#like i dont know what to do for the best yknow

[puppyeared]

The garment, worn by those in good standing with Hyrule royalty, has been reworked with the latest improvements, such as a new shoulder guard.

#I miss my wife tails. I miss her a lot. I’ll be back #I love the champions leathers design but the story behind it is so sweet too like. she wanted to thank him so she went and #got some improvements added to it?? and she wanted to see his face when she surprises him with it hello????? #I think my favourite part is the half chest just for angst. I like imagining she was very particular about the armour placements #and had a chest piece added because yknow. right over the heart might I add #originally I wanted this to be more angsty but halfway through I was like wait this would completely miss the point #in my mind the armor isn’t just ‘I don’t want you to die again’ but also ‘I want to keep you safe as best I can’ #in her diary she was like links armor is wearing down so you know what? I’m gonna add more armor to better protect him!!! #and with her upbringing in mind (and the conversation she had with him about whether he would still choose to be a knight if things were #different) she could have totally asked him to stop doing it altogether. but she made the armor for him instead #sidenote she also got to be a teacher and scholar like she wanted and that is so. dont look at me I’m crying #I don’t know if ANY of this makes sense I’m just rambling. yes I wear the champions leathers every chance I get why do you ask #btw if you squint the leathers chainmail and sweater are taken from the hylian armor chestpiece! slightly modified on the tunic but cool #my art #myart #tears of the kingdom #totk #totk spoilers #totk zelda #totk link #botw spoilers #botw #breath of the wild #loz #loz fanart #comic #tw blood #blood

[luck-of-the-drawings]

FOR A BEAT OF HEART, THE BREATH IS SHOT. AND WITHIN A BREATH, THE HEART IS CAUGHT. THE PIPES ARE BURSTING, UNDER GREAT STRESS, BOLTS TORN ASUNDER, MAKING A MESS. A FINAL COUGH, A FINAL RETCH, A GOREY SLOUGH, CLAIMED BY WRETCH.

#cw gore #jrwi riptide #jrwi riptide spoilers #chip jrwi #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #I LLOOOVE POETRYYY I LOVE MAKING WORDS RHYME IN STRANGE WAYS AND DESCRIBING VISCERA AND VIOLENCE OR WAHTEVER. YKNOW WHAT ELSE I LOVE #CHHHIIIIIIIBBOOOOO MY BEAUTIFUL MAAANN WWHAT. WHAT HAPPENED. OH MY GOD. IVE BEEN SAYING FOREVER. I NEEED CHIP TO GET SCARIER. #HE HAS THE POTENTIAL! I KNOW HE DOES! HAUNTED BOY WITH THE HAUNTED EYES WHAT TRAUMAS HAVE YOU SEEN? AND WERE THEY YOUR FAULT? THINK ABOUT I #EVERY FAMILY HAS CRUMBLED AROUND HIM. HIS BIRTH FAMILY CRUMBLED BEFORE HE KNEW IT. HIS SECOND FAMILY DROWNED. THIRD BURNED TO THE GROUND #AND SHALL THIS NEXT FAMILY JOIN THEM? CHIIIIP YOU UNFORTUNATE BOY YOU HAVE WITNESSED SO MUCH CALAMITY #YOU ARE CALAMITY BOYYY AHAHAHAHA DONT YOU SEEE!! ZOMBIFIED AND DEAD. TRUELY MORE HAUNTED THAN EVER BEFORE. THIS WILL BE FUN #THE FIRE HURTS WHEN IT BURNS TOO LONG. BUT NOW YOUR NERVES ARE DEAD AND YOUR MIND IS FREE. BURN THIS CORPSE AS YOU WISH TO GET WHAT YOU WAN #CHIP IS NOT THE FIRE HE IS THE MATCH. I LOVE THAT IDEA SO MUCH IM SO PROUD OF IT. OHHH AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE CORRUPTION #bizly mentioned that chip wants to be a good captain. in his most corrupted state however. he would be the BEST captain.. #thAT DOESNT MEAn hes gonna just suddenly be all controlling. the BEST captain keeps his crew safe. keeps them together. keeps them alive. #and chip is doing just that! he doesnt need to stop being a good captain just bc of the corruption! he just needs to be the BEST CAPTAIN #AND THATS SUBJECTIVE BABY!! im so excited to see where chips zombie arc goes. neeeed him to get scarier and just a little more fucked up. #neEED HIM TO PERFORM ABHORANT ACTIONS THAT HAVE JAY N GILL GOING ' dude woah what the fuck...' #RIGHT I SHOULD TALK ABT MY ART TOO. this one took TOO LONGGGstarted out witha sketch how did it end up like this... #the heart and the blood KILLED ME. LOOK AT MY RENDERING LIKE HWAAATT #better not see any more mistakes after i post this.... i cant fight withit anymore....STILL RLY PROUD THO.. #I WAnted to make it visually LOOK like the grossest vomiting sound possible #i want it to make your throat feel uncomfortable. am i achieving that? i hope i am. thats tubes dude!!! like cmahn!

