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issacballsac · 9 months

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“Attempting to be Friends with Vergil Sparda„

Honestly he’d never outright call you his friend💀 ! Gn Demon Reader

Origins | DMC3

Let’s be FR he wouldn’t care abt your gender or lack there of he still sees you as lesser than

You’d have to be a Devil or half Devil to even linger around him

Im seeing you just come from Hell to be friends with him🦀

Naturally like any of the devils in DMC3 u were originally gonna attack Vergil bc NPC does what NPC is supposed to do

But you have common sense a pretty mf with a sword is bad news so let’s be friends dear beautiful one

Bear with me right—all ur demon gang gets slaughtered by this mf and you’re just standing there watching fascinated absolutely entranced by this mf

Seeing as you’re the last obstacle he points that big ass katana at you

“Sorry I just can’t fight someone so beautiful man.”

Gives you the MEANEST side eye

Still tries to HARM you and succeeds—but like you regenerate 💀

Mf would let out the BIGGEST sigh and just walk away🪦

You follow ofc bc who wouldn’t (a mf who wants to live 💀)

Bonding

Me when might controls everything 🫦

Despite being a demon yourself you def would try to convince him to NOT open the portal

Bc lets be FR them other devils ain’t shit for nothin‼️

He constantly looks annoyed and has a mean case of resting bitch face

He’s very stand-offish and depending on how long/well you know each other he’ll listen to what you’re sayin

Especially if ur a person that likes to go on rants

DMC3 he’d be more open to a mf who has no attachments as seen during the scene where he stabbed Arkham

New to friendship and sees everything as a transaction

You give me this and I give you that typa thing

Would take FOREVER to tell you abt his childhood and by the time he does u pretty much already know bc of Dante

Would get along better if ur also half demon rather than full demon as he has a complex where he continuously tries to rid himself of his humanity

Bros on a MISSION so u gotta be able to keep up

Obviously being demon/half demon you got some power but if you’re weak he’s gonna drop you I’m sorry 💀(no I’m not)

Daily

Doesn’t celebrate his birthday

Just in general regardless of his childhood I just don’t think he’d like to

So no surprise parties please🫶

Now don’t get me wrong he IS smart but like also a dumbass💀

Constantly makes you think bc he’ll say smth so stupid but make it sound so smart

A very dramatic mf

Always makes dramatic entrances no matter where he goes

Walks into McDonalds with his blue coat flowing, snowlike hair, glistening eyes, arched eyebrows, and a judgmental look

Baby let ur hair down🫦

Bro is effortlessly breathtaking and if u ask for tips or question what he does for his routine he looks you up and down, scoffs, and leaves💀

I NEED MORE POWER

Spars with you bc luckily you can regenerate

Infinite punching bag

Love a reader with no shame(me acting like I didn’t write this)

Idk why but I feel like he can play the piano as just like a pastime thing

When trapped in Hell u just roam around y’know bc you’ve lived there for as long as you can remember 😭

Vergil is in a constant search for more power and ur just chillin watching him

Like those mfs who still calmly sip on their drinks when there is a bar fight

“Woohoo! Go Vergil you’re doin’ great!”

“Shut up!”

He loves you, I promise.

Talks shit abt Dante, lovingly ofc

After the events of DMC5 if he were to come back with Dante(ambiguous ending)

Y’all would prob live together

And they were roommates 😨

FR tho it’s like weird especially with Nero being recognized as his son

“Nero is my son?”

“You have a son?”

“I didn’t know..”

“How did you not know?”

Becomes more vocal during the friendship during/after the events of DMC5

He doesn’t see the need for an abundance of clothes so if ur into fashion your ideas fill 98% of his wardrobe

Honestly I think he can cook

More of a baker methinks

He probably wouldn’t like sweets but he’ll certainly make them himself

No I’m not going to make a berries delight joke.

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sunjoys · 5 months

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finally started the promised brideshead revisited reread <3 some prelim thoughts :(under the cut bc i got a bit chattier than i was expecting):

i read brideshead for the first time in feb 2022, and i did "annotate" it (scribbled thoughts and notes in pencil along the margins), so i may post the notes i took from that first read during this revisit <3

i love the preface !! (written by waugh abt a decade after it was published) this bit in particular:

its def smth to keep in mind while reading, esp since brideshead is now considered one of The british-country-house novels (part of why saltburn is so compared to brideshead! the director said that brideshead was one of the books in that "genre" that served as reference for saltburn); the note abt the house being a sort of museum nowadays also reminds me of orlando (by woolf, 1928) vs orlando (film adaptation dir. potter, 1992) - a key setting of the story, the great house (an ancestral british home in the countryside, orlandos home) ends differently: in the 20s novel, orlando lives there with her husband. in the 90s movie, the house has been turned into a 'museum', orlando can only visit it from afar. def interesting, the way the british country house changes pre and post ww2!

also "a panegyric preached over an empty coffin" is interesting to keep in mind - waugh approached writing abt nobility w the mindset that it was basically gone - half mourning, half idolising. kinda reminds me of nick carraways approach to gatsby in the great gatsby ;; anyway i think this is interesting bc off the top of my head, most recent media abt the wealthy/nobilty is either satirical/critical or fluffy/idolising with no real teeth to it (rwrb, bridgerton?), or somewhere in between (whatever the fuck was going on in saltburn) ! so yeah this'll be refreshing ig for me ?? idk where im going with this.

also "these ancestral seats which were our chief national artistic achievement" makes me laugh a little when i remember charles, the narrator, becomes a painter, particularly of noble houses. like hmmm there's definitely something of the author in this narrator 🤔

i feel like i should have a third point and i can't think of any. um. oh yeah the prologue! I like how it starts with charles looking back at the military camp as he leaves it, its not a particularly striking first line but it def establishes that, well, charles has a thing abt looking back at places he can't really return to - a thing about revisiting places, you could say [studio audience boos as the drums chime sadly[

it's pretty bleak at the start tho; during my first read i probably wouldn't have gotten past this if i didn't have my pencil w me (the promise of being able to scribble jokes in the margin if it remained boring) (it did not remain boring, btw). ig that'll make the introduction of brideshead more striking?

i am very excited about this reread <3

#2023 jean revisits #<- my tag for this liveblog btw !! mute if u want to avoid spoilers / not b annoyed by me #brideshead revisited #probably won't tag everything w br unless it's like .... interesting #anyway sorry for bringing up saltburn a few times it got me thinking abt why a so unbrideshead story kept getting compared to brideshead #fundamentally brideshead and saltburn are just v different stories with the same initial setup!!!

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heartsoji · 10 months

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Congratulations on 700 <3 !! You deserve the world (づ๑•ᴗ•๑)づ♡

For your event (bllk match up please):

Name: Kou

Hair colour black, eye colour dark brown

Gender: Male

Sexuality: Pan (I think)

Interests: I really love volleyball (never got to learn properly or compete due to numbers and having no where near me to learn), origami, reading, writing, badminton, psychology and business studies (anything commerce related really).

Important part of myself: I'd say that it's how I'm able to learn a lot by myself? I self taught myself badminton and was able to beat people who had been playing for years. Volleyball I taught myself as well and I've done well during the practice games (if we ignore spiking and serving lol). The same applies to academics since I teach myself most of the content and get good grades. Other than that I'm not too sure

this rq was here before i put the 'general characteristics' down so i had to send a pm asking 😭 "I'm quiet and pretty calm, I'd also say I'm observant (like I notice and remember a lot of random details about others). I can sound a bit rude at times because I'm blunt, but I really care about the people around me. I can end up saying really offensive stuff too out of pure anger (it's always in retaliation but it goes too far a lot-)"

I MATCH YOU UP WITH...

KUNIGAMI RENSUKE! "because i'm going to be a football hero"

i figured that you wouldnt want someone super over-the-top bubbly like bachira, but i thought that a happy, honest-hearted guy would work well

now listen

kunigami is suuuuper patient and despite his "play fair. play by the rules" attitude, he knows when you're joking and when you're not. hes also super lighthearted (when it comes to non-football things)

meaning that he'll laugh (off or at depending) your harsh jokes, but he will also keep you in line when you cross a boundary

"hey. not nice." typa thing if you go too far (i thought someone bitchy like rin who would retaliate for fun but get offended and spit back smth bitchy when it went too far would end up being toxic)

HE THINKS ITS SO COOL HOW TALENTED AND SELF-RELIANT YOU ARE

YOU TAUGHT YOURSELF BADMINTON?? THATS SO COOL WHAT

he'd try to play with you and i could see him having the power, but not exactly the control

look he's a lower body (well actually look at the gif but anyways) kinda guy. the control is in his feet, not in his (RIPPED ASF) arms

i actually see him, however, being really good at like sand volleyball

he'd go to the beach and play around with his friends with his shirt off as everyone just OGLES him

(lol he has an s/o - you)

because you never really had a way to learn, he'd try to teach you good hitting form and stuff bc idk he gives off "i had a very good father figure" typa vibes?? BITCH IDK

kunigami isn't super intellectual, but he's a good listener and a quick learner. he'd rly like it if u taught him the material that he couldn't grasp within the 40 minutes of class!

if u remembered smth cool abt him, he'd cry. fin. LMFAOOO

"yea, i remembered u like these candies" *big silence before big tears and big hug and big spinning-u-around-in-a-bear-hug-until-ur-ribs-crack-and-ur-so-dizzy-u-cant-see*

anyways, he just thinks ur so cool and is HEAD. OVER. HEELS.

event is closed!

