#just my thoguhts<3

[daenystheedreamer]

what are your asoiaf culture/race headcanons?

ooo im siberian starks truther forever, or just general indigenous arctic circle north. general aesthetics of slav/kievan rus. like kokoshnik ushanka and ryasna are canon to me. harsh, stilted syllables like in russian.

the riverlands is the balkans + ireland to me for sure, cat is so irish to me. i think of like south slav folk costume for them :) lots of ribbons and embroidery and intricate braiding. lilting accent

i like east asian targs :) but also like, they just arent any earthen race to me. hate when people are like "erm they cant be coloured cos they have purple eyes and silver hair?" and its like do white people have purple eyes and silver hair??????

the dornish are a mix of indian subcontinent+west asia+sephardic/mizrahi jewish+palestine+turkish+arab. the melting pot of westeros! like the daynes are jewish to me, and the rhoynar are arab/turk/'moorish'. yronwoods are white latines. sea of dorne/narrow sea evokes the mediterannean :) dornish is described as melodic and drawling, def lots of rolled Rs

stormlands is very german+eastern europe. maybe im jsut thinking of oktoberfest but i always think of them bundled up. lots of headdresses. harsh accent.

vale of arryn is very anglo to me. french/english/swiss/etc. yodelling on the mountains. sweet and sing-song accent.

westerlands is italy to me cos i like thinking of the borgias and lannisters. lannisport gives off SUCH florence/venice vibes.

the reach is again quite meditteranean to me. maybe its the wine? but i hc the tyrells as black, i think the dynamic of "upjumped stewards" compared to the "blue-blooded" hightowers, florents, etc is interesting. its why i also hc the manderlys as black, since they're from the reach :)

iron islands... obviously norse/viking, but i like pasifika headcanons too. i like asha with moko kauae and i just love if the ironborn have cultural tattooing practices. this is lessened by how they do not at all have a pacific climate lol.

#ask #rustwood #just my thoguhts<3

[theladyyavilee]

someone might have already said this, I’ve been a little mia, buuut now that I have thought about it more, the couch scene actually makes so much sense?

the thing is, we’ve only been considering the couch metaphor from a meta standpoint - and don’t get me wrong, that is def an important aspect and they have been using it as such, for examply by showing us that the answer to the couch question is eddie’s couch (thank you 6x12 couch scene my most beloved <3) - but in that we are kinda forgetting that in contrast to the other metaphors (most notably heart and water metaphors <3) the couch metaphor first and foremost isn’t a meta metaphor, it is buck’s metaphor and thereby the only metaphor that the characters are actively aware of and so while the meta aspects of it definitely are at play (and in my opinion do hold up, because of course he has grown, but not yet enough and so this time the couch choice is half his own, while half still put on someone else again, and he still doesn’t see the one right in front of him) more importantly buck is actively trying to use the couch metaphor and is actively trying to put it into play by being proactive, but it also means that the couch metaphor is not infallible, because buck is not infallible

from buck’s perspective, natalia is a good candidate and he didn’t compromise on his own boundaries for her and she still came back and stood beside him through the emotional mess that was kameron having the baby even tho that was what originally made her run - of course he would want the couch metaphor to work for the two of them (people have said it before, but it bears repeating: buck is not omniscient, he does not see the narrative signs for why he and natalia are doomed!) and of course that would make him actively put the couch metaphor into play, it’s almost like a test, like him asking can we actually ‘pick a couch’ together that works for both of us synonymous with him asking if they actually fit (which is a big step up, because it IS him making that choice and him recognizing that ‘picking a couch’ kinda needs to be a both partners kinda thing and a compromise, not him accepting couches that are hoisted on him) - and only s7 will tell us and more importantly buck the answer to that, even tho we as the audience know that the couch buck is at ease on is already out there and waiting for him to see it <3

