emma should have ever chosen him.

And that brings me to Emma... as toxic as Will is, Emma never deserved his love. She does not deserve him at all. Will was a last resort to her. She had to loose her father and find out her ex was a murderer before even considering Will as an option. And she is a cheater... Will does not come off as the type that would be open to anything other than complete loyalty and monogamy... at least if he is with Emma. I would think trust issues would be abundant in their relationship, which is a shit foundation for any relationship.

As far as the film goes... I am sorry, but it is not good. If we followed Will only, maybe it would have been better, but all the B-plots with Emma and her family and everything really tanked the film. Will and Emma have no chemistry... yeah, I love Tom and he played the character well, but yeah... not his finest choice in film. I would watch his character literally in anything else other than the film we got.

I also wanted to punch Will's brother in the throat. 2011 really had a fuck ton of stigmas towards neurodivergent folks and this film just reiterated that.

Like Minds/Murderous Intent

So, I watched this after The Sandman hype... and oh boy...

This film came out in 2006 and in Hollywood the only way you could be gay is if you were a villain... or magic... and Nigel nor Alex were not magic... so...

This film is so homoerotic that it hurts... I think if they had just kissed... or better yet, fucked, that would have solved everything. No murder... no incest... no necrophilia... just gay butt fucking.

But Nigel is a psychopath. And I am not sure if it started with Alex or not... Nigel seems to think that Alex was the one that was fucked up and then they had a mind-meld... and Nigel just was more okay with going with it than Alex was? Honestly, this film is confusing... because the narrator is unreliable. Who knows what the truth really was. Maybe Alex was right, maybe Nigel was... maybe both... either way, Alex ends up accepting it and being a toxic evil fucker too, so...

Also, Nigel and Dream are not the same at all... I am weirded out by everyone relating the two characters together. Nigel is a psychopath... Dream is just dark... and toxic sometimes, but Dream is not a psychopath. Ugh. They are not the same, fucking hell.

Junkhearts

So... Tom's character in this is almost worse than Nigel... Danny is fucked up. Not only is he having sex with a minor, but yeah, the drugs and taking advantage of a vet was beyond fucked up. I am glad that Tom said that he took the role because Danny was so different from himself... which thank fuck that's the case because Danny is a nightmare. Though gurl.... that sex scene? Jesus... if Jake had you blushing with all his sex scenes, Danny has you dripping... and you know what the fuck I mean. Damn. I was watching this film with my partner and yeah, I had to take a moment afterwards to try to stop having my cheeks so red. It made me feel things I didn't exactly want to feel...

But yeah, fuck Danny... I don't think he should've been murdered in the end, but he was a terrible character.

I am not sure if this film was great... or even if Danny was necessary to tell the story, but yeah... maybe I will have to watch this film again to have more to say about it later.

Irma Vep

Ugh. I was kinda pissed that I had to watch 8 hours of this show and we only got Tom for about what, 15 minutes? Ugh! And he is hot... and toxic. A cheater and a liar. And him and Kristen Stewart? I want to know the history there so bad, because we all know that Tom and Robert Pattinson are besties... and then Tom has worked with Kris on the film On The Road too... and then he is taking her pants off and kissing her like that in this show? Fucking hell... makes me think Tom and her may have... idk, history beyond Kris dating Rob? There have been rumors... but idk how much of it is true... and old social media profiles have been abandoned and I am unsure if they are real or not, but there might be history... and this show, with Tom's 15 minute glorified cameo raised some questions about that.

Skin

This short film really moved the fuck out of me. I was balling my eyes out by the end of it and I had to sit with it for about an hour after I watched it. Tom's acting ability really shines through in just 11 minutes and it is just him, an Alexa-type voiceover and flashbacks with him and his husband. In 11 minutes. I was blown away by this short film and Tom and if you haven't seen it, you need to. All of the trigger warnings though; death of a loved one, grief, alcoholism, self-harm, suicidal ideation, bulimia-like actions... it's rough and very raw and real. But it is amazing and really shows how amazing Tom really is as an actor. You will cry and be in utter awe at the same time.