#IM SO SORRY 😭#THIS IS ACTUALLY AWFUL ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY #UM.#I FEEL SM SHAME PUTTING THIS OUT INTO THE WORLD #ITS NOT EVEN“oh idr like this much and im not proud of it”#ITS “SHIT IS THIS MY FIRST DAY ON TUMBLR”#I AM SO SO SORRY #but tbh this event started like last month and i went away w/o saying anything for a while so i felt like i needed to put smth out #quality > quantity yes but like i had to do smth THE GUILT WAS EATING ME UP #heartsoji.700 #kunigami x reader #blue lock x reader #kunigami fluff #kunigami imagines #but yea #i am so unbelievably sorry rn #maybe ill redo this sometime #js for the redemption arc

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legobatjoker · 9 months

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btw omg okay dont wanna say remembered bc its not smth i forgor abt ofc but last night i did suddenly have a moment of omg world aint ready. bc omg world aint ready !! actually one thing tht made me remember is that i never listened to shake the sheets fr bc i wanted it to be the thing of u imagine ur fave song in tht scene like u said so didnt listen to it when i first read the fic and then i forgor to right after so i listened to it just now and it is a p good song id say !! altho one thing abt me is that i was nott imagining any song i liked as the song mentioned throught the fic 😭 part of it is tht the authors notes did set it was set aroubd 2005/2006and ik they also said u can imagine it being set later if you wnat but i allso literally cldnt do that even when i was trying to so yk my songs releaased before 2006 knowledge is not that great also its kinda funny that the fics like imagine ur fave song here !! but then it is nott vauge enough with its descriptions that u can do that FGHGDHD also . not that there would rly be one that wld fit the descriptions of the song in the fic . esp one (esp since ithink there are actually none released before two months before prom in 2006) that was released early enough . but if you give me an empty space and say put ur fave little belvoedest song here . im going to pick a taylor song. and the tihng abt that is that i literallyyy cant do that i cannot do that. and not bc its embarrassing even or w/e (its actually sm worse than just being normal embarrassed) its like. okay this insane but one thing abt me which is so bad and need to work on but one thing abt me is until proven otherwise i feel like literally every person ever wants to/will wnat to push into active traffic for liking taylor swift. and i literally wasnt even thinking it wld be that bad with a fucking fanfiction becuase its a fucking fanfiction before i got ot that point like i thought i was gonna be able to relate a taylor song to it and yet it appears this complex does also appy to literal characters in a fanfic so i was reading the fic and trying to put any song that i like (ignoring or trying to the like songs being released when it was set issue even) and that would fit for the song in the fic but i was trying to like thing of songs i liked including taylor songs but whenever i thought of some any taylor song first of they wldnt fit lol but also id feel so like. omg the characters l would want to push me into traffic if they knew i was associating a taylor swift song here. the author also probably. everyone else reading this fic also aswell (other than u !!) even tho i ltierally wld not judge anyone else at all for associating a taylor song there infact id think that was soso slay i was so in my head abt the very like. fabric of the fanfic judging me abt it i cldnt do it and gave up associating a song there while also not even knowing the author was thinking of 👍🏽 but also !! idk if iv asked u but i am curious abt what song you like had in mind reading the fic love? :0 bc i do think it is rly cool in theory to have a fic where u imagine a song u rly like as the song the character love but unfortunatly i am too insane for that both in not having a song that fits the specifc standards in mind and also just having smth wrong with me. but i rly do wanna hear the song u associated with it !!!

the war song of all time is<3 well it is miss americana<3

#IT DOESNT WORK BCUZ ITS OBV FROM FAR AFTER 2006. AND IT DOESNT FIT THE FIC DESCRIPTIONS OF THE SONG. AND YET ITS THE MOST IMPORTANT TRUE #WAR SONG EVER #also moving in place by sdc bcuz she saysthe phrase the world just aint ready for us yet in that #also r and enjy wld both b such swiftie haters but no one else in the abc would #and eponine wld hate r so much for being a tswift hater she wld be like dude ur a misogynist fr………#mewtuals #castle.answers

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minnieposting · 1 year

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talking about ocd, hyperfixations, and loving vocaloid

minnie journal entry style post again, except this ones SUPER long lol.

a few nights ago i had a Moment of Weakness . it mightve been a withdrawal thing but i was not at my best lol, i just became really upset out of nowhere?? i was listening to some teto synthv stuff and kinda just Reminiscing on my vocaloid days ... i find myself doing that pretty frequently lately but since im not rlly hyperfixating on anything rn, vocaloid pretty much becomes my default. but im getting ahead of myself.

i get weird about my hyperfixations. when one starts slipping away it used to be so genuinely painful like i felt it so physically i would get so depressed whenever i felt hyperfixations start to slowly fade. i was always like that, but it was different with vocaloid.

i will never be able to really describe HOW much vocaloid means to me but its litreally part of my soul. its ME. like i was sitting here trying to do exactly what i said i couldnt and guess what, i couldnt really describe it. i was really REALLY hyperfixated on it for 8 whole years straight, elementary school up to when i was around 15? thats when my ungodly uncharted 4 hyperfixation came eating my ass .... and i remember the only reason it stopped was bc i felt too guilty abt leaving vocaloid behind I KNOW U CANT CONTROL HYPERFIXATIONS BUT MINE LITREALLY JUST STOPPED. after a specififc day of intense guilt lmfao

but yeah. guilt. whenever i leave behind a hyperfixation, i just feel SO guilty, and i dont really know why. i always feel this need to “prove” to myself that i still love a character, they still make me as happy as they used to, and i feel weird and bad if im not getting into smth as obsessively or if im not “consuming it the correct way”. i feel like im not rlly explaining this thing well but ocd is just a nighhttttmare , it bleeds into everything and lately its been bleeding into my interests and my creativity x1000. and im just really sad about that because i feel like i wont ever be that same person again, bc im just too hyperaware BC of my ocd and i just find myself ruminating a lot. though this usually starts to become Active in my head when my hyperfixation is actually starting to go away ... lol. when im balls deep into smth i will be way too obsessed to be in my head like that!

but. all this just being context lol... i was listening to teto synthv stuff and just. i dont even remember what caused me to start getting so upset but i just started reminiscing and getting in my own head about all this. how i dont like vocaloid as much anymore and wondering if ill ever be as happy as i was back then. i hate being an adult bc being an adult means being more Aware and being aware means ocd bothering me and just. idk. I was thinking about everything. Typical rumination spiral. just started getting really sad and upset bc i was just stuck in my thoughts and thinking about how younger me would be disappointed in my current self

it didnt last very long at least, and i ended up listening to re:ng and pinnochiop. but the songs that i clicked actually ,,,,,, helped me so much. one of the songs i clicked was rainy snowdrop by re:ng, and i found myself resonating so deeply with the lyrics. like im actually a bit emotional rn typing bc i went to go look at the lyrics again and im listening to the song rn. it really picked me up and made me feel ok again. then because youre here by pinnochiop played. and just. FUCK BOTH OF THESE SONGS ARE JUST EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED TO HEAR IN THAT MOMENT. it reminded me that itll be okay. simple as that.

and. im only writing abt what happened a few nights ago because while i was playing future tone earlier, it just hit me. ive always been saying that vocaloid makes me feel like myself. but then i started thinking about what exactly that means. and im actually thinking about it now while i write. its like home to me. vocaloid is where ill always go to, where ill always be. i grew up with it. its never not been with me. and no matter where i end up, itll follow me and itll be okay. ocd likes to make me ruminate about the past present and future but one thing that i know for sure is that vocaloid will always be there for me. i see it in a way where its me and my kid self. and i value my inner child so much. which is a bit ironic to me, bc of the way i treat myself...

idk. vocaloid is just really grounding in general. whenever i spiral or need to be pulled back down to earth, its there, and itll always help. its just nice to have this forever thing that i love so much

#minnie post #actuallyocd #just dumping my thoughts #minnie diary moment

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saitolover · 2 years

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✨ cat plays … hatoful boyfriend! ✨

okay so i went and followed my random urge to play hatoful boyfriend just bc i wanted to.. so here i am writing down my thoughts on it all bc it’s a bit late & i doubt i’ll be able to finish it after finding out how long the bbl route takes 🫢

anyways yes! i binged played for at least 4 and a half hours now and finished everyone’s route & all, am currently in the bbl route and finished the 4th class - after finding out there were 8 classes total (thanks google) i decided to sleep lmao. so onto my short thoughts on each route ig (pls bear in mind that ive been playing the game for hours straight & have been binge-speed reading it like crazy)

📌 kawara ryouta

the very first route i did (followed a guide & pretty much did them numerically). we love this “childhood” friend who also was rlly sweet lmao, getting the ending where he talked abt his mom was actually very sad :,( lowkey funny how mc and him casually talk abt dating as human/bird but also sad bc ryouta was worried about being the one who died first and leaving her alone oml. overall a sweet bird (but now im sus of him in bbl route)

📌 sakuya le bel shirogane

so he was the normal “noble” and “high and mighty, i am too high class for you all” type of BIRD lmao, but it was refreshing to see him turn out to want to seek out his own future in music after his family/father rejected him from originally doing it all. also got lowkey mad at this route bc i had to do both the normal and true endings to continue on to get the bbl route lmao

📌 fujishiro nageki

first route where i got genuinely shocked about learning that nageki was actually a ghost like ??? hello ??? it all made sense too & now it’s great to hear how he’s becoming a main part of the plot in bbl route especially with him actually dying from a fire in the basement of an old hall instead of his original story like??? either i was reading too fast or there’s something else that nageki is forgetting… 🤨 ALSO he literally never got to tell mc the secret at the end of his route. WHAT IS THE SECRET (shaking him)

📌 sakazaki yuuya

originally thought his route would branch off sakuya’s or smth but it never did. also a route that began to get kinda weird and i was like. okay we got the dove and hawk party… getting closer to the true plot here hm. anyways i became very invested in yuuya’s investigations and whenever he would try to see what shuu was up to. especially the way they were literally after him multiple times throughout the plot - with they being the hawk party??? damn okay i cannot remember well anymore but i do remember he had to hide from spies and stuff 💀 oml i cant believe they tried to just kill/shoot him multiple times like… anyways. lots of interesting stuff going on in this bird’s route and a lot of the times im like. :0 just shocked.

📌 okosan

now we get on to a more silly route (unless being a great pudding god / being ??? will become a big plot twist or something in bbl route). still remember smashing the beans on the ground with san. idk what else to say about this route except that it was a more lighthearted break after what happened in yuuya’s route lmao

📌 nanaki kazuaki

idk why but i expected kazuaki to be more involved with what was going on with the dove & hawk parties, especially with the cryptic things he’s being saying to shuu throughout his route like??? don’t tell me the love one you lost is involved with what’s going on with the school rn or with the two parties or with the humans…. anyways. pretty chill route save for the fact that shuu locks mc into a storage room 💀 can’t remember much else though

📌 iwamine shuu

woooow. wow wow wow. did not expect a route to go like that. and have an ending like that. lowkey got scared when all the choices were “yes” when shuu asked if mc loved him. also cant believe mc just got murdered like that after shuu casually admitted to killing a bunch of students/birds. also let’s not forget the fact that he sent mc yuuya cooked up so she could eat him i… there is So Much to unpack from this route and honestly am still in shock/disbelief over everything that happened in it bc like… what???? in the world.