#9-1-1 #911 spoilers #evan buckley #couch beloved #911 meta #buddie #kinda #couch is always buddie xD #anyways #I don't know if this makes sense to anyone #and whether or not the general idea has already been pointed out by someone else #because I have spent most of the last two days hacking up my lungs akldakjahskj #BUT #I had this realization today while thinking about the balcony couch question scene and buck's demeanor during it #he is actively trying to make the couch metaphor work for him #and that is not a bad thing #because it is him actively going into a relationship inquisitive and wondering whether it might work and NOT just letting a relationship #happen to him and expecting it to be the end-all perfect fairytale #so yeaaah growth <3 but not quite there yet #I will probs come back to this and have more thoguhts #but yeah #taht is where I am at <3

[callilouv]

if u dont mind me asking, why do you want to deactivate?

same reason why i deactivated my prev blogs rlly . i try 2 be active but it’s hard when i don’t hav anybody 2 talk to on here, no? esp cuz the reason why i stayed so long on tumblr is bc of talking 2 ppl FeelsBadMan😔✊ + most of my notifs r form my sideblog and it kinda turns my mood down when i ‘ooh a notif :D’ and then i look and it’s just a Like from my sb LIKE I appreciate everything i swear but like it’s almost like i’m just Likeable as an Artist and not 4 who I am aka this blog HSIWBDIX

#ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ idle chit chat #ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ ray of sunshine #but i am not tempted!:!/&/& cuz i put lots of work on my art sb and it’s a shame 2 just levae it there yk :3 #just a thought tbh i donr think i’ll deactivate soon enough cuz i genuinely like just dumping my thoguhts here n posting Art #meow this ws sent ystrdy night (?) but i was sleeping and now i just finished playing ml matches w friends again so am in a good mood🙏 #may be in a Goodge mood but my point still stands tho :( it gets lonely here very often

[ganondoodle]

this probably seems weird since this is in response to tags literally posted this moment, but im also terminally online (especially after i post art lol) and like, dont be afraid to spam like/reblog its always appreciated and made me very happy just now!!!

#ganondoodles talks #even if i prefer it to be on my newer art #i still really really love to read super elaborate tags #or just the ones that are yelling #i love to read literally essays #that analyze my art #anything really #especially these days #bc notes in general are getting less and less #and of those its also getting less and less reblogs #and even fewer tags #so if you want me to keep posting or post even more #pls dont be afraid to put your thoguhts in the tags #or of spamming like and reblogs #the few people that still do this is who im still posting for #just like replies are what keeps me posting on twitter too #even tho notes over there are aslo just getting less #lol #anyway #i love you <3

[rileyclaw]

Genuine awe and admiration for you 🥰❤

Fellow aspec artists are a light in my life :)

Now for the actual ask: I'm a young trans aromantic neurodivergent artist, sometimes pressures about identity can impact my motivation. How do you navigate art block caused by this kind of stress?

YEAHHH ASPEC ARTISTS REPRESENT!!! I get so excited to meet any other aspec trans person it's insane I be bouncing off my walls (my neighbors are filing complaints about this as we speak)

Firstly , I want to say first and foremost that you're incredibly valid!! so valid!! and important also. and never let yourself forget that. (I told you so so now you have to promise to not forget that <3 fdhjfjdh)

I've been at peace with who I am for a really long time, so I can't really say I've had a similar experience to this in recent years. But I remember that at times when I felt unsure about myself or who I was, I actually turned to art to push through it!

I thought about what made me happy and, knowing it did at least 90% of the time, I would draw. I didn't even need to share it with anybody - sure, I was feeling pressured about who I was- but y'know what didn't feel like it was pressuring me? whatever I was drawing - goddamn I just wanted to do it!! I had control there and if I couldn't figure out that other thing, I could sure figure out how I wanted to draw some art- even if it was nothing worth sticking on the fridge.

