#lol still looks dreadful

[martianbugsbunny]

Screencap from a scene in X-Men First Class (but flipped upside-down bc they were in the middle of an Obi-Wan level happy landing lol):

Nabbed it because I love how Erik's response to Charles free-floating in the cabin during a plane crash was to just throw himself down on top of Charles and magnet himself to the plane it's so CUTE so PROTECTIVE

but I'm having immense internal screaming about the way Charles has grabbed onto Erik's wrist?!?!?!?! I love them so much?!!?!?

#didn't notice that until I flipped it #and now I'm terribly glad I did #this scene is such a gem #whole movie is sooooo cherik but I can't get over the way Erik just hurled himself on top of Charles to protect him #they're literally everything to me now #rabidly consuming content bc I love them #AAGHAHGAHAG Charles grabbing onto him for dear life somebody help! #keep looking at the pic and keep feeling wormy in the brain about it #x-men #x men first class #Charles xavier #erik lehnsherr #cherik #professor x #magneto #magneto x professor x #professor x x magneto #lol still looks dreadful #protective bf #martianbugsbunny ships

[goblins-riddles-or-frocks]

forever obsessed with dynamics between vampires, specifically that of a maker and fledgling, as a way to explore abuse. the creation of a vampire itself can so easily be a literalization of the lasting impacts of trauma and also much more simply the ways a perpetrator might shape their victim’s very identity. the extremes of isolation in the way that the new vampire, in most narratives, must cut all ties to their mortal life, or else go through an elaborate charade to maintain the facade of humanity, while forever still being removed from it. and the sheer dependence and vulnerability of being in an entirely new state of being, wholly uncertain of what it entails, and relying on another person to define… everything.

#or just the moral dilemmas #rewatching amc interview is kind of making me insane #that moment in episode two when louis is looking for a sort of assurance in the fact that lestat may actually have some good in him #look at how he cares about music look at the simple wondrous things that can bring him joy #and then the immediate dread when the opera performance turns out to be imperfect because he knows how lestat will react to *that* #I think there’s also something really interesting in the highlighting of lestat upbraids the less skilled singer before killing him #(slowly) #but also I will wait to watch more before I articulate my thoughts #vampires #interview with the vampire #amc interview with the vampire #i ramble sometimes #I do still find the lestat and claudia film and novel dynamic by far the most compelling for how she tries to usurp him but almost to be him #but I’m enjoying this #I’m very curious if I will like show claudia more on rewatch #the movie always resonated most with me (sue me lol) because there seemed to be more simultaneous fondness and attachment even at the end

[braisedhoney]

The end is never the end is never the end is never the end…

Brushes:

Jingsketch sketch round (for everything)!

(we interrupt your usually scheduled content to bring you… The Button.)

#surprise! i do actually draw for more than one thing! #or i try to anyway #still stuck with iswm brainrot don’t you worry #but anyway here’s a very ominous looking stanley because holy hell was that ending something #no spoilers don’t worry lol #the stanley parable #tsp #tspud #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp stanley #tsp fanart #uhhh actually i just remembered mark did a playthrough of the game like a week ago #BUT i swear to you that isn’t why i drew this lmao #this game slaps okay #does this count as horror #or is everything about tsp just existential dread + funny commentary #… yes #that’s probably the answer to that #ney’s art

[isilwhore]

Rings of Power may be questionable, but I would die for him

#Isildur #I am simultaneously dreading and looking forward #to the return of this mess (affectionate) #I dont give af I love him #lotr rings of power #rings of power fanart #ROP #trop #rop fanart #lol who is even still looking for these tags 😭 #xx

[sysig]