Velvet Buzzsaw

This film could have used more Jon Dondon... I do want to watch this again and give a more in depth review of this film and Tom's character in it, but yeah, I loved his South African accent and his pretentious ditzy character. He is funny, sexy and charming. It is a shame that they had to kill off his character.

3 Way Junction

So... this film felt like two films smashed into one and it was weird. Tom was brilliant in it, but I am not sure what the writer(s) was to say... also he would have died... 2 weeks in those conditions and not figuring out how to survive quickly? Yeah, he would have died. No one can survive 2 weeks like that. I do think I need to see this film again to give a better more detailed review on it and Tom's character.

Mary Shelley

I do need to see this film again... but I remember Tom's Lord Byron being sexy and amazing and well worth the re-watch for all Tom Sturridge lovers.

Effie Gray

The film is kinda boring, I'll be honest. But I do love Tom in this film. He plays a hopeless romantic well. It fits him quite well. I don't have much else to say about it than that. I did see this film for the first time before I knew who Tom Sturridge was, I love period piece films, so yeah. Watched it again recently, and I loved him in it, but yeah, the film itself is kinda boring.

Far From a Maddening Crowd

OMG! I wanted to flip a table when I realized he faked his own death. And then he comes back because he wants money? Bitch! He deserved a shot gun to the chest, damn. What a bitch. A hot sexy bitch that kisses women and grabs 'em by the pussy and then leaves, but a little bitch nonetheless. Tom, coming in and serving cunt and then dying. Goddamn.

Remainder

I had no idea that Tom kisses a man in this film... I just watched it because it had Tom as the main character... and then that kiss happened... probably the sexiest thing I've ever seen. Fuck. I do need to watch this film over again to really get a feel for... well all of it... more. This film was confusing as fuck and it deserves a re-watch for a better understanding of the story and Tom's character...Tom...

There other films on the list of stuff I've watched but not all of them really need a review... at least not right now.

Does anyone else have any thoughts or comments of these films and or shows? What about Tom in general? I kinda just want to gush with Tom Sturridge lovers about his roles and just him in general. I know I could have gone more in depth on some of his roles, but I think some of his roles have stood out more than others.

#tom sturridge #tomsturridge #will donner #sweetbitter #remainder #the boat that rocked #pirate radio #lord morpheus #the sandman #dream of the endless #3 way junction #far from the madding crowd #skin #junkhearts #young carl #effie gray #mary shelley #lord byron #john everett millais #on the road #carlo marx #irma vep #eamonn #velvet buzzsaw #jon dondon #like minds #murderous intent #nigel colbie

[castiellesbian]

People are always posting clips of Jensen fondling the microphone at cons. Damn he just has adhd 😭

[fanonsupremecy]

So my sister @poetry-geek got me rehyperfixated on supernatural but specifically dean winchester and jensen ackles and everyone's gotta deal with it now lol so heres my little hyperfixation rant: APPARENTLY jensen ackles who plays dean winchester has adhd and depression. And that just validates me in so many ways. No wonder dean is so AuDHD coded... AND apparently he struggled with reading as a kid and even though I can't relate, because reading was actually one of my giftings as a kid, I appreciate that he talked about it because I knew so many other people with neurodivergencies who had a hard time with it and so i know there are people who can relate to it and that makes me happy to see representation and real life neurodivergent people we can look up to this year.

#supernatural #supernatural rant #hyperfixation rant #hyperfixation #dean coded #autistic dean winchester #dean winchester #audhd #actually audhd #actually autistic #learning disability #actually adhd #jensen ackles is adhd #dean is audhd

[mishacollinsthighsss]

I'm still not over what happened, but I have brain worms and they most likely make absolutely no sense and don't even go together but I need to get them out, so heh... guess you guys have to suffer.