Creative/art blocks are a mental barrier every artist is gonna tackle someday,, and it's rough, and it can happen for so many different reasons!! I'm kind of in one right now actually, but I still draw at least once a day, even if it's only for five minutes. So even if identity pressure feels rough, and believe me I know it does sometimes , remember that you're an artist too !! and you’ve it in you to make something great yet even if that mental barrier is trying to say otherwise

( sidenote i found that drawing characters I have aspec headcanons with makes me incredibly happy. i do it all the time as a little laugh. a little victory. "they dont know i hc this char as ace heehee!!!" )

#riley talks #fun fact while typing this i tried to drink water and it went down the wrong pipe and i like died #so im just never gonna drink water again <3 #and thank you sm!!! #i really lost my train of thoguht after nearly choking on water ngl #text post #i think my art block is bc i just spedrun a 4 minute animation in 12 days #and my body is like dude chill out for like a Week bro

[inuhodo]

everytime right-justified text showed up in the baru books i fr screamed

#i am Burning #sorry im thinking about it all now the first time it happened i thoguht it was my e-reader fucking up hard #but no it was actually just the single most devastating thing occuring on the page at me #pacingggg ohghgmgghgm my god did books 2 and 3 stand up to 1? no but they did do that so who can really say if theyre mid #baru inventing new bpd symptoms

[anxiously-awaiting]

unbearable expectation

(still under cut)

#my ocs #lance #aaart #I DIDN'T HAVE A FUN LYRIC FOR THIS ONE #i did but the vibe of this changed as i was workin on it kjlfdlsfd #grabbing lance by his shoulders #you are not immune to the weight of expectations #<3 #I WANTED TO LIKE #have stuff in the bg move but i <3 am lazy #but anyway i love him <3 #im rotating the stuff about him being whittled down to no more than camelots weapon and greatest of all knights in my brain SO MUCH #like jesus no wonder this guy had like a million different mental breakdowns jflkdskjlf #i cant articulate my thoguhts rn but i love him #bbgrill your already fucked up mental state is exacerbated So Much by your surroundings get Out of there #NYWAY i dont know if this is good but i would like <3 to stop looking at it jlkfdsjklfs #m proud of myself just for finishing it and it looking Not immedaitely horrible jdslfjl

[n0ct0urn1quet]

@fuckshitassbitchcockballs looking @ u with my autism eyes (affectionate)

#ok listen sometimes gayposing is hardbecause sometimes Brain thoguhts go Brbrrrbrbr #I DONT MEAN That im having bad thoughts rn bc im NOT im okay rn i just like. u know. The BRain Fog #BUT STILL IM JUST HRRGH!!!! ogurohghgh!!!!!!!h hnnrrgh!!!!!! (positive) #i wanna hrgrj ... ... k. . . . kis u.... .... . . .. .. rite NOW #i wante to give u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kises on ur litol face mmmwa maw am mwa mwe mmweeh mwah mwaaaah mweme #i wanna jus like !!!! cup ur face n jus give u kises ALL over bro i just hrhgrghjbkjgdnjkkjbhjhjbn!!!!!!!!!!!! #u ar my skrunkly my blorbo my WIFEY my BABIE #aughgh i juts love u thas all.................................... u Truly ar my beloved.............. an i kis u................ mwe mwaah! #alslso bestie i showered earlier so now my hair is all poofy and fluffy n curly (kinda) so u should come fluff it an scrub it!!!!!!!! #i want headpats and my hair played with Now i have Chronic Headpat Deficiency Disease which means I Need Constant Headpats Please #ourrhgh i juts hrhrghouhogugh !!!!!! horuhghhgoug #im juts sitting here waiting for it to be summer already bc i wanna come see u so BAD augh #IT KIDNA SUCsk that it had to be pushed back to like late july instead of mid-late june but eh what can u do #moms gotta work n thats the only time shes able to take off 2 weeks from work BUT. but but but. later is better than never sooooo . >:) #i just !!!!!!!!!!!!! bro while im there with u i wanna go out skating n stuff n jus hrgrgrgrgrghrghdhgbgjndgklkhklkmlkmhjnhjn yk what i mea #like bro im gonna b THERE with u and we can ............. holde hans an kis....... an snugl in ur bed toegthr #and i can........ steal ur hoodies......... n lay under ur weighted blankys.......... n go snrrrrk mimimimi in ur arms............. #im not joking abt stealing ur hoodie btw i kno its gonna be the middle of summer while im there so i wont Need One but. heehee :) #if one of ur hoodies suspiciously goes missing after i leave then u know why <3 is mine now i stole it >:))))) #UNLESS U DONT ACTAULLY WANT ME TO STEAL ONE OF UR HOODIES IF U DONT WANT ME TO THen i wont is okay #i just...... a heem heem...... u ar biger an chubbier and taller than me so therefor ur hoodies will b Big an Oversized an comfy cosy...... #AUGH i feel like this is getting rly long im gonna stop it here bc i feel like if the tags are too long then they'll get cut off H #BUT AWAWAWA GOODNITe honie i lov u verey much........ go seeppy go cossy now!!!!!!!! goonite i luv u!!!!!!!!! :] <3333