📌 higure anghel

no cap i was INSANELY confused for like 90% of this route and honestly it was the funniest and dumbest route that ive played so far 😭 why did that all happen. why does anghel speak like that. love that he’s apparently a filipino bird #pinoypride. but pls the way there was even the boss fight at the end. ICANT this route was perfect

📌 koshiba azami

we love the girlboss… birdboss? of these couple of endings. dunno what else to say except azami is an icon for this entire game and yes i make the rules here

📌 bbl route

okay. there is a lot to unpack and a lot of thoughts and some prediction i have to make about this route so far. once i finish writing everything i remember/want to note, ill probably move to update this post after i complete each following class. okay let’s get started

first off. i was so scared when i found out that mc died ,,, bc the story was being pretty normal and all save for the occasional text boxes between some days. also bc im playing at like 2 in the morning and it’s pitch black around me & dead silent. anyways.

it was nice to see the story in ryouta’s pov, interestingly we’ll be learning more about his relationship with mc and how they grew up together? (hopefully???) as the story goes on… now i forget there are birds on my screen as i get rlly into the story now lmao.

i REALLY wonder what is the thing that ryouta is forgetting?? that both shuu AND nageki have been bringing up like… also why does shuu have to be like that and say “yeah just go along, don’t use your brain, you’ll find it all out eventually” cmon bro. also sus bc why did ryouta lie about going straight home the evening mc was killed… why is your memory getting spotty. don’t tell me you’re gonna end up killing other birds and that you did something to mc in the first place without realizing (kinda doubt this theory tho imo)

i found it super interesting to hear more about the world hatoful boyfriend takes place in, actually. like, learning more about the parties & the pandemic & the role that humans and birds both take in this world was interesting to read, especially with what was going on with the school & how school rep mc’s death would be completed blamed onto the school, known for being more accepting of co-living… makes me wonder if it’s been planned from the very beginning?? since birth or something?? for mc to go to this school and die in this school?? what does the fire in the basement have to do with this?? why did the stairs to it get sealed off?? lots of questions that i cant wait to hear answered…

hatoful boyfriend & the way it’s actually “hurtful” boyfriend, not “heartful” boyfriend was wild 💀 especially with the way the text box’s little “hatoful boyfriend” text changed to “hurtful boyfriend” instead - yeah i got kinda spooked again. idk wonder if there’s gonna be a fourth wall breaking or smth in this,,, trying to think how the phrase “hurtful boyfriend” ties into all this, and also about all the hatoful documents and stuff all around the school…

where tf did that scarecrow thing even come from. also literally cant believe the principal has been dead and someone created/edited that video like a year ago. why is shuu and yuuya lying and being sus - does this have to do with their parties?? also cant believe how humans are pretty much preparing to kill all the birds in the school like ??? that hatch too oml

okay i think that’s all i have to say for now…? it’s 3 am and i have to wake up soon… so ill hopefully be updating this more again next time

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and next time has arrived. ill be dumping what i had written throughout the rest of my playthrough. :,)

IM.... the screentime of yuuya and sakuya made me so happy bc ive always wondered if their short story lines/routes would talk more about their familial relationship but it rarely really touched on it... and now i am literally so heartbroken right now. WHY. (head in hands) i dont know what else to say about yuuya's final moments and the real story behind these two brothers ,,, except for the fact that i am actually going to cry wtf yuuya's death NOT DESERVED pls now i feel so bad for doubting him earlier TT

why is the doctor so. you know. ??? dunno have to even describe it??? how is he involved with everything. why did he say that hes the one who got anghel to go to this school(?). it feels too obvious for him to be the mastermind or anything yknow but TT idk the way hes just involved in everything makes me want to shake him. how are you involved with ALL OF THIS. why and how are you controlling the scarecrow thing??? does this scarecrow thing have to do with previous/dead students??? what if nageki's ghost is involved with this??? i feel like this scarecrow has smth more to do with this...

also some other little things: i love seeing ryouta and sakuya acting as a duo. who was the third bird?? involved?? im trying to think... it's got to be someone that both yuuya and shuu would be fine with working with and making a deal with... unless they were threatened??? but idk i feel like shuu is not the kind of bird to get threatened TT still tryna think... i feel like its got to be one of the main birds/routes???

and those are my thoughts for the 5th class (that i remembered - typed this up as soon as i finished it!)

wow so the 6th class went by so fast - unless i was just reading it super quickly... ive probably said this a million times now but I AM IN SO MUCH SHOCK??? my eyes were wide open when i was reading all that nageki remembered... and his past and the experiments that they did on him. PLEASE HELP this lil bird who's been through too much ;;;;;; does this mean that all the main birds??? well, i feel like all the main student birds - were somehow being experimented on or developed to become a weapon to humans?? is this the reason why the doctor had nageki's files in his desk? was sakuya's files also in it bc he knew of his past or bc he was also planning to do an experiment on him? has ryouta been experimented on bc of the multiple & several amount of times hes had to go to the infirmiary due to his weak stomach?? okay but wait... what if his weak stomach was a result of the experiments shuu has done on him or smth... i am so Scared. and Shocked. so many questions that are about to get answered very soon. what does the fire have to do with this???

okay, i HAVE to read the 7th class now.

OH NO. oops - sorry if ive been messing up the dove and hawk parties' ideologies i cant remember which one was actually FOR coexisting with humans and who are not,,,

NOOOOOOOOO. NOOOOOO. NO. why do all of these birds have all of these backstories. I KNEW THE DOCTOR HAD MORE TO HIM BUT PLS. i didnt think he would be ryouta's father's biggest admirer from the background like. we see you slowly warming up to him. i see that you never got to tell him your feelings. HEY WHAT DOES THAT MEAN. anyways. the way he wanted shuu to grant a wish of ryouta which is what lead him all the way here. i am Mad and Sad. smad??? uh. YOU DID ALL OF THIS,,,,, i, do not know what to say anymore.

mc's brain being in the little scarecrow. wow. i had a feeling there would be more to the scarecrow but didnt expect to hear about another experiment going on, esp with how it involved human brains TT

also pls not @ shuu gaslighting ryouta ,,, IT ISNT YOUR FAULT ,,, you were literally drugged for the past year and then had to watch your childhood friend just. die. bc you were being experimented on all along. I KNEW THE WEAK STOMACH THING WOULD HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH THIS. but not in such a heartbreaking way.

UGH there is so much thats been happening and now my memory is like a goldfish and i just really want to read the 8th class now. but it has been such a Wild Roller Coaster these last few classes

uhhm. okay i just finsihed the game and. the first thing i want to say that everything that happened has Blown me away. like. everything from this entire route. Everything. i think ill need some time tonight to just lay down and let everything marinate & i'll write a proper conclusion about the game afterwards. for now: my thoughts on the 8th chapter and the "epilogue" of the game. so thats why kazuaki had the scribbled out photo... the way hes been haunted by his shadow of guilt - which i like to see it... TT i wonder, if everytime he fell asleep, he would think back to the days he had with nageki, or to think about blaming himself for everything?? agh

the way that mc's parents attempting to be mediators at the hatoful house and how it tied to shuu approaching mc and ryouta... how it had involved both kazuaki and nageki. wow. ALSO its so cool how i now reread over the archive files from the main menu and i pretty much can accurately tell what each file is referring to, or who is the one who wrote each file.

i am still in shock. who wouldve known a bird dating sim would this to all happen.

also, same at sakuya wasting his mourning on yuuya - i was literally mourning too like TT why did you have to fake die like that man. AND THE FACT THAT RYOUTA WANTED TO SEE HIS MOM but he couldnt bc he didnt want to bring any death to the humans... who knows how long hes been waiting for everyone with mc's brain and nageki. what if he doesnt wake up. im literally so heartbroken bc in his route, his mother passed after being so sick in the hospital, and now im worried bc what if he never gets to see her again. he literally worked so hard to support her all the time and loved her sm ,,,,,

theres def a lot of things that are slipping from my mind as im writing this (im sorry). its like my brain stopped working and now im so sad about everything thats happened.

was the spirit that nageki talking to in the library before mc??? was she also participating in the little boss fight against brainwashed ryouta??? ugh i need to know more. what if i just replayed the entire game to see all the little things referring back to the truth behind the school and the past of the main birds. haha just kidding... unless??? i want to play the sequel now too... well. for now, time to be sad. i now love this entire game and all of these birds to pieces. (also ive decided. im going to replay the entire game because i can and because i need to)

i word vommit whatever i want and unconsciously create the most random hcs / questions sorry if i say the most random shit or smth in this 😭 also sorry not sorry i like my little hcs and i hope maybe theyre neat too

#catplays.txt #catplays.txt + hatoful boyfriend #hatoful boyfriend

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WHICHEVR COME TO YOUR HEAD FIRST SHIP MEEME o7

me whwn j use this as an excuse 2 gush abr my so.s thanksJGJDKSAKSKCKCKS OK:

OK SO!!!;!"!!!**!"!$ IM NORMAL!!!!!! IM NROMAL IM NORMAL IM NORMAL ABOUR VOL. OK. OK. OKAY. OKA—

Belase wheree r the fics . the. the. Where ar etheh WHERE ARE THEY DO I AHVE TO FUCKJGN WRITE THEM MY DAMN SELF BC I FUCKING WILL but they will be extremely ooc bc system bias. </3 qiqkskskddkxk

ANYWAYS!!!!!!! I THINK THE FANDOM INTERPRETATIONS OF US AND WHAT RELATIONSHIP WE HAVE W EACH OTHER ARE ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS. LIKE "WE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT" BUT WE LAUGH ABT IT IT'S GENUINELY ENTERTAINING JFJSMDKFFK BECAUSE. *yes* I'm still kinda like "hey self destruct but in a fun way 😀👍!! :D!!!!!" and Vol's still like "No. Stop that." But it's also like. It's not one-sided "Manic dude is trying to hit on the No Fun Super Serious guy" trope or whatever no lmao we Do genuinely. Love each other adn I'm! Gay. Vol is my. Silly rabbit. <3 JDJSKASKDKFK

*Also wlw/mlm solidarity except it's like... nblnb/mlm solidarity. We r both nblnb/mlm... probably? kinda? on some days? I don't think we have genders usually. This goes fr all the Skills but like. ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯!! aHdjJFDJDJFJ we're t4t but in *what* way? Good luck figuring that out! JFJDJDKFKF

me wwehn that's. my OTHER hsuband.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHERE. ARE. RHE FICS! HELLO!!!!!!!!! H3LLO????!! HEWWO FOR THE LVOE OF GOD HELLO,

idk waht the fuck our relationship is honestly but it's Good And Fun and that's all that matters <3. I jsutuejsjakskdkf. Hehwjaakdd. shehehdhdshhahdeeeeeee. <= me when i think abt encyclo for .5 seconds . <3. im normal!