One better (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #I knew going into this and it was still so distressing :'0 #Who needs plot twists when you can create such an intense sense of Dread #Probably doesn't help that I read this At Night In the Dark lol - actual shivers #Gods this was a hard scene to read - there have been several instances of my face hurting from furrowing my brow so hard haha #The way that ''Doctor'' is written is So skillful - I'm so impressed by everyone's prose and quirks and syntax! #Not to mention when he breaks character in a later scene to apologize for taking a bit to move the scene along haha <3 Play!! #It really does speak to just how much skill and effort is put into everything <3 It's so well done all the way around!! #Anyway to the actual scene at hand lol ow :') Drawing blood is always fun but I wish it wasn't his ;u; #Ugh the way he takes the surgeries is so well written - fear of course but a kind of stoic suffering as much as he's able to - #Until it comes to his eye #Ugh the /break/ of it all he goes from so eloquent - almost snarky and silly! Still trying to find an out make peace do /something/ #It all goes completely out the window he's so /reduced/ and nothing hurts worse than that ughughugh #For all his intelligence and wit and prior successes and charm and just - everything that makes him /him/ to be dissolved into abject fear #It's so sad ;; And so well done <3 #And he still holds enough of himself to know what he'd be losing wegh it's so sad!! He's so defined by his vision as most VUX are it's fjdsl #Zelnick is already gone by this point but I wanted to throw him in for extra sad flavour :') #Plus - I've mentioned his post-Op was one of the ones from the gallery that Actively kills me every time I look at it #Can you imagine my heartbreak to find out that he didn't have his Captain to comfort him after this in actuality? That he was fully alone? #''Are we home? Is it over?'' ''N...not yet'' - The Absolute Devastation of realizing that Never Was not really #Just tear my heart out why don't you ugh I'm fully bleeding out 💔 #That last one is actually meant to be Max but it's open to interpretation :) #I think it's such a waste that his eye was just disposed of! Someone else could've used that (lol) #I do think there's something to the idea of seeing what used to be a part of your body elsewhere - like the Leftovers! #Even just keeping as a memento tho - a trophy - insult to injury but literally #Just points to no one being special and nothing being sacred I suppose

[silenthillbunni]

🤧🐀🌧️🌊

#need to clear my head; #im in such a bad mood. my face is in a perpetual angry state. im just so so bitter nd pessimistic rn #trying not to get stuck in negative chaos thought spirals nd to just take it as it come #nd be patient bc recovery takes time i know. but i havent been able to feel healthy or functional for 7 months nd i am so tired #i cant help but worry abt my health nd what kinda diet i can have nd how to work all of that out. #like the removal of the gallbladder dont ensure a good digestive system. they remove it bc it can irrepairably hurt u #also im so so stressed out abt school nd my courses. i already had to drop one last week. nd it isnt looking like i'll be able to pass my #eng class.. it just isnt looking like it's realistic at all :/ i personally dont mind if i fail. but i can get issues w my wellfare hmm #bc like im still feeling rough nd u only get sick leave for one week after surgery.. so i have to go on thursday nd friday but im gnna #be in pain plus be so hungry nd be unable to concentrate idk #idk idk!! im already willing to take out loans to finish my upper secondary school.. but i have to make it work w timing nd stuff so im not #sitting here unable to pay rent or the bills or food lmao. so idk have to fix it somehow #nd the pressure of this country rapidly declining state is stressing me tf out!! having nazi conservative rightists in the ruling is just #dreadful!!!! for many reasons but atm idek if i can do distance classes like i wanted to :// #i just.. wanna be able to go for my long walks. go to the gym. eat normally. have coffee. study nd finish highschool. #then apply for whatever program i can nd move to another calmer city. prob eventually find a path to move to another country. like norway.. #im thinking too much but my thoughts are spinning nd killing me like i cant stop it im so scared nd anxious lmao 💀 #im also trying to be brave and write to the psych clinic for personality disorders nd be upset nd 'beg' them for help ksksksks. #but like... the thing abt having avpd is that i kinda dont wanna bc im scared of the possibility of them helping me lol #im just in a low place nd bad headspace and it's just getring worse nd im getting more nd more tired #i dont have much more energy to keep it together nd pretend like im ok or like i have hope lmaoooo idk what to do #anyway... idk idk guess i just gotta .. keep crawling forward anyway i can