[flareboi]

what if purple never calls him dad

#what if the word ‘dad’ is something purple doesn’t like. #what if it carries a bad connotation for them and a bitter reminder for mango. #family doesnt always have to look like one thing yknow? i dont think those two would have a traditional dynamic in that way #maybe purple does consider him their parent. they just dont call him ‘dad’ unless its in third person #and theyre fine with that and so is he #king is his father figure yes but he’s also a mom. a big brother. a sister. their dynamic just isnt captured in purple calling him ‘dad’ #maybe his name is the best way they can say it. the best way they can appreciate him #because for purple a father is someone who hurts you. someone who leaves you #i think ‘purple calls him dad on accident’ is a cute idea #but honestly it would make more sense if they called him mom on accident instead. or if it happened when they were afraid. not comfortable #(this is presuming orchid is his mother and navy his father based on the pronouns used in the react vids iirc) #because why would purple refer to someone he sees as a parent with the title of the one that presumably did not raise them? #and on mangos end #i think u can kinda tell who in this fandom has never lost a loved one in how they characterize him #guys. grief doesnt leave. it never leaves. #you just learn to live with it!!! #mango is not okay just because he has a new kid to take care of. i would know this my bio mom passed and i have a stepmother!!! #she does not fill that void and i do not expect her to because it cannot be filled. but she brings a lot new to ease the pain and is a #wonderful part of my life #the same thing here #mango will never ever just .. go back to how he was #he will never be the same since gold died. and thats okay #purple will not change that. they will merely add something new #their dynamic can be beautiful and nontraditional and a showing of how grief can change you #it doesnt have to be ‘replacement dad and replacement son’ #its so much more #oke. tag rant over #fett rambles #ava #uhh should i tag the chars

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

today i will write a gojo fic . i will do it (spoken through tears)

#ive been out of writing juice for so long PLS BRAIN WORK W ME </3 #yknow what it is though. like genuinely. im out of tiramisu #i dont know why but i can only write for gojo when im eating tiramisu #im gonna try to get the fic out …. this weekend …… im gonna do my best . for Him.

[trainingdummyrabbit]

goodmoooorning. i dont have the post on hand (you know the one,) but i think my proudest achievement this year is simply Surviving. with any luck, ill survive next year too. hope you guys will be there to see it with me.

#piktalk #i think ive nearly and or partially died several times this year. wasnt exactly comfortable; but yknow. #i cant say id want to change anything. much like the growth; the loss is mine too. #i dont have much i can say that for; so i take what i can even if it does burn to the touch. #who knows how and if itll change from there. but it too needs a space to sleep; as do i. company is the best i can offer. #im not going to speak as if i truly know any of you; nor vice versa. but it does really mean a lot to have you here; even in passing. #a moment can be a treasured memory much like anything else; yknow. whether it means smthn from me or not: take care of yourselves out there #an odd time for reflection isuppose; but we gotta start somewhere. heres to another round; i guess.

[sameteeth]

one of the pieces of anakin's fall that everyone always misses is his use of the clones. anakin skywalker, who at 9 wanted to become a jedi. who was so haunted by guilt that he left his mother a slave. who violated the jedi code because he couldnt bear to spend another night not knowing his mother was safe. that anakin. that anakin was ok leading the clones to war. the clones who were made for this, made to work and toil and die without end, so the natborns could live peacefully.

i think if anakin wasnt reeling from the death of his mother and hadnt started slipping to the dark side already he wouldn't have agreed with the use of the clones. i think he would see himself in them - forever scorned, subhuman for the circumstances of their birth, desperately trying to rise above the fact that everyone they've ever met only has an interest in leashing them. so anakin being a general and agreeing to lead the clones is much more sinister than it seems at first blush.