THIS PROBABLY WILL INCLUDE A LOT OF TINHATTING BOTH FOR DESTIEL AND COCKLES.

You still there? Great, let's get into my not medicated adhd brain a little.

First of all, starting Friday: The Album Drop

...do I need to say more? No? Well too bad, because I'm going to 😂 I'm a huge music freak, been singing since I was four, play guitar and the piano (I didn't say good okay, I'm actually very jealous of Jensen) and I've been obsessed with lyrics for pretty much forever. Alright, call me crazy but this album is so Dean Winchester coded it's unreal. Every song could be put together with Dean and I'm not even joking. You know what's even funnier? THAT THE DAMN SONG JENSEN AND MISHA PUT TOGETHER YESTERDAY COULD VERY WELL END UP AS A RADIO COMPANY SONG. The lyrics definitely needs some work (probably making it more vague), but... come on. The first thing my mind jumped to when I realized what Jensen was singing was Watching Over Me. MOVING ON.

Second: Jensen's answer about the Destiel reunion

This hole thing still drives me crazy. This was probably the clearest answer we've even gotten from Jensen, plus we got confirmation that he'd like to see a Destiel reunion AND ADDRESSING CAS' GOODBYE (I wanna say here that at this point I have no idea how that would play out if it would be something like "Hey buddy, I don't feel that way but I don't wanna lose you" or a full on love confession from Dean... I have no idea and that's okay, because I know Jensen knows how important that confession was to a lot of us, so I trust him not to invalidate Cas' feelings). Now, I paid a little attention to the words he said about maybe seeing it: first, he said that hopefully we'll get to see that at some point, and later he said maybe we won't. This immediately jumped out to me and you know what my brain did? Let me tell you: Jensen said that he doesn't talk about possible project before they aren't under the wraps because he doesn't wanna jinx them. Now hear me out: first, he said maybe we'll get to see it. Then he backtracked. He's talked about a reboot/6-10 episode thing for forever now. He WANTS to come back. My tinhat is firmly in place when I say that I have no doubt he's working on it already, but it isn't greenlit yet (hence the backtrack later). The description was just too specific to be made up out of thin air. (Watch me regretting those words later because I'm just too hopeful.)

Third and last: Whatever that Cockles Panel was

Listen, I could scream about them forever, we all know what went down, the only thing I wanna point out is: When Jensen said "...which is funny because so do I" he looked flustered as hell, we all know that by now. What gets me is that Misha had basically no reaction to this (he looked down, but that's it). So, did they plan something like that? I don't know, I just think it's weird as hell to have no reaction to something like this, especially when it's your "best friend" and he says that in front of hundreds of people.

(Plus, a little side note: still not over how you can SEE Jensens brain working while he's nervously rubbing his thigh.)

I don't even wanna go into the lyrics they wrote together, I've talked about it during the first point already, but something I wanna add is that I loved jensens face journey as Misha first mentioned the brothers but then immediately jumped to "The Angel". That was hilarious and by God, Jensen was planning on throwing together something romantic.

I'm very much not fine as you can tell, but it feels like the universe has shifted after the non-existent finale and now it's our turn. I always try to keep my expectations low, but the album and this whole weekend catapulted me right into the sun, so now all I can see is light and stars and it's wonderful.

#how do i even tag this #cockles #destiel #cockles tinhatting #destiel tinhatting #i guess #i feel like ive lost my mind #somebody pull me down to earth again #i cant take another hit #i need to lower my expectations but how does one do that #idek #if youve read all of this im so sorry

[inacatastrophicmind]

I think he and Misha are work friends of 12 years. This is a nice bond, however, I agree with you. There are work friends and super close personal friends. In those 12 yrs, you never see them doing non SPN things. JA hangs w/Jason M., Steve C., the most, with Jared a close 3rd.

https://twitter.com/WaywardJ2Fan/status/1559347173476663296?s=20

Anon, I'm going to copy the exact same thing I answered to another anon who claimed that Jensen and Misha are just work friends

Anon, it’s clear that they have hang out tons of times outside of work.