[angelatsumu]

simon as your allistic husband

hello friends, i am autistic and i wanted a little allistic husband for my own comfort. this may be slightly unrelatable because autism is a spectrum and autistic people experience overwhelm and meltdowns differently. here is my interpretation of my experience (a very small picture of it).

cw: none, autistic reader x allistic!husband!simon riley<3, johnny is a bit overwhelming, overstimulating stimuli + potential meltdown

simon had always been your self-proclaimed protector. he was like a devotee the way he watched you, always keeping an eye on your mannerisms and responses. simon was on his knees before you with just one beck and call, and you knew this to be true in your heart of hearts. your lover, your beautiful simon, was privy to your disability and the way it could render you helpless with no regard for your plans for the day. in an effort to be an “adult”, you might overwork yourself directly into overstimulation or autistic burnout. if you had tried to mask well past your limits in social situations, you found yourself stimming in secretive but painful ways, and perhaps even losing all social awareness as a whole. you constantly cursed yourself for not getting a service dog to help you through these scenarios, but why would you when simon was at your side so quickly? simon knew you like the back of his hand, easily detecting the signs fo your withdrawal or teetering on the edge of insanity. Simon was so equipped to care for you, constantly studying your fidgeting and tone in any situation.

tonight was no different. Simon had asked if you felt comfortable with a small gathering of the Task Force after a bit of time apart, and you willfully agreed. you thoguht you’d checked all of the boxes to prepare yourself for the evening; you’d rested all day, gathered your stim toys and fidget rings, remembered to drink water (with several small reminders from simon), and you even ate an appropriate amount of foods to fuel you for social interaction. Simon was sure to allow you time to indulge your special interests and give you space without overwhelming stimuli. you’d felt pretty equipped for the night, especially since simon had ordered your comfort foods and even prepared a special nook incase you felt a bit overwhelmed. with earplugs in ears and a comfort outfit, you felt far more prepared with the help of your understanding lover. the overwhelming dread that usually accompanied social gatherings seemed to melt away with your anchor who was more than helpful in refilling your cup and taking care of you.

just as everyone was arriving, Simon was sure to dim the lights in the bedroom and set aside a bottle of water with your favorite stims to allow you a safe place. He hated to assume that you might approach metldown territory, but he’d learned that preparing for it is far better for you than simply hoping for the best. He’d taken the liberty of safety proofing the room, giving you a sensory swing and a cushioned corner to prevent you from harming yourself if the meltdown is to worsen beyond his control or interventions. He hummed as he made easy work of it, being sure to charge your headphones and queuing up a playlist you adored to allow you less work during a time of distress. goodness, he loved you so much. he loved doing this gentle and domestic work for you, and he loved the safety that came from his efforts.