the jedi order agreeing to lead the clones is its own egregious violation of the jedi code. theyre peacekeepers, not generals. they fight individually or in pairs, not in coordinated attacks (see geonosis). everything about them is not meant for violence, but for protection. but for the jedi to lead the clones to be anakin - it's even worse. the jedi know slavery is bad, but they do not expend resources trying to end it - for political reasons ofc, they themselves are at the whims of the republic - but anakin has Lived it. he is more like the clones than any other jedi, which makes his leading them all the more painful and heartwrenching and sick

#like. it makes me sick im going bonkers !!!!!!! anakin looks at rex and his inability to leave and sees himself !!!!! #granted. anakin has cptsd and is groomed by palpatine and im not saying he doesnt have his own complexes about what he does #nor am i saying anakin didnt do what he could to get on with his troopers and try his best to keep them alive. but i Am saying that anakins #fall started when palpatine first met him and planted those seeds of doubt and fear. and that his unquestioning leadership of the clones is #just another thing he lost to his desperation to keep those he loves safe. #he just makes me bark yknow. many thoughts. #i want to do like a fixit where rex and anakin actually like. talk abt the clones and their status and how they were made #and maybe ahsoka and obiwan hunt down exactly the circumstances in which the clones were made. and they maybe realize just how much of #anakin is grief and pain and things they could never understand. but that rex knows intimately. #and then palpatine explodes or trips and falls and dies or fox gets sick of palpatine giving him endless paperwork and beheads him. idk. #canis speaks #starwar #starwar.anakinskywalker #anakin skywalker #<- risking it w a canon tag. dont kill me guys👍

[m0e-ru]

the absolute state of my tomodachy life

#kommento #tomomoelifing #// yknow considering the nature of this game and how ive done nothing with the save editor besides remove time penalty this is all umm #// very coincidental. also funny how i refuse to timeskip on acnh but i do it with THIS of all games. and i trans genders #// i didnt expect mimi and adachi to actually become best friends with the handful of good buddies he ended up having #// everyone wants mimi so bad the moment they divorced from margaret and transed their gender adachi came running after? i know what you ar #// okay granted i dont have a lot of adults on the island but i didnt think he'd jump on the chance that fast. MAY NAGSESELOS BA DITO?? #// i think it's also funnier after the divorce beause both of them started hanging out with adachi separately. so is he like. yknow. #// this game is ridiculous what do you mean ive spent 11 hours on it since yesterday #// this game proving my statement that mimi ps2 DOES have mii hair .

[alstroemerian-dragon]

the thing about me is that if i really like a fictional character and canon doesnt contradict it, im like

#personal #if a character is Canonically a good father or at the very least a loving one even if hes not great at it. i go fucking insane #chewing on the bars of my enclosure #characters like phoenix wright (aa4 era) and jotaro kujo jjba make me lose my fucking mind #so making hiko and hajime like. good dads who try their best and maybe dont always know what theyre doing but ADORE their fucking kids #(aka in the yakuza au i have w my husband) #drives me up the wall. squeezing them like squeaky toys in my shaking fists #im not even into fruits basket but my husband likes it and weve been rewatching the reboot #and kazuma. yknow what i mean #anyway

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

pausing your regularly scheduled drama to announce that camp tensions are finally relaxing ~

#hey look theyre getting better! #noya is more determined to try n pull herself together especially after seeing how hard ali is trying to do that #plus the fact that theyre actually on their way to denerim now has her in higher spirits too #(shes absolutely gonna not like what she finds there but she doesnt know that yet <3) #and for renan seeing the determination and camaraderie in the different places theyve been in #has both made them really realise that the threat is Real and kindled an Actual drive to try their best to stop the blight #there is def still drama and tension lol but everyones startin to get on better (or at least be civil with one another) so thats something! #oc: noya tabris #oc: var'renan mahariel #my ocs #morrigan #leliana #dao #my art #so far noya gets on better w alistair and leliana bc they respond better to yknow. being talked to in general lmao #but also to questions n stuff. cos noya is the type to push questions instead of dropping them #which makes her unpopular w morrigan tho #opposite for renan lol; ali still finds it hard to connect w her and renan and leli have a mutual distrust #morri is so much fun tho lmao i love how their convos basically go #'*quesion*' - 'why should i tell you??' - 'ok nvm then' - 'excuse me i never said i /dont/ wanna tell >:(' #aaanyway enough rambling lolol #brain buzzing w blorbo thoughts what else is new xD