They have dinner together alone.

If their relationship was just a work thing, they wouldn’t hang out. There are people I work with who I really adore, but I don’t go out with them to have dinner or lunch. But Jensen and Misha do. Just the two of them.

They also go out with Jensen’s wife. You don’t bring your wife to join you with your friend unless you’re really good friends. Not to mention that Misha and Danneel are great friends. If they were just good work buddies, I doubt that would have happened.

Also, they go on boat trips together

Also, in Asylum 7, Misha said that West took his first step at Jensen’s house. You don’t bring your kids to your work buddy’s house, anon. Also, their families have hung together in the past.

Other instances of how they aren’t just work buddies is that, when something funny happens, Jensen needs to see Misha in person to tell him instead of just calling him. Or the fact that they share clothes. Or how in vancon 2018 Jensen said he has many videos of Misha.

Or how on set they saw a beautiful sunset and they wanted to take photos together

Also, more dinner together

Now, I'm also adding that they talk on the phone and do video calls when they can't meet and just do stuff becuase they like to. Jensen and Danneel wanted to do a show where they watched SPN episodes and talked about them, and the first person they thought to invite, was Misha.

And let's not forget how they support each other on any project they work on. Special mention goes to Jensen reading Misha's book, which we know that he might have struggled with because Jensen has ADHD, but he still read it. You don't do stuff like that for a work buddy.

Just go through my Cockles tag and you’ll see that Jensen and Misha aren’t just work friends. They’re best friends. It's so fucking obvious.

#anonymous #my answers

[teamfreewill2pointo]

Jensen point blank stated in MR Inside of You interview that he basically has a photographic memory, read a script one time thoroughly, and then saw the words like a page in his memory. He recently stated at a con that he doesn’t “enjoy” reading for pleasure because as a child he had A mild reading issue. Now, some fans have run with this to full blown dyslexia and ADHD? The dude reads w/photographic memory. Does he retain it all? No. Is he a proficient reader, yes. It works great for an actor.

At NJcon 2022, Jensen reveals that he was diagnosed with ADD as a child because, in his words, that's what they broadly diagnosed learning disabilities as back then. Misha excitedly smacks him and says, "Me too!"

At the con, he says that it takes him a very long time to read. If he tries to read fast, he has no idea what he read. He does have a photographic memory, and that's part of why he reads slowly.

I don't recall him using the word dyslexia to describe himself, and from how he talks about it, I don't think he considers himself to have ADHD?

But I'm not surprised fans use these terms.

#jensen ackles

[mlovesstories]

Generations Part 2

Warnings: ADHD feels, angry Jared

Summary: YN struggles in school, but Uncle Jensen saves the day... or the evening.  

Words: 1745

YN age 6

“Mr. Padalecki, your daughter has been such a gift to have in class,” YN’s teacher stated in the parent-teacher conference.

“I’m so glad to hear that, but I hear a ‘but’ coming.” 

“She is a delight, I promise.  I just wanted to let you know that she is very distracted a lot.  She completes activities, but only preferred ones.  I don’t think it’s malevolent.  It’s not intentional from what I’ve observed.  Have you noticed that at home, by chance?  When she sits down to read or do homework, is she easily distracted or has a hard time completing it?”

“Sometimes, I guess, but she is six.” Jared tuned in to what the teacher was saying.  “I’ll keep and eye, though. Other than that, how is she engaging with her peers?” 

“YN is slow to warm up.  I’m sure you’ve seen that in her.  There is absolutely nothing wrong with that.  Once she meets a new friend or has been watching from the sidelines for a little bit, she is perfectly fine.”

“Yeah, that sounds like her. “ He grinned. 

“I have no other concerns, Mr. Padalecki,” her teacher smiled.  

YN age 9

“Honey, go read your book.  You have to read twenty minutes a night.” 