[mbat]

maggie and nina telling crowley that him and azi suck at talking and need to talk to eachother and crowley looking like some sort of sad cat behind his glasses

#i love that the glasses are so transparent this season #you can see his eyes like 85% of the time lmao #so much expression almost not there but its still there #good omens #crowley #my post #its also harder to see these things with low quality or different lighting but i have a rly nice comp and monitor lol #wish i could take screenshots but amazon prime is a fucking loser #closest i have is taking strange looking photos on my phone #alternate caption: dreading what comes next knowing its going to be fucked up

[dreadintrusion]

If they make a Halo reboot I will actually go nuclear

EDIT: just rumours! So we can breathe easy

#hearing talk around and all I can say is NO :) #why would you throw away an entire universe and story like that not to mention spit in the face of literally everyone #if this ever happens I will literally walk out of this series and never look at it again #don’t you fuckin destroy everything that’s been built for your goddam profits we are already struggling w bullshit management #don’t you throw out all that goddam lore and worldbuilding don’t you disney Star Wars me I swear to god #also lol this would enrage everyone I’m pretty sure like MAN #dread talks #this is maybe overreacting to a possibility that may never happen BUT STILL I GOTTA SAY IT #FUCK REBOOTS #remasters/overhauls of games are not the same tahts just making an old game prettier/updated

[james-p-sullivan]

the thing about nanowrimo is if you end up skipping a day, the next day can be quite daunting but if you skip TWO days?

oh man. Oh Man.

#im trying the 50k word challenge #but i wrote a collective 7 words over the weekend (i was rlly busy) #and now im looking at a 5800 word count due today #there’s no doctor at the clinic today so i have fuck all charting to do #so i might be able to get it done #i can reliably write 1-2k words per hour #but I’ve hit a stonewall in my fic #i wrote the part that i was excited about/dreading #and now my brain is like ‘okay I’m done :)’ #but there’s still 1.3 chapters left #nanowrimo #fan fic talk #sulley speaks #WAIT #ITS 4800 #OKAY #THATS DOABLE #lol i can math

[live-at-fortune-city]

part 2 of sketching out dead rising characters and arbitrarily giving them fursonas oops

#target4alterego.png #dead rising 2 #dead rising #betting these guys have like maybe 3 posts on tumblr lol #snowflake dr2 #brandon whittaker #carlito keyes #isabela keyes #reed wallbeck #animal explanations GOGOGOG #comedically realistic snowflake. I don’t know what Ted is yet #puli dogs have those brandon dreads. he’s just one of those but a man #keyes siblings both are cats bc that was always planned out but I didn’t have like #coat markings planned. since I did dr3 first I was like haha that would be evil. #snowshoe cat and like one of those super diluted Siamese cats! most of the marked orphans are calicos anyways #reed is still a lion he’s just way funkier looking now. get fangs nerd #I shoulda put roger on here too it feels wrong just tagging Reed solo lol

[demo-ness]

world of warcraft released some april fools patch notes, and the whole thing is pretty good, but this is the best part

(ID in alt)

context because i know no one follows me for my once in a blue moon wow posts: Plunderstorm is a limited time event they've been doing that's a battle royale. it's completely fine, i imagine not as good as fortnite, but it has a lot of the most vocal players SEETHING. they'll point to a lot of different reasons they think it's garbage, some more valid than others, but i kinda suspect they're mostly the kind of players who ONLY play WoW and just aren't into battle royales.

but because there's cosmetic rewards for the main game attached to it (40 tiers worth), and it IS technically world of warcraft, they're playing it and crying the whole time about how blizzard forced them to do this evil and twisted mode.

Noblegarden is the "almost 2 decades ago we didn't want to have christianity in our fantasy world but wanted to include easter anyways" event. they're describing easter egg hunting.

