#let him have some joy

[crabsnpersimmons]

I’m curious about the onesie now

also @pizzaplex-stargazer cuz you noticed too!

here's what Moon was rocking before Clip started making clothes:

after their PizzaPlex went under, the DCA bois had to figure out a lot of things, one being: clothes. unfortunately, Moon's really big, so he struggled to find things that fit him and were comfortable. the onesie is the first thing he found that fit him and made him feel really cozy. so he still wears it at home (he prefers comfy clothes at home anyways) when he needs a pick-me-up.

of course, he can't work at the salon in a bunny onesie, so here's what Clip made him (under Sundrop's direction):

Moon does prefer comfy clothes, but he has to admit, sometimes he likes the attention these clothes get him. he's iffy about them though, he feels that they show too much of him and he prefers the specific kind of comfort that comes from being an amorphous bundle of coziness.

#fnaf moon #fnaf sun #fnaf dca #dca fandom #New Do Same You AU #Moon New Do Same You AU #Sun New Do Same You AU #this AU is full of silly and angst i swear #look Moon in a rabbit onesie! (: #he likes it because it hides his body and he can momentarily forget that he was forced into a body that isn't his ): #he can be a silly little gremlin again (: #and not think about what he looks like under the fabric ): #the bunny onesie was honestly just a silly idea i had early on even before i thought of Moon's body upgrades #i just thought it would be in-character for Moon to like comfy clothes and would wear comfy clothes when he's not out in public #but i was worried the bunny onesie would be too silly? #but after chatting with friends about it #i just #i had to keep it in #look at how happy Moon is! #he's a little moon bunny! #let him have some joy #i've wrote a painful backstory for him anyway let him have this #traditional art #crab art #bright colours #ask the crab

[drawotion]

This is Remu, our sweet pup who was put to sleep today, 8th of April 2024... The procedure went smoothly, he almost got to the age of full 11 years. This summer it would have been his 11th birthday.

In memory of him, let me tell you about how our little rascal was like. This is going to be a long post so buckle up. I'll put more pics in at the end.

He was a rescue dog, he came to me and my mom through my oldest big brother around year 2018. He was around 5 years old back then and he was born during summer, what I heard from my brother is that the pup was super skinny when he first got Remu.

Remu was an absolute lap dog, he loved being on our laps and in our holds. Loved sleeping next to us. ((He was like little heater! Very warm hahahh)) Sometimes when we would do stuff around the house he had to be with us on the thing!

For example if I was sitting on the floor and moving plants to new pots or I was cleaning my pet bugs little habitats, it was guaranteed he would be on my lap. And he would always be listening what we're doing.

Oh he was one stubborn and clever fella, there is a reason why I call him a rascal! Of course in the most loving way possible. He was like a big dog in small dog's body. His barks were LOUD.

He wasn't that trusting at first and god forbid if you touched his paws and tried to bath him, or even reached out to him in certain way! Face was off limits. So it was heartwarming how over time he came to trust me. So much so I could do almost anything with him, it got to the point where he let me even rub my finger between his eyes and wipe his cute little snoot if there was something.

Oh any visitor would still get bunch of barks and growls! Never biting tho, but he would let you know that hey, this is his turf! His home! Would even start barking even if he heard my younger old brother through phone. (He still got onto brother's lap and all, pfft) It was kind of silly to see how little mohawk would rise on his back.

Like a true summer dog, he loved basking under the warm & hot sun. I think his belly even got tanned because of this. (Oh Remu, you silly.)

And goodness did he love to run when able to during our walks.

Gosh, let me tell you, whenever he would greet another dog his ears got so high up it looked like he had bunny ears! Adorable.

And his adorable little hop running when inside... It's a shame I never got it on video, but it was silly fun and cute thing he did.

Oh he would do this thing though where he would whine and paw at bed/floor as if he wouldn't be able to get off our beds! (mattresses on the floor btw.) He was fully capable of getting off and all, he just decided to turn dramatic if we were observing him.

