#like was it a fun one or not really worth it and i should just watch a horror movie instead?

[shanastoryteller]

Happy Birthday Shana!! Can I suggest Percy and Tonks? I hope you have a wonderful day 🌻

Tonks isn’t worried about Arthur. They’ve met, several times, and he’s always hurried and distracted and warm. She’s not sure he’s figured out that she’s dating his son yet, but Percy doesn’t really tell people things.

Case in point.

“Crouch is missing?” she frowns. “Should we do something about that? Should I do something about that? Missing people are supposed to be jurisdiction, more or less.”

He shakes his head. “The going missing is pretty standard, it’s the length that’s getting a little concerning. If he’s not back by the time the Triwizard Tournament is over it might be worth looking into. I’m just saying don’t mention my long hours to Mum.”

“Right,” she says uneasily. Percy’s mother. Who’s a Prewett and notoriously not as easy going as her husband.

“You don’t have to come to lunch with my mother if you don’t want to,” he says, and sounds like he means it. “She’s just going to criticize me for thirty minutes and not even really mean it and she might do the same to you. Don’t take it to heart. She doesn’t remember half of what she complains about.”

Tonks wonders how often Percy changed something in response to one of his mother’s throwaway comments before he realized that she hadn’t noticed and hadn’t cared. “Don’t be ridiculous. Of course I’m coming. What color should my hair be?”

She’s expecting him to say blonde or brown or even to match the infamous Weasley and Prewett red, but he kisses her cheek and says, “Her favorite color’s blue.”

She doesn’t imagine blue hair is going to endear her to Molly at all, but Percy knows she prefers something fun and vibrant and isn’t asking her to do anything else, even for meeting his mother.

Tonks locks the door to Crouch’s office with a wave of her hand and sees how long she can distract Percy from his work with something a little more than a kiss on the cheek.

Right now her personal record is eight minutes and thirteen seconds, but she has a good feeling about this one.

#prompt answers #prompts are closed #asks #anon #harry potter #siat

[cyberbunny07]

Just Trust Me

A Vox x Reader Ramble

A. N. I’m so damn tired but oh well. I’ll fix spelling tomorrow. Might add things? I dunno ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Btw made it gn somehow so yippee

Cw: Yandere Vox / hypnotize stuff / Grammar probably

Vox has taken a liking to his latest assistant.

As his assistant —hired by Velvette herself to get him to ‘Chill the fuck out, you mangy fuck’— you were tasked with making sure Vox wasn’t fighting with Val. And that he actually ate. You thought you died again when you saw him eat for the first time. Not too bad, right?

Right.

——

Only thing, you lived in the tower to ‘make things easier’. You wouldn’t turn down free housing. The only thing was how many electronics there were. And cameras. But, thankfully, there weren’t any in your room. He made sure to hide them well.

That, and the rather showy uniform he had you wear, were pretty normal. It was Hell, nobody was perfect. He was just making sure you wouldn’t snitch or lie or steal or whatever.

He also liked seeing his initial on you, but that’s besides the point.

——

You wouldn’t even realize anyone was wrong. If you had any suspicions in the beginning, he would easily sweet talk or even hypnotize you into listening. You were just a little birdy to admire.

Speaking of Birdy, that was his little nickname for you. A bit strange, but he probably did it to everyone. And because, you should just feel lucky to even work for him and stop questioning things-

——

After a while of being his little piece of decoration, he starts to feel… something. He doesn’t know what, be he knows that his newest intern clearly doesn’t know boundaries and don’t worry, sweetheart, he’s there to save you. From what? From him! He was trying to steal hit on you and you didn’t want that, did you?

That happened a lot. People trying to hit on you after you told them no. You did say no, right? Of course you did. And you always had him to save you from those annoying people. They were beneath you anyways.

——

He had you sit in on meetings to ‘take notes’. He really just wanted to show off the little bird he caught. Aren’t they just amazing? And nobody would steal you because you were his little Birdy. And if anybody tried, Val would have some fun during his little tantrums.

Speaking of Val, he was the whole reason for this. Vox had mostly ignored you up until Val got completely caught up with Angel Dust. With nobody for himself, he found you. His precious little Birdy. You would be all for him. You wouldn’t leave him for some stuck up prick, right? Right.