#this post isn't as funny because it's 70% explanation of the joke #but i hope the double whammy of THERE'S A BR MODE IN WORLD OF WARCRAFT???? and making fun of us wow players still hits :) #hush me #world of wow #sorry if this ends up in the main tag #i'm not usually a wow blogger don't look at me #anyways my hot take is that there IS pvp in the fucking egg hunts and it's because the eggs aren't instanced #an ACTUALLY dreadful gameplay loop of most players just kind of camping at one of the spawns and waiting lol #no matter how you feel about plunderstorm. it is at least better than the egg grind

[cuntstable]

i wish i could write meaningful poetry or even do comics properly to express ideas and things in my brain that haunt me a bit but i cant so im just left sitting on my bed staring at a wall and going Huh. Okay.

#today ive been thinking a lot about like. google earth of all things LOL #but specifically how id use it all the time as a kid and ofc id look up our house at time in the street view #but now as an adult more than a decade later when i go to our old street address in google eartb the pictures the same. it hasnt been #updated (understandably since its a remote shitty run down apartment in the outskirts of a remote small town in finland of all places #but still. i cant really describe the feeling of looking at a still of my childhood home taken by an outsider as anything but like. dread #because that moment thats still perserved on google earth is from when that house was the most violent and unsafe place in the world to me #and it just stays like that. frozen in time. something about ghosts caught on cameras maybe idk. #doesnt help that we dont have photos of the place really (no one felt like documenting it at the time lol) so its the only thing i have. #this completely From An Outsiders Pov still. its uncomfortable to look at. especially remembering being a child shortly after our street was #added to the site and looking at it during that time period. Man. #and when i do occasionally as an adult use google earth i always think about it too like everything i look at is Someones past

[guardian-angle22]

So just throwing this other point for why it doesn't make sense from a story telling point to kill off Gabriel. He's also law enforcement and they can bring him out for plot points they want to explore that don't make sense for Carlos and then not have to spend time finding another actor to cast as a Texas ranger. And if I remember right Tim justified killing off Gwyn and Charles because he didn't know what to do with them. I have no idea what this tragedy is but hopefully it isn't something that makes zero narrative sense like killing off Gabriel or cruel like giving Tk huntingtons disease

[follow up to this post]

Hmmm that is a very good point!

Mark this under The Dreaded Thing is Not Happening column, thank you for your contribution!

#anon answered #911ls spoilers & speculation #if i werent so strongly looking for things to go in The Dreaded Thing is Not Happening column I would maybe point out a thing #(and that thing is the reoccurring character of Detective Washington) #BUT! I am ignoring that pls and thx #also small note but I do think Charles was technically killed off cause the actor got another better job and Tim... #... didn't know how to work around that & therefore 'didn't know what to do with him' - i'm not still bitter at all about that btw 🙃 #negativity discourse all the bad words #<- only kinda but I know people are already sick of this gabriel talk and i don't blame them lol

[goldensunset]

absolutely no shade to anyone on tumblr bc there’s no right or wrong way to tag things but it is pretty funny every time someone reblogs a post and tags it as every single existing iteration of that media’s name or whatever. like bestie that doesn’t do anything here on tumblr it doesn’t do anything promotional for op. you would only do that if that was your original post and you were trying to gain traction for it. meanwhile for reblogging the only purpose of tagging things is for organizational purposes so you can find it again easily. in other words reblog-tagging is for you. or the people already on your blog. you really only have to pick one tag per thing and commit to using it bestie. spare yourself the effort of typing all that mess. love yourself