Another dramatic thing he did was flip over a bowl when asking for food. Even start rolling up the blanket on his own bed and oh, so vocal. He was a vocal pup.

He never seemed that interested in toys, only playing with them when we prompted him and played with him with them. Eventually his favorite type of play would turn out to be chasing hand under the blanket and and also digging at our blankets while I scratch his head.

Hahh, he sometimes would playfully try to get at our feet, mostly during feeding time. Such a silly pupper.

All in all, he was a lovable silly rascal and one heck of a cuddly dog.

I'll forever miss him, and I am happy he was in our lives, even if I was hesitant to take him in at first. I am so thankful I was able to be there with him and for him on his last moments, when I wasn't able to for our previous pet so many years ago.

Now... May you run a lot, buddy. Run lots and lots… To your heart's content. Get all the treats you so love, till your belly is full.

I love you, Remu.

#Remu #pet death #long post #in memory of pet #this is not all the pictures I have of him and I plan on putting up the couple videos I do have of him #but that is later #god I'm still crying here and there #been crying a lot today and I still am #it comes in waves #but at the same time I feel odd sense of calm #maybe it's because I had time to prepare for this #and that I was able to be there for him in the end #and the thought of knowing he isn't suffering and knowing I will always miss him #it... gives me comfort #I know I'll be okay #even while it wrenches my heart and mind now #I'll be okay... I'll look back on his memories with joy #and I'll happily tell about him and how he was like #I'll miss you buddy #now run! run my little bud #run as much as your little legs let you soar across everything #may we meet again some other time some other place #I love you #soak in those warm sunshines for me okay? #my sweet darling little Remu #goodbye for now you silly little rascal you #sleep

[howicked]

[It was] partly because of Bridget's work, and then the character is a departure from what I usually play – sunny characters. But at the heart of him, he represents an extreme reaction to progressiveness and [the idea of] a different future. Like many people who attach themselves to these views, he’s just desperately sad and lonely and angry. I think that's at the heart of him, really… just sort of naive and ignorant and not genuinely hateful. He represents that kind of person who hasn't experienced any change and is desperately interested in his environment. (x)

Jim Howick as The Verderer / Jim in THE CHANGE (2023-)

#the change spoilers #the verderer #jim howick #them there #jimhowickedit #thechangeedit #dakotasvibe #userligaya #let jim have more grumpy or even antagonistic roles #they can't just give him the Beard and expect me to hate him #i do hate the verderer btw. don't get me wrong #only giffing him for the visuals #but #i can change him #he's simply just an angry cat who needs some love #they should give him a partner next season. maybe he would calm down #my girl joy deserves better than him. and a bf might make him worse. so idk #not queercoding him. he did that to himself when he got that silly cowboy fit

[ozcarma]

Trying to watch 999 let’s plays is such hell to me - NO ONE PLAYS THE GAME RIGHT just shutupshutupshutupshutup and play the game!! Stop trying to make jokes!!!!

I’m too autistic for this, I cannot bear hearing let’s players doing their own voice acting when I adore the game’s VAs too much. Everyone always fucks up Santa’s and Lotus’s voices especially.

I understand the draw of Let’s Plays are largely the people playing them who have gained their own following, but as someone who just loves the game I don’t wanna hear ur stupid banter 💥💥💥 play the game and be intrigued but not TOO intrigued because give it a fuckin minute it’ll explain what’s going on 🙄‼️