AND ACTUALLY I've searched through Fayde a lot for both me, Vol, AND encyclo and canonically. I don't think Encyclo has. Any interactions??????? With any of the others??? def not me or Vol though. well. actually no Technically. Ok there's a bit where Vol's like "Ok you know these guys? U can't trust them. They're *compromised.* .... Except this fucjing loser *points 2 Encyclo* he's normal like me :)" but I don't Remember if Encyclo talks during that scene SIDENOTE VOL CANONICALLY CALLS ENCYCLO "PILLAR-BOOKHEAD" HIIII. HIIIIII THAT'S SO FUNNY VOL UR SO BAD WITH NICKNAMES. <3 FJSJAKAKSKDJF

but yeah no 90% of Encyclopedia's dialogue is just Knowledge And Fun Facts. im getting off topic dhejakakakskxjskd but tl;dr. I Lov U Encyclopedia *ggives him a smooch. on hte cheek.*

wait again I forgot abt the Final Dream sequence. Im not lookinf thru fayde for those bits bc 1. It Hurts. Owwie. and 2. That's spoilers we aren't there yet in the game but. what we've seen it's just.... Everyone's having a breakdown abt not being able to do their jobs right and then Encyclo's like. ".... :D I'm trying my best w this pop quiz, dude. Sorry your brain's still a plate of spaghetti LMAOOOO NOT MY FAULT" IT'S *SO* FUNNY AND THAT MIGHT BE THE CLOSEST HE HAS TO ANY INTERACTIONS W ANY OTHER SKILL BUT IDK JFKSKDFJ

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SOOOOOOO. FIRST OFF right off the bat u remember the uh. this:

that was abt vol lmao [IM HAVE PERMISSION 2 SHARE THIS they dozed off but rhey were gonna write this section initially ajsjdj]

idk what the fuck theu have going on w each other but I'm like Ooo. Oooooooo 👀. 👀👀👀👀👀 JENDKSKFCKDK they're so funny . wheres r the fics dammit [lighthearted]

encyclo & i also lov drama lots but primarily they're w vol and that's chill. good 4 them tbh vol is gr8 JEJSAKSKFJ <= is biased. extremely so

again also wlw/mlm solidarity except it's also nblnb/mlm solidarity but also hOld on the cat just blepped at me oh my god. <3 lov him so much he's floffy. uh. oh right Whatever they r they're trans rights. if ur w Drama ur immediately t4t thank u 4 coming 2 my ted talk

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AND FINALLY

THE BIGGER POLYCULE? just. rhe rest of the skills. except Half Light bc HL is a child.

we r all have smth casually Goig On that's One thing fandom def got right from what we've seen HFHDSKFKFIA and we have collectivelt adopted HL as our child/sibling in some cases. Idk HL just goes around & is like "ur my parent now :)" to others and we can't say no bc then it'll kill us over it. but I digress JFDJDKFKFK tl;dr found family as hell. but the pairings talked abt here r like. The Main Polycule i guess? Idk. HFHDJDJF

#ask #THANK YOU I WAS SAVING THIS ASK FR A TIME WHNE I HAD SPOONS TO GUSH. SORRY ALSO THAT I USED UR ASK TO GUSH . DJAUAJAKDJFNCHC #fun fact HL's also adopted people outside Harry's system as its parental figures. Kim & Jean specifically come 2 mind #and then it's like '....... you're my landlord. :/' @ Harry JFJEKALSKDFKVKVF

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uuuuggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh · 2 years

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Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Feelings

Feeeeeelings

Don’t like em

Dooooont like em.

For the first thing, my feelings towards Chris are very complicated and they are haunting me. Does that mean I’m over him? That I’m comparing to him? I don’t know. Perhaps. Perhaps not. I can’t think to deeply into my psyche like that. All I know is I still think about him, and I constantly have to remind myself the vast majority of the pain he caused me, that I’m thankful I have those videos of me breaking down because without them I do not think I would be able to remember the hard parts of my relationship with him. And I find it very troubling that I have memory issues like that. Lastly on the Chris matter, I’m always think about him in the “next person,” but I’m not sure if that’s implying good or bad things.

The second matter to dwell on is my feelings for Joe…. I…. Have very complicated feelings for him but yet again here I am, with my heart absolutely screaming for him. Like,,,, I have shit memory but I haven’t felt this way for someone since like Cody or Nathan, i believe I’ve said that before. Like Chris doesn’t even compare to what it comes to my type of a person, or a man, but mostly a person.

And like, I’m so giddy and overwhelmed by it, it’s a crush for sure. I want to explore it though but I know the time isn’t right. But I’m impatient as well. This school girl crush feeling I have for Joe…. I’ve had that from almost the moment I met him, it took me years to fall in love with Chris. I didn’t feel this way for him until only maybe days before we were dating. I can’t even say weeks. I was just very protective of him and I didn’t like sharing, and I didn’t like Kiera most of all. I do remember constantly doubting if i was actually attracted to him, I was over time. Physical attraction is something I can almost easily find in anyone. But I remember asking myself if i could love him, and I was afraid of committing to him. I’m glad I didn’t after all these years. I thinks that’s why my life felt so suicidal, because I felt trapped with him. And now I’m free again to be myself and explore myself and love the parts of me I forgot.

I think that’s why I like Joe so much, because this is the most rude version of myself I’ve ever been and still seems to at the very least want to be friends with me.

That’s the other thing about Joe… I don’t know what he feels about me, or how he feels about me, or if I’m paranoid and stupid or if things are going over my head. I’m so confused with him and I wish I had someone to talk to about it. (((This is a huge reason why I don’t think Chris understand why being friends was near impossible for us…. If I stayed friends with him, would he talk to me about these things? Would he be okay with it? Would he turn into an asshole and ghost me and tell me to fuck off?? I think he would do that last one, knowing how possessive he was of me just liking FICTIONAL MEN… ugh))) Anyways….

Again, with my shitty memory, I don’t remember if Joe hugged me or not, or if he went in for a dab and I took it for a hug…. Let me try and remember if I can…. I can’t…. I really can’t… it’s all a blur…. It was dark and I was even confused why he would hug me. Normally there is a pause when doing in for a dab, was there?? I don’t remember there being pause…. And he said “thanks Finn” thanks for what??? Idk…..

Idk!!! Then he starts texting me a lot more frequently… but like,,, weird shit,,,, first to get a job,,, but HE invited me,,,, weird,,,, then he says smth abt the weed,,,,, then he comments on my story to start a convo and we had one,,, very dry,,,, it was weird then he ends it with like a typo I couldn’t understand so I kind of just left him on read??? Like UGH!! I’m not good with my feelings. This is what I mean. Like,,, I tell him all the time be direct and honest. But I can’t with him. I’m still trying to figure it out, feel it out, fail and try again, fail and try again. Portal was… there was one part that was good when it came to Joe. But mostly bad parts. Then everything after was weird. Darian lake was nice… but everything since then has been even more weird. I’m going to keep trying, because I think he’s worth it.

I wanted to comment on his story and try and spark a convo again but I was to scared. That’s why I wish I had someone to talk to, to give me confidence. I kinda of tried to tell jas, but she already made her disapproval because he’s 19 and I’m 24… that is something to greatly take into consideration. There are a lot of things to take into consideration. And IF Joe also has similar interests in me like I do him,,,, which I just had a spaz attack over IF he did and IF he’s trying and I’m just to dumb to see,,, he’s been taking to Max and Cody about it, asking them for help. If he is, that’s very endearing because Chris had to do the same thing. So IF Joe feels the same I think that’s also why I can’t read him.

He may be taking this cautiously. I’m 24, 5 years older than him, I’m his best friends sister!!! I’m “not an NPC” like him. I don’t think he wants to fuck it up, whatever we have, he’s taking a great deal in care trying to not only grow it but not ruin it. Or at least that’s the impression I THINK I’m getting BUT THEN AGAIN I DONT KNOW BECAUSE I DONT HAVE ANYONE TO TALL TO ABOUT THIS.

Hence why I’m here. I can’t tell mom, because,,, age,,,, and Jessy’s friend. Can’t tell jessy at all because like,,,, well I have no idea how she would take it. I think if Joe has any feelings for me he also would be very cautious about telling Jessy. And also…. I don’t want to turn a blind eye to him being 19

I don’t want to be that person that’s like “Well he’s turning 20 soon so that’s okay” I don’t think it would be good for a 20 year old to date 25 year old,,,, even tho as 24 I would date someone possible 30 if they were the right person.

So I also fee I think if I met the right person, age wouldn’t matter at all. Well not at all. A child’s love is different than this. This is a mature spiritual love, a love for another human that I can share emotions with. But I don’t think it’s love. It’s absolutely not yet. It has a great potential and that’s why I’m so afraid to fuck it up. But my life feels so short so at the same time I want to say fuck it and rush into this. Which,,, clearly would only end badly. I want to make sure I actually know Joe, and I’m just not using him to get over Chris. I want to make sure I’m not crazy either, and that he’s a real person that I share interests with, that I can hang out with and talk to. I haven’t hung out with him yet on my own, and I’m so afraid to ask him, I don’t think he understands how mysterious and guarded I really am. I’m not comfortable yet where I can ask him those things, so I think if anything, and hope, that he’s picking up on that. That I’m special and I’m something to work for and I’m not easy.

So I know, I know……… I know I feel better after writing this. That first I should probably just figure out how to talk to him and hang out with him and be me. It’s gonna be slow and I need to be patient but GOD am I so close to blurting this shit out.

It’s killing me, not really but it’s hard. Again, I just want someone to talk to about this. Fuck you Chris. I could never talk to you about this as much as you want to make me think I could. You were a bad person and a bad boyfriend. And the only time you were ever right is I deserved so much better. You constantly manipulated me and my emotions and I hate to say it, but you where the worst one out of us. I hate saying it because it brings me pain, it brings me no honor to think I was better than you, it hurts me to know I put in so much more effort than you did. It hurts me and brings me shame to know I was pushing so hard for something so fruitless, it hurts me to even think that I was a better girlfriend than you where a boyfriend, because,,,, it never should have been who’s better or worse to begin with. It never should have been a competition. I remember always telling you I hate comparing, I hate love bombing and that’s what you did allllll the time. You told me how great I was while how shitty you where and that was manipulation whether intentional or not, whether you even knew you were doing it or not. That is a fact, that is what you did. I know you did not mean to do it, but it’s still what you did and it’s not up for debate or argument. Maybe it was unconscious, but the perhaps behind that behavior is to get me to mother you, to coddle you, to love bomb you in return. Which is toxic and unhealthy. It’s just one of many things you did that come to mind.