[spider-man-2o99]

Just wanted to say that I have been thinking of you and pre-emptively empathizing with the nonsense you are no doubt being flooded with and the psychic damage it must be causing. Keep stanning the king ignore the weirdos <3

thankg u.,, i feel like ive been trapped in a fuckign . Torture Labyrinth these past coupl days . but. wwe will. We Will Yet Persist onwards w/ our hand on the left wall till we;re either out or at the center i swear 2 fucking GOD,

#talking tag #asks #th pain is forever the Horrors r unending the lack of media comprehension on all sides is Disappointin But Also My Goddamn Life I Guess lol #though i will say ppl in my inbox have actually been.. surprisingly polite overall? if not outright rather kind as a whole. um. post-atsv. #but. god. i have not Talked About so much of that movie because i kind of just. #..ok actually i realize this is gonna sound rude as hell lmao. but. hhaha i Kinda Just. was fool enough to Assume that everbody would yknow #like. Comprehend The Film yk yk yk. since it is a well-written movie that doesnt try to Hide any of what it;s abt? yk? #i come On Here onto tumblr dot bumblr and i make my stupid esoteric gddamn complaints abt 2099 Themes for Me Only so my head doesnt blow up #n silly ol me i really do like earnestly honestly in my Heart think. like. we all saw the same movie. right? mayb thingsll calm down. #but oh oh oh oh oh no no no No No. they do Not calm down they get So Much Worse. #and now hypothetical Internet Strangers might be Passing Judgement bcuz we look like an Apologist 4 assuming Everyone Knew Media Literacy #CHRIST. do people think i think mig was. like. In The Right. in atsv. no ive known he would be Wrong for years dudes. #why do yall think i was so low-key Disappointed he was placed in a role that couldve better suited. like. Superior Spider-Man. #public image. DING-DONGs. man he is Never Going To Be In Movies Again After This Hes An AU SPIDER-MAN FROM THE 90S. LORD! #i had SO MUCH FUN watching atsv!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i dont like the choices it made to put miguel in the situation that it did. Bizarre Thematic Changes to 2099 that Only I Care Abt. but like #that is SUCH a fuckin SMALL and insanely autistic nitpick like i earnestly loved the hell out of the film and its mig is-- #--Earnestly One Of His Better/Best Adaptations despite bein within the limited confines of th plot nd setting he is In & w/o his inner mono #..i just. Hate So Much That This Movies Version Of Miguel Will Be The Only One That Anybody Knows For The Next Seven Years At Least. yknow. #i lov watching that fuckers trainwreck of a slowmotion mental breakdown for two hours but the movie gave practically Zero Context 2 newbies #BTSV please save me BTSV please save me BTSV PLEASE save me PLEASE please please please PLEASE BTSV youre my last hope.... #(arthur clenching his fist meme) ppl r Already so shitty 2 ppl w/ Messy Symtptoms i could Handle losing MK but SM2099 means too much 2 me..

[mxbitters]

my cramps are very bad and i am hungry and kind of want 2 cry but at least i can make them be in love <3

#ive been having the ABSOLUTE best of luck at thrift stores this week :) #i almost got another barbie yesterday #she had a sleeping beauty dress better than the one i have and also a crown idk if it was the og doll though #i think sleeping beauty barbie has a closing eyes gimmick or something #i definitely am very fond of the 80s-early 90s girls i never had them as a kid but like #i like juuuust how much they lean into the blue with the eyes. pupils lashes all of it #and the hair!!!!!! the material isnt great but like ive been boil washing and conditioning and brushing thoroughly #i dont know if we have a hair straightener but if we do i really wanna see if i can learn to crimp #bc like i have totally hair barbie now!!! among others with nice long hair!! #im iffy on hollywood hair here though like.. yeah itd take fuckin chemistry to recreate the spray thing that turns the hair pink but like #i seriously dont wanna fuck up that gimmick it’s such a cute idea #idk what the one in the pink dress is from though which is annoying bc like #idk i like knowing what i have yknow?