——

You can’t remember when it started, but the lines started to blur between being a bird on his shoulder to being his Birdy. But you loved it. It enjoyed the attention. It was all for you and it’ll all be worth it. All the waiting.

Waiting? Your head hurt, but Vox would be there to help. He was always there. He’d always be there for you. It certainly helped that he monitored your every move. All those cameras coming in use. He couldn’t let his Birdy get hurt.

What kind of boyfriend would he be if he did?

Boyfriend?

——

You never wanted to leave his side. Not when he was the only one to protect you. No, no, it was way too dangerous for you to leave. You might as well stay with him. All the time. Forever. Hell, you might as well move in with him at this point. And you do. It was your idea after all.

And he loves watching you do domestic chores. No more pretending to play nice. No more pretending to be okay with the bare minimum. There you were. All for him. And he would never let you go.

——

Just don’t wake up.

He doesn’t like that.

#hazbin hotel #vox x y/n #vox headcanons #yandere vox #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin vox #vox x reader #yandere vox x reader #yandere vox x y/n #yandere vox headcanons

[sophfandoms53]

Finished the Knuckles Show and uhhhhhhhhhh it’s certainly a show.

There’s good stuff buried in every episode especially where Knuckles is concerned. They set up a very interesting arc for him and just didn’t really explore much with it. After the first episode Knuckles is shoved to the side CONSTANTLY and is made the B plot more often than he should be as the TITULAR character.

Every criticism that said Wade takes over the show is correct.

After episode 1, Wade takes over every A plot and Knuckles is only ever in the B plot that has either minimal time focused on him or he’s just straight up not around (episode 4 is the worst offender here but it’s an issue from eps2-6). They actively write Knuckles out of the plot constantly and it’s very frustrating.

If you like Wade and enjoy his personal journey about his family then this’ll be fine. I, for one, thought it was interesting on its own but 100% it has no reason to be here in a SONIC MOVIE KNUCKLES spin off show. This is not Knuckles’ show. It’s Wade’s and that’s the biggest let down.

Knuckles IS there but that’s it, he’s just THERE.

And it sucks because Movie!Knuckles himself is very well crafted and very entertaining and engaging to watch. The show is at its strongest when it’s about Knuckles and spending time with him. Episode 1 is the only episode that it feels like what it was advertised as - the Knuckles show.

Sonic, Tails, and Maddie only show up for the first episode and never come back. Which is wild because part of the plot is Maddie has grounded Knuckles and he sneaks out but there’s never any consequences shown once he gets home nor do we see how anyone reacted once they noticed Knuckles is gone. These three are just abandoned after episode 1.

Tails has like 6 or 7 lines, my boy deserves sm better LMAOO

A big highlight, however, I LOVED Sonic in this one episode. The way you can see and FEEL how he’s grown from movie to movie and in this first episode is very well done. He’s truly becoming the Sonic I know and when he and Knuckles had their conversation on the roof where he tries to help Knuckles see the beauty in Green Hills, his home - that entire scene was PURE Sonic’s golden heart on display. He does still have his jokes that remind you Ben Schwartz is his actor and that he’s a silly kid but he IS still Sonic at his core and I loved that. It made me very sad we didn’t get to see more of him but I appreciated seeing Sonic handled this way. It makes me very eager to see how movie 3 goes about him considering everything Shadow brings to the table and how different of a threat he’s gonna be for Sonic.

Episode 2 is alright but GOOD LORD episodes 3-5 are such a waste of time. There’s good sprinkled in them in isolation but as full blown episodes, a waste. You can skip most of what’s happened and be fine.

The big climax fight in the finale just HAPPENS. The plot armor literally comes bursting through the wall and yanks Knuckles out of the plot for way too long and we only get TRUE and INCREDIBLE Movie Knuckles action (his fire fists which were insane btw) in the last 5 minutes and it only lasted like 2 of those 5 minutes.

Overall, it’s not entirely unwatchable but it’s not worth a majority of people’s time. You don’t need this for movie 3 so if you wanna skip it - I’d recommend that. If you really watch though, I’d only say watch the first episode and the finale and just google the context for what’s in between bc eps 2-5 are total slogs after a while.