I also think I’m weirdly a system, or someone with DID. I need to write more and I’ve been trying to write more but I don’t think that’s going to work for me. I think I should text more here and see what happens and video tape me. I think it’s okay if writing doesn’t work for me. I’ve always hating my hand writing and I’ve always hated the strain it puts on my hands. So I’ll try and be here more.

I should go to bed now. Good night.

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wildernessuntothemselves · 2 years

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I AM NOT STRONG I AM ABSOLTELY NOT STRONG

I DID CRY

FUCKKKKKK. here are some quotes of me to my friend while reading

“Oh my baby, you’ve gone insane. You can’t handle the rejection from him so you’re blaming it on me and now my family too.”

❄️: “NAUR NOT THE GASLIGHTING”

friend: “not so girlboss”

❄️: “oh fuck its goin down” ““youre mine” STFU”

friend: oh nooo

You swallow down the ball of terror that occludes your throat. “I want to go to my room.” You request shakily, “Please.”

❄️: “shes scared-“ “this is not girlboss at all” “Omg we got a letter from the taehyun” “YUHHH IT FINALLY CAME THROUGH” “a maid smuggled it in”

friend: “LOVE THAT MAID”

❄️: “PERIODDD”

my reaction to reader wearing a slutty outfit:

❄️: “WE ARE GIRLBOSSING” “DRESSED LIKE A SLUT” “AAAAS WE SHOULD”

me reaction to soobin being scared off by beomgyu:

❄️: “so much for making friends🥲”

“I can do what I want.” You seethe, “You wanted me to be a whore so bad. Why are you mad now when I act like it?”

❄️: “OHOHOHOHO” “PERIOOODD YUHH”

reaction to beomgyu saying the princess wont ever take y/ns place:

❄️: “EW THE SWITCH UP” and the most german reaction ever “IGITT” which means ew but worse “WE DONT FEEL NEGLECTED WE WANT YOU TO FUCK OFF” me @.beomgyu

him being all nice in town and helping the commoners

❄️: “hes being nice rn” “i dont wanna forgive” “remember ❄️ hes a dick” “NO BC IM A SUCKER FOR PPL WHO DO NICE THINGS” “also a sucker for manipulators so…well”

“You attack your father over that whore?” The king spits, slapping the prince across the face. “I have half a mind to let the guards take her right here in front of you so you’ll realize what she truly is.”

❄️: “mom please pick me up im scared😀😀😀😀😀” no srsly i was abt to shit my pants the part with the king scared the f outta me

your eyes fly open in apprehension to see him holding a dagger.

❄️: “BRO FOR A SECOND I THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA FUCKING CUT Y/N” like carve his name into her or smth- I TOTALLY WOULDVE EXPECTED HIM TO DO THAT “this was traumatising” “fucking dickhead” “i wanna hug y/n and tell her everything will be okey ☹️”

ALL OF THIS LIVE REACTIONS OF MINE

i am now traumatized for life and miss tae and want him to safe and accept us more than ever but he also sounded sus in his letters so IDK ANYMORE

beomgyu has absoltely lost it tho and the fact EVERYONE in the castle was in on it???? WHAT THE FUCK

this broke not only y/n but also me FUCKKKKKKK

one thing this goes to y/n if she was real and i could talk to her

baby virginity is a social construct, no man will EVER be able to take something from you and make you be worth-less NEVER is anyone gonna do that, he took you forcefully which means if virginity means something to you… you are still a virgin, if something gets stolen from you its still yours. baby i love you do NOT let him break you

i am so done this was amazingly written seriously you have such a way of getting me immersed? into the story the way you write is amazing and this def was a emotional roller coster

ill out myself by saying i read loser lover many times and also the latest ch. of yamqn probably 3-4 times… and yeah i can see myself reading this ch again as well and then crying some more😭😭😭😭

-❄️

not you traumatizing your friend with my story 😂

i love the live reaction! i sometimes write lines and think "ohh i wonder what my readers will think of this" lol thanks for the german lesson could always use a more powerful form of ew 😂

sometimes the people who appear the most charitable can be the most evil ✊🏼😔

ngl the king scared me too lol imagine being oc in that moment

ahaha a repeat of iyym felix nooo

tyun does sound a bit sus. it's the hint for his flaw so good on ya for picking up on that

and yes all you said about virginity. unfortunately in a society like where yamqn takes place virginity is a real currency. men won't take her as a wife now that she's "ruined" 🤢

#thank you so much darling #love ya #mort talks #❄️ anon #yamqn

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lorebird · 2 years

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For There's Something Under Boatem, do you think things from previous seasons could carry over in some form? I may or may not be thinking abt the mycelium resistance again and trying to put it into every au I can think of

Also the Boatem creature spreading a trail of mycelium under it or with patches of fungus on it could look cool

I HAVE NO CLUE WHEN I GOT THIS IM SORRY

BUT ANYWAYS . OH MY GOD. YOUR BRAIN IS MASSIVE AND IM LOSING MY MIND this is so good I'm coming up with a narrative excuse for this asap

If the void itself is an entity, with the beast being just one physical manifestation of it, that leaves me w a ton of open doors (considering how all the stars in the void are other worlds which is 100% true btw I'm commanding as such ❤️). Could anything that's fallen into the void in any world be amassed into the boatem beast??? I don't see why not <3

I wouldn't consider this idea """canon""" to the au, which I'm saying very loosely bc there isn't a strict canon at all -- almost every separate artwork I've done is in its own isolated bubble of ideas that conflict w other artworks. Like the whole Watcher Remembering idea vs that comic where mumbo comments on the beast having tons of eyes. All this to say I'm using this as an excuse to throw in whatever the hell I want from any previous season and possibly other series as well........... this au is pure self indulgence I have no shame! Also I think it'd be Very Fun to call this sorta sub-au "there's mushrooms under boatem" /hj

Ideas under a cut bc oh no this is getting long

OFHRJGDJGJKDG OK SO . I FUCKING LOVE FUNGI SO DAMN MUCH THEYRE SUCJ COOL IMAGERY SO I AM LOSING MY MIND . And now I'm having some Thoughts about the mycelium resistance n how I can thematically tie it into the void bc...... idk themes my beloved I guess<3 also it's like 11 pm here so don't expect coherence I'm so sorry

I wasn't really Online and active in the hc fandom during the mycelium resistance plot, so I don't know if there's a popular consensus on headcanons there -- this'll all be following my own takes (unless other people wanna add in!! I'd love to hear if you have any other ideas anon bc I am !!!!!!!)

The things I feel the mycelium and my Void Lore have in common are 1) being the original state of something, whether the shopping district or existence itself 2) a penchant for spreading and subsuming 3) a massive, but less tangible, body (hyphae, the void under the world) and a much more noticable + physical offshoot (mushrooms, the boatem beast). Idk if anyone broke through bedrock in the shopping district? But if the void was somehow introduced there, that could kick things off. It wouldn’t be able to form a physical body of its own like the boatem beast, not without the egg to jumpstart things, but could maybe corrupt the mycelium to propagate bc uhhhh. Idk void mushrooms are cool dw about logic. Personally I love the idea of the mycelium resistance being a little bit mind controlled and this can contribute to it <3 call of the void but it just tells you to grow mushrooms

I think it’s a neat concept just as is!! The 2 forces are both trying to bring the shopping district to its “original” state, but both have wildly different perspectives of what things were originally like. When the mycelium is finally wiped out, the void loses its hold on both on the resistance and in a more physical sense. I’d have to go rewatch the turf war to come up w ideas of what the void actually Does up on the island — one of the shops had end crystals + their Beams, right?? Maybe smth with that?? Idk, there’s not quite as much Weird Stuff for me to work off of as there was in s8. My worldbuilding with void + the end is incredibly loose and vague anyways which doesn’t help /lh but anyways. That all is my excuse to throw some mycelium resistance flavoring into the something under boatem au

As for how the beast is shaped by this . Oh My God fuck yes mycelium trail oh my GOD...... imagine if plants around boatem were dying mysteriously, which turned out to be a fungal infection. Poor mr peace love and plants 💔 omg and the return of Void Fungus Team Up would give the boatem beast an even more powerful Physical Foothold bc it could get into the earth itself!!! Holy shit imagine the boatem hole slowly overrun by mysterious mushrooms that shimmer like the void AHHHH it’s getting late and I need to sleep before a long ass car ride tomorrow so. Leaving it there for now but. God I am Rotating

#there’s something under boatem #rambles #god I can’t believe ppl are like. Actually Interested I’m the au #makes me endlessly happy #I DO have an excuse to incorporate 3l/ll if I come up w ideas for what to do with it................#I imagine that the worlds were temporary and a little unstable #after everyone dies they finally fall apart #and everything’s dispersed into the void #so. there’s my excuse <3 #haven’t thought of anything for that yet but I am so very self indulgent and leaving the opportunity there

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johnny's rap would be great if they ever release 80s-90s r&b esque songs.

i feel like i need . to know like what kind of vibes you’re talking abt like … do you have a group/artist or song in mind? bc the only songs/artists i can think of are like . exclusively singing/singers like my brain has blanked and i can’t think of any r&b songs from that time period w rap parts in them? that’s obvi not to say that they don’t exist i just can’t recall any atm djfjsjd my mom didn’t listen to rly any music with rap in it when i was growing up and by the time i started listening to my own music, i sought out more modern rap/hip-hop/r&b !!!

also i’m so sorry to the potentially offended johfam for what i’m abt to say but . r&b, especially older r&b, i feel like requires a Lot Of Soul. it takes Heart and like . Emotion, y’know? like i feel like that style of rapping would require, like, some level of expressiveness, emotion, etc. and honestly i don’t rly think i could see johnny—or Any Member of NCT 127 for that matter—doing that style of rapping,,, like at all.