“I hate reading.” 

“I’m sorry, sweetheart.  I know it is hard for you.”

“Can’t I just listen to it? Or can you read it to me?” 

“You have to learn how to read and understand on your own, YN.  It’s called reading comprehension, and it’s a skill you will need for the rest of your life.   If you read the first ten minutes, I’ll read the last ten.  You can do this.” Jared booped her nose.  She giggled in response.  

“Okay,” she sighed.  

Later that night after she went to bed, Jensen came over to watch TV with Jared.  

“Hey, have you noticed YN has been off lately?” Jensen took a sip of beer. 

“She’s been having a hard time getting stuff done like her homework or a chore.  I think it’s only getting worse.” 

“Yeah, I have seen that too.  She also cries over stuff that isn't really a big deal, but to her it must be,” Jensen shrugged.  

“I think she is struggling more than she lets on.” 

“Maybe.” The shorter man shrugged.  

A few years went by, Jared noticing his daughter struggling more and more.

Jared scrunched up his nose.  

“Honey?” He yelled for his daughter over his shoulder.  

“Yeah?” 

“Why do you have an F in English?” 

She stalled once she walked through the doorway, eyes widening.

“Come on, if you can earn an F in English, you can have the courage to tell me why.” He turned toward her and spun in the computer chair.  Jared raised his brows expecting an answer sooner rather than later. 

“I-” YN bit her lip, eyes watering. 

“Why didn’t you say anything? It’s almost the end of the semester.  You can’t undo it once it’s too late, sweetheart.” Jared sighed and crossed his arms. “Well?” 

“I, I can’t write.” YN rang her hands together. 

“Yes, you can,” he said almost as a question. “What do you mean you can’t write?” 

“I can write, kind of.  I can’t read stuff and then write about it after.  My brain just doesn’t want me to.” YN knew he wouldn’t like that answer, but that was the best way she could explain it.  

Jared took a deep breath with a look of displeasure on his face.  

“What you are going to do is you are going to email your teacher this evening and let him know that you will be making as many of these up before the semester is over, and he will be receiving the assignments ASAP.” 

“I can’t do it like that, Dad.” YN responded with a deep grunt and exacerbation.  

“Well, you better figure it out, because you only have a few weeks of school left before summer hits, and if they retain you, that’s on you.” 

YN was so overwhelmed in what had transpired that she didn’t use a defense, she hung her head and said, “Okay, Dad.” 

“Thank you.  Now turn off the TV that I hear playing and get to work.  Use this computer since I have all of your assignments open right here.” 

Over the next few days, YN cried. A lot.  She was able to turn in an assignment or two, but the whole process was overwhelming.  

“I’m leaving to meet Gen.  She is grounded and on homework duty until further notice.” Jared said over his shoulder to Jensen. 

“Has she met Gen yet?” Jensen whispered.  

“No, I’m not introducing them until we’re steady.  I can’t break YN’s heart in case something doesn’t work out.  YN has met Gen since she is in the cast, but she doesn’t know we are dating. Gotta go, I’ll be back later.” 

“Hey, YNN.” Jensen knocked at YN’s door.  He slowly opened it.  “I am getting dinner ready.  You hungry?” 

“Yeah. Thanks, Jen.” She kept her eyes on her paper, writing answers for her assignment.  

“Okie dokie, I’ll call you when it’s ready.” Jensen ducked out of her room and shut the door. 

After he had cooked some chicken and vegetables, he yelled up the stairs for YN to come down for dinner. 

“NOT HUNGRY!” He heard her say faintly.

Jensen hurried up the steps knowing something was wrong. 

“YN, I know you’re hungry.  You told me you were twenty minutes ago. Come down for dinner please,” he said plainly.

“No.” 

He tried to turn the knob on her door, but it wouldn’t budge.  