If you like silly dumb fun - this is the show for you. But it’s not the show many Sonic fans may have wanted or expected.

I’m not angry or anything like many people have been. It’s not worth getting angry over. I’m moreso just disappointed because I can see a good show about Knuckles hidden in there. They just opted to give more time into Wade for whatever reason.

Just an overall let down imo.

Knuckles deserved better❤️

#i was so bored half the time ughhhh #i felt so bad but guys #it just wasnt worth it #anyways movie 3 save me save me movie 3 #sonic the hedgehog #miles tails prower #knuckles the echidna #knuckles series #sonic movie #sonic movie 2 #sonic movie 3 #sonic movie spoilers #knuckles spoilers #knuckles series spoilers

[thegreatyin]

Your posts about Fallen London are slowly tempting me into playing it- do you have any tips to start or is it best to play it completely blind?

i have a few tips and tricks! mind you im far from a veteran and i basically got my hand held by tumblr for most of the game so take everything with a grain of salt. you can and should do whatever you want always. i don't personally play it blind, but you may get more enjoyment out of it if you do, and that's awesome and im super happy for you. this is what i can say from experience:

take your time with it. this is like. the numero uno fallen london tip. it's not a game where you rush to the end in a week. it's a game where you do 10-minute-intervals of a marathon to the end in maybe a few months if you know what you're doing. spending money on action refills usually isn't worth it when you can just mosey on through neathly life one storylet at a time. a vast majority of the game's content is completely free to everyone, and while the monthly subscription options are pretty neat and let you play some exclusive story stuff (that can be pretty fire- cricket anyone basically defined the scoundrel's entire character) none of it is required and 99% of the time you aren't missing out on anything by just taking your time and exploring the neath at your own pace.

you need to raise all of your skills eventually! this is, uh. something im horribly guilty of not following myself. you can (and probably should) pick at least two stats to focus on for your character (most of the time these will be your main ambition stats, aka the closest thing FL has to a main story questline) but eventually you Will be expected to have them all at around the 100 range, minimum. for certain Super Late-game Story Content, watchful 200 is mandatory to start it, so if you have trouble choosing i'd recommend leveling that bad boy first. don't neglect your other stats though!!! don't be like me. don't be like my poor poor neglected shadowy and dangerous. it's too late for me. save yourself.

friends are fun and free and you are legally mandated to exploit them for fun and profit. okay you really aren't mandated to exploit your FL friends list but you totally should anyway just for goofy sillies. to be less jokey about it, while fallen london is primarily a single-player gaming experience, the playerbase is super friendly and super open to helping each other out (especially new players!). go on reddit, ask around on tumblr, get yourself a few buddies and use them as resources to gain items and stats and menace reduction i mean. valued companions that im sure you will treasure forever and definitely not backstab to publish that inflammatory newspaper article you've been cooking up.

on a very loosely similar note, the fallen london wiki is your best friend. yes, we're following stardew rules with this one. this is the kind of game best optimally played with a wiki article or three open in the neighboring tabs so you can follow along and know what is what. there's tons of guides on basically every part of FL, and it's no shame at all to reach out to either it or the wider community if you get stuck or feel lost at something.

if an in-game storylet has bold text, it will never lie to you! except for when it does. but that's very very very rare. you can always trust the bold text. it is always your friend. i prommy. which brings us neatly into our next bulletpoint,

seeking the name is ill-advised because it's the only storyline that can permanently brick your account at its conclusion. don't worry, the ease at which you can avoid this is practically comical, and the game will Always give you multiple chances to opt-out if you somehow accidentally start it anyway. most people make a dedicated alt character entirely for the purpose of sacrificing them to the well of doom. unless you're playing with your eyes closed for multiple months straight, you'll never run into SMEN without deliberately chasing it, and if you somehow get to that point honestly man just ignore this entire bulletpoint and see how far the rabbithole goes. go on. it's friendly :)