#zero escape #999 #my opinion is that the let’s plays that are alright are half-blind play thrus where one person is knowledgeable about everything #and can keep the blind one on track and properly guide their curiousity #I also lose my MIND when people get stuck on the puzzles on this ridiculously easy game #(<- says the person who has played it numerous times and knows all the solutions by heart) #like you IDIOT just do THIS #(<- also the person who still has to look up the answer to the box puzzle behind door 6) #and don’t get me started on when the LPers hate Lotus #don’t get me wrong - disliking her especially when u get to the hospital room is Good and Correct as it’s what the writing is leading you to #but some LPers get so misogynistic about it I have to immediately tap out cuz its too much #also another reason why I don’t like when they don’t use the in-game voice acting #is cuz so many people play Junpei as Basic Anime Protag when Evan Smith’s voice acting gives him SO much character #and Junpei is my favorite >:( #I have many more gripes but that’s enough for now #I just want everyone to experience how great this game is but ONLY in the way I LIKE #I know I sound so whiny and entitled but please tell me someone else relates #the urge I get to just make a whole channel dedicated to 999 play thrus where I just play the game again and again with a different friend #would they all be identical to each other because I would be directing them all the same? #yes. but what greater autistic joy is that (for me) #I never thought the Joseph Anderson streams would be my favorite playthrus cuz I hated them too at first #but his dynamic with chat and consistent amusement and enjoyment of the game is very nice and soothing

[warlordfelwinter]

thinking about evil era rain again and how dialogue from gortash and sceleritas implies that rain has always been able to resist/control the urge and would just let it build up to "outbursts of joy" as sceleritas called them. i feel like somehow that's scarier than orin. never quite knowing when rain's going to snap and go on a spree. if he and enver were together i feel like rain was never allowed to sleep over bc he could never be certain rain wouldn't wake up and kill him in a fit of bloodlust in the middle of the night. orin's somewhat predictable in her chaos. rain was more restrained, more thoughtful and purposed, seeming in perfect control but you could also just never quite be sure what he was going to do next

#i had originally been imagining rain as being a complete master of his urge #until i picked some different dialogue with sceleritas this time #and he said like 'master has always been prone to outbursts of joy' or something #so i think really what's changed with rain is how he FEELS about the urge #like back then he enjoyed it and indulged it but would still occasionally snap #maybe he was conscious during his outbursts but just enjoyed them so much he let himself be out of control for a while #he starts getting a particular look in his eyes when he's about to lose it that enver learned to recognize #if rain hadn't ditched the urge i feel like gale would learn to recognize it too #and they'd have Rain's Evil Room in the house in waterdeep where he gets locked up when he wants to kill #theres a bunch of stuffed animals in there that he can mutilate and gale gets him pigs blood or something from the butchers to play with #it's better than rain ditches the urge but that is kind of a funny image #fel's bg3 #oc: rain

[gallifvrey]

i feel like we were sort of robbed when it came to the doctor staying at donnas house. it cut - in my mind - very much to a few days/weeks/months past. but you know that it was a rough start. the doctor Cannot stand still and even if they know they should this time it mustve taken some real getting used to, similar to 11 in power of three

like, the doctors been moved in for one day and has already rewired their house. the toaster now sings as it toasts bread and also can be used as a metal detector. the fridge beeps when you take something out of it that it was saving for later. the doctors repainted the entire house a shade darker. they give him a spare room to stay in but no one in the house ever sees him sleep

#the potential for comedy is so great and the potential of angst is ALSO so great! #the best combo :) #i wanna write this fic eventually #like donna sitting the doctor down and being like #'im so proud of you for not running. im so proud youre staying around. but it also doesnt count if you distract yourself with tasks 24/7 #donna bringing him to some of the school board meetings #the doctor: “oh i used to be a caretaker ! i was great at it!” #donna: *doubt.jpeg* #the doctor and rose going on some adventures #(nothing too dangerous - they have to run one time and screaming her name while they escape breaks something in his hearts) #(it gets better over time - slowly but surely - past pain being replaced with new joy) #time heals all wounds but you have to sit still enough to let time catch up #personal #dw spoilers

[wantbytaemin]

my god i just woke up from THE most detailed gentle and heartbreaking dream about jinki im in my bed like 😮 what was THAT