#like if you looked at the tags i used you’d see that my only posts tagged as twewy or ntwewy are my original posts #bc i use those tags for traction while i spell out the names for organizational purposes aka all posts #again. do it your way if it makes you happy. but it is kinda funny to me #unless those two separate tags actually mean something different to you #(like ‘the world ends with you’ meaning specifically that game vs ‘twewy’ meaning the IP as a whole including neo and the anime or w/e) #i personally don’t like confusing the two which is why i changed ‘twewy tag’ to ‘subaseka tag’ #(meanwhile i only still have one tag for twewy universe original posts and i use ‘mine: twewy’. lol. sorry i’m not quite THAT committed #as to tag og content from the two games separately. read all my posts boy) #maybe that makes me look pretentious but i was tired of having three different tags with the acronym ‘twewy’ in them #it was visually annoying to me #which is also why i changed my neo tag to a full spell out (it was previously ‘neo twewy’) #also the dreaded inconsistency between ‘the world ends with you’ and ‘neo twewy’ was just. awful. #peach rambles

[batz]

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#frank.txt #have to go on diamox again i have the bottle of meds but im just DREADING it #also am i even still in remission if i gotta continue treatment this is BS. everything looks normal but i do not Feel normal #so theyr throwing diamox at me again #LUCKILY its only 4 pills a day instead of 6. when I was taking 6 a day Constsntly it was Bad #i was 24/7 sick and my face and hands and feet were numb and i was shrinking sm it HURT #diamox turns me into human koolaid jammer . human caprisun. just slurps out all the nutrience(tm) and tries to turn me into a Skeleton #i already look ill enough but diamox turns me into a vampire #gonna get into corpse paint just play into the sickly pale look itll be fun<3 #lol

[seilon]

kinda wild how you can have almost every aspect of your life deeply intertwined with someone else for years and then have all of that thrown in your face when that person decides none of it meant anything and, in fact, was toxic and purge-worthy

#hahahaha it’s been a bad day #and I am spiraling and all around not having a good time #I keep looking at the bulletin board in my room that used to make me so happy to look at because of all the good memories on it and the #reminder of there being people who care about me and now it just sorta. does the opposite #most of it just makes me feel. dread. #he’s in almost every picture and 80% of the people in the pictures in general I don’t talk to anymore for one reason or another #mostly people who just drifted away because I’m absolutely terrible at staying in touch with people #like not in a quirky way. like actually actively ruins relationships for no reason level bas #but some of them are people who purposefully don’t talk to me anymore #found out recently about one of these people. it’s someone I’d been friends with for like 15 years. purposefully blocked me #I believe because of whatever bullshit my ex has told her. she never asked me about anything so whatever she knows is #heavily biased and probably warped #because I don’t have anyone advocating for me. lol #even my close friends- the extremely few I have- are ‘neutral’ on it. which. im gonna be honest hurts me quite a bit. I have no one who #truly condemns him for the way he’s handled (lack thereof) all this and bolstered all my trust issues in the process and has made me #constantly critical of my own intentions because I can never trust that what I do or say is manipulative or ‘unhealthy’ anymore and I don’t #think I’m an all around good person on top of that because of my low empathy and all that and etc etc etc. it’s really fucked me up #but yeah anyway. yeah. they’re still on good terms with him more or less (though not as close as I am but that’s partly just due to me being #physically close rather than in another city). and it honestly hurts me that they could actively be centrists here #like I. just. really don’t trust anyone anymore. how the fuck could I #uh. anyway. im not sure if i want to take the board down all together or just take off almost all the photos on it #not sure what’s more depressing #cause they’re both pretty bad lol. almost all my major good memories from the past five years have included my ex so they’re basically all #tainted and unpleasant to look back on now. really just wasted five years of my life for this #another reason I’m constantly contemplating my own intentions these days is because I have a lot of thoughts and urges that I’d never do but #that are. related to purposefully hurting others or myself physically or emotionally or both. like. every part of me wants to deck my ex in #the face but obviously I’d never do that. but even just the compulsion feels like a justification of his narrative/view of me as a person #like haha maybe I am a shitty toxic abusive manipulative bastard. maybe I do just deserve to be alone where I can’t hurt or think about #hurting anyone. it’d definitely be better all-around if I didn’t fucking exist. burden lifted. but you know. #not sure how im like this but also egotistical and self centered but alas here we are. anyway I’ll delete this soon sorry