batfucking is always the right answer to any problem ever

echoes/the game's standard currency should always be thought of as a method of gaining items rather than a strict hoard of video game dollars. money-making can be super difficult in the earlygame, but it gets exponentially easier as you go further on. you shouldn't be afraid to sell anything you don't need, though personally i'd recommend keeping an "insurance stock" of the most basic items just in case. this includes rostygold, moon-pearls, honey droplets, etc. by-and-large, these are the easiest items to get in a pinch, and it usually isn't worth buying them from the bazaar when you can otherwise get them naturally through other methods around london. once you've got a good lodgings setup and feel decently familiar with the earlygame zones and their options, you should aim to have at minimum 1,000 of these bad boys on hand at any given time, then feel free to sell any excess you make for some quick cash in a pinch.

menaces aren't as bad as you may think, but be wary of specifically suspicion! the four main menace qualities you'll encounter in the earlygame are nightmares, wounds, scandal, and suspicion. when one of these menace stacks reach 8, you'll automatically be trapped in a unique location corresponding to whatever menace you raised too high and will have to spend time working your way out. some (nightmares and wounds) tend to fly-by rather quickly, while others (scandal and suspicion) tend to take a bit longer to get out of. none of these mean the end of your playthrough or your character, and some quests even require you to visit certain menace-exclusive locations! there are tons of items and ways to reduce menaces and keep yourself out of Situations such as these, but suspicion in particular is probably the only menace you should avoid maxing At All Costs. when your suspicion gets too high and you get sent to its special menace zone too often, you build up a criminal record that makes it harder to reduce suspicion in the future. fortunately, suspicion is the only menace with this gimmick, and before this record gets too high it's just as easy to keep row as the rest of the lot. TLDR, death from wounds is easy to escape from, but avoiding the strongarm of the law is substantially more annoying and inconvenient.

or you could be like tumblr user @with-bells-upon, who's apparently avoided death at all costs and apparently hasn't died once in the entire several months they've been playing. i don't even know how they've gotten this far without doing that. it's kind of impressive, kind of funny. especially since their ambition is one the few requiring you to die to proceed. this isn't a piece of advice i just wanted to affectionately call them out because what the heck

speaking of ambitions, pick the ambition that's right for you! ambitions are the biggest overarching questline in the game, and their requirements and rewards span the entire neath and occasionally even beyond. all four ambitions are meant to be started early and last well into the mid and late game. outside of a certain special situation regarding the light fingers ambition (the only ambition that explicitly lies to you in-game when describing its premise) you can't change your ambition without spending money, so choose carefully and choose well. they're all (mostly) equally rewarding and equally fulfilling adventures that will define your player character and your journey through the neath. there's tons of advice and spoiler-free summaries of each ambition online, so i won't cover it all here. just do your research (or don't, if you prefer) and follow your heart. maybe playing the world's most high-stake poker game ever speaks to you. maybe you want to commit a murder. maybe you want to commit a murder in the name of justice and/or revenge. maybe you just want a really really big really really shiny rock. all can be found in the neath, and all shall (eventually) be well.

if you buy 400 lucky weasels you get a special achievement. i don't need to say more.

make up a guy. this is another legal mandate if you're a fallen london player. you have to make up your own little sicko victorian london guy and roleplay them while you play. trust me. it's fun. it's free. they're going to haunt you forever. the scoundrel got a nickname like 4 months ago and ever since my mind has never known peace.

and probably most important of all, fallen london might not be the game for you, and that's okay. it includes a lot of reading. and grinding. and i do mean a lot of reading and grinding. particularly the latter, which tends to throw people off the most out of anything. it's a very niche game for a very niche audience and getting into it can be an acquired taste at the best of times. but when you do get into it, it's some Really good writing and Really in-depth worldbuilding and the most fun you'll ever have imagining sicko victorian guys running around building train stations and railway tracks directly to hell. take your time, have fun, and most important of all, always look to love.

anyway yeah that's my fallen london tips and tricks list isn't it really short and comprehendible

#im not really good at writing advice. hope this helps u out regardless #ask #fallen london #long post

[oceanwithouthermoon]

Haiiiii, do you hate people like this

Like bro that's so mean, like just respect what people do

LMFAOOOOO YEAH. i see these on pinterest allll the time.. pinterest is like a hole for people to either steal content or make weird 'controversial' posts like that, its pretty funny.. i mostly use the app for photography and art references, but i run into these quite a bit..

ive had a few arguments with people in the comments of posts like these ngl HAHA

most of them are just people who are stereotyping aroace people which im obviously especially bothered by since im aroace- i really dont like when people insist that saiki has to be aroace because he fits their stereotypical view on aroace people..