it’s now well into the get-together, and Simon has you nestled into his chest. you find the smell of him grounding, and the compression of his arms squeezing around your torso makes you feel safe and comforted. your ears began to sting at the constant and overwhelming timbre of Johnny and Gaz’s bickering, seemingly infiltrating your brain and sowing seeds of hate. you’d tried to fidget with Simon’s dogtags or the hem of his shirt, but the constant booming of their voices had begun to sink its teeth into you. Simon was never loud, and he certainly never yelled in your vicinity without warning. your chest felt tight as you began to feel your clothes rubbing wrongly against your skin every time Simon had a hearty laugh at his coworkers. you squirmed in an attempt to regulate yourself, to move the painful energy you’d been harboring since your nervous system began to fray. the interaction was tiring, draining you of all your humanity as you had to pretend to be interested in the topic of conversation. your breathing shallowed, breaths quick and uneven as you tried your hardest to stave off the boiling under your skin. suddenly Simon’s skin against yours felt wrong, like your nerves were set aflame and stealing the little reserves of normality you’d been clinging to. you didn’t want this happen, you never did. you’d spend every waking moment post-meltdown crying and begging the skies above to “fix” you, to make you less susceptible to these painful experiences. you didn’t want to feel lie this anymore, to hurt anymore.

Simon feels the shift in energy, having stealthily been observing your descent into uncharted territory. he knows where your mind space is, knows that your mind is ricking you into believing you’re too much and that things were easier without you. the way you slightly fled his touch led him to slowly and sneakily withdraw his arms from you, placing them behind his head to allow you to be freed from his grasp. he relishes in the sigh you let out, the way you teeth latch onto his shirt and begin to chew away to calm the nerves. Simon calmly reaches to his right where your spare ear defenders are tucked away, and he slowly slides them over your head. he makes quick work of tying back your hair to lessen the amount of stimuli you had to process. your lover lessens his own chatter, reducing himself to careful nods and short sentences or small laughs to allow you a full realm of recovery. he gives you two taps to your back, a silent inquiry to your current state. you respond with a head shake, signaling that you were far beyond your capacity. simon could tell that your thoughts were being unkind to you, but he was certain he could help you through this difficult period. “they alright,” Price asks, eyes kind as they fall on your frame in Simon’s grasp. the men knew you were autistic, and they were more than supportive to you. Simon sighs, eye soft as he looked at the men and back at you. “Yeah, i think they're just pushing toward overload. ‘m gonna take them to the room, let them get this out,” Simon hums softly, timbre of his voice lowered to create less strain. He gives you another silent tap as a request to carry to your bed, and you nod softly against his chest. his chest dims the lighting of your living room, lessening the stimuli you’ve been taking in. Simon scoops you into his arms and carries you to your bedroom where he gently sits you on your bed. the lights have been dimmed, and Simon slides your weighted blanket closer to you. “Blanket’s here love. ‘M gonna let you have some space, but i’ll be back to check on you soon. ‘M so sorry this happened lovie, but I love you. You’re safe. I am not angry with you, and you’re allowed to feel these things,” He comforts you, placing your stims within reach as your eyes fix on the floor in front of you. He knows words have left you, and he hums before leaving the room to allow you time to process.

thank you for reading! if this experience does not feel very cloe to yours, please feel free to send a request with a different scenario of autism reader x allistic simon <3

#autistic reader #disabled reader #cod x reader #ghost x reader #ghost headcanons #simon riley x reader #simon riley fic #simon <3 #soft fic rec #autistic reader x simon #simon riley headcanons #simon riley x you #simon ghost x reader #ghost x you #ghost x y/n #disabeled reader x simon #simon riley fluff #ghost fluff #simon fluff #mac mail <3

[acarrcreations]

I've spent the last 5 days putting together and painting this 3D printed model based on the Rayman 3 promotional Leptys statue!

Someone very kindly went out of his way to print one out for me so I could give painting it a go!

See the original model and info here: https://www.thingiverse.com/thing:5279438

More pics and my process under the cut...