[mbat]

yknow, its easy to look at the owl houses shortening and be like 'oh they had to have done that cause its gay' and thats a really easy answer to give that can feel right because things arent as shiny and perfect as people pretend, not to mention disneys own actions and views about queer people

but sitting here rewatching the show now, i think its more the theme of the show, the way that it references and alludes to religion, specifically cults and even christianity, and the way that it criticizes these things and stuff like that. its no surprise to me that that would be the actual reason, and no one in charge exactly wants to say 'we cancelled this because it criticized religion' because like, duh

obviously i dont agree with it for several reasons, its no secret that i criticize religion a lot, even when i maybe should rather keep my mouth shut. not to mention the way that the show moreso is criticizing cults, and that it is NEVER a bad thing that kids know more than ever to question what theyre told, especially by people who claim power, or to be the ONLY ones who can do something special like how belos does with 'hearing the titan'

and really... i think thats why it happened, or that thats at least one of the reasons. ive never been satisfied with the vague answer of 'it just didnt fit our brand' because like... thats fucking stupid. that doesnt mean anything! i would not be surprised if the people who made the choice to shorten it were people who felt somehow attacked by the very messages and themes of the show, even though that would be so ironic imo.

i will forever wish this show got to have the full length it more than deserved. i still wish we could somehow get the extra content that there was meant to be in another form, like comics! but its not as simple as that, sadly.

#this is all just my theory/opinion of course #im not making any concrete claims or whatever who cares yknow #idk shit about what goes on behind the scenes with these things! #i do know that people dont really like when i talk about religion. so i try not to anymore #its a really personal and sensitive thing for people i guess? i never really understood that cause ive been atheist forever #but its a conversation that i think is more than overdue. its an... institution? that has its hand in everything. and thats- #thats not exactly always the best thing. but whatever. ugh this is not the time or place whatever #my post #owl house

[dullahandyke]

i look at some of u guys talking abt a new show u watched or a new thing u read and im like. holy shit thats a thing u can do. im in awe of u. i spend my time slowly ping-ponging between several interests whose base componants i can never experience because i get scard

#right now its danganronpa again grin. did u know ive been into it on and off for lets say 7 years at this point #and ive never once played it myself. i have it installed on this laptop ready to go and i just! never open it! #because if Im the one playing it then i have to pay attention and i get scared #but if im watching a lets player i just naturally pay attention without the pressure #ive talked before how i always feel i need to have the smart cool takes on shit #n this deep plays into that #idk boti was good for me bcos nobody fucking knew what it was so nobody could judge me for pardoning anotsu's crimes bcos he was hot #so i probs need to do that again #yknow a thing where i disconnect from anything that anyone knows about and get really really into some dipshit manga from 2008 #but also like. i get a lot of my media recs from people talking abt what they like #which then means i defacto have someone who is gonna know if my takes are shit #and like even now. im watching mop cycle w dri and im having fun w it #but i feel bad bcos i see so many ppl like This Is The Best Anime Ever and i just like. dont get it #like i can actively feel the messages and shit whooshing over my head #its a fine anime! i'm having fun watching it! but i don't get all the commentary abt pacifism or whatever #idk. something something my need to be The Smart Kid The Bookworm Kid that went unchecked too long without peers to challenge me #so now im here like Uh Oh #and like this wouldnt be the end of the world (save for its impact on my mood n stuff) #but also like. i am an english student. i should know this shit. but i stragiht up do not feel smart enough to sometimes #i keep coasting by on the assumption that im a smart kid and i'll automatically be better than my peers #and im being disproven #i got an english exam back tonight and i got like 63% #and i like college! i just dont like. college. #anywho its approaching 3am and i have a 9am tomorrow morning which means bedtime

[claitea]

oh god pokemon day is today i'm so scared... also the livestream is at 1am my time and i have work tomorrow but i'm stupid and i'm absolutely staying up anyway 👍

#clai speaks #POKEMON RANGER! POKEMON RANGER! POKEMON RANGER! POKEMON RA #OOOO i just got an email that the local games store is giving out some fun stuff if you buy pokemon things today #before work today i think i'll pop in buy some cards and get that free ceruledge card ehehehe #anyway the presents. i dont know what i want really. yeah i just said pokemon ranger but do i want them to announce a new game today.... #i mean its pokemon day they probably will but. terrifying #NOTHING UNOVA RELATED YOU PUT THAT SHIT BACK IN THE OVEN RIGHT NOW #honestly i hope the lets go wooper/togepi rumors Arent true like i never believed them for a second but everyone else seems to #i know you all were complaining abt kanto getting redone so many times but when its Johto its fine?? ://// #mystery dungeon would be lovely too i miss it so much :( #yknow what a spinoff might be fine bc those are handled by other companies right #detective pikachu returns was. mediocre. but it was fine #yeah i hope its a spinoff if they announce any new games today. preferably mysetry dungeon. thats my best case scenario

[aceyanaheim]

it’s baked into my understanding of kakashi hatake that he has absolutely no clue how children work and thats just part of team 7s dysfunction listen.