“I WILL kick this door down if you don’t tell me what’s going on.  AND- you will have to explain to your father why your door is now broken.”  He heard what sounded like her tossing her cookies.  “YN!” He rattled the knob again.  “Open the door in the next ten seconds or I swear-” 

Jensen heard the lock click.  

As she opened the door, he saw her lips covered in what looked like snot and tears were running down her face.  

“Oh, sweetheart,” he consoled.  Jensen ran into the bathroom across the hall to grab toilet paper.  He came back to crouch in front of her and slowly touched the toilet paper to her lips, wiping away the substance.  YN tried to turn away from him, but he continued to wipe her face.  “Come here,” her uncle pulled her into him, her body still.  After he held her there, she leaned into him with almost her whole body.  Tiny as she was, Jensen braced himself to hold her weight.  

“I’m sorry.  I’m sorry.  I’m sorry, Uncle Jensen.” She repeated the phrase over and over.  

“What are you apologizing for? Did you eat something bad? Do you know why you threw up?” 

“I’m stressed,” she said after a moment.  Thinking he would have to coax it out of her, he started to ask her more questions when she continued, “My dad got mad because I am not passing English.  If I don’t pass, he said I could be retained and have to do fifth grade again.” 

Jensen guided her to her bed where he sat her down.  He sat across from her in her computer chair.  Caging her in with his long legs, he took her small hands in his.  

“You’ve been struggling for a long time, haven’t you?” 

She could only nod, words not coming to her in her rush of emotion. 

“Why didn’t you say anything?” 

She took deep breaths.  Jensen didn’t rush her to answer.  

“I didn’t know how.” She shrugged.  “It’s not that I don’t want to do it.  I want to, Jensen.  My brain tells me I can’t.  Or I get distracted.  But when I told my dad that, he basically said it was stupid and-” she sniffled, “and now I have to finish all these assignments.  I don’t even know where to start, Uncle Jensen!” YN backed away and threw her hands up in the air.  “I can’t focus, I can’t think straight.  I walk back and forth in here because I’m thinking too much.” 

“I’m so thankful you shared that with me.  It’s hard to describe those types of feelings.  Even for an adult.” He watched her pace the room from his seated position. “You’re so brave, sweetheart,” he stroked her cheek after she stopped and made eye contact with him again. “I think I might know what’s going on.  Let me talk to your dad, okay?” 

“He will just get mad.” 

“How about you and I tell him together?  I’ll be there to shut him down if he gets mad.” She tilted her head, thinking about it.

“Fine.  But I don’t want to.” 

“It’s either that or you keep throwing up because you’re overwhelmed, kiddo.  You know how I told you I have ADD, and it was really hard for me in school?” YN nodded.  “I couldn’t pass English to save my life.  I turned out okay though.” He smiled, and she smiled back.  “We will do this together.  You are in fifth grade and a baby in this world, whether you want to believe it or not.  Good for you for standing up for yourself even though you didn’t think you had the right words.  It’s only one grade that will not affect anything major, I promise.  I bet you they will pass you onto sixth without batting an eye either.” Jensen hugged her again.  “I say we eat, you sit down with me and make a plan for the evening as far as homework goes, and then we sneak off to my house for a movie night.  How does that sound? We can talk to your dad tomorrow once you’re feeling better.” 

“My dad-”

“I will deal with your dad.  Don’t worry about him.  The real question is whether you want to or not.” 

“Okay.  That sounds fun, Jensen.”  

Text Conversation:

JENSEN

I’m taking YN back to my house for the night.  

JARED

She needs to study.  I told you that. 

JENSEN 

Relax, lurch.  She’s been working all evening like you asked.  Let her have some fun. 

JARED

You and I are going to have a fucking talk in the morning. 

JENSEN

Whatever, man.  Go eat.  You’ll feel better. Hehehehe. 

“Okay, let’s go!” Jensen called over his shoulder to his niece.  “Before your dad makes it home and punches me!” He laughed.