(under the cut is a detailed breakdown of nct 127’s rapping “styles” ig… it’s long as fuck… also i mention EXO in here, too)

did i color code this? yes, bc i’m on adderall. here’s the legend/color key :)

idol names from nct are bolded in blue

idol names from other groups are bolded & italicized in blue

factors i considered when evaluating their rapping styles are in purple

song names are in green

jaehyun has the like timbre i think? like the vocal depth and the kinda soothing voice, but i don’t think he has the . intonation… like i think when he speaks, (again, speaking abt english bc that’s the only language i can assess) he speaks Very Well like very proper w like . practically perfect diction and stuff and i feel like he’d require like . some more coaching on how to loosen up a bit when it comes to his expressiveness? i think he might get in his head at times and be more concerned abt like being on beat and on key (which of course is super important) but i don’t know,,, if he feels comfortable enough in his rapping? to be able to just let it flow? and like Deliver the words w emotion? bc i’m thinking once more abt … dancing in the rain and how . that went . to me . djfjdkfkd

mark, to me, doesn’t rly have the timbre but i don’t think that would immediately count him out !! however i think he might have the best idea of how to deliver the words like how maybe to let the emotion come through at times? but tbh i think that his diction might trip him up a bit? like i think that his way of speaking might sound more heavy-handed in a song like that? (for example think abt like . code switching… most ppl i know that code switch can Turn Off the AAVE and even alter their pronunciation of some things, but i don’t think mark’s ever needed to do that, so i don’t know if he knows how) thinking abt better days by superm and how it’s a very beautiful song but i remember thinking that smth abt mark’s part was like Just A Teensy Bit Off to me? like i think it rly was part of the way he pronounced some of the words/his syllables? idk jsfjskkd again this is my opinion!!! mark’s style(s) of rap seem to fit hip-hop/rap more than it does r&b, in my opinion!

johnny, to me, doesn’t really seem like he’d fit that kind of vibe? again, pls let me know like what songs/artists you had in mind!! so far i’ve evaluated, like, in terms of expressiveness, timbre, and diction!! to me, his diction does Not Seem like it fits the vibe djfjjdkdkd and that’s coupled with his expressiveness i think bc he basically sounds like he’s reading off a teleprompter in the kind of… semi-stilted way where it seems like he doesn’t know what’s coming next 😭😭😭 JOHFAM, I APOLOGIZE FR FR I DON’T SAY THIS W MALICE !! i think his timbre may be subjective bc i personally . am not too crazy abt his speaking/rapping voice so i feel like ppl who like his talking voice might have a diff opinion!!

honestly, it wouldn’t rly feel fair to me to evaluate taeyong on a song like this bc he . doesn’t speak english yknow? and given that diction is something i’m considering, (it’s not abt Proper Pronunciation, it’s just the way the words are said in general) i don’t think it’d be fair for me as a native english speaker to critique taeyong, someone who doesn’t speak english fluently, on things like his diction / pronunciation !! in terms of his, like, expressiveness,,,,, i don’t rly know? i don’t believe i’ve heard much like . emotional variety in his parts, tbh? which isn’t his fault rly bc SM isn’t rly like . giving him opportunities to do parts in songs where his delivery can be emotionally varied (unless we count lightbulb and i’m SO sorry but i cannot stand that song i can’t 😭😭😭) so idk abt expressiveness either… i will say that his timbre Does Not Fit The Vibes To Me…At All djfjdkfkd like he has a very . kinda like. gruff, nasally (not always a bad thing) approach ?? there isn’t usually much like . variance there i don’t think :/ BUT long flight!! his song long flight !! when he sang in long flight he sounded SO nice and pleasant and i rly love that song!! but like… that’s singing, so i don’t think that rap wise he could pull it off? i just don’t think he has that like . soulful, emotive kind of expressive way of speaking/rapping that i imagine when i think of this genre?

i’m not going into the rappers in other units bc you only mentioned johnny who’s in 127 so i just did 127 members that rap djfjdkfkd but yeah !!! i feel like SM doesn’t have as much of an investment in Developing or Honing any of their skills? (speaking abt 127 “rappers” which i quoted bc i’m including johnny and jaehyun, neither of whom, to me, actually fulfill the title of like “rapper”) like their team is just kinda like “this is what works and what’s been working so let’s just do that” to some extent? like yeah the music itself is more experimental but the actual delivery and cadence and stuff that never rly seems to vary to me djfjsjd and when . it has . i rly didn’t like it 😭😭😭

so i don’t consider it like a personal failing on any of their parts rly i think that SM is maybe inadvertently steering them into One Trick Pony territory? which i would hate to see happen djfjsjd i think that mark def seems to be the most like eager to learn and try new stuff, followed by jaehyun i think, then taeyong, then johnny !! which tbh is def a downfall of having a group with So Many Members like there are only so many coaches and stuff and only so much time so i fear that they (LSM & the SM production team, by extension) have spread themselves too thin by trying to go too big too fast ?? like maybe make sure all… your current members are taken care of and are developing well… before adding new ones… bc like the last thing you want is for ppl to start viewing NCT as like . stagnant? ig? predictable? and again i think they double down on their experimental noise music vibes (which i LOVE) to combat this, but i don’t know if they’re aware that it might start appearing to some ppl as though they’re just like . distracting ppl with shiny bells & whistles :/ while they’re actually just kinda doing the same thing but w a slight variation? ig? like do we always need raps from gruff, nasal taeyong, “edgy,” kinda badass mark, sexy whisper-rapper jaehyun, and johnny? (i’m SO sorry i rly couldn’t find words to sum up johnny’s rapping that didn’t sound mean i’m SORRY sjfjsjd)

like tbh??? say what y’all want abt him, but i fw chanyeol’s rapping HEAVY (chanyeol is from exo in case you aren’t aware!) like: promise, baby don’t cry, obsession, lotto, monster—he has a very versatile range of deliveries!!! promise as a song . is so beautiful but i’m being deadass when i say that i actually started tearing up in public when i heard chanyeol’s rap in that song. he rly does seem to have a very good concept of what vibes to bring to the table for certain songs and if he doesn’t and the production team was helping, then he seems to take direction incredibly well!!!! but again, i think that has a lot to do with the fact that . they were working with Way Fewer Members bc he was in EXO-K with only 6 members obvi and then even when they joined EXO-K and EXO-M, there were 10 members and it kept 😭 going 😭 down 😭 and weren’t trying to do so many different things i don’t think? also, quite honestly? EXO vocalists are like. p much elite to me in the KPOP music industry, like baekhyun, kyungsoo, chen, and junmyeon (give that man his credits, damn it!! he has a beautiful voice), and i rly don’t think that they required as much attention/one-on-one coaching as maybe like . some NCT members (i am not using “some” to be deliberately vague in a shady way, i rly just am not thinking of any specific members at the moment) who are definitely very talented but are Younger and Less Experienced than the EXOs, y’know?

so like thinking abt it like that: when chanyeol was in EXO-K, out of the 6 members, like 3 of them def didn’t need v much guidance bc they’re Vocalists and they’d prob come in, kill the damn thing, and leave sjfjdjdj so i feel like it was chanyeol, sehun, and kai that prob got more individualized attention and also if i’m not wrong, sehun & kai are also like main dancers and at least one of ‘em is the visual/center, right? like sehun was a dancer/visual (?)/rapper, kai was a dancer/visual (?)/rapper/vocalist (?) and while chanyeol has a lovely, warm voice, they weren’t always doing very much with it, so i feel like they kinda steered him to rapping and bc he was their like . Main Rapper, they most likely gave him a lot more attention!! i also think that chanyeol probably very much wanted to improve!! like, he seems like that kind of person and he’s very musically inclined, so i bet he was def more proactive in seeking out guidance which, again, was def easier back then because SM didn’t have so many ppl to manage (in the group) i don’t think!! therefore, the production team/coaches probably Had More Time to work with chanyeol if he’d needed it back then as opposed to the time that each member of NCT might get/want now, yknow?

also this is slightly related but also not. it def might be controversial but. i will say it anyway. not every song . needs a rap . 🧍🏽‍♀️ when i first heard focus, i LOST my fucking mind !!! everything abt the vocals and the music was INCREDIBLE AND THEN. and then they started rapping . i do not believe . that song needed a rap . i think they maybe wanted to recreate or emulate smth like faded in my last song? but they . didn’t do that djfjdkfkd i just heard the rappers coming in and sat in place like “that just seems unnecessary” like . you don’t have to play every card all the time djfjdkfkd just like no longer doesn’t have any rap parts in it!! they could have done that!! just an r&b song!! if they were worried abt the members who were rapping (p sure they were johnny taeyong and mark) not getting enough lines or smth, toss ‘em on a harmony!! like i was so . HhHhHhHh i was pretty bummed abt it sjfjsjdjd like yeah i still listen to it and it slaps still but it could have slapped More if they’d kept it a strictly vocal song i think :p

also speaking of faded in my last song, i think the amount of rapping in there was Excellent i think it was a perfect amount !!! not to mention i remember specifically getting chanyeol vibes from lucas’s part so . that was excellent i love faded in my last song with all my heart and soul it’s one of my top favorite nct songs!!!!

those are my thoughts sjfjsjdjsjdsj and if, for some reason, someone wants me to do smth like this post for like . a diff unit, like wayv or dream, or maybe do smth similar for unit vocalists? i could try and do that ig!!

as a parting gift, here is my summary of my rankings for which 127 “rapper” might best embody the song genre anonnie suggested!

expressiveness: mark, most likely

timbre: jaehyun

diction: …not rly any of them tbh but the closest would have to be mark i think!!

overall: mark (who could def benefit from guidance for this type of song from people who Actually Know What They’re Talking About)

#answered #anon #me and my rants today… apologies y’all you probably wanted short replies and i give y’all a whole damn essay sjfjsjdjdj

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I came from a country where being gay is not illegal but still very badly seen so what Eric did to me came off as spoiled and privileged. Nigerian men risk their lives every time they try to live and he just comes on a holiday risk for nothing and get a high out of it like... I get he is a poc in uk so racism but he is still privileged in respect to Nigerian living there and it felt like when tourists do all they want and use foreign countries as a eat pray love playground for adrenaline and Deep Moments

thanks for having partially confirmed to me one thing i didn’t quite know how to articulate and again i don’t… right with the premise that ofc not being poc and/or lgbt myself so my opinion is worth what it’s worth i felt like not only it made eric come off as privileged and not quite realizing it - or if it was the target then it wasn’t well written nor did it come across well - the points that imvho are not well put in this entire narrative are the following

let’s say one target was ‘we want eric to reconnect with the nigerian part of his heritage and realize that being gay in the uk is a privileged position in comparison to being gay in nigeria’: there is a single moment where he feels unsafe on the car but then he goes into the bar and it was played as… like THRILLING WILL WE GET CAUGHT OR NOT but i didn’t perceive that he felt in danger or like he realized exactly what he was facing

the whole family reconnection part was like… his mom lied about her husband bc family peace and kind of forces him to not be out bc she fears for his safety so like now unless i remember wrong eric has been out/never felt like he didn’t have to be since the show started so it should have a) given him insight re how it feels to NOT being able to be out b) let his mom connect with him on having to lie abt your significant other part c) concluded with at least a hint he could come out to nigerian family and like… point b) was more or less explored, c) was hinted bc he talked to his grandma abt adam but a) felt ABSOLUTELY missing because he comes back and everything he seems to gather from it is I WANT TO GO TO BARS BECAUSE I CAN? and most of all……. going through a) should have made him more sympathetic to adam’s struggles and instead it seemed like he deduced ‘oh since in nigeria it’s illegal then it makes no sense he’s taking so much time’ like…? it’s… a pretty self centered take to get out of this entire experience and if it was a check your privilege storyline then good but… it didn’t feel like that was how they framed honestly and why talking abt adam to the grandma if he’s gonna dump him????