It arrived in pieces which slotted together really easily and just needed a bit of glue. I've never worked with something 3D printed before so I was looking forward to putting this together.

It was really light and fragile so that worried me when handling the pieces and sandpapering them, especially where there were parts that were really thin, such as the hair and the hoodie strings.

I sandpapered down the sharp edges and bits of plastic that were still stuck on. I was hoping I could sandpaper down the layer lines that are left behind by the printer, but the model has so many tiny details which I didn't want to lose.

Cleaned it up as best as I could, assembled the pieces and gave it a plastic primer coating so it was ready for painting. It stands at roughly 17.5cm.

Unlike a clay model, I wasn't used to having to put so many layers on. Usually a base coat is enough, but with plastic the light shines right through the model (can't really see it in photos) so I ended up spending a lot of time putting multiple coats on paint on.

During painting I noticed a tiny piece on the bird's head at the top was missing.

At first I thoguht there was no way I could fix it with clay because the figurine was made of plastic and would melt in the oven, but I figured I could eye-ball the shape and attach it on later. After a couple attempts I managed to get a similar looking shape made of clay glued on and sandpapered it to shape!

I know the big promotional statue itself has the ball at the top be a blue colour, but I couldn't help but find it kinda dull to look at. After looking up how the leptys statue looks in-game, I realised that in the game it changes colour from blue to purple and has magical swirls so I figured why not let's paint something like that instead.

After a couple coats of varnish and a felt bottom to protect surfaces, it was done. My photos don't do it justice, but I'm pretty happy with the result!

#rayman #acarrcreations #rayman figurine #3d printing

[campbell-rose]

But what I really wanna get into is what you said on heaven in your version which again I really like the concept on and it's something that I always thoguht back on. "What is labeled good in the eyes of heaven?" It's a simple but also complexed question, that I feel would be so damm wonderful to play on and explore. If I lived honest and good but I had let's say...a fatal injury that rewired my brain and makes me evil then I died do I go to heaven cause of how I was before or do I go to hell?

Exactly! I love media that makes you think and has actual themes! The idea of something morally complex could tie directly into Charlie as a character, she can be the question of morality itself and like, question everything she's ever know. I have no idea what the answer to the question of what is truly good or bad to those up above, but i think if Hazbin had been handed to the someone like folks behind the good place we'd be given an interesting show instead of... uh, whatever Viv's done with it

I know someone personally who had a traumatic brain injury and the way they are now is so different to who they used to be, their temper is awful and they can be very cruel and petty - but then i ask myself does that make them a bad person, or can the injury be used as an excuse which goes into the whole thing about how a reason for behavior is not an excuse for it, everything about life isn't just black and white!

ahh im rambling so sorry! thanks for the ask! <3

#anti vivziepop #hazbin hotel redesign #hazbin hotel rewrite

[faggotwalkwithme]

that time of year... (the layout is horrendous on purpose btw i thoguht it would be funny.)

ramblings below the cut again :]

january - jonmartin fanart,,,, i remember how much fun i had drawing this specifically their outfits :DD i still think its decent and i think its the piece i have with the most notes, which im grateful for but also like why

february - scenemo bingo and goth punk bluey fanart because i was awesome. i actually had my birthday (which was also that month) goth bluey themed. i think the art itself is kind of mid now especially bingo but the concept is awesome and more people should see my vision

march - i had no full art pieces :((((( so this is a jarthur doodle where they hold hands after arthur did something DIFFICULT!! i think its pretty cute. but it is just a doodle. sigh.

april - ASH WILLIAMS ?!?!?!?!?i think this is pretty cool tho the colours r kind of muted im a fan of the blood and the grey streak ... <3

may - self portrait of me for the malevolent zine 'this too shall pass'. im actually pretty happy with it, its so cute!