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[dean-winchesters-adhd]

hi i just wanna say I love your url and that I am a dean has adhd truther so it's nice to see that other people share my opinions

Thank you!! Oh man I could go on for days about Dean having ADHD especially now that Jensen said he has it (Misha too!) I was like...some quirky acting choices really make sense now.

I also have HEADCANONS I'm sorry you didn't ask for this:

I think Dean's issues with staying still/fidgeting as a grounding/focus technique are an obvious example. I think it shows in his hyperfixations and intense passions, and his anxiety, rejection sensitivity/fawn response (maybe from childhood too) and the way he communicates with nonverbal cues it's like, that's my boy!!

I have ADHD too and Regarding Dean is personal to me because that's like straight up unmedicated ADHD behavior. Light stick come on 😭 Car in the wrong gear, just remembering he can't read lips I was like 😂 Even the memory issues! That shit is what happens when you're burnt out!

Dean's impulsive and takes the lead/runs toward danger, but freezes up when things are too much. He's gone through nonverbal periods before. His self-medication. Just so many ADHD truths in there 🥲 thank you for truthing with me 🤟🏻

[thefirsthogokage]

I know I made a post about this before, but I can't find it. So, you're friendly reminder that you don't have to settle for zoom "mediocrity" just because you have ADHD. There are plenty of successful people with ADHD. The trick is finding something you love, and a passionate and diving into it. You might have to work on some depression and anxiety first, but you CAN succeed!

There are actors with ADHD: Jensen Ackles, Misha Collins (who has also written books), Kristen Bell, Salma Hayek

There are YouTubing attorneys with ADHD: Emily D. Baker (also dyslexic), Ian Runkle (Runkle of the Bailey), Rob who's last name I don't remember (Law & Lumber).

Badass gymnast Simone Biles has ADHD, as does Dancing with the Stars pro Karina Smirnoff.

The founder of Kinko's, Paul Orfalea, also had ADHD and dyslexia. Charles Schwab, who founded the US's largest brokerage firm, also has ADHD.

One of my dad's patients is an advanced nurse, and has been in charge of departments in an academic setting.

There are more in this list too.

No matter what people tell you, - even others with ADHD (including one that inspired me to write this post that I should have pushed back on right then and there), - you absolutely don't have to settle for doing nothing. You CAN accomplish things. You just need to find what you love enough that it can motivate you.

#adhd #adhd positivity

[hologramcowboy]

Hi! Just found your blog and while I don't necessarily agree with everything you post (I don't like ppl speculating on others' marriages in general, not just in regard to the Ackles), I have to say it is very refreshing to see a Jensen fan who isn't so far up his ass they can check for colon polyps. Quick q for you re: botox. I'm a chronic migraine sufferer (untreated, I get one about every other day. 0/10, do not recommend. Thankfully I'm at the point where I'm only getting 1 every week now) and know botox can help treat/prevent migraines. So when I see ppl making fun of botox users, my casual ableism alarm bells start going off in the same way they go off when people say things like "a migraine is just a headache, what's the big deal?" So I was wondering if you know if Jensen has ever spoken about getting migraines before or anything like that. Or, in your opinion, do you think he's just getting it for purely cosmetic purposes? I was never much of a Jensen fan, so I genuinely don't know which it is.

btw sorry for rambling and all the parentheticals. My ADHD is off the charts bad today. And pls don't worry about keeping this anonymous or anything. I WILL forget to check for an answer if I don't get a notif about it lol

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Hi, @dreamytfw! Thank you for being so kind. I am sorry you are experiencing migraines, I hope they will soon subside completely. Botox does help with migraines, however, I think Jensen's reasons for using it are purely cosmetic. Though, I feel I should mention that my friends who do work in that industry always tell me they would never, ever resort to injecting themselves or doing all those procedures their clients request, simply because the downsides are much greater than the upsides when it comes to health. So, given this, I advise using botox very carefully, if at all, and looking into the new research regading migraines to find healthier solutions.