#so it was way too detailed for me to get into everything but it started with him being sad and like not wanting to speak to anyone #and i was sitting on the floor doing some writing & was like hi come here so he sat down like in between my legs and rested against me #i asked if he wanted to talk but he didn’t so i let it be and kept writing but couldn’t really focus #and then minho got there and was like ‘oh good he’s here’ and i was like what happened #and minho explained that like they were planning to do a world tour and album as shinee but jinki didn’t want to participate bc of the way #it was being handled #like there was a promo poster that was super insensitive towards jonghyun too #and a bunch of other things and then it flashed back to jinki filming a teaser for the tour and it was super intricate and too much for me #to type up right now but he looked so happy & smiley #like to make a point that he had wanted to be there until all the shit went down #and then it flashed back to me holding him and i stopped writing (or pretending to anyway) and just held him #there was no minho at that point and it felt like it was hours #and now i’m up and Shaken a little. not to be off the rails you’ll understand as I’m still affected by the dream but like it was so nice to #see him smile im still feeling the feeling like. relief and joy whew whatever he’s doing rn i hope he takes all the time in the world if he #needs/wants to & im grateful to have seen him smile even as a dream

[problemswithbooks]

I'm not really a fan of Hawks losing his Quirk to AfO. If it serves any purpose it will probably be used to help Izuku fight AfO in the vestige realm which is a fight I was never looking forward to in the first place. Otherwise I don't think it really serves much purpose for Hawks as a character because we're at the end of the story and we just won't get a big focus on how it effects him going forward.

I mean, I see people saying that him losing his Quirk has set him free from the HPSC but he was essentially free from them after the first War. They have been non-existent in the story since than besides passing mentions. From what the reports said last chapter it seems that all the Heroes fighting are doing so of their own pure desire to help, not because the HPSC is paying them or anything. Keigo isn't working for them and given the world ending stakes if he wanted to do anything but beat AfO it'd be a negative trait, not him finding his freedom.

I know people want Keigo to find himself outside of being a Hero and his Quirk but that doesn't really seem to be a theme in the story. If Hori wanted to tell that story he could have done so with Mirio or All Might but he didn't. Instead Mirio was given his Quirk back with little fan fair and All Might's inspiration and Hero heart was reinforced. The story is about people being Heroes not about themselves as just people.

Which is honestly how I see things going with Hawks. His Quirk will be a force for good that helps Izuku beat AfO from the inside proving that despite his saying his Quirk was dirty, he really did/does have the heart of a Hero.

Also, I do think it takes real Hawks out of the story most likely, which is a bit disappointing, though understandable. I never really understood where people got the idea he was going to have a full mental break down anyway and besides him flipping out because he can't help anymore I still don't really see it happening. I mean, Hori is going at light speed here, why would he take the time to focus on Hawks having a mental break when he hasn't even managed to do that for his main three villains yet, who actually need that for the story to end.

I could easily be proven wrong given that Hori's writing is unpredictable, but for the moment my guess is that Hori did this so he could take Hawks out of the fight so he wouldn't get involved with the Todoroki or Ochako/Toga stuff, while also leaving open the possibility to give Izuku a strong ally in Hawks Quirk if needed.

I know people wanted him in those fights, but Hori has a hard time juggling characters in fight scenes, something we've seen a lot in this arc and the one prior. And to be honest he doesn't serve much purpose in them either. I've seen theories of wanting him try and kill Dabi and being devastated because Enji saves his son, essentially picking Touya over him, but Hawks has been nothing but positive about Enji trying to change and help his family. He didn't try and attack Touya or even mention him when he came through the portal, so don't know why he'd suddenly decide to attack him Quirk or not.

When it comes to Toga/Ochako thing he only complicates it. Yes, he killed Twice, but as we've seen Toga's main problem isn't that Twice was killed, it's that Izuku and Ochako, kids around her age don't like her. She feels like no one cares about her because she has a bad Quirk. If getting revenge for Twice was her main objective than she wouldn't have been crying. She doesn't even think about Hawks or name dropped him to my knowledge. If anything she treats all Heroes as guilty. To add Hawks into this fight draws attention away from Ochako, Toga and her main issue of identity. Plus, again I don't see Hawks being upset if Ochako saves Toga in the way he couldn't save Twice. He liked Twice and did try to save him. At most I think we'd see him watching with a happy smile and some tears, not having a full existential crisis.