now the eat pray love thing you mentioned is… i mean i felt like it was along those lines but as stated couldn’t be sure re my take but again my issue is with how they went at it, bc you CAN do that narrative if you clearly frame it as ‘we like eric and he’s a swell guy but he’s not free from that kinda behavior in light of the fact that living in the uk gives him automatic privilege wrt being out so we’re going to explore how he deals with it and it might be badly but then he learns from it and checks his privilege’ like it’s smth that can happen and everyone in this show has been shitty wrt smth at some point which is good bc it means everyone is written realistically… i’m not sure the narrative said THAT but it didn’t look like even the writers knew bc it was all over the place?? and i mean… i get that this show has realistic teenagers which means they can behave like petty assholes but like it was rushed, badly explained, not overt re wtf they wanted to do with this storyline and it’s not clear if eric even cares at the end?? and thats ooc anyway bc the eric we saw until this point isn’t… that callous or dismissive? and it never seemed to me like they wanted to write him as positive char that progressively gets less sympayhetic so honestly this entire plotline looks stupid

like the thing is at the end of it: - has eric reconnected to his nigerian heritage/found a way to balance it with his uk background? doesn’t seem to me like he did - has eric concluded anything re telling the nigerian side of his family that he’s out? no - has eric gained some actual insight from his experience that’s not ‘I want to go to bars because I can and I have no patience for someone who needs to take it slower’? doesn’t seem to me like he did - has eric realized that adam not being ready to tell his own mom stuff was a sort of parallel situation to his own mother not being ready to tell her mom stuff and like... if eric’s own mom lied about her partner to her family for years and still wasn’t ready to do it then why is giving adam a bit more time to tell his own mom especially given his less than stellar background re accepting himself and coming out such a hardship? no and we just don’t know basically this entire plotline could have gone a bunch of different places that were interesting/could have caused strong conflict/interesting storytelling but it didn’t do any of these things and fell back on like... cheap drama for the sake of it and honestly idt it was very sensitive wrt anything included in it which honestly strikes me as odd bc if sex ed ever did one thing right was treating sensitive subjects well without dancing around it or making things sugarcoated and still letting the characters not be cardboards so I’m very very perplexed about it and I just hope they plan to reveal wtf they wanted it to be next year because honestly I don’t know what it wanted to be and if they didn’t make it clear it’s not good writing - which until now they had in spades, therefore....

like, there’s nothing... narratively wrong in ‘I want to show that character X who faces racism and homophobia in the UK would have privilege wrt being able to be out/live his sexuality without shame in the UK and not in the country his family comes from and he has no idea because he hasn’t entertained that thought and he might come off as unpleasant or incapable of immediately getting it while that happens’, but the thing is that in this specific narrative it’s not clear whether eric got it or if he didn’t bc teenagers are shallow and don’t get it (which..... I mean the teens in this show aren’t exactly shallow like that so that doesn’t really hold up) or if he’s having trouble processing it or if the trip shook his entire world (didn’t seem like it) so like... I should hope next season it’s addressed what they want this thing to be because honestly idk and I don’t particularly like the direction it took

this adding that anyway again the way they broke eric and adam off like that makes the whole S2 finale look sour and eric come off like an asshole also wrt rahim because I mean, one thing is ‘eric has been in love with adam/has liked adam best all along but adam wasn’t around and he liked rahim so he gave it a shot but rahim wasn’t it for him so when adam does the great love gesture for him in front of everyone he decides to leave rahim for him’ because like that sucked for rahim anyway but it also wouldn’t have been fair to him to not break it off if eric had stronger feelings for someone else (and that was clear from the get-go) and then when they get together eric puts effort in it and they go places, one thing is ‘all of that happens but then the moment they aren’t on the exact same page and/or eric realizes he doesn’t want to put the necessary effort into respecting the time adam needs to handle his things even when adam forgives him and says he’ll try to get on track with him’ and so the solution is nah let’s break up instead of putting some work into it when ngl adam has been doing 85% of that this season................. it makes him look like the moment there’s an obstacle to a relationship he’s in or his partner isn’t on the same wavelength he’d just rather break it off first instead of giving it a go and that’s not a really great look on him and as stated it makes the thing with rahim look really bad because again one thing is leaving someone you like for someone who feels like is the love of your life and another thing is leaving someone you like for someone who loves you that much but then you’ll leave them too because..... he needs time to talk to his mother and he’s not ready to be fully out when he comes from repressingyourfeelingsinternalizedhomobiphobia central? like........ dunno but it just feels sour and like nothing one would expect out of eric as he was written/developed until now so I’mma just wait to see what they do next season but it’s just not good writing all around

#1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #sex education spoilers #sex education for ts #janie rants #i mean i have... issues also wrt jean's infidelity™ storyline #esp in light of the fact that it was anti terf season which i ABSOLUTELY appreciated a whole fucking lot #and wrt a lot of stuff happening for the sake of cheapass drama which could have been obtained differently #let's not talk about the aimee and steve thing issues #bc that also was a choice™#idk the fact that NO ONE literally NO ONE except ola and lily got nice things #AND honestly ola deserved a lot worse narratively bc she did lily way dirty #was... a choice #long post for ts #idk idk idk #there was a lot of good stuff this season but the implications at the last couple eps......... eeeeh

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sugasugawarau · 3 years

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Happy New Years to you all! I’m a bit late in writing and posting this but I wanted to take the time to properly thank everyone who follows me for sticking with me :) I know I’m not the most active when it comes to writing or even making shitposts so I hope you know it means the world to me that you enjoy my content. While just because 2020 has ended does not mean things will get automatically better, know that you have the capability of making a difference both for yourself and others. I’m proud of you for coming this far and please remember to take care of yourself when you can <3

And I’d also like to take the time to thank some individuals who have made a huge impact on my tumblr experience and have made this year better under the cut! Be warned there are many words and also sorry for any typos I wrote this at 3am :D

I’m going to start off with a few major lo$ers (joking) aka my irl friends that have tumblr

@kbh-ton, @ashr00m, @kae-and-the-lost-dragons

Okay the fact that you all follow me here is EMBARRASSING because you have to endure perceiving me from a sorta totally different perspective but surprise hi,, ily 😹 I know ⅔ of you don’t even use tumblr that often but I digress!! Thank you?? Like I’m not kidding when I say I don’t know where I would be without any of you guys. Stinky pp Paul, you’ve been here with @/sugasugawarau since the beginning-ish and have always been supportive of my absolutely stupid ideas. And my sons AKA get cucked squad, this is going to be ultra sappy but I hope you know how proud I am of the both of you (but no thanks to one of you for teaching us about nussies 😕). Thank you all for tolerating my overthinking ass as well as whenever I get high from a lack of sleep and just in general bc I’m a constant mess of a human being; you are all the best people ik stfu I don’t take criticism.

To my first ever tumblr mutual, @tendouthighs

Hi Codie!! Ik we haven’t talked a lot lately but just know that I appreciate your endless kindness and how you’re able to keep up with my smooth brain antics in dms so much. You’re so funny and I’ll treasure all the jokes and headcanons we’ve made, I hope you’re taking care and doing well heading into 2021! 💖💕

To wife Lyra @yacoka

Miss… Thank you sm for dropping by my inbox all the way back in like June/July because otherwise I don’t think I’d ever have gotten the courage to dm you LOL. It would be an understatement to say that you’re the kindest and most easygoing person I’ve met on here - I hope you know how grateful I am to have met you and read your works (and for lending me your knives and just being so?? supportive??? truly idk how you do it but ily 😣❣️)

To wife Joy @lesbians4yaku

Joy!!! I really don’t know where to start because you’re just so amazing?? And we’ve been mutuals for as long as I can remember ajdjfka I’m just,, so glad to have met you and I hope you know how much I love seeing you on the dash, whether it’s being able to marvel at the genius that is your mind whenever you make a haikyuu shitpost or reading your tags. You always make me laugh and smile and I am wishing you both of those things in 2021 bc u deserve the best, love u 🤍🤍🤍

To Arell, the sweetest soul I know @g4nyu

You have a natural talent for being able to make me both soft ™ and also laugh as freely as Tanaka and Nishinoya with your relatable quips and jokes and I adore you for it. (Also.. can we talk about how absolutely gorgeous your writing is I will nvr shut up.. also also I am here whenever u need to be enabled to rave abt any and all Haikyuu or Genshin characters <33) ily and ty for being my mutual, I feel v lucky to have u in my life 🥺

To Cal, a goddess in her own right @heyhinata

Ma’am the way ily?? You’re beautiful inside and out and I have sm fun talking to you. Being able to call you a mutual and read your works is a blessing and I’m so glad we started talking in dms ajsjfja I’ll never forget plotting smaus with you to raving abt Genshin and making fun of B*n Sh*piro, hidden muppet 😍 Wishing you the best in all that you do!

To Rae, fellow Tim Hortona enthusiast @mehreya

Hi bae I just want to start off with a big thank you. You’re such a wonderful and invigorating person to talk to and I always feel at ease talking with you, and seeing you on my dash with your interactions with others is always a light in my day. And for u I will embrace the Oikawa kinnie in me any day <33 ly and have an amazing New Years 🥰

To Ria, the absolute best and only Ria ik @kumaoi

Omg hi sexc 😍 ahdjkfka idk if you’ll see this but hey,, fun fact even if we don’t talk as much as we used to I still love u sm and I hope you’re staying healthy and happy !! Meeting you was and still is one of the best highlights of my tumblr journey and I’ll always be grateful for your existence

To Gracie, writer of all things beautiful @sneezefiction

Gracie!! I hope you’ve been doing well since the last time we talked and that you’re enjoying the New Years to the fullest <3 You were also one of my earliest mutuals and I just wanted to say thank you for all the kindness you’ve shown me and for writing and sharing your works on tumblr. Sending love ! 💖

To the one and only angel, Yas @whipped-cream-writings

Yas bb we only became mutuals rather recently but I have sm love for you 🥺 Your kindness inspires me and your fics are the cutest things ever (pls,,, teach me how to write fluff ahfjfkka) Ilysm and I want to remind you that you’re so wonderful and amazing, sending you all my love for the upcoming year ahead !!