For the record, there was no rambling in your post, I love that you expressed yourself as you would talk in real life and candidly.

#submission

[sunglassesmish]

Two ?s for you ❤️: 1) What do u think buck & dean would think of each other if they ever met? I've gleaned from your posts that buck is the most deanish of buck+eddie, right? What would the vibes be? (Inspired by your most recent buck gifset reblog) -- And 2) Do u think there's such a thing as a cocklesholic? Because I've spent so much time refreshing tumblr today trying to get a fresh hit of jenmishdee serotonin that my eyeballs hurt.😭 - your sister in cockles, who still doesn't even go here🚒

okay first of all these questions are amazing thank you 🥰

1. i definitely think buck is more like dean than eddie. first of all, buck’s issues with his parents run deep, they basically had him so they could use him to donate bone marrow (i think?) to their older sick son with leukemia. he’s never truly gotten over his issues with them, and they definitely do not understand his life/job choices.

dean doesn’t have the same issues but definitely still has parental problems (that’s putting it lightly). and there’s a scene of buck with his parents that’s similar to the one dean had with mary where he said ‘i hate you but i love you’

i headcanon buck and dean to both be adhd as you can tell by that post i reblogged of buck that you mentioned. buck is always one to be cooking for his fellow fire fighters and the captain (bobby) cooks for them a lot and just last week we had a scene where he asks him for cooking tips. and buck had a scene where he used one of bobby’s recipes to make something for eddie and his son christopher. so he makes food for the people he loves. and dean is very much the same, as we can see from all the times he cooks in the bunker and made that cake for jack on his birthday.

i realised i just ranted quite a bit and didn’t even answer your question 😅 so i think buck and dean would get along really well based on the things i just mentioned. they’d bond over cooking recipes and rant about their family and be generally chaotic together, looking to have fun. i do think they’d really like each other.

2. yes i definitely feel like there is such thing as a cocklesholic as you so perfectly put it!! i’ve spent more time thinking about cockles than i do destiel tbh. i’m supposed to be working on something but i too have spent so much time just waiting for another ‘hit’ but luckily, we have another jensen/danneel panel tomorrow. hopefully we get more amazing questions + answers!

#anon #ask #hope this was a good answer even though i didn’t stay on topic #i too am adhd so

[eisforeidolon]

I'm sick of Kim using her brand new adhd diagnoisis as an excuse to behave like an idiot at cons, it's like it's nothing but a shiny new toy! I have adhd and I don't feel the need to tell everyone I meet because I don't like to use my neurodivergency as a crutch. Jared is neruodivergent so is Jensen given what he said recently about learning/reading difficulties...I don't see either of them using that as an excuse or try to get sympathy! She's so annoying but some fans eat her nonsense up!

Oh geez, is she really? I admit I don't pay that much attention to the bit players, so I'm not exactly sure what she's said. Given her previous egocentric tantrums about a potential death scene for Jody, Wayward, and not being in the finale, though? I am not at all surprised if she's being deeply embarrassing. Having certain parts of the SPN fandom suck up to her really does seem to have gone to her head.

I also dislike people using neurodivergency as an excuse. While I don't necessarily think it's always totally clear cut? There are people who can't compute how social situations work, people who have to work harder than everyone else to fit into social norms, and people who just don't want to have to follow the rules and will latch on to any justification why they should be exempt from judgement for their knowingly off-putting behavior. The first two are sympathetic, and the latter is really not. Considering she's a grown ass adult who previously seemed competent enough in work situations and interviews, but her behavior at cons and on SM seems to deteriorate the longer she associates with this fandom? Yeah, no, that comes off like a self-centered attention seeker with her head up her own ass excusing her ongoing behavior rather than someone with a severe impairment and/or consideration for others. Though considering how OMG, I'm Not To Blame Because I'm Neurodivergent! has been A Thing on tumblr for a long time, it's also not surprising certain people are cheering it on.

#askboxery #anonymous #anti kim rhodes