#i think most of the people posting these are pretty young- #so im not really for just being like MEAN to them #but i do think they deserve a reality check and need someone to tell them their opinion isnt everything- #and they shouldnt force their hcs on people and get mad when others dont hold their opinions in high regard #i guess the reason i dont wanna be MEAN about it is cuz i know some random girl on the internet isnt gonna change their mind #but i will continue to argue with people being mean on the internet either way #if even one person is like 'wait yea i really should be kinder' then its worth it to me #even if they dont idrc- its fun to have conversations about it either way hehe #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki kusuo #meows post

[untimelyambition]

now that we’re on the topic i would fucking love to read through the sheet music for nerdy prudes must die… not even to play or try and put on my own performance but just so i could read it and follow along with the show to try and work out all the harmonies

#this is a complete hypothetical #i get why it’s not available ofc and why thats not something you can access or even something theyd want to try and market or sell #but in the way of like. #imagine i could check it out of a library and just have one or two watch throughs of the show with it in front of me #and finally FINALLY pick out all the different notes im hearing clearly so it all clicks together in my brain #i dont even really do that much music anymore so my sheet reading skills are probably out the window #regardless imagine how fun that would be to just peruse the score while you listen to the songs #would heal something in me i think #i dont want/need to own it and certainly wouldnt want it for like putting on my own show or reproducing it or anything like that #i just think it would be fun to flip through like a magazine like a coffee table book like a film script #anyway you should all totally buy the bonus content and digital download of npmd if you havent already it is 100% worth it #im having the time of my life #TEAM STARKID I LOVE YOUUUUUUU #npmd #nerdy prudes must die #starkid #tilda rambling

[bookshelf-in-progress]

A big part of author life is learning to make peace with the stories you'll never write.

#adventures in writing #there are layers to this #one part is learning that not every intriguing idea can or should be a complete story #you can just let it sit in an idea folder as a fun daydream and that's fine #then there are the ones that just cycle through #catch your attention for a while but then fall away #but every so often they come to mind and get developed further #and it's likely that one day maybe some of them will stick around long enough to get written #then there are the ones you have to let go #they interested you for a long time and may even have in-depth developments/significant parts of drafts #and you have to recognize that there were fatal flaws to the idea that prevent it from coming to life #and/or you've moved beyond the person you were then and aren't going to be able to write that story in the way it needs #but some of those still stick in your head #coming to mind and making you think maybe you could revamp them into something usable #and you gotta decide if it's worth the effort or if you should prioritize more recent ideas #because this process is cumulative and gets worse as you get older #today i am very very close to trying to find someone who's read my arateph stories #and asking if they'd let me just spill all the plot points of all the arateph retellings i've never written #some have fatal flaws but all have at least some aspect that i really loved #and it kills me not to have any of it in other people's imaginations #the main character and themes of the princess and the pea one #the character arc potential of the goose girl one #the clever (i think) twist on the central little red riding hood moment #one heartwrenching scene in rapunzel #i don't know if i'll ever be able to write the stories but the ideas still live in me and sometimes it hurts to keep it inside #anyhow have a good day

[szczylpierdolony]

i love not taking my meds and then complaining im experiencing symptoms. girl it’s your own fault