#this man was all of 14 when his only support system died and hten went to work for Black Ops With Masks #like do you think that man knows Anything about how to human he was on the field while he still had milk teeth #when Minato got him he was legit 'this child the size of half my arm' #i cannot speify enough how much that warps what 'being a functioning peson' is #team sevens lucky he had dogs he went 'okay feed positive reinforcement make sure they dont trip over their own ambition to walk' and just #Went From There #like he'll show up with vegetables for naruto but also 'i was on my own by 8 bc my dad yknow Died so hes probably??? #fine??' #this man looks at Sasuke and thinks back when he was 12 and his best friend had just died and he saw his eye in the mirror nad lowkey the #dogs were taking care of Him and goes 'hn he's probably good right? I'll just teach him something i always cried less when i learned #something ' #'how am i supposed to know how kids work i dont even know how 'I' work doesnt even begin to fucking cover it Why Is This So Funny #everyone: poor kakashi he got the biggest gremlim kids with more issues than vogue #babes kakashi was the og he and the kids are just one big ball of what pray tell the fuck lilke hes Part of it he needs an adult #preferably one that didnt need a booster seat for his own chunnin exam #okay im done #just..its unhinged theyre All unhinged i love it #wtf i cant stop laughing #honestly Everything makes so much more sense

[softshuji]

y'know it's a night when hal sits and eats cereal in the dark room at 1.30am.

#i was thinking abt it earlier #but i've been crying so much lately like so much. almost every second day if not every day and i dont know why #actually i do kinda know why. #i think im hitting my limit with a lot of things and one of them is my parent dumping their problems on me #earlier today my mom told me again abt the whole debacle with my dad cheating on her multiple times and everyone knows i find this subject #too much for me i dont tlike to think about it or anything and im so tired of hearing it and especially when i lived through it trust me i #was literally there the whole cheating subject is very raw to me for many reasons and im just tired of being the emotional dump so often #especially because she always comes to me for everything all the time and im so sos tire d #everyone always tells me i should consider my own needs as a person and its okay to have them and yk in theory i agree with this but i just #cant. i grew up not having any needs met so how can i let myself have them now it makes me feel absolutely awful with myself to even #consider having to ask for something off someone and yet i know how wrong this is iknow needa and desires and wants are natural #but mine have always been on the back burner for everyone else. so its' no surprise ive let myself think im something to be used for other #peoples sake. whether that be physically or emotionally and especially the latter. because thats how i see myself someitmes. something #something to make people feel betetr about themselves that has no use outside of how i make them feel - just something to use until they #move onto the next best thing. something more entertaining and better value whatever that might mean something with less feelings less #sensitive. it feels like sometimes thats what i am. the indestructible never breaking hal that somehow has a solution to everything and can #always be there to fix every issue and is there to make people feel better but needs nothing in response #and god it really does feel like my problems dont mean anything to anyone #it does feel like no one thinks theyre worth anything #not worth listening to not worth thr same attention etcetc and yknow what i hate hate hate asking for attention and yet i get upset when i #feel like im not actually being heard or listened to #and i find it happens so often. sometimes i wanna hear it just once for once i wanna hear 'hey its okay to be upset i wish i could hug you' #or something like that god i dont want to be strong and nursing my wounds in private anymore #god i want a hug so bad and someone to just let me cry on them just once i want to be held and told someones got me instead of me doing it #for everyone else all the time #is thisselfish? it feels selfish to say #this is why it affects me so deeply whenever anyone does validate me or tells me its ok to want things or that im loved or anything nice #god i cant handle niceness at all it feels like it knocks me so bad it takes me ages to recover #and yet somehow all i can tell myself is that theyre only saying nice things because theyre being obligated to and not becayuse they feel #like they actually like me