#bnha spoilers #bnha 385 #bnha Hawks #keigo tamaki #i admit I'm bias in this because the idea that Hawks having to lose his wings to find himself feels a bit gross #like Quirks are shown to be a big part of a person #and he is essentially losing body parts #why can't he just get to enjoy his Quirk outside of being in the HPSC? #it's like if you let a bird out of it's cage but them ripped off it's wings #that's not really any better #and I also don't really want him to have some crisis either #the one caused by Enji makes no sense given he praises Enji for trying to fix things with his family #so idk why he'd suddenly be shocked that Enji wouldn't want his son dead #and although it'd make more sense with the Toga/Twice stuff #I still don't see why it'd end up with him having a mind break #crying tears of joy sure #admitting to Toga he shouldn't have killed Twice maybe #getting a full on mental break down where he screams and cries because he's realized he was the biggest bad #I don't really see #again part of that is bias because Hori made the stakes to high and his villains to eager to murder all of Japan #that it's hard to see Hawks as fully wrong for killing Twice #but also i don't see Hori spending the pages when he already has so much to wrap up #and a lot of those are way more pressing than Hawks having a midlife crisis

[age-of-moonknight]

“Danse Macabre,” Moon Knight (Vol. 9/2021), #25.

Writer: Jed MacKay; Pencilers and Inkers: Alessandro Cappuccio, Alessandro Vitti, and Partha Pratim; Colorist: Rachelle Rosenberg; Letterer: Cory Petit

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Moon Knight vol. 9 #Moon Knight 2021 #Moon Knight comics #latest release #Moon Knight #Mr. Knight #Marc Spector #I love that 5th panel so much #just let him be a holy terror #who has very few hobbies but one of them is scaring the living daylights out of 8-Ball #and that’s the other thing: Marc’s got jokes in this issue #and it’s great #he doesn’t /only/ brood and it’s refreshing hahaha #sure he generally angsts about his past a fair amount (and he did admittedly commit some crimes against humanity) #but yeah let the man have some joy in what he’s good at (which just so happens to be putting Black Spectres out of commission)

[eijiroukiriot]

a merry dynamy to all of you! may the new year contain many more dynamys

#i want to scream from the rooftops and let everybody know there’s a new tiny little guy and i’m obsessed with him #bnha #bakugou katsuki #kinda sorta #my art #also kinda sorta #i’ve seen people be like this is just like the meatballs without the body horror #and to be fair i am very averse to the meatballs so idk if this is just me but i feel like they’re NO MATCH AT ALL for this little guy #he bounces around going fuck fuck fuck like a Pokémon squeaky toy!!! his eyes light up at the crepe!!!! #it’s a tiny little baby w bkg theming!!!! he can’t help how he sounds!! #horikoshi hit it so out of the park i can’t stop thinking abt him he’s LITTLE!!!! #i really really really hope they do make some sort of merch #i mean i doubt it but a girl can dream #anyway happy holidays all!! #i really do hope they’ve been lovely!! and that the year to come is full of joy!!! #i’ve kiiinda just barely been getting comfy drawing krbk again #so hopefully there’s more art and boys to come from me too #but mostly i just hope you guys are having a nice season #i got to come home from japan and see my family!! i drew this in a dedicated krbk sketchbook I’ve been using since 2018!! #speaking of which…5 years of krbk soon!!!! #and those guys never get old! wow! man!

[toytulini]

idk. picky eater rights. im coming to your events and turning my picky bitch nose up at your fancy ass desserts you spent a bajillion hours working over in the kitchen and asking if i can find like a basic ass brownie with no extra flairs or ingredients or steps or whatever the fuck. cry about it. stop trying to feed me