#omg why can’t i get out of bed and do things :((( #<————— hasn’t taken antidepressants regularly since like the first half of july #and mind you i started them in july as well #but they weren’t really working i don’t think???? #i started showering more regularly but that’s abt it #but bc of that they don’t feel like it’s worth the hassle #and yes i consider having to remember to take one pill a hassle #and i should call my doctor bc there aren’t many left but i don’t feel like doing that #what’s gonna happen i’ll go and say they didn’t do shit and that’ll be it #ig theres a chance she’ll have me take a higher dose #when i first started going to her and she asked me abt my prev meds and when i told her my dosage #she just went: and it wasn’t suggested you go higher? #which likely didn’t happen bc when asked if just say i was doing ok bc i was ig by my standards #but i think my doctor thought i was functioning which wasn’t the case not really #that’s the issue i think i have no idea what to say to doctors so i just go yeah i’m ok idrk why i’m here #so it never goes anywhere #but they rarely question me either so idk shouldn’t they be trying to see if the suicidal person is being truthful lmao #anyway bc i haven’t been taking the meds regularly i’m now experiencing the fun fucked up heartbeat thing again

[quietwingsinthesky]

You really have no idea how long it takes to make a podfic until you do it yourself

#this isn’t like a jab or anything it’s an observation. #the same way someone might look at a finished painting and not know the hours of work behind it #unless you’ve done that yourself you know? #I stand by podfics being an important transformative work in fandom. for accessibility and for just the joy of making them. #and highly recommend giving it a try to really understand how much work goes into giving you fanfic audiobooks lmao #but actually okay you don’t need to try I have some numbers right here if you’d prefer #so uh the one I’m working on now. it’s a fic about 1.7k words long. #which was about ~22 minutes of recording. the recording is the easiest shortest and. usually the most fun part. because saying words is fun #but anyway that 22 minutes got edited down to around the final runtime of 13 minutes. #(this is before I go through it again to see if I should re-record a line or two.) #(usually only do that if something got Monumentally messed up because it’s sometimes hard to make two different recording sessions sync up #and sound similar enough to not throw the listener off. for me anyway. I’m not the greatest editor rip.) #anyway so. 13 minutes of podfic. #so want to guess how long the first round of editing took? #about an hour. give or take. #this stuff is time consuming! worth it! but time consuming. #so what im saying is if you see podfics that are multiple hours long. salute your troops.

[salsflore]

ummmm

#oh mika there is beauty in life~ look at your future! everything will be worth it in the end~ #my favorite image on this device btw ^ #cw negative #cw vent #you know where this is going. apologies my mind is a mess and i really just need to get it out because i find its better than- #-writing a semi formal email to that One (1) emotional support organization and i’m afraid to make a call so #but i just genuinely believe things would be better off if i weren’t alive. a bit of a silly thing to jump to i know but #my tuition fees aren't cheap and i'm not even that great of a student or a daughter or a sister and i- #-have no talents or remarkable feats. i’m not impressive in any way. and i hate hearing shit about how ^_^ its okay! we all have something- #-special about ourselves! for example maybe you have really good hand writing and thats good enough ~ but that doesn't work for me because- #-i have nothing. my handwriting isn't good my singing isn't good i'm not artistically gifted i don't have some random affinity for puzzles- #-i'm not charming or somehow really good at calculation or super creative or a really comforting friend i really have nothing at all #i don’t want to die. i have no plans on doing that sort of thing anytime soon— don’t misunderstand me #i just wholeheartedly believe i don’t deserve to be here anymore not because i’m not loved. i just can’t stand myself and my teenage years- #-feel so long and i'm so fragile how much longer do i have to tolerate. i'm contributing nothing. why should my family have to feed and- #-clothe a burden like me who provides nothing. why should my friends care for someone like me. i’m not really that funny or sweet or great- #-with advice giving or pretty or helpful in any way. why is it that life is genuinely easier for others. what did i do? what can i do? #how much longer must i tolerate this? would you believe me if i said i really did try to change my mindset this time? #i have no one in real life to talk to. therapists are pricey and i don’t think mine was helping me in any way anyways. she was nice though #so every night i sleep hoping i wake up somewhere else. somewhere where i'm happier and i can live all my silly fantasies where i'm a fun- #-and lovely person who has everything she wants and nothing goes wrong ever!! #how much longer must i hang onto the little things. i’m in such an exruciating amount of pain that i want to kill myself without dying? lol #everyone repeats the same stuff. get bit #i can't rely on the joy of having coffee every morning or persevere for the sake of seeing cute cats on insta. nothing will ease the burden

[hartenlust]

this is also just partially because i got rsd this afternoon from the guy im seeing but also im right and i should get to kill