june - floorshow brad majors fanart. i was sooo gay. i am gay. im proud of it except for the face and background to be honest. i still get notes on it today and its really funny cuz its just other people being gay. happy with it

july - OLD MAN ASH WILLIAMS ?!?!?!?!?!? i remember i was watching ash vs evil dead and felt a little bit too homosexual and needed to get it out of my system. keep in mind this was still before i was insane about evil dead. i frankly think the body and the background suck ass and this drawing is BAD👎

august - laura palmer painting number 1. really quite happy with this. i like her a lot. just not so happy with the background, i think i couldve done it better. (i was trying to make it so that you could see the waiting room peeking out from cracks in the wall but that wasnt obvious and was just kind of stupid so like whateverrrr).

september - laura palmer painting number 2. i actually prefer this one, i put more work into it than the first one? it might not look as good but i was more independent with the colour picking and was doing a lot more of the reference from eye. i also think it looks prettier and i like how the hair turned out :))

october - this was a busy month for me so this is just a cringetober piece. self insert. me as an s-mart employee. UM.anyway.s. i think its cute but definitely my weakest piece on here apart from maybe the bluey art. woah wait i just realised i appear twice on this thing

november - dale cooper painting!!! im really happy with this i think it turned out really nice and pretty and that i captured how angelic he looks in that scene :)) im especially proud of the eyes.

december - ASH WILLIAMS X3?!?!?!?!?!!??!? this is pretty cute. literally judt drew it likke 2 day ago. hes cute

#shut up mars #art #fanart #the magnus archives #bluey #malevolent #evil dead #the rocky horror picture show #twin peaks #art summary

[lightrosebud]

question for re-animator fans: does herbert west believe in god?

your first instinct is probably to say no, which is fair, he goes on a whole tirade against god in bride. his whole thing is to prove that death is a simple, reversible process, not something mysterious and of a higher power!!! except when you actually LOOK at how he talks about god, it isn’t simply to dismiss the idea as unscientific or make fun of faith or anything else you usually expect from an insufferable reddit atheist!

he talks about god like he’s been SCORNED by him for some reason! saying that he’s REPULSED by humanity...! these are weird things to say if you’ve never believed in god and only care about the concept in order to prove it wrong. herbert doesn’t rebuke gruber for bringing up god in the beginning of the novelization, either. 

sure, this could just be that herbert respects gruber enough to not be an asshole for two seconds, but i think it’s worth noting! in beyond re-animator, he tells howard that “religion has nothing to do with this” when he brings up god. again, not exactly a denial of god’s existence, but rather a personal distancing from him. MY theory behind all this is that herbert west was probably raised religious up until his parents died and, while believing in a higher power goes against the type of stuff herbert gets up to, he never managed to let go of the concept. instead, he wages a war with god in his head. god let his parents die, let him grow up in a foster home, let him lose gruber (who he thinks of as a father.) herbert west BELIEVES in god and he hates him for rejecting him.  he realized early on he could never rely on god, so he takes things into his own hands with his research. but he doesn’t let go of that bitterness. god failed him, why should he care about blasphemy? anyways this is all to say herbert west was a catholic school kid. would love to hear ur thoguhts on the matter <3

#re-animator #reanimator #re animator #bride of reanimator #bride of re-animator #beyond reanimator #reanimator novelization #herbert west #daniel cain #dan cain #herbert knows hes going to hell btw #just doesnt care because he doesnt intend on staying there for long #ramblings

[hell-drabbles]

companion when theyre forced to suffer what comes with being an angel (they will get hurt) (they will hurt others) (shunned from every side) (nothing is fair not even comfort) (good lird! Pain and suffeing!)

I'd imagine angelification adds to your an6atomy as a non-angelic being instead of transforming. Sudden wings sprouting from your back and rapid growth would be painful ofc because its happening all at once. Halos forming at rapid rates causes throbbing migraines that last 15-30 minutes (unbesrable pain) and could have long lasting effects and damage to the brain. Idrk how halos can materialize so yah!!

Wingssss would be incomplete and fleshy and bloody because wings did not take time to deform. Healing would take a lot of time but it wont change deformities. I dont thjnk theyd even be able to fly since the wings are tooooo deformed wnd sonewhat bony to evem carry weight :[[...