#toy txt post #they gotta have some picky eater bitches be the judges on those food competition shows i stg #sorry for committing the unforgivable sin of my tastebuds didnt enjoy the food you made. it was intended as a personal slight actually #i am trying to offend you for real. yeah. thats definitely whats happening. god/sssss #like god irl if i dont like food you made ill try to be fuckin gracious about it buf dont fucking get mad at me for like. idk. prepping my #own foods you percieve as worth less or whatever the fuck. ppl are so fucking weird about food. #honestly guy on prev post didnt even dislike the cake it sounded like but was just experiencing the human emotion of disappointment #when the little specific joy he was looking forward too was not what he expected. if she had asked him 'do you mind if i make a similar cake #that is not the exact same as the one you asked for? maybe he wouldve been fine cos he wouldnt have been looking forward to that specific #thing. OR maybe he wouldve said if youre not going to make this very specific one im looking forward to then dont bother i dont want you #wasting the time and effort and then she wouldnt have been mad. or maybe she wouldve. ppl do get weird about that kind of thing #maybe saying that wouldve been a crime too. guess that dumb asshole shouldve shut up and eaten his stupid cake and enjoyed it and said #nothing. a recipe for happiness #anyway. hot take ig stop putting nuts in desserts. alllergy havers will prolly thank you but you know who else will thank you? #every day i see takes about food that make me think i really should be more of a picky bitch eater on maim to knock yall pretentious #food fuckers down a peg tbh. every day i resist the urge but god how yall test me. let me be the judge on a cooking show. #weird assholes who are rude abt ppl having allergies or sensory issues: come here. im going to break you #anyway more of us picky bitches who are picky just for like. casual reasons. we should he loud picky bitches on main. if a cook or baker or #whatever can accommodate my picky bitch ass thats difficult to feed for no reason we can be sure they can accommodate allergy havers #and ppl w medical restricted diets. if they can be gracious about me just not vibing w the food then they can def be gracious about more #sensitive reasons. yea i could choke down the food i dont like probably. it wouldnt make me throw up or send me to the hospital. but why #should i? if youre an asshole to me about simply not liking your shit then why the hell would i feel safe disclosing medical info to your #bitch ass? why would i trust you to follow it? and not try to sneak some shit in bc you think you know better about food? #anyway #picky eater rights. let ppl be picky for no apparent reason. cos the ppl who have uwu Good Valid Reasons(tm) dont fucking owe you that #explanation

[punkowa-i-postrzelona]

greetings him tumblr

i have a very important request that i’m going to bestow upon you

if you can please enter this link and find join me on the list and vote for it

here i present you polish tv station that sometimes allows you to pick what they are going to play

so now it’s top hits starting with letter j we have a chance of getting him video to be played!

so please if you can vote in google forms just pick join me and satisfy my need of watching it on my tv, please and thank you <3

#please please please #i know it’s funny but it’s important for me #let me have some joy among this sorrow #ville valo #ville hermanni valo #vv #him #h.i.m #his infernal majesty #love metal #heartagram #lulu talks

[fissions-chips]

Butler letting Jon chill with him in the kitchen while he’s cooking… Jon not even trying to help him cook for once, just sitting there and enjoying his presence and having someone to talk to.

Butler offers him little tastes of whatever he’s cooking, but he’s never pushy about it because he knows that Jon’s gut problems give him a lot of anxiety around such things (Jon limits himself more than he strictly needs to, but does so because one little ill-timed treat can leave him utterly miserable and sick for a while). Usually Jon doesn’t do so, blustering his way through refusing- then again, sometimes he does take it, and Butler’s heart melts a little at how much Jon likes his cooking.

#here have some fluff #jon swings wildly between ‘I give no shits what I put in my body’ or ‘I’m not going to eat anything of substance for several days’ #and both are an indicator to Butler that he’s stressed/sick. so it’s a lot of taking it in stride for Butler because he’s *not* Jon’s #- bodyguard and as such he won’t fuss over Jon in that way in the same vein as to how Jon won’t *let* him fuss over him. #but he will offer him tastes of his cooking so Jon can enjoy something other than the bland meals he usually makes for himself (assuming he #- does so at all). and if Jon ever so often (incredibly rarely) actually decides to eat whatever Butler’s cooking with him? well. #- Butler will keep the intense joy he gets from that to himself #spirovoi #headcanons

[remyfire]

In old roleplaying circles, I used to have people get really angry at me because they found a lot of catharsis in taking their characters those agonizing angst without necessarily giving them an end point of healing whereas my characters would always try to prompt that moment of healing—would be an end point they could come to whenever they were ready, would love them through the pain instead of drive it higher—and I don't think I've really changed at all in that regard, and I hope that ends up being all right.