#op #literally the horror of communicating your desire #and also the horror of people not doing so #anyway yeah let me overshare about the rsd to focus on that it was so silly i walked with him to his work and he said goodbye a bit rushed #which . he was literally late for work and we were standing in front of the open door with us being very visible for the other employees #so makes super sense #but my brain's like no hihi he hates you #like he wasnt the one who invited me over #planning on initiating more physical contact next time i should communicate because he Is autistic but i dont think hes touch repulsed but #yknow communication consent etc #hanging out with him is very fun though #i feel a bit floundering sometimes but ill find my footing and its worth the effort to do so because like i said . its really fun #and hes hot as fuck #if you read this far . does anyone have any date ideas #we're going to bind books together & make . miku binders lol #but thats a bit of a project & more effort #i think just coming over again & bringing my laptop so we can watch hannib/al (filtered 4 tags) further but in the evening is also good #but if someone does have a date idea thats swagalicious #his couch sucks though like his apartment is super fancy because he hires it from like old people who live there #but are now fucked off to somewhere #but yeah its very fancy but the couch is also fancy which means its pretty comfortable but super bad for cuddling which didnt help #anyway im also scared he follows me on tumblr LMAO #if this sounds too like something you did this afternoon. dont let me know <3 #i rlly dont have date ideas i started with museum and now im blank #maybe a picnic somewhere. go to the beach #okay bye im gonna finish star/struck now

[saint-gerard-of-arc]

😬

[rant in the tags]

#witchy.txt #i am THIS close to just fucking delete the cursed motley crue images blog #I swear to god. I swear to god if I see one more person blow my notes the fuck up with likes I'm gonna burn the place to the ground #they're not even reblogs!!! what are you gonna do. save those pics for later??? i-- #UGH #this isn't instagram you fuckers. you absolute fuckers #you absolute clowns #sorry I just. I don't know I'm frustrated okay? it used to be fun but now it's the third time TODAY that ppl would spam like the blog #the only reason why I keep that shit up is to read the tags of pppl rbing the pics bc y'all are so much funnier than me #but when someone just spam likes it boils my piss #and really makes me question if it's still worth it #I'm questioning if it's worth the anxiety everytime I see this wall of notifications of nothingness #ugh-- okay I'll fuck off now sorry for the rant #maybe if I get anxiety for notifications I really should either take a break or just delete the blog huh #but on the other hand. I feel like the cursed blog has so much more to offer #(eventually when I get up my ass and actually update it with more pics) #like I'm on a mission here and it's not over yet #ugh whatever y'know. just whatever #I'm just shouting in the void here so who cares

[zeraphias]

i am feeling the “no motivation for drawing” demon slowly creep up behind me so i may or may not have a little art break 😓 . perhaps i will post the last couple of doodles i did. we shall see

#the last thing i posted not getting much of a response is taking more out of me than it should be #like i should not be this disappointed girl Relax!! #but i’m feelin that way so i’m gonna take a break to try & make sure i’m not like. putting too much value into this #as in i need to make sure i’m not gutted whenever my art doesn’t get much attention lmao #this is for fun this is for fun this is for fun this is for fun #how much people respond to my art is not a measure of my self worth #note. i love & appreciate everyone who did or didn’t respond to my art & liked it #u mean everything to me even if u probably won’t ever see this #i’ve just been in a weird mental state recently so i think this disappointed me Unexpectedly #anyways i think i’ll post one doodle thing today #& another next weekend. just things i have that i haven’t gotten around to finishing (& probably never will really 😔) #i’m feeling alright btw. just weird. deciding to maybe go back to college next fall. we shall see :3

[arthur-r]

i have a job interview tomorrow for a babysitting job i don’t even want….