To Kay, who I will protect with my life @kayzume

Kay I don’t know how to even begin to put in words how glad I am to have met you in Lyra’s server,, you’re so sweet and you make me feel safe every time we talk. (Also THE DRAWINGS u made and shared with us,,, have I alr said ily bc ily and all that you do.) I know we haven’t chatted in a while but I’m sending you all my hugs and kithes always 💕💕💖

To mutuals I’ve interacted with some time during these months on tumblr and cherish a whole lot @taiyaaki @kageyuji @sophiawithstars @buddh-art @sa-suga @baeshijima @cherryonigiri @catharsisbabey @tris-does-stuff @tetsurolls @come-on-shitty-boys @iwas-angel @star-puff @voxamcris @azucanela @heartjime @miyafeuille @suikazura @deerixiie @hajiimes @skateme2yokohama @aliteama @yuujiya @omijime and many others but I think I hit the tagging limitajdhfka

Hi ily. You’re all such inspiring and talented individuals and while we may not interact frequently or know each other as well I wish we cld be ajfjjfa but I adore you all and I wish you an amazing New Year 🥺💖 (and if you ever want to talk, feel free to dm or smth! and I’ll try my best to be more active in popping into my mutual’s inboxes amhahshsj)

To the pillars of tumblr @sugardaddykenma @hina-wit-da-glock @nidaenk

You are all so special to me in that you are the reason I would wake up and get my butt on this hellsite and find so much fun and joy in the fandoms I enjoy - it’s not even the content you post but just,, your amazing and stellar personality and interactions with your followers and mutuals alike. Thank you for being a part of this weird space on the internet and I hope you are taking care and being kind to yourself, love u very much <33

#long post #happy new years !!#again #proud of everyone for making it here #bye i dont mean it to but that sounds so cryptic #i shld stop rambling in tags

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hiimsociallyawkward · 3 years

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a servant of two masters

hi friends welcome back to me aimlessly ranting about merlin. up today we have 4.06 and this episode. wow. literally just the title gives me everything i need and i'm absolutley here for the chaos that will ensue. hi bestie @lady-ofmagic-andstars

i love them in their capes

i want a cloak

dude the 'oh it's not gonna happen' and then it happens trope is so dumb but i laugh every time

notice how the knights ripped off their capes

dude people are falling off of horses and out

MERLIN

ok ok but how is he injured. ik this is rated for kids but i really dk how badly merlin is injured. it looks like just his shoulder but he shouldn't be almost dying like his yk?

:,) arthru making jokes

ok but i love arthur taking care of merlin

alskdjflsadk them trying to make jokes to make each other feel better :,)

stop arthur. stop telling the truth merlin's not dying here 😭

bestie vibes only deadass

HAHA

a s s

side note, the site i get my screenshots from- this picture has 61 views while others average maybe like 10-15?? perverts HAHA just kidding

sok i'm actually really curious as to what merlin's injury is

alsdjf;lasdfjsaldfjsaldf merlin making the rocks fall

idk if it's jut the angling but i felt like the enemies were way too close for merlin to create an entire rock barrier. i don't have any screen shot evidence but so you're just going to have to take my word for it

ok but like who even are these men. they were working for morgana trying to capture arthur?

and what's morgana going to do once she has arthur? kill him and take his place on the throne? remember how well that turned out last time she tried that? no one wanted her. idk idk morgana is just confusing as to what she wants

pls die agravaine

haha strangely fond of the boy? there's nothing strange about it

ok i laughed but i also felt bad when morgana splashed merlin awake and flailed around like a fish

dude merlin is so snarky here and i'm HERE for it

ok i like the knights being competent. thank you thank you

and now they're riding back into camelot with their capes on? you're telling me they traced back their steps to find their capes, dusted them off to make sure that they weren't too dirty and didn't have any leaves or branches still sticking to it before riding back to camelot? iconic

poor gaius. ok he's the worst but he does think of merlin as his son and this makes me sad

ok i have a dumb question. do you think merlin understands whenever other magic users are casting spells? ok i feel like this is a dumb question now. but like, is magic a language? are all incantations in a different language, so when other person who knows magic is watching you- they know what you're trying to do and such? i feel like "of course they'd know" but i'm basing that assumption on hp where everyone knows that alohomora is alohomora and where everyone knows that lumos is lumos. but what about here? does merlin know what she's incanting? can he slightly understand it even if he's never seen/done it before? is magic a language like latin, and even if you aren't completely fluent, you and parse together things and make an assumptions?

arthur is just so sad here

i just, i have to have these here

yes bby figure out that we have a traitor

gaius is not slick in the slightest. yes. look at the traitor king

wow morgana being able to bond with the snake? i wonder how

ok question, does the fomorroh have some sort of loyalty to whoever calls them?

✨kill arthur pendragon✨

ok that snake going in his neck is actually scary

pretty castle counter: 5

btw this is actually my zoom background sometimes. it depends from call to call but it changes between this pretty castle and peeta mellark

G E O R G E

ok i've seen all the tumblr posts but it doesn't get less funny. the 'merlin's missing and we can't find him so we're going to replace him with another manservent dressed EXACTLY like merlin so arthur feels better' makes me chuckle every time

i would like to have that for breakfast

i like the loyalty arthur thank you. i love the loyalty pls. i love that they're friends. like, i love the romance but i love just people being friends too

ok this whole scene. arthur wanting to look for merlin because he has to at least try, gwen just wanting arthur to be careful and to come back to her, gwaine being buds. i love all the friendships in this and just yes thank you

ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok i'm not at the hug scene yet but i know it's coming and i'm beyond excited

ok this sound track is so cute.

saldkfj;asldkfjasldkfsd

matching icons for you and your best friends

deadass if someone wants to change their tumblr icons so we can match hmu bc i'm 100% down with that

another pretty castle scene

SASSY MERLIN PLS

ok ik this is dumb to comment on because i feel like it's not tremendously hard to execute but i love the differences that colin made in regular merlin and fomorroh merlin. it's the best

they say it later in the episode but i find it hilarious how bad of an assassin merlin is

dude pls you're pouring poison in front of EVERYONE else?

BOG MAN. ok guys i'm calling you guys bog mans now.

ASLDJFALSDFJS THE JEALOUSY SCENE

i am cringey but laughing at the same time you don't understand why am i this childish

ok but arthur is being so sweet right here. i feel like he's not trying to be showy in front of gwen, i feel like he wants merlin to rest and that's so sweet. he's so patient right here and i love him

i miss the gwen and merlin friendship actually

dude merlin is roasting gaius so hard today

leon geeking out over weapons is so cute. omg he's such a tiny nerd i love him

laskjflasdfj THIS SCENE. this makes up for the stew jokes that i may or may not still be mad about

i love that the knights LITERALLY turn a blind eye it's actually hilarious

LOOK AT MERLIN BEING COMPETENT?? HE'S SO SMART WITH THE ARROW RIGGING THING

it's literally treason leon pls and you're laughing you're the best 😭😭

i wish we had a pervical back story arc

ok i think it's dumb that i laughed when merlin ducked but i stand by that

ok why do i feel bad for arthur a little. he's talking abt some semi-deep stuff. not deep deep but like, he's trying to ask for advice from his friend, his close advisor. he would've never talked to merlin like this is season 1-2 but here he is, talking about trust. and MERLIN is trying to MURDER HIM. yes. i admit it's a little funny when i'm just watching merlin trip over things and such, but when i listen to arthur talking i feel slightly sad

literallly. merlin's passed out on the floor and arthur doesn't even think anything is wrong

gwen's face when she knocked merlin out is so cute

oop. why is arthur standing in agravaine's door way like an absolute robot

cyes arthur. figure him out

i hate agravaine. i just want arthur to be happy. he's only trusting agravaine because agravaine is family.

stfu agravaine 'you're all that's left of my dear sister' SHUT THE FRONT DOOR

ok there's a repeat of the castle from earlier but i'll spare you

pls this bath scene is so awkward. tt not being able to trust anyone anymore and we're laughing at merlin but arthur's talking so sad and deep

pls this bath scene is so awkward. that's all the notes i have

again, i miss gwen and merlin

merlin is MONCHING on those berries. i'm craving berries now

ok but like. yk that pouch that gaius is using to make the forromoh dormant? what if merlin tucked it in his neckerchief as a precaution. i'm just saying.

aslfkjasdaskdjf the tavern

yall why did merlin have to stop his horse to drink the potion

i want the knights to have a cool band name or smth yk what i mean?

i like that merlin is still a little in the camelot red. it's not the same shade but yk what i mean

HAHA LEON AND PERCIVAL BEING PUSHED TOGETHER. I JUST KEPT ON SCREAMING SUBTEXT SUBTEXT

damn morgana wants RESUKTS. i dont blame her

the frist interaction with merlin and morgana in the hut is so awkward. pls.idek how to comment on it

deadass morgana's dress is so pretty.

magic fight! magic fight!

stfu 'rightfully mine' pls

hehe there's a leaf in his hair

ok i feel like i should've commented more on the magic fight but idk bro

so ik that colin was in this whole episode but it really only just now feels like merlin is here and i think that's fun

arthur is the cutest. i'm loving this dynamic you have no idea. i live live live live LIVE off banter. pls

guys i'm sad apparently i can only put 10 pics in a post but pls enjoy this one pic of arthur right here 😭

ok idk abt you but i'd love to hear jokes abt brass

agaragvaine pls die already

YOU'RE SUCH A PERV LITERALLY

AWAY

NOW

dude that last scene was actually really pretty and i'm sad that i can't attach it now

anyways thanks for reading my long ass rambles. but i'll be back next week to the secret sharer i'll catch you on the flip side

#merlin #merlin bbc #colin morgan #emrys #morgana pendragon #king arthur #bradley james #gwen pendragon #angel coulby #morgana #katie mcgrath #gwaine #percival #elyan #leon #gaius

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