#this is a complicated way to say that i'm having my chai and meditating on some of the more popular headcanons i saw #when i first got here and part of it was just the circle of blogs i saw initially when i created mine #because they all had a similar sense of characterization for the blorbos and were reluctant to let anything else in #and i totally get that btw because i LOVE seeing varied interpretations and i will happily play in every sandbox #but i'm thinking specifically about the fanon about beej HAVING to leave his home after everything because he tries to fit back in the box #and he can't #and the agony and misery therein like having built an entire life on a literal lie and choosing to jettison it for his own good #and how i have inadvertently built a home life for him that he will return to incredibly changed but will be welcomed into nonetheless #i think about how loose and utterly queer he becomes in korea down to his gestures his clothes his grooming choices #and how yes he DOES remove all of those when he gets home #(my gnc hawk doing much the same i should say) #but replacing the agony of having to leave what no longer serves you with the joy of someone saying 'then let's change together' #and the knowledge that it won't be easy and you need SO much therapy #but that the old and the new can come together in a very intentional and loving and wonderful way #so the mustache comes back and the colors and the loose limbs and the lighter speaking cadence and he feels so fucking good again #and he's loved so thoroughly by all three of the most important aspects of his life for CHOOSING to be authentic #(just like hawk) #and i know a lot of this is me needing to write it because i almost lost my marriage because my wife was so scared of how she changed #that she was projecting onto me all of these thoughts of how she was SURE i'd react and she tried to cut and run early #and how when i wrapped her up in all that love and desire to come along on this new journey and see what happens #that she was overcome and truly didn't believe it was real #but also i do get sad at the tendency to be like 'everyone changed and they can never go back' #when i want to be like 'yes but they can always go forward and they don't have to lose everything they loved to do it' #and i just hope people wanna come on that journey with me #my ramblings

[minnow-doodle-doo]

Personal rant in the tags :/

#today started out fine but then at the end of the day a kid choked out another one and i was had to pry his fingers off while two others ha #d to pull him off #then from there he had an after school program where im his one to one para so he gets calmed down and we get him his snack but then #a different kid is being disruptive and the kid tries to go after him and again I and his teacher have to practically carry him to the #office where for the next 45 minutes were just kicked and he tries to bite when we wont let him go and 'beat that bitch' #finally he calms down and we get him into his empty classroom while we wait for his mom and im alone with him and he gets aggressive again #but then i kinda trick him that he needs to keep his finger in a hole of a blowup thing so it wont deflate so that calms him down enough #where we share snacks and can pretend to repair it before he goes home #after he goes i go and help with the rest of the kids since i have 15 mins left and then im taking to this kid and he says some really #really worrying things casually and now ive gotta go make a CPS report #the joys of being a para #rant #personal #im just so tired and down #sometimes my job is really hard #but today i brought special art supplies and the kids loved them and they were experimenting with them and really getting into it and #it was so fun

[chaosandwolves]

Over all the 911 feels I forgot about lone star.

I'm catching up rn and I did avoid spoilers but also knew it'll be about Paul and I was praying it won't refer to him being trans in a shitty way again and I'm half way in and oh look she's pulling out a year book from before his transition.

I had to stop right now cause just the look on his face.

Can I have trans joy with him already?

Like that ep back with his sister. I can't rewatch it. I hate it so much.

Brian took the time to talk to us afterwards which I really appreciate but it just hurt a lot.

And now this and I wanna scream.

I probably shouldn't judge before I don't continue but that's just how I feel rn.

Everything trans related with him is always painful...

#911 lone star #paul strickland #Trans #Please let me have some trans joy with him