Angelification maybe attacks the mind too with intense holy visions? Idk. Its like a strobe light effect that plays in your head with words yiu cannot understand.. (yeouch!!!!) Intense ringing in your ears and strong nausea comes with it.

Due to the immense stress of angelification and what it does to the mind the victim wouldn't be themselves anymore proven by that bossfight during chapter 1. Victims get put down becayse their body is forever damaged and in pain (oof)! The viictims are also dangerous because their senses are messed up already so they attack impulsicely and are really agitated

Idk these might not make sense but yahhh :3 have fun with some of my thoguhts that come from my stew brain

companion, probably: shit happens i guess (suffering a fate worst than death)

And let me spill out some of my own brain stew from the mind cauldron.

I like to imagine that the Companion is probably used to lure out Ra-on with their familiar face. And that they have moments of lucidity when they're basically not tripping balls on holy visions, which makes Ra-on really, really hesitate on having them be killed or maimed because they're in there! They're still alive even if they're in pain! Because Ra-on strikes me as the type that would not survive a zombie apocalypse because they're that soft-hearted towards infected loved ones.

Gabriel marked Ra-on, killed Minhyeok, and probably holds a special interest in the Companion after making them go through angelification. As to what that interest contains, I have no clue. I'll probably just make it a messy variety where Gabriel is only jokingly affectionate in order to mess with Ra-on and the devils.

And then goes "Oh no," when he ends up actually attached to the Companion the more they're lucid, but obviously has to hide it under layers and layers of lies and asspulls to the angels and devils around him. It's almost funny.

Obviously, this is a one sided thing. Weirdly likes the open hostility of the Companion when their mind is there and functioning.

I'm a big fan of these huge prideful assholes being confronted with the problem of getting attached and basically hating every moment of it. Though he doesn't really pretend to hate the Companion in front of them when it's just the both of them. He's civil and since they're so open with their own anger, Gabriel tends to unload whatever grievances he has since literally no one else is giving him a listening ear. The one that did listen, God, is gone. So, the Companion is the next best thing.

That's kind of funny to think about. Ra-on Companion is now Gabriel's Companion.

#admin #embittered companion au #gabriel

[hyunsvngs]

ok i just saw that one anon’s scenario about being chan’s lil office assistant and it gave me an idea SO ! what about : being seungmin’s little free use puppy !!! omg wearing a pretty pink collar like anon said, with seungmin’s name on it ???

maybe he comes home frustrated from a long day at jyp so he justs bends you over and starts fucking you, calling you his good little pup, mocking you for being so wet all the time for him <3

then he gets closer to his orgasm and starts getting so mean !!

« such a fucking slut for me pup, maybe i should start bringing you around on a leash so i could fuck you full of cum anywhere? »

« yeah i bet you’d love that. fuck you in front of everyone so they know you’re my little bitch »

« thats it pup, let me use this tight little cunt, thats all you’re good for anyway, mhh? »

GOD I NEED TO BE SEDATED🏃‍♀️

also idk if i’ve asked before but could i be 👼 anon?? tyy<3

👼 anon please share more of ur thoguhts i’m shking crying throwing up over this

#juno’s asks ♡ #sweet baby anon #asks: seungmin #👼 anon 💌

[captainjoongki]

Thoguhts/Feelings on QT Finale?

simultaneously overwhelmed and underwhelmed. kinda swinging between a manic high and manic low lmao.

i'm just going to really, really miss baekhong and soohyun and jiwon because they gave me a great 2 months and it was so much fun watching a blockbuster kdrama again. some episodes of QOT are some of the best kdrama episodes i've ever seen and that OST will be looping in my ears for a long time.

i'm just glad the drama established at the end once again that baekhong are soulmates who cannot live without one another and they had their baby girl <3 that's all that matters

#ask #anon #queen of tears