#an irl friend used to babysit for this family #and now they really really need a babysitter. they pay $7 an hour according to tara which is even less than my job that rips me off #and i get that babysitting is different but this is the kind of job for someone who isn’t old enough to work a minimum wage job yet #like im professionally employed and if im getting another job i want it to actually make a dent in paying for college #and actual life expenses and all of that. not a little mini subminimum wage side hustle #i literally already have a subminimum wage main hustle. if im working somewhere else it’s going to be a grocery store goddammit #but anyway basically just. i never texted those people about babysitting because i didn’t really want to. but then my irl followed up #and says they really really need a babysitter and i should really get in touch with them. so i did #i introduced myself as ari and we’re meeting up tomorrow at 2:00 pm. so that’s fun #like i won’t object if this becomes what i do with some of my evenings every week i won’t be upset or like. say no #but i just wish i didn’t have to reach out about it in the first place. like. yes im looking for a second job. but please understand it’s #i already have a job where the terrible pay is made worth it by a loving and not-too-busy workplace environment #i really don’t need another one of those…. like i love kids but it’s just. when i say im looking for a second job what i mean is a $16/hour #fast paced grocery job within biking distance four or five mornings a week #then i’ll actually be getting somewhere. i don’t want to set a whole night aside for $21 when i could be with my own baby sister #but anyway yeah. that’s what im going to be up to tomorrow. 2 pm mark your calendars arthur will be out and gone #im so tired i need a hug #also i think im heading to bed any minute because my mom gets home on tuesday and i have to get my room clean before she sees me and so i #need to go to sleep early so that i can wake up early so that i can go for a walk with the irl i mentioned and then meet that family #idk i’ll just get the babysitting job and my pizza job and add a grocery job and all of a sudden i’ll be a millionaire or something #might as well make the most of my time this summer all it’s going to be otherwise is family time and i miss my baby sister but still #anyway i also might still end up making and selling jewelry before this summer is over. i might be able to buy a car or something after that #….or a limited edition used fender stratocaster in fiesta red with gold hardware. but um. here at arthur inc we spend our money responsibly #however if i buy that guitar i can sell my current guitar which my dad got for free from a friend…. which means…. turning a profit (kinda) #anyway idk. my main focus is always college but i want to have fun with my life too. it’s getting harder to budget responsibly #man this post is going to be a minefield of bots. hate talking about money and jobs on tumblr dot com #but anyway just. i should probably sleep but yeah im getting another job most likely. and then probably another one #but im probably logging off of tumblr now. just had to take a second and say all that i guess #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[startingfires]

i'll probably forever live off the high of chloe moriondo looking at me while i screamed sang my little heart out during manta rays

#I SKIP EVERY SONG THAT WON'T REMIND ME OF YOU CAUSE IF IT DOESN'T IT'S NOT WORTH MY TIME #i was really feeling it and had my eyes closed and when i opened them she was looking at me #small venues i love you #will i ever shut up about this concert? no <3 #it was probably one of the most fun nights of my life #and me and my friend looking at each other like !!!!!!!!!!! whenever they started playing a song we said we wanted to hear #fruity has been stuck in my head since it came out #the crowd went all out during hell hounds and fruity it was incredible #also bodybag beloved #and i want to be with you has grown so much on me and was definitely a highlight #ok i just got back from a should have been 4.5 hour trip that turned into 12 (thanks deutsche bahn) and it's almost 3am so i should #stop rambling #anyway i love chloe

[running-in-the-dark]

the concert is tomorrow, and I'm really, honestly not looking forward to it. it's just anxiety and/or panic, depending on how much I let myself think about it. right now the only positive thought I have about it is 'in 24 hours it'll finally be over'

I really fucking hate being like this.

#like... I haven't like a band this much since I was like 15. #I should be excited #this should be fun #but it feels more like I'm being punished #it feels like being in hell #*I haven't liked #god I just. literally hate my brain #like. positive thinking doesn't work. there's nothing positive there. I don't know how to have positive thoughts if my brain won't let me #think anything positive #like I CAN'T be excited about it! I want to be! I'm trying! but there's nothing! and no one understands! #like I'm going to see toto tomorrow. I'm going to see two people I like A LOT. so why does it feel like I'm about to die or something #this really makes me think I will never ever do anything like this again #like even if some of it might end up being fun.. it's kinda not worth it? I've been SO anxious for weeks. it gets worse every day. #I don't want to feel this way again #so I guess I'll just fucking sit at home for the rest of my life because everything is too much #😭 #personal #I should have a tag for this stupid concert